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(part 1)
THE INSANE
No, they were the not the terrorists, the gang of four, foe turned
friendly goons may be if I knew them right but not the terrorists,
who had then killed father and had frighteningly escaped to some
someone call them an ugly bunch, but had not been so sure.
during which time I did not hear of them again, until the day my
that I was said to be, had objected, laughing at his well meaning
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ultimately, “Are not they insane too?” he finally said. I was
sane opinion did not make sense. It was against the fundamentals
the well being of his master. “But they are not friends either,
my mind.
times, dating back to almost half a century, that could have been
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comment, not in reply to me, but murmuring to himself, perhaps,
would be overheard.
outperformed all others, I did not know, but when I looked back,
itself over the years. Process could have been slow, but it was
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definitely distinct, in which, others, other than me, saw the
laugh the way others laughed, they had called me a fool who was
way others would never learn to laugh, I was termed insane who
would enjoy even in grief. Journey through the thick and thins of
absence thereof.
was being dispensed by the likes of him, the masters of the notion
fight between a small cat and a stray dog, in a corner of the street
not far away. That the cat had finally escaped unhurt was a little
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consoling, though I was frighteningly surprised, as much of the
“Since the dog has tasted blood, it would get her sooner than
had no qualm for needs and which had no need for emotions,
than all others and, as such, privy to the human right to be happy,
turned quite louder, so noisy that it would often frighten them out
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hiding. “But I did not hurt even a fly” considering the opposition
that I were, was always spurned. Perhaps, happiness too like the
children, more than the fear of terrorism of life that was said to be
around, always.
the ill effects or of its infection. But was my loneliness now any
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the general disposition of my daily routine. Not knowing how to
boys she had referred to, and not me, who were different. She had
again.
No loss was bigger than the loss of faith in his son’s capability to
look after the small empire after he would be gone, and the first
ever sign was not very encouraging. Yet he had to try, hoping
that I was a gone case, that there was no use of further discussion,
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dye that would churn out materials much inferior in value.
had another son who would take care of the estate in his absence,
was said to have a heart that would beat faster at the abnormality
ancestors had built up over the years, thus, was ruled out for me,
the girl, as she was up in arms, fighting for the lost cause. “Is she
not a little haughty for his meekness?” before I would dare voice
her own meek way. But she must have known as did I that her
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burned both her doubts and her objection to instant elimination.
insolvent, I knew, and so knew mother, who wished that I had not
acted impulsively, a day before when father was away, had not
business deal of his young son, against the rules of the business
heart and blind of eyes that these always are, I had known even
then. But the silent but meaningful pleadings of the elder’s blank
stare, who, as told, had needed the papers back to raise further
debt for his young daughter’s marriage, and a quick but generous
calculation that we were still not the loser, despite the waiver,
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Thankfully appreciative of the graciousness notwithstanding, the
before father would reach him. Father, however, did not take up
the matter with the man again, rather he had used the forced
terrorize me and mother into the marriage proposal that I was not
father left, after making the announcement. I did not have. Yet I
decision, I did not know. Nothing was said again and nothing was
Did I waive the loan to impress his daughter? The question was
had not even dreamt of, and it enfolded in itself a perception, and
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perhaps castigation. Father had shared the news with his new
sure, but my bride was well informed. She seemed to know of her
standards of a role that father had envisaged for her, as the casual
and the wit of her determination. I had not responded and she did
not ask the second time. She needed not to, as she had already
killed the cat, literally, just like a friend of mine had asked me to.
make-believe insinuation.
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building upon his wealth, ruling out further loan waiver, ever
false spell that I had foolishly woven around. Father had been
elder, on his back at least, but on her part would start recounting
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reasoned, to help me to shed the garb of ignominy, to prepare me
had now become a daily routine, hurt a lot, she did not seem to be
aware of, and I did not dare ever complain. Or she did not care, if
conceive even after many years of our marriage. But the more she
incapacitated.
perhaps rightly so, because despite being the intelligent kind that
after his estate and to take control of his debtors. Mother did not
commit. She being a little more truthful could not have. “I do not
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know” she had responded, adding hesitatingly, perhaps a little
mistake, it seemed, and she must had repented for long thereafter,
and for being abusive to his genetic prowess, as she must have
then heard. Father had looked like the fiery dog in the street,
ready to pounce upon the weaker, the unequal, that, unlike the
couple that left the woman nursing her jaw. She knew of the
provocation as well, I was sure, its cause and the end result, but
yet again. I had given to impulsive enrage, for the first time in
life, wishing to hit her the way I had seen father hitting mother,
as much for the sadistic insolence as for her frigidity, for her
from the manly arrogance that I had been a witness to, a little
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a woman, or of a wife. But the vicious smile that she always
carried and that had outdid me the very first night, instantly undid
my resolve, deflating the hot air that otherwise was as false as the
the distant future, he had justified, to take care of the hard earned
wealth, he could have meant. Mother had not recovered from the
blow, which hit as severe on her inner self. Dieing, she had
was a riddle that I had never been good at, particularly in regard
in the line, I will carry the burden of a small vice” he had said.
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Apparently he was referring to my incapability, the lack of
fatherhood, and wanted to have another son who would bear him
down. None dared object even if he or she had wished to. Father
minded and weak limbed son, I had heard father accusing her a
What was the guarantee that the new woman, whosoever she
would be, would bear him a son? The question could have
all it would a son, or his bride too, in turn, some thirty years into
when I finally but reluctantly asked the wife, however, was far
from being smart that I had then willed it to be. A hint of male
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opposite reaction, though, the tone and texture of her rebuff, this
the failure.” Reference was all too clear. Perhaps, mother had
been right in assuming that I was not a man enough. Father too
debtors, list that included vast majority of the villagers, and the
Word would get around, easy and fast, in our parts. My intimate
liaison with the girl, before her marriage, that had prompted me
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with her playful tirade from the first conjugal night, was said to
have first breathed a word to someone from the crowd that had
gathered to mourn mother’s death. Soon the news had spread like
Denial was of no use, rather it had given a new color to the whole
their words or their actions. They are always there to exploit the
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poor, physically and economically, he had said, concluding the
meeting.
the most sustainable, that father was working upon. He had then,
years back, not objected to the loan settlement, had not reported
daughter. But now the matter was different, the girl was back,
was not her first time. Age of the man was a non-issue, as the
man and the horse were said to be young as long as they would
keep running.
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sounding shocked, she had mocked, indignantly, mischievously
otherwise was not the truth, she knew, I was sure. But then truth
is not always about what is true, rather, more often than not, truth
the public perception that is more true than the truth itself, and
“Rumors, false though these are, must have reached him too” I
had mumbled. “So what, he knows his son more than all others”
seemed to sportingly justify the elder, out of fun may be, to have
disgust, saying unsaid that she knew the fool well, more than her
did not seem to care, of the rumor, or of the truth, if at all it could
have been so. He never asked me. Perhaps, there was no need to,
as socially and legally, we, me, and the girl whom he intended to
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take as my new mother, were miles apart. Scientifically,
was a disgrace to the whole society, they had said, and they
obsession of taking the young girl as his new wife, was defiant of
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not have a choice, despite the support he got uninvited from the
statistics, which too are cooked up, most of the time, to suit the
face of father’s will which was more a command. Still the man
the pain, acutely cold and merciless. The blank but expectant
looking stare that had been forceful in its pleadings the other day
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when he had sought back the mortgage papers, now seemed to be
being the despised father, was hard put to believe veracity of the
I saw the girl for the first time, emerging from the inside of a
her father that had asked her to stay put behind closed doors, at
youth of her age generally carries around, and sans the rigors of
wishing that it were her I had been married to. But it was too late
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I now knew for sure that I was not the marrying kind, a known
She was forthright, unlike her father, snubbing me, her make
the same breath, for the blackness of our evil influence that had
colored her life and her image dark. “Perverts” she had said,
wanted to flee, away from the village, away from father, taking
her along, if she would agree, telling her that it was me who
owned her absolutely, from the olden times, even if it was only a
rumored falsehood. But I did not have the courage, nor a key to
unlock the big if, if she would ever agree. Fools are not adorned
Perhaps father, the ring -master, who carried the baton, or it could
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be me, for criminalizing, in the guise of benevolence, a humble
after. But then it would be the other woman, perhaps, and her
“Who are the new men, not seen around earlier?” I had asked the
frequented our house, for the last few days, to see father, as they
had said. They were not from those parts, I was sure, a group of
four men, all in their late twenties or early thirties, good looking
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collect debt, to force chronic defaulter to pay-up. But then they
were small time local goons who worked for him on a small
strangers. No body knew who they really were, or where did they
come from. But they were not the ugly bunch as she had
discredited them. They being like all others, the people of the
any, was on the positive side, making them, rather, look more
beautiful, more manly, a lot more manly than her husband ever
look ugly? Had she described them differently were they not
from the enemy territory, behaving alike?” I did not dare ask.
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unlicensed might, had done the trick to turn the moral brigade
into heathens, the turncoat lions into poor lambs, which they
will one to enforce his will and the other one to suffer it
man, was beyond the capacity of the old man, and he on his part
could have believed and rightly so, I was sure, that He too, being
the powerful that He is, always wills to side with the like-minded
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was no intention or a will on my part to behave of being
to my fill.
Other than immediate family members from both the sides, there
four. Father must had invited them for a purpose, to ensure that
there was no last minute change of hearts, that the sanctity of the
leader, and cunningly far more smarter than the other three,
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not have acted otherwise. Powerfulness, after-all, is comparative
and the all-powerful that he was, was too weak to stare into the
“It is me they have to cope up with, more than the God” she had
interact if they ever will, through a third party that would always
be me.” The man had laughed, as if making fun of her and of her
impure resolve to act the spoiler. He did not take the ruling lying
woman, and all others present. “Why? Why will I not be there
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any more?” cutting short the suspense, she had finally asked,
the kind of which I had first seen on wife’s face, years back,
girl. It could have been after ages that he opted to speak. “You
will not be there because I have decided to take you along to the
what was expected of me. The man had said ‘other side’ if I had
heard him right. I just remained mentally busy solving the puzzle
if by ‘other side’ he had meant other side of the village, other side
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of the long fence that people called border, other side of the earth
mother was said to have gone earlier. The ceremony girl and her
not like this kind of joke” I heard father complain, keeping the
authority. He reminded the man that he was there to help him get
his woman and had been well paid for the job. Now the work
threatening the man, inviting his displeasure. The man had again
laughed, murkier than ever before. “Are you not being a bit
asserting that it were they, the goons, whose writ then ran around,
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and no objection, howsoever logical, was sustainable. “Why boss,
of a man of lesser authority could have hurt his ego more or the
calling the man by all kind of names. Bad tempered snarl met
storm. The man saw at his leader, for a moment, extracted from
his right hand side pocket a country made revolver, and before
the other would waive him to desist, fired twice, killing father on
the spot.
to his subordinate, “No, we will take only one of the two, the
Alone during the long chili night I had laughed too, imitating the
Others, the unseen and the faceless, whosoever they were with
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me in the emptiness of big house, seemed to have imitated me, in
have wept, over the unbearable loss, over death, and over
abduction. After the killing, the group of goons had waited for a
while, looking for further resistance, if any, and finding none, had
ultimate victory lap in the run to life. Mother had said so, when I
was weeping, seeing her dieing. She was displeased with the fool
for the first time in life, advising that mourning, sometimes, leads
Perhaps, she could have meant that the God is an unjust medium
the dictates of the falsehood of his mind. I was then not too sure,
with the weak, the elderly farmer and his daughter, and again
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some other one to suffer the aggression willingly, all in the name
village had. The other two present, the man and his daughter, had
woman, was beyond the line of their vision. They must have
feared that father might rise from the dead to claim back his
property, before father would return back from his debt collection
finally settling for death, perhaps, they could have feared me, the
these are. I had not restrained them from leaving, though I wished
I, being his legal and the only heir, was still there, willing to
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Why did I not resist to the abduction, someone from the crowd
that had gathered after the ultras were gone, had asked. I had not
not heard the leader of the ugly bunch that one does not dare
undo what pleases the God. Or, contrarily, his asking was a kind
they all had gathered to mourn, as they too, like me, had
proceedings from afar, waiting the group along with their prize to
Festivities had continued till late in the night, after the cremation.
had seemed to care. No one had asked. Earlier, an elder from the
leave it in the open for the eagles to feed upon. Unaware of the
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methods of cremation would be least painful. He did not seem to
know, nor any other one from the crowd, as without replying they
But I did not follow them. I decided against as I had not the will
victory of death in its run to life, as mother had once said. Father
would not have approved of the expenses, I was sure, but he was
from the cremation ground, had jokingly asked, “Is it really the
victory of the dead, or of the living for the spoils that you wish to
celebrate?” adding further, of his own free will, and without even
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I did not impose my will. I could not have, as I lacked
of a big house, laughing the way the leader of the ugly bunch had
village, except me, and had continued with festivities for hours
till late in the night. It was not the victory of the dead, as I had
that they could have used to mark the occasion. “We are in
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discord with destiny, wishing to admonish the villagers for their
continued for days, for months, for years and then for decades,
till the present when I got a sudden premonition that the man with
the gun had returned back. I was told that it could not be him who
from the olden days, but a terrorist of modern times. The man
could have changed and so could have changed the garb, but his
After father’s demise there had been no one else in the village
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the hunger of their needs and falsity of their beliefs is ever
the bad omen that would someday befall over the village leading
Father’s death, decades back, had been a good omen for the
smile that had remained lost within the layers of wrinkled dry
mercy of the villagers, who fed me, by turns, for first few
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The elderly farmer and his daughter too had a few turns, during
these few months, to feed the hungry. She was business like,
could have been a subconscious wish, that each time she had
awaited her turn anxiously, the food, whatever it would be, would
the sincere, or perhaps she had displayed her displeasure over the
had left without attending to the query. But had I known her mind
answer? Did I beg for a living or I lived for begging? Are the end
It was during these times that a man who once worked with father
as his collection agent and was said to have since joined a group
money value of sum total of debts that people of the village owed
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me, as the legal heir and the only successor to their creditor. “But
will to pay on the part of the other, is only notional” I had said,
his needs and his aspirations that are ever un-ending. Each one is
but terrorizes, in turn, fate of others, the less worthy, the weaker.”
of the will of God” I had opined. But he did not seem to agree.
villagers had fed the insane, in the interim, qualified them for
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without proper authorization, did not talk of the matter ever
had stayed put with me, attending to my needs, and if there was
ever a resource crunch, he did not complain of, managing the two
of us, the insane and the insipid, the best way he could.
I had grown old, when the servant warned, for the first time after
discernible simply by looking at his face. Was the man still alive?
It was most unlikely. And if at all he was still alive he must have
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or to think carnal. But no, he was not him again, the servant had
He must have gone mad, more insane than I had been, talking
sworn that what he said was not the madness. He had affirmed on
oath that what he told was the truth, an absolute truth. “It is your
bigger than what he then had been, long years back” the servant
had revealed, perhaps comparing him to the goon who had killed
father, or it could have been father himself who was referred to.
his affirmation. It could not have been the truth, I was sure. Very
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intervention of an outsider, as life in itself had been a kind of
Sons were not grown on trees, I did know, not even then, as they
said.
basic question concerning the man. After a long while, the time
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during which he had kept thinking, perhaps, finding a plausible
“Your wife, when she was abducted, was a few days pregnant,
but knew it, for sure, only after a month, and by that time it was
and a gang of ultras and as such a part of the terror group. She
had confessed nine months later, when the boy was born. He,
master, had returned back to the village to relay the news, but
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Keeping in touch with the group, through some intermediary, he
had then learned that the leader, my wife’s current man, had
the two had started worsening till the time the boy, whom he had
raised, for the last more than twenty five years, as his son, in
and others, for the unmanliness that you all displayed at the time
of her abduction, and the other woman who were then the
has turned her son, the terrorist, against the village, exhorting him
his path and abduct the young daughter of the woman to suffer
“How do they know that the woman has a daughter? She was an
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was offended of the unsaid accusation. “They have their means to
not. “They knew it when she was remarried, a few months later,
to safe-guard her honor against future risks, likes the one she had
then undergone. They knew it when the old man had died, a little
daughter was born, and they know it now when the daughter has
come of age to suffer fate worse then that her mother had once
mercifully escaped.”
How long can one remain contented and carefree, even after
death, if soul remains behind wishing well of the dear ones, and it
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sure that his answer, whatever it could be, would fly high, much
beyond my reach.
truth. But knowing her, it could have been otherwise, her way of
demeaning her current man, the current relationship, and her way
have been right. But then truth is a matter of perception, she had
said so, long back, more true than the truth itself, and the man
then had perceived the newly born as his son and raised him as
such, despite the confession. It was now my turn to veil the piece
myself that I was not unmanly if she was not frigid. I laughed,
to know that his son, after all, is father to a heir to keep the
succession alive down in the future.” But he did not take the
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laughter kindly, it seemed, looking at me in disbelief, as if
reprimanding me, for the joke, if it were so. He had, however, not
Terror attack, when it finally came, confirmed the belief that the
single gun shot, fired from far off. Gun shot, if it was really so,
was soundless, unlike the one I had heard earlier, decades back,
shook the very foundation of His creation, the men and the
under the garb of blackness, perhaps the color of his identity that
under four legs of the cot I was sleeping in, so great was the force
been standing for the last many decades. The servant, knowing
the terrorist and aware of the strength of his terror, must had been
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concerned for the safety of his master. He rushed in from the
outer room where he was putting in at the time, and before either
me under the girth of his body weight, to take the falling concrete
for my son, the terrorist. But he was no more there. He was gone
Rising from the rubble that the house had now turned to be, I
ventured out, looking for others, the villagers, but instead walked
into the ruins, which until the previous evening was called a
mother, had struck big, destroying all that came his way. People
lay scattered, dead, all around, and the few who survived were
he soon came out, carrying the cash box instead, a feeble voice of
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protest or of anguish following him from the inside, it seemed.
line.
under a boulder. But I did not have the strength, or the will to.
“Each one serves his fate” I repeated, recalling the words the man
had once uttered, years back, snatching a loaf that his father, on
his turn, had then given to feed the insane. I walked past leaving
him or from the terrorist? But then I was different from all others,
I had been hearing all my life. Mother had said so decades back. I
was therefore different from them too, him and the terrorist, he
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being my son notwithstanding. They were not fools, like me.
They were sane, the wise, knowing pretty well what they had
girl whose mother would have been his grand-ma had things not
gone awry on that fateful day, had father not got himself killed,
then.
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Unmindful of the will of mind, feet led me into the street where
daughter and killing the mother who could have objected, and
presently. Unlike little earlier I did not walk past, rather tried to
move deposits of rubble aside to get to the woman, who was once
have been someone else that they were following the scent of,
get others, the survivors, to get me. He would not know that I was
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desire to die, if there was any, and ran for miles, often stumbling,
towards the long barbed fence, that the people called border,
of the other side, from where the terrorist had come, I was sure,
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(part 2)
THE CHILD
The demon had finally struck the village, just like I had feared
bedtime stories that granny used to narrate each night, when she
will, who would destroy households at will, and who would kill
alive. The big creature had, invariably, been the central character
of her narrations, around whom, moved the life and the death,
abound on earth, she had once told, perhaps to wave away the
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contradict herself. Stories are simply an extension of life I did
Did she ever see a demon? Granny had laughed. “The God and
the demon make their presence known at will” she had said,
evading a direct reply. But she must had, I had thought, given her
knowledge of the monster and of his evil adventures that she had
once asked. Granny was not very pleased when I had asked her
the sky, or in far away lands where they make wings to make a
fairy” she had said. And why did they not make wings in our
fairy” she had disclosed. Yes, there was no golden thread in our
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mending and re-mending torn clothes. Perhaps, other households
one of the two had said, as fairies are naturally white, pure white,
moon nights, the other one had opined. But I knew nothing of
over the other for their occasional frolics. I knew only of demons,
their monstrousness.
the old woman that it was by His grace that people survived
demonic attacks for so long, and, who, like the demon, was said
asking I knew that granny had never seen a God, as other than
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The demon’s hunger, as described, had always been un-satiable
stand up-to and no one would ever dare to resist to. “Smallest of
granny had once said, whereas, the demon had usually been a
might of all the villagers put together, was too small a resistance
to scare him away. They, the victims, would then look up to the
king for their safety. But unable to dare the demonic onslaught
with a sword, the king, the queen, the princess (yes, there was
and never a prince. It was logical too, as the demon could not
have proposed his marriage to the prince to spare the village and
its people of his wrath, the proposal that was, though, never
that I could have been then hearing, but the fear of the
wish with the same alacrity with which it could have born earlier)
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and all the kings men, including his army, if he had one, as there
godly grace to fight the giant, and it was always the magical
“Why does the demon not die in any of the stories?” I had once
an option she could not think of earlier. But she had waved her
because the Godly grace has to keep surviving” she had said,
meaning clearly that both, the God and the demon, were co-
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fighting, and that existence of one without the other was
unthinkable of.
Granny had died a year back and there was no story telling
thereafter. There was no one else I could have turned to for the
did not have a father. Why, I did not know. No one ever told me.
perhaps did not deserve reply. “Perhaps, life is like that, most
have fathers and some unlucky one does not” I had thought. But
opinions, spoke differently. “It is God’s curse that you don’t have
a father” opined one of the two, while the other one was
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Yes, I had a brother too, an elder brother, thirteen years elder in
age, but he was now more like a casual guest, who, despite
would visit back once in a while. Why they, the mother and her
she was around, could not have been any wiser, or she too was
got a wind of, though I had never been very sure, he had joined a
were yet another kind of evil, the monstrous creatures from the
fight with, if it was not a demon? Knowing that he, like the
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magicians of granny’s stories, was on a mission to fight the evil,
son, who, being the savior of the village, rather should have
he did not even know the magical tricks that were needed to
In last of the stories that granny had said before her death, the
thus, escaping the protective net of godly grace, had neither been
his daughter to the beast to save them from the beastly wrath, and
representative on earth, that the king is always said to be, had his
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villagers would send him for his daily meal, a human being and
an animal, every morning, and the demon would stay put, living
some future day when villagers would fail to comply with terms
of the agreement.
remarked. “People keep rolling from one to the other, from the
grace, as more often is the case, because when demon grows too
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“Perhaps, the God was a facilitator to the protocol” I had been
The demon had survived in her last narration and grandma was
dead, the very next day, with now no more chance of the evil
each morning delivery of the daily dose of his meal. I had often
pitied people and animals of the village of the story, all of whom
could have ended up, slowly becoming his meal over the last one
year that the old lady was no more around to change the course of
would turn his fury to some other village, to some other kingdom.
And it was now the turn of my village, I was sure. The demon
had struck big in the dead of night, as had always been the case in
granny’s stories. “Yes, evil gets its strength from the darkness of
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then agreed. “So there is never a fear of demonic attack on full
I had not understood then, but later, a day before granny’s death,
when the demon in her story had outlived the magical prowess, I
did wish the God to take up to fighting the evil Himself directly
and not through his accredited agents, who, like the king, would
ultimately prove weak, whereas, they both, the God and the
the past, in repenting over endless fights between the mother and
the brother, which had, last night, abruptly ended in his storming
out again, in anger, leaving the food that mother had cooked for
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alive, in the not so understandable but meaningful looking
meal in the village he had been earlier in, I was not aware, as
intent of the beast, granny had never said much of his other
planted his feet on the earth crust that got reverberated by the
danger.
I had been angry too, living with the anger from the previous day,
at mother for again fighting with the son who was visiting her
after more than a month, at the big brother who had left angrily,
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leaving the cooked food untouched, at mother again for throwing
and me, her eight years old daughter hungry for the remainder of
wasteful, who, I knew, cared for her two children, despite the
the son, and who, I knew, valued a grain as precious as she would
who, I believed, did care for the motherly care, despite her
house hungry, the previous day, disregard of the fact that mother
had cooked for him. Mother had wept, for hours, thereafter, over
motherly way of dealing with her young son and for her never
same time, fearing of the reaction, if she would unleash her pent
the invisible silent torments that she could have been undergoing,
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Later, hungry that I was had went out to play. Contrary to her
known behavior mother did not ask as to what I was up to, nor
did she advise, as she would otherwise do, to return back, in time.
good mother. I feared that perhaps she had read my mind and the
dare.
had once told, were waiting. Every one in the village was related
dealings” she had said. Apparent laughter was not worth the
self and towards her only grandson. Or, perhaps, she had
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Different still it could have been the indifference of all others,
any use to her had she ever needed. “But then the whole world is
inter related, as all are descendants of the sin of first two persons
contradiction differently. Whereas, one of the two did not see any
maturity and intelligence” she had said, the other one had pitied
which of the two was more correct and why. “There is not much
still laughing, “as both are beyond the call of emotions, and as
Granny, thus, was not as intelligent as she had then seemed to be,
nor she was mad, as like all others she was not beyond the call of
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put it. Her not so secret fearfulness in interacting with the
over the other, she, in her own mild way, would often try to
remembering a son she once had, who, she told, had left for good,
more than six years back, a couple of months before I was born.
never wept. But the unusually deep breath that she would take on
stories, her son too could have remained engaged, all those years,
in fighting with the demon to guard the village against the evil
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monstrousness. I had even wished to compare her son to the
after the first one and even without apparent provocation of her
memories, so it seemed. The sigh this time was much deeper and
longer and the suffocating groan this time had heard more painful
monster,” she had said, still sighing, and had added, after a long
Mother, who at the time could have been with the animals, had
heard us from behind the tattered jute curtain that divided the
small room into a roofed enclosure for the goats and a little
sleeping space for the old woman. As usual she was angry with
who she knew, would never be back again, and who, she cursed,
under the blankness of her stare. The curse had transformed the
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suffocating groan, into a deep-rooted sadness. After mother had
left, granny, somehow, found her voice again, releasing the foul
air that she was holding in her lungs, this time not to speak of the
your mother, I mean. I wish I again get her back as my son, in the
wanted to change the topic from him to the demon of her stories
memories. For the first time I saw tears in her eyes, two tiny
drops of translucent pain, one in each eye, sliding down onto the
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Did mother know granny’s son? From her impulsive but
looked certain that she must have known him. As all in the
them. Mother would not tell and I did not ask granny, fearing of
her anguish, and of her restlessness. The elder woman, as she had
part of her son to fight the demon, the monster within as she had
could have been the result of their liking and disliking for him, I
that granny then used had sounded evilly mysterious. That was
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why, perhaps, granny had known many stories of the evil
creature, I did now think. That was why, perhaps, there had
always been a demon in her story telling and never a fairy. Those
son and the make believe story of golden thread to make a fairy
over the magic in last of her stories, ruling over the village he
then lived in, dictating his terms. “The old woman’s apparent
criticism of her son for his lack of will to fight the monster is,
doubts, had said, “as, unlike men, demons do not fight amongst
nor of hatred. Mother’s anger would often flow from one to the
her to me and more often from him to us both, but granny, on her
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letting the other to exhaust her pent up fury before she would
the son that would often end in a flare up, granny’s compulsive
surrender would soon ease the built up tensions. She feared the
younger, it was evident, but what the fear emanated from. It was
not on the face. But her voice on such occasions had generally
been low lest the other would hear it, and more often than not her
between the mother and the son. “Ma, you know I am his mother,
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irritatingly rebelling against the central authority for its un-kingly
Granny’s wish, thus, to have mother as her son, in the new life,
the possibility of a new life of which granny herself had not been
change places with the princess of the story that I could have
had found fault with both, granny’s desire to have mother as her
son and my wish to change places with the princess. She, terming
different fortunes. “One can shed clothes not his fate” she had
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ruled. But, as always, the other friend had wished to differ. She,
perhaps, she had already attempted and not being destined such,
Granny, when alive, did not do much except to keep watch over
support, not counting brother for the purpose, of-course. But the
small matters and seldom a man. Again, if at all, the matter had
another woman, I was sure, or to another man for that matter. Yet
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she had generally avoided having altercation with outsiders,
need for inimical dealings with persons other than the kin. I
recalled that cold morning not so long back, when she had let a
fight, that stared nakedly, gone by, when, on counting, she had
for the lapse, granny hesitantly revealed that she had seen a ten
behavior, mother did not only not take up the matter with the
alleged thief or with any member of his family, she had even
“Ma, you know two chicks could have fetched us a new lantern.”
for long, as the small oil lamp, the only lighting device in the
house, would dimly light up a very small area around the place
where it could have been then placed keeping the rest of the
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and rightly so, as the lamp would usually be needed by the lady
mother’s concern for the comfort of the old lady and of the
animals. Perhaps, next time when she would sell chickens, she
superfluous, as she was sure that had the birds not been stolen,
her for the lapse, justifying future days of darkness, at the same
Did the darkness of those black nights add to the evilness of the
Having lived without light for more than six years I had not given
made the darkness of the room look like one big abominable
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giant, ever ready to gobble up all, granny and me including, in a
single bite. Granny too could have felt the same, as she, in no
the evil and the darkness, are not only contemporary, they are
lending support to the might of the other” she had said. “As both
however, she had further remarked, “But then the black magic of
the sorceress too gets its strength from the core of darkness.” The
fight back the black deeds of evil. Though, until then, in none of
her stories, the magic of the sorceress or of the magician had ever
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in granny’s room, at least during the course of the story telling
had then wished that granny had been a little careful in guarding
mean, as she had said, to buy a new lantern with the price of
stolen chicken.
entertaining engagement, as
ongoing war between the evil and the good, to know that the
magic of goodness had not yet failed to repulse the might of the
demon, but with the first sign of descending evening, the all
“You should not have born in a poor village like this, as nights
get the sun only in a silver roofed house that has the magic to
reflect its rays at will, at any time of the day, or of the night” she
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made of mud, I knew for certain, and the sun had already gone
down in the big river to cool off its heat of the day.
For a change, however, the small oil lamp in mother’s room had
mother did not believe in the luxury of small wastages and had
passed on strict instructions to put off the lamp when not in use,
to save on oil, she had said. Perhaps, she had dozed off,
learnt, when granny told that mother was nursing an ailing goat.
The dim light of the oil lamp, coming from the interior of the
house and filtering through small pores of the thick woven jute,
was a surprise relief. But if the darkness of the room and the
mud wall of the room were not less frightening. Instantly, a new
and unexpected glow, how faint and dim it was, willed to emerge
the sorceress? Granny had smiled again, but the smile this time
looking smile of the elder, concerned for the well being of her
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kin. “Evil in itself is magic, blackest of all magic that needs no
faces the magical glow of truth” she had said, clarifying further,
the wall had been a false display of might of the demonic, as the
source of truth then had still been a little far away. “The nearer
the flame gets, the shorter the monster turns, shrinking in size and
But the display of might of evil presently was not, at all, false.
Mother had not talked of the new lantern again and the small oil
lamp in mother’s room had been put off, hours before, as usual.
Granny had died a year back and it was now me, ever since,
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during days and take rest during nights, to recoup the strength for
next day’s labors. Lonely nights had turned colder, and a lot more
darker than these had been earlier when granny was around.
danger and sometimes I would not, and, thus, would spend the
than not I would then think of granny, of olden days when she
was alive, of her death and of her new life, if she had born again.
Granny had wished to have mother as her son in the new life.
beyond the present, or was there another life prior to the present.
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frightening as I feared to be left alone to fend for myself, to fight
the demonic evil all by myself. But, as yet, mother was still
“Life is a small bubble that soon gets deflated to get lost in the
again and again, I had seen many a times, though no one knew
for sure if it were the same water particle that got filled with the
somewhere nearby, or had gone down into the depths of the sea
But there must be new life if the story of seven worlds that
down under the earth” granny had said, meaning the earth to be
the seventh. “All seven worlds are millions miles apart from each
other and are placed one under the other in order of godly virtues
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less virtuous are relegated to the worlds below in order of the
degree of their demoniacal traits, the lower most world being the
world reserved only for the most sinful, the complete demonic.
equal distance both from the world of Gods and the world of
demons, and, as such, people here are both good and bad at the
same time, they are as much godly as they are demonic, they are
inherently is. Virtues and sins of each person are evaluated in the
end, the former being weighed against the later, and the person is
him or her to one of the upper worlds and the demonic joining
people on earth practice both virtues and sins in their life span,
they stay put in the middle, life after life, till the proportion of
due course.
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Was granny sinful or virtuous, I had wondered when she died a
year back? Had she then headed for some world up in the sky, or
the proportion of her sins had led her down to the more demonic?
How hard and long I thought had not been able to discern with
fearful who would not dare harm even a goat, much less a human
goats would often try to discipline the animals with a long, sleek
and flexible stick that she always carried for the purpose. “They
hurt too, like us” granny had said, sadly but forcefully, leaving
little to guess that she was not happy at the beating. Mother had
at least for the day. The goats did not seem to have liked the
as if they were hurt now, not earlier. Granny had feigned a smile,
perhaps, to hide her discomfiture. “But she loves them too” she
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the accusation and thereby giving the animals reason to withdraw
their displeasure.
“Why were they so worked up, ganged as a herd against the well
love,” she had said. “But the anger with which the animals had
coming out of her meekness. Fighting for their cause could have
helped her a bit. “No, they are not men to know the meaning of
act of faithfulness, of their love for the master” she had replied.
would repulse the advance of monster and not her. She would
brother and his friends, as I had learnt, who fought the non-
mother had generally been unhappy for the adventurism and was
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never appreciative of his courage. “The sin always speaks louder
than its might to make the evilness look magnified, whereas the
had ever heard or seemed louder, it was true, but then she was
neither the dumb kind of woman. She did not do much, but would
often intervene, as if finding fault. She did not speak much, but
the people on earth, as she had told, she too did not deserve to
buried in a deep pit under many layers of the earth. “ She is not
world. Yet we live with sins, life long, sins of God, if not our
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burying granny in the deep pit, from where the path could have
led only to the worlds down under and not upward in the sky, I
was sure.
elderly man had said did not make sense. Granny was not sinful,
he had agreed, yet she was buried under the earth, apparently to
really were, as the man had said, were not of old woman’s
making granny accountable for His deeds. I recalled the last story
that granny had said, in which the king, to save his kin from the
the decree of the king and through him to the will of God. If the
willed granny to own up for His sins. “Or perhaps, virtue or evil
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remembering the forgotten, “which is no less demonic than old
woman’s stories that, like her evil characters, has the will and
and the person finally meets his end.” “Is the despair God made?”
again referring the elderly man, I had asked. Mother did not
know. But she did not agree with the man either, saying that
Perhaps, she was being faithfully loyal, like her goats, absolving
jealous of the animal and angry with the woman at the same time,
and had wanted to pick up the thin flexible stick lying in a corner
to beat the goat away from the caring hands. Granny was no more
animal. But before I would dare, the animal had read my mind, it
and she too could have understood true meaning of cries that now
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goat dearly in her embrace, protecting it against human onslaught
I too was only a child I had wanted to cry in despair, craving for
dirty” trying to remember the last time mother had held me thus,
had said. Both, mother and the animal did not hear me, it seemed,
came, was not much encouraging either. “Not more dirty than the
man is” she had said, making me feel humiliated instead. But I
was a girl, not a man, I had reasoned, and mother too could have
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free left hand and held me as close as she was holding the goat
Nothing much had changed over the years, but as the time
few changes during the period. Earlier when mother would take
green tracks between the village and the long fence, about a
together for long hours. I would run after one or the other, and
the goat playfully escaping till I would finally reach it. I would
often imitate bleating of the goats and, perhaps, they too had tried
though I was never very sure. By the time we would return back
more like a goat and the goats a little more like me, with each
passing day. But out door sojourns had then come to an abrupt
end. “There are reports of non believers from across the fence
planning to attack the village” mother had told having heard from
the security men who were guarding the long track along the
barbed wire divider, and the only narrow gateway, an iron bridge,
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being killed and the animals being stolen, it was feared. While a
loss if the attackers would, somehow, reach the other side of the
village, had confined the animals to the small enclosure inside the
house, and instead would bring the grass from afar, daily, for
uncertain, but I knew for sure that they were demons, who lived
somewhere deep down in the river beyond the fence, or under the
earth where it ends, somewhere across the river, and were held at
fields.
Once playing out with them was no more possible because of the
the needs and comforts of animals more than that of her daughter.
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Her apparent preference of the goats with whom she remained
“After-all, they remain the animals that they always are and will
I had known for the first time that we were different, they the
relationships, as the friend had said, and I a human that I am, who
neglect.
advice of the elder, I had, that evening, moved about amongst the
goats quite longer than usual, not to make up for the old times
revengefulness. If they were hurt it did not show and the air of
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I could have expected. Rather, their gleeful had bleating heard
privileged status, and the apparent mocking had seemed all the
despair.
“Despair is the self acquired will of the weak who knows not how
confronted him to what mother had stated the other day, wishing
despair was said to be, as well. His visits back to the village, of
never headed back once he had left years ago. Mother, however,
explanations that he had never been happy with, that he had never
peace and he did not leave hungry again, ever, but the uneasy
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calm that then prevailed had always been as false as the
soon strike the coastlines of her eyelids once the son had stepped
recalling that fateful evening when mother had thrown away the
cooked food, I had once tried to reason with her, with her tears.
sinful or not. I had wished to ask him next of the hunger of his
misconceived mind, as mother had put it, but the jugglery of his
response that would usually make difficult hearing phrases all the
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do to others, when the false sense of helplessness overbearingly
Soon brother left with a few of his friends who had joined him,
queries and un-cleared doubts. They, the mother and him were at
variance, it was apparent, but which one of the two was true.
and even granny’s satirical grumbling when she was alive, were
shadow on the less bright in the near proximity, I had heard. Who
the man? Granny had never told. We live with God’s sin, the
that the king is, had not acted godly in the story. The belief that
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it seemed to have authorization from not less than the authority of
“Perhaps, the animal is more godly than all others, the God, the
creature, I had known for sure, and my experience with goats had
added, “that too to ward off sins of their masters, the humans.”
Not much had transpired between mother and brother for long,
but the eerie silence had then seemed more acrimonious than the
to why did she behave so differently with him, when the knock
on the door had announced the arrival of his friends and he was
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unsaid” mother had earlier avoided me. I wondered if brother
“Take care of the old lady, she needs you,” he had said.
His parting words had rung in my ears for hours, loudly sounding
that, after-all, all was not yet lost in their relationship. Mother-
son divide, how far apart it could have seemed, had a meeting
had then known. In acrimony they cared for each other as much.
Did she love him, I had impulsively asked, after brother was
entire course of her long stare that seemed to ask back the
“Why do you ask?” she had asked after a long while, looking
behavior with which I had often seen her dealing with the son to
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that of her caring attention to the animals, I had, however, kept
been aware if not me that the enmity, if at all it was so, was
short statement her love for the animals as well, it seemed, and
meant.
during nights and for a short while during day when she would be
mountain slopes. But even the need to guard the animals had
steal children too, these days” mother would often say, locking
me up. But did she really fear of her daughter being stolen, or it
there was never a report of stealing of a child. And she had never
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refrained me from playing out, otherwise, when she was at home.
groceries from the village shop, as the shopkeeper was known for
weighing less, and she would not allow me to measure goat milk,
because she feared that I might use the bigger can or might count
two for three. Small leakages drain the river, she had believed,
Despite it being one big inter related cluster that the people of the
need of one for the other was necessarily restricted to the basics,
aggressions of life, as brother had put it, and the few, like brother,
who did not subscribe to this sinful life disposal, lived fighting as
mother, always worried if they would ever win, or if the fight was
“Desire to win is the first step towards defeat” mother had finally
crying. Why were she not happy with brother fighting the
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magicians of granny’s stories, who being the saviors were
weighs virtues and sins of the man, post-death, or they were the
perpetrators who, more often than not, act out of arrogant beliefs
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of righteousness, codes, which are interpreted differently to suit
saviors, the hapless and the weak would ever unite to fight for a
cause if the demon were to attack the village. Perhaps, each one
would worry more for one’s goat, for one’s sheep, for his shop,
for her hen, for a couple of eggs, or for half a bucket of milk.
the monster, would have worried more for the safety and honor of
primarily for mere subsistence, and perhaps even with God, for
fall back upon Him to atone for their defeat. If the king had
themselves to be, did not act less kingly. They were kings in their
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authority over the less fortunate, the animals, sacrificing the
mute, in turn, to atone for their sins and to atone for their defeats.
duty, would wait for the day, for months, saving a little from their
She had gone red in face, with anger of course, for the disbelief,
how innocent it could have been. “How otherwise can one attend
I was being childishly naïve not to understand that the man could
not sacrifice self, time and again, every year, to please the Lord.
“Does not the animal have a right to devotion?” I did wish to ask,
devotion lies in the will of man, its master, as man’s devotion lies
in the will of his master, the Lord” I had surmised. But unlike the
devotion.
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“Sacrifice is a sacred ritual that guards the man against his vices”
midway narration of one of her stories granny had once told. But
goats, rearing the animals as if they were her children, only to sell
making good economic sense she would say. If granny, who once
had felt hurt at the caning of a goat, ever objected, I did not hear.
Mother, the believer that she was, however, never made offering
to the Lord on her own account. “Rearing goats for the purpose
reasoning thus. And she reared them well, year after year, caring
for their health, maintaining that to atone for man’s sins and his
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But I knew that she was not speaking the truth, despite self
she had always been hesitant to sell off last of the animals,
waiting until the very last to make up her mind. If her lucidly
day, she would eagerly await for her son’s return, perhaps, to
God, over the years, on the pious day, coupled with brother’s
believers, had kept the village saved, until the present, from the
story. Brother and his friends too could have failed to stand up to
the might of evil. Momentarily I had feared for his well being,
fearing that he could have died fighting the monster. I wished that
granny had taught him the magical tricks. But on second thought
I did realize that perhaps it was less for the lack of magical
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prowess on the part of persons fighting and the sudden attack was
Whatever the reason, the demon had struck and it had struck big,
destroying all that fell his way. He had come and was instantly
occasionally felt.
his periodic visits, a few days back, that we did have a father,
who was being held captive, for years, somewhere across the
of her stories. Or perhaps he was one from one of her stories who
could have strayed into some unknown land and was captured
and encaged by the more powerful, the magicians from across the
long fence.
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But the demon of her stories was factually invincible, I believed,
had been. Captivity of seven locks would not hold the monster
for long, I had long learned. Perhaps it could have been father
who was back to invade the village, I thus presumed. Evil sees no
small, minute old reptiles, advising them to crawl out by the time
weakness.
Father’s invasion of the village, if it was him and not the demon
had I not squeezed myself into a corner along the outer wall, I
would have been buried deep under a heap of debris, as the roof
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of the house had come crashing down, with a loud thud. But
else inside. Bruised that I were from the flying brick splinters
wished to rush to her rescue, extricate her from under the piles of
her hurt, but the small passage leading to the inner room, where
accumulations. I heard the goats bleating, two goats, one after the
wished to ignore the animals and their bleating. But the repeat
plea of mercy, this time only one, which heard quite weak,
still carried from the bygone days. Displacing broken bricks that I
could, when I finally made up to the three steps, all the animals
were dead, the tattered jute curtain that had separated me from
them, covering the lifeless bodies, like a single, one large coffin
cloth. Lifting the curtain from a corner, I saw them for a while.
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the sacrificial animals. Even the despair, of minutes before, of
distance, was not visible any more. Death had, perhaps, liberated
is not a vice in itself, I had heard granny say, as all, the lifeless
and the living, the man and the animal, appear, whenever and
wherever they do appear, for a purpose. She had then not dwelled
Leaving mother and the goats, I had moved out, away from them,
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attack, to render it virtually helpless were it to opt to be
and stumbling upon bodies, the dead and the dieing, the man and
the animal, I at last came across the old man I knew from
Fearing that perhaps he did not hear me right, I had asked again,
demon who had struck the village could have, in fact, been my
father. I had not met my sire ever before, but did not wish, sub-
serenity of all those, who having lived with the sin for so long,
curse. He did not say, unlike the other time, as to whose sins the
dead had been living with before. Perhaps, there was no need to.
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The man had gone insane it seemed, for the loss that he could
retrieve his dear ones for burying them in pits dug deep for the
purpose, like the one I had seen granny being laid into. Perhaps,
Lord! You are merciful, saving the old man the trouble of
to retrieve the dead, whosoever they were buried under the rubble
heard him, God had already disposed of his will, true to the
soul.
that next day we would continue the game from where we were
game ever again.” Perhaps, she could have meant that games are
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won or lost in one go and not in pieces, as the rules of the game
might undergo a change, in the interim. I felt sad, less for the
who had prophesied the previous evening that we might not play
boon for the costly offerings that her father made, each year, on
village, seeking his food, till the last of the humans and of the
bidding for time, to claim his meal next. Demons have strong
smelling power, granny had told, they would smell flesh from
afar. I would be the next, I was sure. It was only a matter of time,
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hungry. That I was his daughter he would not know, or like the
marry the monster, and the big brother who could fight him off,
back that father was being held captive, for years, on the other
dare to go back to the other side, so soon after his release. But
kafirs on the other side, even if not demons were enemies who
would steal our goats, mother had once told having heard from
why a particular instinct had an upper hand, I did not know, but
where I once used to play for long hours with the animals,
towards the long fence, to be away from the fear of attack of the
side.
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(part 3)
engraving but more for the motive behind, which I knew was as
self serving. From the mind I had come to get extended onto
human heart and ultimately onto the earth crust, dividing it into
dog against one for the other. Mass exodus that than followed
from one end to the other had been unnerving, I was mercilessly
hues, if it were not they who had cunningly laid me there first to
unsaid that I was being unholy asking such, as from what they
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had heard from the keepers of faith, I was perceived to be a
occasionally, and was cursed at the same time for being the cause
across the other side. But I had withstood travesties of time, if not
talk of kafirs, the non-believers, on the one side, and I had heard
each side daring the other, always. I had suffered at their hands,
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emotionally and physically, living with the aggression and the
falsehood, staying put and hoping for better days to come, when
they would again deal with one another as a man to man, and not
man, I was sure, as the man, with all the aggression and
be the God of people from one side, I had thought, God of the
force inimical to both, the kafirs and the terrorists, had struck big,
of the kafirs and the God of the terrorists had come face to face,
in a war that lasted few moments, leaving its foot prints for
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generations to learn from. People lied dead and houses
better position, now buried under the debris of towers they were
Far off, the big river had got breached, water gushing out,
drowning the man and the material, the dead and the living.
It was then that I saw them, the child and the old man, the child
barely of seven it seemed in the north, and the man who looked
much beyond age in the south, one quite younger to find her way
right, and the other too old to tread upon an unknown new path.
But they had already set in, leaving their shadows behind,
thousands and thousands of persons from both the sides, over and
was quite new. But then I had always known their motives and
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or of nationalism that they swore by, in its true spirit, to frighten
and of the old were beyond scrutiny. They would not mean
around time and again, for some support perhaps, or it could have
each other, in the no man’s land, on the narrow man made iron
gateway that allowed wind to pass from the land of kafirs to the
kafirs.
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I was offended of the accusation, but had kept quite, knowing
the wind, these always being one time travelers, would never be
able to discern the difference between the two, the kafir and the
terrorist.
The bridge which had been under day and night surveillance, for
having perished with its fall, earlier. I saw the child and the old
mad looking man standing at opposite ends, each eyeing the other
bridge, moving along its sharp and uneven edges, in itself was a
they seemed hell bound to ignore the danger. Yet they seemed to
Returning back now was beyond their senses, more so, because
the areas separated by the long fence, erected for the purpose,
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Keeping eyes fixed on the opposite side, and apprehensive of an
descending down the broken iron bridge, which was now hanging
loose from both the ends in a deep pit in the middle. The pit was
not there when I had seen the bridge last, an evening before. It
seemed that the earth, in its bid to play neutral in the ongoing war
between the mighty two, the kafirs and the terrorists, and as a
own core far below this very point, and the pit which would
below the surface. It was ages, it seemed, before they, the child
gripping them both, fear for the safety of the other one. Each one
had run away from an imminent threat, whereas the other was
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now heading towards it, unknowingly. Each one felt sorry for the
other, for the fate that awaited him or her. It was the child who
could be the demon she was running from, for all she knew. The
told. But no, the man could not be the evil creature, on second
thought she doubted. The old man looked older, much older,
younger, and the old man looked weak, almost fragile, whereas
monstrous proportions.
The old man was taken by surprise. It seemed that the child had
read his mind, had stolen words from his lips, and just repeated
child for her dare, he kept quite. Getting angry with children was
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mischievous, irritatingly mischievous. Moreover, the child,
playfulness may be. “But it is you who are playing with danger
her father being a demon on prowl that she had escaped from was
most disturbing. The very thought made her feel inferior, made
up of the lesser material, of the lesser God, who, as the old man
on granny’s death had said, sins more for the man to live up with.
know. But she did not want him to suffer fate as she had seen
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village, and of the death of villagers, including her mother and
the goats, opining that the demon might still be there for her to
take risk of returning back, and for him to dare cross the bridge to
Baffled, the man saw at the child foolishly. She had not only read
understand, that the terrorist would harm his own people, would
attack the very side he was said to have come from. Had his son
not been brought up under different faith across the fence, his
well meaning. If she were telling the truth, she too, like him, had
survived fatal attack and was running for safety. Perhaps, he was
But it was demon across the fence, if he had heard the child right.
Gods, who had once lived on earth, thousands of years ago, but
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not any more. The child thus must be a fool talking of demons, or
the people on the other side of the fence still lived in olden days,
omitting to mention that the terrorist who had attacked the village
was his own son. Perhaps, true to the human nature, he had
from where they had come from. Perhaps, the hollowness of the
the reach of the demon or of the terrorist, was the only safe place.
security reinforcements from both the sides, and were taken away
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back towards their respective villages, perhaps, to question them
for their audacity of violating sanctity of the long fence, the line
of control.
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