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Jessica McCallum
December 6th, 2016
Drug Criminalization in America
Part 4
Core Question: Is the criminalization of drugs in America the best way to deal with the issue?
Disclaimer: This poem is a narrative, and does not portray a specific individual, but the general
concepts.
1
It happens too often than not that a horse breaks its leg, and has to be put down
Because what type of life is one where you cant run,
or feel free
To run
and freedom is being grounded in our connection with Mother Earth
That's why we push ourselves to go to the ends of the world
I once knew a free climber who rarely executed a flaw
She would find her limit and test it
Could find her goal and push til she arrived
That's not why she belonged on the jagged face
She could read the slope flawlessly
It was as if she were the kin of our mother
She would flow up the mountain with infatuation
She was home
Among others, she trekked off to a D, her hardest of climbs
Deciphering the face
Double checking gear
Constructing her headspace, she was ready
But an anchor was not
She crashed into a ledge from twenty or so feet up
Writhing in pain, she passed out from complete and utter shock
Her next conscious memory was opening her eyes in a white room,
in a white bed,
with a white floor,
and an older white woman wearing white
from head to toe at her bedside
Looking as she was about to lean forward and try to sit up,
The elderly woman remarked, Dont do that dear. You're going to hurt yourself
You fractured your t 1-4 and broke your c7, you broke your back honey...
2
Do you know what it's like to fall in a loop and lose track of time
To not know or care enough to look at the day or the time
To not be able to feel blades of grass in between your toes
To not be able to taste the crisp morning air?
Instructed to ingest two pills, every four hours, id be poppin all day
Whether or not I was in the sandmans grasp, weighing heavy on my normality
They helped me get better, made me feel better
Leading me back to myself
By the fourth of many PT sessions to go, I caught my foot, stumbling into the wall
Slamming my side, grinding my frail bones
My lungs breathless, mind thoughtless, psyche hopeless
My next dosage wasnt till noon, another 40 minutes
But I didnt care, I needed it now
I slipped my hand into my bag and wrapped my lips around the little pills
The next thing I knew I was able to breathe
I began looking forward to disruption from my slumber
They didn't just make PT bearable
They could transform any situation
And allow you to find pleasure in the abyss of pain
I upped my dosage, to what I saw fit
It wasnt til 30 pills and four days left that I realized what Id done
My train of thought frantically raced around, seeking a solution
Ill just take a pill and a half instead
The first dosage didnt feel right
I was on the brink of pleasure
I needed more
More More More
Four days came to zero, I was empty
Intellectually, my body didnt need it any more
Internally, in a state of shock How the hell will I get through the day?
The day was one thought in my mind
Little pills
Incomplete
Out of sync
Removed from my self
An untamed urge eating at my conscience
I was seeking headspace by reading a book
Too jittery and too anxious
Ignoring my unease I forced myself to buckle down and read
Straining my eyes, striking a splitting headache
I rifled my pill cabinet, feening for relief
Self initiated
Perpetuated
Provided
Dealer nourished
My independent escape
Loathing confrontation
Alone
Detrimental accessibility
Vital regimen
Psychological arrear
Cretinous lust
Delinquent delusion