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Julia M. Schwartz, MD
Los Angeles Psychoanalytic Society and Institute
Robert D. Stolorow, PhD
Institute of Contemporary Psychoanalysis
Julia M. Schwartz, MD, Los Angeles Psychoanalytic Society and Institute, Los
Angeles, California; Robert D. Stolorow, PhD, Institute of Contemporary Psychoanal-
ysis, Los Angeles, California.
Correspondence concerning this article should be addressed to Julia M.
Schwartz, MD, 11911 San Vicente Boulevard, Suite 280, Los Angeles, California
90049.
Psychoanalytic Psychology, 2001, Vol. 18, No. 2, 380-387
Copyright 2001 by the Educational Publishing Foundation, 0736-9735/01/$5.00 DOI: 10.1037//0736-9735.18.2.380
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TRAUMA IN A PRESYMBOLIC WORLD 381
relationship with a man. She was afraid that she might be a lesbian,
although she said she had never felt sexual feelings for a woman.
In early infancy, beginning at the age of 2 or 3 months, Amy began
screaming with pain while having bowel movements. As a result of a
misdiagnosis, her mother had been instructed to dilate her anus digitally
several times a day. When the pain persisted without improvement, her
mother brought her to a specialist, and the problem was correctly diag-
nosed as an anal fissure and was treated appropriately. Amy herself had no
recollection of these events, and her mother claimed that the digital
penetrations of her child's anus occurred only a few times. According to
a report from an early psychiatric consultation, however, the anal pene-
trations continued for several months until Amy was 8 months old.
Although the anal fissure healed by the time she was a year old, she
engaged in painful struggles with her mother over toilet training and
showed other behavioral difficulties. She was sent to her first psychiatric
consultation at the age of 2'/2, because of tantrums and a refusal to speak.
The consultant's report noted that when Amy refused to comply with her
mother over toileting, her mother tried to insert suppositories, repeating,
we believe, the early traumatic violations of the child's bodily integrity,
and Amy would run away in terror. When her mother tried to make her
speak, Amy would refuse stubbornly, apparently attempting thereby to
restore the sense of inviolability that was being relentlessly obliterated.
Amy had few memories of her father, who clearly preferred her older
brother and seemed to find her personality intolerable. When her father
and brother spent time together and left Amy out, she responded by
intruding on them, wreaking all manner of havoc. This intrusiveness
became a hallmark of her personality in childhood. In order not to be
excluded from anything, she invaded and penetrated others, much as she
had been traumatically violated from an early age. Clearly, from very early
1
Alternatively, when speaking of trauma in early infancy, one might say that
sensorimotor integrity was not even established at all.
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told to her over and over again. She became preoccupied with the belief
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that she, too, had cancer, imploring her mother to take her to the doctor to
be checked for lumps. Clearly, it seems to us, her father's illness and death
dramatically confirmed for Amy what she already "knew"that her body
was in constant danger of being invaded by painful, destructive, even
deadly forces.
Her mother's reaction to the father's death was also very frightening
for Amy, yet another intrusion into whatever tenuous feeling of security
she could muster. The mother became severely depressed and made
several suicidal threats and gestures, sometimes seeming to hold Amy
responsible for her troubles. Amy's sense of bodily integrity was further
disrupted by an early onset of puberty. It was during adolescence that an
episode that Amy described as her "mental breakdown" occurred, precip-
itated by her mother's contracting stomach flu. Amy reacted by becoming
terrified of catching her mother's illness and of throwing up. She had been
phobic about vomiting since childhood, but the fears now became acute
and disabling, dramatically expressing her dread of being reinvaded by her
mother, both physically and emotionally.
In college Amy excelled academically but floundered socially. After
graduating she began working in a literary agency. She had men friends,
and an occasional man expressed romantic interest in her, but she never
progressed beyond a single kiss.
Amy's gastrointestinal tract, the original site of trauma, continued in
her adult life to be a source of conflict, pain, and dysregulation, drama-
tizing the extent to which her experiential world had become organized
around the dread of invasion by toxic forces. By the time she had begun
analysis, she had obtained multiple gastrointestinal evaluations, including
radiologic and invasive procedures. She suffered from severe and alter-
nating diarrhea and constipation and, most agonizing, acute abdominal
pain and cramping. She was tormented by an overwhelming fear of, and
fascination with, vomiting. She was terrified of exposure to stomach flu
and would go to great lengths to protect herself from contamination,
wearing a face mask when flying, using alcohol pads on her hands, and
avoiding children and anyone suspected of illness. Over the years she had
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banned more and more foods from her diet, believing that they were the
source of her pain. She was suspicious of her mother's cooking and
hygiene, fearing accidental and even intentional poisoning at her hands.
Amy and her analyst understood these symptoms and phobias as express-
ing a fear of retraumatization of a painful and frightening invasion of her
body by deadly toxins, recapitulating her early loss of the sense of being
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Amy would seek out the information on her ownfor example, by calling
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around the room trying to stick a finger up her ass. She pointed out that by
continuing this behavior Amy was jeopardizing the bond she so desper-
ately needed. The analyst began to set strict limits on the enactments that
Amy had been engaging in outside the office and to make firm decisions
about what she felt comfortable disclosing to Amy when she asked
questions or made requests. As they explored the meanings of her ques-
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tions and of their going unanswered, there was a shift in the therapeutic
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attractive, competent, desirable woman. She was asked out on dates with
increasing frequency, but still she could not tolerate much physical close-
ness without having an "allergic" reaction to the men.
Then tragically, while continuing to progress in the 6th year of
therapy, Amy became ill with an autoimmune disease. Learning of this
illness had an extraordinarily devastating impact on her. For her, it was the
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