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Poetry of Myself and Others

Alone - PLH......................................................................................................................................................3 Another Lifetime - PLH.......................................................................................................................................3 The Answer - SCB.............................................................................................................................................4 Arsenic - Unk....................................................................................................................................................4 Astral Images - MSA..........................................................................................................................................4 The Becoming - MSA..........................................................................................................................................5 Black Dragon - TBR...........................................................................................................................................6 Boring - SCB.....................................................................................................................................................6 The Call - SCB..................................................................................................................................................7 Camelot - MSA..................................................................................................................................................7 Choice - SCB....................................................................................................................................................7 City - SLW........................................................................................................................................................8 Corpus Humanitas - PLH.....................................................................................................................................8 Dance - SCB.....................................................................................................................................................8 Dark Streets-Slick Streets - Yossarian..................................................................................................................8 Darkness - PLH.................................................................................................................................................9 Divorce - MSA...................................................................................................................................................9 Dreams - SCB.................................................................................................................................................10 Duality - SCB..................................................................................................................................................10 First Time - PLH...............................................................................................................................................10 Friend Death - MSA..........................................................................................................................................10 Giving Up - SCB..............................................................................................................................................10 Goodbye - PLH................................................................................................................................................11 Heartbeats - MSA............................................................................................................................................11 How - MSA.....................................................................................................................................................11 The Hunger - PLH............................................................................................................................................11 Insomnia - SCB...............................................................................................................................................13 Lianna's Untitled Poem - LM..............................................................................................................................13 A Limbo - MSA................................................................................................................................................14 Love Lost - PLH...............................................................................................................................................14 Midnight Garden - MSA.....................................................................................................................................15 The Moon - PLH...............................................................................................................................................15 Moonlight - MSA..............................................................................................................................................15 The Moonlit Path - PLH.....................................................................................................................................16 My Muse - PLH................................................................................................................................................16 Passionate Embrace - PLH.................................................................................................................................17 Ode to a Lady Reborn - PLH..............................................................................................................................17 Ode to a Vampire - MSA...................................................................................................................................18 Poetry II - MSA...............................................................................................................................................18 Primal Feelings - PLH.......................................................................................................................................18 Rage Across My Mind - MSA..............................................................................................................................19 Rainbow Luck - MSA........................................................................................................................................19 The Raven - PLH..............................................................................................................................................20 Requiem at Dusk for the Day - PLH....................................................................................................................20 Return of Love - PLH........................................................................................................................................20 Sanity - PLH....................................................................................................................................................21 Seduction - MSA..............................................................................................................................................21 Shadows - MSA...............................................................................................................................................22 Shadows - PLH................................................................................................................................................22 Sleeping Beauty - SCB.....................................................................................................................................23 Smoke - PLH...................................................................................................................................................23 Soul Ache - MSA..............................................................................................................................................23 Souls - MSA....................................................................................................................................................24 Start - SCB.....................................................................................................................................................24 Subtle Changes - PLH.......................................................................................................................................24 Tears Greet the Morning - SCB..........................................................................................................................25 Tempestt Untitled Poem - TBR...........................................................................................................................25 Tempestt Untitled Poem II - TBR.......................................................................................................................25 Temperance - MSA..........................................................................................................................................26 Thoughts on a Teardrop - MSA..........................................................................................................................26 Tonight - SCB.................................................................................................................................................26 The Touch - SCB..............................................................................................................................................27 Trapped - MSA................................................................................................................................................27

Twilight - PLH..................................................................................................................................................27 Whispers - MSA...............................................................................................................................................28 Wix - MSA......................................................................................................................................................28 A Wolf Howls - PLH..........................................................................................................................................29 Wolf Hunt - TBR..............................................................................................................................................29 Words - MSA...................................................................................................................................................29 You and I - SCB...............................................................................................................................................30

Alone - PLH In my life, I am destined to walk alone. Never to know the pleasure of a love. Only the responsibility of protection. I may walk among the tribes of the Earth, But it's people are forever separated from me. I am but a tool of the gods. In life, I have always been the big brother. The one who must stand up for his friends. It is a responsibility that I cherish. This same responsibility is a bane to me. I would give it up, if only for one thing. The love of a wife and child. But it is my destiny to walk alone, to protect Those in need. this is a cycle in life that I Cannot break, even if I tried. Another Lifetime - PLH You once said that I was your past, But in another lifetime, We were both embracing the future. You once said 'I'll see you sometime', But in another lifetime, You said "I'll see you tonight". You once said that you wanted some space, But in another lifetime, You wanted only to hold me close. You once said I couldn't keep my word, But in another lifetime, My honor was the foundation of our life. You once said I taught you to touch, But in another lifetime, We learned these things together. You once said that I was nothing special, But in another lifetime, You gave me your heart and soul. You once said that water was your home, But in another lifetime, I taught you to love the mountains too. You once said that I would lose you, But in another lifetime, You vowed to stay with me forever. You once said I deserved love, But in another lifetime, We loved like there was no tomorrow. You once said that Thialal was the most beautiful, But in another lifetime, You thought that honor belonged to Sophia Ruth. You once said you were looking for love, But in another lifetime,

It was I who was your one and only. You once said to fear three little words, But in another lifetime, Those words made me happier than you could know. You once said silence is golden, But in another lifetime, We sang beautifully together. You once said that we had grown apart, But in another lifetime, Nothing could separate us but the end. You once said you would hurt me, But in another lifetime, You thought the same thing too. The Answer - SCB oh my sharp pretty! So beautiful keen and shiny. Are you at last my one true friend? Accepting my warm flesh. Although others reject it. Embracing the warm flow. Transforming this tub into A crimson bed for me to sleep a final sleep upon. But there is one last hope Keeping us apart. It is very frail and thin. And if it should break I am comforted by knowing that you. My precious will be there for me. Arsenic - Unk The dogs of night ripping at my soul quickly, lethally They reveal what I am to become in my life: Dark, Morbid, Fascinating Give in, Soul, Give in Let the demons in Let the ghosts inhabit The beasts, monsters, They are to be my lovers But I will alxays keep A delicate touch for the flower A love for the music that shaped My past lives But will attain a passionate lust For this life's music And Thorns And Arsenic For this is my life now And those were then. Astral Images - MSA As I was dancing on the astral plane I saw you and you called my name I ran to you, reached you my hand and we danced as one Our astral bodies

entwined as we flew to the stars Your hands caressing my face as we mingled in a kiss Our hearts beating in time as we lay together among the moonbeams, your breath hot upon my skin And you tell me you love me as the astral winds softly blow around us urging us on Voices crying through the astral dark, take him he's yours and I step back, you reach to me and once again we dance spiraling ever upwards together we fly together you and I I tell you I can never leave you You say the same Upward, we turn and stop floating above the stars carefully noting everything that's ours Then a gentle tub, we part I open tear-filled eyes approach a window Sun shining brightly as I wonder what happened, if it was true chills cover my skin as I step outside gentle breezes tugging me I find myself at your door The Becoming - MSA In a dark room behind a locked door, a black candle is lit. Man and woman sit on the bed exchanging nervous smiles. "Are you ready?" he asks me, and I nod. Razors leave crimson trails across our shoulders. He licks his lips; I bow my head. His teeth brush my skin, his tongue satiating months' long hunger. My mouth seeks his flowing wound and closes tightly. Liquid fire flows down my throat, coursing to

my growling stomach. A hunger awakens within me. My bare chest brushes his, our hips kiss from the pressure of my knees wound tightly around his waist. A warmth I've never experienced engulfs me. My soul leaves my body. I look down from above to witness yin and yang, light and dark, father and daughter. Split souls become whole. My body falls back pale and lifeless as it lays dying. I touch my cold lips where no air flows. I touch my breast where no heart beats. I am draped in astral darkness, blasted by cold winds. Something pushes me, and I fall. My soul hits my body with such force that I scream and wake. Clearing the fog from my mind and my eyes I sit up and realize I have been reborn. Black Dragon - TBR She walks in Shadows Treads the hidden path Star gazer Dream weaver Blade wielder She stands at the crossroads And sees The darkness in the corners of men's hearts The Predator lurks In the depths of her eyes, Two wills, Two worlds entangled in one soul. Mistress Dark, Unbound Desire, Dancer in the Night. Stands protected beneath an ever shifting cloak of names. Bootheels click In the cage of her mind. Steady step Silent footfall So walks the Traveler. The Raven screams triumphant. A crack appears at the Doorway, And she laughs. Boring - SCB Boring? You now tell me that I'm boring? Once upon a time you weren't bored with me. There must have been something there to catch your interest. We used to talk for hours on end.

Never tiring of each others voices. Never running out of subjects. We used to sing together. In our own little off key way. we used to dance together. When there was no music to play. We used to create a world of our own. Out of the quilt I used to have on my bed. but slowly, methodically, you have silenced me. Gradually you have talked with me less and less. Until we no longer share as we used to. You have silenced my voice. Telling me to be quiet. Telling me not to sing. You have paralyzed my feet. Telling me not to dance. The old quilt is now worn beyond recognition. And you seem too tired to make the repairs. So, am I boring? Or is it something more? Is it that you have been slowly killing What first drew you to me? Are you just now realizing How boring a corpse is? The Call - SCB I feel you calling me deep down inside. Through my entire being. Chilling me to the soul. Asking me out into the night. Telling me it's time to come home. Camelot - MSA Galahad my Galahad -- this Camelot is so different from the one living so vividly in my memory. Yet your face is the same. I look into your eyes and know the man you'll grow to be. Tall of build, wide of shoulder, strong of mind, swift of sword. The world where we live, you and I, is so different from the old. We are far from the land of castles and never ending fields of green and flowers. Our land is full of pavement and electrical lines, computers and stereo sound. Yet I knew you from the first hello... Choice - SCB Why must you look at me As if I'm to make a decision? If only you could view My precarious perch

Through my troubled eyes. I can't move forward without help Help that you could have provided. Do you think I could move back? Do you know what it would cost me? My frail sanity and this new found sense of self Would you have me return to where I started? To undo all I have struggled for? What is this choice you expect me to make? Do you imagine he still means what he once did to me? How can I choose when there is no choice to make? City - SLW This city has no flavor. I have tasted just a few of its permanent residents, and they are just as rank as its permanent visitors. No flavor. I can remember when I had a wide variety to choose from back in the big City. But now I live here. The only friends that I have I have because their blood would probably poison me. At times I get so thirsty that I have to travel greatly just to find a decent looking container of that precious liquid. I grow very weary of this town that I now inhabit. I yearn to be back in my city. Full of lights and sounds, and good tasting women! My place. Where I can easily reveal myself without worry. That is where I have my deepest hates for this area where I now live. For too many people believe we could exist. There are even a few of them that are certain of it. For this reason I cannot reveal myself here. For these reasons I will soon return to my city. For this Town sickens me. And I will drink of it no more!! Corpus Humanitas - PLH Glass shatters like a broken soul, No chalice to hold the smoke of life, Things left undone, promises yet to keep, But no heart to power this emotion, No love to counter the anger or pain, The flow of rage held in check, No longer by a mind that cares for life, Only death will satisfy these hungers now, These things are all that a broken mind can remember: In hic jacet, ignoratia ad lucen, Ex sapentiam ad tenebras quondam futurus. Dance - SCB You wish me to dance. Is there another you would prefer? Asking to dance only out of desperation. Knowing all to well that I can refuse you nothing. I do not wish to be used this way. I know you could have partners. More beautiful and graceful than I. But for me, you are the only dance partner I want. Any one else is simply a poor substitute. It has been long since I danced with you. And I do not wish to dance alone. For I only weep in empty darkness afterwards. Dark Streets-Slick Streets - Yossarian Rolling...Cruising...shark...on the cold slick streets..

Looking..Hunting..eyes search..for any fresh meat... And all the roads are desolate..streetlight...dark ...remorseless.. Graveyards of lost souls...they wander bar to bar.. Hunting...searching...for their younger selves.. Eyes sex glazed and booze soaked... They dream other men's dreams..other men's lives... Their shadows cast shadows as they trundle along.. And I...in my taxicab...chariot of the lost.. I am faceless...I am the hunter... And I stalk them... for a fare.. Darkness - PLH Before our time has come my dear, You will feel the years going by. You will know why our kind does not end. Why we live our lives and never die. The Darkness surrounds our life within, This endless sleep of ages. And Madness is your only friend. Like a book with endless pages. Forever trapped in a waking dream. To some a nightmare it can be. for us it is the one truth that. Our hearts will ever get to see. Come now, follow into the Night. Come now, listen to my voice. For without me you wouldn't be alight. Even if you had the choice. Why does immortal life sometimes Seem so beautiful to me. They know not the pain and rage. That we hold so long within. Why do we sometimes forget my love. What our lives used to mean. Why must we sometimes regret. Things that we have never seen. For you know as well as I that we Have all the years this world will give To see those things we miss now. forever in this Darkness live. Divorce - MSA there go the couch, your favorite chair my bed stands against the wall alone there to the television, your hat tree my desk standing cluttered as always there go the baby's crib, his rocking horse my shelves of books collecting dust there go the dining room table the baby's toys my photographs dotting the walls there go your relatives my family turned away,

in six weeks in the mail papers to sign and it's over (c)1992 Mari S. Adkins Dreams - SCB It seems forever that I wait Looking for a specific pair of eyes. Holding on to one name given so long ago. A name from the dreams. Could you and he be that same? The name matches as does the eyes. It's so hard to be certain. After searching for so long. Sometimes hope fades. And I somehow move on. Still I weep at this separation from you. This pain of loneliness and longing. Has been my companion for so very long. Duality - SCB At times it seems incredulous. The duality of my life. Wearing one masque for the day. And a separate one at night. Perhaps it is triplicity. For it seems that neither one Is me. No, it seems more than that. Layer upon layer of deceit. Hiding every part of myself away from the world. And then misplacing the key. First Time - PLH Loving you is like a fresh new love, I have been in love before, But truly, you are the one who I waited for, Through many long nights and broken dreams, First time in a long time, That I have trusted someone like this, First time in a long time, That I have loved someone more than myself, First time that I've ever felt, Like I could stay with someone for Eternity, But with you, it would seem like a, Waste to wish for anything less. Our time together will be long, And our days joyous as can be, The nights filled with pleasure and love, Until the Goddess tells us our time is done, And we part as friends and lovers, forever. Friend Death - MSA Dear death it seems like ages since we've talked though in my dreams it seems we've walked more than a mile in each other's company Dear death come walk with me now in this so-called city of angel-lovers where everything and everyone is not what it seems -- it's not a dream -Dear death take my hand while I shut the door to love and life behind me when everything's in turmoil it seems only you take time to understand me Dear death tell me you're not an illusion that you're my friend and always will be when every other love and friend have deserted me (c)1992 Mari S. Adkins Giving Up - SCB I struggle and fight.

I claw and I bite The harder I try The deeper I sink Into this icy sea At times I think of giving up. Surrendering to the old around me. But then I find a new hope. A hidden strength And I am some how able to carry on. Sometimes I wonder if it's worth all this This shore I long to reach. I wonder if my life really will be better Lying upon that seemingly serene beach Perhaps I should just give in And let myself drown. it may be that this turmoil I feel Is the best thing that I may expect. Goodbye - PLH This is a childish endeavor, I care not where I go or why, My life is an endless stream of lies, Both to myself and to others, My soul is lost to me forever, And my other self is lost as well, No longer is joy what I need to feel, But oblivion in all it's myriad forms. What can I do to end this pain? What can I do to erase this debt? My soul is my own to shred in the night, I need not these tools of torment regained, Farewell my childe of love and passion. Your life you live as you see fit. I no longer will pass your way, Forget me, and move on to tomorrow. Heartbeats - MSA loneliness grabs you, gnaws at the very heart of your soul -call it what you must call it, but it's still Fate, draped in one of Her many colors... the pulse drums in your ears calmly taking your hand luring you down a long, rocky road full of pits and crags and weeds, and it's a dark road How - MSA How can I say I'm sorry when you're not here to hold my hand? The Hunger - PLH I wake with the smell of sweat on me, Dreams haunt my slumber of healing, They ravage me in my waking hours as well, Dreams of a past I left long ago.

The last rays of the Sun die behind the shades, And the beautiful night awakens within me, I feed on what I have, but it isn't enough, Still an ache remains within, begging for release. As I ready myself for this blessed eve, I muse a bit on what I feel within, And find only emptiness when I look, Into the mirror my soul has become. Clad in the armor of shadow, I walk forth, The feel of the concrete soothes my mind, For it is the only solid piece of reality, That I have known for a long time. My senses awakened within me as well, Slowly they push up from the pit, Until at last I can say I am alive, As alive as I have been or will ever be again. The smell of my car changes subtly, As he too awakens from a disturbed rest, And roars to a mechanical pseudo-life, In anticipation for my midnight ride. The lights of the city soothe me, For it is a thing alive as well, Pulsing with passion and blood, Of a thousand different kinds. My eyes are those of a hunter, Following one prey after the next, All turned aside for different reasons, Until at last I realize why. Tonight is a special night for me, I go not only to take life, But to give my gift to another, Who might also become one with the night. At last I am drawn to my prey, By a hand that reaches into my soul, And releases the poor hunter from the burden, Of his conscience and sometimes his very mind. When I see my beautiful young lady, Her hair long and midnight black, I see the reflection of the dark mother, In her movements, her eyes, and her soul. I no longer feel sad for this woman, For something within me says that she, Will be better off after I take her, And more alive than she's ever been before. I move in on her from the darkness, As she moves away almost without thought, And I feel pain as my teeth move to accept, This gift that the dark lady has offered. I take her before she even sees me, And the pearl white points pierce, Her tender young flesh and taste, Her very heart, both fear and passion filled.

I drink until the ecstasy overtakes me, And to celebrate I drink even more, Until she finally finds release as well, Cradled in the arms of her dark lover. Then my teeth pierce my own flesh, And the pain is nothing to me now, For it is the very fountain of youth I offer, Which has always been cloaked in blood. She drinks and the ecstasy fills us again, Deeper and deeper her droughts become, Until she finds another sort of release, This time not from longing, but from death itself. I leave her sleeping that same night, The first sleep of many she will have, And I know she will find me when she wakes, At least for tonight, our hunger's have been sated. Insomnia - SCB Too hot to sleep Too young to forget other uses for the night Too old Too mature to live that way again Others simply become a meal Drinking deeply and casting the husk aside Moving coldly on to the next The moon calls My eyes live for a lifeless text but my heart still howls Lianna's Untitled Poem - LM you ask me what it is that i see in him, why it is that i trail after him like a lost pup, but there is something about him no one thing in particular i think it is a combination of his many ways his heart which normally seems so harsh shows a softness when i truly need a friend his brown eyes shining with laughter but clouding with concern when i don't return his smile his gentle touch sending an electric current coursing through my veins and filling me with a deep yearning, but also comforting my deepest fears; the comfort of his arms whether pulling me into a passionate embrace or simply holding me tightly to his chest making me feel safe; those same hands which grip, squeeze, pull, explore, grasp, and probe

also rest on mine, and wipe away my tears his mouth which kisses, bites, and licks me to an erotic high also talks of wondrous things reassures me and whispers funny remarks into my ear finding my lost smile. it's hard to know if its love or just a need in the night, but does it really matter? there is no guilt, no shame, no reason for either, a friendship has been born and perhaps it will save us from ourselves A Limbo - MSA Sweet caress of the wind night falls on summer's end Birds follow that silent call to where summer's at Roses lose their petals in the wind A cloud of dust settles over the disused garden In the pond water begins to harden I have always been fond of the fall That limbo between summer and winter when the earth settles down for her sleep. On the lawn, willows begin to weep... Love Lost - PLH My love is gone, and she will never be back. I miss the things about her that I remember Her smell, her beautiful hair, the sound of Her yawn, the look of pleasure that I saw so rarely on her sweet face. I miss the things that I never had. The Feel of her body against mine, the gentle sound of her breathing as she sleeps, the sweet taste of her lips when we kissed. I even miss the things that I will never have. The feeling of pride on my wedding day, the gentle love making on our wedding night, the years of pleasure spent with each other. What a sad creature am I who can love someone So fully and yet lose them so easily. Was it Something I said or did that caused her to go Away? I will never know.

I do know that my short time with her has given Me many things. I have a new religion, a new Life, and a hurt that only time will heal. I Hope the sacrifice of my heart was not in vain. Midnight Garden - MSA I was dancing in the moonlight floating through the heat of the midnight garden I wish they never told me I wish I'd never heard No fantasy No dream only unimaginable reality Oh god Oh god Oh god This is real Real as the moon Real as the heat Sanity gone forever in the flash of a smile The scent of roses washes over me With the embrace of death even an eternity becomes a reality ... The Moon - PLH The Moon is bright, but she Holds a darkness greater than That of any mortal. She feeds my hungers on a bright October night, and lights my way When I am lost. She gives me strength when I am Weak, and asks so little in return. Only my soul. The Moon is also powerful in her Own right. She is so far away and Affects us so. She has been blamed for madness and Insanity for a long time. Right now, I would probably agree. Moonlight - MSA I show my face by moonlight In day I walk alone --The crow lands on my shoulder in the forest I call my home. On skin pale white I seek the crimson stain that gives life to my bones. A shadow -- I slip through the trees as

gentle as an evening's breeze. By night I feed on life to sustain this death which is my fate --I walk in moonlight, where beauty knows its place. The Moonlit Path - PLH The Night envelops the long path, Tendrils of mist touch him lovingly, Willing the traveller deeper into the woods, Her soft touch promising rest and peace, To his worn and weary heart. Sprites and spirits play in the moonlight, The only light his eyes have beheld, For many years, for countless lifetimes, The reflection of the bright day that, Warms the soul, or rips it asunder. His heart races when he hears the, Leaves rustle in the cool midnight breeze. He imagines the ebony wing blocking out, The light and enveloping his lost soul. Dreams within dreams touch his reality. What is it that brings him here, Time and again, to this dark, desolate wood? How far down the path will he go this, Time before his fears drive him from, The beautiful dream of things to come? The creatures of the night watch, This poor, tired man treading the, Moonlit path and give him their blessing. He feels them near and knows that he has Nothing to fear from these fellow seekers. The traveler comes to a fork in the, Road and becomes confused. Never has, He been this far before. One pathway, Leads to magickal dreams, the other, To a world of dark, mundane reality. As he is about to turn back, a shadow, Crosses his path. Before him appears, A single feather, a marker on this barren, Road, a beacon in the void. It points Down the path less taken, but hardest trod. New vitality surges through his tired, old Bones as he places the feather close to his, Heart and feels it's radiance. He lavishes, In it's soft touch and teasing, tickling, Movements. He forges on with all the world, To travel and travel again before his, Vagabond journey can end. My Muse - PLH Now I know my muse is not love, but pain. And it has been a long time since, My pen has flowed so freely. My wings soar on a torrent of torment.

And my soul soars down the moonlit path. Held bright by a torment of pain and defeat. But as a Phoenix I rise from my ashes of loss. As a light burns brightly in an everlasting night. My soul is free from the bonds of my soul, And my heart beats again in a long dead breast. Passionate Embrace - PLH The candle's light glints off cold steel, Razor's edge is crimson with fresh blood, Your lips lower to my chest and drink. As the first drops touch your tongue, You feel your body come alive with lust, Your twin hungers calling to you tonight, Tingles of electricity flowing down your body, Through your clit and down to your toes, You feel yourself cum with each precious, Drink of the life I so freely give unto you, You take all you can hold until your mind, Screams for mercy and your body screams for more, Then you lie at my side with my arms, Wrapped around you in an embrace older than time. You lie against me for a minute, but feel my need, And I roll you over onto your back, One hand holding the delicate razor, The other entangled in your beautiful hair, The blade slithers along your flesh, Until it finds the valley between your, Beautiful mountains of erotic love, The cut is painless to you right now, Because you can feel my hardness too, My mouth surrounds the simple cut, And turns it into an opening of love, Where my mouth makes you explode with every touch, You feel me drinking deeply of your soul, And then I thrust forward inside you, Making you cry out in pleasure and surprise, Thrusts and drinks become deeper and harder, Until we are both ready to explode with passion, And as we reach the top of the mountain together, I wrap my arms around you, while you cling to me, Our explosion rocks us to the very core, And we lie in each other's arms for many hours, Just feeling, and smelling, and tasting each other, And the love that we hold so dearly between us. Ode to a Lady Reborn - PLH Could it be? When I first met her, I saw a friend. I felt the friendship grow as did she. But I never though I would feel this way. Never dreamed it possible that I would LOVE her. It feels like it came quickly, like spring rain. But a storm so great as this surely could be predicted. Does she even begin to suspect how I feel? My friend know, for I can tell her anything. I now know what it is like to truly be in love with two. this isn't what I expected from my adventure. I look only for a friend and find a woman. Then I look for the woman, and thus emerges the Lady. I wonder what hides under that next level? Dare I look? for I may next find the Goddess herself. I long to hold her close to me, to kiss her as more than a friend. To taste passion on lips so young and tender. To taste the soul still young in the world.

Around her, I smell the joys of a youth I never had. Tempered with a power I will never hope to have. Could pure love be this beautiful forever? Would time change the way she sees me? I long for dark nights with her by my side. An eternity of night for our pleasure and passion. Ode to a Vampire - MSA Last night I dreamed of you, and the tears I cried were those of blood for my pain. Time has no meaning. Love is eternal. But the flames of anguish lap at my heart and tear at my soul -For although I hold you in my arms, caress your cheeks, and hold your hands in mine --I know that I must die in this lifetime, before you, and walk many others without you by my side. And I shall be alone. Poetry II - MSA Words --free flowing melody across a pristine field of white Sweet sounds of a summer day musically conveying melancholy emotion. Merry-go-round daydreams colliding with shocking reality growth coming through a series of bizarre, but wonderful changes Light shining through total darkness, night fleeing a broken soul love unlocks a never before seen wilderness Ink dripping from a pen once silent which freely flows along the page marring perfection Silken butterfly wings floating on the breeze. Primal Feelings - PLH Soft earth, cool night, the

sweet smell of the ground, and the bright light of the moon. All those things touch me on a level so primal, it is almost a part of my soul. When I hear the night air rush into my ears and smell it in my nose, I am alive. In that night, I smell a thousand scents and hear a thousand sounds, and I can identify each, if I like. My eyes are open to the vast dark void of the night, but I fear it not, for it is a part of me. I feel emotions and needs that have been a part of man for an eternity, a part now lost. My mind, so long held in check by society, is alive with ideas and knowledge. I have found peace in the night. A peace with myself and all creature of the air, earth, and water. If all people could feel the night in their veins, it would be a time to celebrate. In the night, all are reduced to their most primal levels, and we learn to live in peace or not at all. Rage Across My Mind - MSA I hear Cumberland Falls whispering My name in the moonlight ... Calling me, fey, come out! come out! ... The mist is thick and hugging the ground ... The moon is full and stars abound ... Vampires, Werewolves, Mages galore ... The beach a writhing mass of bodies ... Sparks, fangs, and blood ... Firelight, starlight, moonlight ... Fall of the year couldn't be better ... Everything so crisp and clear and bright ... Come play in the midnight garden! Calling me, fey, come out! come out! ... We'll go a-huntin' ... Harlan, Harlan ... Where there's a wall that's Supposed to keep us out! Calling me, fey, come out! come out! ... Rainbow Luck - MSA To chase a rainbow

across a field of dreams chasing rainbows isn't always what it seems Love, gold and leprechauns await beneath the rainbow chase, chase and run only to see the treasures go. Obnoxious hopes and dreams are fostered by these bows crazy notions set in motion disappear when sunset glows. To chase a rainbow across a field of dreams chilling reality found lurking beneath the moonbeams. The Raven - PLH She is Tempestt the Black, Protector, Mother, and Lover, He is Aridan of Wolf Clan, Warrior, Poet, and Vagabond King, Struggling the Muse breaks her bonds, Reaching out to touch old hearts' embers, And break the flame into a powerful blaze, A ball of fire to rival the sun, Passions fueling the fires again, Until the cycle ends, and the worlds divide. Requiem at Dusk for the Day - PLH My eyes burn with the last of the light, Of a beautfiul day by the sea, The crash of waves as I close my eyes, Washes me clean of the pain and fear. As the chill air envelops my body, I walk along the rocks to the water, The memory screams deep within my mind, Of better days and long lost loves. I close my eyes and once again, Stand there where I had last seen her, Longing to feel I raise my hands high, Feeling the wind pick up and surround me. In the distance I can hear thunder, As a storm to match mine rages closer to land, The rain begins to fall as tears flood, Filling my soul with memories of my times. Why do I see that which has been lost? Why do I love those who cannot know? Why do I ache for a dancer in the night, Even now I feel her calling me from the surf. At last the beating waves drive me, Carrying me back to the sand, I am left crying as the waves bury, My life there on the wind-swept shore. Return of Love - PLH The night is Dark, The light from the candles, Plays across her sweet face,

The Goddess herself has granted me, One more chance at her love, Curls of smoke rest in her hair, I can smell the perfume of her body, The scent driving me mad with passion, It reminds me of the dark past, Dreams of a young heart dashed, Against the rocky shores of a sea, Filled with dangers and treasures alike, I have been give this last chance, By the Lady herself, But what I, Do with it is up to me. Sanity - PLH Losing the Grip on life, Feeling the fading of our long night, Candle flame put out by light of day, Senses dull, but nothing to replace, The cowed child deep within, Where do we find what keeps us alive, Where do we find what keeps us sane, Within, within ourselves and those, We find and love.. long lost for Sanity. Seduction - MSA Oh, my bower? The darkness? Don't worry! I have candles -- see it's not so dark now, is it? Here. Sit by the fire and warm yourself; you look so terribly cold. I'll just go fetch the ... wine ... Yes, the wine. I do hope you don't mind red; I seem to be fresh out of everything else. My! What beautiful eyes you have, my dear! Out in the street, why, I had no idea! The color of the ocean at twilight. Remarkable! Ah, your skin; you're so very warm, so very soft, and you smell so very ... how should I say ... delectible? Sweet. Yes, yes. Roses, I think? Rose petals adrift on a breeze. Might I?

What? Oh yes. Run my fingers through that tangle of black hair you have. So luxurious. So long. You are so very beautiful -What? You think not? You do not think you'd be here with me were it otherwise? Hahaha! And a sense of humor, too -- you're a perfect ... being ... yes, you are. Yes. So, tell me. If I promised to love you, would you feed me? Would you quench my dark desires as I would quench yours? Oh yes ... So soft ... So beautiful ... Shadows - MSA A shadow, I feel I've become, and yet my countenance is pale, and I cannot merge through the metal door before me. Can a shadow cause a shadow of her own darkness to fall across the floor? A soft, cold hand encompasses my own, and I know it is my mother, Morgana-dear, coming to comfort me in yet another moment of tipsy confusion. I pull a goblet of dulled silver to my lips. Morgana smiles. I drink and close my eyes. And at least for one fleeting moment I feel alive once more. Shadows - PLH Our shadows call to us tonight. Wolf and raven, raven and wolf, Souls connected for countless years, Creatures of wing and fang and darkness. Seeking shelter from torrents of time, Moving from place to place, body to body, Staying for a brief, but enjoyable time, Knowing that the next night would come. Thirsts quenched and hungers sated, We fall back into patterns of old, Our shadows waiting until we are ready,

To reveal our destinies to us. Always will our destiny lie together, Even when we remain apart and separate, The power of Shadow flows through us, Shaping and changing our ever growing soul. Sleeping Beauty - SCB I was sleeping in the deepest sleep And then you woke me slightly Rousing me enough to allow dreams Giving me at last a sensation of something Something more than oblivion Help me! I am trapped! I cannot fully awake I'm caught in this realm in between Confused images pleasing me one minute And hurting me the next Will you finish what you have started? So that I might open my eyes at last And watch the dawn with you Or will you leave me where I am At the mercy of some other prince's kiss? Smoke - PLH Life is a glass of smoke, Swirling in the crystal haze, Being at once everything, and nothing It's just waiting there for you, Wine full to the brim, Regret spilling over the top, And floating away like a dream, You're caught halfway between, Regret and want, desire and despair, And when your glass is empty, You must find a way to fill it again, You have to reach into yourself, Rip out what you don't like, Burn it so you have more to fill your glass, With smoke, and dreams, and memories. Soul Ache - MSA It's hard to give love when in return you receive ...nothing. It's possible to give and give until the heart bleeds, until the soul sends aloft mournful, anguished cries. It's hard to look through lover's eyes when the one you touch is cold as stone, when the one you touch is like holding ice ...though even melting ice has some life of it's own. It's hard to bring love, light

peace, blessings and fresh flowers to an empty room. It's hell to smile to your friends when you know you're going to pull to the side of the road and cry an ocean of tears because you know there will be no smile to greet you, there will be no hug to meet you, there will be no pot of hot coffee on the stove when you open the door of the place you tried to make home. Souls - MSA Somewhere out there, lost in the mists of the night, lies a love's wounded soul gasping for breath as death slowly overtakes what is left, which is not much, feeding his hunger. Start - SCB It would be so easy to love you, (falling in love has always been the easy part) I might learn to like the things that you do. But it would only be a start. You sit sometimes very close to me. Yet at the same time you're a world apart. At times I feel brave enough to look very deeply into your eyes. But it would only be a start. We talk, we laugh, and then you smile. I feel the familiar warmth inside my heart. At this moment I could hold you close to me for just a while. But it would only be a start. Subtle Changes - PLH This time around, something has changed, Some small thing that makes me feel, A new hope with her, Lady of Dreams, Perhaps the years have shown her, My true loyalty lies with her friendship. None could have foreseen the subtle push, Of the Goddess toward her in my time, Of greatest need and brightest hope, I feared that she would hate me, As once before she appeared to. Accusations would fly over the sound, Of a newly healed heart breaking again. I can feel her emotion for me like, Never before, pounding in the dark night. I now know what her Beast is like, The animal inside her, striving to be Free.

Freedom she feels with her soul already, Although her mind tells her that she is chained. I hope that she can see the possibility of, Love, and accept the reality of mine. Tears Greet the Morning - SCB Such a beautiful dream, From so long ago, Ten years is a long time to wait, Morning comes, Bringing the sun My eyes greet the day, My cheeks moist with weeping Sorrow for what may never be. The dream becoming solid reality, The name was always different, The eyes were always the same. Eyes that I in greeting brought me joy, And in departure brought me pain. Tempestt Untitled Poem - TBR I once stood within a magical trime Equal matched three, thus stood we. There, there stood Strength. Smoldering, Smoking, intense, mysterious. A protector And poet, a noble, honorable warrior. The wanderer, he who stands alone. The Keeper of the Key. There, there was True Love. Radiant in purity. Blinded by dreams, steadfast and true. A Denim clad knight, in blue. A future king, Not yet twice born. Caught in a delusion, Trust forged, he cast the link. Finally, here stood Power. Erratic, erotic, Young, confused, yet full of the power Inherent in the raging storm. Called the Traveler Once, the Watcher, always She who walks in Shadows. Ebon maned, she stands the Guardian of the Gate. Once this power was true, but it was destroyed By barbs of jealousy and illusion. Alone, forlorn Stood I, Lingering Power. I wept at the passing of the two. But my fire was stoked by wind from a Raven's Wing, and I have set down a new path. Proud, Wiser and free... Free. Every step praised by a Brilliant moon, the cawing of crow cousins, and The eternal cry of wolves. Tempestt Untitled Poem II - TBR My shadow self is calling The dark one, the wild one. They pull at my innermost being. I've held myself away for too long, And their pleading voices cut me to the bone. I need to be alone, to find what I have forgotten. No one can help me on this lonely journey I must take. No fear, dearheart, worry not, my grip on this reality Is firm. I promise not to lose my way. No longer Will false saviors, no one else can save me, lure Me away. For I'm heeding that call. I've picked Up my level-headed sword and I'm on my way To set my sister-self free.

Temperance - MSA The card in my hand shows me what we could be together, you and I, if we'd just let it happen. You tell me I take the cards too seriously, that I spread them out, decypher their meanings, then live my life as if what the cards say is law engraved in stone. I'm not so shallow. I see in my card the road not taken leading to a pot of gold under an everlasting rainbow. But it's a rocky road, traveling over mountains of discord, leading to our mountain of dreams. On the face stands an Angel, such as how you used to see me, such as I'll never be. I see in the card how I thought things to be -- one wrong move and we're just like a house of cards blowing in the winds. Thoughts on a Teardrop - MSA had I a teardrop for every moment I've ached, I could quickly fill the bed of the deepest ocean. had I a teardrop for every moment I've cried, I could quickly fill the bed of the longest river. had I a teardrop for every moment I've laughed, I could quickly fill the bed of the largest lake. had I a teardrop for every moment I've loved you, I could replace each and every star shining in the brightest Winter sky. Tonight - SCB I hear your call, Right through these four bare walls But I don't know if I should respond. I know my limits, And that you can take me beyond. Can I trust you tonight? Can I let go of my fears? Will this be the answer to all my dreams? Or will it bring on my tears? Can I meet you tonight?

Can I step outside of my door? And if something should happen I won't be the same anymore. I know you. And I know me. And I know if something should happen tonight. Our relationship will never be the same again. But I hear you calling beneath the stars. And I think I want to go to you. But I think that the price may be just too high. Can I trust you tonight? Can I let go of my fears? Will this be the answer to all my dreams? Or will it bring on my tears? Can I meet you tonight? Can I step outside of my door? And if something should happen I know I won't be the same, Anymore. The Touch - SCB Does your pulse quicken when you think of me, As mine does for you? Do those thoughts bring smiles to your lips, As mine often do? Have I truly touched your life, In the manner that you have touched mine? Do you find waiting for our next meeting as hard, As parting is? Trapped - MSA I stand alone in my self-imposed hell ... I turn and look into the eyes of Death ... "Leave me alone!" I scream. "Do you follow me everywhere?" He just smiles ... In the darkness a raven cackles ... He reaches for me, but I run ... Run blindly deeper into hell ... There seems to be no exit ... A hand appears in the darkness, and I reach ... Too late I see the crimson stain upon the arm ... Twilight - PLH What worlds are these, on nightmare shores our eyes do seek? In dreams we search for the Threads, Our hearts can find in an instant. Life, gentle flowing and pure, lost, To the distant past, or ominous future, Never give in to the crimson twilight, That our souls know with wild abandon.

Passion speaks to me on this holy night, I hear the words and feel the sounds, The utter embrace of our warm delight, Rhythm of hearts and bodies combined. Waves crash around us in this delightful, This amazing, this monumental moment, When life and love connect as they did, In ages past, on long distant moonlit nights. Your eyes fill me with passion and warmth, Even as your touch sends a chill down, To the place where my spirit cries for, The constant and simmering release. Heart of my heart, blood of my blood, Long lost to the distant crimson twilight, My eyes do you behold on this endless shore, And remember the times of our longest night. What light through yonder window break? 'Tis not the sun, but the moon of my lover's, Sweet eyes, and starlit gaze that in my own, Heart is reflected like an endless sea of stars. As delights ebb, the love remains only to, Grow stronger, until the heart burns with it's, Passion and joy and all our fellows in the night, Will know that we are joined, now and forever. Whispers - MSA In the shadows of my mind I hear whispers. Is it sounds of a memory, or is it a hint of what my life is to become? I hear laughter, yet my eyes brim with tears -What is this thing that is happening inside me? Where are you? I reach out, but I touch no one. My heart beats no more. No breath escapes from these lips. The face I see in the mirror is not my own. The whispers of laughter -the songs of tomorrow waiting to be sung. Wix - MSA I've sat here all morning with nothing but you on my mind. Warm coffee in my stomach, hot shower raining on my head -took a nap, but it was you I saw behind my closed lids. No escape, it seems. Why would I want to? I've found

the elusive pot of gold some fools search their lives for -didn't know I'd find it where I least expected. I guess I should have known. My life is like that. Incomprehensive pictures taunt me -your face surrounded by stars, yet behind, rose blooms of the most purest red. I feel a hand reach to me, but it doesn't quite touch. What is this? What does it mean? I reach for you, you slip away. I feel dread in my heart... But it doesn't leave me sad. A Wolf Howls - PLH Moon rises over the dark hills, Silver light catching the gray coat, Song starting low, rising with the wind. Finally reaching a peak of seeming isolation. Then, over the hills and through the valleys. Others join in the chorus of the night. Combining into an eerie tune only a little Louder than the wind, but older than time. Theirs is a song of hardship, of the Wild Telling of their pasts for a hundred lifetimes. knowing the Wild is being destroyed by these Creatures who take what isn't their. For centuries, their plight has been shared, By people, by animals, even the Wild itself Is not immune to the ravages of the human race. But always will the Wild remember it's creatures. And wherever there is a tree in the ground. Wherever there is a child willing to ask why? That is where the hope of the Wild lies. And if we need a reminder, we need only listen. To the night. Because somewhere still, A wolf howls. Wolf Hunt - TBR My breath curls visibly before me, as I walk Through the darkness on the journey home. Frost tempered grass crushes beneath my steady Tread, distracting me from my jittery thoughts. Shivering, I pull the warmth of my fathers overcoat Around me tighter to beat away the chill. A wolf screams in the distance, an echoing war cry. With sudden clarity of thought, I remember. The wolves! I feel the biting at my heels, hot breath Steaming in cold winter air, eyes golden, and I hear Canine laughter as they chase me through dreams And partial reality. Stop thoughts, let me be! With a shake of my head and quickening of step, I Reach the edge of no man's land, to walk gladly Into the welcoming arms of my present reality. Words - MSA words dancing in my head prancing slamming into my skull

-- words better off on paper but left for dead by my battered psyche -endless poetry forgotten songs hovering in shadow waiting for the light of day -- or will they seek a different author? You and I - SCB I tell you what I think, you say that I am an idiot. I tell you what I feel, you say it is a lie. I tell you what I want, you say I expect too much. I tell you what I need, you tell me that it is unimportant. I sing, and you tell me to be silent. I cry, and you call me silly. I laugh, and you say it isn't funny. I stand, and you tell me to sit. I collapse, and you call me lazy. I ask you to listen to me, and you ignore me. I ask you to look at me. and you close your eyes. I ask you to talk to me, and you are silent. I ask you if you love me, you say yes. But I wonder.