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Self-Inquiry?
Hi,
Ted.
Ive
read
quite
a
few
times
you
mentioning
that
a
person
needs
to
inquire
to
find
the
truth.
I
know
that
Vedanta
is
self-inquiry.
I
just
dont
think
I
assimilate
well
this
process,
because
every
time
I
think
of
it
its
like
I
need
to
use
my
mind
and
its
like
I
have
someone
narrating
inside
my
head.
Its
still
like
that
annoying
voice
that
lives
with
me
as
long
as
I
can
remember.
Ted:
You
seem
to
have
quite
a
vendetta
(not
to
by
confused
with
Vedanta)
regarding
your
mind.
In
other
words,
you
seem
to
have
a
rather
strong
dislike
for
it
(or
at
least
whatever
kinds
of
thoughts
you
feel
are
plaguing
you).
I
understand
this
sentiment.
It
can
sometimes
seem
like
the
mind
is
somehow
covering
or
hiding
the
self.
The
good
news,
however,
is
that
the
mind
is
not
your
enemy.
In
fact,
in
terms
of
enlightenment,
which
you
seem
to
at
last
accept
as
a
matter
of
knowledge/understanding
rather
than
experience,
it
is
your
greatest
friend
and
ally.
Permanent
enlightenment
is
not
some
perpetual
feel
good
emotional
state
nor
is
it
some
eternal
thought-free
state
of
emptiness,
blankness,
void,
or
light.
Nor
(and
this
is
the
big
NOR)
is
it
even
a
state
in
which
only
nice,
pleasing,
kind,
affectionate,
loving,
compassionate,
warm
and
fuzzy
thoughts
arise.
If
you
expect
any
of
these
states
to
be
the
way
your
mind
should
be
or
to
right
or
wrong
or
good
or
bad,
then
you
are
setting
yourself
up
for
continual
disappointment
and
continued
delusion.
All
such
states
of
mind
or
nothing
more
than
experiences,
and
as
you
have
correctly
concluded
yourself
no
experience
is
going
to
last.
The
best
we
can
hope
for
in
terms
of
experience
is
that
the
knowledge
we
gain
from
experience
(provided
we
are
alert
enough
during
the
experience
or
process
it
correctly
following
the
experience
to
gain
said
knowledge)
will
stick
and
transform
our
understanding
to
such
a
degree
that
even
when
the
particular
emotional
and/or
intellectual
qualities
of
the
experience
are
absent
we
still
remember
who
we
really
are,
which
is
never
the
experience
itself,
but
the
awareness
in
which
the
experience
appeared.
Really,
your
mind
is
only
an
enemy
to
the
degree
that
you
identify
with
the
thoughts
arising
in
it.
Think
about
it.
Do
your
thoughts
negate
you?
No,
you
dont
cease
to
exist
when
thoughts
--
good
or
bad
--
arise
in
your
mind.
If
you
did,
how
would
you
know
the
thoughts?
Do
your
thoughts
hide
you?
No,
beyond
the
fact
that
you
are
not
an
object
that
can
be
hidden
and
that,
given
this
is
a
non-dual
reality,
the
thoughts
themselves
are
actually
made
of
you
(awareness),
the
truth
is
that
the
thoughts
appear
within
you,
for
you
are
the
ever-present
awareness
that
witnesses
the
thoughts,
and
you
cannot
be
covered
or
hidden
by
something
that
exists
within
you.
It
only
seems
like
the
thoughts
cover
you
because
you
think
that
awareness
is
some
discrete
experience
that
is
blocked
by
the
thoughts
that
are
presently
appearing
within
you.
But
you
are
forever
beyond
and
unaffected
by
your
thoughts.
They
can
arise
and
will
continue
to
do
so
as
long
as
you
associating
with
a
body
and
you
can
notice
them,
but
you
dont
have
to
identify
with
them.
The
choice
is
yours.
This
is
why
enlightenment
is
a
matter
of
knowledge
rather
than
experience.
The
macrocosmic
causal
body
coupled
with
the
ever-
changing
nature
of
this
apparent
reality
will
continue
to
generate
an
endless
parade
of
thoughts
of
varying
quality,
but
once
you
stand
in
the
hard
and
fast
knowledge
that
you
are
awareness
no
thought
has
the
power
to
disturb
or
trouble
you.
You
always
know
that
you
are
free
of
the
thoughts.
Candice:
It
is
quite
clear
to
me
that
I
dont
need
an
experience,
because
I
can
lose
it,
so
whats
the
point?
I
know
that
I
need
knowledge,
I
need
to
know
something.
Ted:
You
simply
need
to
know
that
you
are
whole
and
complete,
limitless,
action-less,
ordinary,
unborn,
non-dual,
self-luminous,
self-dependent,
self-
evident,
unchanging,
unconcerned,
ever-present,
all-pervasive
awareness.
I
realize
that
this
string
of
terms
may
make
awareness
sound
grandiose
and
extraordinary
and
incomprehensible.
But
take
note
that
included
on
the
list
is
the
characteristic
ordinary.
This
might
seem
odd
at
first
glance.
But
it
is
important
to
carefully
consider
the
implication
of
this
term,
which
is
that
this
great
and
glorious
self/consciousness/awareness
is
nothing
more
(or
less)
than
the
awareness
by
which
you
are
already
experiencing
every
moment
of
your
life,
including
those
moments,
such
as
deep
sleep,
when
you
are
seemingly
not
experiencing
anything.
Due
to
the
language
of
hyperbole
(exaggeration)
that
runs
rampant
through
the
spiritual
world,
we
have
come
to
expect
that
the
self/consciousness/awareness
is
some
mind-
Ted:
You
are
right
that
you
cant
do
knowledge,
Candice.
Nevertheless,
the
process
of
self-inquiry
does
involve
some
doing
in
the
sense
that
there
are
some
specific
steps
you
need
to
take
in
order
to
imbibe
the
teachings
of
Vedanta
and
ultimately
assimilate
the
knowledge
of
the
self.
Before
we
delve
into
process
of
self-inquiry,
however,
it
seems
worthwhile
to
point
out
a
particular
theme
or
idea
that
colors
most
of
the
commentary
and
questions
you
expressed
in
your
previous
e-mail
exchanges
with
James.
Over
and
over,
your
words
imply
that
you
do
not
like
this
character
that
you
take
yourself
to
be.
I
wonder
if
Claudia
has
self-esteem
issues.
As
James
plainly
stated,
however,
self-inquiry
will
not
work
in
a
mind
that
is
continuously
disturbed
by
thoughts
of
self-deprecation
and
dislike.
This
dislike
is
in
large
part
rooted
in
your
association
with
the
negative
thoughts
that
incessantly
badger
you.
This
being
the
case,
the
first
thing
you
can
do
is
to
deeply
contemplate
the
nature
of
thought
as
explained
above.
Realize
that
truly
speaking
your
thoughts
have
nothing
to
do
with
you
and,
therefore,
cannot
touch
you.
And
if
that
is
too
much,
then
at
least
understand
that
you
were
not
in
control
of
developing
the
thought
patterns
that
are
currently
parading
through
you.
Parents,
teachers,
preachers,
and
myriad
other
creatures
that
is,
society
in
general
---
conditioned
you
with
its
ignorance
and
there
was
nothing
you
could
do
about
it.
Until
now.
Now
it
is
time
to
lay
down
your
self-loathing
and
accept
yourself
as
you
are
warts
and
all,
as
James
says.
Admittedly
this
is
easier
said
than
done,
but
there
is
a
matter
worth
considering
that
might
serve
to
help
you
relax
your
self-condemnation
and
negative
judgments
about
your
mind.
It
would
be
very
helpful
to
read
chapters
6
and
7
of
James
book
and
then
to
deeply
contemplate
how
the
vasanas
compel
our
actions.
Pay
special
attention
to
the
fact
that
we
did
not
create
these
tendencies,
which
manifest
as
our
desires
and
fears,
likes
and
dislikes,
attractions
and
aversions.
Yes,
a
person
may
like
chocolate
ice
cream,
but
did
that
person
decide
to
like
chocolate
ice
cream
or
was
that
fancy
already
part
of
their
character.
Obviously,
though
we
can
do
things
to
reinforce
or
deny
them,
our
proclivities
for
objects,
actions,
and
experiences
are
not
chosen
by
us.
Isvara
(or
God
the
creator)
is
responsible
for
their
presence.
Truly
assimilating
this
understanding
alleviates
ones
sense
of
responsibility
for
and
guilt
concerning
ones
habitual
behaviors
both
good
and
bad.
Initially,
you
may
be
reluctant
to
accept
this
fact
(most
people
dont
want
to
think
of
God
as
being
equally
responsible
for
both
the
bad
and
the
good),
but
it
is
true.
The
things
you
dont
like
about
yourself
were
put
there,
so
to
speak,
by
Isvara
(for
who
else
could
be
responsible
in
a
non-
dual
reality?)
and
are
not
inherently
bad,
but
are
only
as
bad
as
you
interpret
them
to
be.
The
bottom
line
according
to
Vedanta
is
that
you
are
fine
just
the
way
you
are.
Moreover,
despite
the
common
belief
that
one
has
to
have
a
saintly
demeanor
in
order
to
be
spiritual,
you
dont
need
to
be
a
better
person
in
order
to
get
free.
Spiritual
freedom,
liberation,
enlightenment,
or
whatever
you
want
to
call
it,
is
not
a
matter
of
becoming
a
better
person,
but
rather
of
realizing
that
you
(the
true
you)
is
not
a
person
at
all.
It
is
a
matter
of
knowing
with
full
confidence
that
you
are
pure
awareness.
That
said,
your
initial
focus
should
be
on
preparing
your
mind
or
rendering
it
peaceful,
open,
and
focused
enough
to
effectively
engage
the
process
of
self-inquiry.
This
is
where
yoga
comes
in.
The
most
important
thing
that
you
should
do
at
present
is
practice
karma
yoga.
This
is
the
perfect
practice
to
compliment
your
contemplation
of
the
vasanas,
for
it
calls
upon
you
examine
your
sense
of
doership
in
light
of
the
nature
of
the
field
of
action
and
to
then
act
appropriately
(and
with
an
altogether
different
attitude
than
you
are
currently)
in
response
to
the
demands
and
dictates
of
the
field.
In
order
to
do
this
you
need
to
first
understand
that
you
are
not
the
doer
in
the
sense
that
there
are
too
many
factors
influencing
the
outcome
of
any
given
action
for
you
to
be
in
control
or
solely
responsible
for
the
results
of
your
actions.
This
understanding
allows
you
to
release
any
guilt
you
might
feel
over
having
performed
actions
you
judge
as
bad
or
wrong
that
may
be
contributing
to
your
feelings
of
inadequacy
and
low
self-esteem.
It
allows
you
to
see
that,
though
you
may
have
learned
valuable
lessons
from
and
choose
not
to
repeat
certain
actions,
you
did
your
best
at
the
time
given
the
limits
of
your
knowledge
and
the
dictates
of
your
vasanas,
which
to
reiterate
are
actually
Isvaras
vasanas.
You
can,
thus,
let
go
of
the
past
and
embrace
the
present,
coloring
it
with
a
peaceful
mind
undisturbed
by
regret.
Truly
speaking,
as
you
seem
to
already
understand,
no
action
has
any
bearing
on
who
you
really
are
anyway
as
this
dualistic,
apparent
reality
is
ultimately
nothing
more
than
a
dream
appearing
within
consciousness/awareness/you.
Knowing
this
allows
you
to
offer
whatever
actions
you
feel
are
appropriate
(including
those
you
might
judge
as
wrong
or
bad,
but
feel
powerless
to
resist
expressing)
in
any
given
situation
to
Isvara,
and
then...and
this
is
a
huge
AND
THEN...accept
whatever
results
ensue
with
an
attitude
of
gratitude,
seeing
them
as
Isvaras
prasad,
which
means
that
you
see
them
as
a
gift
from
God.
This
attitude
of
gratitude
is
the
key
with
which
the
practice
of
karma
yoga
unlocks
the
door
to
a
peaceful
mind
that
is
ready
to
embrace
freedom.
It
is
based
on
understanding
that
Isvara
is
taking
care
of
the
whole
and
is
orchestrating
the
absorption
of
the
actions
offered
to
It
and
delivering
the
results
that
are
appropriate
in
order
to
maintain
the
harmony
and
well-
being
of
the
whole.
Though
certain
specific
results
may
be
interpreted
as
good
or
bad,
right
or
wrong,
positive
or
negative
from
a
particular
individuals
or
groups
point
of
view,
such
judgments
are
only
so
in
terms
of
that
individuals
or
groups
vasanas
and
consequent
values
to
which
they
give
rise.
In
this
way,
you
realize
that
you
really
cannot
do
anything
wrong
from
Isvaras
perspective
because
Isvara
(or
the
field
of
existence
if
you
want
to
think
of
it
impersonally)
absorbs
and
integrates
whatever
actions
are
offered
to
It
in
such
a
way
as
will
protect
and
serve
the
best
interests
of
whole.
As
mentioned,
the
practice
of
karma
yoga
is
the
foundation
for
all
further
inquiry.
But
this
does
not
mean
that
you
cannot
expose
yourself
to
the
teachings
until
you
have
fully
cultivated
the
karma
yoga
attitude.
Yoga
and
self-inquiry
like
two
hands
working
together
to
wash
away
the
film
of
ignorance
that
cakes
the
mind.
This
being
the
case,
what
follows
is
a
general
overview
of
the
process
of
self-inquiry
and
some
practical
suggestions
for
engaging
in
it.
There
are
basically
three
steps
to
self-inquiry:
hearing
or
listening
(shravanam),
reflection
(mananam),
and
meditation
or
contemplation
(nididhyasanam).
Since
Vedanta
is
a
means
of
knowledge
that
employs
words
to
reveal
the
truth,
hearing
the
teachings
is
the
first
essential
step
in
the
process.
This
hearing
is
better
referred
to
as
listening
because
one
needs
to
take
in
the
teachings
with
an
open
mind,
one
that
has
at
least
for
the
time
being
set
aside
its
accrued
beliefs
and
convictions
about
worldly
life,
the
spiritual
path,
and
enlightenment.
If
ones
listening
is
continually
impinged
upon
by
previously
developed
notions
about
the
matter
at
hand
it
will
not
be
able
to
follow
the
logical
methodology
through
which
ones
ignorance
is
removed.
It
is
only
after
first
hearing
the
teachings
and
gaining
a
clear
comprehension
of
their
progression
that
one
can
then
measure
ones
previously
held
beliefs
and
convictions
in
light
of
them.
This
is
the
stage
during
which
one
seeks
to
resolve
all
lingering
doubts
concerning
the
nature
of
reality
and
the
self.
The
time
one
spends
in
this
stage
depends
entirely
on
how
many
doubts
need
resolution.
It
is
important
during
this
stage
that
the
student
be
completely
honest
with
himself
or
herself
rather
than
trying
to
appear
more
spiritually
advanced
or
knowledgeable
or
enlightened
than
he
or
she
is.
It
is
also
important
that
one
have
complete
faith
in
the
teacher
and
the
teachings
themselves.
If
the
student
is
not
getting
it,
then
he
or
she
must
take
a
fierce
moral
inventory
and
assess
what
qualifications
he
or
she
might
be
lacking
that
is
impeding
his
or
her
understanding.
I
wont
go
into
the
qualifications
here,
but
the
entire
fourth
chapter
of
James
book
is
devoted
to
a
thorough
explanation
of
them
and
is
definitely
worth
rereading
several
times.
The
third
step
in
the
self-inquiry
process
is
meditation
or
contemplation.
Meditation
here
does
not
necessarily
refer
to
sitting
quietly
with
your
eyes
closed
and
silently
chanting
a
mantra
or
visualizing
a
deity
or
simply
enjoying
the
silence.
Though
formal
sitting
meditation
is
a
valuable
practice
for
calming
the
mind
and
delving
deeply
into
the
nature
of
the
one
meditating,
here
meditation
is
a
matter
of
practicing
the
knowledge
that
you
have
intellectually
accepted
as
a
result
of
the
first
two
steps.
Understanding
and
accepting
the
logic
of
the
teachings
is
one
thing,
implementing
the
teachings
throughout
ones
daily
activities
is
another.
One
must
continuously
practice
the
knowledge;
one
must
use
the
knowledge
as
a
lens
through
which
to
see
ones
every
thought
and
action,
applying
it
over
and
over,
again
and
again
until
the
knowledge
is
fully
assimilated
and
ones
conviction
regarding
it
unshakeable.
It
is
in
this
stage
that
one
makes
the
final
subtle
transition
in
understanding
from
knowing
awareness
to
being
awareness.
Your
e-mails
appear
to
indicate
that
you
are
in
what
James
often
refers
to
as
the
firefly
stage
of
the
process.
This
means
that
the
knowledge
that
you
are
limitless,
non-dual
awareness
flickers
on
and
off
and
has
not
yet
become
hard
and
fast,
meaning
that
you
are
not
yet
standing
with
unshakeable,
rock-solid
confidence
in
your
true
identity
as
the
self,
consciousness,
the
Light.
You
have
heard
the
teachings
and
are
now
in
the
process
of
simultaneously
rooting
out
your
doubts
and
becoming
more
and
more
convicted
about
your
true
identity
as
awareness.
You
are
right
on
track.
In
order
to
continue
your
progress,
I
highly
recommend
that
you
do
the
following:
1. Take
James
advice
and
purchase
either
the
hard
drive
that
contains
his
talks
on
everything
the
aspirant
needs
to
know
for
a
full
comprehension
of
Vedanta,
or
if
that
is
too
pricey
at
the
moment
at
least
purchase
the
stick
with
the
Toronto
talks
on
it.
Though
his
book
is
great,
I
can
attest
to
the
fact
that
there
is
nothing
better
than
hearing
the
teachings
straight
from
the
teachers
mouth.
2. Read
and
reread
James
book
over
and
over,
carefully
signing
on
to
the
logic
of
each
chapter
IN
THE
ORDER
THE
CHAPTERS
ARE
PRESENTED.
It
is
vitally
important
that
you
imbibe
the
teachings
step
by
step,
and
they
build
upon
one
another.
There
is
no
way
to
truly
understand
what
comes
after
until
you
have
understood
what
came
before.
3. Diligently
follow
the
teaching
of
applying
the
opposite
thought
as
much
as
possible
to
every
thought
if
possible
throughout
your
day.
This
practice
will
be
especially
helpful
to
you
because
it
will
reprogram
your
mind
with
the
truth
and
establish
new
thought
patterns
that
will
replace
the
old
ones
that
have
been
pestering
you.
This
is
the
only
legitimate
way
to
change
your
mind.
And
this
is
where
the
doing
comes
in,
for
youve
got
to
be
vigilant
and
diligent
in
applying
the
knowledge.
Since
your
mind
is
such
a
pesky
devil,
call
the
demon
on
its
shit.
Whenever
it
makes
even
the
slightest
suggestion
that
you
are
in
some
way
small,
inadequate,
or
incomplete,
stop
and
correct
it.
Dont
allow
it
to
get
away
with
its
self-sabotaging
behavior
even
a
moment
longer.
And
if
you
are
not
yet
fully
convinced
that
you
are
whole
and
complete,
limitless,
action-less,
non-dual,
ever-present,
all-pervasive,
perfect
awareness,
then
as
James
says
fake
it
til
you
make
it.
Over
time,
this
practice
will
purify
you
mind
and
set
you
free.
Have
faith
in
the
process.
Vedanta
has
withstood
the
test
of
time
because
it
is
a
proven
means
of
knowledge
and
method
of
liberation.
Besides,
you
know
deep
down
that
you
are
the
Light,
so
stand
up
and
stand
in
that
knowledge
with
conviction.
Once
this
becomes
your
habit,
the
mind
will
cease
to
hold
any
power
over
you
and
it
wont
matter
what
thoughts
arise
in
it
for
you
will
know
without
a
doubt
that
no
object
can
touch
you,
no
thing
can
enhance,
diminish,
or
change
you
in
any
way
whatsoever.
You
are
That
which
transcends
all.
Claim
the
prize
you
already
possess!
Candice:
When
you
have
some
spare
time,
and
if
you
want
to,
I
would
be
happy
to
hear
from
you.
Love,
Candice