I have always been a decent writer according to most of my past teachers.

I have struggled to progress in my writing because of my writing process.

There are many flaws in my writing process that can be traced back to rules I
have learned from teachers and ones I have created myself.
In
analyzing my writing process I start with the pre write portion of my writing
process. I have been taught to create a rubric or create a plan to follow by
before starting my draft but I prefer not to do any type of prewrite. I do this
because in in tests such as the TSI you are not given enough time to create a
rubric so I have translated that process to any writing I have to do. In doing
this I feel that it allows my thoughts to flow onto the paper as they come to
me. With this I also feel it allows me to write my best.
While I begin to write I always as I have been
taught to write the introduction first, body paragraphs next, and then the
conclusion. While I write, I write what comes to mind and I dont tend to think
about what I am writing because I trust what my mind tells me to write. In
my writing process I go straight through my paper without stopping and
never look back at what I have already written. I feel that writing straight
through my papers allows me to get all my thoughts on paper as fast as
possible before they are forgotten.

When I was

young I was very confident in my writing because I had gotten the only 4
which is the best possible score you could receive on the TAKS test. With
word of my score spreading amongst the teachers they began to talk and see

me as a very proficient writer. One teacher even gave me a nickname being

4 because I was the only student to obtain that score. As I moved on and
got older I was very confident in my writing, thinking I was some sort of
prophet in writing. Reality struck in high school where grammar and the
overall purpose was looked at in depth and I struggled. In struggling I began
to doubt my writing knowing I was not as good of a writer as I once believed.
With this experience I now doubt my writing constantly while I write. This is
hard because I feel that the purpose of my papers are not clear and what I
write about does not connect or I go of topic. I feel that my doubts hurts my
writing process greatly because it hinders my process to think clearly and
focus on what the true purpose of the paper is.
I follow the basic was to
create body paragraphs which is to have main points in each paragraph and
support it. I learned this from every English I have had. I tend to repeat
myself while I support the point of the paragraph. I do this because I cannot
think of any more supporting details to add so to fill in space by repeating
a previous supporting detail. I feel that in doing this makes my paragraphs
look unorganized and were given no thought while I wrote them. I try to get
as much supporting details because my previous teachers have hammered
the idea that your points must be supported to the fullest but they never
gave an idea of when its full.
My conclusions are what I feel the most comfortable
with creating because what my definition of a conclusion is reiterating the

main points which is simple to me and hasnt caused me to doubt my

conclusion.

My

revision has been a problem at times because if I didnt catch a grammar

issue or a misuse of a word I wont catch it while I revise because while I
write I make sure no mistakes are being made. I usually skim over my paper
for obvious mistakes and grammar issues but with no intention of changing
my paper drastically. I prefer to do you changes while you write rather than
after.
Overall my writing process is rushed through only following the plan I
created in my head. I doubt what I have written while I also revise while I
write. In the creation of the body paragraphs I saturate them with repeating
ideas and when I revise I skim through for any noticeable mistakes, not
having the intention of changing the paper dramatically.

Autoethnography
At my house around 8. Everyone is asleep. I have word and blackboard on my
laptop. I have my phone next to my laptop on vibrate. The T.V is on.
1-5 Begin reading the directions and questions[RD][RQ]
6-10 Am not sure how to start the essay so I reread the questions[RQ]
11-15 I decide to answer the questions given to us and start writing[GP][Ws]
15-20 I am focused on answering the questions and finish my first paragraph[Ws]
21-25 I look at my phone and get up and walk around[Ph][Br+]
26-30 I come back to my seat and read another question to answer[Rq][Gp]
31-35 I chose a question and start answering it. I stop once to think more in detail.
[Ws][S]
35-40 I finish the second paragraph thinking its okay [ws]
41-45 I am anxious to finish this so I start reading the questions[Rq][Gp]
45-50 I begin the third paragraph writing whatever comes to me[Ws]
51-55 I finish the third paragraph and stop to think. I then go lay on the couch for a
while[Ws][Q][Br+]
56-60 I go back to my seat and look at my phone for another while[Ph]
61-65 I read chose another question to answer and think about it [Rq][Gp]
66-70 I begin answering the question and write whatever is coming to me [Ws]
71-75 I stop writing and think it over then continue to finish the fourth paragraph
[Ws][Q]

76-80 I get up and walk around to think [Br+]

81-85 I sit back down and chose another question still very anxious [RQ]
86-90I begin to answer the question stopping once to retain my thoughts [Ws][Gp]
95-100 I finish the fifth paragraph[Ws]
101-105 I get up and lay on the couch while I look at my phone [Br-][Ph]
106-110 I go back to the chair where I was sitting and begin to choose another
question to answer. I then start writing the sixth paragraph [Rq][Ws]
111-115 I sop to rethink about the paragraph and continue the paragraph [Q][Ws]
116-120 I finish the sixth paragraph and I am very anxious to finish so I begin to
write my conclusion [Ws]
121-125 I finish my conclusion and look over the paper [Ws]
126-130 I revise my paper [R]

After analyzing my writing process from a different point of view I can now see what my
true writing process is. There are many similarities and differences from what I believed
what my writing process was from what it is. I will now reveal my real writing process.
In my pre-writing phase I do not create and physical rubric or plan to
follow, instead a plan is made mentally. I create this plan after reading the directions of
the assignment until I can fully understand what is being asked of me. After I fully
understand what is being asked of me I create a rubric in my mind. In the rubric is the
directions and main points I am going to follow in my writing process. With my rubric in
mind I then think of how to approach the topic in hand and how I could accomplish my
main goal of getting my point across as clearly as possible. With a blueprint in mind I
know start with the introduction of my paper.
While writing my introduction I look to get the purpose of the paper across
as clearly as possible. In my introduction I set up the purpose and lay a pathway for the
body paragraphs. Now with the knowledge and understanding of the topic at hand and
having laid a pathway for my body paragraphs I begin the body paragraphs of the

paper.
In writing my body paragraphs I have to have a main point to each that
supports the main purpose and with the main point there are supporting details. I repeat
supporting details in my paragraphs and I do this because I want to have as much
support as I possibly can and in doing so I run out of supporting details so in order to fill
up the paragraph I repeat details with the intention to make the paragraph better. In
doing so I make the body paragraphs look unorganized and rushed. I also obtained my
main ideas from the guiding questions. In doing this I looked for the easy way out and it
makes my essay look unplanned and not thought out.
While I write I found that I pause in the middle of writing to think and make
sure I am accomplish the goal of that paragraph. I stop to also gain confidence in what I
had previously written. I doubt my writing because of the experience I had in being
falsely overconfident in my writing. I believed my writing was superior to any on elses
and I did not have to try as hard to perfect my writing like everyone else. Then came
reality when I realized my writing is not the best and is not even close. I then learned to
doubt my writing because in doubting myself I take time to gain confidence in my writing
and in doing so I make my writing better. During the time where I am thinking I also
reinstate the purpose and my objectives, by doing this I am constantly reminded what I
need to accomplish in my writing. I also take time between paragraphs to regain focus
and as well reinstate objectives. These breaks in my writing are often five to ten minutes
long. In these breaks I move away from the computer and walk around or simply sit
somewhere else other than where I was writing the paper. While these longer breaks
can be very positive they can also be negative. Leaving the place where I work gives

opportunitys to get off task. At times I would look at my phone or watch T.V which would
discontinue the flow of my ideas. Getting off topic was like a dam cutting off the flow of
my ideas. Then when I would get back to my paper I would have to organize my
thoughts and reinstate my objectives again. I would then continue to look for ideas by
reading the directions. This jump starts my thoughts and makes it easier to continue my
paper.
After my body paragraphs are complete I then come to my conclusion. I
am very comfortable creating s conclusion because I have been taught that a
conclusion is a reiteration of the main points given in every body paragraph. I noticed
that in my conclusion I was very anxious to finish so that anxiousness allowed my mind
to have my ideas explode out of my head. This made it easy to conclude my paper.
After I conclude my paper I skim over my paper as a whole to look for any
noticeable mistakes or misuse of words. I do not look too much in depth while I revise
my paper because I revise while I write. I feel that if I dont catch it while I write then I
will not catch it while I revise the paper as a whole because if I miss it while I write it
most likely means I dont know there is anything wrong with it so then I wont find
anything wrong with it when I revise as a whole. When I revise I look for grammar
issues, misinterpretation of words, and to make sure what I have written makes sense. I
make sure that I am getting my point across as clearly I possible. When I revise I
noticed I do it with the intention to not change my paper dramatically, I do it to tweak it
and make small changes.
I see my writing process as adding layer by layer because in my writing
process I start of by adding the first layer or introduction, then I will create a paragraph

then stop or add another layer, then will continue to create more paragraphs or adding
more layers until I am happy with the outcome. Between each layer I stop to look over
what each layer does to make the overall product different.
Overall I see that my writing process was very different from what I
previously thought but there are also similarities. I do make a rubric to follow but it is
kept in my head. While I write paragraph I unload my ideas but I doubt them, then I stop
to regain confidence and it inspires me t keep on going. Between paragraphs I take
breaks to refuel my thoughts and make sure everything is going according to plan. In
my conclusions I anxiously finish them. Then in my revision I quickly skim through my
paper looking for minor mistakes but not with the intention to change my paper
drastically. My writing process has many positives but also many negatives that I can
now see from looking in depth.