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\ne Dn IS DSs\ NneamcIfpsS apn t]mbn \np. hfscb[nIw ]mhI. ]eXpw Xm InnmhbmWv. evanBn ]Ip \npIbmWv. IqkenmsX Xs hoSn\pn Ibdn ]cntim[np sNdpmcn BcmsWv Ah hmkntbmSv BwKyn tNmZn pXv \ne ItImWneqsS Ip. hmkn ]dbpn. sNdnsbmcp kkvs]kv Ipdpt\cw \ne\nm XsbmWv AhfpsS Dtiyw. \ne Hmtcm NneamcnbpsSbpw apn Ipdpt\cw t\mn\npw. ]ns ASpXntev \Spw. Ah Hcp {]tXyI ]mhpnpthn XncbpIbmbn cpp. B apdnbnep Aeamcnbnsempw AXp In. Ah ASp apdnbntep \Sp. HmbnsehnsStbm Xn\n B ]gb kp]cnNnXXzw Ahsf HnsmSpp. B CXv \netamft? evanBn HmSnhv Ahsf sInnSnp. Fs tamtf. ]ns Xncnv hmkntbmSv ]cn`hkzcn ]dp. \ne hcppsv Ft FtmSv ]dbmXncpXv? Rm Adnnptht? ]{p aWnpv Hcm hmXn Nncnp sImp \npWp. F\npXs a\nembn. kzw ]cnNbsSptz sNbvXXv. Bs \ns tamsfhnsS? Hpw ]db Bn. hmkn ]dp. Ah sXmSpp XsbmWv. Fnpw Ch sImphn. \np Ah ISpsImv [ym\np.F\nhsf Iapn ImWppv. shfppsaen Hcp sImpkpcn. XeapSn t]mWnsSbv Bbn sInbncnbmWv. sRdnIfp DSpmWv CncnpXv. Imen shnbpsS ]mZkzcw. Ah henb \ndsampan. Bn. \ne ]dp. As s\dmWv Innbncn WXv. Rm Xmgp t]mIs Bn. hmkn ]dp. Iqms ]Wn Ipdp _mn bpv. ]ns ayw hdpWw. Cu an \smcp kZy Hgnhmn hncnymWv. hmkn t]mbn. \nebpw evanBnbpw am{Xambn. Ipdpt\ctv cpt]cpw Hpw kwkmcnmsX HmIfn apgpIn. Nppw ]mhIfmbncpp. Ipnbmbncnptm Ah Cu NneamcnIp apn aWnqdpItfmfw Ccnmdpv. Hmtcm ]mhbpsSbpw hniZmwi {inp ]TnpsImv. Hcp ]mhbpw asmcp ]mhsbtmsebmbncpn. thjhn[m\nepw apJ`mhfnepw sshcpy hpw hyXykvXXbpw ]penbncp B ]mhI Ahspw ApXambn cpp.]mhIv AhcptSXmb Hcp temIapspw Xm t\mmXncnptm Ah Xn Xn kwkmcnmdpspw Ah IcpXn. kymt\cv {]tXy Inpw \ngepw shfnhpw Xn thXncndnbm\mhm B kabv ]mhI DWsgptv At\ym\yw IepXp t]mse tXmpw. ]ns evanBn Inp sh \nehnfns \mfw AhbpsS apJw Zo]vXampIbpw apJ`mh kPoh ampIbpw sNptm Ah A\msX AhcpsS ApXtemIn CSs]Sm Xncnm\mbn i_vZapmmsX Ccnpw. ]mhIsf FSppXpw sXmSpXpt]mepw evanBnnjvSambncpn. ]pdp\nv F{XthWsan t\mnsmp, Hpw sXmScpXv. Fs afmWh. ]mhIfpsS Imcynep Imiyw absSpm\mbn Ah Ahpw hmknpw ]eXcw ]elmc DmnsmSpp. Hcn evan Bn Hcp ]mhpnbpsS apJw Nmbw tXp-sIm-n-cn-p-tm Ah tNmZnp. Bnv Cu ]mhpnIsfsbms hnpIqsS? Fn\m hnWXv tamsf? [mcmfw ]Ww Inns? ]Wwmm thn Bscnepw asf hntzm? Ah s]sv hmXmbn. evanBnbpw ]Wncnfpw ]etmgpw Hpw kwkmcnmsX Htc apdnbn CcnmdpXhv Hmhp. cpt]cpw AhchcpsS temImhpw. cpt]scbpw _nm Hcp In B honensv Ah a\nempw. Ah ZpJnpw. ]mhIsf hnpXns\n Ah ]noSv kwkmcnnn. Zpcapmb Av evanBn ASpfbn Ahpthn dhtkcn

bpmpIbmbncpp. hmkn Xmsg AhfpsS honembncpp. \ne ]mhIfpsS temIpw. t\mnsmncns Hcp ]mh AhfpsS Insp. ]pXpWn sImpmnb ISpw]ukpw \o]mhmSbpw BWv thjw. ]mhmSbvpw ukns In\pw Idp t_mU Dv. \nebvv Ghpw CjvSambXv AhfpsS IpIfmWv. IppaOhnbp IhnfpI, Idpp\o XeapSn. B ]mhsb Ah appw Inpv. ]t Astm AXns\mcp {]tXyI `wKnbpmbncpp. AXhfpsS {i ]nSnp ]pXn hnPbnncpp. Ah Aeamc Xpdp. evanBn ASpfbnemWv. Ahv B ]mhpn sb HpsXmSWw. Ah ssI \on. B sImpkpcnbpsS Ihnfn sXmp. \ an\pkapv. AtbmSv FSpm BhiysSp Hcp Ipnsbtmse B ]mhpn Ahsf {]tem`nnp. Ahfnse amXr`mhw DWp. hophnNmcanmsX Ah B ]mhpnsb hmcnsbSpv Dshp. Btcm tImWnIbdnhcp i_vZw tItm Ah sRn. thKw ]mhpnsb Xncnpshm t\mn. AtmgmWXpmbXv. AeamcnbpsS Nnnt Xn ]mhpn \nephoWp. B \nanjnemWv hmkn Xpdn hmXneneqsS apdnbntev hXv. Ah HmSnhpt\mn. ]mhpn \nephoWpInSpp. aemWv InSv. Hcp Im apdnv thdnv InSpp. `bwsImv A\m hmsX \ne Xcnp\np. Hcp \nanjwsImv hmkn kwKXnI apgph a\nemn. Ah NqmWnhnc Hcp {]tXyI coXnbn `ojWnsSpp hn[n Cfnsmv ]dp. \mbnpv. evanBn Im icnbmbn. Rm ]dpsImSppw. \ne IcneSm ]mSps]psImv Ahsf XSp. `bhpw Aan nSn tXepw ImcWw AhfpsS s\n\pn thZ\nppmbncpp. s]sv hmknbnse `ojWnmcnbpsS _pn AXnthKw {]hnm XpSn. Ah ]dp. \o Hcp Imcyw sNbvXm Rm ]dpsImSpn. \o sNtzm? Xm sNbvX IpIrXyw ]pdphcmXncnm Ah B \nanjn Fn\pw Xmdmbncpp. icn. Fm \msf \nfv Iqcntev Xncnpt]mhptm Fsbpw Imdn sImpt]mWw \ne Xfp. AhXp Xosc kXanm Imcyambncpp. HcmgvNapv Ah A\pw Abpsamw Xncph\]pcv h ApsXmv hmkn ]dbp XmWXv. \ne hmin]nSnmte hmknsb hy ]dbq. hmknsb Ah njvSamWv. Hw Ifnm\pw CjvSamWv. ]t Ah As ASpv sImm hcpXv am{Xw \nenjvSa. AbpsS ASpv Bbntms. As\ Ah Bcpambpw ]nSm t]mIpn, hmkntbmSpw IqSn. thKw ]dtm. hmkn `ojWn kzcn ]dp. Asn Rm en Bnsb hnfnpw. Fm \mhpw. \nebpsS IpIfn `oXn \ndp. Ah ]dp. icn sImpt]mImw. hmkn DSs\ ]mhpnsb FSpv AXns Im apdnXv Adnbm hn[n AeamcnbpsS Dn Hcp aqebn Nmcnshp. i_v Z apmmsX AeamcnbpsS hmXn ASXpw evan Bn apncbpw Ancnpw [mcmfw C dhtIkcn cptbvpIfnemn sImphXpw Hambncpp. Hcp \nanjw sshInbncpsn! B kw`hn\ptijw Ah Xncph\]pctv htXbn. \mep amkn\pn A\v Znnbntev amambn. t]mIpXn\papv Gs\ ImWm t]mIWsapmbncpp A\v. Ah hcnsp hmin]nSnImcWw A Hbvpt]mbn hp. ]ns Hmambncpp. Znn, t_mws_, AlZm_mZv. Ahsf kw_nnStmfw Hcp IpIrXyn \nv Ah HmSn csSpIbmbncpp. Ctm ChnsS ev a n BnbpsS \c XeapSnbpw, NpfnpXpSnb {]imamb apJhpw t\mnbncns IgnsXmw F{X \nmcambncpsv \nep tXmn. cpt]cpw AhchcpsSXmb hgnbneqsS Htc kabv Xncnsn. Hcp ZoLbm{X Ignt]mse evan Bn \nizknp.

Rm \n cpt]cpw ChnsShv IfnmdpsXms Hmzmbncpp. \ne Nncnp. Bn CXphscbpmnb ]mhpnsfms ChnsS Ct? Fmw Dv . Fs a Fmw Dv . Hcp tamfv ams{X Ipdp Imembnv ImWmXymbnpp. Cv Ahfow Inn. \nebpsS hbdv Imfn. s]sv Bn ]dbpXv Xm tISphcpnb ]mhpnsbnbmsWhp tXmn. AX Ah DtinsXv a\nem m Ah Ipdp kabsaSpp. Rm t]mbn Ipdp \mcmmshw FSps. evan Bn Fgptp. Rm BnbpsS asf Hs Hp ImWs. \nebvv B ]mhpnsb Ip]nSnWw. Bn CSbvnSbvv ]mhIsf Atmpantmpw ammdpXpsImv B tPmen A{X Ffpambncpn. Ah Hmtcmtcm Aeamcnbmbn t\mnpSn. t\mnsmncns Ahv AhbpsS {kjvSmhnse A\p{KloX IemImcnsb a\km A`n\nmXncnm\mbn. ]t B ]mhI AhtfmSv kwkmcnn. apv Ipnbmbncptm B ]mhI Hmtcmpw AXntXmb hgnbn AhtfmSv Bibhn\nabw \Snbncpp. Ctm {]mbn hamamhmw Asn Dshbn apdnsb Zo]vXampXpsImv ]mhIv AhbpsS apJs `mhw \jvSsXpsImmhmw, Ah DuaIsftmse henb IpIfpwsImv Ahsf t\mpIam{Xw sNbvXp. s]sv AhfpsS lrZbw inbmbn anSnp. hmkn `ojWnsSpnb tmgpmb s\pthZ\ Ahv A\p`hsp. B kpcnmh \nXybu\hp ambn Hcp AeamcnbpsS \Sphns \npp. cp Imens. Ah AeamcnbpsS hmXnXpdv B ]mhsb InseSpp. Xs PohnXw apgph Ipt_m[wsImv \nd kpcn. hndbvp ssIItfmsS Ah B ]mhbpsS \o ]p]mhmS s]mn t\mn. het Im apdntSv `wKnbmbn Hnncnpp. Ht\mn AXv s]mnbXmsWdnbn. Ah ZoLambn \nizknp. B \nanjnemWv hmkn hmXn ISphXv. Ah s]sp \np. B ]gb `oj-Wn-m-cn-bpsS apJv Hm-bpsS kv^penwKw ann-ad - b - p-Xv Ah Ip. ]mh-bpsS Dbnb ]mhmS Xmgvm IqSn hmsX \ne \np. AIp \nv evan Bn Hcp mkn \mcshhpambn hp. Ah \nebpsS Inse ]mhpnsb t\mn. Hcp ]gb Zpcns Hm AhcpsS apJv \ng hointbm? ev a nBnbpsS apJv \ne hmbv a tbmsS t\mn. hmsmcp kwL\w. Ccp]XpsImw inbn\ntmSn cs Iphmfn IogSn bncnpp. \nbaw AXns hgnv \Ss. in kzoIcnm Xmdmbn \ne \np. mkv Sot]mbvtashv evan Bn \nebpsS ASpp hp. ]Xps Ahsf AcsneqsS hcnv Ihnfn Npw_np. Xm IcbpIbmbncpsv, ActmsS BizmktmsS Ah a\nemn.
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\mn]pdsfmw Hcp t]msebmWv. Abm Xs \mns\ntbmp. \ndsb acfp ]dv . sshIptcfn shbn s]sv A{]XyamhpIbpw acnSbn Ccpv ]cpIbpw sNpw. Imv \npIbpw CeI \neamhpIbpw sNpw. {]IrXn hoSn \np t]mse. s]spmhp \n_vZX XIm InfnIfpsS i_vZtam, AIse FhnsStbm D Imhn\nv HgpInsbp sNbpsS i_vZtam am{Xw. IymWw Ignv ]ntv hXt \o. ]ns Ctmv Ibdnbnnsm. Ambnv \ ]cn`hv. Ftmgpw \nsS Imcyw ]dbpw. Ipymbnv tItm ktmjmbn, {]tXyInpw s]Ipymdntm. ZnhmIc BtemNnp. Ign{]mhiyw \mn htm A Iam\w \n_nXmWv. Xm\pw Ipsdtbsd hmZnpt\mn. ]t A ]dXv Cns\bmWv. AhnjvSymm \nnt. CsXms AhfpsS Hmtcm [mcW IfmWv. AsXms sXmv Ahv Xs a\nemhpw. \mcmbWosS kz`mhw Ahdnbnsy? Ahfv FmhtcmSpw An\ym s]cpamdzm. Hw hfph F\ndnbnsy. Rm ASpfbntebvp t]mIs. hy FgptpsImv ]dp. \n ChnsS Ccnbvq. ]ns cmPntbmSmbn Ah ]dp. \o t]mbn kmcn amntm. tcmlnWosS kmcnmhpw AhfpsS apdoev. Rm Csm tImWn tIdmdn. tamfntev t]mbnv Ipsd Znhkmbn. apdnsbms Fn\ymWv sIS-WXvv Adnbn. IaetmSv BgvtNev cp{]mhiyw s\ew sXmSWw sms ]dbmdvv. sNvWtm Bthm? hy t]mbtm Ah cpt]cpw am{Xambn. Ddv Xnta Nmcnbncpp sImh At\ym\yw t\mn. {ItaW Nppap Ccpv IqSn hp. ]dn\pw Apdv hbepIfn shfnapmIpsabm Hmp. \mpshfnn hbepInS bnse hcpIfnIqSn \Sm Abm B{Klnp. \apv tamfn t]mImw. cmPn ]dp. Abm Fgptp. \Spapp\np h t\cnb shfnw ImcWw ssenSmsX tImWnIbdm ]n. tImWnbn \cnodns aWapmbncpp. apIfnepw. cmPn AhfpsS apdnbntev ISp. apIfn \new IqSpX an\pkapXmWv. Ah P\en\Spp t]mbn ]pdtp t\mn \npIbmWv. ZnhmIc tNmZnp. \ns Ipnmes \nt]w t\ms? Ah Xncnpt\mn. Abm Npaceamcnbntebvv Npnmn. Ah NncnbvpIam{Xw sNbvXp. AXp ]pdsSpphm ]t Ah Xmev]cyw ImWnn. Ipdp t\cs au\n\ptijw cmPn ]dp. \apXv C{]mhiyw sImpt]mbn Aeamcnbn kqnpshmw. \psS tamfv hepXmbn \mentem Antem ]Tnp Imev AXv ImWn-p-sIm-Sp--Ww. A An ]Tn-W Imev FSppshXmsWp ]dbptm Ahv ApXmhpw. Abpw AhfpsS amXncn Hcp Ipnbmbncpsdnbp tm Ahv Fs IqSpX CjvSmhpw. cmPnbpsS i_vZw CSdnb amXncn tXmn. ZnhmIc t\mnbtm Ah IcbpIbmbncpp. Abm Ahsf tNp]nSnp, Ihnfn Npw_np. \osbmcp s]mn{]amWamWv. Xmsg htm hy\pw hybpw IqSn tamv IpdpnbXv sImSpp Xns _lfambncpp. hy tamsf Imen InSn IpdpnbXv sImSppIbmWv. hy ASppXs Hcp mkn shhpw kv]qWpambn Ccnppv. cp kv]q IpdpnbXp Ignm Hcp kv]q shw FXmWv IWv. cm{Xn DuWpIgnv Ah apIfn Ddm InSp. tam hybpsS IqsS XmsgbmWv InSXv. cm{Xn Ah Hcnte DWcmdpq. Atm Ipdv ]mepIqn IpSnbvm sImSpm aXn. hopw Ddnsmpw. ZnhmIc\v Ddw hn. cmPnbpw DdpIbmbncpn. \nemhpZnncpp. ]pdv ac- fpsS cq]tcJ sXfnp hp. Zqsc Ipdpm HmcnbnSp i_v Z hpw \mbvfpsS Ipcbpw. AsXmpw ]t ieyambncpn.

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kpm jmlp A djoZns ]pXnb sImmcns an\mc \nemhn Xnfn. an\mc tancpXv sNnsbpw kznsbpw XInSpsImmbncpp. ]IpXnbne[nIw sNpXInSmWv. apgph sNpXInSp sImv tabWsambncpp kpms B{Klw. ]t ]IpXn tatmtgv cmPyp sNp apgph Xopt]mbn. ]ns {]PIfpsS hoSpIfnep sNp apgph `Wv U mcntev kaWw sNm\p Iev ] \bpmbn. ]Icw Fmhpw kzw sImSpp. kzwsImv ]m{Xfpmptmgp hnjaw ]cnlcnm Aev]kzev]w sNv tNmsav kpms Iev]\ bpmbn. AXn\mbn IpsInb sNn\nv Aev]kzev]w XncnpsImSpm\pw Dchmbn. IpsInb sNpsImpw an\mc apgph tabm am{Xw XnIn. AXn\m Ipdp `mKw kzwsImp Xs tatbnhp. \nemhp cmhpIfn bm{XIgnv HIpdv Xncnphcptm kpm t\mpw, sNn\p]Icw sh kzw a\nemIpptm, Xs kzw ]pdmhptam Fv. Cu hnNmcw kpms ]e cm{XnIfnse \n{Z A]lcnp. an\mcfnsemns Xmsg cmw\nebnembncpp cmPIpamcnbpsS ]nbd. Xs kkzamb cmPIpamcnbpsS kpJkuIcysfn BtemNnptm ]nXmhmb kpm jmlp A djoZn\v hfsc hnjaw tXmmdpv. sImmcw ]WnbnXv Ames Ghpw t]cptI inev]nbmb aplZv _n Bew Bbncpp. Fnpw cmPIpamcnbpsS kuIcy apgph {inphm\mbn. sImmcw aqp\ne sInSambncpp. Ghpw apIfn an\mcp sXmp Xmsgbmbncpp kpms Xmakw. \qsmv kucyXnSpI Aecnp kpms A]pcw sXp ]Snmdp an\mcns Xmsgbmbncpp. AXn\p Xmsgbp \nebnembncpp cmPIpamcn \kvdo\ns Xmakw. AXn\pw Xmsg ASp _pfpw Acn cmnbpsS hn[hbmb A\pPnbpw apw. cmPIpamcnbpsS Fm kuIcyfpw ap\nnsbmWv sImmcw \nnm \ptinXv. ]nbd, kv\m\Krlw, thj`qjmZnImbn Hcp apdn, Ifnm\pw IfnI ImWm\pw Hcp lm XpSnbh. Cu apdnIsfmw Xs Hmtcm ssaXm\w t]mse hnimeambncpp. apdnIfnsemw NpacpsXmv Npacphsc Ghpw hne]nSn t]jy ]chXm\nI hncnncpp. Cu \mepapdnIfpw sImmcns \mep aqebnembncpp. Hcp apdnbn \nv as apdnbntev t]mIm hfsc hnimeamb CS\mgnI ]WnXoncpp. CS\mgnIfn Iivaocn\np sImph hntijs ]chXm\nIfmbncpp hncnncpXv. kv\m\Krln henb \o s]mbvIbn acpIfnse InWdpIfn \nv tImcnsbSpv HIpdtn sImphp \nd ImSnt]mes ioXfPew kpK{Zhy Ien \ndncpp. ]eXcw te]\hkvXp Dbcw Ipd am_v taita hnNn{XmIrXnbnep kv^SnI`cWnIfn \ndpshncpp. kv\m\Krlns NpacpI Inbp s_mtlanb ImSn sImm bncpp. CuPn]vXn\np h ]Xns\mv kpcnIfmb ASnasIpnIfmWv cmPIpamcnsb \ocmSnncpXv. Fm Xnfpw shnbpw ]ns ]pXpN{s\ IXns ]ntpw cmPIpamcnv \ocmpmbncpp. ]pXpN{s\ IXv RmbdmgvNtbm hymgmgvNtbm BsWn ]ns Znhks ]Xnhp kv\m\w hntijambns \Ssp. \ocmp Ignv kpKte]\fm A`njnbmb cmPIpamcn hkv{X [mcWn\mbn Hcpnb apdnbntev \Spt]mIpp. ChnsSbmWv Ipgw. ImcWw kv\m\Krln\pw t\]YyKrln\panSbn hfsc \o hnimeamb CS\mgnIbmWv. ]bpsS ]men Nphpw abpw ]qfp ]chXm\n hncn CS\mgnI. CXneqsS ISpthWw cmPIpamcnbvv hkv{Xfp apdnbntebvsm. kv\m\Krln hkv{X shbvm GmSnmXn\mepw kv\m\n\p app hkv{X, cmPIpamcn Ipfn NmSptm Agnp shbvptXmsS AhnsS \nv Imncn ASnasp FSpp ampw F ImcWmepw cmPIpamcnv km\m\ Krln \nv t\]YyKrl ntev Nphpw abpw ]qfp ]chXm\nI hncn hnimeamb CS\mgn bneqsS \bmbn \Stnhp. Cu CS\mgnbmIs iXw apJaWvU]fpsSbpw

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IpSneamfpsSbpw kzImcy AdIfpsSbpw hmXnepIfm _nsXmWp Xm\pw. ChnsSbmWv {]iv\w DZnXv. cmPIpamcn kv\m\Krln\nv hkv{XfpsS kpcnXntev aphcpsS Hfnpt\m GmsX Fns\ Fn sSpw. {]iv\w kpm jmlp A djoZns (IcpWmab\mb ssZhw Atl tmsSmapmhs) Xncpk`bn B\bnsp. kpms Xncpk`bn ]e hn`mKns {]apJ Bk\cmWv . Ahcn IhnI, IemImcm, hyhkmbnI, b{Wnm, s\bvp]Wnm, AepIm, `njKzc XpSn kapZmbns Fm XpdIfn\npw {]mhoWyw t\Snbh knlnXcmWv. B Xncpk`bpsS kn[m\nemWv cmPIpamcnbpsS apJy ASnabmb kpcn \mep tXmgnItfmsSmw lmPcmbXv. IpnpsImv Ah apnepw \mep tXmgnam ]nnepambn Ah kpms apnsen hWn. ]noSv apJy ASnabmb kpcn kpm\v am{Xw ImWhn[n ]ZbpsS apJ]Sw Aev]w amn Ip\np sImp Xs ]dp. AbpsS Hma\bmb {]nb]p{Xn \kvdo cmPIpamcn Atbvp \Im Npw_\ Abpp. CsXmcp `wKnhmmbncpp. cmPIpamcn Cs\sbmcp ktiw sImSp bpIbpmbnn. am{Xa C\n ]dbm t]mIp Imcysn, AXmbXv kv\m\ Krln\np bm{Xsbn Ahsmpw DWvTbpapmbncppan. kv \ m\Krln\nv cmPIpamcnv CS\mgnbneqsS \bmbn bm{X sNtnhtpsa {]iv\w Dbntm kZn\nv ]e hn[nep AcyhN\fpw Iw Isa {]tbmKfpw apgn. Hcmam{Xw Xs apJw ssIsImp aqSn XeXmgvn Ccpp. AXv cmPinev]nbmbncpp. Rm Fsnepw hgnbpmmw. kpm ]dp. ASp kv\m\n\v C\n F{X Znhk Dv? cp Xncp Znhk. icn \n s]mbvtmfp. apJy ASnakpcn apJ]Sw ammsX Ip\npsImv ]ntmw \Sp. A{]Xybmbn. Hw tXmgnamcpw. XeIp\np \np cmPinev]ntbmSv Xs sshIptcw hv ImWWsav kpm Bm]np. (kqcy\kvXanpXn\p apv bmsXmcp BNmc{Iahp anmsXs AbmfpsS XeshpIbpw sNbvXp.) ]ns kZnt\mSmbn A`n{]mb Bcmp. AXntemeamb Hcp ImcyamWnsXpw AXns adp]Sn kqnp thW sapw Adnbmhp kmamPnI au\w ]menp. Ahkm\w s\bvp {]amWn Fgptp \np. ASnb hfsc t\cnb, Fm kpXmcyam Hcp ]Z \nnmw. AXpSpv cmPIpamcnv CS\mgnbneqsS hkv { Xfp apdnhsc \Smasm. ASbn\v Ccp]n\mepaWnqtd Ans\ Hcp hkv{Xapmm kabamhiyapp. thWsan _mKvZmZn \nv {]tXyIw s\bvpImsc sImphv cmgvNpn CXnepw hninamb Hcp hkv{Xw ]noSpmpIbpw sNmw. AsXmcp \ ImcyamsWp tXmn. kpm Ans\bmhs Fv InpIbpw sNbvXp. {]iv\w `wKnbmbn ]cnlcnsp Fdnv kmamPnI BizknpIbpw s\bvp{]amWnbpsS _pnsb {]iwknpIbpw sNbvXp. {]iv\w ]s AhnSw sImhkm\nn. cmPIpamcn ]pXnb hkv{Xw CSm kXnn. \ocmp Ignv kpKte]\fm A`njnbmb cmPIpamcnsb ]pXnb Xncphkv{Xw [cnnm tXmgnI {ianp. Ipfnp Ignm cmPIob hkv{X DSppXn\papp XmmenI hkv{Xw Ahnsn. Ah AsXSpv s]mbvIbnse shntebvv hensdnv hmXn ISv CS\mgnbneqsS \Sm XpSn. CXv kzm`mhnIambpw tXmgnInSbn kw{`mn ]cn. Ah \cmbn s Atmpw Ctmpw HmSn, cmPIpamcnp Nppw Hcp hebw krnp. Hcp hn[w cmPIpamcnsb t\]YyKrlnsenp. Cu _lfw tIv t\mnbh Hcp t\mpt\mn Ips]mn. ImcWw Xe DSen Xs thWsahv \nambncpp.

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kpm sshIptcw Xs s]mtma\sb KpWtZmjnp. \o Ctm sNdnb Ipnsbmpa. ]Xn\mdp hbn Hcp s]Ipnv Cns\sbmpw \Sm ]mSn. {]XnIcWw Hcp s]mncnembncpp. AXns Ayn kpm ]dp. icn, icn. Rm thsd Fsnepw hgnbpmmw. hopw kpm jmlp A djoZns Xncpk` hnfnbvsp. {]iv\w AXns Fm KuchtmSpwIqSn AhXcnnsp. Hcp I\ \nX k`sb hebw sNbvXp. AkzP\Iamb B \nX Ahkm\nnXv s\bvp{]amWn Xsbmbncpp. ASnbs ]ga\n Hcp D]mbw tXmpp. DWnpsImp. kpm tIm XmdmWv. kpms hewImb knnv Xs DuimwXmSn DgnpsImv A\paXn sImSpp. ASnb Inbp IdppXpWnsImv IpaqSnsm Hcp XnckvIcWn \nnmw. AXv sImmcnse AthmknIfpw, sImmcw kiIcpw \nambn Hw sImp\SWw. cmPIpamcn kv\m\Krln\nv ]pdp ISpXn\p apv Hcp aWn apWw. AXns L\iw tIm Fmhcpw Cu Xnckv I cWn [cnbv Ww, hopw Hcp aWnsbm tIpXphsc. Cu XnckvIcWnbn IpIfpsS m\v Ccioe shp ]nSnnpXn\m Hpw ImWm ]pIbn. Fs Ccp]p Xm cpZnhkw tPmen sNbvXm sImmcnse Aqdn ]cw hcp AthmknIpw Ccpqdn ]cw hcp kiIpw Bhiyn\p XnckvIcWn Dmm ]pw. kmamPnIcpsS ASnb kzcnep A`n{]mb{]IS\fn\npw kpms apJpmb `mht`Zn\npw Cu \ntiw ]cs AwKoIcn sSm kmyXbpsdnp. s]smWv hr\mb a{n Bew ^odpo Xs Nph Nmbw tX \o XmSn DgnpsImp ]dXv. Imcysams icnXs. kpms B Fmhcpw ]menpI Xs sNpw. ]t Cu I\ ioebvp ]ndInse IpI XpdpXsbncnp Xn\m Aev]w Ip_pnI XnckvIcWnbn t\mnbm a\nemhm hn[n Hcp kqNnsImv Zzmcw Dmnbm \ntj[ns ImgvN inm`banmsXs ImWm ]pw. BwMv ........... Hsmbn kmamPnI ]dp. icnbmWXv. CXnt\m \ hgn ASnbs Ffnb a\n Ctm Cu \nanjn DZnnpv. DWnpsImp. knnv XmSn DgnpsImp ]dp. kpm tI m XmdmWv. Xs a\n cq]w sIm kwhn[m\w Bew ^odpo Xncpapn DW np. AXns GItZi cq]w CXmIpp. cmPIpamcn kv\m\Krln\nv ]pdndpXn\p sXmpapv Hcp Imncn ASnasv Hcp tNeapnsmv CS\mgnbnqSn t\]YyKrlw hsc \SpI Atm CS\mgnbneph AhnsS \nv HgnpamdWw. cmPIpamcn ]pdndp tm ]Xns\mv CuPn]vv ASnakpcnI Hw \SWw. apn \Sp ASna kpcn Hcp tNeapnsmncnWw. Ahp ]nn Av ASnakpcnIfpw. Cu cp hcnIpanSbn cmPIpamcn \SWw. BZys tNe iw tInpw ew hnSm Ahkcw InmXncphtcm. Asn BIkvanIambn CS\mgnbn B kabv Fshtcm tNe iw tIm ISv \nev Iangvp InSWw, hopw Hcp Imncn ASnasv Cc te iw tInpw hsc. Cu kwhn[m\w s]spXs AwKoIcnsp. sImmcw aqimcnv eXm ZnIfn BteJ\w sNbvX aqv shtmSv tNebpmm Icm \Isp. shtmSn tNm sNv Inm\nmXpsImv kpm Xs ]gb \mWbfpsS AaqeytiJcn\nv aqp sNp\mWb FSpp sImSpp. B sNp\mWb kqaambpw shtmSv Dmm D]tbmKnpnt Fv t\mm ]mdmhpImct\bpw GsSpn. aXnbmhm `mKw kzw tem`sat\y

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Iqntp. AXpsImv tNebpsS iw hfsc kvss{XWambn. Hmtcm {]mhiyw tNebpsS ]Xn kvss{XWiw tIp tmgpw kpm Xs cmPys sNpZmcn{Zys Hmv s\SphonSpw. s]cpdbpw sImn ]mfm sXcphoYnIfn kpms ktihpambn Idn. tNebpsS iw tIm ISv Iangvv InSWsapw, Ans\ InSnsn ]nosSmcn InSm Ahkcw Inm hn[n Xe tZlp \nv sXdnpsapw AknKvambn hnfw_cw sNsp. shnbmgvN cmPIpamcnbpsS \ocmp Znhkambncpp. Zqscbp acpIfnse Bgap InWdpIfn\nv XWp Pew HIpdv sImphv \o s]mbvI \ndp. B kv^SnIPen kpK{Zhy hnNn{Xamb IpnIfn \nv Hgnv an{iWw sNsp. BtLmjpw BmZnapIpw CSbn \ocmp Ignp. cmPIpamcnbpsS ]qt]msebp tZlv kpK{Zhy te]\w sN sp. kv\m\Krlw hnSm kabambtm Hcp Imncn ASnasv Hmw tNe apnsmv CS\mgnbnse ]chXm\nbneqsS \Sp. sImmcw AthmknIpw kiIpw AsXmcp apdnbnmbn. Ah CS\mgn Hgnhmn AhchcpsS apdnIfntem, sImmcn\p ]pdpXstbm Imp \np. cmas tNe apnsmv CuPn]vv ASnakpcn \bmbn apnepw ]nn \Ifmb Av ASnakpcnIfpsS cp \ncbpsS \Sphnembn cmPIpamcnbpw \bmbn \Sp. CS\mgn hnSm kabw Innbnnmh ISv Iangvp InSp. tLmjbm{X CS\mgnbnse Nphpw abpw ]qfp ]chXm\nbneqsS ]ptcmK anp. AtmgmWv B AXymlnXapmbXv. sImmcn hncppImc\mb sNdpmc\mb t]jy Ihn A_vZp _n kZv Xmaknp apdnbpsS hmXn XpdpInSncpp. B hmXneneqsS Ihn CS\mgnbntep hXpw \kpcnIfpsS tLmjbm{X AhnsS FnbXpw Hnmbncpp. ImgvN izmkw ]nSnp \npXmbncpp. Hcp \nanjw tLmjbm{X IhnbpsS [myn\p apn A\msX \np. cmPIpamcnbmhs Hpw kw`hnman Ihnsb t\mn ]pncnpIbpw bm{X XpScpIbpw sNbvXp. IhnbpsS {]XnIcWw \nanjIhnXbmbn ]pdtbvsmgpIn. "Rm FmWv ImWpXv Bbncw BqnSbn Hcp Xmactbm Am bm{Xbn Hcp Xncnhn I Imp]qtfm Fs apn AtXm ]dpZokbn \nv `qanbntendnh lqdnItfm' ]ns cmPIpamcnsb t\mn Abm XpSp. "Rm C{Xbpw Imew Fns\ tXSntbm AXns kmmXvImcamWp \o \ns at\mamb angnbnWI Fs tXmev]nSnabmpp \ns amdnse apIpf Fs hncnbm shp kmbqPyamWv \ns AgIm \nXw_w BcpsS XgpIen\mbn Imp\npp?' cmP`Sm Ihnsb _np sImpt]mIptmgpw Ihn ]mSpIbmbncpp. kJnamcm hkv{X`qjmZnI AWnbnsncp cmPIpamcn IhnbpsS IhnXI tIp tImabn sImp. Ah tNmZnp. BcmWbm? Hcp IhnbmWbm. Hcp ASnakpcn ]dp. ASppXs Atlw Hcp Ihnbmbncpp Fp ]dtbn hcpw. thsdmcp ASnakpcn ]dp. AsXmWv ImcWw? cmPIpamcn Xs kzXnamb kmcfytmsS tNmZnp. ImcWw AbmfpsS Xet]mIpw. AXpXs. ]mhw. cmPIpamcn ]dp. Ahp hyk\ambn. ]t \njvIfbmb cmPIpamcnv hyk\hpw ktmjw t]mses W`wKpcamWv . Ah hopw Xs ASnakpcnIfmb tXmgnamcpsS {iIfn apgpIn.

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shnbmgvN kpm Hcp hn[ inm\S]SnIfpw FSpmdn. AXp sImv ]ntv cmhnsehsc Ihnsb Ipdpn ASp. cm{Xn \nkvImcw Ignv ]npdpn\v Fgpnb kpm\v Ddapm bn. Btcm at\mlcfmb IhnXI Dds sNmpp. Xs {]mWt{]bknbpsS hntbmKn\ptijw kpm sImmcn IhnXhmb\ \ntcm[nncpp. BcmWv Ctm cm{XnbpsS imX XIm ]mSpXv. ]mdmhpImc hnfnsp. BcmWv cm{Xn Ddt kabv Dds ]mSpXv? ASnb, AXv Cv XShdbnemnb IhnbmWv. cmPIpamcnbpsS \ocmp tLmj bm{XbpsS kabv ISp Iangvp InSmsX t\mn\npI hgn cmPIev]\ ewLn Iivae\mWv AXv. Cv shnbmgvN Xncpa\psImv Bscbpw inn pItbm, \oXn]me\n CSs]SpItbm sNmXpImcWw Abmsf XShdbn kqnncnpIbmWv. \msf cmhnse kqcy DZnp Ignm Hcp aplqn Abmsf hnNmcWmbn AhnSps kan sImphcpw. icn. ]mdmhpImc t]mbtm kpm hnimeamb hmXmb\w ISv an\mc n\p Xmsgbp apmhntep \Sp. kpms\ ]\n\o Xfn hnidnsImv hoinbncp cv ASnakpcnI Atls ]nXpSp. \nemhn sImmcn\p apnep ]qtmw Xnfnbncpp. Ghpw Xmsg Xpdpns hmXmb\w am{Xta `qanbpsS \ncn\p apIfnepq. AXneqsSbmWv IhnbpsS ]mns AeI ]pdtspXv. kpm\v Cns\ Hcp kwhn[m\apmnbXn cmP inev]ntbmSv \ockw tXmn. aIfpsS ib\mKmcw Xs ]nbdbpsS XmsgbmsWpw Cu t{]aIhnXI \njvIfbmb Ahfpw tIppmIpsapw At-lt - amp. AXtls sNmSnnp. cmPinev]nv Hcp XeIqSnbpsn hopw shnfbm ambncpp. Asn Cu hI A]IS Bcpw apIqn KWnpmmdntm. Ihn ]mSnsmncpp. s]smWv kpm\v clkyw ]nSnInnbXv. Abm ]mSpXv Xs Hma\aIsfnbmWv. AhfpsS kucysnbmWv. Hcp IhnbpsS `mh\ CfnhnSm am{Xw hepXmbn, kpcnbmbn Xs aI F Nn Atln\v Htc kabw ktmjhpw km]hpw Dfhmn. ]ntv Iphmfn kpm\p apn lmPcmsp. cmPIpamcn \ocmpIgnv t\]YyKrlntep t]mIptm \o t\mn bncpp. Fp ]dbpXp kXyamtWm? AsX. tNebpsS iw tIm ISv Iangvp InSWsa cmPimk\ \o tInt? tNesbn Ftm Adnbnv Rm tIp, {inn. Rm IhnX FgpXp Xncnembncpp. B Adnbnv {inncpsn \o Cu IpIrXyw sNpambncppthm? Ihn BtemNnp. ]ns kmh[m\n ]dp. CsXmcp IpIrXyamsWv Rm IcpXpn. A\mmZnX kucyw \nv Hcp IhnbpsS In \np adbvm IgnbpIbn. Ah DpsImsnepw AXpw ImWpw. \o sNbvX Imcyn \n\v ]mm]aptm? C. adnv ISncpsn Rm F\nbv v Hcnepw amp sImSpn mbncpp. AXpw ]dv Ihn hopw Hcp Cfw icocsn IhnX ]mSm XpSn. Chs Xe sImq. kpm Dchnp. ]mfm Ihnsb _np sImpt]mIm Hcpn. \nq. kpm ]dp. Ihn Atm`y\mbn Xncnp\np. AbmfpsS apJw kpcambncpp. hf XmSnbpw XeapSnbpw HXpanmsX InSncpp. acnpXn\papv \n\v Fsnepw B{Klapsn ]dbq. \nhrnpXcpsav Ddp Xm ]dbmw. kpm jmlp AdjoZv kzw hmpI ]mgmmdn. Fn, Ihn ]dp. F\nbvv acnpXn\p apv HcnqSn cmPIp amcnsb \bmbn ImWWw.

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kpm sRn. ]mfm sRn. k`mhmknI sRn. Cbmsf Rm ]dbpXphsc Ipdn CSbvq. kpm Aedn. ]ns AbmfpsS hmXmb\ Ipshp aqSpIbpw sNq. iw ]pdp IScpXv. kpm BsI Dencpp. HpIn Xm hmpIv hne I]np nsv kXntnhcpw Asn? kpm a{n Aew ^odpot\bpw CtXmg\mb knnnt\bpw hnfnnp. FmsWmcp amw? aqp XetmdpI aWnqdpIfpw Znhkfpw ITn\ambn {]hnp. FhnsSbpw Fnbn. IhnbpsS incv Igpns \npI am{Xa AhnsS \nv IhnX A\fw {]hlnpIbpw sNbvXp. hmXmb\w aqSnb Ipacns kqvakpjncfneqsS B iw ]pdtsmgpIpIXs sNbvXp. cm{Xn sshIpwhsc apmhnencpv \kvdo cmPIpamcn B IhnXI {inp. "Fs PohnXamIp Imchm XIp Fs HI NsmSpn \inmh HmSntmbn Rm am{Xw Cu aWemcWyn GI\mbn \ntmSp t{]aw am{Xw apdpsInSnv \nsmWphm\mbv \]mZ\mbv........' kpm Zn\w{]Xn oWnp hp. Atln\v DuWpw Ddhp anmXmbn. \kvdo ]nXmhns B[nsbn At\zjnXn\v Xr]vXnIcamb adp]Snbpmbn. CtXmgnbmb dkntbmSt\zjntmgmWv Imcyw a\nembXv. C{Xtb Dq? Ah kpms ]nbdbntep t]mbn. AhnsS kpm at\mlc amb ]chXm\np \Sphn hncnn sata Nppap Dcpf XebnWIp \Sphn oWnp InSmbncpp. sXmSpp sImp]WnIfp Ipdnb taita sh shnn \nd apncnmdn CuI hoWncpp. Ah ssI sImnbtm Hcp ]mdmhpImc {]Xysv XmWp hWn \np. apncnmdp Iv Nqnmn Ah ]dp. CXp amn \ apncnmdpw `Whpw sImphcm ]dbq. icn. ]mdmhpImc Xe Ip\npsImv ]nhmn. \nanjIw \mep kpcnI Xmen apncnmdpw `Whpambn Fn. kpm Hcp ]cnX]vX \nanjn Fm kpcnItfbpw Xs Adbn \nv ]pdmnbXmbncpp. km[\ am_v taita \ncnbtijw AhtcmSv s]mbvsmm \kvdo Bhiysp. AhXs apncnmdv shnnemn ]nXmhn\v sImSpp. Atlw AXp hmn IpSnp. kmhImin Atlssmv Ipdv `Ww Ignnm\pw Ahp ]n. s]sv IhnbpsS IhnXmiIe hfsc Zqscsbhw tIm XpSn. "Ah ]dbpp Fs acWaSpsv ]t AXnsencnpp Fs t{]aw A\izcamWv Fs Bmhv GsXnepw acpbpsS ioXfOmbbn \ns Bmhnt\bpw Imv Ibmav \mhscbncnpw EXpfpw hjfpw sImgnphogp Imens cmPhoYnbn Cu Zqcw F{X sNdpXmWv.' \kvdo ]nXmhns\ t\mn alknp. Atlw NnmIpe\mbn. ]nXmhv Rm ]dm tIptam? Fs s]mtma\ ]dXmsX Rm FmWv tIpI?

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B\ Fns\tbm t]Snppv. AXv IymWnpnv a\nembXv Ign cp aWnqdmbn Ah Xs ]nn \nsmgnbmsX \StmgmWv. ASpfbn \nv Xfntepw, Xfn\nv Ddtv, Ddp\nv hopw Xfntev FhnsS t]mhptmgpw B\ Xs ]nnepv. Fm tams\ \n\v thXv? IymWnpn tNmZnp. Du Dw. Ahs adp]Sn Hcp aqf am{Xw. \osbs Imens FtS InSv IfnmsX amdn\nv. Rm XSphogpw. kmmdns ]m{Xw ASpp \nndnshpsImv Ah ]dp. Cst \o Ifnms\mpw t]mbnt? Du Dw. ASp hon hoUntbmbn kn\na Iph tijw Ah\v Nmbbpw ]e lmchpw sImSpXmWv. km[mcW Ah Nmb IpSnpIgnv Ifnm t]mIpw. BdpaWntbmsS Xncnphm Ipfnpw. Ipdp t\cw ]Tnsp hcppw. Cv AsXmpapmbn. \osbm Cv Fs aqnev IpSocnWXv? Hpw sNm\nsnev Ipfnv hXpw ]Tnm t\mnqtS? Ipfnp Imcyw ]dtm Ah AtbmSv IqSpX tNp \np. Fm s\\v thXv? IymWnpn Aabmbn tNmZnp. F\nv..... F\nv, Ah hnnsmv ]dp. F\nv t]Snbmhpp. s]hcpsS kzcw B{Zambn. Fn\m tams\ \o t]SnsW? Rm\nv cmPntnShnsS Hcp kn\na Ip. AXnev t]SnnW km[s\msv. kn\na Insms Bscnepw t]SnncntIym? IymWnpnv kam[m\ambn. Hcp kn\na Inp t]Snbt. kmcan. AZriycmbn \app Nppw Ftmgpw kcnp Acq]nI ]etmgpw cq]w [cnv \s t]SnsSpmdpv. {]tXyInv IpnIsf. Ans\bp t]Sn `bstSXmWv. AXv IqSpX B]pI hcpnshpXv IymWnpn InpXmWv. Fn\m Cu IpnIfv Cs\ t]SnnW Nns{Xms FSpp sImp hcWXv? Ah Abhonse IpnIsf a\n No]dp. HpIn IpnIfpw afpambn ImWm ]m hrnsI Nn{X, Asn t]Snnp Nn{X. CXmsX Hpwy. A Hm^okn\np htmgpw A\s t]Sn amdnbncpn. As\ Itm Ah\v Bizmkambn Fpam{Xw. Imcyw tItm tIih Dds Nncnp C{Xsp. CXns\ms t]Snmtem! Bs kn\ntaev Fp Inm \o t]SnXv? Ahs apJv `bw \ndp. Ah Nppw t\mn At\mSv tNncpp. kn\ntaev t]SomW ]eXpwv. ss]v Xpdptm Smn \nv sh n\p ]Icw tNmc hczm. Smn \ntm, tNmctbm? AsX. ]ns Bmv Hcp kqsSv hczmWv. Ins shcsemssy; AsXms sagpIpXncn amXncn DcpIzm. DcpIp DcpIn hncenmXmhpw. ]ns ssI. AXpt]mse aqv, sNhn CsXms DcpIn IpdpIgnm B DcpIn CymXmhpw. icnpw As\ Hcp kqtSps{X...... cmPntn ]dXm. Abm Hpw ]dn. Abm BtemNnpIbmbncpp. Xm sImph {_o^vtIknse ]Ww IymWnpn `{Zambn shnpmhnt? h DSs\ {_o^v tIkv sImSpptm IpsImv BwKyw ImWnXmWv. AXn\Ipsv. s]bm hnbm XpSn. Ftmgpw Ans\bmWv. Hm^okn \nv I hu Hnv ap ISempIsfmw icnbmnbtijamWv ]Xn\mbncw FSppXv. Fm ISemkpw icnbmWv. HmUnampIqSn AXp Ip]nSnm\mhn. Hcp Znhks Ie t\mptm ]Xn\mbncw A{X henb XpIsbmpa. IymWnpn sImphp sImSp Nmb samnpSnpsImbm Hmp,

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absSpn. tIih\v Ddw hn. km[mcW InSm IymWnpn ASpf hmXneSv Ipfnapdnbn t]mbn ASpphv InSptmtgv abambnpmhpw. Ipfnapdnbn \nh \bmbnmWv hcpI. Xs AcnIn hp InSptm Abm DWcpw. P\eneqsS hcp t\cnb shfnn Abm IeymWnpnbpsS tZlw t\mn nSpw. sNehp Npcp ]cn]mSnbn XpSnbXmWv \bmbn InSpI FXv. cm{Xn ta IgpInbm apjn kmcnbpw ukpw CSm tXmn Atm Ku CSWw. Hcp KuWn\v apXv \mev]Xv DdpnIbmhpw. ]ns AXp Xncpm\p sNehpw. AXnepw AXym-hi - y-Im-cy-p ]W-an-m-Xn-cp Hcp Ime-am-bn-cpp AXv. Cv ss\vKu-Wns hnetbm Xncp-m-\p sNethm {]iv\an. ]t Ap XpSnb ioew Cpw XpScpp. Ah Hpw ]dbmsX InSpIbmWv. Ipdpt\cs \nXbvp tijw Ah tNmZnp. \n Ddtym? Du Dw. Bcmbncnpw aqv aWnv hXv? Hcp \nanjw Ignv Abm ]dp. Adnbn. Abmfpw A{Xbpw kabw AXpXsbmbncpp BtemNnpsImncpXv. Abmv ASp Imev hfsc s]sv t]Sn]nSnncpp. hmXn Hcp apv, ]cnNbanm HcmfpsS t\mw, I\nbpSabpsS hnfn. Fmw Abmsf sRnp. htmcpw Fs ImWm hXmhpw. Ddzmhpw hnfnmvv t]mbXmhpw. `mcybvv ss[cyw ]ItcXv Xm\msWpw AXpsImv ss[cyw \SnpI bmWv \sXpw Abmdnbmw. F\nbvp t]SymhpWp. IymWnpn ]dp. \fv Cu sNWsXms Fsnepw Ip]nSnm. AsXmpw Bcpw Ip]nSnm t]mWn. C\n Hcp sImw IqSn aXn. AXp Ignm \fv t]mhmbn. Atmtgv F{Xymhpw? GItZiw aqpew. aqsnepw Bbmte Fsnepw sNm ]q. Ipdp t\cw Ah Hpw ]dn. ]ns ]Xps ]dp. icnpw ]dm \fv Izs sNWXv. Abm Hpw ]dn. AsXmpw Abm Hmm CsSm Imcy fmWv. Ans\bp k`fn Abm In ImminmsX Is Znhk Hmpw. tam Ipnbmbncnptm ]m sImSpm\nmsX IsXv Hmtm \n\v? Abm tNmZnp. Av FgpqdpdpnIbmWv Imjnb F \nebn AbmfpsS ifw. In InnbncpXv Adp\qdpdpnIbpw. AXpsImv Fns\ Pohnpw. ]m \nn btm ]mmc hgp ]dp. thsd BcpsSsbnepw ASpp\nv ]m hmm\mWv Ahs ]m \nnbsXmbncpp ]mmc [cnXv. kXyw, ]dbm sImmhn[w hncq]ambncpp. \fv IssXmpw ]dbmXncnym \Xv. IymWnpn ]dp. Fsnepw {]tNmZ\w Csn Cs Ddw \inXpXs. Abm tNmZnp. Ipoev hXpw _mosm. mhpw. Ah ]dp. Fn\m IpSnWXv? C\n AsXmcp ioemhpw. BZys Znhkw ]Xn\mbncns sIv hontev sImph AmWv BZyambn IpSnXv. Ddw Inm. ]ns AXv CSbvnSbvmbn. IpSnp Ignm ss[cyw Inpp. IymWnpnbpambn CW tNcm DtP\w Inpp. AXp Ignm s]sv Ddhpw Inpp. \o Hcp mkv FSpv. IymWnpn Fgptp. ASpfbn t]mbn Hcp mkpw shhpw sImp hp. Nphceamcn Xpdv IpnsbSpptm AhfpsS \amb ]n`mKw P\eneqsS h shfnw {]ImiabampXv tIih t\mn. hnkvIn mkn FSpv shw

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imen\n Aev]w BibIpgnembncpp. ]Wnmcn cm[ ]dXv Ahv hnizknm\mbn. ]t Ah \pW]dbpIbmsWv tXmnbn. asmw ]dbpt]msebmWh ]dXv. F\nbvsn\m tamsf Akqb? Fs honepwv Hcp hmjnwKvsajo. cm[ XpWnI Hmtcmtmtcmmbn hmjnwKv sajo\n CSpIbmbncpp. B ]{p hbpImcnv hmjnwKv sajos Dbcw Xstb Dq. AXpsImv Ah sajos apn Hcp ]eIjvWw shv AXn\p apIfn \nmWv XpWnI CncpXv. SyqjSodpsS ASp \nv csp hXmWv imen\n. Ccp]p apX AXphsc FgpXm Gev]nv Nmb IpSnm\ncpXmWv So. Nmb IpSnp Ignm Sov t]mhm [rXnbmhpw. C\n A Ipfnm hnfnpXp hsc Ah kzX{bmWv. B kzmX{yw BtLmjnpI cm[tbmSv kwkmcnp sImmWv. Xncpptmtgm, ASnphmcn XpSptmtgm Hs Ah cm[bpsS ]n kwkmcnpsImpmhpw. A[nIhpw mknse hntijfmbn cnpw. Asn \gvkdn ssdapI ]mSn \rw shpw. XpS am_v \nev imen\n bpsS sImp ImepI ]Xnbpw. Ah t\mn cm[ ]dbpw. Rm XpSnSsms tamfv Nhnn \Stmfp. A Im Inntmfpw. imen\n {inn. A Ahsf ]Tnns Imcyn am{Xsa innpIbpp. aI ]Tnv Hcp tUmdmIWsamWv imcZbpsS tamlw. tUmamscpdnv imcZbvv kev]fpv. Hcp _nkn\pImc\mb Xs `mhns {]mc Hpw CmsX shdpsX Hcp tNdn Igpn spw Xqn ]Ww hmcp tUmamsc imcZ Fpw AkqbtbmsSbmWv t\mn bncpXv. Xs `mhv Hcp \ tUmsdm kmZnppsnepw Hcp tUmp m\w Inpnsv Ah Ip. Ah aIsf Hcp kvt\m_mbn hfm {ianp. Xtm XmsgnSbnephsc ]ptmsS t\mm, tasenSbnephsc ImWptm Ahsc A\pIcnm Fmw Ah {ianp. aIsf t{]cnnpIbpw sNbvXp. ]mhshscmw ]pgpv kaamsWh hnizknp. AXpsImv cm[ imen\nsb AhfpsS hontev sImpt]ms Fp tNmZnm imcZ kXnmdn. Zmcn{Zyw Hcp ]Ihym[n bmsWpw, Xs aIsf AXn \npw amn \nWsapw Ah IcpXn. cm[ hnjnwKv sajo\n XpWnIfnSpXv ItmgmWv imen\n HmXv. Ah ]dp. Rnv ]pXnb hmjnwKv sajo Inqtem. ]pXnb hmjnwKv sajot\m? AsX. Asm CXns\m Ipgw? CXv hmov Hcp sIms Bbnpp. CXv Hmtmamn. ]pXnbXv HmtmamnmWv. Hm. IposS an GsXnepw hon t]mbtm InpmIpw. Asm AXv hm Wwv ]dv UmUnsb _pnapnnpmIpw As? imen\n Hpw ]dn. cm[ sImsb A\pIcnp. "t\mps AhcvsS Inev BtmamnIv hmjnwKv sajo\pv. Asm \pw ths Hv' Fnv AXp hmn ht-cnbbn {]XnjvTnpw. Fnv ]dbpw. "cmt[,\o CXv sXmSpIsbmpw th tItm. ]gbXns Xncpnbm aXn.' ]pXnb sajo Hcp ImgvNhkvXphmbn shpw. hncpp hcphsms ImWnpsImSppw. hmIzwo\ F\nnXphsc sXmSm Xnnsm. imen\n tIm{In Imn. AbpsS Fm {]hnIfpw Ahnansnepw Bcpw Asbn ]dpXv Ahna. Ah ]dp. cm[bvv AkqbbmWv. AtXmmWv Cs\ ]tdWXv. Akqbtbm? cm[bvtm? cm[ tNmZnp. F\nsn\m tamsf Akqb? Fs honepwv Hcp hmjnwKv sajo. \pW.

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A icnv ]dmWv. s honepwv Hcp hmjnwKv sajo. nmtWm cm[ ]nv Smns AhnsS t]mbn XncppXv? Rm Imdnev t]mhptm cp {]mhiyw Inpv. RsS hmjnwKv sajo tISmbn sISvmWv. \pW. thWn hnizknm aXn. cm[ hmjnwKv sajo {]hnnp. imen\o. A hnfnp. Ipfnm hcp. CXm hcpp. Ahv cnsemv AdnbWw. cm[sb Ahv \t]mse Adnbmw. \pW ]dbmdn. Cm km[\w Dssmpw ]dbmdn. ]ns Cu hmjnwKv sajo am{Xw? imen\o....... AbpsS hnfn hopw. tamfv thKw s]mbvtm. A hnfnvv. cm[ ]dp. cmt[sS honev hm hmjnwKv sajo ImWnpXtczm? imen\n tNmZnp. AmsXm. cm[ ]dp. ]t tamfvsS A tamsf Fs IqsS hntSzmpy. Ah _n shw \ndv hmk\bp sh ^nss\ Hgnv Cfn. imen\n BtemNnp. Nnetm Xm AhfpsS hon sNns ss[cyn embncnpw cm[ \pW ]dXv. Xm Cv Asbsmv kXnnm t]mIpp. IpfnpsImncns Ah cm[bpsS AhImihmZsn ]dp. s\Wv {]mptm? hmjnwKv sajo. Ahv acymZv `Ww Ignm \n. vm hnjnwKv sajo. cm[ \ Hdv ]dbvWvv. imen\n ]dp. AhsS honev t]mbm ImWnp Xcmwv ]dp. At Rm\nv cmt[sS honev t]ms? th th. AhcvsS honev hrnsbmpwmhny. Rm AhnsSympw CcnnWny At. hmjnwKv sajo Iv Xncnphcmw. s\\v {]mv Xym. cmt[sS A acnnv ApsImambn. AXn\v tijm AhfvsS A ]Wnpt]mhm sXmSnbXv. s\\v Hmbns evansb? Xosc BtcymKyanm Hcp km[\w. Ahfpw sISnembtmgm cm[ hcm sXmSoXv. AhshnSym tamsf hmjnwKv sajos\ms hmm ]Ww? Rm t]mbn t\ms. th.imen\n \nw ]nSnp. Ahv t]mtb Xocp. cm[bpsS Alw`mhw Hp \nWw. hon sImpt]mbn hmjnwKv sajo ImWnm ]mXncnp tm cm[bpsS apJpmhp PmfyX Hmv imen\n Nncnp. kvqfn t]mIpXn\papp Hcp aWnq kabw \nccw ieysSppI hgn Ah Asbsmv kXnnp. A Sqdnembncpsn C{X hnja apmhnmbncpp. A ]dbpw. tamfv s]mbvtmfp. thKw XncnphcWwtm. Atm Ans\ Xobmn. cm[ Fm hontebpw ]WnIgnv t]mIptm \mepaWnbmhpw. Atmtgv imen\n kvIq bqWnt^mw amdn ]pdsp \nWw. \osbn\m cmt[ IpnItfmSv Cns\ Hmtcmv ]dbWXv? Ins Csm XethZ\? imcZ Ibp. cm[ NncnpIam{Xw sNbvXp. \obn\n s\s honv Ahv Xnms\mpw sImSpcpXv tItm. Ahv Ans\ AXpw CXpw Hpw Xnv ioeey. hbdv tISvhcpw. ]ns cv Znhks mkv t]mIpw. t]Snt tNn. AhnsS Xnm Hpwmhny. Ah kXyw ]dbpIbmbncpp. \mep honse ]WnsbSppXpsImmWv B s]Ipnv ]nWnbnmsX Ignbm ]pXv. A, Xm, A\pP. A acntm kvIqfn t]mp \nn. ]ns A hmXambn InSnembtm Ah tPmenp t]mpw XpSn. A t]mbncp hoSpIfns. AhfpsS `Ww Hmtcm hoSpIfnembn Ignbpw. sshIptcw Xncnpt]mIptm GsXnepw hon \np Innb tNmdpw Iqm\pw ImWpw. AXmbncnpw B IpSpw_ns cm{Xn `Ww.

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Ahv ]cmXnIsfmpapmbncpn. Cns\sbnepw IgnpIqSpptm Fh kam[m\np. C{Xbpw Cmh F{Xbpv. Ah tPmensbSpncp honephscmw Hcp amXncn kcmbncpp. AhcpsS PohnXns ]Inp Iv Ah BZysamw Amfnp. Hcp Fphbp Imcnbmbn AbpsS Hw Cu hoSpIfntev t]mbtm Ah XnIpw ApX sSmdpv. AXphsc AhfpsS temIw XohnmXbvncp hipw ]pdwt]mp ev Xgphf IpSnepInSbnembncpp. \mdp, sImXpIv Bp Idp shw sIn\np Npphw. tXfnsbpw ]gpXmcbpsSbpwISn, sshIptcfn IpSnphv hgnSp ]pcpjm. Cu A\mtcmKyIcamb Npp]mSn Pohnph Ahv A tPmensbSpm t]mIp hoSpI thsdmcp temImsWp tXmn. {ItaW inipklPamb ss\aeytmsS, Ah a\nemn. Ahcpw Xfpw Xn hyXymkw Dhcpw Cmhcpw Fpam{Xta Dq. Ah _pnaXnbmbncpp. ImcyfpsS InSv Ah thKw ]Tnp. Dh Hcp RmbdmgvN sshIptcw ]pdndnbm `WimeIfn sNehmp XpIbpsS ]IpXnt]mepw Abvp amkifambn sImSppnsh Ip. Dh, Cmhp sImSppIbnspw Ah a\nemn. sXmgnemfn apXemfnbpsS NqjWns\Xnsc ap{ZmhmIyw hnfnv {]IS\w \Sptm XfpsS hoptPmenmsc NqjWw sNpIbmWv. Hcp cm{ob]mn `cnnpw XfpsS kmnI \nev, X Pohnp Npp]mSpIv amw hnnsv Ah Ip. cm{Xn ]{paWn Ignt s]mXpSmn shw hcq. FpaWnv cm{Xn `Ww Ignm Ah cp IpShpambn Smn\Spp hv Iyqhn ew ]nSnpw. Atmtgv ]p ]{p Ie hcnbn Dmhpw. ew ]nSn tijw Ah IpSnen hv Ddm InSpw. ]Ies Azm\w ImcWw sImXpISnsbmpw AhfpsS Ddn\v `wKw hcpnbn. ]{p aWnv Fgptv Smn\Sptv \Spw. AhnsS kv{XoI _lfw IqnpSnbnp mIpw. shn\p thn Ielapmhm Znhkan. cp cctbmsS, Nnetm aqpaqcbmhpw, cp IpSw shw Inpw. ]ns Xncp, Ipfn, cmhnes `Wapm. Fmw Ignbptm Bdv BdcaWnbmhpw. Ahv tPmenv t]mtI kabamhpw. Hmtcm XncnsSpv hcptmgpw m\mnI NncnpsImv hcpw. Xsf Pbnnm AhnsS IqSpX SmpI CpXcpsapw, IqSpX IqkpIfpw IpfnapdnIfpw Dmncpsapw apw hmKvZm\w sNpw. Pbnp Ignm ]ns Xncnpt\mpIbpw C. IqSpX em`Icamb ap tPmenIfptm Cu IpSnepIfnepw AXn HSpp a\pjycnepw Ahsp Xm]cyw? Smn\p apn shn\pthn Imp\nptm Xm tPmenp t]mIp hoSpIfnse IpfnapdnI Hmhcpw. Smp Xpdm shw, F{X thW sanepw Ftm thWsanepw. apIfn Ipfnm jh. cp hoSpIfn NqSp shapmm\p sKbvkdpapv. XovWamb Cu sshcpyfnepw Ahv Ahsc shdpm Ignn. sshcpy {]IrXn\nbaamsWh hnizknp. imen\nsb AhnamWv. AhfpsS Kv cm[ hIshn. ]t Ahfn Dmbncp Ipnw Ahsf BIjnp. sshIptcw cm[bpsS ssI]nSnv \ncns HmcpIqsS \Sptm imen\n tNmZnp. cmt[sS hoSv hepXmtWm? Hcp amXncn. cm[ ]dp. henb hosSms Bbm AXv sImp \Sm hnjaas. R aqp t]ct Dq. vpw RfpsS F{X henb hoSm. \nv tPmensms Bfpv. ASnphmcn \new XpSm\pw, ]m{Xw tamdm\pw, Xncpm\pw Hcp ]Wnmcn. ASpfbn shp ]Wnv thsdmcp ]Wnmcn. Rv AXns\mpw ]Wwy. Asm sNdnb hoSt \Xv? imen\n Xebmn. \nsS hmjnwKv sajo hv GcnbbnemtWm shncnpXv? hv Gcnbbn? cm[ Hcp \nanjw kwibnp. RfpsS hon.......... Asn Ipnv hoSp Im a\nemhpw. Ah Smdn tdmUn\nv Hcp CShgnbntev Xncnp. Ign HcmgvN ASp s]bvX agbn hgn apgph sNfnpmbncpp. Nfnbn NhnmsX hgnbpsS HmcpIqsS Ah \Sp. CShgn sNhkm\nXv Hcp ]dns \SphneqsS t]mIp

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hoXn Ipd \SmXbnemWv. B hgnbpw NfnsIn hrntISmbncpp. imen\n apJw Npfnp. cm[sS honten\nbpw Zqcaptm? C. ASppXsbmWv. Ah \Sp. hgnbpsS CSXphimbn XohnmfcnIn Hcp henb tImf\n ]cp InSncpp. sXmpsXmSpp sImp IpSnepI. {Intjkv bpKnse Hcp `oamImc ]n \op\nsmcp Gpapen\ptijw NndIpI HSnv NpInSpXpt]mse B tImf\n Iodndnp InSp. anhbpw Hme taXmWv. NneXv HmtSm Kmhss\kvUj v otm tah. ]eXnsbpw NpacpI Hmetbm jotm Bbncpp. Nne hoSpIfn Npacn\p]Icw NmpXpWntbm mnIv jotm BWv D]tbmKnncpXv. HmesImpmnb IpfnapdnIv Xosc adhpmbncpn. Hmtcm hoSpInSbnepw Idpp \mdp shw sInnSp. IpSnepInSbneqsS \Sptm imen\n AsXmw t\mn apJw Npfnp. cm[bpsS hontev t]mIm thsd hgnsbmpwsy? C. CXm \ Fngnp. cm[ ]dp. Ah Hcp IpSnens apn \np. CXmWv Fs hoSv. imen\n ]Ip. CtXm, cm[bpsS hotSm? m, CXmWv Rm Xmaknp ew. Fs hoSv. hcq. imen\n Hpw ]dbmsX cm[bpsS IqsS AItp \Sp. Ahsf FXntcXv Ccppw HmSbpsS Khpambncpp. Ipdp t\ctv Ahv Hpw ImWm ]nbn. apdnbnsehnsS\ntm Hcp oWn iw hp. CXmcm tamsf s\s Hw? CXv imcZtnbpsS tamfm At. imen\npv. imen\npmtWm CXv? tamfv hepXmbtm. tamsf CSpp hcq. IpI Ccppambn s]mcpsp Igntm apdnbpsS aqebn ]mbn InSp oWn cq]w sXfnphp. Ah ASpp t]mbn. Nppap Ccpv, aqntev Ipnbdp \mw, ]ns apn Npcpp InSp hnNn{X Pohn. AXv Hcp a\pjykv{XobmsWv hnizknm imen\np {]bmkambn. AhhnsS \nv Fs\sbnepw csSWsap tXmn. Ah tNmZnp. cm[sS apdn GXmWv? Fs apdntbm? cm[ s]mnncnp. \nmsXbp Nncn. B NncnbpsS kvt^mS\n B IpSnens AImchpw B PohnXns \nlmbXbpw ]msS Xqsdnbsp. BmZns sImp kv^penwK B sImphoSns\ Zo]vXamn. Fs apdntbm? cm[ hopw tNmZnp. Ah imen\nbpsS ASpphv appIpn\np. AhfpsS IpIfnse kmcfyw AhfpsS lrZbnsehnsSsbmstbm sImp. Xm\pw Hcp IpnbmsWpw, kvt\lns emf\pw NqSn\pw Xm\pw AhIminbmsWpw D Imcyw Ah hnkvacnp. kzoIcnpXn\p]Icw \Im Ah Xmdmbn. Hcbmbn amdnb Ah imen\nsb FSpps]mnp. AhfpsS XpSp Ihnfn Dshp. imen\n pw Ans\ Hcpdv Bhiyambncpp. imen\ntamv Xnm sImSpm Fsnepw Dtm tamsf? cm[bpsS A tNmZnp. Dmlns XncI ]ndtImp henp. thenbndn a\ns aW npI \amsp. AhnsS bmYmyns p{ZPohnI Cgp \Sp. cm[ imen\nsb Xmsgshp. ChnsS Hpwys. Ah ]dp. C\n sns tamv Hpw sImSpcpsXv ]dnpapv. Xs ZuXyw FmsWv imen\n AtmgmWv HmXv. Ah tNmZnp. FhnsSbmWv cmt[sS......... Ah apgpann. tNmZyns \ncYIX Ahv t_mysncnpp. Ahv Fns\sbnepw AhnsS \nv t]mbm aXn.

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Fm tamsf? cm[ tNmZnp. hmjnwKv sajo? hmjnwKv sajot\m? Dw. AsXhnsSbmWv? AXm AhnsS InSpp. cm[ Nqnmn. AhfpsS kzcw \nnImcambncpp. apdnpnse Ccpv \onbncpp. imen\nntm Fmw hyambn ImWmw. B ImgvN Ahsf thZ\nnp. Ah hnnsmv ]dp. AtXm AXv cm[sS Abs? AsX. cm[ ]dp. Rm ]dns AXv tISphv InSzmv. \nnImc amb B ins Ayn Hcp tX Iepthm? imen\n Xcnp \np. cm[ ]dbpIbmbncpp. Hcp Imev \mbn AenbncpXmWv. Fm sNzm, tISphnt? imen\n HmSn ]pdtp ISp. F\nv AbpsS ASpv t]mWw. Ah IcpsImv HmSpIbmWv. tamsf \np F cm[bpsS hnfn Ah tIn. AhhnsS\nv Fns\sbnepw csSWw. Ah HmSn, Zmcn{Zynsbpw ImSpIfpsSbpw Ccp CShgnIfn kzbw \sSpwhsc. Iem-Iu-apZn HmW--Xnv 1992

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tlmens XWp tem_nbn Imp\npI hnjaapXmbncpn. hntZinI hncpXv anhmdpw DXncn t\cmbncpp. Fbt]mn \np _n Ah Iqambn hndn. Nnetm SmIvknbn. Inbp Nnp`nnbneqsS \mcmbW\mb Ah _n \nndpXv t\mnbncpp. tXmfpw ]pdpw kn Xqnsmv Ah Cdn. hmXn \np Nph bq\nt^man tUmam hmXn XpdpsImhsc kzmKXw sNbvXp. s_t_mbvkv _n \nv kiIcpsS s]nIfpw knIfpw FSpv en^nncnIn \ncn. C\n AXnYnI Iudnsv sNn sNbvXm Ah hv apdnbpsS \ t\mnshpw. Ahv t]mtI en^v v ImWnpsImSppw. km[\ s_t_mbvkv thsdmcp en^vnemWv sImp t]mIpI. hntZinI AhchcpsS apdnIfnseptmtgv Ah km[\fpambn AhnsS FnbnpmIpw. B kabmWv \mcmbW\mb kzbw ]cnNbsSppXv. Inep t^mU Ahsc Gnpp. AXn IYIfnbpsSbpw, HmwXpensbpw ap tIcfob \mSIeIfpsSbpw Nn{Xfpv. Nphn sNdpIpdnpIfpw. Ahkm\ s t]Pn Xs hons hnemkhpw AhnsS FtsXns\bmWv Fv tav klnXw sImSpnp \ntifpw. Abm Fpw sshIptcw hons Nmbv ] n IYIfn ImWnncpp. ImWnIfmbn hntZinI am{Xta DmIq. Ahsc Imhmkv sNbvXp sImp t]mIpXv Cu tlmen shmbncpp. BZysamw HcpamXncn \ _nkn\v Innbncpp. Hcp kiI\v AXp cq]bmWv \ncv. \mepw Apw, Nnetm Fpw ]pw hsc hntZinIsf Inmdpv. ]noSv ]t thsdbpw cp ]mnI cwKsnbtXmsS \mcmbW\mbcpsS _nkn\v tamiambnpSn. aph IqSpX kwLSnXambmWv _nkn\v \SnsmncpXv. Xn amcyw DmIpIaqew cpt]pw _nkn\v IpdbpIbmsWp a\nemb tm Ah Hcp Hp Xonsen. Hmtcm Znhkw HmtcmcpcpsS hIbmbn IYIfn \Smsav. Ah sNdnsbmcp lm hmSIbvsSpv ncw thZnbmn amn. Hmtcmcp CShnp Znhkw AhnsS IYIfn \Sn. \mcmbW\mbv ]t AXn tNcm ]nbn. Xm Hcp `ojWnbmbn Ahp tXmnbn. am{Xa Bhiys apXapSv AbmfpsS Inenm bncppXm\pw. AXpsImbm Ctmgpw tlmen hv kzw Iymhmkv sNbvXp hp. AXp]t A[nIw ^ehmbn. ImcWw ap cpt]cpw tlmenepw Sqdnv Hm^oknepw kzm[o\nncpp. AXpsImv hntZinIv tlmen \nv sImSpp hnhcfnepw, Sqdnv Hm^okn\nv e`np t^mUdnepw aph IYIfn \Sp hnemkamWv sImSpmdv. AXpsImv Ah \Kcw ImWpXns Hcp `mKambn lmfn t]mbn IYIfn Ip aSn. Htm ctm H Xncn hntZinIsf X\np Innsbnembn. Btcbpw Inm Znhkw Abm hon sNv tafmtcbpw hmbv]mpImtcbpw Hgnhmpw. Cpw AXpXsbmhpw nXnsbv \mcmbW\mb IcpXn. Ccp]n cv hntZinI HcpanmWv Hcp _n hXv. Ans\bphcn\nv X\nbvv _nkn\v Inm t]mIpn. Abm \ncmi\mbn tem_nbnse Hcp tkm^bn Hbmmtcbpw {]XonpsImv Iq\nqSnbncpp. apIfnep UnqSn XmtgSnp XWp Imv Abmsf AtemkcsSpm XpSnbncpp. Xs {]mbn\p ]nbX FbIoj. Abm Fgptv \Sm XpSn. Ac aWnq IqSn Imp\nnv t]mImw. dnk]vj\nse s]Ipn amdnbncnpp. Ctm tUhnUv Fp t]cp Hcp sNdpmc\mWv. ss\v Uyqn AbmmWv. \mcmbW\mb Ahsc sbmw kzm[o\nm {ianXmWv. hntZinI hcptm Xs t^mU sImSpW sapw Xs IYIfnv hcm t{]cnnWsapw Abm Bhiysncpp. sshIptcw Fpw IWniambn hcnIbpw GgpaWnhsc Npnn \np Ibpw sNbvX Ap hbpImct\mSv Ahv kl-Xm-]apmbncpp. BZysamw Ah hntZinIv Abmsf ]cnNbsSppIbpw sNbvXncpp. Asmw Hcp amXncn \ _nkn\pw Innbncpp. ]ns GXm\pw hntZinI Abm IYIfn

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Innbn shsaSpp....... [ym\np........ Im sXmv hnq. InbpsS iw bm{nIambn hpsImncpp. AbmfpsS klmbnI AbpsS tZlv hndIv HXpnshm XpSn. In hndIpsImnI apdnsSpv ioe Npn ]apmpIbmWv. aqp ] Dmn Ah Fbn apnsbSpp. NnX Xmdmbncpp. aI ChnsS hczm. Hcp ]w In XpsImv In ]dp. CXm \ne hnfn \nv Inv Xe`mKv sImfpnsmp. ap cp ] cmPphnsbpw hmkphnsbpw In sImSpp. Av Dntev shtmfp. NIncn Xo]nSns. \nfv Hcmfv \Sphnepw Hcmfv Im`mKpw shtmfp. B Ans\s. NnX ]pIpXpSn. ]nn \nv Imv hoinbncpp. hndIv ASpnshXp ImcWw XpWnsImv aqSnb icocw ImWm ]nbn. ]t A AhnsSXs bps t_m[apmbncpp. ag C\n s]n. Btcm BImiw t\mn ]dp. taL Hgnp XpSnbncpp. \{X sXfnbpIbmWv. ag \nsnepw Imn\v \ XWppmbncpp. Cud\pSpImcWw XWpv tZln hnSmsX \np. InbpsS klmbnI NnXbv p Nppw \Sv Xo ]nSnnpIbmWv. Xo hfsc thKw ]nSnpIbdn. C\n \n Ccptmfp In ]dp. Xo \ hw ]nSnnv t]mImw. acsmnI Hmtcmtmtcmmbn Xo ]nSnpXv t\mn R Hcp HmesaSXn Ccpp. {ItaW XWpv AIpt]mIpXv HcmizmktmsS Rm a\nemn. NqSv Fs Cud hkv{Xsf DWm XpSn. NqSv tZlntep XpfpIbdn XWpv Xosc AIn. A AZriyamb ssIIsImv BenwK\w sNpt]mse. Rm Ipnbmbncptm apnbpsS acW kabv A Fs sInnSnv Fs `bhpw XWppw AInbncpXv Hm hp. Cpw NnXbvp apIfn\nv AtX NqSpw kv t \lhpw ]Iv A Fs Bizknnm {ianbmWv kabsa{Xbmbn? Btcm hmv t\mn ]dp. HtXIm. \n aqpt]cpw ]pgbn apn hcp. Fnv ]pdsSmw. shn\v XWpp IqSnbncpp. AXp hsc NqSnSpp \nXpsImv XWpv IqSpX cqambn tXmn. Ipfnv Cud\pSpv Ibdnbtm NnX BfnpIbmWv. Xo\mpI ASnsh hndIpIjvWsf apgph s]mXnp. Rm ASpp t]mbn. Cu AIenepw NnXbn\np h NqSv Fs XWpIn F\nbvv Bizmkacpfn. Ggmw kb\w. Rm\pw hmkphpw Inbpw am{Xtabpmbncppp. Cud\pSppsImv XWpmdnb NnXbvcpIn An s]dpm Ccnp tm Rm hopw Asb Hmp. Cu Ggp Znhkfn FpsImtm A A[nIw a\n hncpn. AbpsS PohnXw Hcp amXncn \mbncpp. [\ysapXs ]dbmhp PohnXw Fgp]Xmw hbn kzm`mhnIambn Ahkm\npXn hfscb[nIw hyk\nt Imcysampan. HcmgvNtb InSnpapp. acnp kabv cp afpw AcnInepmbncpp. InbpsS iw ]nn\nv tIm\pv. Bhp{X An s]dpnsbSpWw. Nmcn NnIbptmgmWv B An InnbXv. ssIns Fv. av FpIsfmw Hcp amXncn {Zhnpt]mbncpp. NnX AXns Ihyw \mbn \nlnncnpp. Cu Fpam{Xw tISpIqSmsX shfpv Nmcn\nSbn InSpp. Rm s]sv AbpsS temeamb IpI Hmp. hfsc IpnmemWv. Hcn ]\n]nSnp InSpIbmbncpp. taemsI thZ\bpambn InSptmgmWv A hXv. ta thZ\npp Fp ]dtm A s\n XtemSm XpSn. hfsc Bizmkw tXmn. Ipsdt\cw XtemSnbnp mIWw. Rm B kpJn Ddntmbn. Cu shfp An t\mnsmncns Rm hopw Hcp Ipnbmbn

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"Ccpns adhn ]Xpn hv Ah acp`qanbpsS amdn cw Nnpw. cmPyw sImbnsSpIbpw cmPhoYnI A`bmnIfm \ndbpIbpw sNpw.' Ddnsmncp cmPytv i{Xpssk\yw CcpIbdn. IhNnXhml\ fn, hnam\fn. Acon kvt^mS\fpsS ihpw shSnacpns cqaWhpw, `qanbn \mihpw hnXdnsImv Ah aptdn. sNdpXmbncp B cmPyv Xmaknncph kam[m\{]nbcmbncpp. AXpsImmWv i{Xphns `ojWn ]ehpcp Dmbnpw Ah bpns\mcpmsX kkarnbnte p ]mXbneqsS NcnXv. `qK`n {]IrXn I\np\Inb [mXpfpsS [mcmfnw AXp kpKaamn. AXp ]pdsSppI am{Xta thnbncppp. Idp s]mv hmm Imp\np IepIfm XpdapJw \ndp. FpsImambn Ingp cmPyhpambn bpntesncp ta_kv sXtmv hv Xs sNdnb cmPyw B{Ianns [mcW cmPmhnpmbncpp. Fns\dnbm \o bpambncpp AXv. cp cmPyfnepw Xmknncph Htc aXcmbncpp. Htc aXns cp]ncnhpI am{Xw. aXw am{XamWv kmtlmZcyns am\ZWvUsav IcpXnbmepw AXv {`mXrlXybmWv. {`mXr lXysb hnhns ]cnthjw Nmn \ymboIcnmtam? Ing cmPyhpambn bpw \SpsImncns sXtmsmcp bp\nc Xpdm ta_kn\v Xm]cyapmhnsv cmPmhp IcpXn. Atlw {]PIfpsS tan X]c\mbncpp. HpIn {]PIfpsS Djw Asn bpkmlw. CXpw cpw IqSn \Sm Xs cmPyn\v Ignbnstlw hnizknp. cm{Xn cmPyw imambpdptm i{Xp CcpIbdn. \Kc _em kwKw sNsp. cmPyw _emkwKw sNsp. kcmbn kam[m\{]nbcmbn Pohnncp P\X Hcp cm{XnsImv A`bmnIfmbn amdn. P\tfmsSmw cmPmhn\pw AbcmPytv ]memb\w sNtnhp. Hcp Znhkw Xncnphcmsa {]XymitbmsS. cmPmhns\ Innbnsp Itm i{Xp cmPktlmZcs\ ZmcpWambn h[np. HcmgvNs bm{XbpsS Ayn \mn Xncnsnbtm a[pkqZ\ BtemNnp. X\nbvsmw \sp. cpsImambn kmZnsXmw Csdnv HmtSnhp. cmhnses _mpI ap{Zshncpp. sshIptcambtmtgbvv Xobmbn, HmSpIbmWv \sXv. FhnsSbpw i{Xphns IhNnX hml\ am{Xw. In Innb km[\sfmw Imdn \ndv bm{Xbmbn. \ncpI ]eXpw ASnncnbmWv. ASbvm hgnI At\zjnv Abm Imdn Npn. ZniIv AanmXmbn. Hcp Ihebn shv i{Xp`Smcm Xm sImbSnsp. Imdpw AXnepmbncp hne]nSn km[\fpw \sp. ]ns shdpw ItmsS Hmw Xs. cmPyns AXnn IStmgmWv Hmw \nnbXv. ]mns Ioibnep t]gvkn Ipsd Idkn t\mpI am{Xw. hnebnm B t\mpI i{Xp`Smv Bhiyanmbncpp. CeIvt{SmWnIv km[\ Imfptm AhcpsS apJp b BnIe ktmjw a[pkqZ\ Ctmgptamp. \mn, HcmgvNbmbn kw{`ansbpw A\nnXXznsbpw {]pX bn Imncp s]Ipn Xs Itm hnXpncp. IeymWw Ignv HcmgvNtb Ah Hapmbncppq. ]ns Abm, ]nd \mn\p Xcm Ignbm PohnX amw tXSn acp`qanIfpsS \mntep t]mbn. cm{Xn `mcybpsS Cfw icocw AcpatbmsS tNp]nSnp InSptm Abm cpsImw apv X\nv A`bw X \Kcs Hmp. ssNX\yhpw kucyhpw ku`mKyhpw HnWnb \Kcw. Ch _emkwKw sNsncnpp. \apv t]mbsXmw t]ms. \fn\n Abmsf Bizknnm\mbn ]dp. C\n \n Ftmpw t]mtI. ChnsS F{X BfpI Pohnpp. ]Wansn AXns Xcwt]mse Pohnmw. a\am[m\amWv hepXv.

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Abm AhfpsS \amb amdn tNpInSp sNdnb XmensNbn t\mn. Bdp a[phn[pcmhpIfn AhfpsS \nd amdn sIp]nWpInS kzame I Abmtmhp. Cv Ahsbmpan. tPmen tXSntmIm\mbn ISw hmnbsXmw Abmv Xncnp sImSpm ambncpp. ]t Abm BZyw {ianXv \fn\nsb sImpt]mIm\mbncpp. Hw Xmaknnm AhnsS Hcpw IqpIbmbncpp. ]nbnsn ]ns ]Wapmbn sp Imcyw? Hgnp InSp Igppw ssIIfpw ]e s\nI NpfnnpXns\n \fn\n FgpXnbtm Abm XncnsgpXn. \o hcm t]mIpXv kzw hnfbp \mn temWv. \n\v \ssXmw XncnpInpw. "Ggp ISen\pw Ggp Icpw Apdp\nv klmblkvXw \ofpw. Ah hv hmbphnepw `qanbnepw Penepw m\apdnpw. AhcpsS tXmns K\w i{Xp\ncIsf `bsSppw.' i{Xphn \np ]memb\w sNbvX cmPmhv sX cmPyv A`bw tXSn. acp`qanI \nd B cmPyhpw Idp s]mn\m karambncpp. hSp\np B{IaWns IY B cmPmhpw Adnncpp. i{Xphns eyw Xs cmPyhpw ]noSv sXmp sXpw Ingpap cmPyfpw BsWpw Atlw Adnncpp. ]Snmdv sNS htcbpw, sXv Ad_nShtcbpw, hSv IcnShtcbpw D `q\nc. s]mphnfbp Cu `q\nctaep AXymn ImcWw ta_kv Ign FpsImambn Ing cmPyhpambn \Snh bpw \nempIbpw kam[m\n\p DSSn Ing cmPyn\\pIqehpw DZmchpamb hyhbn DmpIbpw sNbvXXv cmPmhdnp. FpsImambn \S almbpn CcpcmPympw I\ B\mihpw kzp\mihpapmbXmbpw, sXcphpIfn I_ Nop \mdpXmbpw, hmbphn hnjhmXIns \odepXmbpw AXp izknv ]mh {]mW thZ\tbmsS ]nSv Poh shSnbpXmbpw D IYI hSp\npw Ingp\npw h kmhmlIkwL AXmXpImew Adnbnncpp. ta_kns\ kqnWsa XmoXpw cmPmhnp ImemImefn e`nncpp. icWw tXSnb cmPmhpw \Inb cmPmhpw Nppw `ojWnbv ncbmb cmPmmtcmSp IqSnbmtemNnp. i{Xp A]ISImcnbmWv. \app hn`h sImhs\ XSpm Ignbn. i{Xp \njvTqc\msWpam{Xa a\pjyPohnXn\v Xosc hne Inmh\pamWv . Hcnp an\pthn ]Xn\mbncw Poh HSpphm\pw aSnbvmh. Icps\ tXSnbp bm{Xbn Ah FnbXv `qanbpsS adphip cmPymbncpp. \{XfpsS cmPyw. i{Xphns km{amPyXrjvWv Htc Hcp acpv Cu cmPyamsWhdnbmambncpp. Znhkpn AXym[p\nI bptm]IcW AXnnbn \ncsp. i{Xphns aptw XSbsp. hmSbvsSp Nmbvhn ]pdv Hcp sNdnb t_mUv shnpv. "_m\dpIfpw sskt_mUpIfpw hcpsImSppw.' apn \nhnsh tImdpWnbn _m\ hcptm a[pkqZ\ BtemNnp. C\n ]Wapmm ]ptam? \s]sXmw XncnpsImSpm? _nkn\v XpSnbnv aqp amkambn. Ctm Inp hcpam\wsImv Inv cp t\cw `Ww Ignmsambnpv. Fpw tPmenbpmhn. cm{ob ]mnIfpsS tbmK, Asn GsX nepw bq\nbs kwm\ ktf\, Ch IqSptm HcpamXncn tPmenbpmhpw. Amtm h ]oSnIbpsSbpw t] FgpXm\p tPmentb Inq. CXphsc `Ww Ignmsambnpv. i{Xp cmPynsXnscbp t_mw_m{IaWw Snhnbn Itm Abm ktmjnp. X\nbv`bw X cmPyw hntamNnsSpIbmWv. cm{Xn Snhnbn hmI tIptm Abm \fn\ntbmSp ]dbpw.

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Hcp sImn\Iw Xncnpt]mIm ]nbm aXnbmbncpp. \fn\n Hpw ]dbn. bpns `oIcX AhfpsS Inepmhpw. Ccp ]dp t_mw_dpI. ]dpsNv IWniambn eyw XIp ansskepI. F{Xsb{X \nc]cm[nIfmWv NsmSppXv. Fmw Hcp a\pjys sXpImcWw. AXntamlw ImcWw. a\pjyXzs [ncnp, XrWhcnp Hcp \cm[a ImcWw. C\n \n Xncnpt]mIpn. \fn\n ]dp. ChnsS InpXpsImv \apv Ignbmw. a[pkqZ\ Hpw ]dbmsX BtemNnncnpw. Xm `Ww tXSnsbnb \Kcsn. X\nbvv AcpatbmsS A`bw X \Kcsn. Xm kvt\lnncp \Kcsn. Ch A\mYbmWv. "BImin Anhjapmhpw. ]Iepw cmhpw Hmhpw. `qan Ipepbpw sInS Hmbn \new ]XnpIbpw sNpw.' cmPmhv Ddanm cmhpI IgnpIqn. A\mY\mb Xs cmPyw, ASnaw ASntns Xs {]PI. HmSntmIm aSnhsc i{Xpssk\yw ]oUnnp hmI. ta_kv Xs \ne DdnpIbmWv. ]nSnSnb cmPyw hnpsImSpm\p Bhiyw Hmtcm cmPyp\npw hp. {ItaW temIs Fm cmPyfpw i{Xphns\Xncmbn. Abm Ipepnbn. P\kwJybpsS ]nsemp hcp ]mfw AXnnIfn Imh \np. cmkmbp[ ]Wnbp imeI hopw kPohambn. amcIamb hmXI Aan t]SIfneSbvsp. amcItcmK fpsS _oP Ir{Xnaambn \nnbvsp. Ahbpw i{Xp\ncIfntebvsdnbm ]mIn t]SIfn \ndbvsp. AIefn t]mbn Xo sNmcnb hmW sXmSpm ]mIn Hcpn\nn. Ing cmPyhpambpmnb DSSn A\pkcnv B cmPyhpambpmbncp bpw \npIbpw AhnsSbpmbncp ssk\ys apgph ]nhenv sX AXnnbn sImphcnIbpw sNbvXp. ]nSnSs cmPyw Xncnp \Im ta_kn\v \m]p cmhpIfpw \m] p ]IepIfpw kabw \Isp. A\p\bns iw Abm sNhnsmn. \m]p cmhpIfpw \m]p ]IepIfpw IgnXns ]ntv cm{Xn BImis {]I\w sImnpsImv hnam\ i{XpcmPytv IpXnpbp. amcIamb t_mw_pI hjnsp. \Kc NmembnpSn. ta_kv Ipepnbn. Ahs Al Ahs cmPytmfw hepXmbncpp, Ahs Iq bpkmltmf hepXmbncpp. Ahs _pniq\yXtbmfw hepXmbncpp. BlXym]camb B bpn \nv Abm ]nmdnbn. cmhnse HXpaWnpXs a[pkqZ\ IS Xpdp. Hcp _m\ ]IpXnbmbn pv. AXpwIqSn sNbvXpIgnm Inep tPmensbmw Xop. hmSIbpw klmbnbmb ]\v ifhpw sImSpt kabambncnpp. cpamkw Hcp amXncn Hnp. Cu amkw Cns\ t]mbm hmSIbvp Imiv Dmm Ignbpsav tXmpn. acp`qanbpsS \mnse bpw ChnsSbpw maapmnpSn bncnpp. BcpsS Inepw ]Wan. sXcsSpns tPmensbmw Xtm apv cwKsnbh XnsbSpp. sNdnsbmtcmlcn am{Xw Inn. Ctm AXpw Ignp. C\n Hpw {]Xonm\n. AtmgmWv B a\pjy IdnhXv. Hcp Pqbpw appw thjw. a[pkqZ\ Xncnpt\mnbtm Abm AhnsS \npsImv Nppw \oconpIbmbn cpp. tPmen IpdhmWt? Ip]nSpw icnbmsWnepw AXv a[pkqZ\v Csn. Abm tNmZnp. FmWv thXv? Fs t]cv Nn{Xs\mWv. Rm Xncph\]pcp\nv hczmWv. Ipdp tPmenmbncpp. Fp tPmen? bpw \SpsImncnbmWv. Abm ]dp. A[mnIamb bpamWnXv. \apv \ GXp ]msWv ]dtbnbncnpp.

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C. Abm ]dp. Dmm t]mhmbncpp. Fm Rm Dmncmw Fp ]dv tcWpI Dntev \Sp. AXp th. F\nbvpmm\dnbmw. t]mcmXn\v tcWpI AXnYnbt? Hm AXnYn. Ah Nncnp. Abm ASpfbntep \Sp. tcWpI un shw shpIgnn cpp. Abm NmbsmSnbpw ]kmcbpw FSppsImSpp. {^nUvPn\nv ]mepw. \ kuIcyap ASpf. A\nX `mKyaphfmWv. CXv RfpsS kzw hoS. hmSIhoSmWv. AXpsImsmWv? RfpsSbpw hmSIhoSp Xs. tcWpIsmWv `mKypdhv? kvt\lap `mhv, anSp\mb Hcp aI. Ah mn Ftmgpw ^mhmdpsmWtm A\nX ]dXv. tcWpI Hpw ]dn. NmbsmSnbpsS ]m{Xw Xpdv kv]qWpw ]nSnv shw Xnfbvm Imp\npIbmWv. Nmb IqnbtmgmWv a\nembXv, Ah Hcp mt Dmnbnpp. mkv AbmfpsS t\sc \onsmh ]dp. C\n Rm t]ms. Atapmemhptm A\pw tam\pw hcpw. Atm tcWpIbvv Nmbbpmnbnt? Rm Ans\ Nmb IpSnmdn. hmXn XpdpsImv Ah ]dp. Rm ]ns hcmw. Xmvkv. Nmb \mbncpp. Ah t]mIpXn\p apv IpSnpt\mn \mbnp sp ]dbmXn Abm ]cnX]np. cm{Xn Ddm InSptm Abm tcWpIsbn hopw BtemNnp. Ah F{X kzmX{ytmsSbmWv Xm Hbvptm s]cpamdnbXv. kzmX{ytmsS s]cpamdp kv{XoIsf Abm Ipdv `btmsS am{Xsa t\mnbncppp. Hcn CXpt]mse Hcp kv{Xo hfsc ASpp s]cpamdn. IymWn\p apmbncpp AXv. Abmv Hcp apdnbn Hbvv t]bnwKv Kmbn XaknpIbmbncpp. B honse IymWw Ign Hcp kv{Xo CSbvv B apdnbn hcpw. AbmtfmSv kwkmcnpw. CSbvv Nmb sImphp sImSppw. Ahv XtmSv kvt\lapsbmp Xobmbncpp. Hcp Znhkw Ftm kwkmcnptm Abm AhfpsS ssI ISp ]nSnp. Ah kmh[m\n ssI hnSphnpsImv ]dp. \nsf Fs kzw tNs\tmsebmWv IcpXpXv. ]noSv Ahsf ImWptmsgmw Hcp Xcw PmfyX bmWpmhmdv. ]t kz]v\w ImWm\pw, IYIfpmm\pw X\nhImiapv. AXbm Ipnmew sXmt sNmdpXmWv. Ddm t]mhptm Asn ]pes DWp InSptm. Hcn \memwmkn ]Tnptm amdpsS aI Xs kl]mTnbmbncpp. Ahv IftNmv Inpambncpp. Hcp Znhkw Ah mkn ]eXcw IftNmpIfpsS IjvW sImphv hnXcWw sNm XpSn. Hcp amXncn Fm IpnIpw Inn. Xm ssI \onbtm am{Xw Ah Hcp hmintbmsS ]dp. Xcn XtmShv tZyjyw tXmm Hcp Imcyhp apmbncpn. Fnpw B Ipn ]dp. cmPtKm]me\v Xcn. Ah A]am\nX\mbn. ]ntp ]pes DWtm Xtes Xnm\p`hw Hmbn hp. Ah ImSpInSbn \SpIbmsWpw, Ans\ \Sptm s]sv Hcp ]gb sInSw ImWpp shpw kev]np. Bf\ anm B sInSnse Hcp apdnbn \ndsb s]n IWn\v If tNmpI shncnbmWv. X\nmhiyap{X tNmpI FSpmw. Ah Hcp s]nbn \ndv ]pdp ISp. mkn shv Ah hnXcWw sNbvXp. ameXnsbmgnsI Fmhpw sImSpp. ameXnbpsS hnjamb apJw Ih Xr]vXnbSp. Iuamcnsenbtm Abm kpcnIfmb s]IpnIfpambn {]Wb nemhpXpw apw kz]v\w Ip. anhmdpw kl]mTnItfm Asn h IymWnt\m ]ndm kZytm Aen thebpsS kabtm I ]mhmS bn s]IpnIfmhpw Ah. hopw hepXmbtm Abm henb kv { XoIsfn BtemNnp IYI fpmn. Ah AbmtfmSv kwkmcnpXpw, Abm Ahsc Xs apdnbntev WnpXpw Fns\ ]ckv]c kapmIpp FXpw Abm `mh\bn s\bvXpmn. Abm kzbw \nn NqSn DcpIpw, Ahkm\w B kv{Xo Xs

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`mh\mcXnbn hgpXphsc. IymWw Igntijw Abm Cu Ifnp Xp\nbmdn. ]t Cns\bp GIm Znhkfn Abm kwXr]v X nmbn Hmtcm kv { XoIsf `mh\bn kzoIcnmdpv . A\nXtbmSpIqSn ]dbm clkyamWXv . AXv Xs Hcp kzImcyambncns. Xs cp hyXykv X apJ. icnp PohnXn s]cpamdptm Abm kv{XoItfmSv ]camh[n am\yXtbmsS s]cpamdpp Ah t]mbngnm, Hbvmhptm AtX kv{XoIfpsS \icocn\pthn tamlnpp. i\nbmgvN cmhnse Fgpttm kabw HXv. cm{Xn F{X t\cw Xm tcWpI bpambn kmev]nIambn cXn \Snsbdnbn. Ddm hfsc sshIn. Ipfn Ignv Nmb IpSntm ]c aWn Ignp. Abm hoSp]qn ]pdn dn. Ftmp t]mIpp FXns\n henb cq]sampan. \Sp XpSnbtm ImepI Xs \bnXv Aentep hgnbntembncpp. AXbmsf ApXsSpnbn, am{Xa IpdsmmmZnnpIbpw sNbvXp. Aew sNdpXmWv. skpappSp Hpcp kv{XoI am{Xw {]ZnWw shppv. {iotImhnentev ISpnSv Hmw \a:inhmb Fv FgpXnbnpv . inht{XamWv. Aen\p ]pdpIS Abm FXncnep hoSpI FnpSn. AmatXv HmSn sNdnb hoSmWv. B hcnbn atsXmw H \nebnep sSdv sInSfmWv. AhbvnSbn sshcpyw IpdnpsImv B HmSn hoSv \nesImp. ]nI shSnpmnb sKbvn\p apn Abm kwibnp \np. Abmv h hgntb Xncnpt]mImw. Hcp hnhmlnXbmb kv{XobpsS hon Ah HmsW dnpsImv IbdnspI tamiamsWbmp tXmn. AhcpsS `mhp sn IpgamhpIbpw sNpw. X\nv Hcp hniZoIcWw sImSpm Ignsp hcn. sKbvn sh ssI ]nhenv Abm Xncnp. AtmgmWv P\eneqsS tcWpI hnfnXv. tN\t? Fm AhnsS \nWXv? hcq. Ah hmXn Xpdv apsn. Rm Aen hXmbncpp. Abm ]dp.Atm Hmhp tcWpI ChnsS ASpmWv XmaknpsXv. hoSp Ip ]nSnv t]mImsap IcpXn. hcq Nmb IpSnnp t]mImw. Ftmgpw Ans\bmWv. Cns\sbmsbmWpmhpI. tcWpI Xs ImWpw, AItp hnfnpw, Xm Ibdpw Fsms hn`mh\w sNbvXXmWbm. Ctm tcWpI Xs Wnptm Abm ]Xdpp. ImepI \opn. Rm ]nosSmcn hcmw. A\nX hcs. AXns\m ]nsbpw hcmasm. Ctm CXphsc hnv Nmb IpSnmsX t]mhmtWm? Abm Ahp ]nn AItp Ibdn. tcWpI ss\v KuWmWnncpXv. ASn`mKw IodnpSnb Hcp Nmc \ndnep Ku. AIp IStm AbmfpsS Dmlsamw sIp. cp Nqc Itkcbpw Nqcens Xs Hcp sNdnb htaibpw. P\ens I\pI Iodn apjnncpp. HccpIn \c taibpw Itkcbpw. Fmw s]mSn ]nSnXmWv. P\encnIn sh s_nt cSn Smn Ienb shn KXnInmsX \op Hcp kzayw. CsXmpambncpn Abm {]XonXv. Abm t\mpXp Itm tcWpI ]dp. AXv tams kmZyamWv. Ah acymZbvv t\mpIsbmpan. B aySmv apdnbnse ap km[\fpambn ApXIcamw hw s]mcpsp t]mIppmbncpp. FmWnns\sbms? Abmv hnizknm\mbn. Xs hon \nv ImWp tcWpItbb CXv . AhfpsS hoSmIm h CXv . Cu Ahbvv ImcWsambncnpw. sNdnb hoSmWv RfpsS. Cu apdnbpw ]ns InSpapdnbpw sNdnsbmcSpfbpw. Nqc ItkcbnencppsImv Abm InSpapdn {inp. Hcp In. apjnp Iodnb InShncn. Abm s]sv ZpxJnX\mbn. tcWpIbvv AlnpXv Inpn F tXm Abmpmbn.

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AXns P\sems Hv sXmdv ImWm sImXymbnsmSn....... sXmSpv thsd hoSpIsfmpansv Abm {inp. tImWnSn Ibdn cP\nbpw hnaebpw hp. cP\nbpsS In aSnb Hcp Nmpv. Abm hnaesb ASpp hnfnv B InsSn ImWnpsImSpp. AXns GWpIfn t\cnb Nphp sampI apfbvpp. Rm AXp Inpv. hnae ]dp. Ah Ipnp \npIbmbncpp. AbmfpsS ASpv hfsc ASpv. ukns apI `mKpIqsS AhfpsS amdnSw ImWmw. Imn Imnb shfnsbpsS Kw. Abm Akz\mbn ]namdn. CXn \ndsb sampIfmWv. Abm ]dp. AsXmw hncnbs. FmWn{X [rXn. Rm ]noSv sImps]mbvsmmw. Abm Xncnp \SpsImv ]dp. ]ns, F\nbvv InsSnI A{Xb[nIw Cw Hpwy. tImWnSnI Cdn BZys emUnwKn \nv Xncnpt\mnbtm tImWnhmXneneqsS I s{^bnan BImins Hcp IjWhpw AXn\p Xmsg Ccpp \nd apJhpambn A\msX \np hnaebpw AhfpsS Im AtbmSv FSpm Bhiysv ssIIfpbn \np Hcp Ipnsbtmse InsSnbpapmbncpp. Abm [rXnbn tImWnbndn. ktcm-hcw amknI 1990

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