The crowd awaits, I must perform, but what horrors if I fail

Ah, whatever we are going to do, we are going to do differently

A very high need and wish to perform
A Tension: Performance becomes a crisis for them
Overcome with irrational thoughts (our most irrational remedy) Urge to Jump
Rituals; To keep the weird thoughts down
A lot of anticipatory fears; Anxiety
Dont want to get Trapped! Panic Attacks (Buildings fall down on them)
Anger (Explosive) Its big, its loud, and its sudden
Temperamental; Everything is dramatic
Strong sense of hurry (I cant stand much more of this waiting)
People oriented people Like to have fun!
Seldom Bungle! Not Self-Critical; Suggestible

Oh god, my throat, my heart, give me a damn salted nut roll!
Suggestible Worse morning, Neurological, Heart Palpitations, Weakness
Dramatic Hot blooded, Throat, sex, headaches go suddenly
Splinter pain like splinter
Bubbly Stomach Sensitive, Gassy, Burps
Adding Rituals Growths, warts, etc. sycotic side

1. Hot blooded, worse from heat (although not exclusory), Better from cold
2. Craving for sweets (worse from); Strong craving for salt (salty nut rolls) **
3. Produces warts (sycotic side); cysts, growths, tumors
4. Sudden weakness (pre-menstrual in women, in men after a stressful event)
5. Lots of neurological symptoms, seizures disorders, MS, twitches, tremors, problems with legs, numbness, heaviness, gate
problems, staggering **
6. Vertigo, dizziness **
7. Headaches: increases slowly and goes suddenly.
8. Eyes; conjunctive symptoms, bloodshot bright red
9. Throats (all kinds with intensity); Painful hoarseness, complete loss of voice; Ulceration of throat, infections of tonsils; Big
strep remedy, like splinter in throat
10. Growths on larynx, warts, cysts, nodules
11. Heart disease; with intense palpitations, like heart will jump out of their chest (if anticipating something the next day),
worse on right side
12. Very sensitive digestive tracts, generally worse in morning or anticipating
13. Big remedy for burps, frequent, loud, obnoxious, worse sweets, Distention of belly
14. Gas; intense, worse from sweets, worse in morning, doesnt relieve distention
15. Colitis, irritable bowel; Diarrheafrom anticipation, from eating sweets
16. Easy vomiting fromanticipation, tends worse in morning from thinking of day
17. Very high sex drive
Fears
Around potential for failure and of being trapped, Anticipatory Fears
Test Anxiety; Stage fright; Fear of being late, of being Trapped
Claustrophobia (wont sit in middle); Buildings falling, Intense fear of heights (looking up at tall things),
going on bridges, Fear an anxiety of health (of being trapped in hospital)

Argentum nitricum Cancer miasm


Main Pathology
Arg-N effects the mucus membranes especially the throat with much ulceration, causing often a splinter-
like pain and the digestive system with much distention, bloating, gas and belching.

(MM)
Doesnt really consider this an Argentum(sees more Nitricum in it)
Argentum metallicum is the Queen to the King Aurum. Arg-mur is ambitious, usually helping someone
else.
In Arg-nit you dont see at all this experience
The hyper-activity is usually not effective
They are not as accomplished, cannot realize an ambition
They cannot trust in someone else (Nit)

Often VERTIGOS
Related to staying in a high position, in a dangerous place, above the others
They DO NOT deserve this position, not because of their value
They are there because they CHALLENGE
In the end they are a fragile person

Lots of genital symptoms
(End MM)

Themes
Throat; Heart; Eyes; Digestive
Staggering & Twitching
Salted Nut Rolls (worse from sweets)
Burps & Gas
From Anticipation, in Morning (looking ahead at day)

Mind
Greatest fear is of having to perform in a crisis because of underlying fear they will loose control in that kind
of a situation
Very impulsive, impulsive thoughts, elaborate compulsions, superstitious, irrational, from silly and foolish to
violent and scary (person cant explain them)
Very suggestible
Main fear is being trapped, claustrophobia
Intense fear of heights and looking up at tall things
Fear of going on bridges
Fears and anxiety about health (fear of hospital, can be trapped there)
Fear of anticipation
Fear of being late
Stage fright, exam phobia
Hurriedness
Superstitious nature
Quick to anger and irritation, quick to explode, very fast
Dreams are chaotic
Salts (dreams of trying to get somewhere and all kinds of obstacles)

Generalities
Hot blooded, worse from heat (although not exclusory)
Argentum nitricum Cancer miasm


Better from cold, cold air, injury they want it iced
Worse from sweets (crave them strongly) **
Produces warts (sycotic side)
Sudden weakness (pre-menstrual in women, in men after a stressful event)
Lots of neurological symptoms, seizures disorders, MS, twitches, tremors, problems with legs, numbness,
heaviness, gate problems, staggering, stumbling **

Head
Vertigo, dizziness **
Big headache remedy; increases slowly and goes suddenly **
Eyes; conjunctive symptoms, bloodshot bright red

Throat
(all kinds)
Hoarseness
Painful hoarseness, complete loss of voice (at end of illness or exertion)
Intense splintering pain in throat,
Ulceration of throat, infections of tonsils
Big strep remedy
Growth on larynx, warts, cysts, nodules
Any kind of throat symptoms (with emphasis on intensity)

Chest
Heart disease; with intense palpitations, such hard strong palpitation, like heart will jump out of their chest
(if anticipating something the next day)
Palpitations worse lying on their right

Digestive
Big remedy for burps, frequent, loud, obnoxious, worse after sweets
Distention of belly, try to burp to get rid of it (but does not relieve)
Gas; similar intensity, worse form sweets, worse getting up in morning, doesnt relieve distention
Colitis, irritable bowel
Diarrhea from anticipation, from eating sweets
Easy vomiting from anticipation, tends to be worse in morning from thinking of what they have to do that
day
Craving for sweets
Strong craving for salt (often sweet and salty together salty nut rolls)
Craving for cheese
Craving and aversion to fat
Summary: very sensitive digestive tracts, and generally worse in morning or when anticipating

Reproductive tract
Very high sex drive
May marry and divorce frequently, sex drive with irrational thoughts
Big for impotency, young high sex drive
Cysts, growths, tumors, testis, ovaries (mostly benign)

Extremities
Argentum nitricum Cancer miasm


Paralysis of lower legs
Awkwardness of lower legs and feet, stumble, trips



Cases
43 Male
Complaining of rosacea, on face was mild
Irish fellow
Had a vasectomy and pain in testicle difficult to perform
Wanted more energy
He was somewhat depressed
Its not bad
Dull drifty feeling if not crisis going on
He was crisis manager in company
Had to fly overseas to deal with high level problems
Wasnt happy when crisis not going on
But didnt like crisis either (avoidant)
In dull place he would get tired
Wakes up in morning, with a lot of tension in body
Hot at night
Feet out of covers
Can only wear sandals in summer
Gets angry very easily
Wrecked 10 sets of golf clubs
When he wouldnt perform, wrap them around tree trucks
Impulsive explosive anger started when a kid
He wrecked and lawnmower when wasnt working
My anger is flashing, tends to only yell at home
Hes obsessive getting things done, getting things done right
Cleanliness is very important to him
Its always good to have a great fight because then you have great sex
If there is not a crisis, I make a crisis
I stack my schedule, if someone is late, I get anxious and can hardly stand it
Biggest fear of failure
Of being incompetent
Also fear of heights, intense vertigo and impulsive to jump
Has reoccurring dream of a little baby crawling into elevator shaft and falling
Most exhilarating, is giving a talk, when Im finally there, I love it, its a love fear thing
Loud gas that he cant control
Quite anxious when up in morning, has to get up and get moving
He exercises, lifts weights
He tried running, and the more hed run the faster he needed to run

Arg-N 1M
Came back, I have no more anger

Case
(not so clear)
49 male
CEO of major hospital
Argentum nitricum Cancer miasm


Came in this is absolutely confidential
Stomach pain, throat symptoms
Ulcers burning pain
No pattern
Chronic sore throats (once for a year)
Headaches, backaches
Getting faint feeling, need to lie down
All symptoms got worse when collapse at 45, on fast track of life, eating, drinking
Extremely impatient
Wouldnt go to movies, didnt want to wait in line
Worked 7 days a week
All the time
Boiling hot
Im too hot
Sleeps okay
Snores
Sleeps on right side, stomach relief
Vivid dreams doesnt remember them
Even mood wise
Can have mood swings
Gets down something
Excited about future
A lot of regrets
Hes divorced
Divorce not his idea
His wife left him to move in with guy across the street
Regrets that he kept working all the time
He married women from across the street as well
Still mad at wife for leaving
Eating him up inside
Good that marriage ended because he couldnt swallow what was happening (literally sore throat for a year)
Fear of heights
Doesnt like to look down
Fear of burglars
Anticipation of trouble
Fear of snakes
Fear of cancer, why? Its one of the worse things
Sometimes intense heart palpitations
Real strong tendency to throw up as child when nervous about something
Likes being with people
Craves sweets and salty foods
Hates meat fat
Hates anything around neck
Had some difficulty concentration when stressed, mind goes on tangent
(asked about strange thoughts)
No but
When hes driving and theres altitude, has desire to drive car off the edge
He is a crisis manager (CEO of hospital)
Thrived on crisis
I pride myself on excellent work

1M; Says his anxiety is gone
Argentum nitricum Cancer miasm


Then later new job, developed colon cancer, 50M
Has dream of tumbling off a cliff, He left the job
He finally feels free
Realized he had a compulsion to take on these high crisis jobs

Arg-Nit (Sankaran Weds Lectures)
Used often
The performance under very trying circumstance under very high pressure
Who performs creatively under high pressure situations/crisis
Need to be in control
I am in control this is a crisis but everything is under control
Like a pilot almost to crash to get out (Nit) of problem
Like a pilot in a crisis what they experience on the stage
This is a trap this is a high place - and I need to get out
They try not to enter a situation where there is no exit
They dont want to have an exit plan not ot be stuck
Intense oppression and claustrophobia fear of crowds, fear of closed places, hear of high places (no
exit)
Ailments anticipation, diarrhea from fear, hurry, anxiety when time is set
Suspense aggravated cannot stand suspense!

Case: tumor in eye
Surgery like time bomb
The two eyes do not coordinate
Everything had to be exactly coordinated, clothes match, undergarments
To be prepared, like pilot driving plane and if crisis
Hobby was to fly a thrill for him, make all sorts of movements
Exec in company each presentation perfect
To maintain his position, his reputation
Argentum nitricum Cancer miasm


Argentum Nitricum Mental State
Ah, whatever we are going to do, we
are going to do differently
About performing
A silver salt a silver nitrate
Nitrates: Want to play have fun, Also explosive quality
Miasm: both Sycotic & Syphilitic (mostly)
Syph: because needs to create strong ritu-
als, compulsive to prevent disaster
They try to organize their life around not
having to be in these situations
A very high need and wish to perform
Want to be stars
A Tension
The Nitrate part (brings very high anxiety)
All salts have a conflicting part in them
Worried about doing their best job
Caught in this particular tension, driven to
be thought of highly of, and yet equally
strong fear and dread of failing
Creates an erratic nervous system
How you feel, if you were a hostage nego-
tiator, life and death, and what if you fail?
This is how they approach life
The Actors, Performers
Reagan had a silver tongue, but couldnt handle com-
plex issues (not Aurum) approaches in an artistic way
Arg-N are not interested in running the show
Performance becomes a crisis for them
On one hand, they want to shine
On other hand, they dont want to fail
What am I going to do, there are 50,00 people out
there to see me, what if I fail?
Everything is dramatic
(never timid or calm)
Before Oscars, what to wear? to say?
Rituals
To keep the weird thoughts down
Often involve movement in space
Come down stairs on left side
...or something bad would happen
Big stars, no red m&ms
Very superstitious
Everything is about signs
Ill take all of the good luck things you have
Often diagnosis with OCD
Overcome with irrational thoughts
That Distract them
Impulse to jump off edge of building
In this moment, they are overcome with
this intense impulse, they cant stop
They can explain it all in detail; explain
how it feels to fall off to go splat
Kids: What would it be like to stick this fork in
the socket? and they do it
Adults: wonders, yet hold themselves back
Anger (Explosive)
Temperamental
Over-reactive State
(what they are trying to avoid)
In this impulsive state, they will blow up at anything
They can have huge temper fits
Its big, its loud, and its sudden
And when its over, its over
Not physically violent, they are loud, they
rant (a performance)
Strong sense of hurry
I cant take much more of this waiting
From erratic mindset
Arg-N; cant hardly contain themselves,
will ask how much longer, will go out in
hall and pace, just all the more anxious
A lot of anticipatory fears
Anxiety, sets in as soon as date is set
(might not even realize it, so habit)
If I do fail, I have a long way to fall
High test anxiety
People who fail tests because of anxiety
Even for a simple unrecorded quiz
Major stage fright remedy
Panic Attacks
Im going to fail, fall, cant get out, Im trapped
From 0 to 100 in one second
People oriented people
Warm, loving, quite extroverted;
want be w/people
Lighter (than Aurum), about entertaining,
performing for artistic
Goofy remedy, vs. haughty
Like to have fun!
Quite sympathetic, (when not own stuff)
(Hard to tell apart from Phos on surface)
Dont want to get Trapped!
Closed in places; panic
Great claustrophobia
They panic if they cant get out (Syph)
Emotionally; they feel trapped, they want
to perform, they are sure it will be terrible
Same feeling they get in a closed in room
(how will I get out?) huge
Never sit in the middle
Wont sit by window, why? Might jump
Fear of buildings falling down on them
Irrational Fear of Failure
Cant articulate why
Its not rational, its just a feeling they have
Seldom Bungle!
(Periodic table in the middle of the row)
If Failure
Pathology sets in
The anxiety might create that terrible performance
Arg-N has the lead, they have a terrible performance, they
will likely come down with physical illness
Demanding Kids
A Handful
Frequent temper tantrums at Home
One of our most irrational remedies
Spouse is trying to trap me
Leave jobs for weird reasons
They dont make sense (in an extreme state)
Can be for early dementia if not treated
They begin to live in this world of irrational thoughts
Rel at i onshi ps Roc k y
Married and Divorce
Loving in relationships, but explosive
Dreams
Falling, things crashing on them, of being trapped, of
performing and failing; of giving graduation speech
naked; of loosing control in absolutely critical situation
Not Self-Critical
they give a great performance, they know
it, they feel great
Where they go down, is when they are at
the pinnacle and fear of going down
Devotion to Classics
I want what was shining to shine forever
Suggestible
Especially about their health
Case of Polio in MN; they were the ones
that called, easily reassured
Oh my God, could that happen to me?
(Like Phos)