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ABULLSTORY ABalancingofMaleandFemaleEnergies

ByMollySheehan,April1996 Thirtyfeetupstoodamagnificentbullwhich,atanymoment,couldstepoffahayloftintoaflyingbeeffreefall.Thecrowdbelowincludedlocal police,thebullsowner,neighbors,passersby,evenafewbarncats.Thespectatorsconcernwaslacedwithfascination.Theywerewitnesstoa dramawhichcould,throughnofaultoftheirown,takearapid,violetturnfortheworse.Notonlycouldthebullleaptoitsdeath,itmightgore andtossanyonetryingtosaveit.Allthisandnoadmissionfeepaid. EnterJim,friend,neighboranddairyfarmer.Jimarrivedatthesceneofthegreatescapeinapolicecruiser.Offeringhisadvice,hedbeen handedtherescuemission.Jimpushedthroughthecrowdandclimbedthestairstotheloft.Whenheremovedhisjacket,thecrowdnodded expectantly.JimwasgoingtoWRESTLETHEBULLWITHHISBAREFISTS!Everyonebelowpositionedthemselvestowatchtheepicstruggle.Jim, however,hadotherplans.Hetiedhisjacketaroundthebullsheadsothatitcouldnotsee.Thenhefirmlypulledthedocilebulldownthestairs byahalter.Writtenupinthetownrecordsasanactofextremecourage,Jimsawwhathedidastheobvioussolutiontoaneasyproblem. Ilovethisbullstory.Itisataleaboutthetriumphofcommonsensebutitismorethanthat.Thebullrepresentstheoutofbalancepartwithin mostofusthatisdeterminedtogowhereitpleases,regardlessofwhetheritisagoodidea.Iseethisbullenergythatgetsusindangerous predicamentsforveryquestionablegainsasMaleenergyoutofbalance.Thecrowdofbystandersalsoreflectsanoutofbalancepartof ourselves.Withinmostofusisanenergywhichchoosestoacthelpless,devoidofresponsibility,buthappytopredictworstcasescenarios.I havecometoseethisspectatorsenergyasFemaleenergyoutofbalance. MyneighborJimrepresentsMaleandFemaleenergystrengthsusedinbalance.HedependeduponboththeinnerwisdomofhisFemale energyandoutwardactionorientedskillsofhisMaleenergytosolvetheproblem. MostofuscouldtakealessonfromJim.WeallneedbothMaleandFemaleenergyworkingtogethertomoveforwardinourlives,togetthe bulloutofthehayloft,sotospeak. Whatarethesetwoenergies?OurMaleenergygivesusthewilltodo,andisnecessaryforanythingtobeaccomplishedinthephysicalworld. MaleenergyisCanDoenergy.OurFemaleenergygivesustheheartconnectionwithourDivineselfwhichguidesusaboutwhattodo,what willbeinalignmentwithourCreator,andwhatwillgiveusthemaximumlearningforourefforts.WhenweuseourMaleenergyinisolation fromourFemaleenergy,wepursueactivitiesthatarenotgoodideas.IfwetapintoourFemaleenergywithoutusingourMaleenergy,our visionsbecomenaught. Notonlydoweneedtousebothenergiesinbalance,weneedtousethestrengths,nottheweaknesses,ofbothenergies.Inaculturewhich dismissesthesignificanceofintuitionandlisteningtoonesheart,acommonFemaleenergyweaknessistochoosetobeneitherseennor heardandaMaleenergyweaknessistochoosenottolisten.HorrormoviesaregreatexamplesoftheMaleenergyweaknessofpursuingabad ideacounterpointedbytheFemaleenergyweaknessofrefusingtorespondtoonesinneralarmsystem.Ahistoricalexampleofthisimbalance atworkoccurredduringtheearlyyearsoftheVietnamWar.MaleenergyrefusedtolistentoasilentFemalecounterpartwhichknewthewar wasabadidea.Laterinthewar,theprotestmovementwasanexampleofFemaleenergytakingresponsibilityandinsistingitbeheard.This wasagreatlessonforthecountryforitwastheprocessofbothenergiesworkingtogetherthatbroughtanendtothewar.Unfortunatelythis didnotstartanenormoustrend. Globally,theMaleenergyweaknessofnotlisteninghasbeenmatchedbytheFemaleenergyweaknessofnotspeakingup.Theresultisthe situationthatexistsontheplanettoday.Atthecloseofthecentury,widespreadecologicalhavoc,ragingnationalism,vastproliferationofguns andweapons,andthesubjugationofwholeracesofpeopleandgendergroupscallsustocollectivelycomeintoabetterbalanceofMaleand Femaleenergies. Thisbalancemustbeachievedbyeachofusindividuallyifitistohappencollectively.Notonlyisthispossible,alllifesupportsusinthistask. EachofushasthefullpotentialtobringourMaleandFemaleenergystrengthsintobalancebecauseeachofushasbothenergieswithinus. EverycircumstanceinourlivesistheretoencourageustouseabalanceofourMaleandFemaleenergystrengthsandgiveusinstantfeedback aboutwhereweareintheprocess.Itisworthlisteningasmasterfuluseofthestrengthsofbothenergiesisessentialforanybalancedactivity intheouterworldandforanylastingselfempowerment.

Mostofuscomeintoincarnationfeelingmorecomfortablewithoneenergythantheother.Thisisnotgenderrelated.ManyMaleEssencesare infemalebodiesandmanyFemaleEssencesareinmalebodies.Whatbetterwaytolearntolovetheunrecognizedenergystrengthswithinyou thantoliveinabodywhichcallsyouintotheunrecognizedpartsofyourself? AMaleEssencewillusuallypossessinherentMaleenergystrengthsaswellasweaknesses.ThosefullyintouchwiththeirMaleenergyknow howtoaccomplishagreatdealintheworld,butapotentialmaleenergyweaknessisthetendencytofeelvictimizedandangrywhenthose plansgoawry.BalancingMaleenergymeansreceivingFemaleenergycoursecorrectionsandaccessingtheFemaleenergyunderstandingthat theoutcomeofourendeavorshasnorelationshiptotheappropriatenessoftheaction.ThisnecessaryFemaleenergyisclearsighted, compassionateandunemotional.ItmovesusoutofwhatAliciaSilverstoneinthemoveCluelesscallsashamespiral.ManyMaleEssences avoidseekingtheinnercounseloftheirFemalesidebecausetheycarryanerroneousbeliefthatFemaleenergyisinherentlyweak,emotionally overwrought,evendefective.TheseMaleEssencestrapthemselvesinacycleoffrenetic,unsuccessfulactivityfollowedbyboutsofangerand judgement.OftenthisangerisdirectedattheunacknowledgedFemalesideofthemselveswhichtheywillblamefortheirlackofsuccess.This blamegamebolsterstheirdenialoftheFemaleenergywithinthem. TheoppositeistrueformanyFemaleEssences.TheywillknowwhattheyneedtodobutwillavoidusingtheuntappedMaleenergywithin themselves,preferringtohaveMaleEssencesaroundthemhandletheactiveroleofdoordie.Whenthingsdonotworkwiththispassingthe buck,theFemaleEssencewilloftenthishisorherinformationiscorrectandnotstoptoconsiderthatmaybetheflawintheprocessis expectingsomeoneelsetomanifesthisorhervisioninthenewworld. Asawaytodemonstratehowourlifepatternswillnaturallypullustowardsareconciliationandbalancingofthetwoenergies,IthoughtI wouldfollowthethreadofthisbalancingprocessasithasoperatedinvariouskeysituationsinmylife. IamaFemaleEssence.SincemygoalinthisincarnationistobringmyMaleenergyintobalancewithmyFemaleenergy,theworkformeisto trytobringforwardmyMaleenergystrengthsandexaminemyFemaleenergyweaknessesforthecorrectionandremovalofthoseunhelpful egopatterns.Inotherwords,mytaskistobelieveinmyguidanceandstandtruetoitinthought,wordanddeed. Asachild,IhadavarietyoffiguresinmylifeusingMaleandFemaleenergybothappropriatelyandinappropriately.Ihadseveralpeopleinmy lifewhowereverystrongMaleEssencesandwhousedthisenergydestructivelyandtotheexclusionoftheirFemaleenergies.Thisbrought forwardmyowninnerbiasthattherewassomethingdefectiveaboutMaleenergy.AnimportantFemaleEssenceinmylifelettheMale Essencesaroundhimruntheshow.IneededtoseehowpoorlythisavoidanceofresponsibilityworkedsothatIwouldnotchoosetolivebythis method. Asachildandyoungadult,Iwasverycomfortablewithmyprivate,inner,Femaleenergyworld.IexperimentedwithmyMaleenergy,butI alwaysthoughtitwaslesserenergy,anotverynicekindofbullytouseonlyincertaincircumstanceswhereIwaswillingtosacrificenicenessto getwhatIdesired.IdrewalineinthesandaboutwhatIwantedinlifeandusedmyMaleenergytogetthesethingsagoodeducation,my firstfulltimejob,awonderfulhusband. MyFemaleEssencestrengthsgavemeachildhoodclosenesstoGod,theAngelsandtherecollectionofmyhistoryasasoulinother incarnations.However,withouttheconfidencethatMaleenergybrings,Ibegantodoubtmyselfandmyinnerknowing.BythetimeIwas10,I hadlearnedhowtousemyMaleenergytosuppressmyinnerwisdominordertobetterfitintolifeonearth. Iwasmotivatedinthistaskbyfear.MysoulrememberedmanylivesinwhichIhadbeentorturedandkilledwhenIpubliclysteppedintomy truth.IwasafraidoftheMaleenergiesoftheworldandwhatwouldhappenagainifIstoodinmytruth.IdidnotunderstandthatIneededto owntheMaleenergywithinmeinordertohealthesituationandbeabletosafelybemytruthinaction.IdidnotunderstandthatMaleenergy wasnotother. AsIlearntoownmyMaleenergy,IrealizedIcontributedtothesetraumaticlivesbynotsupportingmyselfwithmyMaleenergy.Inonelifein puritanNewEngland,myhusbandwaslostatseaandeveryoneintown,includingme,knewhewasdead.WhenIquietlytookalover,Iwas usingaparcelofmyMaleenergytogivemyselfsomeofthehappinessIdesired.However,whenIwasfoundout,Iendedtherelationship, meeklymovedtotheoutskirtsoftownwhereIhadbeenorderedtogobytheragingtownspeople(Maleenergyoutofbalance)andworetheir scarletletterforthem(Femaleenergyoutofbalance).IcannotplayoutthescenarioagainbutIwonderwhatwouldhavehappenedhadI stoodmygroundalittlemore(IwillhavetocheckwithDemiMoore!) Inthislife,IwasfirstcalledintotheunapologeticuseofmyMaleenergywhenmysecondchildwasbornwithseveralmedicalproblems includingacleftpalate.Afteratraumaticexperienceinthehospital,weweresenthomewithamountainofmedicalmisinformation.Among othererroneousideas,doctorsassuredusthatIcouldeasilybreastfeedthisbaby.Theactualtruthofthematteristhatbecausethenasalcavity isfullyopentothemouthcavityinachildwithacleftpalate,ababywithacleftpalatecannotcreateanysuctionandhasanextremelydifficult ifnotimpossibletimebreastfeeding.IknewthatallwasnotwellasItriedtonursethischildroundtheclock.EachdayIweighedheronthe scalesatthevillagestoretryingtoconvincemyselfthatshehadgainedweight.Thedoctorsinsistedallwaswell.Ididnottrustmyselfenough tosay,Youarewrong. Finally,whenElizabethwaswellunderherbirthweightat6weeksofage,IwenttothedoctorsandsaidthatIneededtodosomethingelse. Theyinsistedthatbreastfeedingwasnottheissue.Onedoctorsaidthathehadseenacowwithacleftpalatenursesoheknewitcouldbe done.Thedoctorsfeltitwaseithermyanxietycausingtheproblemoritwasaheartdefect.Theytoldmetoreturninthreedaysforsome

tests.ThiswasaclassicexampleofMaleenergyoutofbalance.Thedoctorsdidnotlistentomeorlookatwhatwasactuallyhappeningbut followedthedogmaofthedaythateverychildcanbreastfeed.Furthermore,theybelievedmyfemaleintuitionwastheproblem.Uptothis point,IhadfallenintotheFemaleEssenceweaknessofpassiveacceptanceinthefaceofthisMaleEnergyoutofbalance.Finally,Ireclaimed myMaleenergyandstoodbehindmyFemaleenergystrengthofknowingthetruth.Itoldthedoctorsthatbreastfeedingwasnotgoingtowork andthatIwasgoingtogohomeandrigupanalternativemethodbeforewediscussedrunningazilliontestsonthebabysheart.AthomeIcut offtheendofabottlenippleandcreatedafeedingtubethatneedednosuction.Elizabethgainedapoundinthreedaysandthreepoundsin tendays.Itwasthebeginningofmytruelife.Abandoningmyblindallegiancetowhateverthedoctorssaid,Ilistenedtomyowninner promptingsandfollowedthrough100%onthisguidance.Mylifehasneverbeenthesame.ThankGod. Elizabethsbirthledtoanintensesearchformeaningandpurposebehindthedifficultiesinmylife.Thesearchprocessledtoawholenewlife formyself,onethatincludedthecreationofGreenHopeFarmandGreenHopeFarmFlowerEssences.Everystepofthiscreationprocess involvedlearningtobalancebothMaleandFemaleenergies. ThestartofmyspiritualquesthadallthelandmarksofanotherretreatintotheFemaleenergyweaknessesofextremeintrospectionand avoidanceoffullandresponsibleaction.Iread.Imeditated.Ireadsomemore.However,onceImadeaclearconnectionwiththestillsmall voiceofGodwithinandwiththeAngelsandElementalspopulatingoursharedworld,myguidancecalledmebackoutintotheworldtoputthe informationIwasreceivingintoaction.Wholeheartedly,IdidwhatIwasaskedtodo. TheprocessofusingMaleandFemaleenergyinbalancerequirestappingintoFemaleenergywisdomfirstandthenfollowingthroughwith Maleenergyaction.ThiscangiveFemaleEssencesanadvantageinthebalancingprocessinthattheyareintheirFemaleenergytobeginwith. MaleEssencesoftenneedtohitmanybrickwallsbeforetheystartanewventurebyfirstattuningtotheirFemaleenergywisdomofwhatto do.FemaleEssencesenjoywallowingintheirinnerknowing.ItcantakeaforcelikeNaturetopushthemoutofthenest.Inmycase,Nature wasagloriousteacher,showingbyexamplethatalldivinecreationistheperfectsynthesisofMaleandFemaleenergiesandhelpingmebelieve thatItoocouldfollowsuit. Duringtheearlyyearsatthefarm,itwasatotaljoytolistenandfollowthevoiceoftheGodwithinandtheAngelsandElementalsofthe NatureKingdom.Thecreationofthegardenswedesignedtogetherwasauseofmymaleenergieswhichfeltsafetome.Ienthusiastically plantedenormousgardensinunusualgeometicconfigurations.Theresultinggardenshadextremelyhighvibrations,abundantproduceanda lush,opulentbeautythatbeliedourzone3climate.ThecreationofGreenHopeFarmFlowerEssenceswasalsoagentlebirthforme.Mydeep loveforFlowersopenedmetoacceptandintegratetheirenergeticwisdominthelifeofmyselfandmyfamily.Itcameasnosurprisetome thatFlowerscouldhealandIwasgladtosharetheirgiftswithagrowingcircleoffriends.Theseearlyyearsatthefarmbuiltconfidencein combiningmyFemaleEnergyguidancewithmyMaleCanDoenergy.Thismomentumwasvitalbecausespirithasledmetousethisbalance ofenergiesinwaysthathavebeenmuchmoredifficultforme. AfterseveralyearsofgardeningwiththeAngelsandworkingwithourcocreationofFlowerEssencesinrelativelyquietways,theAngelsasked metotakeourshowontheroad.Ifeltsuchgratitudetowardsthemandsuchdelightinwhatweweredoingtogetherthatmypastlifefearsof beinghurtbystandinginanunconventionaltruthwereputaside.Itwaswonderfultospeakmytruthinpublicbuttherewerecomplexlessons formeaswell.IhadtolearnbytrialanderrorhowtohandlethenegativitydirectedatmewhenIspoke.Adeeppatternwastoenergetically appeaseangryfolksinordertogetthemoffmyback.ThisFemaleEssenceappeasementinthefaceofangryMaleenergyleftmeverydrained andsometimesingreatpain.WhileIwasnotalwaysclearthatIhadopenedthisenergydoorwayatthetime,Ialwaysfelttheeffects afterwards.Duringonetalktoseveralhundredpeople,Iopenedmyselfenergeticallyandleftthetalkwithfullblownpneumonia.Overtime,I learnedtoshutthedooronreadingtheaudiencesreactionstowhatIwassayingandstayconnectedonlytotheGodwithinme.Thiswasa greatlessonforme. DuringoneparticularworkshopIwasguidedtochangetheentireformatfromwhathadbeenadvertised.Thisleftmostofthegroupfuriousat me.Infact,severaloftheparticipantsgotdownonthefloor,kickingandscreaminginprotest.Istayedcenteredinmyheart,followedthe directionsoftheGodwithinandfullyprotectedmyself.Inretrospect,Irealizedthatparticularworkshopwasagraduationforme,agift showingmehowmuchIhadgrown.ThebalanceduseofmyMaleandFemaleenergyallowedmetobethepresenceofGodinthemidstofthis groupwhohadusedeverysubtle,sophisticatedandblatanttooltothrowmeoffmystride.Ilefttheworkshopradiantwithconfidence. Afterthatworkshop,spirittoldmethatmylessonsonthelecturecircuitwereoverfornowandthatweweretoembarkinnewdirections.This nextlearningcurveinvolvedgrowingalargebusinesswithGreenHopeFarmFlowerEssences.Theproductoflove,balanceandintegrity, FlowerEssenceshavebeenanessentialgiftinmylife.ThefactthattheyareoutintheworldinabigwaywasnotsomethingIconsciously planned.However,Icanseethatitwastheperfectnextstepformygrowth. Withallmyheart,IlovetheprocessofmakingtheFlowerEssences.ItisaprocessoftakingtheinfinitewisdomofGodandcoalescingthis vibrationalwisdomintomatter.ItisanexampleofNaturesownbalanceofMaleandFemaleenergyatworkandismymodel.Frankly,myflow hasnotalwaysbeenasgracefulasNatures. Ireceiveexcellentguidanceabouthowtogrowthisbusinessbutallofthetoolsandtheexperiencesarenewandforeigntome.Forexample, tenyearsagoIwasdeterminedtocloseoutthe20thcenturyusingonlygreeninkonlinenpaper.Ihavefoundmyself,bynecessity,aconvertto thecomputer.Reluctancehasbecomeenthusiasm,butnotwithoutdownloadingandthenerasing10MBoffearoftechnologyandanequal amountofdoubtinmyabilitytounderstandthistechnology.

Ilovetheopportunitytosupportpeopleshealingprocesses.ItisaloveasdeepasmyloveforFlowers.Forme,Iimaginedthiswouldalways involveoneononeconversations.TheseareasnaturalasbreathingtoaFemaleEssencelikemyself.WiththegrowthofGreenHopeFarm FlowerEssences,mysupportrolehasevolveddifferentlythanIexpected.WhileIdogettotalkwithpeopleonthephoneonceinawhile,my workhasbecomemorefocusedonefficientlymovingavastnumberofFlowerEssencesoutintothelivesofindividualsallovertheworld.By necessity,thiscallsmeintountriedareasofMaleenergy.Financeandaccounting,marketingandsales,inventorycontrol,capital improvementsandemployeemanagementareallclassesmyconsciousselfdidnotplantotakethistimeonearth.EitherIwasgoingtobeout inmygardensmellingtherosesorIwasgoingtobeinvolvedinoneofthoseaforementionedhearttohearts!TheGodwithinmeknew differentlyandprovidedtheperfectclassroomforbalancingmyMaleandFemaleenergiesthroughahandsoncurriculum.Eachdaypresents newchallengestomeasIexploretheMaleenergyterritoryofactionwithinandwithout.MystrengthsaremysteadfastloyaltytomyFemale wisdomandmydeterminationtomakepeacewiththislongdeniedMalepartofmyself.Itisawholenewworldforme.Therearedaysof exhilarationanddaysofconfusion.Inthemiddleofthisbusinesslearningcurve,IdonotalwaysseethewayeachnewtaskbringsmyMaleand FemaleenergiesintostrongerbalancebutIknowitdoes.Futhermore,Ihavecomefarenoughtoknowtwothingsforcertain. First,thereisnobetterpartnertosupportusinthisbalancingactthanNature.NatureisFemaleknowingbalancedwithMaleexperiencing, creatingthesublimejoyofbeing.FlowerandtheirgiftofFlowerEssencesareaparticularblessingastheyholdaveryevolvedandradiant versionofthissublimebeingness.Yet,withorwithoutFlowers,apartnershipwithNaturesupportsusinfindingourownuniquebeingness,our owninnerbalanceofFemaleenergywisdomandMaleenergyaction,ourownjoyfulIAMPresence. Second,eachoneofuscanfindthisbalance.Divinelawworksanditworksforeveryone.TheGardenofEdenbeckonseachofus,awaitingour returnintoaplaceofrightrelationshipandOnenesswithallcreation.Asthecrowdsaidtothebull,Comeondown! MollySheehan,April1996

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