Earlier this afternoon I attended a talk in my institution about a fresh

graduate of UST-CFAD, Daniel Evangelista, who was majoring in

painting.

This entry is about my observations on the said talk, not just to Daniel
(btw, who is just at my age) but to all my schoolmates and arki-mates.
Daniel talked about his painting career from 2007 to current year. He
talked about his experiences, struggles, inspirations and frustrations
during his school days. On the first part of his talk was really boring, i'm
not impressed with his painting skills 'cause i've seen better and I have
friends from UPD-FA so I know what is a beautiful painting. But I
respect and fully appreciate his belief in traditional way of painting a
large canvass compared to new artists nowadays who are using
projection. He got my attention when he introduced his thesis which
was a large canvass of painting of different women with clinical
depression. It WAS beautiful and heart breaking. Every detail of it has
emotions and full of passion. He took pictures of his women friends and
created a multiple exposure. While he was explaining his experiences
with his friends who have clinical depression, I felt terrified and I was
teary-eyed (I dont know want to cry in public). Because somehow I
know the feeling of having depression but CLINICAL depression was
another thing. It is a serious disorder and it can kill a person. He also
said that some of his friends turned or already dead (Hindi ko na narinig
sinabi n'ya because I was so caught up of thinking about them). Sobrang
nakakatakot na nakakalungkot dahil at the same time I'm having
problems with my family and naiisip ko lang that time gusto kong
mag-break down but I can't dahil sobrang daming tao. Just thinking of
his study sobrang nakakagulo na sa utak, like right now naiiyak ako
while typing this. Thankful din ako sa crowd dahil sila naging
distractions ko dahil sa sobrang ingay nila but also I feel saddened na
wala silang pakialam to the speaker and to the artwork and lalo na
doon sa mga babaeng with clinical depression. I was exhausted and my
eyes were getting drowsy dahil 4 consecutive days na akong
natutulog ng 4 AM at hindi ko kayang mag-function at mag-ask ng
questions sakanya but I'm glad na ganun yung naging study n'ya and
happy to know din na some of his friends were on the 4th month of
therapy. Yes, hindi man related sa field kong architecture pero natuwa
ako on his talk despite of being young and being born in this
uncompassionate generation. Btw, meron din pala siyang disorder
before, he said nags-stutter daw siya when he is in front of the crowd.
Pero as of now okay na siya.