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C AT E G O RY A RC H I V E S : 1 9 5 6 C U LT U R A L E XC H A N G E
Dear Sir,
During Oct 1956 I had the honour of being a guest in your Institute.
The charm and beauty of your country continues to grow in my
memory.
You will not remember Utzo bumping a mudguard & having to get it
fixed at Orasul Stalin (Brasov) and you drearily walking with me all over
town looking for him & eve(ntually) finding the villain near the railway
crossing & the pigs squealing off in the trucks. No of course not. But I
remember your charming boyfriend who broadcast in English. He was
very nice yet I suppose you never got around to marrying him. So
many things I recollect after sixteen years, so meaningless, so really
unnecessary to any great communist purpose as you had at that time.
However, if I was too shy or too lousy to show it I loved you for being
my mamitza, still do.
No matter if you are fat and nearly forty full of bambinos & polenta,
please say one kind memory if you remember.
Arrivederci.
SUMMER IN ROMANIA
by
W.E. Pidgeon
P. OShaughnessy
F. Hardy
Being the impressions of three Australians visiting Romania.
[Transcribed from a copy of a report in three parts by artist, William
Edwin Pidgeon; writer, Frank Hardy (part missing); and actor, Pat
OShaughnessy.]
Two girls who met me at the airport said it was a Romanian Indian
Summer.
It was a nice city from the air-not over big-ringed by lakes and an easy
countryside. Comfortable looking too.
But what can one see from 1000 m of the lives, aspirations, frustrations
and despairs of a million people below?
Bucharest, founded on the site of a Roman Fortress, has had a long and
chequered history, overrun often by Turkish, Austrian, German and
Russian invaders.
Many armies, sweeping into Romania, carrying off the produce of its
soil; but the people remaining; proud of their distant Roman
connections; speaking a Latin language; maintaining their distinctive
quality; an isolated group now associated with others of alien tongue in
a common endeavour to achieve some measure of the theoretically
perfect state of socialist welfare.
Down the broad tree-lined streets, through the swelling autumn leaves,
past the showpiece parks, past the patient women sweepers, and
squashing over the mongrel chestnuts which an occasional stooping
figure is gathering for pig food. Past the Russian Memorial, its beds
ablaze with red salvia, threading through the once ritzy embassy
quarters, and down a long and narrow shopping street to the Athenee
Palace Hotel which sits on the end of the square that fronts the ex-royal
palace. The Athenee, main accommodating house for foreign visitors;
in prewar days the stomping ground of elegant women, diplomats,
officers and big commercial men; now a bedlam of tongues, skilfully
unscrambled by the young interpreters. It is as though one were living
under the clock in the Central Railway Station. It is all talk, meetings
and appointments-interminable comings and goings. Rough red wines,
beer, the inevitable tzuica (plum brandy) and the favourite dry white
wine-a hock drunk with mineral water-and food! Mountains of food, at
prices well beyond the average pocket. Tiny national flags brighten the
tables, identifying this group as Bulgarians, that as Koreans, another as
Swedes, there are Italians, and here Australians. Footballers, union
delegates, poets, marksmen, painters and agriculturalists, anything
you like, some on goodwill missions, others on jours of critical
investigation, some merely competitive sportsmen from neighbouring
Communist states, but all guests of the Romanian government which
seeks to extend its relations with foreign countries.
I never had time to see the inside Bucharest. What lay behind the
diverse facades, those plastered fillers that sat so discreetly behind the
fading leaves. Many must have been built since 1918, for the
population was then only 350,000. French culture dominated the city,
influencing much of the domestic architecture with its delegates. The
hierarchy appear to reside in the more well kept of these homes, while
others with a tired look, are rumoured out to those of more humble
status. No one seems interested in the maintenance of these often
charming lodgings, for revolutionaries societies are inordinately proud
of, and busy with, their latest and greatest projects. Over occupied
mansions are falling apart at the corners, while the interiors of full of
inhabitants who are seething with dialectical ideas on how to build the
future.
seen in operation, but did not-a beautiful concrete shell, with a neo-
Grecian concrete stage beneath a lovely autumn night. It is in projects
like this that one senses the urge for the full life. People with scarcely a
pants to their suit clamouring for, and getting, riches in the simplicities
of art. Occupying considerably less space than a Drive in Movie, the
theatre is quite elemental ineffective design (see illustration [location
unknown]).
In a large recreation ground in front of the entrance to the theatre the
more active and intrepid of the 23 of Augustians can devote
rd
Down past the ex-Royal Palace, unimpressive and dead looking in the
cool autumn mist, yet alive within, for it houses now the capitals Art
Gallery, with its superb El Grecos and carefully roped off Rembrandts.
Down to the bottom end of the town, passing some womenfolk queued
up for short supplies. Round by the old massive Palace of Justice, a turn
to bring you down by the river, the Domboditza, of which it is said, he
who drinks of the waters comes to drink again. Not that one can
imagine accepting any part of this now scruffy stream which seems to
disappear beneath the bustling square, perhaps to re-appear
somewhere further on in an even sadder state. Up the ancient hill to
arrive at the heart of the old civic centre, and a short way on, the
barracks alongside as your footsteps clatter over the cobbled streets,
through which the laden tram cars run down to the city and a new day.
Back over the river, dawdling to watch the little stands offering their
freshly cooked pastries and sweets. Through a fine park its drives and
footways circling the lake, the skiffs quietly moored and the statues
gleaming in the early light. Through a market square to which the
outside peasants have brought, in their quaint carts, the daily offering
of vegetables and fowl.
A cold snap has stampeded the proletariat into doing up their shirt
collars, and an amazing collection of headwear comforts the hitherto
hatless heads. Caps, berets, battered felts, and occasional homberg,
and assorted styles in strakan bob up and down the streets. Now
looming up a railway station to dole and dreary to be associated with
the romance, fictional and otherwise of the Orient Express. It IS
Bucharest Station and London is a whole continent off.
Later you realise you have got yourself bushed, for maps of the city
seem to be unobtainable, and in the quiet residential area no
recognisable landmark is in sight. It is impossible to ask where you are,
or the way back. Nothing for it but to follow a tramline and hope it
leads you to, and not from, the city itself. It is a lucky day and a couple
of miles more place you nicely on the spot and just in time for
breakfast at the pub. Such pleasant and completely unrestricted
wandering sets you up in the receptive mood for the conducted round
that starts at nine.
But you can sense the enthusiasm. Bookshops jammed with paper
backed volumes on every cultural and technical subject. Foreign
language books in English, French, German and Russian-above all
Russian-the secondary educational language-all the scientific works
copied straight from the Soviet presses. It is somehow moving to see
these, until recently, comparative illiterate people taking such huge
gulps of knowledge-it is a banquet, and all are feasting.
My mica mamitza (little mother-I had to call her that because I could
hardly eat or drink without her help) was somewhat sour-but, being
young, she forgot quickly when dear old Ute later at the Hotel dinner
offered her his latest in the dancing line. Greatly emboldened, I asked a
Hungarian lass for a dance. Beyond the marble floor, in the more
reticent cubicles, sat the English ambassador, ginger-ish and
impenetrable. I enjoyed my dance but neither of us could make any
sense of my execrable pidgin German. But it made her laugh.
And not a fence to be seen. All the land so carefully gone over and
worked through the centuries that each square foot is recognisable,
and forever placed in its relationship with its neighbour stop whole
families of peasants stop of their timeless four wheeled carts, drawn by
a pair of oxen, or more expensive horses, streaming out of the frequent
hamlets, towards their known and inviolate plot, marked only by the
mutually recognised boundaries invisible in the waiting soil. Here the
cart rests, and the oxen go to the plough, the man to his furrows and
the women to their cutting and sowing. All day in the fields with a
break for the midday meal and a pull at the painted clay water pitchers
calling in the shade of the wagon. At dusk, a heel to toe stream back to
the village, the younger people exchanging carts-holding hands.
And the shepherds; older than revolution and war, dressed as you
fondly hoped they would be. In tight white trousers, white aprons,
embroidered waistcoats and sheepskin cloaks, they shout and batter
the sheep (so many of them the black and long-haired dreams of fairy
tales), off the road before the approach of the imperious car.
TWO
The Rumanians are energetic in keeping their folk music vital and alive.
Everything possible is being done to record and print extent tunes from
every province in the country, and much encouragement is given to
the emergence of new themes of folk song. Ballads like The Song of
the Tractor or The Light (electric) Has Come extoll the symbols of
the new life in the same way as other generations honoured the
images significant to them.
The doina tells of need, grief, textile and death. It takes the shape of
threat against oppression, it celebrates wine and carousel,
contemplates and worships the Creation. And persistently it intones
love. The doina follows the peasant, step-by-step, from infancy until his
end from lullaby to elegy.
In the Athenee Concert Hall I heard the Barbu Lautaru group give a
most exciting two hours concert, playing the whole time with
seemingly inexhaustible vehemence. Forty-five musicians-tarragots-all
playing in ruthless fury. The emotion flowing in controlled and canalised
perfection-faster and faster and faster to an atomic cessation. The
great seething vibrance cut dead, with the precision of a guillotine, by
the downbeat of conductor Budisteanus baton. Soloists were many
who had been proclaimed laureates of their craft at different musical
festivals, the most popular being Maria Tanase, a slender good-looking
girl who sang Gypsy songs with passion. The great cries of Bis! Bis!
Bis! (which means encore) were ignored only by sheer physical
exhaustion.
Apart from the two hot months August and September, the opera
houses in Bucharest and the bigger provincial towns are open every
night to full houses. Prices are not low, although there are concession
nights for youth and factory worker groups. The Opera and Ballet
Theatre of the Romanian Peoples Republic in Bucharest was built in a
few months for the World Youth Festival of 1953. Much involuntary
labour was incorporated in the building. The interior is most
comfortable, and largely elegant with its sweeping stairways and
marbled paved foyers and bars.
THREE
Being largely of Latin descent the Rumanians are quite at home with
the emotionalism of the Italian Opera. I had the good fortune to see
performances of Aida and Rigoletto, but missed seeing any of the
works of the Russian composers.
As most of these operas and concerts begin about 7:30 p.m., and you
cannot have your dinner at the hotel before 8:30 p.m., you are often
distracted by the thoughts of food. But at 10:30 p.m. the artistry is
over and the eating begins. The Athenee Palace Hotel Orchestra plays
tirelessly-folk songs, Viennese waltzes, German Polkas, English ballads,
and even an occasional American hit-sad to say the musicians
confessed complete ignorance of Waltzing Matilda-but if I could have
hummed the tune with any assurance at all, I am sure they would have
played it.
Before me is a copy which quotes (as part of the cold buff a preceding
the main courses) Sardines a Lhuille Jugoslave 22.50 Lei-the dearest
dish in the place. Sardines, mark you!
Salade cavaire carpe is only 5.40, and you get more than you can eat-
very good too, even if it is not the high and mighty sturgeon.
3.50 for 100 grams of lemon when it is only 5.85 for the best part of
pound of ham. And 5.40 for a great plateful of wonderful smoked pork.
7.50 for an omelette aux fines herbes, and for a mere 9.40 a whacking
huge plate of roast pork, or 11.80 for half a chicken; 11.40 for vol-au-
vent financiere.
Only 1.55 for pickled whole capsicums, 1.25 for cucumber with a
dressing: that 7.40 four filtered coffee. But then coffee is a distant
import and is paid for in a hard currency market.
So you can see not too many Rumanians eat out of their own purse in
this establishment-especially when they know that one meal will set
them back the best part of a weeks wages. But it is no worse than
eating at the Ritz.
Pyjamas 120
FOUR
The youth who desire to become artists are selected from the final
school grade, and are admitted to the Institute of Plastic Arts where
they are given an allowance during thorough six-year course of training
which lies ahead.
Usually sells his work through the Union, and its local committees;
much as if he were to sell through, the commission by, the various
selection boards of societies of artists which exist in Australia of course
there is nothing to stop him selling his work to individuals, from what
little I could see, I doubt whether any individuals were either willing, or
economically capable of doing so.
The fundamental patron is the State-or, if you like, the Unions, and
other bodies associated with the apparatus collective management.
From here we move into the consideration of what all this works out in
terms of the living wage.
The Plastic Union also stages exhibitions (the works in which are for
sale), encourages discussions between artists and laymen, and
generally makes every attempt to synthesise their often opposed
points of view.
He told me that for the big works it was usually he, one day or month,
so to speak, and someone else, the next.
Of course, he does not get this fee all the time. I understand there are
certain fixed prices-minimum, average and maximum and that juries
consider the necessity, appropriateness and value of the ideas
submitted.
On top of all this the living and creative conditions of the artist are
given special consideration, for it is the accepted thing in this society
that the artist should be spared all possible distractions.
If the artists work and ideas are well received he may be allocated
special quarters in one of the numerous Houses of Creation, which
resemble private hotels housing a community of interests. He is given
accommodation, congenial working quarters, and dining and assembly
facilities.
The architecture with its warm bricks and slender pillars has a Muslim
touch, probably influenced by the Turks who dominated the country
from many generations. Byzantine gold mosaics paves the main foyer
where now the proletarian artist treads and meditates.
House of Creation number two was a much more modest affair, set in a
nice clump of trees in the best residential area of the town itself, and is
the workplace of painters and top sculptors, Medres and Baraski.
Monstera Deliciosa was set in pots around the veranda facing the
lawns.
Newspaper artists working for the daily press get 500 600 Lei for
each cartoon that appears. They are not on the staff, and are a body of
freelance men who make themselves available at extra short notice,
like their colleagues anywhere else in the world. So we see that even
three or four drawings of week puts these men in the upper crust
bracket.
I did not have time to find out how the Artisans, like ceramic workers,
woodcarvers, wrought iron workers, embroiderers and the like were
paid, but their productions had the technical excellence, and were
quite as skilful in design as those of the traditional folklore masters.
The exhibitions sponsors were the Ministry for Culture, the Union of
Plastic Arts, the Ministry for Light Industry, and the Artisans
Cooperatives. In his official speech Mr Mac Constantinescu sculptor,
and Professor of Decorative Art, made the following points.
Romanian art faces now social aspects of life, and if there are many
difficulties to be contended with, it is for us to find a way to surmount
them.
There is no doubt there are still great problems, but if all creative
forces are stimulated, the artist, or Artisan, knows that in overcoming
them he will be able to do something for society, and will be aware of
the importance of his work in the decorative ensemble.
I think that within these few remarks one finds the central problem of
social start. Or, to be more explicit, the essential contradiction in
Socialist realism which has not yet been synthesised. On the one hand
we have the demand for experiments and innovations from the
technical and conceptual points of view, on the other, that these
experiments and innovations the only worthy when accepted by the
public.
No doubt a free Socialist art is possible. But there is little evidence that
socialism has yet brought forth anything of universal significance in the
plastic arts. It is possible to sympathise with the aspirations of
socialism yet be completely unmoved by its artistic lecturings. I feel
that the Rumanians, and artistic race, are somewhat ware of this,
although at the present stage of their social development they are
overburdened with official Soviet dogma on such matters. In theory the
Rumanians are free to paint in any manner they choose so long as they
are sincere and passionate in their interpretation of life (Mr Mircea
Deac, who is Director of the Fine Arts Department, a member of The
Plastic Arts Union, and art critic, informs me that there is nothing to
stop an artist painting in any style whatever, that official recognition is
given to those who are sincere, and present the socialistically
conceived realities of life. The artist is expected to describe life
passionately, and the form in which the artist elects to do so is left to
him.) But who was the adjudicator of passion and sincerity?
In practice, the artists reflect the official directives of the optimistic and
heroic socialism in terms of naturalism that is to be understood by the
dullest of wits. Art is used as an instrument in the education of the
masses, and in this respect much of it is scarcely different in essence
(although it is in aim) from the insinuative commercial artwork
produced in the West.
However, the artistic Rumanians may yet find room for another
innovator, such as Brancusi, one who, while not immediately intelligible
to the public, will not be constrained by official thinking.
In Bucharest I read in the Soviet News (Oct. 16. 1956) and article
entitled Granting Indulgence to Modernism? By Mattias Sokolsky.
Speaking of musicians, which we can equate with artists, he says; As
for dodecafonia, it was never prohibited in this country and is not
prohibited now. Even if the idea should it ever occur to anyone to do
so, the fact remains there is nothing to prohibit. Dodecafonia has never
presented any temptation to Soviet composers. Dodecafonia is
something alien to their aesthetic tastes, their ethical views and their
creative aspirations.
Soviet musicians write for the people-that is their credo, the force that
unites them. In this they strive to carry on the traditions of the classics.
Dodecafonial music, on the other hand is egoistic. It is music not even
for a chosen few that at best for a single person. The platform of the
dodecafonists can hardly hope to unite musicians, for by its very nature
it estranges the musician from life, turns him into an egocentric. And it
is not a question of the individual inclinations or good intentions of the
dodecafonist. It is a question of a whole system of views, the very
essence of dodecafonia, which is divorced from the life and interests of
the people.
Also Karl Radek said, Socialist Realism means not only knowing reality,
as it is that whether it is moving. It is moving towards socialism, it is
moving towards the international proletariat. And a work of art created
by a socialist realist is one which shows wither that conflict of
contradicts is leading which the artist has seen in life and reflected in
his work.
Yet there is no doubt that there has been a gain to art to the world in
that at least in one country art is a social inspiration, is far removed
from a filling in the abstract that subsists on the support of a small
coterie, but expresses the emotional experience of the community at
large whose restrictions to it have an immediate effect on the attitude
and style of the artist
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Wed 28-Nov-56: Roamed around Zurich & caught plane at 7:30 back to
Aust.
Sun 2-Dec-56: Arrived Mascot 7am. Met by Dorothy, Graham & Trellie
John Boyce in at dinner in evening.
The Fullerton Building (now a hotel) with the Fullerton Road bridge in front, Singapore; 30 November
1956
Singapore; 30 November 1956
I am now changed from the comfortable Lorelei Express into the local
Swiss train to Zurich and the seats are wood and feel like concrete
under the behind. I am in proud and solitary splendor one dame
having just fled from the presence into a ladies non-smoker. All of
which is as it should be.
I assure you this is the evenings finale. It has been a long day & I think
I have just about said everything that has entered my head during the
first leg home. Do you still think being together has its delights? If so,
when? Now?
I dont know when God is going to stop looking after me. Im tired and
unshaven but I am very happy because people have been nice to me &
I am now lying down in the second bridal suite I have been in since I
left home. The first was at Grnwald near Munich, remember. I hope I
dream about you tonight. When I got to this Hotel Italia in Zurich,
Kings friend had gone the last 4 years. There was no room but
somehow someone moved & here I am in a perfect spot for a thing or
two, the way I am, three. Anyway darling, I am happy after an
exhausting day all told. And I will be on a plane towards you both
tomorrow. I know that I will be home before this letter but I cant help
wanting you now and the only way I can have you is by writing. As I
hear the footsteps padding off up the road, or street, I have not seen. I
think it becoming to say goodnight, my very dear, and completely,
honey chile.
Posted in 1956 Cultural Exchange | Tagged Basel, George Chirico Station, Hotel
Italia, King Watson,Lorelei, Switzerland, Zurich | Leave a reply
The Rhine! Not so impressive as one would want give away history
and its accompanying romance, leave away the towns, and you have
only a moderate river finding its own way to its level. But who can
leave aside its Romance. That is the Rhine, surely. Not the great
bombed out areas for the really dreary German grey flats & dwellings.
The inevitable bare trees ghosts of the past sit by the edge with their
feet in the continuity of time. Whats wrong with the Germans! They
look docile enough, but some mad concept is behind their being. Gas
chambers, mass destruction Valkyrie & the rest. It is all there
seemingly invisible, but I am sure just waiting for another prototype to
emerge.
You ought to think yourself something quite out of the box! Who else
gets their man never to rest without worrying about having his missus
near him or wanting her to be as well off as he? I know you are an old
dragon, a nagging wretch, a frigid image, a frustrated schoolmarm
but still unique & quite out of the box in all categories. In short, for the
practically last time I am telling the European air you have a man
who loves you take him as he is.
Still later. Its dark now, and I have just finished dinner or supper (pork
chop & 1/2 bottle very good light claret midday had steak &
mushrooms & chicken soup & by mistake 1/2 bt. white wine which was
very good too. Today, I am eating just what I want & its good for me
morally but not financially.
Outside the rails are slippery wet now & the puddles on the station
floor are put like pools of remembrance. I am at Offenbach and it all
gives me a feeling of the Man Who Watched the Trains Go By. There is a
more definite feeling of going somewhere into an unknown future when
you are on a train & it is dark & wet and you never can tell what will
eventuate like getting into an underground railway system & coming
up for air with a completely foreign & new born vision. The sheer
immediacy of never having seen moving life in its place its actually
suddenly confronting you as you walk out of the subway is an
extraordinary & unique experience. One that I would like to share with
you because you would depend on me to know where & why and what
and you could look freely because you know that somehow I would
find you your place in that little part of the world and that I would try
and look after you. I am writing this better because I am at the eating
table am more comfortable. I might even have some more claret
because I feel sentimental but hope I do not sound too disgustingly
so. I need your faith it is a great help.
Not long ago we passed nearby to Heidelberg. Romantic eh? The
Rhineland & its vineyards but the dull dreary German houses, stodgy
grey box like & inevitably the same. But the name and the
evocative images (which are always wrong & phoney) Listen London
Harwick Hook of Holland Rotterdam Kaldenkirchen Kln
Coblenz Mainz Carlsruhe Baden oos Freiburg come off like a
string of pearls dont they? Or a length of Heinz Spaghetti? My darling, I
would like you to be with me. Perhaps you would have had greater
pleasure than I out of seeing & sensing the different ways of man. I
know, fundamentally in my heart that I dont set a great deal of store
on this sightseeing that everything is really where it is right under
your own nose as it is for the people of Mainz or Brashov Venizia or
Paris or Brompton & from that matter, Paddington where I first learnt
the glories of the visible world. When I used to sit at the top floor
bedroom window & watch the sun die in glory over the roofs of the
tenements that frinhed the Brougham Rd near the Cross. When the
narrow alleys were full of winter smoke from the fireplaces of the poor.
And the gas lamp man would round his already completed task of
illuminating a tiny corner of the streets. And what of the bamboos, so
tall and strong enough for a doyen of monkeys, singing with locusts, &
ablaze with the gold & blue of the Christmas & Blue Monday beetles.
Yeah? I dont suppose anything has ever really penetrated me since I
was small and in a constant state of wonder. In the castor oil trees, on
the fences, smoking bamboo stalks, burrowing tunnels in the school
yard banks & reading goggle-eyed the naughty words in the latrines.
This really is going too far. If I keep this up, letters will be coming in for
a month or two after I get home.
God, when you look out of the window see cars & houses, you wonder
how anyone could settle down so far away from Northwood Rd. But I
guess it all depends on what is home your family, I think is home.
I have been thrown out the Spiesenkarten car because the Swiss
Customs men are due aboard. I am back now in the rickety carriage
with my sole & worldly European possessions.
I look forward to loving you both with spirit and flesh. I dont think we
make a bad pair together.
Your still loving (even at home) husband
Bill
Possibly travelling through Cologne, Germany, aboard the Lorelei Express train travelling from
Holland to Zurich; 27 November 1956
Cologne Cathedral in the distance from aboard the Lorelei Express train travelling from Holland to
Zurich; 27 November 1956
The Rhine River from aboard the Lorelei Express train travelling from Holland to Zurich; 27
November 1956
I am too lucky to last. But please keep your fingers crossed because it
is very nice to be lucky in love & most else!
XXX
Posted in 1956 Cultural Exchange | Tagged Andernach, Cologne, DSG, Lorelei
Express, Rhine River |Leave a reply
Aboard the train from Liverpool Street Station, London to Harwich where Bill then took the S.S. Duke
of York to Hook of Holland; 26 November 1956
A very filling day which is much better than sitting around wanting for
something to happen. I am at a disadvantage to say what I would like
because this place is bedlam & I cant move or even sit down anywhere
else.
I want to tell you that leaving a country in a ship is not what I like I
prefer to leave in a plane with all its possibilities of death but when
off, clean and away none of the terrible slimy wasling(?) stuff running
around the edges the darkness of the water and above all no one
because it is so slow away. One half hour & the lights get a bit dimmer
a red light in the middle of nowhere tolls a bell and the sea starts to
spray into your face & it is much colder & the stars (believe it or not)
are out just like in Australia. And I ask some gink of course he is a
Norwegian or something & he doesnt answer the question I ask but
points out a star & says North. Then I point out an obvious shape &
he says Orion. So now I know because I have often heard of it.
It is obvious most of the second class travellers are going to spend the
4-5 hours in the bar. Most of them speak Dutch possibly German. I
love you. I would like you down on the very windy deck getting covered
in sporay & holding my hand and not even saying much at all. Please
excuse this writing people are falling all over me & I am doing it on
my lap because I know it doesnt matter in the slightest for I will be
home with you before this arrives. But still. When you go down to the
letter box there will be a reminder of what I was thinking during my
passage home to you & Graham. I may as well finish the Odyssey &
you can ask me something about the news that arrives after I get
home.
This boat rocks plenty. Enough for you to say pull your imaginative
head in. So what? Here you have a perfectly amenable husband and
youre trying to straighten him up. This boat is rocking like the devil
and I get pushed around. Out of the blue a drunken Scotch dame starts
singing Here in my heart & immediately eveything becomes false &
phoney. Her companion sings I walk beside you in a sort of
Londonerry air tune.
I havent the foggiest what I have written but now, when I had found a
quiet little place in a corner, 3 half naked boys come around & ask me
where the women are? Wouldnt it? Apparently you can get one for 3
4 or (hours) or minutes? And yet I see the same types getting
brushed off by the score on the open deck.
I have had this ship. It throbs and rattles & is not worth thinking about.
I dont like the sea it sails in. It stinks, the North Sea is horrible grey,
has no ozone anywhere within a thousand miles of it. It is the
crumbiest end like the terrible poor red mullet I see in the shops. Like
very, very dead nanegai (nannygai). I dont like any part of Europeans.
Stinkers who like all the windows closed. Pommies who are no better
than they should be, Cockneys & Liverpool seamen, half-baked second
class travellers who have the effrontery to wear striped trousers &
black split arsed coats & homburg. Probably messengers acting fine for
a day. Open up their suitcase & what is in it but a bloody pillow &
another brief case, shit! 3 Germans are installed in the so called cabin.
Its alright I guess but I want to see what goes on.
I have seen the constellation of Orion and I suppose the Dog Star &
Christ knows what (which I didnt recognise). I still want you with me,
because you are one who can be alone and undemonstrative with me.
Even if you felt that you needed companionship I would be only too
happy to break my own reticence & join with you in some unity of
well put your own words to it. I am apt to get too hypocritically
devotional.
This ship is the end shakes like a Pontiac over the horror stretch of
Lane Cove Rd.
You Dorothy, have got me now, I have become adjusted and that is a
silly word. I have become in love with what you have given & still offer
me. Irrespective of the knowledge that there are many more violences
to come (but do you really think that, after our long separation, that we
should be as violent as we have been. Surely if either one of us, should
have sense enough to suggest that there was a time when we were
both (and I believe this) practically, physically & mentally dying for
each other, that we shouldnt be able to say just the one word that
would fix us? (Either of us.) It is still better not to have had a terrible
sundering row than to consider its rather anti-climatic finish. I get so
buggared up about the relationship at times. Perhaps I like (sadistically)
the rows, which ultimately throw you back into my arms.
That sea this broken down old ship, the stinking sea the cold fresh,
air of the North Sea. Perhaps being apt has something to do with it
the badly fixed propeller thrashing beneath us.
Anyway, I still love you. Will you please come back to bed with me?
now? after you read this? You said you liked it, and I am sure you do.
I have had another go on the deck but still have a deep seated horror
of the slimy sea. I want no part of it at least alone, in my lifetime.
If you cant read this letter which I can forgive you can ask me what
it is all about because I, having written it, am about the only judge &
interpreter. But, you old & well established paragon of a wife, forgive
me for the need of you. Just come into me wherever I may be, and give
me a kiss because, I have needed you so very, very much.
Yours present
Bill.
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Received your last two letters all in good time this morning-after I had
taken my two bags down to the luggage department at Liverpool Street
station. I was wandering about the city end-and while passing the great
St Pauls Cathedral, I settled into your letters. Ill have you know they
bucked me up considerably-it is quite remarkable how firm I felt about
them all. There was not a trace of softness in my make up-my very
being hardened when I contemplated the situation that confronts me
on my return. You can rest assured that I will handle the matter
ruthlessly and expediently. After the first encounter with the problem, I
hope to negotiate it with equal firmness, but perhaps, with more
subtlety and grace. I hope you will find my attitude to it all, meets with
your approval, and that we can continue the negotiations together-two
wards a successful conclusion-although I do not think we should show
any willingness to finalise the issue for some considerable time. Indeed
I rather fancy the idea of greatly prolonged negotiations-gives us a
chance to play the one against the other. Taken all in all, I am very
much in favour of firmness, combined with fluidity.
Have been to a few shops to find Partos bras and there is not a great
deal about-style 283 is finished in any case-nevertheless bought the
only three styles they had-cheap enough 16/-, 12/, 11/3 or something
like that.
Later about 4 p.m. Am back at Consol Press office to go out and have a
drink with McNulty. Spent some time at a Royal Academy exhibition of
800 English portraits from early times till now. Went back to Hotel to
get odds and ends and find I am too late to have another look at the
National Gallery. Anyway I too tired to worry about seeing more
godamm pictures. In another three hours Ill be on my way home-and
very happy about it-really want to see you both and have a rest for a
few days. I hope you get this letter on Saturday instead of Friday
afternoon. I want to keep you hot and strong for my homecoming. God
bless you and Graham and Trellie.
Bill.
How nice to sit down with you again-even though it be only with an
inadequate letter. How little a substitute for the real thing, when this
time next Sunday night, I will be (God willing) with you and Graham
incomplete and satisfying reality-slightly gorged with good food and
drink and completely overflowing with the wonderful serenity of being
in my own home and with my own, very, very, exclusively, my own
people. I hope I handle this wonderful reunion, with the grace it
deserves, and that we all will find nothing discordant in the whole day
and the whole wonderful night. I am frantic to be there-now!
This day began very smoothly for me. Perhaps because I was relaxed
and really didnt care much what it brought. I rang an earnest English
lass who teaches Romanian here (I met her in Bucharest with John St
John) and made arrangements to meet her this afternoon for a look
around. Being my last lingering look so to speak. Anyway after looking
at The Times I noticed Marian Anderson was giving a farewell concert
at 3 p.m. at theRoyal Festival Hall. So I decided Id stroll peacefully over
the Hungerford Bridge and see if I could get some tickets. Got a couple
of 10 bobbers. The Thames almost like Paris this morning-mild and
misty enough to etherealise the fine north side buildings-and the trees
lining the embankment reminiscent of those alongside the Seine. A
limpid autumn, though practically sunless, morning. After getting the
tickets I idly watched the seagulls in their leisurely Sabbath diversions-
their graceful landings-fine, and abrupt take offs into the wind, then
veering in side slips like fighter planes over the body of the river-poised
almost motionless-ray and white, the breathless curving of their wings
fluting through the air-and turning into the smoothest glides. Beautiful,
unspoken poetry, movements carved in air, and left engraved in the
mind. Relaxing-and in a sort of inverted way, exciting just because one
so seldom spends that available and rewarding time. A further
sauntering taking me past the huge Italian Renaissance style county
council buildings with steps running down onto the Thames and looking
like some miss placed and darkened Doges Palace. Across Westminster
Bridge past the Houses of Parliament, past Westminster Abbey, when
something made me retrace my steps and enter while the morning
service was on. Then a wonderful choral singing-filling the ancient walls
with sound so that is seemed to come out of the very pores of the
stones. The two sections of the choir throwing back the themes one to
the other-and silvery and sombre voices weaving a pattern throughout
the whole. With the music of the goals and the almost visible design of
this most magnificent singing I felt the day could hardly bring more or
comparable delight. And it didnt.
Having some little time to spend until I met this Jean Ure (who was
some relative, cousin, or niece of Syd Ure Smith) I thought Id try some
draught Guinness at a pub called the Villiers, pubs being open too on
Sunday here. Found the stout very good and settle down with my paper
alongside a dame on a bench. She was as Irish as they came and
started talking to me. Asked me if Id have a drink with her-naturally I
had reversed the salutation and buy her drink. Then she up and shes
sorry she couldnt buy me one she was short. Well I bought another
and then she tried to touch me for lunch-no! Then 2/- no. I got up and
changed 2/- and gave her 1/-. Fortunately that got rid of her-but sadly
dented my benignity.
Walked back over the Thames and waited 20 minutes for this dame,
who is un-humorously earnest about socialist good works. I dont know
whether it was my disintegrating ecstasy or the workings of the
Guinness but I enjoyed the show less than my walk across the bridge
back to meet the girl. The Thames still looking fine, fitful sunlight and
through the pearly atmosphere a single gleam of gold, high keyed-from
the distant dome of St Pauls, and behind me the occasional train
chuffing over the bridge, its bellowing is fading off into the sounds of
church bells somewhere in the south.
I am not very keen on these contralto sort of voices and they dont
seem eminently suitable for Mozart to me. But, she really was
magnificent in the Negro spirituals. Perhaps because they were
simpler, and I could follow the theme and emotion better, I went from
them in a big way. So did the rest of the house-she got a wonderful
reception from the enormous crowd present.
The Royal Festival Hall, built in 1951, very modern, and quoting my
guidebook a concert hall which such great conductors as Toscanini
have declared the finest in the world. The exterior has met with some
criticism, but the acoustics and amenities, the planning and the decor
of the interior have received almost universal praise. This could hardly
be disputed-the exterior is a cross between a factory and a hangar but
the interior is quite fabulously successful in appearance and function.
Huge foyer with glass walls and all round vision, alongside, are found
bars, restaurants overlooking the Thames, the lower coffee lounge and
cafeteria-fine slick glass and wood stairways and an enormous concert
hall-lined below with padded red leatherette, above on the second
flight with a well designed fabric. Fine acoustically waved roof, studded
with many lamps like stars. You would have loved it-what a pity.
Anyway, we had a light tea and I got back here about eight. Well
content with the day, and now about to give up the good fight.
Have got the radiator on trying to dry out a shirt and handkerchiefs as I
want to get all my luggage down to Liverpool Street station early so
that I can get back to the city and have a quick look at the Royal
Academy and a final run through the National Gallery.
well, this is it, sweetie, Im about to take my first tottering steps on the
homeward journey. I packed and everything is beautifully squashed
down for five days-God help this all screamed the new suit, dressing
down, and female odds and ends. Nothing to be done about that-but
forward into the night! Whoops Dearie-Im practically there-get yourself
into trim-cleanse the fatted duck, pat Graham and Trellie-Im on the
way!
Sat 24 of Nov 56
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London
Sweetheart,
Bustled round Oxford St and Piccadilly trying to buy some string, get books all
cleared away-went to Thomas Cooks and got my ticket to Zrich. Pretty near all
set-must go through all the bits and pieces of paper etc.-to see what I can clear
out to make space and save weight. There seems a lot of fiddly little things I want
to arrive back with to save all the filthy delay of surface post. Superficial odds and
ends-just to have something to show whats been doing. Oh-perhaps fell finish up
getting posted like the rest of the stuff.
Went to the Tate Gallery after a few Guinness and sandwiches and spent the best
part of three hours there, and left completely wrung out. It is very difficult to take
all these pictures in-so many one has seen reproductions of. And rarely do the
reproductions have the soft and convincing atmosphere, or colour relation, that is
inherent in the originals. Somehow they always harden up and become more
aggressive, more blatantly colourful than the paintings from which they were
taken. Van Goghs sunflowers have so much more vitality and tenderness. Saw
the original of that painting in our hall too, incidentally. A couple ofGauguin,
much more impressive in reality. Dozens and dozens of things youd recognise, I
have seen. It gets tiresome. Ill get it back stop all very much to the good I think,
because you get the feeling youd like to experiment and get at it a bit yourself.
But apart from making some contact with Ampol (if the commission is still
available) I want to sit down for a couple of days. I havent done so, except in a
plane, or a train, all whilst eating, or writing, since I got off at Rome. I warn you, I
am only 11 stone with sports coat, jumper, and overcoat on. Anyhow I am sure
you will spoil me-and fatten me up for the Xmas killing. I love you.
Talking of Xmas-Regent St and Oxford have now got all Xmas trees, coloured
lights, and Father Xmas out, and the place is quite bright, but bloody cold. It
makes me glad that Xmas will be at home with my highly specialised family-would
be the very end to get stuck here (or anywhere else) alone when all the spirit is
building up, and the half crowns are jingling in your pocket. A very great number
of 2/6 pieces here-more than florins. Never quite sure whether I am planking
down 2/6 or 2/-. In any case they hardly last long enough to notice. Grog is a
colossal price over here-Sherry 3/- glass, claret 2/6 small glass, Scotch 2/6 or
2/9, gin and tonic 2/4 or 2/10. 1/3 bottle (they make beer in little bottles like the
tiny Guinness Stout you might have seen) beer 1/1 -stout 1/5 1/6 equivalent to
about 3 glass to bottle. Consequently everybody is very sober over here.
Im not very verbose tonight but want, very much, for you both to get a letter are
day practically up till the day before I arrive-that way you will not be stamping
about the unpruned rose bushes wondering what has happened to your errant
(hah! hah! Thats a laugh) husband. I should be in bed with you before you finish
reading my last note-and you had, very definitely, be prepared to like it.
Enough for now, Ill see if I can squeeze a number drop out of this pen in the
morning, when the alleged daylight arrives. And with that I give you another
consignment of good old home spun love. Kiss, kiss, SAOH.
Sunday morning [25 Nov 56]. Woke early, about 4:30-and read till 5:30-thought Id
give Morphens another visit and stayed with him till 8 a.m. when breakfast
brought me to. I am about to wash doesnt handkerchiefs, one day for the way
home-have a horrible pile of dirty ones. Roleys place was the only opportunity I
have had to boil them up and iron them. Nevertheless we manage along and I
hope to get home reasonably clean. Ill diagnose my dirty stuff when you are not
looking. It has been raining during the night which seems all to the good as it is
now warmer and not so foggy. This is my second last letter as after tomorrow
nothing can beat me bringing personal tidings of joy and affection for my two very
dear people. I send you a great deal of love darling, and for Graham a great
anxiety to see how he has grown-and how long, if not taller, young Trellie has
grown. Love, love and more love from your very close at hand husband,
Bill.