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around the corner. The answer to that why is not easy because it is so
simple: I fell in love with the Eucharist and therefore with the Church. It is
the Eucharist that drew me, holds me and roots me in faith.
Yet, it took a while before I discovered its mystery, joy and challenge
for I grew up in a family and context that was outspokenly anti-Catholic.
My grandfather came from the Netherlands to Belgium in order to
convince Catholics to leave the Church and become evangelicals.
He
thought
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that
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Roman
Catholic
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was
unchristian.
grandmother was one of his first converts. My father and all his brothers
worked as pastors or ministers within evangelical congregations. From an
early age I had questions, some triggered by personal pain due to a history
of sexual abuse and the reality of a mother who was seriously and
terminally ill. I often wondered quietly How can you say that you believe
one thing and live another? and the tears I shed were many.
First of all, you Filipinos were and are genuinely sacramental. The
way Christ is present in and among you is almost touchable. You opened
my heart to receive joy and trust in life itself. More so, your joy is related
to thankfulness and to humility. It is a gift to the world and the Church of
which I hope that you will not lose it. My country, sadly, appears to thrive
but actually dies due to an absence of thankfulness. Arrogance kills where
thankfulness brings life.
The second gift I received was that of freedom from all the prejudices
towards Catholicism that I had been brought up with and thus receiving
the freedom that sees what is right and beautiful in the Church.
It is also in this country that I began my theological studies. I spent
a lot of time in the library of the Loyola house of studies at the Ateneo de
Manila. Here I discovered a depth in Orthodox and Catholic thinking that
made me hungry for more. The richness and beauty that all truth is Gods
truth began to draw me. The question: where do I belong as a Christian
and what does it mean to be Church, began to weigh.
Where do I belong?
What I did not expect, is that this question would be answered not
only when my head became clear but also when my
The first was during the litany of the Saints: Sancta Maria, ora pro
nobis, sancte Petre, sancte Augustine, ora pro nobis. To say it moved me
falls far short of what truly happened. I felt and sensed and smelled in my
whole being this is our family this is my family. They are present. It
made me feel humble, small and profoundly peaceful.
Only later did I realize how the experience of that moment speaks
volumes about the essence of being Christian. We are in Christ. What is
His is ours. All those saints are our brothers and sisters praying for us,
even the angels do. Our true home is with them. When we sing the litany,
when we remember them, they do not remain a memory from the past or
an interesting story to read. They are with us. Why? Because of Christ
and his Church. Christ is our hope and they know Him as glory as we will
do one day.
The second moment during the Easter vigil, was even more
fundamentally real. It came during the lifting of the host at consecration.
To see the priest hold high the consecrated host, no words can express
what I experienced then and ever since with a certain regularity. If I try, I
would say that I felt and continue to know this: Christ is really present.
Not only spiritually or emotionally, also concretely, materially, in the flesh
and as fully as possible. I did not understand this by reason, but as a
way of knowing. All I wanted to do was lie down before Him in complete
silence.
Our unity as a Church lies in Christ who sent from the Father and
through the Holy Spirit comes to us very really in the Eucharist. Not our
thinking, our decisions, our points of view or theories bind us together. He
does and here lies our true hope for He is not an idea but a Person in
whom and with whom we have all things in common.
When we say amen, we do so to Him and not to ourselves or our
many constructions.
and living liturgy that strengthens the faith , the twin that belonged to
Malines is placed naked in a glass cupboard. Religion and especially
Catholicism is for many people in my country
empty of ourselves and so full of Him that it spills out in deeds of pure
goodness.
I became and remain a Roman Catholic due to the Eucharist. All of
us, every single person as well as whole nations can taste and see how
great our God is and how indescribably beautiful his desire is for us to
receive hope and grow in His glory. Why? Because He is and He gives
Himself unconditionally. He is our glory.
The song that is about to be played is very old. It is part of a hymn
written by Saint Thomas Aquinas for the feast of Corpus Christi. It sums
up who Christ wants to be for us. He, the One who opened the doors of
heaven, can give us strength to overcome every struggle we have to go
through. It is He who will lead us to our true home: the land of God, our
Father.
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