This is for just some hard data, I guess: Approximate date of initial diagnosis: Winter Semester of last year,

so December of 2012 Approximate time symptoms first began (I believe this is 16, just want to double check): 16 is when I first recognized them at least, signs as early as 14 with being over-energetic. Prescription history- What did you take? Dose? Changes? And you stopped sometime around the beginning of November/end of October?: Started with 250mg/night Depakote (Divalproex) for a month, went up to 500mg/night for another month, went to 750mg/night and then stayed on that for the remaining 8 months. Tried taking 1g in the beginning of October but didnt like it, went back to 750 mg, then stopped roughly the end of October. I would also like you to write down (you'll like this) detailed descriptions of your drug experiences. Each drug. Amount of usage. Effects, experiences, conclusions drawn. Throw in some dates for me if you can- when you first used it, frequency, when you last used it, etc. Youre probably not going to love this, but I wont be able to give you any dates. Just general years. Copy-pasting a post from reddit. Drug, and age I was upon first trying. Diphenhydramine 16 (recreation dose - 100mg) - Did not start recreational doses again until about a year ago. Still no idea why, creates a numbing sensation thats enjoyable despite feeling like a zombie. Alcohol 18 Drank every weekend or so initially, slowly decreased as I got older. Experiences were never really positive. Salvia 18 Tried it three times total, never again. Its like a DMT headspace only weird and negative. I recall my site slowly disappearing as everything shrank into squares and disappeared. Weird. Marijuana 18 Mildly smoked with friends until 19 when I obtained my own pieces and my mom allowed me to smoke in the basement. Continued into Florida, and moving back, but began being stoned on a daily basis for all events after turning 20. Since then, longest Ive been off of it was 8 days and that was in March of this past year. Opium 18 Smoked it maybe 4-5 times with Shannon then never had it again due to it not being around. Cant even really remember the experience honestly. LSD 19 Tripped consistently once a month for a summer before I turned 20, and in one of those months I managed to get it every weekend. Good times. After that though it became a twice a year thing at best. I had one tab on my birthday this year, and three tabs for new years eve last year. Hadnt done it in a year or so before the new years event. Psilocybin 19 Mushrooms, maybe a total of four times. Always got nauseous and the trip always overpowered me. Hard to enjoy those experiences, though when I made tea instead of eating the mushrooms the nausea was prevented. That was while living on 12th street, and was the last time.

Ecstasy 20 Only tried once! At a rave in Florida with coworkers, had a friend do a pill with me as well. By the feeling of it, I recall thinking it was MDMA and amphetamines because of the energy boost. Very good experience, everything was great feeling and dancing with lights was hella enjoyable. Oxy/Hydrocodone 20 Lovelovelovelove although will never seek them on the streets. Opiates, especially at slightly higher doses than medicinal and combined with smoking is an extremely blissful feeling. Would try to get past having kidney stones without taking many so I could recreationally use them afterwards. Never had them unless I was prescribed however, maybe a total of six times in my life. Amphetamine 20 Adderall, you know how this goes. Only really used initially when I had to do a lot of work/study. Couldnt do it recreationally, tears me up physically too much. DMT 21 Multiple experiences with. Had a supply on 12th street that lasted the whole year, and had a batch last year as well. Had an extremely negative experience one night while here due to being in a bad space about things in general and had to wait 7 months (until my birthday this year actually) before I finished off the remaining bit of what I had. Breathtaking and ineffable experiences. MDMA 22 Only once, small dose and while tripping on the three tabs for new years eve. What. A. Night. Snow is wonderful while tripping. 2C-I 22 This is a research chemical, sometimes passed off as LSD which was the case for me. Had five tabs from some classmates who couldnt tell the difference. Similar visuals, but with LSD the headspace youre in makes everything seem significant because of epic revelations, with 2C-I everything is significant because you feel completely retarded, and the body buzz is harsh, not pleasant. Tried it twice, and another friend tried some for consistency. Not an experience Id purposefully have again, not that it was bad.

If you can, I'd like to know an average cycle length, or at least as many as you can remember. I have approximately 10 weeks for the most recent depressive period. During last years autumn quarter (not this past one, one before), it was daily. Wake up one day, be extremely high and everything is great, wake up next day and life couldnt be worse. This went on for about three to four months until I finally started medication. Then mood swings decreased frequency and strength other than the occasional down periods. It prevented mania, but depression was still able to get through sometimes. This continued until I stopped meds, at which point I didnt recognize definite mood swings until November when I watched myself crash downward, and yeah that last about 8 weeks or so. The last four-five days have been pretty manic, but today feels less so.

I've got a file for "significant others" to go into the people that are important to you in some way and their impact. So feel free to tell me any individuals that currently are important to you, in a good way or bad, and any past significant relationships as such. Right now I've just got your family, Moser, and me, and I'll probably be gathering more information about them too. Lets see, going through life. Alex Oiler was the first influential person on me since we were friends when I was 9 or so. Katie Gilmore played a big part in my 15-16 year range as far as trusting people. Hiliary would have been the next significant person for obvious reasons. Christy Antis and Shannon through probably all of high school as best friends. Kyle Smith and I had an interesting connection as well. If I had to describe it, it would pretty much be the doctor and companion scenario. On the outside she was a very simple person but had the capability to be extremely smart and clever. The friendship was typically her stories and issues so she was pretty much an escape for my mind into simplicity. Smoked with her a lot, Id have to say a majority of my 19-22 years were influenced by her, but due to the kid situation I havent seen or heard much from her and have probably seen her a total of five times in the past two years. Sad. To be honest, I think things began to get worse with me when our connection died off as she was the last person to be involved in my life at that point. From that point I slipped into my mind and all the mood problems began. And right obviously you, Moser, and family. That may be it, I might remember more at some point but I think thats all.