ANA LUCIA DE GOES

6
th
International Encounter
Lay Marianist Communities
Peru 2014

Faith of the Heart lived by superiors of the four branches
Panel: Thinking as a family


Well/
Im glad to be here/
Sister Franca was supposed to be here /
but she sent you greetings this morning /
and she went to Ecuador/
she is with us from there/
well/
Im Brazilian/
Im from Bauru/
from the Brothers parish/
I met the Marianist life cause of them/
thats why I have a special affection for them/
well Ive lived in Chile for 6 years just for the initial training/
and then always in Brazil/
Weve been in Brazil as Marianist Religious for 25 years /
Since around a year and a half/
a little more/
like a year and 7 months/
I live in Rome/
I was told to live in the general house of the community/
we are 13/
but well/ I do Life community with sister Franca/
Sister Gretchen/ and Sister Susana/
Well this service and this experience are new for me/
and are also in this breaking chains path/
among feeling, desire and will/
what I will show you/
Ill read it/
it will be easier cause of the language and so on/
Cheminade and Adle invite their disciples to be men and women of faith/
who dont let them feel seduced/
by their regular age/
and that they feel capable of maintain ,in the middle, a strong evangelist
compromise/
a deep interior life/
not only a rationalist faith/
in head/ that only limits itself to accept dogmas/
but a faith that affects the most sensitive fibers/
from the human being/
and this way of being a believer, they called Faith of the Heart/
I would also say it is a faith that makes sound our inner music/
I think the Faith of the Heart/
help us to take out the best we have /
and what we are called to be/
One of our brothers say that to live in the Faith of the heart/
It is necessary to go inside of ourselves/
go down to the deepest/
not just to make things happen/
but that this things happen to us/
and go through us/
leaving clues/
sometimes leaving scars/
Choose to live a deep and vital direction/
from our whole being to Jesus/
which will be the meaning of our existence/
and thats how we will come to think/
love/
and act as Jesus/
This was from our Brother Antonio Gonzales Paz/
This, for me/
has been/
and it is now a long process/
a long and sometimes hard and unpredictable labor/
which is to be growing in the Faith of the Heart /
Since I was a child Ive had a sort of/
feeling/
I dont know if it could be named as religious one/
Well I used to talk to God/
to say in that way/
I told God that I would like to love him more than to others/
well in that time I suffered because I felt I was attached to them/
but then when they leave/
This was my first conscious memory/
of an explicit conversation with God/
well under a sort of children conflicts/
now when I think in this expression/
Faith of the Heart/
this makes me really recall a relationship/
a confident and a quiet relationship/
with the Lord/
until get to the abandonment and to the whole dedication/
at a personal and community level/
I feel like it is to live a conscience of a presence that wraps us/
where we are submerged/
and from which we are supplied/
a presence from which all of us, human beings,/
are supplied/
All that exists/
because God is the basis of everything created/
so the Faith of the Heart /
for me/
it is also when we tune in with this presence/
and we get into the same frequency wave/
because with this presence/
we are able to live, move/
and exist/
It is when we allow/
as the song says/
that God blows into our Quena/
Who is an Andean wind instrument?/
so he can fill it up with his music/
The problem is that sometimes I want to sing my own song/
then some consequences come up/
as I told u before since I was a kid Ive always been sensitive to this presence/
in nature/
with animals/
which I really love/
The music/
and the beautiful things despite the fact of have had a lonely and difficult childhood/
When I was adolescent and when studying/
particularly biology, botanic, genetic/
anatomy/
I used to think all that wonder only can come from a huge presence/
and marvelous/
besides I had a teacher/
who always after classes/
said/
Such an intelligent person who created all this/
and no more/
and that was kept right in my heart/
When one grows up/
Its time to discover this presence/
in the wounds and pain of our heart/
and of humanitys heart/
well/
and thats where I am now/
And this relationship/
I mean, switching the word over/
related action/
real action/
and near to the Lord/
Ive been having this/
for all my adolescence and youth/
and there is where the desire of devote myself to the Lord had begun/
which has been always something constant in my life/
In Marianists consecrate life/
I've felt the possibility of achieve and grow this desire/
and thats how Ive tried and I try to live/
I met Marianists of 1972/
and on the 1983 I went to the novitiate/
To think that I could live/
the little things of each day as an extension of Marys maternal mission/
has been giving meaning and a sort of color to my life/
to my profession/
and to what I did and do now/
which is really different from what I used to live in Brazil/
However I have not always lived and live in faith in this way/
neither have I felt it/
when I listen to some words from Cheminade and Adle/
I feel ditante (10:01min)from all this/
Ill read to you three paragraphs/
Father Cheminade says/
Due to faith, our lighted up intelligence only think like Jesus Christ/
Jesus Christ has taken possession of our intelligence/
our heath encouraged by faith feels and loves as Jesus Christ/
Jesus Christ has taken possession of our heart/
leaded by faith/
our will only acts as Jesus Christ/
Jesus Christ has taken possession of our will/
thats how new men has been created/
It doesn't happen to me that way/
When Mother Adle says,/
Devine Jesus be born in my heart and set up there your kingdom forever/
or when she says, So available and fast like the three wise men who left as soon
as the saw the star/
Ill obey your will as soon as I discover it/
From now on, Ill do all my best to know it/
and all my promptness to follow it/
Sometimes when we hear this words from our founders/
I think and feel that I have a long way yet to know/
And I count on the Marianist Community and Family/
my family as well/
It was because my human tissue and my personal story/
made of no few fears/
worries, doubts/
impatience and some delicacies/
they made me discover that Faith of the Heart is not something you reach once and
for all/
but has the energy of a relationship/
It is a real and relational action/
that can vary and vary not depending on the Lord and his spirit, which live already
on our hearts/
But just because my human tissue it is influenced by humor/
hormones, feeling, physical status and emotions/
and so on/
then on many occasions I can only be/
in the presence of the Lord/
and to know/
although I dont feel it/
that He always walks besides me/
and that he often carries me on his arms/
This Faith sums up on understanding him as someone in who I can share my
happiness and conquers/
my pains and difficulties/
my doubts/
as doctrinal, existential and even my doubts of faith/
my worries and deficiencies/
indignations/
This faith/
makes me see him as someone who get me to discover my inner lies/ and makes
me clear it up so I can see myself/
as I really am/
and not a fantasy, sometimes omnipotent that I was rear/
I feel to be in the presence of someone to whom I can even say/ this is a hard path
and I don't know if I want and can follow it/
The Faith of the Heart makes me see that someone is knitting the embroidery/
although I usually only see the upside down/
this persons says to me, /
Take it easy there is a right way up/
and u have to be patience to enjoy it at the end/
There is a meaning in everything even though you can't see it clearly now/
This is more my right now living/
not only because I went to Rome/
it is due to a conjunction of factors/
So still in the middle of my insecurities, doubts and worries I try to put all the
ordinary resources/
and I say to the Lord/
Make sure of providing all that is needed/
as Father Cheminade used to say/
We have to set the strengths personally and among communities to have lifestyle
and a rhythm of life/
that let us get in touch with this presence/
lived connected to this presence/
therefore we can nourish the Faith from Heart/
If I live in the surface of myself/
distracted, worried, running/
all day as it happens to me often/
filling myself of needless and useless things/
This will be more difficult/
That is why the first step is to cultivate the Faith of the Heart/
And making this path/ is the crop of our inner identity/
It is urgent to rescue our inner being and for communities as well/
there is a really nice book called La interioridad, un paradigma emergente(The
inner being: an emerging paradigm)/
I dont know if its from PPC but its from Marianists/
which is really good for/
to go deep in this subject/
So, I try to meditate everyday/
in the morning and in the afternoon/
For me meditation is to sit down, be quiet, breath and repeat the Mantra/
or a shot prayer as Magdalena said/
each one can choose either of them/
This practice, which I try to do daily, has calmed me and helped me to discover the
presence of the Lord in my life/
in my heart and around me/
I prefer to use the Maranatha Mantra, Come Lord/
and depending on how I feel I use, Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me/
To learn to be alone in silence/
far from all the stimulation we have 24 hours a day is vital for me/
Magdalena said, Prayer is a place to rest in the upheavals/
your soul needs that rest like some who is exhausted needs a bed/
So when I am calmer I take the daily liturgy texts/
and I read it slowly/
And I have confidence that it will be fertilizing my inner ground/
Well, the Eucharist is also a privileged moment/
that nourish my life and makes me feel connected to/
the people I love and who are far from here or with the ones who are already gone/
The Sacrament of Reconciliation, particularly is something I like because I believe
in its therapeutic action/
and, of course, in its healing action/
Its like if I said and allowed the Lord to enter into the darker corners where I cannot
do anything else/
Sharing the word of God in the community is also a beautiful moment and
nourishing for my inner life/
and I have grown a lot/
when we used to do it with the Lay Community of Campinas where I have been a
member for a long time until I moved to Rome/
I also try to take care of the spiritual accompaniment and spiritual reading/
since the Faith of the Heart has to be well nourished, confronted, informed and
shaped/
Because we can't believe on nonsense as it was said here/
Well in my communities, because I have the opportunity to have many of them/
I experience the Faith of the Heart in the attention and mutual CARIGO19:14/
on the mutual and simple service/
which Sisters share each other daily/
and to dedicate to the mission in which we should live/
Because if we not believe that is the Spirit of the Lord that guides and moves us/
we won't be able to do anything/
So I have been realizing that to discover the Faith of the Heart it is essential to
learn/ how to tune in/ first of all with our heart/
so that we can tune in with the others heart/
who walk next to us/
and then learn how to tune in with the worlds heart/
which is deeply wounded/ due to starvation/
violence/
wars/
illness, ecological carelessness/
human trafficking/ human movement/
luxury/
so that we can connect to Jesus and Marys heart/
which beats just right there/ in our worlds heart/ so in this heart connection/
mine, yours, the one from the reality and/
Jesus one and Marias one/
we will be able to get into the conciliatory dynamic/
of cooperate humbly/
in the mission of save and rescue the humanity/
from their pain and sins/
Thank you for giving me this opportunity./