Part One

Thisold,reallyoldmanhadthathomelesslookinhiseyes,nota
lookofdespair,butofcarefree.Likeamanwithoutahome,but
homewhereverhewaskindathing.

Curious,Iwatchedhimmeanderintothebuildingshakinghands
withourGreeter.Thiswandererseemedtostareintohiseyesas
iflookingforalostfriendthenquicklyturnedawayasifnot
findingwhathewaslookingfor.

Wearingterriblytatteredclothesgavethismananevenmore
homelesslook,butsomethingabouthimdidn'tseemtofitandI
couldn'tputmyfingeronit.Lookingaround,hewasdetermining
hisnextdirection.Atthatmoment,theworshipbandbeganto
playandthewanderernoddedhisheadasifthatwasthe
directionhewasneeding.

Givingquickglancesintotheeyesofafewmorestrangers,the
wanderercontinuedtowardsthesanctuaryentrancewhereIwas

standing.Asheneared,henoticedthatIwaswatchinghim.He
staredintomyeyes,searching.Hiseyeshadaclearness,a
spark,athingyoudexpecttoseeintheeyesofachild,agenius,
ortheinsane.

Iasked,"Heythere,howareyou?Doyouneedanything?"The
wandererseyesthenlitupasifhehadn'tseenmeinyearsand
cheerfullysaid,

Ivebeenlookingfor...well...you.

Perplexed,Ireplied,ME?WhatcanIdoforyou?

Theoldwanderernowwithatwinkleinhiseyes,leanedtowards
meforeffectnotforprivacy,andsaid,

"Youknowyouaremissed?Yourpresenceisrequiredbackin
thekingdomanditstimeyoureturn."

Iimmediatelythought,WhatamI?PeterPan?
Hesmelledliketrees,andwildflowers

Immediatelyfollowingthethought,Thisguymightbeawhacko,
myheartrangoutthesewordsfromscripture.Benotforgetfulto
entertainstrangers:fortherebysomehaveentertainedangels
unaware.

So,Ilistened.Whatharmcanthewordsofalittleoldmandoto
me?

Thewandererreachedformyhandastoshakeit,instead,he
justhelditandbegantopray,

MydearestFather,andMasteroftheUniverse,suchasunto
theseyoudeposityourkingdom,awakenhishearttotheeternal
andtothevoicewithinhim.

Heprayedasifhiswordswerebeingwhispereddirectlyintothe
earofGod,notlikeIdo,havingtoreachintotheuniverseto
hopefullybeheardbytheOnesofaraway.


Histonethenchangedfromsofttoabitdeclarative,Beforethe
worldswereformed,andbeforemanenteredthisvibrationof
Wordscreation,Iformedyou,gaveyoucommands,deedsto
perform,wordstoutter,tohavelifeandloveandadventurefar
beyondyourwildestdreams.Comeback.Nowisthetime.Walk
againwiththeKing.

MyheartbegantoremembertheearlydayswhenIfirstknew
HimandwhenIwasfulloffaithandvoiceandtheKings
command.Thecomparisonmademealmostwanttorunin
condemnationbutinsteadIdrankfromitsencouragement.Now,
nothingelsematteredbutthenextwordsthismanwastospeak.
Iwasnowleaningin,hesaid,Illseeyoutomorrow.Then
turnedtoleavethebuilding.

Icriedout,Whereandwhen?!

Heturnedhishead,smiledandwhispered,

Illfindyou,andwalkedaway.


MondaymorningarrivesandI'malreadybusywiththoughtsfor
theday,
Whowasthatguy?Ivegottogetmycarinspectedsometime
today
Howcanhepossiblyfindme?WhattimewasIsupposedto
meettheelectrician?
Hewasjustacrazyoldman.Right?
Idonthavetimeforthistoday.
Whatifthatguyreallywassomesortofmessenger?Ok,
enoughfoolishness.

Dressed,coffeedup,emailschecked,offtomyfirstappointment.
Inthecarthough,Ifoundmyselflookingupanddownthestreet
wonderingifIdfind...
Youknowwhat?Ineverevengothisname.

Afterallmydayofrunningaround,thelastofmytaskswasto
swingbyWalmartforafewitemsthefamilyneededfordinner.
AsIwalkeduptothestoreentrance,there,onabluebenchnext
tothedoor,wasthewandererpatientlysittinglikehewaswaiting
forabusorsomething.Hewasstaringrightatmewiththatlook

likeIwasexpectedforanappointment.

Ididn'tevenbothertoaskhimhowhekneworhowthisall
happened.Ijustsatdownnexttohimwithoutawordand
listened.Heplacedhishandonmybackandbegantospeak,
butsomethinghappenedtomeashespoke.Icouldnotmake
outwhathewassaying,itwasasifIwasinatranceandthe
wordscouldnotgetthrough.Thissorcererswordsswirledaround
myheadandenteredmyears,somewereloud,somesoft,some
almostaswhispersorhalfwords.Ifeltabitdizzyandseemed
likeIcouldn'tmove.Allthewhilehejustkeptontalking.

Itseemedlike15or20minutespassedashetalked,never
pausingoraskingmequestions,thiswasagoodthingasI
wouldn'thavebeenabletoreply.Then,hismonologwas
suddenlyover,heabruptlysaid,Illseeyoutomorrow.He
stoodupandwalkedaway.

Ihadnoreply,Iwasstillabitdizzyfromthewandererswords.
Mymemoryofmuchoftherestoftheeveningwasallabitfoggy.
Iwasanxioustogettobedandsleepitoff.

ThesecondIhitthepillow,IwasoutandthemomentIwasout,
thedreambegan.

Istoodonagrassyhillsideandtheoldmanwalkedtowardsme,I
couldtellhewasthesameperson,buthelookedsomuchmore
aliveandfilledwithlifeandradiance.Hewassooddly
joyfulcontentandyetseriousormorelikedeterminedor
purposedthananyoneIhadevermet.

Hecameupalongside,puthisarmaroundme,andwebeganto
walk.Iknewthiswasadream,yetIalsoknewitwasnotlikeany
dreamIeverhadbefore,Iwas,anditwas,morealivethanthe
realworld.Colorsweremorecolorfulandwordsmore
meaningful.Thismanstartedwith

Iknowyoudidntunderstandmywordswhenwespokeonthe
bench,soIamheretotalkdirectlytoyourheart.Here,Icantell
youthingsyourmindwontletyouhear.

Ihadtofirstvisityouinyourwakeworldsothatyouwouldknow
thesetalkswererealandnotafigmentofyourowndreamings.
WhatIspoketoyouyesterdaywerewordsyouheardbeforethe
creationoftime,buttheyneededtoberespokentoawakenyou.
Muchofyourworldisasleeptothesethingsbutafewofyouare
abouttowakeup.

ThewordsIgiveyouwillcauseyourentireworldandlifeto
change...Youwillberejectedanddismissed,youwillbehated
anddespised,thosewhoyouhaveworkedsohardtogain
respectwilllookdownonyouandsomeeveninyourownfamily
willhateyou.

Youwillbethemostsatisfiedandthemostuncomfortableatthe
verysametime.Youwillknowthetruthandwillbefreerthanyou
everknewwaspossiblebut,itwillcomeatapriceoneyouhave
alreadypromisedtopayandoneyouandyourFatherhave
agreeduponbeforethedaysofbrokensong.


ThewanderercontinuedwithWordslikeIhaveneverheard,they
didn'tjustspeaktomyearsbutvibratedtheverycoreofmy
meaningandpurpose.Thewordswerecleaningand
empoweringmetobeabletohearthem.Wordsnotlikemy
words,butlivingandpowerfulandabletomakeinme,able.

Alreadymanyofmyideasandidealsweredyinghorribledeaths
buttheirscreamsweremutedbythejoyIfeltasmyheartwas
beingfreed.

Inmydream,Hebegantoprophesy...

Iknowyou,IhavecalledyousaystheMasterofTheUniverse.
Youhavebeencalledtobesetaparttobeonewhocarries
thingsnotheldbybooksnorinbuildingsneitherbymenof
reputation.You.Are.Mine.

Foryoutoknowthelifeyouarecalled,youmustforsakeall.
Forgetallyouhavelearnedandleancompletelyonmydaily
livingwords.Rememberthecommands,letthembewrittenon
yourheart,berestoredthisdaytotheHighCallingthatisfound

intheMessiah.ToBEHolyasIamHOLY,tobePERFECTasI
amPerfect,toknowthewillofGodandtheVoiceofGodtosuch
adegreethatHeisyourexhaleandYouareHisinhale.

Takenothoughtforyourlifeandyourtomorrows,makeThe
Kingdomyourhopeandyourreward.Yourlifeisnowhiddenand
allwhoseeyouaretohearandseeonlyMe.

Somethinginsidemewasvibratinglikeatremororaquaking,
mademefeellikeitmighttakeoverifitgrewandthisconcerned
me.Knowingmyheartsfear,thewandereransweredit,

ThisfillingyouarereceivingisthelifeofGod,andifyouwilllet
it,itwilltakeoveritisyourpurposeandyourcallingasitisforall
HischildrentobeconsumedwithHispresenceandpower.Inthe
past,youhavehadopportunitytofollowthisriverandmovein
theflowofGodbut,chosecarnality,tradition,orworldlinessso
thefirewasquenched.Donotletthisonegoout.


Ihavesomethingelsetotellyoubeforeyouwake.

Myheartbegantoweepwithagreattravailevenbeforehe
began.

Themanwhowasawanderer,nowProphetchangedhis
appearanceandbecamearadiantwhitelight.Aholiness
beamedfromhimsoIcouldhardlystand,andhisbrightness
becamesoIcouldnotlookintohisface.Hisvoicechangedand
becamelikeavoiceascloseasmyownandyetfarawaylike
fromtheothersideoftimeandspace.Ihadtobowdown,face
towardtheground,Iwassuddenlyweepinguncontrollablyand
afraidformylife.Thevoicewasthunderousandfilledwithglory.

ManyarecalledbutfewescapethedarknessYouareone
whosawbuthavebeenmadeblindbyyourcomfortsandthe
doctrinesofdarksystems.Youignoredthecostofbeinga
discipleandchosethepathtocorporatesuccessinasystemI
promisedIwouldneverbuild.MyGrace,yousquandered.Itwas
agiftforyoutofindyourwayhome,butinsteadyoutriedto
reformitintoacloaktoprotectyoufrommyjudgements.

Thetimesofwaitingarenowpassedandtheprophetswillbegin

tocallforanawakening,theworldandthosewhocall
themselvesthechurcharesofarremovedfrommyplansitwill
beveryhardforyoutobeheard,butmycallingforyouhasnot
changed,youmustneverjudgemycallingbyyouraudiences
hearingorbytheiracceptanceofyou.Youcompromisedmy
messageandthenlostyourway.Youmustcomebackandyou
mustonlyspeakwhatItellyoutospeak.

Iamcommandingyoutoseekmyfaceandmakeityourlife's
purposetohear,Welldonegoodandfaithful.Thereisstilla
kingdomtobehadandonlybydenyingyourselfandtheworld
willyoufindit.

NowPastor,wakeup,yourflockneedstohearfromyou

Myhearthasnowbecameawanderer,goingaboutthechores
andaffairsofmylife.Fromanoutsideobserver,unlessyou
lookeddirectlyintomygaze,youwouldn'tnoticewhoIve
become.Now,Iamamanlisteningtoadistantvoiceandliving
foradistanthome.

ItwasmorningofthefirstdayandIheardinmyheadtheword
repeatedly,
untenable
,
untenable
,untenableI
decidedIshouldnotignorethewordbutrathertolookitupand
seewhatitmeant,toseeifitwasanactualword.Lookingitup,I
sawithadtwomeaningsthefirstmeaningdidn'tclickanything,
butthesecondmeaning,Iknewwastobemyfocusfortheday.
untenable
notfittobeoccupiedorlivedin.

Thisday,IwokefeelinglikeIhavenotfeltinmany,manyyears.
CleansedbythelifeofGod,forgivenandyetsorrowfulbothat
thesametime.UndoneANDmoreablethanIeverremember.
Thiscrisisoflifeanddeathiswherewearesupposedtolive,
forgivenandyetrepentant,weakandstrong,lifeanddeath.I
donteverwanttoforgetagain.Lord,helpusremember.

ThevoiceandresidualofGodwasstillwithmeandIwas
determinedtonotloseHim.Ifeltimpressedtogetcleanedup

anddressedinmybestsuitbuttonotdelivermyprepared
sermonintendedforthepeopletoday.Instead,whenIstand
behindthepulpit,tellthemthetruth,astruthisnowmyreward.

Arrivingatthechurch,Isawthebuildingforthefirsttimenotas
aHavenforSalvation,aswepromotedittobe,butacagefor
thedisconnected,theunencountered,unrepentantmassesandI
begantoweepinsideasIfeltIwassomewhatresponsiblefor
theircondition.

Fortyfiveminuteslater,Istoodlookingacrossthebowofthe
pulpitabouttodeliverwordsneverheardfromthisplace.I
somewhatscannedthecrowdofabout800hopingtoseemy
wanderingprophetinthecrowd.

Ibegan,Somethinghashappened,averygoodthingandifyou
willbepatientwithmeIwilltellyouthestory
IwatchedamovieoncableafewweeksagoOnefairly
popularandmanyofyouhaveprobablyseen.Inthisromantic
comedy,adventure,actionfilm,Ifoundmyselfthoroughly
entertained.AsIamquiteamoviebuff,theactorswerealltop
notchandthestorywasaparttwoinasequel.

CaughtandmesmerizedfortwohourslaughingrightwhereI
should,surprisedrightwhenIshould,participatingwithout
hesitationintheircomedicrevenge,tantalizingsexualinnuendos
andnotgivingasecondthoughtwhenpeoplewerekilledorused
theLordsnameinvainnordidImakeanynoticeorIjust
completelyignoredtheadultery,fornications,andtemptuosskin
revealedtheyallsoskillfullyreenactedforoursoulsparticipation.

Allofthesethingsforsometimehavemadewayintomylife.For
sometime,IhavenothadthefullnessofGod,HisvoicenorHis
powerevidentinmylife.EventhoughIammeasuredamongthe
mostzealousandpursuingoftruthofallmypeers,Iam
untenable.

untenable
notfittobeoccupiedorlivedin.

Godsrequirementhasalwaysbeenconditionaluponour
separationfromtheworld,oursanctificationthroughprayer,a
holylifeandthinking,BeholyasIamHoly.Foronlyinaheart
whoseekscompletelytoloveandserveHim,dowefindHim.I
havebecomethedwellingofwickedness.WhatIdoknowand
liveby,andthetruthsIdoholdandobey,IdowithoutHis
dwelling.Ihavebecomeasbalaam'sdonkeypreaching
repentance,andtheechoofGod'sdivinepurposeandtimings,

butwithoutthesoulofasonortheheartofabride.

ThereisakingdomandaGospelthatmyMasterpreachedand
livedthatInowhardlyseepreachednorlived.Wehavebecome
soalivetotheworldanddeadtotherealpowerandkingdomvia
deathandselfdenialitsasifwehaveallbecomethewalking
dead.ZombiesforJesus.

Iknowsomeofyouwouldsay,SpeakforyourselfPastor!Iam
servingGodanddontcheatonmywifeandgotochurchthree
timesaweek.Iknow,andformanyofyou,itsnotyourfault.
Youhaveneverhadanexampleofthetruthwalkedoutasit
shouldbeandweasLeadersinthechurchhaveneither
enteredinnorhaveweallowedthefewofyouwhowould
questionthesystemswehavebuiltdosoeither.Iamsorryand
grievedatourconditionbutIbelieveitsnottoolate.

Allofyouwhocanhearmywords.Knowthis.Thereisstilltime
butthetimeisshort.Yourlifeisbutavaporandyoumustfind
yourwaybackbeforetheopportunitycloses.Thereisnotan
endlesschanceandthereisadayofreckoningforusall.The
gloriousgospelandpromisesaresowonderful,therewardso
great,butsoisthefall.Thereisadaycalled,todayasthe
writingsoftheHebrewdeclaredandtodayisnotforever.

Iknowthesesayingsmaysoundhard,buttheyarewordsoftruth
andgrace,andonlysoundhardbecauseallyouhavehearduntil
thisdayhavebeenwordsofcomfortandease,wordsthat
encourageyoutobecomfortedandsafe,wordsthatlullusinto
inactivitythatdenythecross,fastings,prayerandthelife
requiredtoapprehendHimandoursalvation.

IamsorryIliedtoyou,IamsorryItoldyou,Allyouhavetodois
receivetheChristinyourheart.Inevertoldyouthetruth
becauseImyselfwasnotwalkinginitandIknewifItoldyou,
youwouldruntoanotherplacethattoldyoueverythingwasok.
MyevilheartjudgedyourheartasevilandIneverevengaveyou
thechancetorepent,toknowHimfully.

HereisashortlistofthethingsourKingrequiresandisalmost

neverpursued:
BeHolyasIamHoly,HateSin,Prayalways
CastdownEVERYvainthoughtandimaginationthatiscontrary
toGod.
HavenobitternessorunforgivenessforANYONEever
Listennotnorbeentertainedbytheworldanditstemptations
Allownotasinglesinwithinyourheartormindthatyoudonot
revealandrepentof
BealwaysfilledwiththepresenceofGod,KnowHisvoiceinall
things
Pursuerealfellowshipnotorganizedmeetings
Feedthepoor,visitthewidowsandorphans
Growupinallthingsspiritual
Learnthescripturesnotdoctrine

Thesearetherequirementstobeingadisciple,thesearenot
suggestions.OurMastertaughtusthatallwhodoevilwillnotbe
savedfromthefinaljudgementanditsHisgracethatempowers
ustolivealifeoffreedomandsalvation.Hemadeitpossible,He
madeiteasyifyouwillleanfullyonHim.andHemadeita
requirement.

Therepercussionsofthesewords,IwilltellyoulaterFirstthe
storyofthenextday.


Shakingofftheeventsofyesterday,Ihadtotestthislifeand
knowHewouldconfirmHiswordstothosewhowouldgive
themselvestofaithcompletely.Beginningwithanhourpraying
stirringmyselfupbyprayinginthespiritandworshipingtheKing,
HispresencewassorealandIalmostforgotwhatitwastobe
full.

IaskedHim,WherewouldyouhavemegoLord?His
immediatereplywas,Gotothebusstation.IdecidedIwould
beginfollowingtheleadingoftheLordandneverquestionHimor
doubtwhenIwassureitwasHisvoice.SooffonmyadventureI
went...

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