Anja Bulajic 131\07 Yet actual journeys aren't like stories at all.

At the time, they seem to be mere strings of ha s an! misha , "ithout oint or attern. You get stuck. You meet someone you like. You get lost. You get lonely. You get intereste! in architecture. You get !iarrhoea. You get in#ite! to a arty. You get frightene!. A stretch of country takes you by sur rise. You get homesick. You are, by ra i! turns, engrosse!, bore!, alert, !ull, ha y, miserable, "ell an! ill. $#ery !ay ten!s to seem out of connection "ith e#ery other !ay, until li#ing from moment to moment turns into a habit an! tra#elling itself into a form of or!inary life. You can't remember "hen it "asn't like this. %here is a great !eal of liberating leasure to be ha! from being abroa! in the "orl!, continuously on the mo#e, like a lost balloon, but a journey, at least as long as it is actually taking lace, is the e&act o osite of a story. 't is a sha eless, unsifte!, en!lessly shifting accumulation of e& erience. (or tra#elling is inherently a lotless, !isor!ere!, chaotic affair, "here "riting insists on connection, or!er, lot, signification. 't may take a year or more to see that there "as any oint to the thing at all, an! more years still to make it yiel! an articulate story. )emory, not the notebook, hol!s the key. ' try to kee a notebook "hen ''m on the mo#e*largely because "riting in it makes one feel that one's at "ork , !es ite all a earances to the contrary+ but har!ly e#er fin! anything in the notebook that's "orth using later. Translation: ,a i ak ra#a uto#anja nimalo ne lice na rice. %a!a, ona i-gle!aju kao uke sku ine le ih i ru-nih !oga!jaja be- ikak#og smisla ili obrasca. .agla#is se. / o-nas nekoga ko ti se s#i!ja. '-gubis se. Bu!es usamljen. .ainteresujes se -a arhitekturu. 0obijes !iareju. Bu!es o-#an na -urku. / lasis se. ,ej-a- te o!use#i. '!e ti se kuci. 1ai-menicno si na et, !osa!no ti je, o re-an si, otu is, srecan si, nesrecan, -!ra# i bolestan. 2ao !a nije!an !an nema #e-e sa onim !rugim, !ok se -i#otarenje o! !anas !o sutra ne ret#ori u na#iku a samo uto#anje u oblik s#ako!ne#nog -i#ota. 1e mo-es !a se setis ka!a je bilo !rugacije. )nogo je is unja#ajuceg -a!o#oljst#a koje se !obije ka!a si u belom s#etu, stalno u okretu kao i-gubljen balon, ali uto#anje, barem !ok se -a ra#o o!#ija je susta su rotnost. %o je be-oblicna, nesre!jena, stalno menjajuca -birka !oga!jaja. ,uto#anje je samo o sebi ne lanski, nesre!jen, haotican !o-i#ljaj, !ok se isanje -asni#a na o#e-anosti, re!osle!u, -a letu, -nacenju. )o-e roci cita#a go!ina ili #ise kako bi sh#atili !a st#ari uo ste nemaju nikak#og smisla i cak jos #ise go!ina !a !onesu smislenu ricu. ,amcenje, a ne s#eska, to je ono sto je bitno. %ru!im se !a isem u s#esci ka!a go! sam u okretu*ugla#nom jer isanje u njoj cini nekoga !a se oseca kao !a je na oslu iako s#e uka-uje na su rotno+ ali tesko !a ika!a na!jem nesto u s#esci sto bi mi koristilo kasnije.

Unknown words: a stretch of country3 ej-ayiel!31. ro!uce 4.gi#e u 3.to ben!\break un!er ressure engrosse!3 gi#ing all your attention to something3 na et, u!ubljen u nesto inherently3e&isting as a natural or basic art of something3 in itself3samo o sebi