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Two-page rant by W. Wayne Karr (1954-1995), Los Angeles AIDS activist who along with Cory Roberts Auli (died 1996) published the zine Infected Faggot Perspectives.
Two-page rant by W. Wayne Karr (1954-1995), Los Angeles AIDS activist who along with Cory Roberts Auli (died 1996) published the zine Infected Faggot Perspectives.
Two-page rant by W. Wayne Karr (1954-1995), Los Angeles AIDS activist who along with Cory Roberts Auli (died 1996) published the zine Infected Faggot Perspectives.
love myself the way I am. It has not made my life infinitisimally better nor has it shed any terribly revealing lights on me. AIDS sucks and AIDS taught me how to scream. I scream in pain in the middle of the night terrified and alone with this monster devouring my body and fairly effectively breaking my spirit too. I scream when yet another friend succumbs. I scream at the television and newspapers when someone lies about yet another cure or when someone starts morali lng about the plague. I scream at a govern~ent and people who sat back and watchea as my comrades were systematically eliminated. I scream at genocide. I scream at sexism as scores and scores of women die who cannot even access treatment. I scream at homophobia and heterosexism that fuel the fires of this pandemic. I scream at all of this and much, much more. I'm not saying life -all of life including AIDS and death shouldn't be a learning experience for of course it is. I just find it so selfish and thoughtless to proclaim to anyone much less the world - the wondrous benefits to be reaped by suffering this vile illness! There is a cold selfishness and some degree of judgement of others as one goes expounding the virtuous achievements and changes AIDS has brought to their life. Usually these are people who for the most part are relatively asymptomatic and have yet to experience their first ass-kicking, buttbeating opportunistic infection; rarely are ~hese AIDS-bl~~sed types coye~ed in lesions
or writhing in pain as their insides are
cryptosporidiosis or being devoured by mycobacterium atypical intracellular or some other disease you can produce more easily than you can endure! Has AIDS changed my life? You bet! I lost my career and for the most part have given up dreaming. Or my dreams have AIDS restrictions on them ... you know well no you can't go to the jungle for 6 months but a few days wouldn't hurt or I can insert my sheathed cock in your butt but I will never again experience the wonderfully erotic sensation of me naked and unsheathed inside of you ... and on and on and on. The damage done by those who sing praise to the Lord-God-Life-Taker-Almighty-AIDS is immeasurable. Everytime an uninfected bimbo reads one of those stories every person who has ever suffered from this disease is instantly ivalidated & forgotten. Wouldn't you rather remember a sunny afternoon at the beach than a cold and dreary and wet evening spent locked in the fruit cellar? Of course you would and of cou~se you do. If I wanted to yodel I wouldn't sit around waiting for AIDS to teach me. I won't learn to dance because of AIDS & AIDS certainly won't teach me to love myself the way I am .. You see ... I have always loved myself the way I am ... even before AIDS! END