47, who has had more than his fair share of collective highs and lows along the way. From living a life of upper-middle class comfort and security, down the insidious road to divorce and sudden loss of his job, Matthews experience is a testament to the everevolving nature of life, and the bleak uncertainties that remain hidden around every corner. This is the story of one mans journey on the path of rebuilding in the aftermath of chaos and destruction. Embracing the ephemeral nature of pain and despair, Matthew remains focusedriding the waves of change as any man should: calm, collected, and balanced.
t is almost noon in Los Angeles as I walk out of my apartment to a peculiarly
overcast day, but the mood is far from dreary for my uncle Matthew Gideon, 47, who greets me at a nearby coffee shop with a boyish grin and conspicuous enthusiasm. I think Ive just met my future wife! he quips, as he pulls out his phone and shows me a picture of an attractive blonde woman. Embracing the facets of internet dating, Matthew is reeling from his date last night with a woman he met on Tinder; a dating app suited for the instant-gratification tendencies of our current generation, and, as it seems, middle-aged bachelors. At 47, I never pictured my uncle resorting to internet dating, but Matthews life, as we shall see, has been far from predictable. Matthew Gideon was born in the small town of Greenview, Illinois. He was the younger of two siblings, and had a very normal upbringing. That is, until the death of his older brother and father, which forced Matthew to grow up very quickly and imbued him with a sense of resiliency that he still carries to this day. He went on to attend Illinois State University to major in criminal justice around the same time that I was born. My earliest memories of him were when he would visit me and my mother on his breaks from school, accompanied by a statuesque Black Labrador named Rex that would stampede around my grandmothers house like a seasoned race horse. Given that I was around 3 years old at the time, Im sure Rexs intimidating character was a bit exaggerated in my mind. By the time I entered school, Matthew had already graduated from college and moved to Chicago to work as a law enforcement officer for the state police academy. After his tenure in Chicago, job offers pulled him city to city; he found himself spending time in Seattle in his mid-to-late 20s, before finally settling in Los Angeles in his mid-30s. By now, he was seen as the cool uncle that never quite seemed to grow up, yeton the contrarywould impart important life lessons within me when he came to visit us on the holidays; simple, yet pervious crumbs of wisdom, such as: the smartest people are those who ask questions, which remains the most important piece of advice I have been given to this day. When it came time to graduate high school, he proved worthy of my self-ascribed label of cool uncle when he became my ticket out of rural Illinois and gave me a chance to get myself established in Los Angeles.
I eventually met up with my uncle and
moved in with him in May of 2006. My new residence was an upscale oceanfront apartment in Santa Monica where he was living a very comfortable life and had a great job working for the U.S. government. By this time, he had been through a few failed engagements, but he seemed to be enjoying the single life and the unadulterated freedom that came along with it. Finally, in 2007, he began dating a woman named Tracy whom he would go on to marry. After the luxurious wedding accompanied by an egregious best man speech by yours truly, he enjoyed the consistency and normality that came along with married life for the first time in his lifeor so he thought. He and his wife encountered many irreconcilable problems; one of many being the sudden loss of his job. In 2013, after 6 short years of marriage, Matthew finalized his divorce. Fast forward to 2015. Matthew is bouncing back from his divorce, and he is displaying the same sense of resiliency that has stuck by his side all of these years. He is struggling, yet optimistic; weathered, yet happy and healthier than I have ever seen him before. I sat down with Matthew to ask the question that I have long pondered myself: Is marriage really that complicated? Yes and no, he says, responding to my vague inquiry. Respecting each others time, space, feelings, wishes, hopes, dreams, aspirations those things, they all come into consideration. Without mutual respect, youre going to have a break down, and marriage is doomed to fail. [Once that happens] Its a hard hole to get out of. I find myself agreeing with his words, as I reflect on my past and current
relationship and the role that respect plays
in a partnership. A partnership is exactly how Matthew models a functional marriage out to be. A lot of women like to refer to marriage as a partnership; well, when I hear the word partnership, I think of business. He continues, I dont think people take marriage seriously, and I dont believe that they consider it an institution where they view it more as a business arrangement or a financial arrangement.
A business arrangement? I have never
thought of marriage like this. It seems very formal, and elicits thoughts of financial success superseding real, unconditional love. This is clearly not what Matthew is alluding to though, and this man has been through the ropes; so Id better listen. As he continues on, Im getting a glimpse Respecting each of what marriage is actually like versus others time, space, what our expectations are before going into feelings, wishes, such a partnership, hopes, dreams, and Im enlightened to a different aspirations perspective that I have those things, they never once considered as a potential culprit all come into for conjugal discord consideration. between even the most sincere of people. Hes definitely on to something; perhaps this is why we see so many marriages come to fail. In the U.S., it is estimated that around 40% of all marriages end in divorce (Kreider, 2001). Matthew offers his thoughts as to why he believes that is.
I think before people get married, they fail
to look at the variables that actually make a marriage strong. Lifestyle, hobbies, finances are a big issue. If these problems can be discussed and agreed upon before going into marriage, I think the result would be that the success rate of marriage would be somewhat higher. He adds, I believe one of the key components to a great, sustainable marriage is friendship. This
will be the overriding factor which determines
whether a marriage succeeds or fails. His tone and demeanor hint at the fact that this was one of the many things that were missing from his failed marriage. He seems to drill this point through with an unequivocal certainty that this is a non-negotiable prerequisite for overcoming obstacles together in a marriage.
Aside from the importance of friendship in a healthy marriage, I took to inquiring
about how his divorce may have affected the relationship between him and his now-exwifes mutual friends. Another two-pronged question. In one way, our neighborsour supposed friendschose sides. She [Tracy] decided to remain in the residence and they had to deal with her on a daily-to-weekly basis, so they felt obligated to side with her, I guess. They [our friends] have not made a proactive attempt to check up on me and see how Im doing; so were they really friends, or were they just neighbors? At this point, the far-reaching implications of divorce are becoming all too apparent, and I question how a man can lose his job, his marriage, and his friendsall in two short yearsand still retain his sanity. Somehow he does, and he rides the waves of change as any man should: calm, collected, and balanced. At this point, our interview concludes and we direct our conversation towards his future job prospects and horse racing: Matthews favorite pastime. I casually suggest that he find a way to merge the two, but he resists. Right now, it is about survival and Matthew knows just the amount of mental alchemy required in order to turn his vicissitudes into something positive to be able to get back on to his feet. As we walk back to my apartment, Matthew prepares to head off to work at a temp job and makes plans for a second date this weekend with the woman hes been raving about. I ask him if he sees this as an opportunity for another shot at love. His response: I gave her a choice between going to see American Sniper or watching Seabiscuit; so well have to wait and see. n