Not sure you will ever be able to read this, but if you do, then everything I need to say

is inside this poem/freestyle/crappy piece, however you call it. I couldn't decide on the title, hope it's appropriate enough though.

A GOODBYE FOR THE PAST (Dedicated to someone whose friendship I assume to be extraordinarily meaningful)

They say the world is vast, I say its tiny For I stumbled upon you, my childhood Psyche We go way back, to the good old days Speaking of which, do you miss em, the good old days? The same girl: casual, open, easy to talk to Rosy cheeks turned pink when I tried to mock you Couldnt help, I fell for you once again This time, knowing I didnt stand a chance Cuz there is a gap between us, about the size of Baikal Unlike those years, when you chased me around the tables Youre now young, animated, filled with vitality Im old and tired, close to finality Your lifes impeccable, bright future awaiting Mine is an aimless wonder, a struggle with no escaping My relationship had sunk, so I boarded this friendship Clung on to false hope, wishing to heal a wound that ran deep I knew it was going nowhere, right from the start But my heart kept beating the wrong rhythm when I saw you from afar I wasnt named the hopeless romantic for no reason You blew away the winter in me, spring is now my season

Thunder struck when I heard that your heart got stolen Not a big surprise, though admittedly mine was broken Dreaming of being your chosen one And I ended up being the forgotten one So I fed lies to myself all along For it hurt like hell, trying to act like Im so strong Truths that you have never been, and will never be mine However hard I prayed to God, in those sleepless nights I gotta stay clear of this, its the best thing to do To be honest, I promised never to do any harm to you The decision was simple, just nowhere near easy Even Atlas couldnt bear the burden weighing on me Hence I told you all, to get it off my chest Stammering out words, without a high zest There would never be us, that I understand Please forgive me, for harbouring the wrong mindset But Ill never apologize for saying what I feel For that's like saying sorry for being real. Holding my breath, I looked at those blushing cheeks in the dreaded silence For your judgement, as crimson scattered across the distant horizon

One minute felt like a lifetime, then I sighed out in relief You said we could still be friends, its kinda beyond my belief Deceiving my own conscience for such a long time Naively I thought that its not a very wrong crime Still, its so awkward that I decided to bury everything Tomorrow morning, Im going to drop you one last message

Telling you to take care, wishing you the bestest Thats it, the end of a chapter which shouldve never been reopened Ill pack up the past and drop it, midway there into the ocean Pacific, perfect name for a person finding peace Guess its best for us, that youre kept away from me When I get off the plane to a foreign land, youll still be the same The immaculate angel, whose purity cannot be stained Our paths wont cross again, to save me from the pain But remember girl, to keep your head up Even if you got smacked down, always try to get up When things go wrong, you go strong, cause life goes on Sorry for keeping you so long, its hard to hold my thoughts Worry not, Imma end this crappy piece "Dear friend, stay happy, thats all I want you to be."