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I was next in line to take the school wide reading test. I could see my friend, Liam
in front of me reading aloud to the proctor, as she wrote down what were undoubtedly
mistakes that Liam was making. I knew by now that if the proctor was writing, it was not
a good sign. I felt this pressure the last time I took this test, which was last year in the
fourth grade. I could feel the fear and anxiety flow through my body as though it was
replacing my blood with a cold and heavy liquid metal. You did it last year, you can do
it this year, I thought to myself as Liam got up from the seat across the room and began
walking towards me. Knowing I was next, I felt shivers crawl all along my back each step
he took towards me. My heart began trying its hardest to break itself out of my chest
cavity. He walked up to me and wished me luck. I made my way over to the table and
took my seat. I looked across at my proctor with fearful eyes and she smiles back at me.
My anxiety, the dark looming presence that haunts my confidence now begins to recede a
little, but I knew it was still there waiting for a good moment to strike. I began reading
and was able to get through the first paragraph without any slip-ups. It was looking good
until I lost track of what line I was on. I started repeating the previous line and then I felt
the shivers begin to climb throughout my body and resonate at my neck once again. It
took me a moment to realize what was happening, and then I heard it. The ballpoint pen
me. I never enjoyed reading out loud to people nor did I enjoyed having people read my
work. I believe this stemmed from a lack of confidence, which itself came from to a lack
of interest with writing and reading in general. This mentality stuck around with me for a
lot of my life until I decided to better develop my literacy skills. My insecurity and
general lack of interest towards my reading and writing abilities initially served as a
Reading and writing have always been my weaker subjects in school. As a child I
never really felt the urge to read for pleasure. My parents divorced when I was around 3
years old and I ended up being raised by my mother. Since my mother had to work and I
had not yet started school, my mom would take me to my grandmothers house before
most days while my mom was at work. My grandmother only spoke Spanish, which
became my first language. I could understand and speak Spanish relatively well.
Unfortunately, due to both a laziness to continue and a lack of exposure, I never truly
became fluent in Spanish once I started grade school. I would argue that this was one of
my earliest literary memories. Although it ends in what many might consider failure, this
My mom met my future stepfather, George when I was five years old so around
the same time I started school. As I started school, there became an obvious increase in
the amount of reading and I writing I did or better said forced to do. Though I still had a
lack of interest in it. George loved me like one of his own and with that he called me on
things. He saw that I never bothered reading and him being an avid reader, he wanted to
change that. He would often try to coax me to read with a type of reward. His sort of
incentive to get me to read was giving me five dollars for every book I read. This worked
at first, but my keen young mind found it easier to fake having read the books and lie.
Looking back at it now I regret doing this, but also detest the idea of being bribed into
reading. It felt dehumanizing almost as if I was a dog being taught a new trick. At this
point in my life the only memorable literary events in my life were followed by a sudden
literacy skills, no desire to be better than the previous times I have tried. It was during
this realization where I felt a transition in spirit to learn. No more laziness to learn
something new, no more fear to speak publicly, no more desperation to make money at
the cost of my education. My teachers and my parents hadnt inspired me enough to start
reading or writing on my own so why was I waiting for this change to happen out of
nowhere. If I was going to start trying to better develop my literacy, I was going to do it
on my own terms.
It was around the time I was getting to middle school when my urge to better
develop my literary skills developed. Middle school was a difficult transition for me. The
multiple teachers and something called homeroom. My homeroom teacher would take
attendance every day and then force us to read for the remainder of the time spent there.
Events book series. In homeroom, we were forced to read for the entire period and I
wasnt going to stare at a book for thirty minutes pretending to read like I did in
kindergarten. I needed to find something that can actually carry my interest even for just
thirty minutes a day. I saw another student reading one of the books and the cover image
captivated me. It looked so interesting and unique compared to the other books I had been
exposed to. I gave the books a shot and started reading the first one. The story hooked me
instantly and changed my idea of what books can really be. The story was unique at least
to me, with a dark tone, a strange group of main characters, and at this point the most evil
antagonist I have ever experienced in a story at that time. I never felt this sort of general
interest in a book before. I began reading the series, but I never did finish it, stopping four
books from the end of the series. Although I didnt end up finishing the set of books, this
It wasnt till about high school where I began to actually develop a continued
interest in literacy. Going to a magnet school focused on science and math and located
outside of the Los Angeles Zoo allowed me to become exposed to both science writing
and reading at a developed level. This was where I found my real love in regards to
literacy, science writings and readings. I always was naturally skilled in science, which
made me fond of the topic. Me having been exposed to upper level science courses,
which of course required reading was less of burden to me. I began to actually want to
read and learn more about animals specifically. This lead to me becoming a Wildlife
I have had many different memories of literacy throughout my life and many of
the memorable ones especially as a child were moments of weakness. They were
out of my comfort zone and expand myself as an individual. It is these memories that
gave me the ability to find my passions in literacy both in academics and in personal
interests. Although many of my literacy memories thought my life have not all been
positive, they have led me to develop my literacy skill to the point it is today.