1. Teacher:"Can you please tell the class why you're so late?

"Me:Someone told me to go to
hellMe:Couldn't find it at firstMe:But now I'm here
2. It blows my mind that after all this time youve spent on earth, nobody ever bothered
to tell you that your eyes arent fucking brown. They are copper against honey and
sage and when they water they glow, two perfect orbs the same shade as nature after
it rains. oure not as simple as they wanted you to be.
3. hae you considered that may!e i am not pleasant?
may!e i wear lipstic" so that
you will see my pretty pin" mouth
wrapping around a coffee cup lid
and !e distracted enough not to notice
that i am intelligent and powerful#
a threat.
may!e i draw my !rows into high arches
so you will loo" at my unimpressed s"epticism
and oerloo" my spiteful glare
as a tric" of my silly$ girlish routine.
may!e i wear my heels so high and thin
so that i grasp your attention with the sway of my hips
as i listen to the clic"%clac"%clic" against the floor
and "now that if you should try to oerpower me
i wal" on sharpened "nies.
may!e when i laugh at your worthless &o"es
i am really !aring my fangs
waiting patiently for the day
that i sin" them into your nec".
i am not made of porcelain pleasantries#
you will find that these things are my armor
to "eep you at a distance
so you do not step on me and shatter
my fragile control.
i am not a hus" ' i am not wilting.
i am turning my head
so that the fire !la(ing through my eyes
does not catch on the accelerant of your sweaty palms
and !urn your !ones to dust.
i am not your pretty girl#
i am a fury$ a faerie$ a phoeni) '
a forest of werewoles and wendigos
that will care out your chest
so that the ne)t time i paint my pretty pin" lips
i will taste the copper tang of your dying !reaths.*
+. ,ou could tell he was in loe !y the way he loo"ed at her. -ther girls were faint stars# she
was his sun.*
.. I li"e "ids$ !ut I don/t thin" I could eat a whole one.*
0. I loe you in waes$
and lately$
eeryday has !een a hurricane.*
1. 2e made me thin" of all the !oo"s I hadn/t read$ and all the ones I/d read !ut hadn/t fully
understood.*
3. 4entually soulmates meet$ for they hae the same hiding place.*
5. Its li"e the 6eil in me saw the 7od in you*
18. 9he nicest people I/e eer met were coered in tattoos and piercings and the most
&udgemental people I/e eer met are the ones that go to church eery Sunday.*
11. I will tell you what she was li"e. She was li"e a piano in a country where eeryone has
had their hands cut off.*
1:. 4ither crown me or "iss my ass.
13. I/m not going to !e the girl you marry$ !ut I/ll !e the girl you/ll !e thin"ing of :8 years
from now while you engage in polite se) with your !oring wife who fa"es her orgasm to
ma"e you feel !etter a!out your receding hairline.*
1+. -f course I am not worried a!out intimidating men. 9he type of man who will !e
intimidated !y me is e)actly the type of man I hae no interest in.*
1.. ;y father had taught me to !e nice first$ !ecause you can always !e mean later$ !ut once
you/e !een mean to someone$ they won/t !eliee the nice anymore. So !e nice$ !e nice$
until it/s time to stop !eing nice$ then destroy them.*
10. Behind eery good man is a woman with !lood on her hands*
11. Sincerity is eerything. If you can fa"e that$ you//e got it made.*
13. <hen you say$ 5 out of 18 forest fires are caused !y humans$* all I hear is$
9here/s a !ear out there who "nows how to use matches.**

"2ow does he taste?

2e tastes li"e me. 4ery girl can taste it !ut she/ll deny it to herself.
4ery inch of his mouth and lips is coered with my taste. Because he/s rightfully mine. 2e/s
wrongfully mine. 2e/s mine no matter how many times you want to try and argue against it.
2e can taste me as well. 2e/ll "iss as many girl. 2e/ll fuc" them. But when he/s lying with
her$ he won/t !e thin"ing of her. It/ll !e me he/s fuc"ing in his mind. ;e his thin"ing a!out.
It/s me and him. 2im and I. =s. >o matter how much we fuc" up and how much we hate on
each other. It/s our world. It/s our loe. It/s our hell that we/e turned into our paradise.
;y s"in will foreer linger on his s"in.
15. *
:8. ,ou are whateer a moon has always meant and whateer a sun will always
sing.*
:1. >o medicine$ you are not grape flaored*
2ae you eer tasted a grape?
,ou taste li"e death and the tears of small children$ not grape.*
::. 9he female doesn/t want a rich man or a handsome man or een a poet$ she wants
a man who understands her eyes if she gets sad$ and points to his chest and say ?
2ere is your home country.**
:3. 9wo muffins are in the oen.
-ne says to the other 7od it/s hot in here*
9he other one replies -h no@ It/s a tal"ing muffin**
:+. I hope you read some fine !oo"s and "iss someone who thin"s you/re wonderful$
and don/t forget to ma"e some art ' write or draw or !uild or sing or lie as only
you can.*
:.. Because hangoers hurt less than heartache.*
:0. >o!ody will eer loe you as much as an artist can. -n your worst days$ they will
find poetry in the "nots of your hair.*
:1. Before I am your daughter$
your sister$
your aunt$ niece$ or cousin$
I am my own person$
and I will not set fire to myself
to "eep you warm.*
I/m a writer.
6on/t !uy me roses
or fancy things.
Aiss me in eery language
and enelop me in
the soft hug of a sentence.
9each me how to
write without words$
and I will loe you
for the rest of my
undocumented e)istence.
:3. * But I am old and you are young$
Bnd I spea" a !ar!arous tongue.*
:5. Some of us get dipped in flat$ some in satin$ some in gloss@ But eery once in a
while$ you find someone who/s iridescent$ and when you do$ nothing will eer
compare.*
38. im going to name my "id pregnant so they can !e li"e hi im pregnant* and
eeryone will stand there all mortified
31. <e need women who are so strong they can !e gentle$ so educated they can !e
hum!le$ so fierce they can !e compassionate$ so passionate they can !e rational$
and so disciplined they can !e free.*
3:. 9he gods eny us. 9hey eny us !ecause we/re mortal$ !ecause any moment may
!e our last. 4erything is more !eautiful !ecause we/re doomed. ,ou will neer !e
loelier than you are now. <e will neer !e here again.*
",ou hae to come from your core really tight
shoulders down$ nec" long
and then &ust thin" ;=C64C/$ and wal".*
33. I hae learned that when sadness comes to isit me$ all I can do is say I see
you.* I spend some time with it$ get up$ and say good!ye. I don/t push it away$ I
own it. Bnd !ecause I own it$ I let it go.*
3+. Bnd at the end of the day$ your feet should !e dirty$ your hair messy and your
eyes spar"ling.*
3.. 9he tric"$ "iddo$* his mom replies slowly. Is finding someone who complements
you instead of completes you. ,ou need to !e complete on your own.*

Someone holds you for the first time in a long time and you are !ound to thin" it is true loe.
9he thing that it ta"es years to learn is that isn/t anything close to loe. Doe happens when
they aren/t holding you.
It happens when they are washing dishes while whistling pop songs$ or chewing on the end of
a pen doing the crossword$ or falling asleep in a chair reading a !oo". It is stories told in the
dar"$ at 3 B; with your eyes closed. It is hating the way they say your name when you are
fighting$ how they tell you eerything can !e fi)ed when you are coninced it can/t.
Doe is what happens when you aren/t touching !ut your heart still swells for them li"e a
wae in a storm. Doe is what happens during all the moments you !lin".
30. But I stopped going out# I stopped wanting to go out. 9his happens ery easily.
It/s as if you had always done that ' lied in a few rooms and gone from one to
the other. 9he light is a different colour eery hour and the shadows fall differently
and ma"e different patterns. ,ou feel peaceful$ !ut when you try to thin" it/s as if
you/re face to face with a high$ dar" wall. Ceally all you want is night$ and to lie in
the dar" and pull the sheet oer your head and sleep$ and !efore you "now where
you are it is night ' that/s one good thing. ,ou pull the sheet oer your head and
thin"$ E2e got sic" of me$/ and E>eer$ not eer$ neer./ Bnd then you go to sleep.
,ou sleep ery Fuic"ly when you are li"e that and you don/t dream either.*

I want morning "isses$ slaps on the !utt$ pin"y holding$ and hugs from !ehind. I want to ma"e
you coffee at 1am and sit with you at the "itchen ta!le with the sun shining in on us. ,ou can
see dust particles and it is &ust !eautiful. Gust li"e your green eyes that light up any room$
especially my smile. I want to wal" around the house in my undies and a !ig t%shirt with you
li"e it/s is the new fashion trend. I want to cuddle on the couch on a Saturday morning while
watching the 7olden 7irls !ecause it/s a classic. I want to go to a little cafe for lunch with you
and try new foods and ta"e pictures of us trying them. I want to run in the rain to get the car
for you so that you don/t hae to get wet. I want to ma"e out with you from the car to the
!edroom when we arrie home and ta"e off eery item of your clothing and feel your s"in on
mine. I want you to wal" in on me while I am ta"ing a shower and let me wal" in on you
while you/re using the !athroom and it !e completely comforta!le. I want to wash your hair
for you and you wash my !ac". I want to sing in front of you$ with you$ and to you. I want to
!uy a "itten with you and let you "iss my cat scratches. I want you to help me coo" een
though you aren/t the !est at it.I want to marry you and hae our guests throw rose petals as
we wal" out of the church. I want our families to !e one giant family. I want to raise a child
with you and watch him or her grow and !e the !est they can !e. I want to grow old with you
and !e a!le to tell our grandchildren all the ama(ing things we did when we were teenagers. I
want to wipe your nose when you/re sic" and !ring you chocolate when you want something
sweet. I want to !ring you flowers for no special reason and ta"e you out on a <ednesday
eening when nothing else is going on. I want to !e a part of you eery single day for the rest
of my life. I want to hold you and loe you. I want you. I will neer stop wanting you. I loe
you.
31. I don/t want to !e at the mercy of my emotions. I want to use them$ to en&oy
them$ and to dominate them.*
33. Bs the pain that can !e told is !ut half a pain$ so the pity that Fuestions has little
healing in its touch. <hat Dily craed was the dar"ness made !y enfolding arms$
the silence which is not solitude !ut compassion holding its !reath.*
35. Some people are good at !eing in loe. Some people are good at loe. 9wo ery
different things$ I thin". Being in loe is the romantic part'se) all the time$
midday naps in the sheets$ the &o"es$ the laughs$ the fun$ long conersations with
no pauses$ oerwhelming separation an)iety @ Gust the !est sides of !oth people$
you "now? But loe !egins when the e)citement of !eing in loe starts to fade? the
stress of life sets in$ the !utterflies disappear$ the se) !ecomes a chore$ the tears$
the sadness$ the arguments$ the cattiness @ 9he worst parts of !oth people. But if
you still want that person !y your side through all of those things @ that/s when
you "now'that/s when you "now you/re good at loe.*
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+1. In some strange way I am not with you$ I am against you. <e are destined to hold
two truths. I loe you and I fight you. Bnd you$ the same. <e will !e stronger for
it$ each of us$ stronger with our loe and our hate. <hen you caricature and nail
down and tear apart$ I hate you. I want to answer you$ not with wea" or stupid
poetry !ut with a wonder as strong as your reality. I want to fight your surgical
"nife with all the occult and magical forces of the world.*
+:. I don/t want to !e at the mercy of my emotions. I want to use them$ to en&oy
them$ and to dominate them.*
+3. Bll relationships are doomed. If you emotionally undress in front of someone$
they will pour acid on your shiering s"in and leae you to die.*
++. Dife is too short for shitty se) and !ad relationships.So go find someone who
fuc"s you right and treats you how you desere to !e treated.*
+.. 13 things my uncle told me !efore he died?
not eeryone has the !lessing to understand sadness
when waiting at the !us stop$ it/s o"ay to smo"e cigarettes
neer touch anyone else/s clothes at the laundromat
it/s o"ay to miss the people who were !ullets to you
when your grandmother as"s you how you are$ !e honest
neer !e afraid to say no* een after you/e said yes*
if someone tells you graffiti isn/t art$ proe them wrong
remem!er people !y their eye color not their clothes
you/re allowed to li"e dar" chocolate with tangerines
don/t lie that you don/t hae a lighter when you really do
turn your phone off eery once in a while and find the moon
if you want a tattoo$ don/t let anyone tell you not to get it
if you eer find yourself at the graeyard$ read the names*
+0. 9he only way to get through life is to laugh your way through it. ,ou either hae
to laugh or cry. I prefer to laugh. Crying gies me a headache.*
+1. I don/t care if I will fall in loe to a deil$ as long as that deil will loe me the
way he loes hell.*
+3. IShe repeated the words in her mind? <hen the fire goes out$ you/ll start feeling
the cold. ,ou/ll wa"e up whether you want to or not.J 9hen she curled herself
against him and dropped into a fleeting$ !ut deep$ sleep.*
+5. Shyness has a strange element of narcissism$ a !elief that how we loo"$ how we
perform$ is truly important to other people.
.8. She was perfect$ pure maddening se)$ and she "new it$ and she played on it$
dripped it$ and allowed you to suffer for it.
.1. I am not a woman. I am an inferno$ I am a tempest. I am enom and fangs and
claws. I am lightning and starlight$ and I am hell in high heels.*
.:. -ne drin" to remem!er.
9hen another to forget.
2ow could I eer dream to find$
Sweet loe li"e you again.

Keople get drun"

9hey hoo" up with the wrong person
Bnd pretend to !e o"ay
Keople act tough
Bnd get mad

Keople will do anything to distract their heart.
9hey will do anything to distract it from missing someone.
.3. * ,ou are made of !ent coathangers$ honey$ grael$ epo)y and handstands.
I am made of lying on the floor$ the same song on repeat.*
.+. I had a dream that I could teach you how to loe
;y machine$ I learn to reach inside your ri! cage
Llip a switch and you engage
See the laugh !urst across your face*
... Disten to me$ you can/t fi) people.
,our loe won/t ma"e him stop hating his father
and your deotion won/t cure her of her childhood.
Bll you can do is !e there$ iolets sprouting out
from your ri!s$ acceptance on your lips$ your own
wounds still !leeding and all you can do is !e there
and sometimes that/s enough$ sometimes that/s eerything.
.0. 9ry to learn to !reathe deeply$ really to taste food when you eat$ and when you
sleep$ really go to sleep. 9ry as much as possi!le to !e wholly alie with all your
might$ and when you laugh$ laugh li"e hell. Bnd when you get angry$ get good and
angry. 9ry to !e alie. ,ou will !e dead soon enough.*
.1. Some do drugs$ others go out for a run$ !ut at the end we/re all &ust searching for
that tiny space$ perhaps a hole$ that gies us shelter from the terri!le reality of the
world.*
.3. * Det me &ust say?
I miss you li"e pun" misses !asements.
9here are songs that still feel li"e your teeth on my nec".
9he memory of your rough oice undresses my memories.*
.5. * 2e said that when he
wa"es up in the morning$
and I am not there
!y his side$ filling up
the empty area in his !ed$
that/s when he reali(es
how much he needs me.
Cegret is all he has
for !rea"fast anymore.
9houghts of letting me go
when I was neer
supposed to leae
is something that he
has to lie with# something
that he has neer !een a!le to
understand. Bt one point$
he thought that !eing
without me would ma"e eerything
feel a little more at ease.
But on the day that I left$
he told me that my fresh a!sence
was a feeling that he
neer wants to hae to
e)perience again.
08. Bfter the !ars close
we stum!le !ehind grocery stores$ clim!
in the dumpsters$ and tear apart the trash !ags
li"e raccoons. Sorting out the salagea!le$
setting aside food$ feeling fish heads
sFuish under our !oots.
,ou find a do(en half%dead sunflowers
and present them to me on !ended "nee
2ere$* you say$ Linally$
something as !eautiful as you are.**
01. * I "now that the thought
of me moing on
is slowly ma"ing your heart
deteriorate at the seams.
But this is something
that we !oth saw coming$
and you &ust can/t sit here
and tell me that my loe
was neer there to !egin with.
eat my ass
;y mom said I had to eat my egeta!les first
I respect that
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0:. 4eryone/s &ust loo"ing for reasons to wa"e up and get out of !ed$ some do it for
nothing !ut a "iss$ perhaps a cup of coffee$ others hae a harder time# no train to
catch$ no hand to hold$ no reasons at all.*
03. 6ate yourself. 9a"e yourself out to eat. 6on/t share your popcorn at the moies
with anyone. Stroll around an art museum alone. Lall in loe with canases. Lall in
loe with yourself.*
0+. In a world of loc"ed rooms$ the man with the "ey is "ing$ and honey$ you should
see me in a crown.*
0.. ;om always told me there are two "inds of loe in this world? the steady !ree(e$
and the hurricane.*
00. 4a aea !u(ele mereu ro ii$ Nn amintirea focului pe care el i l%a pus Nn inimO odatO
cu primul sOrut.*
01. I guess some people are &ust !orn with tragedy in their !lood.*
03. 9he years !etween eighteen and twenty%eight are the hardest$ psychologically. It/s
then you reali(e this is ma"e or !rea"$ you no longer hae the e)cuse of youth$ and
it is time to !ecome an adult P !ut you are not ready.*
05. 7et scared. It will do you good. Smo"e a !it$ stare !lan"ly at some ceilings$ !eat
your head against some walls$ refuse to see some people$ paint and write. 7et
scared some more. Bllow your little mind to do nothing !ut function. Stay inside$
go out % I don/t care what you/ll do# !ut stay scared as hell. ,ou will neer !e a!le
to e)perience eerything. So$ please$ do poetical &ustice to your soul and simply
e)perience yourself.*
-nce again I hae added not eating to the list of ways I deal
with the !urden of !eing alie. I feel too old for this.
I hae this strange solidarity with my seenth grade self.
9he way she lied on green apples and coffee for si) months
and her mother neer noticed.
9he friends I lie with now say nothing when I do not eat.
<hen I carefully measure out my 088 calories a day
and half of them are wine. It is not their responsi!ility
to ta"e care of me. It is my own. But lately$
I/m doing a terri!le &o!.
Dately I/e !een loo"ing at my !ody li"e it !elongs
to someone else. <atching it slowly shrin" li"e the crowd
at a party that that has gone too late. ;y stomach
has !een an enemy my entire life. I miss her now that she/s gone.
She is a conFuered enemy. B anFuished foe.
I did not want to win. >ot li"e this.
18. * Lor loe is a flower that grows in any soil$ wor"s its sweet miracles undaunted
!y autumn frost or winter snow$ !looming fair and fragrant all the year$ and
!lessing those who gie and those who receie.*

6ear Luture 6aughter?

1Q <hen you/re at some party$ chain smo"ing on the roof with some strange girl with !lue
hair and e)or!itant large dar" eyes$ as" her a!out her day. I promise you$ you won/t regret it.
-ften times you/ll find the strangest of people hae the most captiating of stories to tell.
:Q Klease$ neer mista"e desire for loe. Doe will engulf your soul$ whilst desire will emerge
as acid$ slowly ma"ing it/s way through your eins$ gradually !urning you from the inside
out.
3Q >o one is going to fuc"ing sae you$ anything you/e read or heard otherwise is !ullshit.
+Q -ne day a !oy is going to come along who/s touch feels li"e fire and who/s words taste li"e
anilla$ when he leaes you$ you will want to die. If you "now anything at all$ "now that it is
only temporary.
.Q ,our mental health comes !efore school !a!y$ always. If its midnight$ and you hae an
e)am the ne)t day !ut your hands hae !een sha"ing for the past hour and a half and you/re
not so sure you want to !e alie anymore$ pull out that carton of Ben and Gerry/s and
afterwards$ go the fuc" to !ed. So what if you get a 03R on the e)am the ne)t day? ,ou too"
care of yourself and at the end of the day that will always come !efore a high test score. 9o
hell with anyone who tells you differently.
11. *how Fuic" does the night seduces?
1:. I,es? Stop !iting your lip$ and say it.*
9han" you$ my thief.*J
,ou/re welcome$ my Fueen.*
13. -mul tre!uie sO treacO uneori ca un lup prin frun(e. SO nu lase urme. Krea multe
urme Nncep sO miroasO a trecut.*
1+. ,ou either li"e me or you don/t. It too" me 9wenty%something years to learn how
to loe myself$ I don/t hae that "inda time to conince some!ody else.*
1.. 2is oice reminded me of poetry and se).*
10. I used to feel so alone in the city. Bll those ga(illions of people and then me$ on
the outside. Because how do you meet a new person? I was ery stunned !y this
for many years. Bnd then I reali(ed$ you &ust say$ 2i.* 9hey may ignore you. -r
you may marry them. Bnd that possi!ility is worth that one word.*
11. 9he man with the "ey is "ing..and honey$ you should see me in a crown.
13. She loed three things ' a &o"e$ a glass of wine$ and a handsome man.*
15. I &ust hope that one day'prefera!ly when we/re !oth !lind drun"'we can tal"
a!out it.
38. >o matter how good things are$ there will always !e solitary nights you spend in
your !edroom$ in a car$ or in a party full of your closest friends when it feels li"e
the walls are caing in.*
31. The devil is real. And hes not a little red man with horns and a tail. He can be
beautiful. Cause hes a fallen angel, and he used to be Gods favorite.
3:. Youve got to get comfortable with fear; nothings worth doing unless youre a little bit scared. People
call women the weaker sex. Its a total cliche - a man in a powerful position is considered
assertive, whereas a woman is a bitch. You have to stand up to that and be ready for things to
be hard and for things to be serious.
33. No is a complete sentence.
3+. "We had a lot going for us. Wed found the secret glue that held all things together. In
a perfect place, where the noise did not intrude, our world was so very complete."
3..