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There was no mention today however of the development that has concerned me most over the
last few weeks which is north koreas admission that it has an active nuclear program. (22/11/02.
Read a good article in the Age today called ‘Nukes the Weapon of Yesterday’ by Paul Keating.)
It has made the admission, I suspect, because enriching uranium up to weapons grade standard
emits radiations that cannot be disguised (thats why we know iraq isnt doing it). But what I find
most intriguing is the claim that is being made that north koreas nuclear program is the result of
a previous cooperation between pakistan which has had a nuclear capacity for some time &
north korea which has been the more advanced in its rocket technology (saw a snippet in the
paper the other day, attributed to US intelligence, that they may have over 100 rockets with a
range past Tokyo.) The more I think about it the more likely it seems to me that such a
cooperation would have taken place given that both countries see themselves as being under
imminent threat, one from india the other from the US. But what has not been discussed at all in
the papers is that if such a deal took place it would have made obvious sense not only to swap
technologies but also for the koreans to supply the pakistanis with some viable rockets in
exchange for some completed nuclear bombs to fill the time gap while the newly acquired
capabilities were being developed. In fact it seems to me that this is certainly the way it would
have been done. If this is so then there are already nuclear primed rockets aimed at New Delhi,
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Bombay, Seoul & Tokyo. It would explain why the US is so gung ho about attacking iraq
(knowing it doesnt have but could acquire them in the future) but has been so muted about north
korea (knowing it is too late.) (an ordinary pot of beer here costs $2.60) If certain states have
nuclear weapons civilization is doomed but it doesnt matter I suppose as it is anyway. I must get
off the topic. After reading the paper I drove back to Cheshunt & up another beautiful valley to
Paradise Falls. There is almost no water now but they must be very impressive at other times as
there is a huge wall & cave caused by the overhang so you can be behind the falling water. Met
a group of Carey Grammar kids hiking with overnight packs. The teacher said they have a very
big adventure program at the school & that there are seven such groups hiking in the area
(Wabonga Plateau) right now. Im about to head off back towards Cheshunt & along the Rose
River Road which in 60 or so ks ends up at Myrtleford …. 6.40 pm. Im about 30ks south along
the Upper Rose River Road which branches off the main road ½ way to Dandongadale. Ive just
walked up a steep 2k stretch of it to see if the van would be able to get up but I dont think Ill try.
A grader operator 10ks back thought I mightnt make it as a bulldozer was working on it last
week. Pity, as I would have liked to be able to park at Lake Cobbler from where its only a 5k
walk to the summit of Mt Cobbler (1628). I might still have a go at it from here. Its cool & shady
& Im just next to a little bridge that crosses the Rose River. The whole area is dominated by Mt
Cobbler of which you get impressive glimpses as you get closer. There is a beaut camping area
about 12ks back where the road fords the river called Bennies Camping Area. It has many sites,
a couple of toilets, but there is no one there. From there on youre in the Alpine National Park on
a winding narrow dirt road which often has a steep drop on one side. There are mozzies here
too.
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I realized that it gains its force from the way it sits squarely within the tradition of cartesian
dualisms. As if there are hidden depths where the real me resides & an exterior shell of
superficialities. I hear girls over glasses of chardonnay explaining to each other that their
boyfriends fail to penetrate to an appreciation of their real selves (however deep they poke) & I
know that without realizing it they are drawing on the same metaphor. So when I sobered up
yesterday evening I reviewed the influences that led to the formation of the image in me. The
most evident are almost identical statements made by William Blake & Swedenborg. The notion
that we view reality imperfectly is already fully in place with Plato in the story of the cave men
seeing it only as reflected in the shadows cast on a wall. Descartes is building on Plato in his
notions of what can be known directly & what only from the evidence of the senses : the mind
brain dualism. Shopenhauer (who in the opinion of Luis Borges is the only philosopher who
might be onto something) talks of the will which is known directly & its manifestation which is the
sensory world. In his analyses of the picture ‘Las Manenas’ by Velazquez Foucault tries to
illustrate his insight that there is no centre (itself indebted to Nietzsches ‘god is dead’) by
outlining a periphery (& therefore, I suggest, unsuccessfully) of differing perspectives. I prefer
Wittgensteins “what cannot be said might as well not exist” with the emphasis being placed on
the “might as well”. I only write about what I hear, see & touch – its all I know & if with my best
efforts I am not able to describe it to you it might as well not be there. I am not interested in
whether coining the word ‘will’ to describe a knowledge which is indistinguishable from its
manifestations reveals something about the invisible world (as if there are two of them). Or if
Nietzsches ‘will to power’ (refined & qualified by Foucault) is an expression of some kind of
evolutionary truth. I accept what I see without the urge to apply comprehensive labels that might
indicate an intimacy with hidden forces. My interest is more in what it is that we do by making
the distinctions, & for that I can rely on observation of human practice. (this is not the place to
get into a discussion of the difference between do & is). The notion that we look out on the world
through the perspective of an individual identity as through chinks in an armour is used to deny
responsibility for our actions. As if it isnt ourselves that forge the armour, ourselves that engrave
the emblems, we that shout the slogans, we that sew the flags to drape over ourselves.
Scientists go to work on nuclear triggering devices (the US has embarked on a hugely
expanded program for their production though this is one part of the bomb that doesnt
deteriorate or need replacement ) & they say they are really good people who are nice to their
kids & loving husbands & only doing their job. A man drops a bomb on Hiroshima that
vapourises a third of the children in the city & says he is not responsible, he was only following
orders - & he names the aeroplane (designed for dropping bombs) after his mum. Another man
manufactures an explosive device for killing people in a restaurant & claims diminished
responsibility for the deaths because someone else placed it. We vote for a government that
imprisons children & we wash our hands of them. We use the inside / outside metaphor to
distance ourselves from the consequences of what we do as if they are not a part, an extension
of ourselves. For it may be that Foucault has a point when he says there is no centre, that we
are the armour, the flags, the slogans, the different perspectives. Two thousand years of
christian theology has contributed to a capacity to view ourselves as separated from our actions
by teaching that it is the intention (in the hidden domain & lighter than air) that counts & not the
deed. The communists built on that distinction to justify the sacrifice of the few for the benefit of
the many. (Christians have an added theology claiming a belief in the sanctity of human life but
both ideologies are joined by a love of large abstractions.) & I say, if there is to be a final day, we
will be judged by the weight of our deeds. In the case of the nuclear scientist working in the
armaments industry in one scale will be heaped up his wife & the children he has provided for
together with his good intentions & in the other scale the bodies of the dead & a hydrogen bomb
…. I didnt leave Bogong till midday because I got talking to the guy who came round to check
the toilets. I asked him why there was no one about in such a well maintained town & he
explained that only 4 or so houses have permanents the rest being holiday houses that are
rented in winter. The main building complex belongs to the adventure activities school owned by
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the ed dept & its active when a school group is in. That explains various rope walk installations
Id seen. He would have loved to have my van & I talked on forever about the thinking behind
each item. He is divorced & intends to get an old one to do up. He said that when he was with
his family he would never have dared to park in a groovy spot like I was in but perhaps when he
is by himself he might. I told him that the most serious roadies Id seen were all poor guys whod
done up vans themselves that theyd bought second hand. Back in Bright I checked the
message bank & there was one from H saying everything is in order. She had not yet got the
message I left yesterday evening. Settled down on the terrace of the pub next to the Lest We
Forget monument & drank 2 beers as I read the paper. One of the groups on the terrace was a
mob of the fake bikies that like to dress up in leather but wouldnt frighten a pussy cat. When
they left a group of middle aged cyclists came in all wearing every bit of cycling paraphernalia
you can buy with italian words written on their cycling shirts & shorts. I doubt if you can get a
town that looks more spoilt & relaxed. Most people looked like middle class Melburnians & the
footpaths have tables with people holding glasses of white wine. I suppose I am one of them, no
less comfortably off or spoilt, but I feel more at ease in Beulah or Hopetoun. The obvious
evidence of how rich we are compared to much of the world makes me uncomfortable, guilty.
When I scrutinized the people walking by their expressions seemed to indicate that they led
insipid lives. Bought petrol & headed for Hotham still intending to go through Omeo. At around
four I took the turnoff to Dargo a little before you get to the top of the mountain and have
stopped 5ks down the road (will go back to the main one in the morning) at a spot I noted two
years ago when I came north through here after spending the night 3ks further south (see
27/11/00 – 7/12/00). This is a top-of-the-roof spot on a narrow ridge with views of unending
mountains & valley covered by unbroken forest in either direction. Places like this can be cold
even in summer but the temperature in Melbourne today is around 30C & here its just mildly
perfect. For awhile I was joined by a flock of gang gang cockatoos in the snow gums.
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Then quite unexpectedly , I think it was on a trip to the Eyre peninsula, the issue resolved itself
for me & I felt like saying to him, had he been alive “Luis, you wasted it writing all those essays.
You should have stuck with the short stories & poetry.” & its as if a pressure has been released
for my life has been an effort to find solutions to like puzzles & maybe should I succeed I might
be left without purpose & waste away. On second thought I dont think I would. I would continue
to be sustained by amazement at what I find. So I would like to say to Luis that no solution to
any puzzle can ever tip the balance between the tiny island of what we know & the sea of the
unknowable in which we swim. People dont believe it when you tell them that. Socrates never
stopped saying that he didnt know anything & yet he was convicted of perverting the morality of
athenian youth. To this day the fashion among philosophers is to say that his claims of not
knowing were only a rhetorical device. I feel quite confident that he meant what he said. But no
matter what you say people hear it from their own perspective & read into it whatever suits
them. When they discuss the notion of time if they start with the question what is it, which they
invariably do, they have already lost it for to ask it like that is to make an assumption in the very
first sentence that there is another space, an invisible world apart from the one we are in, where
we search for elusive entities which may or may not exist. The hope that we might find
something in a parallel domain is quite strange for if you cant see it what chance is there of
finding anything in it? & so people debate whether time flows or ticks or goes backwards or is
cyclical & its like debating how many angels can fit on the head of a pin. The problem isnt taken
away if they say that what they are talking about is a notion or an abstract idea or a concept for
these words are only an attempt to disguise, a code for a belief in, the same invisible world. All
that is needed, & it is breathtakingly simple, is to ask what is it that we do when we use the
word. For it is in common use & we have no trouble understanding each other when we do it. It
becomes a matter of observing human practice. The main thing we do when we say ‘time’ is
hold something that repeats itself next to something that is changing. So we compare (hold side
by side) the repetition of the years to the greying of the hair, the wrinkling of the face & the
stooping of the back. We measure a dynasty by the number of kings. The size of a desert by the
number of days or moons its taken to cross. A tribe measures itself by the number of
generations & so we have history. Then we write chronicles & draw time lines. Days measure
months, months years, years lives, lives the passing of tribes & kingdoms. Poets & historians
sing its praises. Scientists make agreements to make ever more accurate comparisons, more
precise synchronisations, but it is still an elaboration of the same process. To say then that time
is something other than what we do, existing in an imaginary space where it may continue on
after we are gone, is very strange indeed. The confusion comes from mistaking the individual for
all of humanity. When one of us goes nothing much changes but when the human race departs
it will be the end of time ….3.15. Im out of Bemm River on the road to Pearl Point at a spot I
always stop when Im in the area. Im surrounded by a flock of yellow tailed black cockatoos
(Calyptorhynchus funereus) that have settled in the banksia (integrafolia) wailing & cawing. Dont
know why Im feeling a bit low. After leaving Lake Tyers I drove into Orbost mainly because I
wanted to speak to H live to tell her Id be home by friday, a week earlier than I had said. Couldnt
get through to her so left a message on the mobile. I always get bad vibes in Orbost. Bought
petrol (it spilt) & paid $3 for a mug of coffee that was tasteless (they know city slickers are idiots)
& read the paper. I think I read it to make myself scared. I detect craziness in the public mind.
Legislation is mooted to allow the arrest & interrogation of people who are not under suspicion
of having committed a crime (both major parties are going to agree on this.) Recently a bunch of
indonesians all over the country had their doors busted down by special police for nothing.
People write insane, strident letters to the editor. A few weeks ago when a couple of welders on
the outskirts of Sydney started a fire that burnt down a dozen houses every newspaper initially
reported it as deliberately lit. Paranoia is in the air & if this tinder dry forest along the east coast
catches alight this summer which is likely, chances are Al Qaeda will get the blame. Whats more
they (if they exist) are likely to claim they done it coz thats how this game is being played out.
From Orbost I drove on to Bemm River where I bought a pot of beer in the pub & 3 stubbies to
take away (Im drinking one now). Got through to H from the phone outside the pub & she
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confirmed Ben, Joe & Kate (whom she is seeing tonight) are fine & that there has been no email
from Dan (in Paris)(24/11/02. But now in Palm Springs for a fashion show, it seems) which
means hes fine & that Michael is OK & that Vi is fine too. That covers the territory so I suppose I
should be too. Maybe a stroll to Pearl Point will put me in order. But first Im having another
stubby (Abbots stout) & a bite to eat.
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