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brilliant first-person narrative* carries you out of your chair and deposits yon into the clatter of
a tangle patrol.& The writing is crisp and tough.

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TheMarines arelooldngfor a few goodmen.. The recruit says that bSs name i sLeonard Pratt Gunnery Sergeant Gerheim takes one lode at the immediately dubs 1dm "Goma trying to be funny. Nobody.

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Sesgemt Gerhebii steps ovbr d struggEg-bodies, &omps &gas# k i & ~ b with s &e b e of his boot qem H .Chi% You maggots are hufbg and pdhg - the way your momma did the first tixne your old man

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"Outstanding. "Inen Private Joker wiU with PrivateFykPrivate Jokerissilly andlie'signorant, but he's got guts, and gats i s enough." Sergeant Gerhefan struts back to his Tpahce," a tiny at the far end of the squad bay. "okay. ladies.
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S o w n into the yellow pool Leonard struggles.Bubbles. P d c gives Leonard strength.Sergeant G e r * holdshimdown. After we're sure that Leonard has drowned, Serpant Gerheim flushes the toilet When the water ,stops flowing. Sergeant Gerheim releases his hold on Leonard's neck.
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Thefirstnightofourseventhweekoftrainingtfae platoon gives Leonard a. blanket party. Midnight

the dark, one hundred recruits walk to Lean'

By the end of our seventh week Leonard has be'@me a model recruit W e decide that Leonard's . sflence is a result of Ids new intense concentration. --- Day by day, Leonard is more motivated, more squared 5 , .- away. His manual of aims is flawlessnow,but his eyes --- .are inflk glass. Leonard cleans his weapon more than Wrecruit61theplatoon.Everynightafterchow Leonard caresses the scarred oak stock with linseed , SO. the way hundreds of earBer recruits have caressed - - %&esame piece of wood. Leonard improves at every1 ' thing,but remainssilent He does what he is told. but -. he is no longer part of the &toon. .. ---, We can see that Sergeant Gerheim reseats Leon." a d ' s attitude. He reminds Leonard that the motto of tike Marine Corps is Semper JFideUsaAlway Faiths f -*-="u l . " Sergeant Gerheim reminds Leonard that "Gung , &P is ~hinhe for "workingtogether." . :--.:- = It Is a Marine Corps tradition. Sergeant Gerheim .'"',says, that M a r i n e s never abandon their dead en* --.-. bounded. Sergeant Gerheim is careful not to come - - down too hard on Leonard qs long as Leonard re: mains squared away. We have already lost seven re-@Utson Section Eight discharges. A Kentucky boy \'. named P e r k stepped to the center of the squad c -;.i@y a d slashed his wrists with his bayonet. Sergeant G:,CAyhefan wa n o t happy to see a recruit bk~ding e ? " i j B Ms p rice o n dean squad bay. The recnrit was or-."& m a d to police the area, mob up the blood, and reat&the bayonet in its sheath. While Peridns mopped .. -the blood, S e r - Gerheim called a school cirde 5 and poo-pooed the recruit's shallow slash across his . <-wifets with a bayonet The U.S.M.C.-approved method of recruit suicide is to get atone and take a + -F+ ,: %&or blade and slash deep and vertical, from wrist to
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Then the Rifleman's Creed, by Marine Corps Major General W .H .Rupertus:

Leonard is speaking for the first time i n weeks. His voice booms louder and louder. Heads turn. Bodies shift. The platoon voice fades. Leonard is about to explode. His words ale being coughed up from deep, ugly place. Sergeant ~ e r h & his the right duty. He struts to Leonard's rack and stands by, fists on hips. Leonard doesn't see Sergeant Gerhefan. The veins i n Leonard's neck are bulging as he bellows:

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After the graduation ceremoay our orders are distributed. Cowboy, Leonard, Private Barnard, Philips, and most of the other Marines in Platoon 30-92 are ordered to ITR-tihe Infantry Training Regimentto be trainedas grunts, infantrymen. My orders instruct me to report to the Basic Military Journalism School at Fort Benjamin Harrison, Indiana, after I graduate from ITB. Sergeant Gerheim is "disgusted by the fact that I am to be a combat corondent and not a grunt. He calls me a poge, mi .He says that shitbirds get all the slack at ease on the parade deck beneath the to the Iwo Jima flag raising, Sergeant Germ says, T h e smoking lamp is lit. You people are no longer maggots. Today you are Marines. Once a

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FUCKING WORTHLESS LITTLE PIECE OF S H I T . YOU WILL GIVE ME THAT WEAPON OR I ' M GOING TO TEAR YOUR BALLS OFF AND STUFF THEM DOWN YOUR SCRAWNY LITTLE THROAT1 YOU HEAR ME, MARINE? I'M GOING TO PUNCH YOUR FUCKING HEART O W Leonard alms the weapon at S
heart, caresses the trigger guard, trigger. * Sergeant Gerhdm is suddenly cahn. Hia ' manner are those of a wanderer who has found bis home. H e Is a maii in complete control of himself and of the world he lives in. His face is cold and bwwtiful as the dark dde surfaces. H e

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I say, Trepare to mount." Then: "MOUNT!" The platoon falls into a hundred racks. I fed cold and done. I am not alone. AII over Parris Island there are thousands and thousands o fu s . And, d l around the world, hundreds of t h o u ~ d s . Itrytoalq h my rack, I pull my rifle into my arms. She t a b to me. Words come out of the wood and metal and flow into my hands. She tells me what to do. My rille is a solid b t a m e n t of death. My rifle is black steel. Our human bodies are bags of blood, easy t o puncture a d quick to dr&n, but our hard tools of
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death cannot be bmkm I hold my weapon at port arms, gently, as though she were a holy relic, a magic wand wrought with intdocldng pieces of &er and hen, with a teakwood stock, golden bullets, a crystal bolt, jewels to sight with. My weapon obeys me. I'll hold Vanessa, my I&. I'll hold her. I'll just hald her for a little while.

B l d ~ ~ o f & e b m l d m y & e m d f f m up on to my hands. The blood mows. The blood breaks up i n t o Bvhg fragments. Each fragment is a spider. Millions and millions of tiny red spiders of blood are crawling up my arms, across my face, into

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if they expect us to satisfy our lust w i t h a donut and they explain that a donut hole is all we rate. In the US0 there are barrels and bands of letters which have been written to us by children back in the

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above the mass of green Marines. General Motors and Ids staff had stopped by to catch the show. They did that sometimes. General Motors liked to keep in touch with his Marines. Rafter Man fell off the rafters like a green bomb, crashing through the g e n d s table, spilling beer, smashing pretzels, and knocking the general and four of Ids staff officers on their brass behinds. Hundreds o f enlisted men, having assumed that Rafter Man was some kind of unconventional mortal - -.=round, were one mass of green laundry. Then heads began to pop up. ^' The staff officers jerked Rafter Man to his feet and *startedyelling for the M.P.'s. . General Motors raised his hand and there was sil a & U n l i k e many Marine Corps generals, General M o t o r s looked exactly like a M a r i n e Corps general, eyes a s gray as gun metal, a face that was tough but - sensitive-a Cro-Magnon holy man's face. His jungle utilities were starched, razor-creased, with shirt,- .- . - - sleeves rolled up neatly. R a f t e r Man stood there, staring at the general, grin? ning like a goddamn fool, He wobbled. He tried to walk hut he couldn't He was having enough trouble just s t a n d i n g in one place. : , . . - General Motors ordered the broken table cleared

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The general nodded, then sat down on the floor n e x t to Bafter Man. With a wave of his handhe ordered the staff o f f i c e r s to s i t on the floor b e h i n d him, which they did, still Hissed o f f . With another wave o f his hand the generalordered the performersto go on with the show. The Australian comedian and the sweating dancers hesitated. Rafter Man stood up. . He wobbled, then sank down to the deck beside the general. He put his aim around the geneds shoulders. General M o t o r s looked at him without q. pression. Rafter Man said, "Hey, bro, I can fly.-&@$ you see me fly?" He paused. "You think am,I drunk?~mea~am~hammeredoram~hamm~? He looked around "Joker?W s Joker?"B u t IWEBstill stumbling over angry poges. "JoWa my broi?Sife Weenlistedpersonnelaretight,youknow?Ind$ bitably.1 am hi love w i t h those sexy women. I &at. His face got serious. "Who'll take-fte through the wire? Sir? Where's Joker?" He around, but didn't see me. TB fafl in the < @ E b l o w myself up. Sir? SIR? ni step on a mine. I,gaf,$p find m y bro, sir. I dodt want to fell into the wire,noi

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Daytona Dave laughs. "That kid runs an NVA riflecompany. Somebody blow him away." I grin. "You ladies are doing an outstanding job. You're both born poges." C h i l l Vendor shrugs. "Hey,bro, the Crotch don't send beaners into the field We're too tough. We make the grunts look badm%. You guys getting hit?" That's affirmative," says Daytona Dave. "Every night. A few rounds. Thefre just fucking with u s . Of course, I've got so many confirmed kills I lost count. Nobody believes me because the gooks drag off their dead. I do believe that those Bttle yellow enemy folks eat their casualties. Blood trails all over the place, but no confirmed lolls. So here I am, a hero, and Captain G G January has got me doing Mickey Mouse shit w i t h 3~2this uppity wetback." "CORPORAL JOKER!" "SIR1 Later, people. Come on, Rafter? Chili Vendor punches Daytona Dave in the chest "Doubletime up to the a l e and souvenir me one cute orphan, man, but be sure you get a dirty one, a

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blood ami iroq but ~ f printed s wift ~nkmii its ,pm good show business but we make them what they are. The lesser services like to joke about how every Marine platoon goes into battle accompanied by a pla-toon of M a r i n e Craps photographers. That's affirmative. Marines fight -harderbecause JM@w -. have bigger legends to live up t o . " h-:~ Captain January slaps a large package on the floor by Ids desk. "And this is die final product of all our industry. My wife likes to show interest i n my work. She asked me for a souvenir. I'm s s so funny out loud. "
"Yes, Sergeant?" "Where's the Top?" "The First shirt went to Da Nang for some incountry R & R . You can see him after you come back f r o m Hue." Captain January looks at his wristwatch. 'Seventeen hundred. Chow time." .

to chow Rafter Man and I meet Chill Oa Vendor and Daytona Dave and M r . Payback at the ISO enlisted men's hootch. I give Rafter Man a utility jacket with 101st Airborne patches all over it. My own Army jacket has First Air Cavalry insignia. Iselect two salty sets of Army collar chevrons and we pin them on. Now we're Spec-5's~Army sergeants. Chili Vendor and Daytona Dave and Mr. Payback axe all buck sergeants from t h e Ninth Infantry Divisioa. We go to chow down in the Army mess hall. The Army eats real' food. Cake, roast beef, ice cream, chocolate milk-all the bennies. Our own mess hah

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die rear and Animal M o t h e r spit & ? , . t h e n blew &em away." I miss Stumbling Stewey," says Alice, the black - giant. H e explains to me and Bafter Man: "Stumbling w e y was our honcho before Stoke, (he Supergrunt. Stumbling Stewey vm real, nervous, you know? V e r y nervous. I mean,he was nervous. The onlyway the dude could relax was throwing hand grenades. He was always popping frags all over the area. Then bestarted holding onto them light up to the last o (me day ol' Stumbling Stewey pulled the second. S pin and just stood there, staring, just staring and starfrig at that little oT olive-drab egg in his hand. ." Crazy Earl nods, burps. " Iwas just a New Guy the Say Stumbling Stewey blew himself away and Stoke the Supergrunt took the squad. Stoke made me assistpt squad leader. He could see that I didn't know nptlhg, and all that good hit, but he said he Bleed mf personality." Qaay Earl takes a swaflow from another bottle of beer. "Hey, Cowboy, get your Korsel Quick! My crabs are having a rodeo!" Dodon, the radimh, says, " I hope we stay here. This street fighting i s decent duty. We can see them liere. We got cover, resupply, even some areas where you can cut a few Z's without digging a hole. No rice paddies full of slope shit to swim in. No immersion @ t . No fun& rot No leeches fallingfrom the trees." Crazy Earl flips a beer bottle i n t o the air and the bottle arches down and smashes upon a broken walL a m a t i v e , but we blow up these shrines and temples and then the gooks got lots of shit to hide Under and we have to dig diem out" Everybody gets a little a long, detailed sea story
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pocket and Wipes Ids sweaty face. "Mr. Shortrgukd, - wouldn't let us go get them. ft made him side, but he held us back. Then the sniper started shooting off-. i 3 -fingers,toes, ears~everything.The guys in the rod :3were crying and begging and we were all growling --+*> like animals, but Ms. Shortround held us back. Then ,$ Animal Mother w e d to go for them and the Skipper Lf grabbed Animal Mother's collar and hit him in the -,I- ., face. Animal Mother was somad I thought he was go- i2 ; - ing to loll va all. But before he could do anything- ' the sniper started putting rounds into the guys in the ; g r ,Eeyz( . street He didn't miss more than a couple of times. popped. T . H . E .Rock's head off and then he put a -5% round through each gufs head. They were all moan-,.z3--' ing and praying and then it was quiet and they wpe -? - ," " -dead and it was like we were dead too.. . Idontknowwhat tosay. " , . . . : Cowboy spite, his face a sweaty stone. "After (hex*--NVApulled out,the liferssent in the Amin Black P a n t h e r sto take the Forbidden C i t y . Shit. N o t h i n g - . B. U t but rear good squads. We stomped the NVA and they- stomped us and then the lifers send In the, ; ; - Arvins, like the goddamn Arvins did i t M r . Short- : : . .-= m d said it eastheir count~~, said we was only : -. <3 - heIping Gut, & i t would boost the morale of ( h e . -:~g Vitnamese people. WeQ fade the Vietnamese peo-: ?z + - pie. The horrible hogs in hard, hungry Hotel Corn- 5: - pany ran up son American &g. Like on Iwo Jim& - --But some poge officers ordered than to tafee it down,he souffles had to ma up the s t i n l d ~ ~ietnames6 ~ ' flag, which is yellow, which is the right color for these *--,*chickenshit people. W e ' r e getting slaughtered in thisa - ; - city. And we can't even run up a fucking flag. I fust, - can't ha& this shit, bro. My job is to get nay people; 2 %
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W e drop through the ragged.rectangular bole into s o m e b o d y ' s library. Shrapnel has mangled leatherbound books. I pick up a small leatherbound book for a souvenir. The author fs J U Verne; ~ the title is to Preach. I stuff -the book into m y thigh pocket and

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Rafter Man i s standing OWE the sniper'sdecapltstGd corpse. H e aims his M-16and fixes a long burst of antomatic fire into the body. Then he says,Tha^s mine, Alice." H e takes the $KS from Alice and examines 8 closely. H e looks down and admires his new belt. " I shot her first. Joker. She'd have died. T W s -confinned for m e . " I say, "Sure, Rafter. You wasted h e r . " Bafter Man says, " I did. I wasted her. blew her away." H e looks at his NVA rifle Alice is down on his knees beside the corpse.

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Behindme a man was cursing. Themaiiwasa Navy corpsman. The corpsmads light hand had been split open and he was holding his fingers together with his good hand and cursing and yelling fox a CUl'piiUCUUL Then I uiiderstood Oat the "shrapnel" I'd felt had only been shattered gravel. Grunts from {he security squad were crawling into the bashes, turning outboard,weapons ready. Still confused about why I was still alive I got to by feet and double-timed to the little pit that had been torninto theroad by theexplosion. Twogrontaweredouble-timingacrossaheadow
towardatreeline.Ifollowedthem,myfineermthe trigger o f my M 1 6 ,eager to pour Invisible darts of destruction into the shadows. The twogcqts and Ira5 and155 u n t i l we passed throughthetreelineandemergedoGtheekedavast xioepaddy.Therethefatgunnywdfloatingmhis bade in the shallow water, sunounded by dark pieces of do-it-yourself fertilizer. The grunts spread aponcho under him while I stood security. Both of {he gunny's legs had been torn off at the pelvis. Isaw oneof his fat legsfloating nearlyso Ipickeditupontof thewater and threwit hunbpQfb Wealltookholdof (heponchoandstartedcarrying the heavy load bade to the r o a d I was breathing hard, and black anger was pounding inside my chest I was watching the trees,hoping I'd seemovement And then out of nowhere ii man appeared, a tiny, ancient fanner who ~ I M at die same time ridiculous andwdTheandentfannerhadahoeonhis shoulder and was wearing the obligatory conical white

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sturdy legti were scarred. The ancient f a e i didn't speak to us. Hefust stood there beside the trail with .~ice shoots i n his hand, calm, his Blind rehearsing &e hard work he had to do that day. . The andent farmer smiled. He saw the frantic chfl- 1 *
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An hour later a deuce-and-a-half slams on its b r a % I climb up into t h e a b with the driver. During the b m p y ride back to Phu 3d the aver of the deucwmd-a&ilf t e b me about a mathematid system he has devised which he will use to b r e d t h b d ' i n as vegas as m n as he gets back to the

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f i e gat forty-mine clays and a wake-up left i n muntry when Captain Jmuary hands me a piece of paper. Captain January mumbk somethhg a b u t how he h o p I have gmd luck and then he g a s to &ow even though if^ not chaw time, The piece of paper orders me to report for daty as a rifleman with Delta Company, One-Fivq amenfly based at the Khe Sanh. I say good-bye to CbB Vendor a d Daytom Dave

adW.PaybdmdIM&emhtrm~bba grunt because now I won* h v e to Wte captiom for a m c i t y pbtographs they j u s t Ne away or tell any more lies because thtwds nothbg more the Iier can threaten me with 'What are they gobg to d ~ e n d me toViet NamY. Delta S i x mb Cowboy a husi and I'm cdgned t o Cowboy's s q u d as tihe &st f i e team l e a d h e asSISW q~d IWI~MUI~~I rve got = - H ~ =H perience to run my own d e squad.
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daws at the shelters we have constructed with ponchos and nylon cord and scraps of bamboo. ^ s " z: Raindrops thump my poncho like pebbles falling!"&! , -.-into a broken drum.H a l f asleep, my face pressed into*~ my gear, I listen to the sounds of the horror that,^ is everywhere, buried just beneath the surface $ % ! of the earth. IB my dreams o f blood I mains love t o % a skeleton. Bones did, the earth m o v e s , my testicles.'%%? ,/, . explode. , Shrapnel bites my shelter. I wake up. I listen tea?: the fading drone o f the B-52's. I listen to the breath-r-<& ing of my squad of brothers, nightmare men in the-?% .
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"Oh, screw yourself, New Guy," says Animal Mother, not looking up. Mother is holding his M-60 machine gun in his lap and is massaging the black vanadium steel with a white cloth. You ain't been in country a week and already you're saltier than shit. You ain't been born yet, New Guy. Wait until you got a little T.I., candy ass, and then I may a l l o w you to speak. Yeah, a little fucking time in." "Gong ho!" I say, grinning. Animal Mother says, "Fuck you, Jok breaking down the machine gun. I blow Mother a kiss. Animal Mother is a s w i n e ,no doubt about it, but he's also big and m e a n ; he inspires a certain tolerance. "Joker thinks he has an outstanding program," Mother teOs the New Guy. "Going to Hollywood after he rotates bade to the World. If I don't waste him first. Going to be Paul fucking Newman. My ass." Animal Mother pulls out a deck of poker cards. The cards are dog-eared and greasy and have photographs of Tijuana whores on them. The Tijuana whores are establishing meaningful relationships w i t h donkeys and big dogs. Animal Mother deals draw poker hands to himself akd to the New Guy. The New Guy hesitate, then scrapes up his cards. Animal Mother unbuckles his field pack and pulls out a brown plastic rack of poker chipered, white, and blue. Mother takes a stack of plastic chips from thrack and drops them on the deck in front of the iMew Qssy. "Whyou from,you w e Ait?" "Texas, sir." "Sir, my ass. T h i s ain't P.I. and there ain't no way cer. Never happen. Ain't

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I raise my grease gun and Iaiq it at Cowboy's face. Cowboy looks pitiful and h e ' s terrified. Cowboy is paralyzed by the shock that is sotting in and by the helplessness. I hardly know him. I remember the first timeI saw Cowboy, on Parris Island, laughing, beating his Stetson on Iris thigh. I look at him. He looks at the grape gun. He calls oats " I NEVER LIKED YOU, JOKER. I NEVER THOUGHT YOU WERE FUNNY-" Bang. I sight down the short metal tube and I watch my bullet enter Cowboy's left eye. My bullet passes through his eye socket, punches through fluid-@led sinus cavities, through membranes, nerves, arteries, muscle tissue, through the tiny blood vessels that feed three pounds of gray butter-soft high protein meat where brain cells arranged like jewels in a dock how every thought and memory and dream of one adult male Homo sapiens. My bullet exits through the occipital bone, knocks,:out hairy, brain-wet clods of jagged meat, then buries : itselfintherootsofqtree. ifc^ ;+ Silence.Anima1 Mother lowers his Ma. Animal Mo&ez, Ddon, L a n e '~oxporal~ t o ~ % ' Harris, and the other guys i n the squad do not speak. E v e r y o n e relaxes, glad to be alive. Everyone hates say, guts, k t they know I'm right. I am their sergeant, they are my men. Cowboy was lolled by sniper fee^ they'll say, but they'll never see we again; til be invisible. "Saddleup,"I say, and the squad responds. Packsare hfifted up. H i e flap and rattle of equipment A grunt, a growl, and the Lusthog Squad is ready to move. I study their faces. Then I say, "Man-oh-man, Cow" - boy looks like .a bag of leftovers from a V.F.W. barbe- a

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UNFORGMNG LOOK N A SAVYGEf UNFORGWMLE T I M E :

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FORGET A L LT H E MYTHS ABOUT HONOR AND GLORY.. .THIS IS T H E REAL WAR.

Vietnam#1968. A nightmarish landscape blackened by napalm and littered with once-human debris. Whe,re victories are measured in mountains of corpses and ordinary men are transformed into obsessive executioners. This is the brutally honest story of Cpl. Joker and his battlehardened company survivors of months of unimaginable horror-the crazy-tough and the phony-brave# religiously counting the days until their release from the green prisonof combat. But they all know one uh$poken truth-hat. even though they're on their way out#t h ~ ilast r few hours in Nam could become their last hours on earth.;;:.:
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