TALKS BY MOOJI

Addicted To Experience It's not going to be the mind that will tell you : "Listen, I'm firing myself from you, I'm going on a holiday, I'm going to give you a rest". Mind is fulltime. You have to thank that deep sleep, great sleep that comes and says: "Mind, tchau!". Because where you are in deep sleep, there is no mind. You love to sleep or not? (Questioner: Very much !) Very great. Everybody loves to sleep. You don't go and buy the best bed to dream. You buy a bed to have sound sleep. You could be married today, have honey moon tonight, but when you go into deep sleep, you cannot bring your bride with you, nobody can come in there with you. Your beliefs cannot come, even 'you' cannot go, even 'I' cannot be there. And you love that state, when you are tired to nothing, not in a state of perceiving. You love this state. If you didn't get that state you couldn't be so refreshed today. You, everyday, a portion of the day, which you call night, you go into complete cessation of all mental and emotional activity, you have no name, you have no gender, there is no (?), there no hell, there's no heaven, there is only that complete silence. You cannot be employed there, neither employed nor unemployed, beyond all concepts, and you love that state. That state is just a clue for you in your waking state. That state is now here also. It is like the river bed, and your mind is like the river, flowing over it. That silence, that stillness is here. When the consciousness is available, the light of consciousness is on, the show is up, including the sense of yourself, I, me, you, time, perception, fun, suffering, everything, you love it, you admitted. Once it's up, we are addicted to it, we are addicted to experiencing, we love the contrast, the friction, the uncertainties, the highs and the lows. It keeps remind you you are alive. (Questioner : I guess I don't want to die) If you understood yourself, you'd know you can never die. You don't have to stay in the mind to stay alive, thank you very much. (Questioner : An understanding is lacking) It isn't. It's just that you have not sufficiently turned towards it. Some other things is hiding it. Your finger nail can hide the sun, a concept can just hide that, a concept like "I don't want to die". You're not looking for the truth because somewhere inside you there is a trauma that in finding the truth there's a kind of death of something, which you're calling 'you', but I'm telling you it's not 'you'. It's just the ideas you have about you, which are not based upon truth, there are illusory, it's a ghost, and your life is a ghost story. And you are abandoning freedom for a ghost story, I have to tell you that. All these that you think you get from the mind, one day will be finished. You don't want to die ? Well one day you will die, as body and mind you will die, body first. But if you know yourself which is that which is watching body and mind, and I mean recognized through direct experience, which is what is being pointed to here, not just indulging the mind and the mind again, but through that irrefutable clarity that can come through this examination, this introspection, then you won't mind about what the mind

says. (Questioner : when I look at what would be the closest in my mind of the beingness there's a clear image, an image of glass or darkness) Yes, this is mind again. The difference is that you have an enormous respect and loyalty for your mind, to your identity, as something which is a construct in the mind. Your opportunity is to find out who you really are, and then if you want to love the mind, love the mind, at least you will love the mind being free. A Grand Opportunity Is it possible for a human being to come to such irrefutable clarity, that transcends the hypnotic power of the mind ? Whereby the mind cannot influence the beingness, except in service to That ? Because mind also is being, but is that aspect of being which is chiefly responsible for becoming. If you know you are dreaming, you are already awakening. I leave you with this : it is totally possible ! I don't feel that you have higher purpose in this existence, anything more auspicious than being fully awake unto yourself. I don't put any achievement, in any realm, higher than that. You are the eternal Being, the Unnameable, the Unborn Awareness. Time is nothing for you, it's your play. But until you are fully awake to this, and know this with your entire being, we sleep on. (...) What temple will you build in the name of this seeing ? This is your temple (showing the body), worship there, find who really dwells here, in your own self. Is there an urge there to look ? Another fascination is calling you : "Come play !". At best, what is Satsang ? It, is a little bit like dropping a piece of ice into a glass of warm water. Our identity is like this ice cube. Ice also is water, and water is water. What is returning to what ? Amazing Grace Grace is divine Benevolence pampering Itself in its illusory role-play as 'I' and 'I'. Grace is everything. You convey the spaciousness of Grace. To remain only in the witnessing. Everything that I feel, I speak about, comes out of emptiness, and is emptiness also. Everything is emptiness. All the words, the senses are empty, mind is empty, concepts are empty, everything is empty. Everything is coming back to space, if you want to say, even, going back to space. No clutter. No burden. No claustrophobia. Ample Room (Questioner talks about having been taken into a mood after hearing a story Mooji told) Some things, you have to get used to. That potential was dormant inside, and that story flicked it up, brought it up. It's good, better out than in. So for a while now, it's trigged, this mood is present, and it's also possible to allow some mood or some past pain to come up without loosing your peace. Often we think that the two are not compatible, that they cannot sit in the same chair, but there is ample room in the infinity of being for every expression to have its play, and then to exhaust its expression and go back into silence. If a mood, a sensation, is present in the body,

why not just accept right now that this sensation is just present in the body ? Let it be, this is ok. This is the best attitude, and it will go by itself. If you start to struggle, this is how you perpetuate this state. Anything can come. It's like the ocean in which any sort of wave can play. The ocean doesn't say "I'm ok with ripples but tidal waves I can't stand them". Every thing is ocean, so let it happen. If you have this attitude then you don't have any problem. You don't say that some things should not be. Everything has its place and its play. You're not that. Witnessing of that is taking place. Even to say "I must tolerate...", no, witnessing does not "tolerate" states. Witnessing is not judging, is not personal, doesn't have preferred states. When you know that, then your environment, your garden is always green, no problem. You don't say : some feelings are welcome, others not. You don't need any bodyguard for this beingness, anything can manifest. And because of this attitude, things that need to happen, like those feelings, they blow through very quickly, and they don't leave any footprints in the consciousness. If you struggle, you judge, then you leave some registration of that in memory ("I don't want to have this feeling again"). Bear in mind that if you're enquiring merely to get rid of the pain, if you're using the enquiry as a pain-killer, it might work, may be not also. It's not the purpose of the enquiry. The enquiry is to find out who suffers, to come to see that it's not what you are, but that it's the idea of yourself that is suffering. A concept is suffering from other concepts. A concept about you is suffering from concepts about others and about yourself, observed in consciousness. Keep quiet. Bargain For Liberation (Questioner : Does something has to break down in order for me to find something else ? I'm scared of that.) There is no conditions that you have to fulfill, because what I'm pointing to is what you are already. It's not on the other side of an obstacle, to be gained, it's not a bargain, it's not a trade, life is not saying : "Hand over your sweeties in exchange...". (Laughter, and Questioner : Ok, then !) Well, then you surprise me in saying that. Sometimes the sense of your own clinging, that which is clinging is also not you, it's the idea of who you think you are. You are perfectly pure. You have to awaken to the Truth, to see and recognize what you are already. Not to develop, become or create. You're finding That, which is even before the created. So even this feeling "I'm so attached to my sense of who I am", you are not that. "I'm so afraid to lose who I am" is also just a thought. It's worth saying it again : the one who's saying "Yes, you know, but I can't make such a sacrifice, and although something seems so great about enlightening, I have to hand over all that I've come to love about who and what I am, and it seems like a very huge sacrifice to me. Who wants it ? Because what you're talking about is unknown presently to me, so why should I swap what is so familiar, where I'm so sitting right in my life, for the unknown which maybe I don't like ? If I give away myself and then I've lost and then I found what I've surrender is not what I want...". This is mind you see. (Questioner : It is. It's the plan to try cool this

(showing her head) down. I tried to let go strategizing, but I'm strategizing the all the time, trying to work out the next right move.) What is strategizing is not you, it's your mind. Mind is the root, the home, the factory of strategies. (Questioner : I would like to know how to cool it down, how to put it away for a while) This 'I' is also mind. The 'I' who's presently seeming such a strong identification "I really want to put all of this aside, I'm really tired of this part of my mind", this also mind. (Questioner : So how do I clear the clutter ?). That which is aware even of that which says "How can I clear the clutter ?", That itself is not cluttered, the Awareness is not cluttered. You may feel that this just a too big step to make, but that's also a thought arising in the same Awareness which is eternal and infinite. As soon as the consciousness comes in, like in awaking state, soon after the sense of 'I' comes, and when 'I' comes, time comes, 'you' come, world comes, job comes, yesterday and tomorrow come, all of this comes in. And it's functioning for the 'I', the 'me', "I must do this, I must do that, I love this, I don't like this", all of this comes in awaking state. It's like a package deal, as soon as the consciousness is present, this functioning of an experiencer, what is being experienced, and the very function and act of experiencing, all of this is the play of consciousness. I don't know if this is making sense, but it is like this, this is what is happening. You are the witness of this consciousness, but you, the watching consciousness is also in this form (showing the body). When you 'I', 'I' actually represents consciousness, but 'I' has become 'person' by associating with time and space, parents, country, body, senses. So the 'I' which is pure gets converted somehow into this belief that it is a particular person, from particular place, with particular ideals, and so on. So it gets more and more fragmented, this 'I' which is quite a unity, this intuition, this feeling 'I am'. (Questioner : so is it about recognizing these disparates parts and just keep placing and replacing them...) It's by understanding that you are the Awareness, and all of this, this playing, is happening through consciousness in the body. Because you see, here, in some way, something wants to do something. I'm first trying to get you to really understand something. Out of the understanding will come everything else. You are paying attention to the movements, how to pacify these movements, and I'm saying well, even the one itself who is reacting to the movement is also thought based, it's just the idea of yourself that is reacting like this. The reactions can go like this, and it seems it's very difficult to accept this statement, because we are so much in the sense that we are doers of our life, that we are keep asking : "Please tell me what must I do ? What must I do ?". This is the mantra of the mind. Be Quiet When you're giving the advice to "just be quiet", how do you carry it out ? Who carries it out this advice ? Does anybody know ? It's just our tradition, our habit to think that there is somebody who carries out an advice. But it's not a "someone" who carries out an advice, but just somehow within a heart of open-ness something resonates within, and some response comes. But who's doing it ? Even

if you think that you must try to find "who is I", somehow if you pay attention, you see that something brought you here to have something it wants to share with itself in the form of you. It seems a mystery. For some people it's just a question of trusting there feelings, and may be you incarnation, your orientation is not to trust. Most people who are used to use the mind, with a very strong intellectual orientation, or way of looking at things, they may seem to grasp these things, but this is why those questions comes : "How can I be sure ?", because the intellect is never sure, it doesn't know, how to trust. Even love it tries to intellectualize, it's not consistent. (...) Just keep quiet. Stay here. Something is working on you from inside. From inside you are being kissed by something and swallowed from within. How to give you direction to where you're going to go, when you're being eaten form within ? You're afraid to lose control, you think that with enough sufficient control, the correct control, sufficient skillfullness at control, you can control your way to nirvana. But another one is saying, no, you surrender, something is speaking to your heart, to wake up inside. Be Still Be still, and you'll notice that actions, reactions and interactions are somehow taking place by themselves, in the presence of your own seeing and witnessing. Give full attention to That within which this play disappear. What is That ? Is it something tangible ? That which is closer than intimacy, one with yourself. Is That a place of activity, or stillness ? Can you look at you, or are you looking from you ? Beyond Words That is anticipation. It will feel how it feels. A feeling like what you imagine may come, but that is not a requirement, it is not a condition. This is prior to everything. No quality can convey, no sensation, no feeling. (...) It is not held in any language, in any action, all these may occur on account of consciousness and the body, will give the flavor of certain movements and what is called experience, time, space and movements occurring in the consciousness. Again, these backgrounds of indescribable, ineffable, beginningless, space, dimensionless, there's nothing, no words, no concept can touch it. Immaculate being. Buddha Means No Identity When thoughts becomes irrelevant, Pure Being is revealed. Here is infinite peace and space. I don't mind anything phenomenal. Don't try to stop thoughts. Simply ignore them. The famous story of Banning Pigeons Feeding in Trafalgar Square. If you don't feed your pigeons thoughts, they go. Let everything be. Simply don't identify with it. Can The Seer Be Seen ?

In whatever form that we presently consider ourselves, our chief interest is in ourself actually. Even if you are the most egocentric person, you are interested in yourself. You may even say that you are very much a servant and you help and serve the world, it's because somehow it brings pleasure to you, to your own being to do it. Everything is a self-concern somehow. Because for any action to occur, any intention, it must be to satisfy some urge which is closer than intimacy itself, it must be because of the impact which is felt here (Mooji pointing the chest/heart). If I give, and there is a joy in giving, it's because that joy is felt here (chest). If some action or a thought expressed by myself causes injury to another, then it's felt here (chest). So really, everything comes back to the sense of yourself and how you feel about it. For a while, the Self, the Pure Being, in its expression through these bodies, somehow begin to take the body to be itself : "I am the body". If you listen to any conversation in any restaurant, you can ascertain how much when people say 'I', it is referring to the body. Most of the time, when I speak about myself, or who I am, it is based upon 'I am the body'. How many times, when we are speaking 'I', is it referring to 'I' as consciousness, and how much is it referring to 'I' as the body ? When 'I' is wearing some psychological uniform, and when it is pure consciousness, you can listen and find out. So the majority of time the consciousness itself, in the modification that it is the body, is still concern about itself : how things effect you, what is it is not to your benefit, what may cause you injury or even remove your existence, this is our concerns, constantly. But when this consciousness is strongly identified with personality and body, it is prone to many feelings of fear, suspicion, division, very divisive, and its love, which is also vital even for the ego, is often reduced to a very tribal expression, "those who are more like me". So it is not living in its full potential, its full capacity, for the love that is all encompassing, all inclusive love, because the ego itself is very divided. So gradually through self-examination, or whatever form of discipline that we feel drawn to in order to find out more about who it is that we are, or what it is that this is all about, we are brought more and more to focus upon ourselves. And the more you focus on yourself, beyond our conditioned idea and identity, one sees that even the conditioned being is itself merely a phenomenon, it's only a construct mostly of thoughts and the belief in thoughts, that I take to be myself. When that is recognized, a deeper field of being is prevailing, and it's felt very clear that I am not merely an object. For so long, I have referred to myself based upon the support of "I am the body", but that is now clearly seen that that is only an idea. And what witnesses that idea ? So something is driven inwardly, and through this introspection that everything that is known to me, everything that is perceived by me, is merely a phenomenon manifesting in me. It cannot be what I am, because it requires myself to perceive it, to say that it is, or it is not, that is true or it is not. Everything must report to the sense of myself who I am. And so somehow, scanning and surveying and observing all that is potentially perceivable or experienced, one sees that all of this must report to the experiencer, to the 'I am the

very core of this experience'. Now the question is : Who or what can I be ? Can I also be a phenomenon being watched like other phenomenon ? If you come to the place, first, of such seeing that whatever it is, whether a thought, sensation or emotion, or the perception of time, space, you and me, world, this and that, anything that can be the product of the interrelated play and the perception of it, whether it is clear for you that everything stands only upon your acceptance or non-acceptance of it, that is is you for whom it is real or not, then you begin to have a sense of the significance of 'I', that 'I' ultimately is the seer and the judge, the interpreter, all of this is reporting to me, that's how important you are in your world. When it is clear that the seer must be present for the seeing to appear, and I said before, no thought can be self-employed, it must be employed by some other force that's taking to be real or not, and that force is yourself, so if you can come to this place of seeing and clarity, then something is already tremendous about this. If this place 'I am the one who sees everything else, feels emotions, time, space, mind, memory even, the function of intellect, anything', then the question is : can the observer of these be itself observed ? This is my question. If ultimately without the sense of 'I', the root perceiving, without that nothing else can be perceived, everything must be reporting to that. So we can leave everything else that's reportable aside, that to which it reports, can the natural sense of myself be outside of that ? Or must it not be present as That ? Must I not be that Seer ? And if I am that seer who is the witness of all phenomenon, am I myself phenomenal ? Find out. Can the Seer be seen ? This is what I call contemplating the Self. Can the Seer be seen ? Now you find out. Does it possess quality that it can be discerned, so you would say "Oh, yes, I see the Seer !", so the question comes : who are you who see the seer ? Who is the seer of the seer ? Can the seer of the seer be seen ? Don't get lost, please. Where do you have to go to report your findings ? What instrument do you need to assist your enquiry ? Try it now, this is called introspection. Contemplate, it's a simple fact. I'm not reporting on some metaphysical thing that is just beyond you, later when you are spiritual enough, no, now, here-now, you have the capacity in you now. All that you considered to be known by you is only as it appears in your world, in your mind, as you perceive, as you accept or not accept. This is the significance of 'I', when you say 'I', you are the seer, 'I the seer'. Even the sense of personality and its conditioning is perceived in you. Or we can just say : it is perceived, it is perceivable, which means that it's a phenomenon, it's being witnessed. I am looking to this hand, the hand is not looking at me. I am the witness of this. Now, this which says "I am that which sees all else", can it be seen ? Is it tangible, can it be held in view ? And who would be the viewer ? Can The Seer Be Seen ? Where is 'it' located to be perceived ? How can 'it' be recognized ? Therefore I use the term 'non-phenomenal recognition'. Who can see this ? What does it mean ? It means somehow that which is recognized but not phenomenally because it's not a

phenomenon. It knows it is, but it cannot report anything about itself. About other, it can report, other is reportable in its presence. Have I gone too far in saying these things ? Then, who are you, now, in the light of this introspection ? What are you left as ? Who are you ? Is this finding detrimental to your employment ? What is the fear ? That somehow "I won't be able to be a mother now to my children" ? What is the risk to see this ? For what purpose to postpone ? What is happening in the light of this question ? Is it feeling claustrophobic in here, do you need to get out and go for a walk ? All of these reactions can happen through our minds, because it is as though when it comes to really looking, that somehow calls up a kind of questioning of the authority of our conditioned mind. It's as though sometimes it can appear like something doesn't want you to find out, tremendous distracting forces are coming to play, it's as though the mind starts to throw stones in the bush to get you looking somewhere else. It's like the ability to focus is disturbed, there's only blind spot, you can't see. But even if you cannot see, there is the seeing that I cannot see, also this understanding is there. Who are you ? And in any focused enquiry of this nature taking place, I don't want the answers, because your answer is going to be wrong. I say "I don't want your answer" and you go heave a great sigh of relief, but even this relief is not yours also. It's just that an answer would merely be another concept. Answer sometimes, at this level, is cheap. What is the response to this question ? It can only be an insight, another kind of response that is not coming from the mind. I call this kind of question my 'piranha question', meaning it eats up the questioner. What happens ? If you hold this question in view, maybe the mind will raise the hand to answer this question, but it's not it, because it is also seen. Again, who is the seer ? Where is the seer ? Is there a seer ? What is your findings ? So something gets deeply concentrated in this looking. Don't exchange this question for another question, for a lesser question. Sometimes, when a question like this is asked, it's as though you are on the back of a wild bull, throwing you off, you cannot even remember what is the question. Gradually stay with it, and a focus develops inside this question itself. And it's not that you receive only an answer. At a certain point, any concept can be brought in your presence and they will not hold power anymore. Try it and see for yourself. Any concept : the self, the ego, mind, world, all of this will feel nothing to you, such is the potency of this question. That is not an answer that will satisfy, it is the question that satisfy. When somehow this question holds such powerful appeal for you, then every other question becomes secondary, has no bite, has no influence, has no attraction for you. So this means that Self is in contemplation upon Itself. This is what you asked me to talk more about. Now somewhere in all of this, mister mind is there, waiting for an opportunity to say "Well, but how am I going to live ? If I follow this type of introspection, it sensed in me that I will lose everything. How will I live ? Somebody has to be around taking care of my children. How will I pay my rent ? Because it's as though I have to give up everything to discover this...". Then you may go to this voice and see out of which mouth is it coming. Who's speaking these things ? Question it. How can I stay

there ? My question : how are you staying there now ? By what metaphysical power are you being yourself now ? By what effort ? Is this introspection unbearable ? Can you sustain it, are you holding it together ? Is it like this ? Or is it not seen that even this is a myth. Who has to hold what together ? This is your seeing from your own self : effortless, the most natural, meaning what is natural must be synonymous with what is effortless. Must be effortless. And that seeing, it doesnt depend on controlling the senses, taking it carefully, breathing not strongly... it has nothing to do with this, there is no conditions imposed upon it for it be what it is, all of this is just a construct of mind. So what am I asking from you : can you confirm or not ? I would call that the highest sadhana : as you're listening, searching and scanning your own environment for these high seeds, and see if can they be other than phenomenal, conceptual. Who or what is the seer of them ? Where is the location of the seer ? Can I be apart from this seeing center, if there is a center ? Can You Be Seen ? First, the very taste of Beingness is self love. You love to be. And out of this "love to be", the witnessing that occur is for one purpose only. It's not the witnessing to get involve in what you see, it's actually witnessing somehow to be clear that you are not confused about what is arising for you. That's the witnessing. But if you're witnessing like "Oh, what's that, what's this ?", you'll become tired very quickly, and fed up of it. The purpose of the witnessing is to recognize if anything you see is permanent. That's the first thing. Anything that you can perceive, is it permanent ? And quickly you'll come to see that nothing is. As soon as it's clear for you, that you don't have to manage this field, I say, witness the witness. Can the witness be itself witnessed ? There's no need to get heady, it sounds like a crazy thing to say, but there's a power in this advice. That which is seeing everything else, that can it be seen, can you see it ? Does it has a form ? Remembering that any form, however subtle, is arising in the domain of that witness, anything that's coming, even the memory about yourself, about what you've done, memory is also on the screen, intellect is on the screen, this body is on the screen, your senses are on the screen, the sense of other is on the screen, time, space, actions, reactions, interactions, all of these relationships, there's coming up as phenomenons on the screen. Even the idea you have about yourself it is somehow, in a subtle way, known or perceived. So all this is coming and going. That which is perceiving this. Don't create any image about It, don't complicate it. Can That itself be seen ? And if it can be seen, it cannot be the original seer, because it will have some quality in it. You see, I've not asked you 50 questions, in fact we are narrowing down the questions. What is the most potent question I can ask you ? You who are perceiving everything else, you who speak about it, who are you, where are you, what are you ? Can you be perceived ? So this question you must accept and you must reflect on it. Can the perceiver be perceived ? Something happens with this

question, it's not a heady number. What happens ? Can you be seen ? You who see even this body, its outer and inner functionings are known to you, you perceive them, the perceiver even of this very intimate instrument, can it be seen ? What shape belongs to you ? (...) Where is the mind ? When mind comes back, where will you be to see it coming ? Can the mind hit you ? Die To The Unreal (...) (Questioner : How can I kill myself ?) I will tell you beautifully how to kill yourself. Or how to kill what is not yourself. To kill what is not yourself, what kind of instrument are you going to use ? A knife will not do it, a gun will not do it, suicide bombing won't do it. How are you going to kill yourself ? By asking the question : "Who Am I who appear to have a life ?". Can it be found ? Can I see the one who is living ? There is life, but there nobody living the life. Find out if there is one who says "I live", "I do", see if you can find this one. And in searching for this one, he dies. Just searching. You don't kill him with a gun, or a sword, or with quick poison, you kill it with wisdom and insight, with this question. Direct Instructions Stay as the Awareness. Awareness is ever present. Just the attention is moving on to objects. Simple instruction. That which is watching the attention and is aware even of inattention, where is That ? It's your own natural self, ever present. It doesn't move, it doesn't benefit or loose, it doesn't progress. (...) When you're empty, you're automatically silent and you're at peace, and love emanates out of this form, from you. Diving Into Self-Enquiry #1 The reason why you don't ask this question, it's because there's no food for the mind in it. Mind is only useful as long as it can do some job, it is the instrument for comparing and measuring variety, it gets fully involved. But when you ask this question "What observes the mind ?", the mind pretends to be dead, and you say "Oh, there's nothing, there's nothing". But it's not deep. Stay with the question, it is not satisfying merely with a conceptual answer. That which is observing everything else, that power is here, find out what this power is. First of all, find out if It itself can be seen. Does it have any quality ? That which is observing quality, does it itself have quality ? This is your question. It is That that you want to know and to meet, not what appears in it. Let me ask you a question : will there be an end to what is appearing in the mind ? Then forget about it. Find the one who sees. As long as you're watching what comes and goes, you are involved in the movie, the traffic of existence. You will study, but all your discoveries will be external, they will be objective, because you're perceiving objects, you're interested in objects. But why not find out who's the subject ? That is the most significant factor, because there cannot be objects without subjects, but there can be subject

without object. Find out what the subject is. Can the subject be found objectively ? I understand that this question puzzles the mind, but do not be discouraged by this, because you are not the mind, you are watching the puzzled mind, you're still here. Nothing has happened to you. But somehow, you have been listening to the evidence of the mind, which feels confusion, puzzled, frustrated, and you have been identifying with this frustration. It is the mind that is frustrated, not you. Be clear about this. The moment you see this, you are out of the box, and you will realize that you have never been in the box, except you thought you were inside this box. And the thought that you were inside the box, gave you the experience that you are inside the box. And that is recognized, I can see that I'm not contained. I am the observer of that. Clarify and confirm it for yourself now, it does not take much time. Stop identifying with any thought ot any sensation. Don't try to get rid of them, leave them right where they are. But discover that which is observing them. This is the secret to awakening. Awakening means awaken to that which is eternally awake. (Questioner : When you speaks things goes clear, but the impression I have is that all the effort I make to understand it's still meaning that I want to be somebody) The effort to try and be somebody is a phenomenal movement observed in awareness, and you are this awareness itself. There is a profundity in this statement, it's worthy of a few moments of contemplation. Don't just say "Oh, ok, thank you !". No, drop inside, sink into that understanding itself. Contemplate this. Diving Into Self-Enquiry #2 Sometimes, as soon as some significant insight takes place in you, and usually I can see it, something gets washed away, and sometimes I say "Go home, get inside your sleeping bag, zip yourself inside it, and contemplate this", don't go and see your friends, don't go to the restaurant, don't go for a swim, go home and be alone, give a few minutes to that. Contemplate the profundity of what you are recognizing, don't just pass over it. Truth is not an agreement. (Questioner : everything is cleared, I perceive what you're talking about, and it seems like death, and suddenly I feel something inside me trying to resist) Yes, it is ok, because for how long this habit to resist is being there ? It's almost as though there's some thing inside us that does not want to discover the truth. When you turn towards the truth, it turns away, like it doesn't want to see. But this force is not you, it's only the idea you have of yourself, which is a mental construct, it's a play of the mind itself, arising now as resistance. Don't believe in this resistance, leave it simply as a movement in you, include it, say "Ok, resistance can happen, sickness can happen, even some sort of fear arising for the personality can happen, the feeling of personality can happen, but I am not endorsing it, I'm not supporting this, and there's room also for this in me, but this is not the definition of who I am, it's a part of the expressive power of the cosmos behaving in this body, nature is behaving like this in this body. I am the awareness of this". And don't say these with words,

recognize this with insight, and immediately you'll recognize space in you, peace is there. The creditors are coming, the police is coming, but there is peace in you, you say "Ok, let's see what happens, I also want to see what happens". Don't Give Up Don't abandon the enquiry prematurely. Don't give up. (Story of the police dogs searching for drugs) (...) Some dogs will only accept the biscuits when he has found the drug, and this is the one that the police would choose. In the enquiry it's like this also. Sometimes you get some states of joy, and the mind feels "I've reached !". But even in another seeking, it is also experienced and something says "But I'm also aware of this". So it still remains, it doesn't tie itself to relationship with any experience, sweet or sour. It remains qualitiless. Stay like this, cause the mind will quickly come "How can we keep this ?!" or some other kind of statement like this, and then you'll feel you lost something, which is also just a thought. But if you purchase this thought, then you believe it into existence. Somehow the enquiry is strengthening itself, you're getting more mature in your looking. When you sleep this time, next time you won't sleep there. And the urge is coming from the universe. Cannot fail. Don't settle for anything, no prize. Don't Let Your Mind Leave Your Heart Don't let your mind leave your Heart, then this noise will get weaker and weaker, and there won't be this up and down-ness. The mind will always be in the dressing to catch your attention. If you go for it, then somehow you're in. Gradually we ignore, this is what the sages do, they ignore this. You ignore it out of existence, like it's not importance. Don't try to silence the mind, cause mind is skilled at that "Try silence me, huh !" (you press it down here, it comes up there), you won't succeed, you'll get exhausted, so just ignore it. (...) Sometimes we give attention to things because we are afraid to be bored, then you need to be preoccupied to cover up the boredom. So face the boredom, see who is bored. Find out who is bored. Let the feeling of boredom be there, you know how it feels in the body, use it as a smell that will lead you to where the smell is coming from. Who is bored ? Fix your attention there. And it will evaporate. Then that message is taking out of the consciousness. So everything is an opportunity for your satang. Sometimes things are sticky. If it's not sticky, forget about it. Most things in the universe don't trouble you at all. Just few things come up. They're like seasonal, they come around. When you are free of all of these, whether they come or they don't come, will not make any difference for you, because they will create no confusion, no dichotomy inside you. Effort #1 What is the importance of effort ? Some effort is required in the beginning, it is unavoidable, because the identification of the beingness with the body-mind play and function is so deeply identified that it's not enough merely to hear the truth

that it's not the identified itself, that it's not the body-mind. (...) The tendency to identify, to again pick-up the old association, the old self-image, again returns, and we again fall. So this is where the idea of effort come. Effort is also an aspect of grace and consciousness. (...) The Self will prepare the mind with the correct effort. And what is this effort ? To not go with the mind flow, to not let the attention go with the thoughts stream when they come. (...) If I can recognize thoughts are just the activity of the body-mind, that it's not really "my doing", I don't need to be concerned about this, I'm only the witness of it, and as the witness I am the detached Self in this, then, this is it, nothing to do. But the fact is that sometimes we feel like this, other times not. So it is said that this "practice", you may say, of retaining the attention in the witness, is important in the beginning, and gradually, this retention, this arresting of the attention from flowing outward and keeping it present as the awareness itself, gradually, the attention becomes habituated to stay into the Heart center. And like this eventually all effort itself to stay, itself falls away, so the attention and the Self are united. That is the purest Sadhana that I can speak about. (...) (Then the question comes) Who is it that forgets ? Who is it that must make an effort to be the Self ? (...) Effort in the beginning. Effortlessness in the end. Effort #2 Contemplation itself will gradually softens up into pure silence and space. It eats up itself. The contemplation eats the contemplator. Only silence is there. If it is witnessed that even effort itself is only a movement, an invitation to participate in some action to get somewhere, and this is immediately recognized, right here this idea of effort is burnt. It's burnt into ashes in this moment of seeing. Because you are just here. In our request to come to complete and irrefutable clarity and understanding as to who we are, initially there is many banana skins on the road of the seeing, so to speak, many traps, many pretentioussness. Even to say that "I got it". But then, how unsparing this question is, how earnest it seems to appear "But who really has got it ?". Who is saying "I've got it !" ? This question comes and kicks in by itself arising out of emptiness, and it comes up to expose any false clamour, like "I don't need to search". Who speaks these things ? And in that instant the enquiry deepens and exposes all this. (...) Enquiring Into The Fear (Questioner : If you would be in a place like this and you would have fear, would that be using the enquiry for a pain killer ?) No ! It's good to ask about fear. What am I afraid of, you see ? Is there to be afraid ? Fear still come also, it can come, right up to the end fear can still be there. But the enquiry also looks at it, to see what is the fear of, and how do this fear come here. And who suffers this fear ? And not just merely accepting a mental response, a mental answer. Really go into it, really stay with this question, keep quiet, but focus inwardly, keep quiet and watch this question, leave space for your seeing, stay with it. Don't exchange it for

a lesser question, stay with this question. Gradually something begins to open up, some space, some light, some revelation, some seeing takes place, and out of this seeing, you heart becomes pacified, clear and light. This fear may come again, but usually it would reduce power, and again you approach with the same looking. You don't have to have the intention "I must get rid of this fear, quick", no, just look, and mostly, it leaves. Sometimes, it doesn't feel like it has left immediately, that you will continue to look and focus yourself in it, but there is more space, each time the enquiry comes to space again, to show that you are not an object suffering the impact of another object, but space within which ideas seem to play, have room to play. Best thing, find out the one who is afraid, I don't know anything more direct than this. It's not a therapy, it's about finding out what is really afraid, and of what and experience, call up this confrontation inside yourself, observe it and see what happens, what's going on internally, what does the mind create, what is this fear, and look at it, and study the reactions taking place in the body, physiologically, emotionally, watch them, and see who suffers them, on whom is it impacting. See how this question reaches down so deep, behind the very solar plexus itself, and it stirs up feeling, maybe dormant for a very long time, let these feelings come, let them be felt, energetically, the presence of them, feel them, but keep your eyes open, and just watch, find out who suffers it, not just try to avoid the taste of that in the body, but find out who's suffering it. This question is not cynical, it's a very open question, see if anyone is found who's a sufferer of this projection of this fear. How Does Identification Drop Away ? (Questioner : How does the identification drop away ?) It will drop away as you become increasingly clear that you are the witness of this play of identification. Let me say it again : it will continue to fall away in its potency as you become clear that you are the witness of even this play of identification. And you hold on to that intuitive recognition, without thinking, thinking too much about it, just like, if I can say to you, that natural sense "I Am", that sweet intuition in you, just "I Am", without any more noise, no more concepts, no more words, no association, just that pure sense of presence inside this body, "I Am". If I say hold on only to the sense "I Am", and don't allow it to mix with any other thought for the moment, like "I will do this", "I want to do that", just find that natural sense. It's there ! You don't have to go looking for it. "I must go looking for the I Am" is already a thought arising in the "I Am". Whenever you have the sense of existence, of yourself, that intuition, that feeling "I Am" is right there. Simple. Don't think more about it. Keep to that sense "I Am". You don't have to not breath, just feel that sense, it's here, you don't have to be careful with it. Even the one who feels "I must be careful to be what I am" is just a thought appearing in "I Am". That "I Am" sense in you, is referred to as the godly principle in each sentient being. Even if youre an atheist, the sense "I Am" is there. It's not "I am an atheist", it's not "I am a Christian", it's just the feeling "I Am". It has no gender, it has no agenda, it is

simply the sense "I Am". It's not even the saying "I Am". That feeling is there. If one simply abide in this feeling, and watch this feeling, then you will not lose power leaking out into other attractions. And naturally one comes to complete stillness and silence, recognized in the space of this I-Am-ness. And the play, the feeling of identification, may arise, but it will be momentary, it will be fickle, it will not linger, it will come and go. Don't mind that these feelings come, and go. You don't have to police your feelings, just remain neutral. That neutrality is naturally there. Don't say "Oh, I don't want to feel this !", don't choose the feelings, remain as that unassociated presence, the feeling "I Am". Get used to it. And this is the simplest exercise, if you want to call it like that. I'm pointing only to something which is naturally with you. I Is Always Here The "scale" example. Identification, observing... Allow handover your existence to existence. Just observe, and feel, but don't interfere, just look. Exist just like through your eyes alone, just watch quietly. Resist the temptation to formulate any conclusion about what you're seeing. Just keep quiet. I Is The Dream Of The Beingness What can end, can end. What is immaterial cannot have beginning or end. (...) It does not have a concept of Itself as eternal. Eternal is only an expression being used in the consciousness on behalf of that, which cannot speak for itself. It doesn't need language. Eternal is just a word, suggesting or pointing to something which is completely beyond words. (...) You're trying to know with the mind something which is beyond the mind. (...) What is struggling with the manifestation, is that I-am-ness being identified with the manifestation. I is only the dream of the Beingness identifying itself with what is transient, what is temporary. And I cannot collect amongst that field of what is temporary anything that can preserve or guarantee a kind of security for itself. Everything it touches, is passing. (...) Everything around is happening without your control. You only have an idea of control, you have a fear of loosing the idea of control, not of control. (...) It's just giving up of something you never had. (...) You don't have to give up anything, just remain as the Self. Otherwise, again the mind is doing it, and making theses sacrifices "what about my sweeties, why I have to give up all this stuff, I'm not ready"... But the Self is not waiting for the mind to be ready, it simply is there already, always. All this is happening in the realm of consciousness, this entire play. As soon as consciousness is available, as soon as it manifests, it manifests as the experiencer, as what is being experienced, and as the very play of experiencing, it's a package deal, it's all happening together as consciousness. Just In #2

(...) (Questioner : Sometimes these vasanas, these things they come up so strong, especially in Satsangs, you can have these moments of clarity and then you have like a mind back-clash that comes up. It happens to a lot of people, so what would you suggest in the moment of throbbing, of all these things that comes up to the surface. What can we do ?) They come up, first of all, because in many case they have been suppressed for many years, because somehow we didn't had the chance to share it in a positive way, in a good way. In Satsang, something is touched deeply, and some trust comes, you sense that there's a chance here to go. It may not be even deliberate or so conscious, but it comes up automatically. All that is suppressed is coming up when the fragrance of truth is smelt, so it comes up to the surface. And you have to be with a master, you have to be with someone who's awake. Because they know all the different ways the mind can work. And they will remind you : don't panic, this is only the effects of a kind of detox which is going on, emotional and psychic detox, all your stuff is going out. Don't do any work on them. Now all you have to do is keep quiet, switch off from your involvement as much as possible, observe them happening, but don't try to manipulate. They will come, they are passing out. It's as though the beingness is burping out or vomiting of some old stuff that has to come out. And it's not pleasant. Many people they are trying to avoid these type of feelings. In any sort of spiritual practice or discipline, if your practice or work is good, it will trigger all this back-clash, you used this word, it will stir up all these feelings that will come up to the surface, and you'll need one who's strong, who can remind you : don't panic, don't rush about, don't give up, don't turn back, stay put, this is Grace already acting on this, just giving up all this, all these that were giving you that sense of block inside you, it's coming out. Just remember this, because now is the time when you really have to hold (?), because here is the time when the mind is going to mesmerize you most loudly, and bring all its power to bare, and it's going to call all his friends and relatives to come, and to try to sink your chance. This is only the devil, you see, all these built up, trapped energies, they come to the surface and don't start to embrace them, identify them "Oh, I can't do this, this is too much, I'm going to die...", cause these are thoughts, they are being burped out, and if you don't identify with them, you'll come to see that they are just thoughts. (...) Keep quiet, just stay here, stay just in. Stay inside, keep quiet and look. You see all these turbulence, but it's from the mind, from the past, it's not real. In the past you've held on to these shapes, these ideas, these believes, now they're burning on the fire of Satsang. So, keep quiet, keep holding on to God's hand. Keep quiet. (...) Keep Your Attention Only Now You say : I cannot see That ! But at least you are able to see that you cannot see ! What is the color of those eyes that cannot see that ? I am happy you cannot answer. Your silence and inability is itself eloquent enough. Peace and joy will be your friends when you are not attached to anything. Noise comes when you feel

that 'mind coming' means something to you. You do not need to identify with the body or the sense of doership to function well in this world. What is disturbing the mind is the idea you have about yourself. If you keep your attention only in now, the unfolding continues beautifully; without anticipation you will know no disappointment. No thought should be able to trouble you... You learnt the alphabet and you can combine the letters into thousands of concepts, you mastered that skill. Now you've forgotten your mastership and are being troubled unnecessarily. You will not miss what is important, for nothing is more important than the 'I am'. Now find out for whom is the importance of the 'I am'. Look at It In finding this out, when looking "Where is this suffering entity in myself ?" first, so I can say I know it all the others, even if it's not found, it does not kill compassion. (...) There is a sense of suffering, really analyze it, keep looking at it, keep looking at it, keep looking at it ! In coming to seeing, it does not kill compassion, it does not make you selfish, you don't go about saying "Well it's all an illusion, so it doesn't matter", this is not what you will feel. (...) You have a unique opportunity to look inside your own being, and this is compassion already. With this seeing, this insight, this direct experience, something will become an instrument in service to That. (...) The thing to do, having recognized that there is that space that you come, or come to the recognition of it, because it has not come, this is a part of your recognition, That what Is didn't make an appearance, 'It' is not a glimpse, then you have a sense of a choice : let the attention go with the pull of the mind flow, which then scatters it into so many noisy places, or you hold the attention inside that stillness, and see that everything is taking place from here. (...) Don't try to make efforts ("I must do, I must do..."), but stay as the I Am which is the natural sense in you. The very I is there, and the sense "I am looking for I Am" is arising in I Am. This I Am-ness sense, stay with it. Don't think about how difficult it may be, just do it. And like this already, lot of stuff is burning from it, space again, your viewing becomes open and panoramic, and there's silence in This. So come to this place first. Missing The Obvious What we speak about, what I am relentlessly pointing to, happens because of this tendency of overlooking or missing the obvious, and I say it's obvious to Itself, so that you see how easy it is, how somehow we are, through our attention, bypassing this obvious, and looking for something which is changeful. And effectively what we do is trying to convert what is by nature changeful in what is unchanging. It's impossible. Find That which is naturally unchanging, that's your own Self. You are the witness of all that is playing as the changeful. Don't try to manipulate the changeful. But if some movement comes to participate in the changeful, that is also the cosmic expression through this form, let it be, let it happen. Nothing takes you from what you are, except through thoughts. Then we imagine we have

become separate. This entire universe is a great seeming. I cannot teach this, I don't want to teach this, it's not helpful only as teaching. The only thing which is important is to find the Seer in whose presence all this play, and the commentary about the play takes place. Be completely clear about this. And you can be clear about it today, if it is your turn, I don't know. Misunderstanding About Observing You don't need to do observing, observing is already here. Just let there be, simple looking, without identifying with anything.

No Effort To Remain Just one moment don't touch anything, don't associate with anything, any concept. Sometimes some fear comes "My God ! I can give everything up, but enlightenment...". Hang on to enlightenment rather hanging on to concept of enlightenment. Throw it also, cut the link to that idea. Remain as what remains. What is That ? That doesn't require effort. It's not remaining by trying to remain. No effort to remain. Mind is already down the road, we're not talking about mind anymore. (Mooji's asking the questioner if frustration is here. He answers yes. "Is this it ?"). This is It without the image of It. This is It without the concept of It. But if you start to build some concept about It-ness... (...) This power you can exercise : going with the mind pull or leaving it. (Questioner : the mind is going : "this is boring"). Oh yes, yes. What you're watching is really the asses of the sleeves of the mind, it's pulling them out :"Look, this is boring, you don't want to be bored, do you ?". Remember that there's no one here who has let go off everything. The very somebody is also let go off. So what remains to feel bored or "is this it ?" ? Not even that. "What's going to happen next ?", well, let's see. (Questioner talking about fear). You call it fear, I say this shaking, the shaking happens in the body, it can happen you know. And you must fully allow it to happen, to then see that it's nothing. If some shaking is happening and then thoughts comes and says "No, I must not shake", this is still the mind, let that happens. Why not ? Some response can happen, it's quite common. Sometimes you see people in Satsang and there're shaking, it comes out. Let it happen. We're not so neat. For a while sometimes, something want to express because it's been crammed for so long, and it starts to free up a little bit in the body. (...) So like this, fears will come, don't back away in these moments, there's just sorts of birth pains to real awakening, sometimes it happens like that. Are you up for it ? Or you want it more conservative ? Fears come from all types of places, inexplicable fears, sometimes they come up, but not for all your life, just for a little bit things explode, and you're seeing at the same time. And behind this there's a great peace, and your center of gravity is there, a beautiful presence embracing your forms and

even your identity. It's important not to rely on your intellectual faculties alone, otherwise you're still in your mind. There's something mystical about our being that cannot be explained. Something came here for something, to discover something, to recognize something, to dissolve itself in something, it's intuitive. Something touches inwardly, and out of this touching some responding is taking place. Alongside fears come also. The beautiful and the ugly come together sometimes. But you don't have to be thieving through them, if you remain as simply the space in which they come. And by and by, you'll hit the right balance, this place of recognizing that it's nothing. In term, you'll be saying and reminding to others that it's nothing. No Stick Stand without any support. Forget about everything, anything. This is my highest tool. Reject everything, throw everything away. Be willing to do it... throw it ! You are That. Stop trying, don't make any effort, don't try to understand. Let understanding come and kiss you. No Sleepovers (...) The 'I' didn't have 'it', to have lost 'it' and now want 'it' back. 'Beyond' hasn't gone anywhere. Just the 'I' sense arose, and now some reaction to 'I' arose also. And it's the belief in the reaction to the 'I' that is causing the bad smell. It's nothing. Don't be too quick to form conclusions about anything that appears. Just keep quiet. Let anything come. Don't mind what comes and goes. There's so much space in "I don't mind". No preferences, just space and peace. (...) Some reactions comes from the past, that's ok. It's detected and rejected as unreal. You don't have to be reacting to it. Just turn away, that's nothing, ignore it. (...) Not Attached To Any Experience Is what you are experiencing now, a state, which comes and goes, however enjoyable ? Then don't hold on to it. Remain as the witness, even of that. Is this an artificial state ? I'm not throwing magic powder in your face. This must be your own seeing. Are you under a spell ? Can you rely upon your own seeing ? Where this seeing, this introspecting, brought you ? What is revealed through your own looking ? Is this merely a state induced artificially, so that the further you move away from here, the weaker will be the influence ? You must check it out. Many have come to that place of "no mind", beyond doubt, and have experienced it irrefutably. But almost all of them report an "and then..." report. We picked up this in New-York when we were there, and we talked about this. Some will tell you : "Yes, yes, I had this experience before, and it was perfect, as walking through the Red Sea, all through my life, for about two weeks, and then...". Then I became very interested by the "And then" moments. What causes this "And then" moments ? So we talked a bit about this, and said that some things comes and goes. By

nature, it's their way, it comes and goes, as an experience. All experiences, they happen in time, they have all beginning and end. Can you be that ? Or are you not the witness of that, you see ? You may have experienced that state of "no mind" but mind was there, saying : "Yes, I like this !". (Laughter) If there is an experiencer, the experience will not last. Some things are meant only to show themselves for a moment. They have done their work. In the Bible there is one story where Jesus walked upon the mountain, and told his disciples. One of them woke up to this bright light and saw Jesus with the prophet Elijah and Moses, talking, and blazing light. Then that was over. Now, can you imagine if you met great prophets, Krishna, Lord Christ, Prophet Mohammed, talking together, then it's finished. Can you imagine Jesus coming back and says : "Father, can I have another taste of that experience ?". It was finished. It did its job. Some things happen, they have done their work, and they recede into silence again. Don't go hunting for repeat. That in which those occurrences happen is still here, That perfect awareness. So don't become attached to any experience. If experience means what is shown now, some flavors, some taste, it comes and goes. You are the tasteless taste. It neither comes nor goes. You don't have to use your mind to imagine that, you must recognize it by some other power. It's immediate. There's no gaps, there's no journey to make. Can you be apart from that awareness Self ? Not Destined To Be Enlightened Stabilize yourself in this as This itself. You are already That. You only need to be aware that you are already That. There's no need to collect more. Stabilize yourself in This as This itself.

Nothing Is Needed (No Distance) (Questioner : How can I eliminate myself entirely ?) Ordinarily, when you say this thing it's like a gun to the head, in the newspaper version, isn't it ? (Laughter) Obviously you're not talking about that. So, what else is there left to do ? What self is there to eliminate, then ? (Questioner : a little something that gets in the way). Of ? (Questioner : of "it"). Ok. Because it is said so often, let's have a look. If we talk about something getting in the way of something, there are at least three factors. There is the thing which is what we are trying to get to, there is who we are who's trying to get to that thing, and there is something that's in between, isn't it ? If you speak like this, this is my way of understanding. So, something comes in front to block that which I'm trying to reach. So therefore, what I'm trying to reach is not with me, it's some place else. So therefore even if I could reach it at this moment I will have to standing on guard because I can lose it, because it's not naturally with me. I have to do something to get it, isn't it ? Like pushing this thing

of the way and then "I got you !". Ok ? So once I got it, I've got to be watching I don't lose it. So can that be the truth that we are speaking about ? Can it be something that is getable in this way ? I know that this is the way it can form itself in the mind, that there is something that we have to reach, and that there is something obstructing this. If, as I use the word "truth", truth is pure awareness, and not some holy cluster of concepts that you have to catch hold of, it is pure being, it is what we essentially are. That's the premise on which I'm using this word truth, reality, self, it's what you essentially are, meaning it's what you are in the core of your being. So how much distance between you and the core of your being ? (Questioner : must be none). Yes. If there's no distance between you and the core of your being, what can get between ? (Questioner, smiling : nothing) (laughter) You can say it again, just to be clear about it. (Questioner : nothing) (laughter again). I would like you to see this just for yourself, dont give an answer to please me, I don't care. I will care if I see that reflection in you, that you see it, because nothing else apart from your direct experience will do, everything else will leave you. The direct experience means to see or to recognize That which is inseparable from who you are. Some recognition occur there. If it's inseparable, it means how over many lifetimes, how over many years past, it cannot split that which is whole. This is what it means. You're searching, this is your own words, for what I am, searching for the truth. The truth must be the core of what you are. I asked you : what can be the distance between you and the core of what you are ? You say : no distance. If there's no distance between your sense of who you are and what you really are, what can get between ? You say : nothing, no distance. There's something profound about that. Perfect Sense (...) Don't be afraid to feel completely frustrated, for a moment or two, because maybe something is fighting to not be frustrated. Maybe something is fighting to not feel helpless. But all of these struggles are only mental, they're only things in your mind. And so you're trying to work through your mind, to get out of your mind. But you are not the mind. You are That which observes mind and its beautiful play, its crazy play, its searching, its discovering. You are That within which all this play is happening. You're already where you are, you're already what it's worth discover. Your beingness is on the verge of breaking out into real laughter, at the utter simplicity of what is. But your mind has constructed so much "Ho yes, I've got to do this, learn, do some more pranayama, chanting, going up this mountain...", whatever. We have a programming that we assume is important in order to reach what you are, and it's a complete fabrication of the mind. You are what you are. But you are waiting for your mind to believe it. This is why I'm throwing everything out. No idea, nothing, is going to hand you to yourself. It's only an idea. And perhaps for the first time if you hear this, you may feel in response to that hearing, a sense of deep disappointment. Maybe the mind is disappointed, because you've been taken some run-ups for this big leap, and you

see that that leap won't occur, and won't take you any further than here. You're still only here. Personality, What is That ? You can change, but you may find out before the change comes that you are none of that anyway. You don't have to wait for that change, and realize I'm that in which the play of change takes place. Once that is recognized that Im not that, still they may come, some energy to move some things out may happen, but the awareness is not waiting for the mind to be clean, for it to be awareness. Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj said : "I leave my existence (my human nature) to unfold (to play) according to whatever its destiny is. I remain as I Am". How profound. He didn't say "I really worked on myself, I've done really well, I've clean my house, now I'm fit for freedom !". No, he says now I've seeing that as long there's no such thing as a perfect personality, I've ceased wasting time trying to work on some things that doesn't exist. (...) Where is the person ? You will look, you will not just say this, glibly, sarcastically, cynically, it will not have any meaning for you. Presently it seams to have some meaning, because you've believed it for so long, you're personal, you have this sense of personhood, even people in spirituality for many years are still wearing personhood, and so because you label yourself "person", then everyone else say "You're a person !", and you remind them "So are you !". When this comes out of you, like when you also recognize that your beingness is timeless, then there's no time in you. Story of the very old woman from a village. (...) So anything come, you can look at it. What is the validity, check out the credential of any thought now. In fact, when you are aware that without yourself they cannot come, you are the witness of them, then they will be reduced to a trickle of thought. Razor Sharp Enquiry (Questioner : Who is observing all this doesn't stay, a magnet is pulling it back...) What is observing that ? Come on, you're still in your enquiry, don't abandoned it prematurely. "There's still something pulling it again" is also a thought. The moment it is observed there's no panic at all, it says "Look at that ! This is just a feeling, I bought it before, something bought this feeling before, but now not, it's simply here". How can it move when even the subtlest movement is detected in it, and by it, does it itself move ? And if it does move, what detects this ? The enquiry is completely sharp, razor sharp. Then your house is burnt down, its on fire, don't try to salvage anything. Don't try to save yourself. The house is burning and you also jump in the fire. Your idea of yourself, let it go. I said before, mind is afraid of real freedom, cause in real freedom you don't need your mind in the way that you presently think. Mind will be there, but as a servant. Freedom means free of dependency, free of this tendency to be hypnotize by your own concepts. Freedom means to doubt yourself to not doubt yourself, bondage means to doubt yourself continuously. When the question comes "Who doubts itself and how ?" and you're

quiet and only observe then this illusion, this delusion completely opens up. This tumor of false identification breaks up under the power of your own looking, so powerful is your looking. Not doing anything, not dissecting, not detonating something, just looking and see it's not true. I cannot point to anything, any concept, any thought that I can say "I am that". This great book was called "I am That", can That be touched ? What That means ? Is It an object ? Usually when we say "that", we can point to it. But when we say "I am That", that That has no form, it's beyond the forms. That within which forms appear and are perceived, but Itself cannot be perceived. I already gave the example of a knife that can cut so many things, but cannot cut itself, because it's one unicity. Or a scale that can weight so many object but cannot weight itself. Or the eyes that can see so many things but cannot look directly upon themselves. You also, being the one self, cannot see yourself, you're seeing from yourself. Sight begins after you, you are the seer of even seeing. Mind runs around and try to put that into some shape, because mind cannot function without some phenomenality, but is the instrument for measuring, interpreting, comparing variety. But how can he compares That which is prior to appearance ? Where is That ? Remain As The Self How to stay as the Self ? The car windscreen wiper story. Focus on the road. Once focusing is taking place, it doesn't matter that the windscreen wiper is on slow speed, medium speed, or fast speed. Because focusing is taking place. It is the same with these instructions, this enquiry. How can I stay in the self ? You are in the Self. Focus on the Self. "How can I stay as the Self ?" is also a windscreen wiper thought. You are the Self. Focus on That only. And these thoughts will not trouble you. They will not distract you. Starving With a Hidden Treasure What is it that we consider is important for us to do, here, to get to "there", whatever "there" may be ? (Questioner : so any thought arising and returning to its source is actually an illusion ?) I don't like to say such things, I prefer to hear them. Have I gone too far to say this ? That having seeing this, any thought like "Oh yes, I'm coming close, I can smell the rain..." is only a thought arising in the completely Self satisfied being. And if we don't get this, we'll continue to take the readings from the mind like "Yes, yes, I can feel it, I'm so close, so close..." and drawing immense comfort from this, "I've made great steps since last year, great progress, wonderful, beautiful, ups and down, it's been thought, but you know..." (assembly's laughing). (...) (Questioner is giving thanks to Mooji) Isn't it amazing to simply be reminded, and not moving of your seat, to allow the seeing to complete itself, and to see that there's nothing that I have to prove, to be. There are no conditions that I have to fulfill (getting better, purer, more compassionate). It seems almost unfair to some. If you have put tremendous energy to try and be the best person you can be, to be told that you are not closer to the Self than the one

who's struggling to (make ends meet ?), not closer, except that it's just the opportunity to recognize what is here. The one who's struggling is still 100% the consciousness. But without the awareness of it, the consciousness that you are consciousness, it is like your parents leave you money hidden under the floor boards and have gone away, and they are not able to get in touch with you, and you are going hungry, eating bread and water, begging for food, and wealth is under your floor boards, it's of any value to you now, cause you're not aware of it. But when you're aware that this, in front of whom or which all this is appearing. The Best Mantra Thank You. This simple expression of gratitude arising from the Heart, - from Existence to Existence - which has the profound effect of washing the soul of judgments, preferences, fears, the sense of separation, conflict and even longing, returns the mind to its original place of Unborn Awareness. We are not to analyze or to rationalize it, but to simply let it arise and express from the Heart in Presence. Initially, it may seem like one entity saying THANK YOU to another and that's OK too - but gradually, by simply allowing deep Gratitude to flow spontaneously, we come to complete unicity where there exists no separation between I and you - just Self expressing gratitude to Itself. It is such a powerful way to return mind and attention to peace, space, clarity and joy. The Embodiment of Truth And then, somehow, you may feel even the sense I am is present as Presence. (...) Somehow you are intuitively seeing, it's not just thinking, it is like seeing, it's clarifying : I Am, I Am beyond, or whatever is saying "I am" maybe is prior to I am, but there is that which is even before there, but it is unspeakable when you're here. (...) There's no references now that you're here. Then, something says "Stay here !", is addressing the attention, the attention somehow must stay here for a bit, and then the attention which is trembling to go out, because that's the reflex to go out to familiar territory, because it's used to hanging out in the realm of the noise. And now it takes some effort to hold it here, and it's like it wants to go out. But that's also watched. And this is a very important point, this pull. (...) Start with yourself and look. Clean your own house. And then you will have eyes to see which one else need some help. It sound selfish, but it really isn't, it's very unselfish. If you're going to be selfish, then be selfish here for freedom. The Hum of Existence I don't know how to explain it further than that : you are this I Am-ness, and even prior to I Am-ness there is That which Is. You're never a part from it, because you are That. But somehow this knowledge must announce itself in the mind. That's what has to happen, the knowledge has to announce itself inside the consciousness itself. Because it is the consciousness in the mind that becomes enlightened, not the Supreme. Would it not be that it's just going on and it is seen that there isn't a

private operator turning the wheels of manifestation ? It's not like you're going to discover at the end of the yellow brick road this "guy" behind the curtain who says "Sorry, it's me !". It is seen that somehow it is going by itself, I'm not creating. Even the idea of "I am creating" is just an idea arising in a deeper presence. And I am there also. What would be the result, effectively, on that which you call "your life", would you be troubled ? And even if the sense of being troubled arises and it is seen that it's also the mechanism of the consciousness play, then it wouldn't feel so consequential. And so gradually the impact of these sensations will also lessen, diminish. All of this would be just the play of some energetic soup of sensations and ideas. You would not be a traffic policeman in your own head, you wouldn't have to set up any immigration desk for thoughts, they can come and go freely, they would not be of concern, you would not be complaining "Oh yes, this thing that troubles me is this...", because nothing would really trouble you. Momentarily, of course, it comes with a certain energy, a little burden actually. The life force, the body, the mind consciousness, all of this has a certain weight about it. And there is a sort of consciousness, an awareness about this weight, the hum of existence. But right there in the recognition of the hum of existence, there is that still seeing, which is not humming. Is that worthy, is it worthwhile our seeing and recognizing this ? There's no pay offs. Is it worthy seeing this or is there the mind that says "But what is the benefit of that, even ?" ? Because this all that the sages came to see. More than this, then you're talking about special effects in consciousness, but not This, and they can come and go and play about. And it's not that they were sitting on their hands, because of this seeing, that they took themselves away from life, they were not intimidate by what we call life, they realized they are one with it. But they were not under it spell, because they saw through the apparent idea of a separate autonomy that that was just a play, an expression of the consciousness appearing as individuality in order for manifestation to work. It cannot work without duality, duality is not an error, it's a necessary tool for manifestation to appear. The Joy Of Being There is no ultimate seeing. You are the formless. Be thankful to the activity of Grace, removing the old dross. Some illusory debris is removed.

The Light Of Looking Is it true that something can stop me from being what I am ? Just examine this and see if it is true. Look and see. If you keep quiet, you'll feel little things float up, maybe some of these voices will come ("I don't deserve to be free" etc... but who don't deserve to be free ?), keep quiet and just look, keep in focus. It will go blur,

re-focus, something is being hiding in me somehow, why, because there's been a fear to recognize it, to recognize what is this that causing this pain in me, and each time it has the opportunity to be seen it goes blur, distraction come. It comes out of your psyche. There's a fear somehow to see it. (...) Who is suffering this ? Let the feelings arise, pulse, happens, and hold the question, like you've never asked this question before, don't be an expert at this question, "who is suffering this ?" and be quiet, and hold this question in your silence. The Mind Can Be Crazy Watch how the mind can be crazy, in the brilliance of Being. The mind derives it's strength from your attention, from your interest and your belief.

The Ocean of Samsara Find the one who is suffering. Simple and innocent question. (...) Start first with finding the sufferer in you. See if you can find the sufferer itself in you. (...) Don't just go to the cross, go to the one on the cross. Don't talk about it, go there.

The Pathless Path When the Beingness, which is immaterial and formless, identifies with form and take himself to be form, this body becomes like a burning candle. And the Beingness associated with that tries everything to prevent this light from going out, because it is very much identified with the body. Already you are in a kind of traumatic state, even if you put it in the back of your mind, there's always this little bit of fear, a hum of fear somewhere in the background. You always tries to avoid some catastrophy that you cannot even identified what it is. So whatever shows up in the body, attention goes right there, all the blood goes there. Don't try to fight fear. You will never win. Fear is there because of ignorance. Tackle ignorance and fear will go, don't try to fight fear. Don't pretend you are not afraid. Fear is arising because of ignorance, and ignorance you can look at it and understand. Who is afraid ? When this is taken hold through your own enquiry, then fear has nothing to hold on to, and it will thin out by itself. This is the root, the direct root you may say, on the pathless path, to find out that which is afraid. Who is afraid ? You feel the fear, use the fear as a scent, like you have a funny smell in this room, you

follow the smell, you can sniff out, and find out what is smelling like that, the smell will lead you to the place where it's coming from. In the same way don't squash the fear or just react, use the fear to find the one who is suffering fear. See if you can locate it as something tangible, palpable. Use the energy of the fear, the presence of it in the body to see if you can find the one who's suffering. Don't think, just observe and see if you can find a sufferer of the fear. And tell me what you find. Can the sufferer be found ? As soon as the pain is there, you feel as if somebody is having pain, so see if there is a 'somebody' who is having pain, who suffers, who's likely to die at the extreme end of this pain, who thinks that if it's not abated then it might end in death. Find who is this one who would die, look. (Questioner : the only one that dies is the 'I' thought) You are clear about this, you saw this, you see this ? (Questioner : I guess I'm not clear, I believe I have experienced it several times, that there is no one at the end of that, when I don't fight it and don't try to move it away and stay with the pain or the fear...) Find the one who is suffering first, because it keeps coming back and back again. You are not further away than anybody else. The sense of suffering is so 'in there', so I say : take a look, examine and see. Is it real, is it there as 'me', is there a little 'me' inside who is suffering, just look and share your findings with me. Don't imagine, don't create, just clean looking. Follow the noise inside and see who suffers it, see if you can come to the point that the sufferer can be detected, and find the one who is suffering. The Snake And The Rope (...) (The story of the man, the snake and the rope). If you see something, if you've really seen it, then allow yourself time to digest your seeing. Because too often something is seen, and that seeing is true, but what happen is mind quickly slips in and says : "Ha Ha ! I got it ! I've been there ! Great ! Thank you ! Tchao !". Ok ? And so it remains unswallowed food, kept in the mouth. When you see something, give yourself the time to really digest it. Because we are doing this out of habit : so many things you read you think you know, but you never give the chance to really assimilate it what you have really recognized and seen. So you swallow and burp, and you're off. But you've no digested it. It happens sometimes that I can see in some people's eyes that they've seen, because when you've seen it's like your eyes don't belong to the external world anymore, they have a kind of look about them, everything became an inside job, you've looked and you've seen, and somehow you're in a different realm. And it's not that you're walking bumping into trees, no, those faculties will still operate, but a deeper seeing is present, a different quality, contemplative, meditative. And still you can function in the world, but that's not your realm anymore, you're walking on higher ground, something happens in you, and it's unmistakable for those who know, they're seeing it. Your presence also is radiating something, a quality of peace, it's not something you can pretend, because you can not pretend to be peaceful, anymore than you can pretend to be natural, there is something about you that is hosing this charm, a quietness. Take

the time to digest what you've heard. Sometimes I would say to people : "You go home, get yourself inside your sleeping bag, and zip yourself inside it, stay there and contemplate these things that you've heard today, stay with it, don't come out, don't go for a drink at the pub, miss today's show, stay home, contemplate this !". Allow it to completely digest and assimilate. And something will be living inside this form, a deeper life is moving. It works differently, it does not read words, it can see energetically, it understands things in a different way, it speaks without preparation and it moves without practice, it's full of joy and peace, it's never anxious about tomorrow, or resentful about yesterday. The Train To Nowhere The eyes that see this has no legs on them. (...) This train is time and space, it has an end. That which is watching this train has no time. The train is life, the witness of this is the Eternal Itself. (...) Beingness itself takes care of everything. All journeys end peacefully here, in the station of being.

The Ultimate Seer Everything can be whipped away. This cannot be whipped away. (...) It's a dream, only ideas. But you who witness it, put your attention on that, the witness of all of this, can that one be witnessed ? Who's watching the show ? If that which is watching the show is interested in the show, then that watcher is not pure. It has some quality, it has some investment, it has self-interest. If it has self-interest, it's also contaminated somehow. Then the observing that this watcher is not entirely unbiased, that observation will clean the watching, so that in the end there will be only pure watching without any personal investment. Then what happened ? How long will you need to get to that point ? Urge For Truth #1 Swap knowing for being. (...) Remain with that natural and intuitive presence, the sense "I Am". And don't allow this sensation or feeling, to connect with any other feeling, or create any relationship with any other thought or feeling. Let it marinate in itself. (...) (Talking about his book "Before I Am") This was the most simple advice I could point to, the natural sense "I Am" in you, just let that remain unassociated with any thought, or any concept, and I said even if you can just stay in that presence for 10 minutes, whatever you like, and notice what is here. Initially, in some case people feel troubled, and gets even more busy, that's ok, but this is not you business anymore to deal with this. Your business is only to stay as "I Am". Let them be scratching at the door, it doesn't matter, your business is only to stay as "I Am". (...) (About practices and Sadhana) I would not necessarily advice people to stop whatever they're doing. If you feel in your heart you get pleasure or joy, or something taking place, carry on. But alongside that, what I ask

is to put this question inwardly : "Who is doing it ?". Who is practicing pranayama ? Who is the meditator ? Who is meditating and for what reason ? This is not cynical, but a pure question. Who is the practicer ? Who is the seeker ? Allow this question, don't let this question off, don't exchange it for another question. Stay on the back of this horse. It will try to shake you off, cause sometime you hold this question, so potent it is, that it will seem as though something is throwing off, or going blurred, for a bit. Hold this question, and something will be revealed in it. (...) Treat this (moment) as it is the last Satsang. This is the time you have to get it, now is the moment. (Questioner : I want it so badly !) Something feels "I really want this totally, upon till now this has been a very credible urge, the most noble yearning". It brought you to this point, you're sitting here now : "I have to find this out". So it seems there's something missing : "I have to catch all of it, I have to get it today !". This question brought you here, and I'm asking you this question now : what is saying this ? What is having this urge ? Before it wanted so many other things, and gradually it lost the attraction for so many things, and now it came for one thing : "Now I want freedom from all these things". The desire for truth can be that I don't want anything else now. "The only thing I want is this. So it means that it is not here now, what I'm wanting is not here now, I've let the all world aside for this thing now. I'm at the edge of the world, I've left everything behind me, and this is what I want". And my question is : who are you, standing on the very precipice of the universe ? Who is saying these things : "I want That, and I want it now" ? And by the way, it has done it's work, but I ask you : who wants it, who is it, who speaks these words in you, who has this yearning ? And, you are here to watch this urge, isn't it ? You are the one who's aware of this urge, and if the urge goes away, you're the one who says actually "that urge is gone". Cause as long as the urge is there, there's some sense of dissatisfaction, some restlessness. So you must go beyond this urge. Urge For Truth #2 So you must go beyond this urge. You are aware of the urge. You who are aware of the urge is greater or lesser than then urge ? Greater than the urge. (...) The urge has got rid of everything, now you get rid of the urge. You leave the urge aside, now. For one moment. You leave even this urge now. What remain ? Be fresh. (Questioner : it's just empty) Is it disappointing the empty ? Could it be as simple as this ? All this yearning is to come to here. You might feel "so dramatic for... This ?". Yes ! 6 billion human beings are walking on this planet. Few are coming to this. Many are searching for special effects, for something, few can feel this total simplicity of being. Now, what can happen ? Is mind will arise and say "I don't think that's it..." ? "Look how many temples, how many scriptures, it cannot be for this... I think Mooji is a nice guy but I don't think it can be as simple as this". Can you come to the end of This ? Can you describe, This ? Is there any effort to be ? Mind will try everything to take you away from this, cause mind cannot fight this. Mind dissolves in This. But also, you've shared some of your

identity with mind, and to that extend mind will try all his influence to call you back. Out of This, which has no shape, no boundary, no definition, this entire universe has appeared, plays in This, changes in This, dissolves in This, arises in This. You stay here. Is this advice means anything to you at all ? Even to say "You stay here" can have also its value. Because maybe the attention wants to go out and go back to some things, even now it can do it if you're clear inside that even the attention I am not. It's my most potent force, because through my attention, I can really take on any shape I want, but I must be here to watch the attention move. I don't have to exhort any special power to be here : I Am here ! How long have you been here ? Always, you see. Who can speak like this ? How can you come out of This ? Vigilance, Attention Vigilance means watchfulness. When you speak of vigilance, the only meaning I can give it is to watch this tendency to go with the mind flow, and to get caught up into thinking and identifying with what is arising as thoughts, feelings, memory and so on. Be aware of this, because by habit somehow the attention goes. And attention is what we feel so intimate with, to the point where we imbue attention with the sense "I", so when your attention drift, you say "I drifted", so "I" and attention becomes one. But something is aware of this, of the capacity of being aware of this drifting "I" or attention. That we call vigilance. Vigilance can also mean attention. I like this of Bhagwan expression : "When attention pays attention to attention, this is attention". When not, this is inattention. When one goes merely with the mind flow, and the attention follows there, that becomes the experience, that is called inattention, or non-vigilance. So, this vigilance is only preliminary. In the beginning, when there's the tendency to go with the mind flow, to drift off with the attention, the attention must be kept back in the awareness Self. And gradually, it's merging with the awareness Self and there's no more splitting away. (...) (The instruction is very simple, don't let it become very mental. Keep it simple.) So again, vigilance can only mean to stay as the Self, to stay as the awareness Self, within which observation of the movement of attention from here to there, is present. The habit of identifying with the attention which then (?) onto other things, creates inside the Self some kind of disturbance, a sense of alienation. So there's a watchfulness of that, and somehow this habit to follow the attention, or allow the attention to drift off, is arrested. And the attention abides only in the here-now presence. (...) Any center that you find can not be the center that you are. You who see, must be that center. You are seeing from the center, you can not see the center. Any center that you see phenomenally is only a phenomenon, it's only an appearance, it's only an image, it cannot be that which is referred as the real center, which is Being itself. What Observes The Attachments ?

Begin to recognize this even now. Whatever arises within you, don't try to control so much, just observe. But observe from a position of total neutrality. You have the power to do this, it's not difficult. Let whatever arise, arise and move by itself. Most time you can do this, you're doing it already with many things because you don't have particular relationship with them. You may see these two objects here (Mooji takes two objects from the table), you can see each of them with equal clarity. But if you have a particular relationship with this one, then this one troubles you, not the other one. Most things in the world that you perceive don't trouble you, because you have no special sentiment toward them. You're really disturb usually by those things that have become valuable for you. If you take only a few minutes to research and observe these, what I've just said, you'll probably find the things which are disturbing you. Once you have discovered theses elements, what are you going to do about it ? Can you just get rid of it ? No, you cannot, you see. And the purpose is not to get rid of. But begin to recognize what it is that observe them. Listen carefully. If you are observing any object or any idea, and there is deep interest in this idea, then the observing is not pure. The observer has interest in relationship with what is being observed. What observe this ? What observe that there is an observer that has self interest ? Does this observer has any interest ? When there is no interest in the observer, then the observing is pure. Perception is clear, but attachment is not present. Like this you can observe whatever you feel to be precious, you can observe it by reversing your attention to the place of emptiness. When the observer returns to emptiness, and this is not difficult because the emptiness is already there, then the object of perception does not disturb. You don't have to get rid of it. You only have to discover who you are, and you must experienced this with your entire being. It is not difficult, it is the simplest thing. But if you try to do it only mentally it will experienced as almost impossible. So let's start again with this idea that there are thoughts moving about, memories, desires, projections. They are moving like waves on the surface of the ocean. You have the feeling that these waves should not be there. But this feeling that these waves should not be there, is also a wave ! And that wave causes more trouble. Usually you don't recognize that this is a wave. You experience that this is yourself, this is true. So, the feeling that some experiences don't belong to me, is itself a wave. What recognizes this wave ? Is That a wave ? What Witnesses The Passing ? Allow this question to fully happen inside. It's an introspective light. What is there ? It's not an answer. It's an opportunity. What is clear is that all of this is seen. That is a fact. From where this seeing emerging ? What is seeing ? No answer will be that. You must contemplate this. (...) You must be in the very core of subjectivity itself, but as what ? Can that source be an object ? Can it be touched by a pointed finger ? You must experience. The question 'Who am I ?' cannot be answered by an answer. Experience and revelation come. Something is

revealed in this question, or in this questing. What is the response to this question ? Who Dwells Inside This Body ? I want to ask you scanning inwardly : who is inside here ? Scan inwardly with the light of introspection : who is dwelling inside here ? Some entity ? Can you find "you" ? Are there some coordinates we can follow to reach where you are ? Is there a "you" ? If there is space, is there some worry that it's not responsible to be like this ? Who will take care of my life ? How can I live like this if there's only space here ? Is there something inwardly that is interested in truth, along with football, shopping, etc ? Are you empty or full ? Is there a "you" that has an agenda, intention ? Is there a context for your existence that is important for a "you" ? Are you filled with noise ? Or do you not know what it means to be empty or full ? Are you finding you know nothing, and you are no thing ? Is there something that you need to salvage ? Are you burning too quickly ? Is selfconsciousness holding you back ? Do you have an appointment with something that keeps freedom waiting ? Is it too costly to allow yourself to simply be ? Who will you disappoint ? Does later have more appeal than now ? Are you waiting to go beyond, or can you see that these are just ideas arising in what you are timelessly are ? If freedom is on one hand, what is in the other hand ? If you are already empty, then remain as you are. If you are not, contemplate this thing : can anything stand in your way in truth, or is this not merely imagined ? Who Is Identified ? Who's identified with mind ? It's the Beingness. The Beingness by itself is pure. If it's not associating with any concept, about past and present, any kind of psychological or any state, it remains unassociated, and there's no problem. There's not anything called mind. Mind itself is a thought, mind is not a thing. Brain is a thing, that cauliflower in your head, but mind is not a thing, mind is not something. (...) I am the awareness in which everything and anything is arising and perceived. If you really know that I am the awareness itself within which everything manifest and play, appears and is perceived, whatever you have written here (showing the paper's Questioner he's reading), it's ok, you can forget about it. Before the feeling "I am" arose, you still are, even without "I". That which is does not even say "I". The "I" came as the sound of the absolute in this body. And this I-am-ness is the perceiver, the projecter, the experiencer of existence. And yet this feeling "I am" can easily be removed, some chloroform can take it away. Every night you go to bed, at a certain point you enter a state where not even "I am" is there... complete emptiness. And something love to be in this state, where everything, all perception is fallen. Completely effortless, before even the knowing or the concept of effortlessness, you're here. Even now it's like this, even now in awaking state you are what you are, it's effortless. It's not trying to do anything to get anywhere, It's completely at rest in Itself. Everything else in the

mind. Mind has been given the task "solve me !" Once the presence of that existence's feeling in the body, I am, is there, it is asking the mind "work me out, solve me !". Because it identifies with the mind, and all of this fragmentation, all this knowledge, all this noise came. And then its own state which was so open and panoramic became claustophobic with all this concepts. Now It wants to clear itself from this concepts. So if you've come to this place "I am the awareness in which everything is arising and is being perceived spontaneously", then there's nothing more, you can throw all your notes. Because that will not change. Everything else will change, the pictures will change, but the awareness will never change. It doesn't even know Itself as awareness, doesn't call Itself anything, it's so wordless concept free, space. (...) (Questioner notes : "I don't mind about anything phenomenal"). What is not phenomenal ? If you don't mind about anything phenomenal, you're out of it. Feelings, thoughts, this five elemental world and his movement, time, relationship, all of these is phenomenom, meaning that they have perceivable qualities. Time itself is a concept. Can time exists without you, the perceiver of time ? So you must be earlier than time, because you are watching time, time is not watching you. I am looking at this hand, can this hand look at me ? The universe is not looking at me, it doesn't know me, something here is saying "I am looking at it". So you are watching everything. (...) The thought itself is the (root) of phenomenon, this world is built on thought, it is concrete form of thought, this world is a thought. Perhaps as yet you're not convinced of this, it's ok, but never the less, it has to be said now. All this is thought, and the thinker of it is also a thought. (...) Worlds are accountable, because in each cauliflower, infinite worlds are created, and they don't tally up, everything is a unique projection. (...) "I don't mind" is something neutral, this is open, "I don't mind what comes and goes", this is spacious. You Are Already Free Then leave off everything else for a moment, don't touch anything else for a moment. Even though it might appear to be there, swimming through the corner of your perception, leave it, don't touch anything at all. You have the power to do that. Remain unoccupied, remain unassociated, and see if you can describe what remains. Don't doubt. Nothing belongs to you, even though it appears. Play with everything, enjoy, but don't have the sense that "I need this, for This". For work, for this play, fine, but not for This. Don't associate with anything, don't touch "Oh yes, but I need...". (Questioner : I don't feel need, all these things are flying around, but it's like chaff, it's like nothing, not attached) Very great. What remains to be done ? (Questioner : To say "yes", and starts crying) Don't trust that who says "no", don't wait for "yes", you are That which is beyond yes and no. Don't wait anymore for "yes". If yes is going to come for the mind, that would be an ace of the sleave of the mind, it will not serve it, it will keep you waiting for yes. Do not be at the mercy of the mind, you are there before even yes or no. (Questioner : So "yes" is fake ?) Yes ! (Questioner : It's the last trap, it doesn't exists...) Very

great. You are there before yes and no, and maybes, and there after, they come after you. They have no existence apart from you. You don't need a "yes", you are already free. Didn't Rmi write something beautiful ? He says : "Knocking at a door. It opens. I've been knocking from inside". (Questioner : I'm so blessed !) You are. "I" means blessed, it's synonymous with blessed, with grace, with peace, with "what Is". (...) See the power of concepts. Now you can say "no", try it. Now, you've released your "yes" from being "no", and your "no" from being "yes". You can do this, you are free. (...) You Are Always Awareness Trouble is also the guru, because it turns consciousness towards its own source. You are always awareness, you have no choice; this is all play. The ego cannot appear without the support of the underlying awareness, its own source.

You Are Emptiness Most satisfying. Coming back into your own stillness. What is making the journey back to stillness, your attention also ? You are the stillness, that eternal stillness. Awakening to this is recognizing that you've always been this, and you just thought you were something else, may the location for yourself amongst the relative and the transient. And that realm was satisfying for a while, but now something feels, no, that stability is missing, if you want to call it stability, because I don't even want to use the word stability for the Beingness or the Self. I don't find any word is going to be of any value here. Of all terminologies, of all concepts, perhaps the concept of space, or emptiness come closest to give a sense of what is here, unsupported, it has no walking sticks. Your beingness is like this. And somehow, when It is returning, so to speak, to Itself, in lost, a certain energetic movement might occur, you may find somehow that your world has been shuffled around... Don't mind this. It gradually will come to stabilize itself. It's as though the Beingness is burping up, spring cleaning itself, from all that noise that we've collected, unquestioned. Somehow all this noise is being comeout through your own introspection, through grace. Whatever it is that your own beingness is pleased to, allow itself, to clean itself, this is going on automatically. My finger is pointing to that place which is effortless in you, it is already so. Mind has a tendency to want to make work out of even the most, out of effortless. If you employ it, it will take on the job. Mind wants to be "effortless", mind wants to show how to be "natural", but natural is what you are, it means no effort, what is there as it is. As this begins to accept itself again, encouraged by such interaction as in here (in Satsang), you're being reminded of what you imagined you've become separate from. Then a sweet unburdening is taking place by itself.

You Are Not The Mind The question is not a text-book question. The question is very rare and auspicious question. (...) Don't identify with that stockiness. There is the awareness of this sense of stuckness. You don't need to go into stuckness. Hold on to yourself. Where are you ? (...) You are not the mind. You're aware of the mind. Mind : all that is known and knowable and even potential of knowingness. Any movement of the mind is detected. (...) Something is throwing you back (let's use this expression for now, it's not accurate) but something is throwing you back, not in the mind, but into a space which is qualitiless. It has no form, it has no shape, it has no weight, it's beyond all of that. (...) The very fact that you are even aware of consciousness establish your position where, as what ? You Are The Imageless Source What is good is to give some space and some time just to keep the "I Am" marinate in itself only, so that these concerns are not given so much space, so that the I Am-ness itself can just keep its power inside itself. And don't worry about how it can be used, just keep that there. And then automatically, spontaneously, unexpectedly, every things will reorient themselves to the core. This is important. Sometimes we too much are looking out to see how we can change this or that, but now when you bring everything back into your intimate being, stay one with that. (...) The way that people think around you will change, when you, yourself are not living out, not even watching what's going on, or how it has changed, not even interested, not concerned about you behavior or your movement particularly. There is a force, a presence about you, that is not personal anymore. And it's not cold. I refer to it as a kind of impersonal intimacy, that can somehow interact, respond, touch, play, but doesn't carry. And there is not somebody there doing this, it's just by itself. You may not even be aware of how others perceives you anymore, it won't be your concern. So it's not really a practice, and it's not seeing how you interact with others, it doesn't go that far. All is your own self, free from psychological identification with what is past and what is projected. And just abiding only in that space, that intuitive presence that is already here, that sense "I Am", without giving any description or image to It. It is that imageless source, that space of perception and witnessing. You Are The Holy Spirit (Questioner talks about consciousness, awareness, play of consciousness, taste of awareness). Maybe the laughing or the crying will happen in consciousness, but the one who is crying will not happen. The one who's apparently used to think "I am crying", "Will I laugh or cry ?"... "I" is what ? That must be the consciousness itself. And we are not talking about forms here. Awareness is formless, consciousness is formless, mind is formless, "I" is formless, so we are trying to speak accurately about something that has no boundary. (Questioner : is there a

taste in awareness ?) No, awareness has no taste, but taste appears in awareness. Those who have come to this recognition, there is a silence in them. (...) The presence of the holy spirit. You are this holy spirit. When you come to know who you are, then holiness is shining from you. No panic, no excitement. Even the presence of this presence itself is already changing the environment, washing it with love, grace. (Questioner : how can you retain this awareness ?) This is the thing. Come to complete understanding that there is no "you" to do it. It is what we have trouble with. Who is going to retain awareness ? Even this very idea is an idea just arising in it, like a cloud in the sky. How is the cloud going to help the sky to be more bright, to be more sky-like ? Who is going to reach and sustain, and stay as awareness ? Nobody's staying there, there is only awareness. There are no addresses in awareness. There's only infinite expanse, no one is resident there. You are That. There's no "there" in awareness. There and here exists as ideas in awareness itself. I cannot find another word in any language that comes more to give a little taste, a sense of It, than space. Space-like awareness, like emptiness, free of quality, because qualities are not reliable, they are coming and going. That which is perceiving the coming and going of quality also, is a tinge of this pure formless awareness and mind, that can perceive even the subtlest taste, and even the perception of what is arising in awareness itself. Awareness is not a dead space, it's not inert. It's neither alive nor dead, it's beyond all, no word exists anywhere that can convey this. Yet all these words, they appear through the mind and consciousness, appearing in the awareness itself. I Am that awareness. Undying, unchanging, unalterable, unsplitable, unaffected, timeless, eternal, unbound, pure, immaculate... This is what Is. And what emanates out of it, all this magnificent universe, is know as its creation. Whatever names. There's so many names of God, but He's beyond name, the unborn principle. It's here also within which this meeting called Satsang is taking place, talking, hearing and understanding is taking place, the fruit of it is also taking place, the people working outside this room is taking place, everything is taking place in It, same consciousness. Here (in Satsang) it wants to know Itself, it wants to only stop associating. This is what Satsang means. Because the nature of mind and consciousness is to associate with something. Satsang means to associate with the highest truth, which means to associate with your own Self. You Don't Need To Know Anything Else Consciousness is finite, it also comes and goes, all of this realm is moving about; awareness does not, and you are this awareness. What is intellectual about it ? You don't need to know anything else. Don't bother about anything else. This understanding is the Master Key. The 'You' that is stuck is not true; it is not your identity. Don't hold to any photograph about yourself and let the comprehending happen and see that all is well; it is always perfect. Don't even think about what 'perfect' means. Be like a new-born baby and watch how this universe takes care of you. Who will accept what I say ? We feel we need to learn... Learn that you don't

need to learn anything. Why carry what you don't need ? You picked up a burden, a contract that life didn't push on you. The burden is 'I am this' meaning this body and desires. This is why you have so much trouble. You Without You The part that doesn't know, that want to do something else, is not you. And the part that knows, is not you either. Don't give any time to it. You are already you. You without you. The voice that is saying "Yes, you know, I get all this stuff, this distractions going on, and I know that's not me, and there's another side that knows"... knows what ? (Questioner : there're just restling with each other). And who's witnessing the restling, even with any interest to say that there is restling going on ? It's just a kind of untangling that takes place through understanding, and you're identifying the wrong thing as yourself, simply because it has that feel, and it seems to be a regular feeling or whatever, or the need to identify yourself as something, always to put yourself in some context like "The walls are here, so I am here" or "This and this is in place, so that's where my life is", you see ? These kind of tendencies of the mind, and you the beingness is identifying with it. Without you, your support or endorsement, it is nothing at all. No thought is selfemployed. Find out for whom they play, who takes them seriously. It's the beingness that has forgotten itself and has identified itself with a particular personality, person, or persona. All this is knowable, is perceivable in you, in your real self. Don't hold any image about yourself, don't hold on to any description about you. Can you do this now ? Don't hold on to any image, no photograph of being, any context about what position you are in your spiritual evolution, or what you want to get, where you want to get to also. Leave it aside. What has happened in the past, and what has brought you here, leave it also. To not hold on to any intention or any idea, is not difficult, you can do it, you have completely the power to do it. Remain unsupported, and say something from this place. What's going on now ? (Questioner is laughing more and more, joyfully, and saying she doesn't know why she's laughing). Allow it. Even this laughing is not you.