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PROPERTY OF
IOWA STATE COMMISSION
FOR THE BLIND
WARD
TWENTY
JAMES WARNER BELLAH
DOUBLEDAY
Garden
City,
COMPANY, INC
New York, 1946
COPYRIGHT, I946
IfL
ARD TWENTY
Twenty
is
Ward
Wives anywhere.
Apthorpe, Cartwright, Bascomb, Delamater, Heinze,
Philips, Unknown, Krantz, Unknown, Kyles, McKeldin,
friends, Babies or
vi
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BowerManoel Estados,
any dead American
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T WAS
Mahon came
tray.
into the
Ward
still
dark
when Miss
sleep of
men and
quiet, freshen-
first
early air of
chromium bar.
They slept, Ward Twenty, dark heads and very
young in sleep against the white of pillows and white
blankets. Relaxed, gone somewhere into an oblivion
that took the present from them and cast them back
across the months that were gone. They had slept the
night far enough down to have dreamed themselves
out of the places they had come from to be back
now in the places they had known long before. Lone
wind on the high Sierras and the raucous streets of
Brooklyn, the dusty roads of the Cumberland and the
lazy Georgia sunshine. A hound dog's voice across the
flatness of Illinois and the spaced bark of a dory
its
engine
off
San Diego.
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listening for
firing,
twisting his
mind
"Stop, Joe
"What
for,
You've kept
it
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he was a boy again
He
bed at home,
sheets, yawning to
the navel.
and legs, far down in the bed and then the present
washed back into his mind like waters through a
buckling dyke. But he had a mind, so he stopped
them, dammed them off and lazily went back to
sleep.
He
Halpern's forehead.
move, but he said "Yes?" sharply from his darkness, as if he never slept in it but lay there always on
sentry duty, ready to challenge anyone who apdidn't
proached.
"Medicine, Milton."
"Is iss
it,
den?"
Ya gonna go
to
Ward
psychology yet!
Thoiteen?"
"Balls."
"Ya got
th'
let
"Balls."
"I ain't
gonna
"So ya just
ta
go wit ya."
Miss Mahon stopped by Whitehead's bed.
It
was
"
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you.
same.
It's
all
one war,
see?"
"It isn't the
"What can
I talk
warm
tears.
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Hated
all
of
it
over and
let
himself
floor, rolled
Then he prayed,
his
mind racing
off
who
God. And
him gently
mind with
very ponderous words he didn't quite know the meaning of. But he knew his God heard him and made
there he talked simply and earnestly in his
who
had approached his God upon his knees and now approached him even lower humbly and gratefully
because his God had walked beside him all of the way
the war had taken him, holding his hand, speaking
Fear not.
My hand is
in yours. I
am
with you.
too."
Miss
into bed.
"You are a
it
does."
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"And
I will
a mistake on
hear
this. I
it? It will
be plain?
must know
cannot make
for sure/'
cannot think of
of
it
that leads
it
me
because
on
am
afraid
it is
the glory
am good enough
is
in
my
heart.
Whether
within."
"Oh,
that's nice."
Woman's
ain't it?
man and
there
it
and
Good women,
she's
that
is.
Let her
man
it
strikes."
Miss
"It's
Mahon
smiled.
"A
girl likes to
hope
so."
He had
heard
all
that Jaxon
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said, half in sleeping, half in
waking.
He
his
sour.
turned sour in
wanted to spit, but
It
There's
ing?"
still
"No
the weather.
Mahon, what's
it like,
rain-
it's
Mahon
Mahon I'm
when did you first
like
snow.
love her.
it."
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some day
Mahon
you'll
Howya?"
Daley snuggled against himself in the warmth of
his bed, shivering inside with the comfort of belonging. "Meredith," he said, "I like you. Go ahead, be
happy, all you want."
"You're a good kid," Meredith told him. "Light me
up." Daley flipped over and reached for his cigarettes
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on the steel bed table, lit one, and pushed a long, thin
arm across to Meredith's bed, putting the cigarette
between Meredith's lips. Meredith sucked the smoke
deep into his lungs and exhaled. Daley held the butt
up while the full kick hit Meredith, then he gave him
another drag the same way and another, until the
cigarette was down to a nub. Then he snubbed it out.
"You're a good guy," Meredith said.
Frischling rolled over. "Does my God-damned
sleeping keep you two bastards awake?"
"It's noon," Meredith said.
"So it's noon. So what day is it noon in?"
"So wake up."
"So shut up," Frischling
yourself.
said.
pest house."
you going
death sleeping
someday. I'm worried," Meredith said. "Go ahead,
slug Daley, he does my fighting for me. Slug Daley,
"Frischling
to starve to
family background.
No
self-respecting Kraut
No
sensibilities.
would
fight
breeding.
No
I'm surprised a
who and
go-"
gotta piss.
to see
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10
and
straight nose
knew
all
full lips,
Don't blush.
What
are
"Mahon
you're a
you ashamed
virgin.
fought hard."
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month he got
stinking for
know? And
Drive-Inn.
He
Worth runs a
Chinee woman, half sort of,
married a
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12
to
work
it
right.
Go
to school
can't ever
Mahon
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13
and almost a Ph.D. from Binn's College. He'd never been out of the placid academic runways until the Army snatched him out and put him
into an Infantry division. He'd never been able to think
since, beyond his knees. There wasn't a thing wrong
with his knees except that he honestly believed that
there was. He had no idea that it was his personal escape mechanism. He wasn't intelligent enough to know
that. He could think pains into his knees whenever he
thought of them and he never quite stopped thinking
of them. Even when he got out of the Army, he
wouldn't stop. He'd go right on until he thought himof the Southwest
self
Wendell Phipps
Doctor Pillsbury.
"Hey Pills bedpan!" And Grover Kountze: "There's
a goat at Pimlico in the Third today that bears in-
night.
Pillsbury.
vestment."
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14
With
hands firmly on Halpern's ankles, the wardmaster eased him to the floor. Halpern braced himself
back against the bed.
"Hold it," Schiappas told Grogan. "You're a pretty
good half-assed medic. It's granted. But me, I found
this Halpern job. I got the contract. I run it my way.
Milton do just like I say. Stand up straight. Beat it,
Grogan you're surplus. Milton put the left arm out
and touch my chair back. Good. Now stand up."
Halpern stood up. "Look, Tony, I feel swaying. Am
I swaying?"
"No you ain't swaying. You been lying down too
much. You're good. Now all you do is keep touching
on the chair back and walk slowly as I wheel it."
Schiappas started out between the beds into the
center of the Ward and turned in a wide, slow arc
toward the washroom.
his
"Hello, Halpern."
"Benny
Frischling.
How
you doing?"
"Nobody
it
looks."
own
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leave
me wash and
15
the boys?"
Me I
like brunettes.
Ast
me
me. Hold
should do something
still,
it
felt right to
Meredith.
He
stood
still
looking
remembering what
they had told him. Then he began to move the arms,
awkwardly like the tentacles of a vague insect. "Them
at himself in the mirror, frowning,
God-damned Krauts
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16
He
It ain't neat,
but
it's
progress."
moved it carefully
to his cheek. After a rugged fashion, he made a couple
I make my point. It ain't neat,
of down strokes. "O.K.
got the razor clamped in and
but
it's
this
way
don't do you
He
know how
He
it
So he scrubbed on
fiercely,
not think-
"When you
first
"
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the hell out of
me how you
17
throat, Paskow."
"Fresh
again, I
"On
body
talk,
sees you."
He
shaved.
He
Keenan
civilian
said, "no-
slapped on lotion,
and down
neck and
it into his armpits. He brushed his white
teeth and rinsed them with a pink mouth wash, gargling it, smeeching it noisily through his clenched
teeth. He put on hair tonic, rubbing it in with his
fingers, combing his dark curly hair carefully until it
rubbing
dabbing
it
behind
his ears
his
pleased him.
"Kiss me." Frischling leaned toward him. "I can't
stand
there they
white
lips
was damp
pinched
with the
sweat of apprehension.
"Don't yell nothing," Meneilley told them sharply.
"So he fights fifteen weeks in a traction splint. So he
loses, I guess."
"You
can't miss?
miss,"
Paskow
want
him on a shower
to
stool,
shaving him.
said.
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18
take
it
easy*
"Balls."
"That
"
"Balls."
"Milton
don't say
it.
Boy."
remember?"
shall also,"
Daley
five.
Some
said.
You're getting
You want
to
watch
A faint
He
Everybody
belonged.
clipped.
club.
slip
He was
That was
you could
in
a part of
definite.
But
it
his friend.
because he was
in spite of
it,
maybe
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it
19
one war.
Two
gets scratched.
one
Joes together
They both
hero."
"Maybe
"It is
It's
breakfast."
moved
in beside
Meredith to
didn't get
once.
start
juice."
"We
start
"O.K.
dith's lips.
propped Halpern up
eating," Halpern said. "Throw it
to
in
the garbage."
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20
dress
It's
a luxury hotel.
to the can
gripe."
"Balls/'
the
way
am
"Nothing gets me
down. Nothing ever did. Nothing ever will. I'll get
and I'll stay happy!" His voice
by, even with this
"I
happy," Meredith
said.
was
shrilling.
"Come
"Go
second or two Milton ate. Schiappas looked at Pillsbury closely. He didn't see much there, just a long,
sad pan with a pimple or two on it, weak looking eyes,
and uncertain straw hair. "You been to college, ain't
you, Pillsbury? What's it like?"
"That's a funny question," Pillsbury said.
"It's a question, ain't it? What's college like?"
"Well, I don't quite know," Pillsbury said.
"Well,
it's
and
do you
to college
like.
How
Milton?"
it
said.
"How do you
I ast
simple question
what
college
off
is like.
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21
He
And he
can't tell
me.
exactly?"
"Maybe we
skip
it,"
Schiappas
said.
"Maybe we get
The Gov'ment's
simple as
and me going."
over breakfast."
"I ain't
going to college."
"You can't
miss. From the time they draft us we go the whole
route. We don't stop now. We go to college."
"You sure
know a
Yale?
They got
football teams."
Milton
to
go to Yale,"
said.
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22
bury.
Me
and Milton go
to Yale, see?
Why should we
knows
then, see?"
all
lawyer.
we
how
You
a lawyer on the Army? Where was
read in a magazine
said, "that's
it's
possible.
Paskow poured
Command,
yes?
It's
the war,
Navy
the
war
On
it's
still?"
Is it
it
enemy
action?"
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ting
ton.
23
dopey fam hunger. Eat. I got troubles with MilAst Keenan, he's a lawyer. Milton drink your
cawfee."
"I'll
ask the
"Which
WAC
downstairs."
WAC?"
ask her."
ya no. Stacked
"She'll tell
WAC's
They
can boggen."
"Dope.
"Why
not?
"Y' getting
y'
getting
me
through his
hunger that
could feel it
going all the
spring out of
clamped
He
tight against
then
mind
it.
the pillows.
You have
You
his
it
and
rot.
up and walk.
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24
am
learn again."
"Maybe
were
is
wrong,
too,
intent.
"How
more trouble
"It
it
for yourself."
God
way He
going to get
God
"God has
be in it."
"That may be, but I don't know enough about God
to talk. I just know cows and horses and Texas and
to
a B.A.R."
"If
God wants me
He makesa me
He makesa
five feet."
to
be
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25
"How
is
this
"The way
it
new
deal, Jax?"
stands
God?"
"Nope," Jaxon smiled and shook his head.
"You gotta, Jax," Pasquale said. "You think clean,
you think good. Sure God give me choice. I couldn't
think of that.
You
in hell."
me
The
trays
were going
out.
in the
Ward and
started around.
They talked
for a
mo-
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26
It
bastard, talk to
ain't
me
me what
It's
my
leg
it
want!"
all
up
to
him
He
new
tangents of thought.
wasn't a physician
wanted him
to
have M.D.
after his
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used the
to
make
profits
27
it so.
"Miss Keiffer," Stephano said, "check with the orthopaedic shop about this case.
ready." Miss Keiffer
made
it's
a note.
moment
ness,
him as he
sensing them by ear.
looking at
"How
long have
we had
"Four weeks."
"Progress?"
if it's
twenty arms."
Stephano leaned close to Halpern's face.
"Tanker?" Broadbent asked Halpern.
"So what?"
Stuff
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28
man
never give a
up."
went
to the
washroom himself
my running
mate."
Broadbent put
"You're
all right,"
his
that,
Soldier."
it."
Doc
Broadbent."
"Why
isn't
ashamed
for a
Whitehead's bed.
"Colonel Mayhew is operating
moment
this
of you."
at Charlie
morning," Miss
"Ah, yes. Yes," Stephano said, "I told him he'd have
to,
eventually."
God damn
him
fiercely, can't
your
own mind
tell
you that
this
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29
world, from
switchboard.
there were
all
all sorts
Roy Broadbent's
trick of
And
of beginnings,
there they
would
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30
it
Joe Keenan
motor
dozer's for one
its
rising in a
to
Ward Twenty.
Stephano
said,
"Miss Keiffer
want Goldthwait
wave."
He was
He had
Miss Keiffer
made
it
home
a note.
down
New
Sitting in
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31
her
as
if
she had
if
all
around
she
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32
all
mind
the
back from
it
to
Ward Twenty.
him and
and
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bursting high
up
like
time
fire.
So
33
sell out.
Search
Major Stephano nodded. He walked on to Meneilley. Broadbent was furious in his mind at the impersonality he got that way every morning, but he
was helpless. Stephano ranked him and there was no
turning to Isenrod, who was merely filling his mind
with patter to re-dish. So Broadbent kept most of his
mind on the men.
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34
was shocked. "How can you say that and you a Brooklyn boy!" But Halpern could say anything because
there was the narrow street ahead into Castleforte
with the walls broken and tiles blown clear of the roof
tops and all the glass gone. And there was a weapons
carrier on fire with arms and shoulders
but no head
still around the steering wheel and a flat scab of
flies on the neck stump. The first number on the plate
was 8 and there was the rich, sweet stink of new dead,
sweetening to black rottenness, and the wind blowing
red leaves on a vine and a terrified, white-eyed bitch
streaking across in front of him, dugs low and trailing.
The sun on everything the bright, warm sun. Then
it all went out like a blown light into eternal darkness
went out under something that tore into his face,
shredding his upflung hands and arms. So he could
say anything even to Schiappas, who had seen the
cities of the world in his travels and read avidly now
to know them and describe them to Milton.
Broadbent smiled
Soldier."
at him. "Don't
worry so much,
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"It
makes
me happy
to
worry
35
it's
the Russian
me."
Stephano said, "It has not drained too well. That's
the point I make. Miss Keiffer, I'll want to change the
dressings and I want heat therapy stopped for a few
days. I'll talk to you about this later."
"Talk now/' Meneilley said. "What can you lose?"
Stephano went on. Broadbent stayed for a moment
more. "It's superficial," he said. "I'm not lying." Meneilley stared at him in cold hostility. Meneilley from
the side streets of Chicago, hooking on the backs of
trucks from as far back as he could remember, loving
the noise and the life of it. Playing hooky from school.
Running a paper route for the Trib at nine. Getting
caught and brought back by the truant officer. Crazy
to get into the world. Lying about his working papers.
Beating the rap by an inch on reform school over
Minnie Bienstok who did it backwards standing up
in doorways and alleys with anybody.
in
Working for Hostetter-Grimes, for Overland-Cushing and driving for them before he was twenty. The
life! The roaring freight trucks on the night highways,
tooling them west with the dying sun, west to the silver
moonrise. Thousands of pounds behind you in control of
ahead.
The free-hipped
feet,
your brain
girls at
adventure
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36
young.
And
the
Army wrote
in truck driver
on your
lie."
Paskow
could
Broadbent
see
you
Ward. "Captain
tial?"
Company
side
and
Company
houses, in-
on dec-
cheap
coffins.
weddings.
An arm
Wakes and
Pop Prymyl
in the pit
you can
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37
it
lay
but
where Jesus
if
flang us until
B Company comes up
Vm going straight
it,
Paskow?"
get
it,
all
over him.
The
Some people
little
outcast. Writ-
WARD TWENTY
38
cling to
Twenty
years from
now
in the
would dominate
it from the sacrosanct pedestal of plastic feet
mouthing stupidities, platitudes, and columnists' warmedover cliches and making himself heard because you
can't refute two plastic feet. Is that so? Well, I was
there, Charlie, see? And I know. Omaha Easy Red.
Where was you f renstance?
Veterans' meeting at
Louis, Daley
St.
forevermore on a pension,
my office
them
"Always errands."
"That's right. Don't get
to
and ask
regulations on
me."
lost."
"I'm a doctor."
it,
too.
Haven't you?"
me in a show
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39
bowels. White
There was
a burning half track with the smell of seared meat in
it and a telephone wire snaking the roadside and running into a hole with two eight-by-eights roofing it.
He leapt to it. In there, in the foot, blow off the foot
with my own rifle at the ankle. Get out alive somehow. And he fell, sprawled out, arms ahead of him to
break the fall, and tried frantically to get up but only
his forehead and the clanking brim of his hat came to
bear on the hot road surface. His arms wouldn't his
hands wouldn't. Rifle keep the rifle! He groped for
it. Hot fire burned fiercely to his shoulders. He looked
under his hat brim. He threw up, mouth and nostrils
screaming abjectly into the muffling, bitter acid.
fear.
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40
Stephano was still dictating to Miss Keiffer. Meredith lay down. Broadbent stepped around to Frischling's bed. "How are we, Frischling?"
"We're good."
"Good," Broadbent said.
Frischling, the tuna fisherman. Born to the waterfront and the little stout Pacific fish boats, chasing the
schools and running them down for the lush kill.
and not
weather and a hunch for
knowing
currents
With an eye
and an instinct
it.
for
for storms
small, compact.
man
paratrooper. So 111
Benny
kill
those Ger-
Frischling with
killer.
Am
good?
Am I
good!
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They were
41
Gray
sighs in
in,
but
of flak guns.
"
times.
Frischling's long, dark sea-face looked
up
at him,
"Halpern?
Sure.
I'll
talk to him."
he nodded.
"I get
it.
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42
"Thanks.
down
to
Paskow.
It
went on
manize
it
You got
were
geon
now, get
all
Major Stephano.
Ward was
it
it
after
as
prima donnas to Keiffer. Stephano, the suras fine as they come. Precise, sure, deft and
ingenious. But lost in the icy caves of surgery. Knowing and caring for nothing beyond. Broadbent, young
and beautifully schooled to the tradition of searching
everywhere in the attempt to know all approaches.
Finding the challenge to his professional obligations
too great for his youth. Angered against time, that
failed always to give him enough of an answer before
it slipped on and left him. Isenrod, encased in the scar
tissue of professional patter which covered the wounds
his ignorance eternally opened in his pride.
"Come on now, my hearties/' Keiffer said, "hit the
all
deck!"
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"Sailor talk," Schiappas said.
"A
43
fine thing."
Twenty-one
years capped, she'd seen everything there was to see,
dealt successfully with most of it, and still had enough
resilience left to take on whatever the rest of it might
bring to her. Not once did she regret the bargain she
had struck with life trading off permanent possession
of one man for better or for worse, for all the sick and
injured men in Christendom. You had them, when
they were hurt and sick. They were kids again
babies, with their manhood gone in pain and helplessfor other women.
ness. You brought it back to them
It dried your shrunken loins but it kept your mind
going and that's what counts. Your mind.
Keiffer pointed her finger at Schiappas. "A bath.
Clean pajamas. Physical Therapy. Joe Keenan after
Therapy you go to Orthopaedics for measurements.
No paper. They'll know about you when you get there.
Paskow, never mind reading. Therapy, quick! Pasquale Cancellare up and at 'em. After short wave this
morning you tell Miss Hassenpfeffer you are to go
Keiffer
at all of
it.
into the
"It
gym
sounds
for
Goldthwait exercises."
me," Meredith
laughed.
"It
lare?
is
Hassenpfeffer.
I'll
write
it
down.
"
WARD TWENTY
44
Tm
starting
"It's
Miss
Lootenant Keiffer."
handle him," Keiffer said. "Kountze or Pillsbury," she called. "Chair for Halpern, right here and
now. No more trucks. Sit up, Milton
"I'll
"Come
wit you
all
be right
the way."
"I'll
tough, Milton.
It's
ear. "I
know
no minds. Which
is
better?"
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45
Paskow
dat's Brooklyn!"
said, "balls"
didn't go to Therapy.
He
went down
up past the Mess and out
down
to the
first floor
and
rolled
smelled clean.
said.
"You can do
me
hurt."
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46
"But
I can't
do
regulations."
Paskow nodded. "I knew you'd say that first. Everybody says that first. It's habit. It's Army. It's easy."
"But really
"Sure, sure
it is."
girl,
a bright girl
water. That's
still
enemy
action, that
oil.
Charlie
medical
officer give
the Heart.
If
it's
enemy
action, I
can
tell
slip of
"
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47
compound
'That's
"win
fracture.'
it.
That's
it,"
Paskow
said.
do?"
"Yes, yes. What's your name?"
"Welland. Sally Welland."
it
call
rememberer.
An
elephant."
Go
off fast.
alike.
to hell. "Thanks,"
it's
in
your
all
look
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48
Warm
Rubbing
oil. Warm flesh. And the smell of busy women. Strong
women in Therapy with tight-muscled figures from
hard work. Hard legs in white cotton. Strong, tanned
arms and capable fingers. Strong women, gentle in
strength, bringing men back to their own strength.
Giving them legs from their legs, arms from their
arms. A rather dreadful re-wombing. Water sang in
the high-sided chromium baths, swirling circulation
back into atrophied muscles, stimulating, warming,
drawing life in again from the outside. Lights glowed
in golden cylinders of sheeting, forcing warmth into
tissue that had had warmth blasted from it. Shortwave cabinets poured the heat in deeper, getting down
to healing bone ends, warming and soothing.
Female bodies rubbing strength back inexorably
into males, going deep into muscle, stimulating the
cloth
cloth. Disinfectant.
new capillary
channels, accustom-
new
fore-
shortening.
And
longer passive
where
it
became
active. Twenty-five
against
the sliding
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weights. Hop, hop,
hop and
sit.
49
Miss Hassenpfeffer's
stronghold.
and Halpern.
"So help me, it's Milton Halpern in a chair!"
Gretchen said.
"So what, you big Swede? So hook me up in series
Frischling,
Schiappas
he's
my
manager.
I'm
to take
pretty
Berlin,
table.
"You been
to
Gretchen?"
"Sure.
When
I'm a
girl.
got left."
stuff."
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50
"Not
"No. Solid.
in the
huh?"
Heavy. The Kurfurstendamm's pretty
like Italy,
fall.
The
leaves turn.
It's
lot?"
It
with
You paid
Remember
off
some.
it,
see? Well,
paid
off
that, Milton."
some.
"I
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51
can't
said
softly.
Milton cackled.
shut up
all
the time.
suppose Gretchen?"
"No not Gretchen, you dope. Somebody though.
You need it, Milton I'll get it for you."
"I
"When?"
"Tonight."
It
think of that.
It
It
crawled
in his stomach.
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52
your
self-respect.
The Man
said so."
atti-
tude."
The
office
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53
billfold
and a wrist
watch.
"You're supposed to be in Therapy, Terrible Ivan.
What
are
"Me,
"What kind
of business?"
"Never mind.
talked to
kill
It's
at
Therapy won't
me."
"When
will
he be back?"
little pile
at the
Charlie White-
"Paskow
it."
WARD TWENTY
54
do you
He took a
like it?"
He
"God damn,
and
that's
Can do?"
"How
about going
with Meneilley to the Reconditioning Lecture in the
Red Cross? You have ten minutes to make it."
Meneilley snorted. "An' hear some dope spout for
an hour about how he'd do it if he was me?"
"Improve your miftd," Miss Keiffer said.
"My mind's all improved up," Meneilley told her.
"Come
on,"
Paskow
It's
got maggots
Brooklyn Boys."
He
There's no justice in
ain't
for him.
what
fought
It
Jaxon stood in the pillared portico with the sunlight burning into his face. It was good, the feel of it.
Tall, deep chested Jaxon. People looked at him. You
couldn't miss him. He was built like a soldier and he
looked like a soldier. Buck sergeant with all the trimmings. Five gold overseas stripes, the
Combat
Infan-
and three
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55
stars
his
steps to go
his
about
it all
the time at
first.
Do it just
you
as they told
to
it
"Hotel Forsberg."
He had
Dear
Go
written Clara.
Clara.
right there
got a
room
from the
at the
train
when
it
us.
have
used
husband
Jax.
down
bed.
skirt,
elevator,
shut.
bad in spite of the lotion and the red nail-paint. Washing so much. She bent forward and looked at herself
She
wasn't young any more. Two nights in a day coach
showed in spite of rouge and powder. She wished she
in the mirror, fluffing her hair.
Sun-bleached
hair.
56
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"Jax, Jax."
against his
She clung
chest frantically,
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and kissed
57
"Jax, Joxl
"Yes,
Honey
try to say
it.
It'll
held onto her with his big hands, pressing her tightly
with a
desperate masculine insistence. He was still Big Jax
no matter what had happened. He had to be for his
wanted him
self-respect. And she knew he had to be
to her
to be. Pale
under
his tan.
Drawn
in the cheeks.
Hands
getting soft.
But he was still Big Jax the way he had been that
first day she had seen him, so long ago. Big, lanky Jax
in his faded levis, horse legged and burned brown
with the hairs golden on the backs of his hands and his
eyes pale gray under his hat brim.
"I'm looking for Sam Osterholt. He live around
here?"
"He might
tricks.
too."
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58
"No
his head.
"I
and she was embarrassed and uncomfortable. Selfpossession was gone from her and she was just newgrown-up girl again, with no assurance no protection. New-grown-up girl with men around her knowing it and ready to go for it.
nodded. "Thanks."
He
barely
moved, but his roan felt his will and jerked up her
head and started off and he swept his hat on again
with a full arm sweep and there was the cavalier in it
an ancient, easy dignity. Narrow hipped, straight
backed Jax, with his long, slender horse legs and his
lean, brown face. As she watched him, the ancient
knowing came to her the knowledge of women. This
fifty go by, a hundred, and none of
is the way it is
them are the one. And then one comes casually along,
with white teeth and a smile and pale gray eyes and
forevermore, he is. Even years later if you have somebody else, his memory will come back and sit there
smiling on his ghost horse, sweeping his hat off. Even
if he never touches you, that one is always the one
that should have been.
straw between
rail
and the
"
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59
in his eyes.
"Clara,.
man-woman
chatter in me.
want
to
make marriage
h you."
Her
throat
had tightened
at his
slow
dr.
?he
know
Start askin'."
"Asking what I
"Anvthing vou want to know."
'
"I don't
"If
"Sure, Jax."
"Now
tell."
at
'
'Cause
if
vou have
just tell
know
me
it
once and
and it won't
all,
be it
matter. But don't lie about it to me. That's all. Don't
he. Tell me the truth
and 111 be it and it won't matter. Girls can't help it always
quick. Like that.
If I
"Jax
it,
111
shut up'
his
wrist,
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60
Jax."
"Nope. Tonight."
"Tonight then, Jax. Without seeing Dad?"
"Ain't no sneak in me," he laughed. "Let's see him
first and both get th'owed out beforehand so we can
start fresh."
All of that
and
all
"Mama
gettin'
He kissed her.
ever since you and me
"Tell me
thing."
nobody
Always was
He
in
You got
poison.
It's
in
else,
me when
me for
good.
me."
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61
know.
I guess.
He
Women
was
just
me,
always."
little bit,
have, Honey.
baby."
"Don't do that, Jax."
"What?"
"Don't go back out there."
"Sure as hell not," he laughed. "I'm home. Don't
no one ever
"Jax
let
tell
talk
Sure.
got
"Surebut not now."
"Just once have
"Jax
was out
to see."
to see.
Then
I'll
and
know
after
it's
it'll
me. Like
"
"
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62
"Old
Woman" He
huh?"
man,
it ain't.
it?
Jax.
Jax? You're
He
J ax!"
When
they were
"Sure as
hell. I
at
with a band."
"That's
"Well lookmy wife's around here somewheres."
Agua
Prieta
right."
"
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And
63
When
let
that's
drift,
room door.
They were really dusted down now. Jax
hotel
raised his
"Well,
it's
diller,
He
my husband."
lay on the bed, letting her look. Cold sober for
a flash in his mind. She put her hands out and touched
them
"Oh, Jax
"No, you don't get it." He shook his head. "It looks
bad to you. Helpless. Half a man. But I don't feel that
way. I don't feel cut off the way it looks. I'm not lying
tightly.
truth to
all
that
"
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64
and
counts
it
quick.
The
feel of
there
is
to
don't bother
it
it
was
in
all
all
it."
those
"Jax
Her
lips
were
He
it
off. I
got plenty.
Now
cut
out."
"Yes, Jax.
It's
me now.
"That's better,
Old
It's all
Girl."
right."
And
soon
after,
they get
vomit rotten."
"Don't, Jax.
Come
back."
"
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first
night
we were
65
City."
things
like
work and a
work. That's
all
there
is
in
life, I
guess
to
sleep with."
"Jax," she whispered,
"Dad never
sent for
me when
The
my
mind's im-
"How'd
it
war, didn't
start
any war?"
it?"
Schiappas said.
WARD TWENTY
66
lot of
horse cav-
alry."
said.
"Eat your
soup."
sat up.
them words."
PX
beer."
"Why
should
It's
Coun-
don't get
it,"
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67
First Russia
is
whatever the
We
fighting
them
at
first.
do
you know who does what to who and who pays how
much?"
"You know who pays all right," Joe Keenan said.
"Uncle Sugar Able pays, as usual. He reached for the
check again."
Cancellare said, "Italian people
citizens here."
all.
They
soon."
this?"
Cancellare shook his head. "Is not true! Italian people, fine people.
fella."
all
"
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68
come
in the
war because
of Pearl Harbor,"
"You come
in the
war because
of a rope,"
Paskow
Ya
good
to her mother."
tions
WARD TWENTY
head
sadly.
Ward
Communist, who won
Twenty crap
the war.
69
all
day. Socialist,
fine thing.
you
New Guineabut
may have
don't talk to
me
Ding How."
"Languages," Paskow snorted. "So what's the Gumment wasting money on schools for the army for then?
good
Tell
Joes.
me
that."
"if
in ten years to
be a dope,
came
in the front
way and
Ward Twenty,
visi-
because
it
were
down
High
the corridor.
Some
visi-
in already.
heels
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70
her."
up in Key
Proud and humble
tals
to
Ward Twenty.
came almost every night and on Wednesday afternoons. Only Keiffer would have remembered that.
That today was Wednesday, the afternoon Cissie had
off. She saw her turn at the stairwell and start down
the corridor. Cissie Hantz in a red dress with very
high-heeled patent-leather slippers with white leather
went down
meet
There was a
rest room just down the corridor. Cissie must have
felt something, for she stopped when she saw Miss
Keiffer and just stood there, looking helpless, not quite
balanced on her high heels. Miss Keiffer took her arm
and smiled. "I want to talk to you, Cissie."
Eulalia Keiffer
to
her.
"
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"
71
all
over again.
"
*I
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72
"Yes, Cissie."
how
He couldn't bel
drops of aromatic
"We
all
spirits to
quiet her.
"We
member."
Miss Keiffer took her hand in both of hers.
"But what will they do we weren't married yet
haven't anything but a little money
"You don't have to worry," Miss Keiffer said.
I'll
find out
"I'll
and
let
have to go
"
""
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"Just
sit
73
for awhile."
where
work
take you down," Miss
"I'll
thought
damn
want
and she
Keiffer said,
life.
What
a dope.
What a
dope.
"and could
"That's
strictly
so
don't
tell
alone
volleyball outside
on the back
warm
The
earth
lieve
road
to
know
it
is
flat
that, feel
it,
be-
grass, a rut in a
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74
and
stretch your
feel the
whole world
of
against
it
Shades of all the volleyball courts in all the cantonments the country over. Atterbury and Dix, Devens
net.
and
Phillips,
all
rest.
over.
They
rested. "There's a
gimp
girl in d'
Woman's
Ward."
"What
the hell?"
is.
A WAC
corporal.
left
Not bad
Italy. At
knee."
"So
just
WARD TWENTY
"I don't
girls in
75
mine.
want two-
Tm
to
be asked
"A
So
to tell."
fine thing
how do you go
about that?
It's
girl! It's
a laugh.
The details.
"A gimp
don't
ball.
Come on,
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16
Grey Ladies was reading to Milton Halpern. Meredith was using his prosthesis, practising. Picking up, putting down. Frowning, concentrating. Meneilley lay on his bed. "FrischIn
of the
don't
"That's a slug.
How
would a tomato go
said.
for a blind
guy?"
it."
me
to re-
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77
"How'd you
there, both of
breathless, a
lose
them
little
flushed.
to-
Meneilley lay
silent, staring at
he
"It started,"
Then it worked
"What did?"
said,
them.
up."
The women
away and
WARD TWENTY
78
said.
hay
"The guy
kills
in a barn."
"What
are
you trying
me?"
to tell
medical
till
"Did
"He's crazy.
dead
it,
too.
back."
girl."
He went
why he
did
Rouged up her
it
feller in
make
sense
a dead
that's
sense?
My
Gee
farts just
It's
girl."
here
make
of, ain't
it,
Bill?"
it."
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And me, when
I die,
79
Some day
bury 'em."
"Maybe he could
get
it
back on a memorandum
"Naw
thing's expendable.
"It's
Charlie's
"What
it
off
Not
own
here, though."
it's
"Maybe
some cockeyed
system like that. Only suppose it was in a guy's religion
so he'd be all together on Judgment Day?
you're right. They'd have
Maybe he
been ignoring."
my
religion the
Army's
WARD TWENTY
80
"Such as what?"
"Such as when do you make that
phone call to Dorothy for Milton?"
"Come
on.
We
make
the
God damn
tele-
call, Persistent."
Fasquale always
felt
that
That the
and became good and the badness of the world was
kept from him. Brian Sheehy was of the Congregation
of the Holy Ghost and he knew far places, Tanganyika
and the jungle-bound headwaters of the Marguerita.
Kandy and the grass villages along the Sundra Straits.
Missionary turned temporary army chaplain. Box
fighter turned priest. Kid Sheehy, slugging it out well
in all the middle-weight rings in the East until Monsignor O'Grady got him and talked his belligerent
virility back into Mother Church. Father Sheehy had
never regretted it, for it was a continuing bigger fight
and that's all he was or ever would be a fighter with
two ham hands and a wide, simple brain for the understanding of the problems that beset everyone for
their solving, as well as another can solve them.
But Italians always escaped the forthright heritage
of his County Waterford mind. They were Catholics
but they thought differently, acted differently. A volatile delicateness, perhaps
a greater adherence to the
letter of ritual rather than the strong knowledge
mind
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81
and
and
spirit.
way some
can be very seamy. Very disappointing at times. It's a hard fight in a tough ring. Cancellare
people are not very good in this world. A priest
has to try to make them good, to talk them good, scare
people see
it.
It
them good. Even kick them good. And then comes his
own doubt sometimes. Is he good enough himself to
do this? Wise enough? Kind enough? Maybe you
"
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82
go too far
"Look, Father. Thees is me. Thees is how I think.
I'm what you call good boy." He smiled bashfully. "I
of his
own
life.
it
as he'd
because
what
to tell you.
much
much
over many
yourself
schooling
It's
this
years, perhaps.
and a
priest
somehow for
You haven't had
out
"
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83
Not
it.
as
why you
say
all this
know
it
so
it
really
isr
"Yes, Father."
you, my
and
son, nor to
for
it
find
anyone who
it."
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84
Grogan
on
her side against them, keeping the mild pressure on
them as you keep it on children. Frischling, Daley,
Meredith, Meneilley, Cancellare, Paskow, Schiappas,
Halpern, and Keenan.
"Push 'em up, Tony!" She rapped on the washroom
orderlies,
now, Paskow?"
Miss Keiffer.
"Please,
A man
privacy."
"Schiappas
here. So
is
yours, Daley.
Snap
into
your tray
later
it.
is
ling.
have a squad
it."
should
jockeying for position, jamming chair wheels, pushing for place, taking the passage turn in high, smelling
WARD TWENTY
hospital not a auction sale. Rest
We
85
and
quiet,
we
need.
delicate/'
went
Pillsbury
in to feed Meredith.
Kountze went
mont
Today
We
easy.
we
start
you
scientific job."
he throws
it
money is/'
"He needs
in the can.
it,
his
than horse-racing?"
Meredith
with
What
are
to
do
it?"
"I
if I
"Why, yes."
"A fine life! Spouting a
lot of
corny
stuff
from
books."
"Someone has
at
do
it,
done?
the world. All kinds of education the world
Look
to
of
it
"
WARD TWENTY
86
has and
all it
and
Science, too
all it
way
of living,
a greater
make
faster airplanes."
we may
attain to a better
does
it is
is
other/'
down
to
Meneilley's bed.
her.
It's
an
is
the bring-the-Baby-to-see-
no place
this
want
for a kid
a gimp ward."
baby, Meneilley?"
"No."
"You're going to see him, then."
what there
is
isn't in that."
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"Keiffer
look.
You
87
age, Keiffer?"
man! Talking a
lady's age!
social gentle-
fine thing.
And me
Cadillacs.
Butlers,
so
should
Communism
except
to live on."
gets
getting mixed.
mixed when
it
It's
give."
it
starts!"
How
obsolete!"
should go to Heaven?"
said.
"Smart sayings."
WARD TWENTY
88
said. "Social-
ized medicine/'
"You come
in.
ized. All
graft.
Find out what's wrong with you, each his specialty. Fix you up
all run by the State. Socialized
over.
medicine."
enough
Army."
They pump
it
out of
socialized blood to
my
transfer
My blood's my own.
the battleship
blood, Chicago.
Wyoming
float
WARD TWENTY
"Most
it
women
are
New
89
They
Dealers.
plow
rather
under."
"A
fine thing.
Paskow got
Always smart
We
talk
with dinner!"
jumper and
"Come
on,
Schiap.
Get Milton
move
on,
Frisch."
It's
six."
know
got ants."
We
take a pillow in
my
"Take
it
chair for
I tie
grass.
your shoes."
maybe we
you on the
said.
it."
Sometimes the
ing visiting
came
WARD TWENPr
90
one and brought the rest to see him and meet his pals.
Sometimes they just made a mistake and said, "Hello/*
and
after that
it
wasn't a mistake.
it
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91
corn, Spearmint,
in October.
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92
God-damned
own
fly,
Can you
feed yourself,
wipe your
Paskow led
Benny
off,
front."
"O.K. O.K.
Where
the tomatoes?"
what
I like!"
stop outside.
They were
girls.
Dorothy and
WARD TWENTY
93
Janet and Rose and Gerry. Standing there and laughing at something and then seeing Paskow and Schiap-
how's
it
knowing
it.
with a born
But the
instinct
was there
a man,
man you
but these
it
out
in hell
and take
it.
There was a deep fierceness in Dorothy about that. She was older and older
at the game. "They arent cripples! Damn you, Marylynne, don't use that word. Those boys at the hospital
still
take
it.
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94
men
alive.
They took
They
want to.
it.
Dorothy Rosso from Newark. Just a shade of softness at her waistline. Flabbing a little bit from late
hours and too much to drink on hotel parties. You had
to, sometimes, still, when they were perspiring and fat
handed and fumbling. Painted and lipsticked, with
deep maroon fingernails like lacquered claws. A long
way on the road at twenty-four, fading a little at the
edges and hating the thought of what came next.
Awakening in the morning with the faint steel thread
of fear drawn across her. Living each day to denv it.
Remembering her mother, when she was plastered,
and hating her lying denials. Green-flowered wall
paper and gin and rusty bed springs. Men. Damn
Forget
it
there's to-
Tony
meet you before? With Bill
Schiappas. "Didn't
Meredith?"
me
but not
like you're
going to meet
tonight, Babe.
middle the
tickets?"
WARD TWENTY
"The one standing," Dorothy
bandage?"
"Yea, yea.
Tough
said,
95
"with the face
deal."
like
it?"
here before?"
"Once
her.
She won't
talk."
"I
time, see?
Milton.
"Hello, Milton."
"Hello."
Janet,
my
particular
"
WARD TWENTY
96
Benny
Frischling. Schiappas
dug
"I
know
St. Jo.
Kansas City
"I've
"I
Cali-
fornia?"
Moving
pictures.
to see Holly-
The studios."
a phony
been taken
WARD TWENTY
97
Tony Schiappas.
"Milton," Tony said, "have
give
my pal
a drink. Here,
Janettoo.
He's
a tanker."
"You got
got a
lot.
Don't
All kinds."
I'll
in
You having
you a patch.
the Army. Remind
give
saij it!"
Frischling lay
head on Rose
his
home
in St. Jo,
Missouri."
"A
in
California,
boat."
a boat."
"
WARD TWENTY
98
"Maybe
"Like so much."
"Boats are good," Frischling said. "Sea boats. Not
them glass yachts rich guys have. They're a laugh.
MeI
tin cans?"
said.
"That
only
Me,
ain't
I
my
kind of
sold her.
The
Sally K."
"Who's she?"
"It's just a name. It was on her when I bought her.
Bad luck to change names. I been all the way to
Mexico in her. Mazatlan and Guaymas and Acupulco."
"Ya kiddin'."
"I'm telling you," Frischling said, "and I'm going
again, some day. Maybe to Australia
the South Seas
over
all
"What do you
look like?"
WARD TWENTY
"Not so much, Milton/'
"Go on. Tell me. Let yourself
with murder."
giggled,
"Fat
girls,"
You got
"Sure
"maybe
in the
You can
get
away
chance of a lifetime."
go.
99
got
brown
hair.
And
wrong
places."
like.
Klucks.
a nice voice."
like a
fog horn."
it.
"Toledo."
"Where's that?"
"How do you
You
New
"I ain't
like that?
from
New
"There'll always
be
shall
"Touch
my face,"
Milton said.
warmth
of
hand
it
flat
against his
to kid
me."
You been
in this racket
long?"
for a
said
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100
happens. That's
all,"
for."
and
there it was, all of it right there with them and it
wasn't too bad. A little frightening when you were
alone at night and couldn't make head or tail out of
where it was going. But not too bad
"How
it
"Eighteen."
"Go
"How many
years ago?"
Why
was eighteen
Milton. Don't be like this," and
should
I lie? I
month. Be nice,
she put her hand on his face again.
"It dark yet?"
Nerve chills raced in her wrists and armpits. "Not
last
"A
fast worker.
a fast worker."
for overtime,"
Paskow
told her.
"
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101
been to
Where were you
it.
said,
it; it
ain't
ain't polite."
Paskow said, "I like you. You talk back. I hate dumb
women. You got character. Come sit on my stumps
and tell Poppa how you first went wrong."
Gerry said, "You murder me. You're funny. Ha. Ha.
You're a wit a half-wit. Hey, Rose, look what I got.
A bright boy. A funny boy. Funny in the head. Don't
be a mauler, Ivan you think I want to look like I
been through the wringer?" He had her flat on the
grass, leaning over her on one elbow, breathing in
her face.
said.
"Relax
"Quiet!"
"Take
Wait
it
it
out a bit
till it
gets dark."
"Pass
me the bottle."
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102
"So take
Paskow
five/'
told Gerry
and he
rolled over
don't get
girl's
stacked
it,"
guy wants
to rip
it
right
girl gets
off.
a swell dress.
That's a compliment.
it.
five
minutes, Everready.
ask.
When
bottle. Terrible
need medicine, I
need. When you ready,
I
at the stars,
Schiap?
then?"
been to Mars
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103
thing
fast.
Schiap!
We
We
getting refined.
talking
now
It
was
were and in the windows of the buildings behind. There was laughter far down the lawns and the
sound of footsteps on the cement paths. A car motor,
and gravel sighing against tires.
"It's funny," Schiappas said. "Milton, he's up and
down. Sometimes depressed. Sometimes happy. You
lights
can understand
you?"
"Sure," she said. "Wouldn't you be, too? Everybody's like that, even if they're O.K. Up and down.
that, can't
human."
"But Bill Meredith
It's
the
to
air.
he
ain't half as
happy
all
bad
the time.
off as
Mil-
Way up
in
It ain't right
at the top
some
day."
it,
guess.
"
104
WARD TWENTY
love him.
polite,
two days
after I
love Milton."
them
said,
that there
is
sometimes.
"Geez, Dorothy
you meant
like
and
And
after awhile
it!"
he
She nodded
for free.
You do something
to
me.
They had
darkness.
privacy.
Benny Frischling
"You Jewish,
ain't
you,
ain't.
said,
Rose?"
"Half."
Not
half.
Not a
quarter.
You
Jewish."
"My
father
was Jewish.
"How'd
it
Jewish
girls
happen?"
what?"
"
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105
"So what's to
tell. It
"It shouldn't
happen
girls,
to a
Jewish
see? That's
don't happen."
it
my
girl. I
been
fight-
All
it?
tied
"So what
what they
if I
am?
all
of a sudden!"
know
Always
say.
a Jew,
Me, I'm no
but.
buts. I'm as
good
as
anybody!"
"Who
said
"Nobody
you weren't?"
better. I
still
got arms.
If I can't fight
'em
you
like
gotta. It
beat
it.
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106
get a disease."
"How do you
"Benny the
Reformer."
I
m serious.
"You afraid
me
all
way up
the
Suddenly he
don't
want
it.
open.
here to
tell
now?
me
Is that it?
You
get
this?"
want
it.
girl."
He
been fighting
Maybe I'm screwy. Maybe I'm cracked wide
ain't a disease.
for this.
got a disease
Maybe
Nothing.
It's
belong in
principle. I
Ward
pathway.
Benny
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107
Paskow
thing
when you
"You sure
as hell
some-
get going/'
yousel"
"Ivan
it's
"Hey, Schiap
a night of
it.
let's
Let's
me."
make
make
A.W.O.L. What can
a night of
go the hell
it.
Let's
they do?"
Schiappas
over.
Schiappas
"
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108
Tm
way down by
"
you
A fine
all
go
thing."
Paskow
said,
and
the Corporals and
Miss
W O Ones.
their bastard sons."
at seven o'clock.
She
Ward
WARD TWENTY
Twenty for the night
came on, she caught
hours.
From
109
Keenan
on
it's
his bed,
despicable.
mon woman.
You
like a
com-
it
now.
She unlocked the medicine cabinet and checked
evening medication. She checked the Ward list, sitting prim and straight backed at her desk. Jaxon,
three-day pass. Everybody else in. Suddenly she saw
the notation after Charlie Whitehead. For a moment
she thought it must be a mistake. She was young.
Then she knew it wasn't and she was desperately
sorry in a quick wave of feeling.
There was a child's voice in the passage outside the
office and the tap of knuckles on the door panels. "I'm
Mrs. Meneilley. Is it all right for me to go in and see
my husband?"
Miss Mahon nodded. "What a nice boy." She smiled
and reached out to touch the youngster's chubby arm.
He drew in his arms and legs and shrank into his
mother staring at Miss Mahon stolidly, his big eyes
and his pursed mouth sunk in the folds of his baby
stop
face.
"Go 'way."
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110
"No, she's not. She's the nurse. She's good and she
likes you.
Be
nice, Ralphie/'
"No," he said.
Miss
way down
your
wife's here
off
Miss
eyes to
embarrassed.
A grown woman
had dressed up
trifle
had
little
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what,
why
or
what time
of
day
it
111
rumpled gray
suit
it,
too.
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112
only
it
"Come
this
on, Fatso."
"I got a
book on
it."
"He
looks
all
moved one
foot
tentatively
said.
his
hand and
want
to see
him
3
WARD TWENTY
Hey
Ralph
1 1
listen,"
own
minds.
"He
looks
all right,
don't he?"
his feet in
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114
he's here,
the rest of
I'll
my life.
clean record,
way through. I'm studying traffic management right now on my own. Clipped out an ad for
see? All the
it.
land-Cushing as soon as
inspector and go right
see,
up the
him.
ladder.
I like
maybe
buy
as
an
this kid,
mind what
know now."
if
all.
way
my
heart. All I
was talking
band
to
get around to
it."
has
me
or maybe you're
just letting
about
on they have.
don't
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but
know which
it
just
115
that's
all.
Too bad."
"I
at
suppose
want
to
marry you
one time?"
"How
could he marry
me?
I'm a
erans
wounded veteran. Nobody sues wounded vetand gets away with it. Not even a woman. The
come,
just as
fifty
years to
politi-
either."
picture."
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116
like Gilhoolie,"
Meneilley
told her.
women. So did
the
women. So did
you.
And
"No
should accept
it.
All of
it.
My
it
it
may
out of
legs, too
and
just
make my
"Who
letters if
plans."
wrote you
it isn't all
all
these things?
Show me
the
lie."
with it!"
She sat there very still, watching his eyes. The rouge
on her lips was stark in the paleness of her face.
WARD TWENTY
Ralphie was coiled
down
117
gone
pinching
his eyes
her handkerchief.
She
said,
get over
it
"Ralph
you're pretty
somehow.
It isn't
bitter
you better
go on this way."
"Never mind how I go on," he said. "Just get the
idea of how you re going on. That's all. Because that's
the way it's going to be. Maybe we can make something out of it someday. Maybe we can't, but anyway that's the way it's going to be. You can take him
now but bring him back. Tomorrow, maybe. Maybe
it's better in the afternoons. But bring him back."
Geraldine reached for the baby and lifted him up
against her without awakening him completely. She
to
moment
uncertainly.
"Good
night,
Ralph."
"Good
night," he said.
little bit."
"Why
are
you
sitting
with me?"
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118
It's
nice here.
I like
the night
have
"Milton
It
to soon."
would you
like to kiss
me?"
felt his
He
away from her, drawing his legs in, getting to his feet by pressing his back against the tree
and levering himself up. She stood up with him, presspulled
me
"Leave
go,"
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would
be. I
was a
little
119
frightened, I guess
maybe
Baby
He
on
"It's early."
his
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120
"They're going."
"Don't ask
it,
much."
"Tell
me anyway. Somehow I
gotta know."
but
"O.K., Milton
of
because I
at
a Coffee Pot in Toledo. Last year only. The fella who
owns it ain't young any more but he's always making
wisecracks and passes at me. Fresh. Most of the time
I can slap him off. But he don't stop. I know and I
it,
never have
you believe
that,
Milton?"
"Go ahead.
I'll
tell
you
after,
what
believe."
bitter.
So go ahead."
on the griddle
"Whafs he done?"
"
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121
So go on.
"Well, at times
I try to
think I'm
wrong
in the hospital.
know
I'm right.
comes
to see
me
all
bad that
way-
about
the
it.
Pot"
"The bastard."
"No. Don't get
was good
in his
the picture
me
way.
wrong.
He
"The bastard."
"All right, Milton."
"Go on with
it."
And he
admits
it.
So
done, Milton."
"still
not understand-
ing"
"Understanding what? You're sleeping with him,
ain't you?"
"Never like it sounds. Never all night. And pretty
soon I'm getting nervous all the time and crying to
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122
mad
quick."
My
Dorothy where
know what
met
she
and a good
friend. One night I'm out with her and we meet a
couple soldiers from Claiborne. Nice kids. Mine and
I get talking and fooling around and when he gets all
excited he's still nice and he's a soldier maybe going
to get killed and I figure what have I got to lose now,
and I'm still sore at that Greek even if he was good to
me after, and maybe I figure I can wipe out the memMilton and then I find out. Gee, did
ory, so I give
I find out. He liked to kill me, the soldier."
"What do you mean, he liked to kill you?"
"Milton believe it or not I'm still a virgin and all
the time thinking I wasn't. Gee was I dumb! The
soldier wanted to marry me, but I wouldn't let him.
He stayed A.W.O.L. until I sent him back. I didn't
is,
but
I like
like
him
either."
"You're crazyl"
you I was."
"You see him again?"
"No. All the time he wrote. I wrote some. Then he
went overseas. A long time ago. I guess he's dead. I
didn't get any more letters."
"I told
"
"
WARD TWENTY
"How many
123
since?"
I told
And
asked me.
wouldn't
stinker.
anvone's business
It ain't
"It ain't
give
"Don't
tell
anyone
else
gave
to you, because
if
they did.
mine, either."
"You asked it
you asked me."
"So
to
be yours.
it
it
Milton.
call,
It's
and
late
he's gone.
So
is
Paskow."
"What'd they do go off and leave me?"
"I can take you in. They thought Benny took you.
Don't call the M.P.'s '11 come. And they'll throw me
out."
"What time
is
it?"
"After ten."
"They ought
if
to
be looking
"Milton
hell
got an
idea. Gee,"
we
let
a path
for
"
WARD TWENTY
124
The other path goes around to a door inside. Inthere's an elevator up. Take me in and ring the
path.
side
elevator
"Sure, Milton,
"That's
if
it
comes."
all right."
all,
"What else
Milton?"
is
there?"
me good
"Kiss
night, Milton."
"Go ahead."
She kissed him.
"Look," he said.
you, Kid.
"Milton,
Forget
it.
believe
you the
You
truth.
good.
I feel
Damn
Janet."
"You make
I
Milton.
laughed.
Down
his arm.
down, Milton.
Now
"Why
it."
not?"
in the shaft
and
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125
he felt the rush of air at his ankles as the car slid downward. The car stopped and the doors opened in front
of him. "Halpern," he said. "Ward Twenty. Take
me
up."
thing?"
The
elevator
"How's
man
full at
Milton.
'at?"
future."
Here we
are. I taik
you down
to
th'
No
The bed
either.
all
Where
are
Paskow and
He
him around.
And he felt strength in himself. He would do what
Father Sheehy had told him to do. He would work
and study and go to a good Catholic college and
some day he would know the truth feel it inside him.
closing out the world from him, ringing
WARD TWENTY
126
The long rows of tomato plants stretched up the sloping field away from him. The black soil was warm and
between
laughing Mother
was up there at the other end. Waiting. Holy Mary
soft
his big,
Mother of God.
Daley lay still with the radio earphones on, listening. Chuckling silently and grinning to himself. He
never got enough radio, Daley. At home, he'd always
turned the radio on first, as soon as he came in. Someon before he turned the light on.
And he'd let it blast full on while he did
Any
station.
other things.
it
Read
He
never
He
if
he got a serious
He
talk.
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127
off,
and every-
was unbelievable that people could. No respect for the privacy of their bodies. She washed
Milton's neck and face and chest. She brushed his
teeth and combed his hair back.
"Where am I going now?" Milton grunted.
"To sleep. Do you want something to help you?"
thing. It
"No," he said,
"I'll
sleep.
He yawned. "Good
Them
pills is
habit form-
Mahon. Thanks."
Meneilley was asleep. She could hear him snoring
behind her. He'd done his work, solved his problem
for the day, so he slept sprawled and uncoiled in his
ing."
night,
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128
having to
my
call
someone
to help you.
Independence
is
motto."
they'll
report card?"
dith.
But
Known
it
for days.
Am
a doctor?
A nurse?
No.
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129
but
can't say what. Mahon take
arms
his
plain, only I
it is
off
deeper.
He
pillow.
"Good
rolled over
night."
on
He
Mahon
his back.
lay
still,
patted his
listening to
Mere-
cold,
of lightning. I'm a
a
guy; I'm a
can be an
navigator! Commercial ships around
Telling them where they
the world,
where
be nextholding the whole
the palm
dith's
like
flash
it
sailor.
little
air
are,
after.
flight in
they'll
my hand.
Figuring
it,
and
too
Miss
knowing
I will
Mahon
get
it.
it!
crossed the
all
Ward
She stood back from the bed, out of reach of his arms.
He lay there watching her eyes, not moving. "Not
friends any more, are we, Pat?" he said softly.
"Don't be silly now, Joe."
"All evening
you never came near me."
"I've been busy, Joe. We have two A.W.O.L.'s and
we
expect a convoy."
spoken
to
"
"
"
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130
thing, one
the office."
in there
any more
talking
at night," she
all
all
corked
off,
can
Joe
"Listen. I'm nice to you.
I
t,
don't
come close to
now. You know I'm
don't dare
ing
right.
for
you
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131
ness, his
bitch
"Go
hand out
of bed,
fist
clenched. "You
we'll all
little
go to
her
first
was
duty stretched out endlessly before her in a procession she could not see the end of. She'd done the job
before and it looked now as if she'd always draw it
as long as she stayed at the hospital. She was neat,
Miss Charbonneau, and compact in a hundred and
thirty-two pounds of competence and common horse
sense.
on foot, in the silent corridors with the lights dim and life sleeping in great
massed quietude throughout all the silent buildings
that sprawled under the night sky. The telephone
of wards,
rang.
Would they go
"It's
the
town?"
heard of them.
into
first I've
Who
are they?"
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132
town
or
call the
Provost Marshal's
anyway."
We've been
I'll
call
all
over the
the Provost
Marshal."
The telephone
rang.
Trens-
fer?"
The telephone
rang.
"Mabel who?"
the blonde
"Just Mabel
"This
"The
self,
is
kid."
the hospital."
hell
you
say.
Toots?"
"Sitting
up with some
The telephone
sick friends."
rang.
Ward Two.
ston as soon as
"I'll
want him
he can."
to look in
on General Cran-
The telephone
rang.
WARD TWENTY
133
hell, Sister.
you?"
Miss Charbonneau stood up and looked at the
clerk she had drawn. "Look. This is my
blowsy
course," and she picked up a pencil and stood in front
of the floor plan on the wall. "I keep moving down
this way clockwise through the floor. It brings the
wards up in numerical rotation. See. Allow about an
hour and fifteen minutes to each floor. It's nine-thirty
now. If anything comes in on the phone that you can't
handle, make a rough estimate of the elapsed time
since I left
call a ward on the estimate and if I
WAC
ward back.
If I've
you
want me at a quarter to eleven that's an hour and
a quarter from now " Miss Charbonneau put the
pencil point firmly on Ward Nine. "Call Ward Nine.
Hold the wire on your call and call me on this phone.
Get it?"
"All but clockwise. What's clockwise, Ma'am?"
Miss Charbonneau stared at her. "The way the
hands of a clock go. Roughly, from left to right."
The WAC clerk looked at the clock. "Oh. Around?
That way? I get it."
"Any trouble you can shoot yourself shoot."
"Yes, Ma'am."
left
call
the next
instance. If
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134
routine of
watch
All of
it
it
like a
under
control. All of
it
orderly.
it
Then
quiet.
it
hap-
Seven and a half miles. Ninethirty to one-thirty. Everything. Life and death and
half-life. Everything. Every night.
pens. Everything.
"Hello, Lieutenant/'
"Hello, Cassidy. Let's go." She'd only
once,
when
needed him
Army Medical
else,
Cassidy?"
"Sure. Once.
I tried.
But
make
wanted
boat that runs between
I didn't
it.
on the ferry
Governor's Island and the Battery." He tagged along
behind, soft footed and red handed, slightly stooped
and foetid mouthed, with the stale quid in his cheek
and his G.I. plates. "General Cranston ain't so well,
they say. Great old fella, the General. 'Member him
to
be a
sailor
WARD TWENTY
135
Red
"Why do I have
Maw? I only eat with
of
my hands,
the fronts.'
soldier.
Stand-
Drawing away
suddenly, the soldier fumbling awkwardly. They got
her out, Charbonneau and Cassidy, and packed the
soldier off. Cassidy saw it and stepped on it with his
big foot. Standing there on it, thinking Charbonneau
hadn't seen it. But she had and ignored it. Ignored
ing there in the dark of the landing.
it.
Charbonneau looked
in at
it,
listened to
its
in
and out
banks with the golden hair and the soft skin and the
mind of a rakehell inside her competent professional
touch with everything. She never missed a trick, or a
man. But never patients.
The
clerk got her on the phone in Ward
WAC
Eight.
"Lieutenant
the
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136
I'll
take care of
it."
One
pillow vacant
little
in
life
in
WAC
Made new
ones himself.
Show me
a medical officer
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137
officer's
All surgical."
"Good
girl.
Warn them
to see
if
they have
of estimated time of
have
it
set
up
right
away
if
to.
Ward
came down
heavy wire
A big
M.P. sergeant
"Who
is
it?"
first
to
WARD TWENTY
138
up from her
desk. "Hello,
Charbonneau smiled. "Three times, and I get permanent possession. How's everything?"
"Quiet night," Fitchett grinned. "We had a singer
for awhile, earlier. Mother Macree
and an orator.
Ask the sergeant."
a rubber-lipped grin.
sudden it didn't
make no sense either. We hadda wet pack him."
"I'll go through," Charbonneau said.
It
The sergeant
all
of a
"We got
He hardly
warn you.
peacherino. Bed Nine on the
He
can
better
spit in
When
are
left.
feet."
said.
lone waters where the lights are false and fixed and
WARD TWENTY
139
buoy
bells
a stinking whore!"
"Charlie, Charlie take
easy, Charlie. You'll wake
"She's a
whore
it
everybody up."
The man
"A whore
whispered confidentially.
"O.K., Charlie. Quiet now." Butch slipped back to
"
WARD TWENTY
140
He
into the
open
air at
red at the
lips
down
in
its
"
"
WARD TWENTY
141
Clelland!"
"Take
it
easy, Soldier."
Old "Falstaff" Crossley, fat and homely and enthusiastic after years of it. "The crop was ten today between
noon and seven o'clock and probably two more before
dawn. Mass production, Charbonneau. Mass production. Let me tell you one. Two young Army wives here
veddy, veddy West Point and one says to the
other, 'My goodness, you're large. I believe you're going to have twins.' The other one says, 'Well, there are
none in either family as far as I know. You only have
them once in a hundred thousand times.' 'Gracious!'
the first one says. 'When do you get any time to do
your housework?'
The telephone rang and Crossley stepped to
"You told
me
that, Crossley
three
it.
months ago"
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It
was the
want
to
know."
"Thank you. Anything else? All right. I'll be in Reception next. The convoy's due/'
She told Cassidy.
"Gosh," he said, "that's too bad. A fine old gentleman. A real soldier. I remember him in the Philippines.
He dates back to Indian fighting days. Did you know
that,
Lieutenant?"
"No."
"Yep.
He was
a second lieutenant
way back
He had
in
the
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The two new men they put
in
143
Germany. The heavy motor vibration of the last eighteen hours was still a strong echo in
their bodies and their minds cleared slowly to the
distance they had come. They were clean now and the
realization of that was something to grovel in, something to lie quietly in as you lie in bed on Sunday
morning. Beyond that and the subconscious knowledge that they were badly hurt, there was very little
of the fighting in
They
had clouded
lay
their
in the thin
still
minds ever
since,
them down the silent, dimly-lit corridors, rolled them into the darkened Ward. Miss
Mahon and the orderlies shifted them from the trucks
to their beds. Atkinson next to Daley. Stroup between
Keenan and Halpern.
Keenan woke up and lay there listening, not moving. He saw Mahon between the two beds but there
was a medical officer there, too, and another nurse, so
he didn't reach out and touch her. They stepped up
to the office, and the head on the pillow moved
blankets, rolled
slightly,
"Say, Bud.
bottle
got to
squirt."
"I'll
pressed
at the
until
head of
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144
nose, his cheek,
of his chin
of his pillow.
outlined
it
"Damned
if
rightly
God-damned B
2's
came over
voice trailed
" his
off.
"What
"What
if
2's?"
Mahon came
is it,
B
in
and snapped
off
Joe?"
Keenan
He
could hear
the hell?"
"
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"I
"All
who
all
145
she wrote."
wrote."
too.
First
gangplank."
"I'll tell
till it
"Aw for
Christ sake
talk.
Red."
down
the
stairs.
Miss
Stroup's
Mahon
war
to her
146
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its
the
Ward
And then a
a
Nambu
The Ward was quiet, but Miss Mahon knew that Joe
Keenan was still awake. Just lying there thinking in
the darkness. And she knew what it was he was think-
WARD TWENTY
147
of.
about her.
It
was
all
too
silly.
Men had
never
thrown
little girl
it
chance
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148
intrinsic
woman who
isn't
woman.
falsity
a grown
chromium
tell
still air.
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Screaming, whimpering
light.
Quaking
inside.
Laughing
149
when he was
caught.
quick plan
of escape.
it
gathering
it
always in sleep.
He
it
could
do that so
ing
it.
easily for
Clutching
it
now
throwing
dislike
its
back into
was
its
teeth forevermore.
know.
The new man, Atkinson, stolid and flat in induced
sleep. Oblivious still to what the world had in store
for him when he finally came out of it enough to take
Is that so?
Well,
there, see? I
stock.
Cancellare, his
low, his
far
little
beyond
chubby
boy's hands
it
in a vague, delicious
on the
all this
pil-
living
dream
that he
that
was
it
all
right
it,
Knowing
flat
if
Schiappas
still
not
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150
Gone
somewhere, daring whatever consequences there might be. Exempt from consequences.
Milton Halpern. She stepped close to Milton and
listened to his breathing. Milton was asleep. He lay
awake mostly at night and slept in the daytime. She
had sat with him and talked to him in whispers, but
not tonight. He was asleep, easily asleep, lying there
with his lips and the muscles of his face slack. Not
knowing any of it now except the sweet oblivion that
located.
held him in
off
its
pleasant arms.
by
ing of
his shot.
Sprawled
in
it.
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151
all
right, Joe?"
I'm not
"No
all right.
You took my
chair away.
Mahon
it
moment
office
and
medicine
cabinet, fingered the keys in her skirt pocket. There
was so little left to do now until it was time to make
the early round with morning medication. She had
stood for a
had made
her rounds. Of course they might bring Schiappas and
Paskow in before morning but they had probably gone
off to town and wouldn't turn up until tomorrow. Twothirty by the clock in the office. The slow night mintwo
letters to write.
The night
supervisor
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152
down
the passage.
"Can
troubled.
seem able
and looked
come
at him.
at the office
don't
to sleep."
She shrugged.
He
"If
you want
to."
Sneak one."
She shook her head.
Really
have.
haven't
"I've stopped.
smoked
He
lit
Completely.
in a week."
his
That's
why
I'm sorry."
talk as plain.
"Well,
get
let's
To
paw you."
it
any more.
it."
"I can't
girl,
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153
of it"
"Joe
to tell
me all this.
Noth-
tell
you."
He
him.
got."
to shut
smiled.
lived a lousy
He punched
that with
it's
if
life,
what
"It's like
until
too late."
"Don't feel like that, Joe. Don't say things like that."
"Why not? If they're true?"
"They're not true
He
his
knew
"
"
"
"
"
WARD TWENTY
154
his as they
always did.
me, Patno
all this
right!
"Let
me
"Who
says so?
way
think or
you
to,
this
me
to."
Joe!"
You
until
don't.
you
You want me
can't breathe
to hold onto
until you
can't
"
listen
little
frantically,
fool
this
'11
'11
It's late.
to
"
WARD TWENTY
moving the
chair, turning
it
155
wheeling
it
out with
"Joe
to."
He was
breathless. Steel
arms
in the darkness.
She tore away from him with sudden strength, going back against the wall, her hands flat against its cool
smoothness, gasping. "I love you, Joe but I can't
cant.
"Come
here/'
He was
On
the
bed
somehow.
"No, Joe."
"Come
here, Pat."
wall. "Joe
know," he
said, "until
you do
here?"
An end
steel
mented
it,
Ward, crashed
its
splintering in frag-
calling
and
"
WARD TWENTY
156
all
down
the
Ward
when Mahon ran in. Meredith was on the floor, thrashing his prosthesis impotently at Frischling's head.
got
it.
Hold him
"No
this!
I'm not
I'll kill
still!"
you son of a
bitch.
I'll kill
you
for
you!"
Keenan was in
"What th' Christ?"
Joe
was
sharp.
"
"
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"It's all right,
157
"On
his
way."
Mahon. I don't
know how I got onto it. It's sort of a half dream still.
He was fooling with the razor off and on all day while
he was practising picking up and putting down. Then
I seemed to have dreamed he was cutting himself. Or
maybe I half woke up and saw him, only under the
covers and all, I don't see how. Maybe I smelt the
blood. But I knew. It's in a who-done-it book we read
the big artery in the leg. You go out almost as fast
as you cut ya throat
so I leapt for him and pulled
him outa bed and yelled
Meredith lay still under them. "I hadda right! I
don't have to put up with what I got. I don't have to
put up with anything I don't want. It's a free country.
I'm an American. I can do as I please. Leave me alone
you can't stop me. I'll do it again
"Shut up, Bill," Benny said. "Ya nuts. Don't get
Frischling said,
"It's just
luck, Miss
nutsier."
who
set
Bill.
you
to look after
You got no
right,
me?"
right to cut
everybody's
got the right to stop you, see? Ain't that right, Miss
Mahon?"
"Don't
talk. I've
got
it
stopped,
I think.
See
if
the
me to Ward Thirteen!
I'll
said.
"Send
do
again
it
me
first
away. Send
chance I get
"
WARD TWENTY
158
but
"
111 get
"Shut up,
you
first,
Frischling!"
Bill.
You
kill
yourself.
let go.
you're a darb
let
him
Mahon
at her skirt. It
fierce pride
surged in
come
quite
oblivious of
Keenan now
as
he was of her.
ground
floor.
down
in the
back elevator
last of
to the
where the
nigh): air
WARD TWENTY
"Spicious basserds.
Who
159
lockit?"
"Genmercato prolly."
"Whos gonna get outa morgue? WhasidearP
Spi-
cious basserds."
appas pointed.
"Jeez Chris'. If
ain't ol'
it
Cassidy.
My
oF college
growth."
"I
"Let
know. Don't
me
tell
guess.
Twenty?"
"Brigirl,"
Paskow
"The key
to
said.
what?"
"T'd'morgue, d'morgue!"
"Is there
"S'full!"
someone
Schiappas
in there?"
Ya heard of
makes perfec."
practissin'
g'night.
We
He
Tellim
almos' gotta
it's
about time
we
told everybody
we
did?
four o'clock."
"StoeZZidear.
hospill. Tell
evbody
g'night."
WARD TWENTY
160
chair and started the uphill push to the forward elevators. Miss
slight
body
to
Paskow's chair.
gotta date."
"You've had
all
it,"
these things?"
"Shut up," Cassidy hissed. "The both of youse. People are asleep." And he kept them quiet until the elevator
was almost up
to their floor.
They
sat there in
lowed
"Oh
be no promos/itm
This side of the oshun
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