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Alyssa Dannhausen
March 12, 2015
SW 3510
Wayne State University
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would force me to eat and they didnt understand the affects that had on me.
During this time in my life, if I would eat, even a few bites, it would make me
instantly want to purge. I think a lot of people have a misconception of a
person struggling with an eating disorder. It is mentally debilitating and
forcing someone to eat when they have been going through what I went
through is difficult. I would instantly want to find free time to purge whatever
I had just ate. My family would sit outside the bathroom door to listen in and
find out if I was throwing up.
From the ages of eleven to twenty years old, I struggled immensely
with body image and self-esteem. I was diagnosed with anorexia at the age
of twelve and it followed me into my early adult years. It was brought to the
attention to my mother that I was extremely thin, by my sister, and I was
forced to see a therapist. Over the course of five years, I had seen three
therapists, none of which I felt were helping me. I had continued to see one
therapist for several years, that I had a hard time relating to. My mother and
the therapist had always had a meeting before my session, leaving the
therapist with a preconceived notion of what was happening. During our
sessions the therapist would constantly side with my mother on every issues
we discussed and it caused me to not trust my therapist. During the course
of my therapy sessions I was forced into interventions with my family and
specific diets that were created to make me gain weight. While I was in high
school I was told by my mom, and my therapist, I would not be able to attend
my prom, due to the fact that they could not monitor my eating.
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beautiful was a skill, it was part of who you are and what you did. If you were
beautiful, then everyone would accept you.
My eating disorder will always stay with me, it is not something I will
fully recover from. It does fuel be to be a stronger person and to stay in
recovery. I have willed myself to be a strong person and not to fall into the
trap again. I do, however, have moments on weakness that I really feel
myself slipping back into the old habit of not eating.
Depression
Depression and my eating disorder fed off of each other. There may
have been other factors playing into my depression and eating disorder, such
as a rough break-up. I was diagnosed with depression by my psychologist
and was put on a series of depression medicine. I was first prescribed Prozac,
which was very scary for me because I had never been on medication before.
The first few weeks on the medication went okay, but I had to keep
increasing the amount I was taking. I got up to a certain amount and it broke
me. My family and I were up at our cabin in Grayling, Michigan, and one
night the Prozac got the best of me. I personally do not have any recollection
of the event that occurred, so this is based off of what I was told. I
completely blacked out for about 5 hours, and apparently had gotten into a
fight with my sister. One moment I was screaming and the next I was crying.
When I started coming back to life, as I say, I remember laying in my sisters
arms crying and shaking. Needless to say I was taken off of that medication
and was told to try another.
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worker is to help fight for equal rights for every human being. I cannot stress
how important and significant that is in my life.
Having a family that is racists has only fueled my fire for equality. It
sickens me that people are so judgmental and still have a problem with race
or the LGBT population. Even as a woman, I still get discriminated against,
and I will be apart of the change. I know I can not do much right now to fight
the change, but I will be apart of it one day.
My childhood has been messy and painful. It is not the perfect
childhood you wish for and it has had long lasting affects on me. Although I
have a lot of hurt and anger still, I do believe that is has helped me to
become a better person and to strive for a better life for my child. It is
important to look at your life and see what was the most painful and turn
into strength. A lot of my past is very difficult to talk about but I can only
help that it allows others to relate to me and to know they are not alone.
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