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poetry by c. corvidae
contents
1. this page
2. “the mattress electric”
3. "omnipotent shadow people tango"
4. “knowing wink from distant planet… iron lung dreams of smoke”
5. “gag reflects"
6. “spark walk” / “twelve dollars and a firm handshake” / “interrogate me”
7. “a lamb stands up on 45th street” / “meet & part &” / “poem for a video I saw online”
8. “pulp maiden”
9. “the precentor leads a prayer”
10. “i’m showing you the art that’s been made about me”
11. “maternity ward in purgatory”
12. “toilet bowl epithalamium”
13. "paper petal tumor girl"
14. acknoweldgments
“the mattress electric”
this is my new
body, this is my
new body, this is
my new body
i pollinate, i germinate
i make a mess of myself and
yet, pure and endless,
i exercise and take note of my form
shifting, subtly~
i mean,
if they’re watching regardless…
i’d rather them see my mouth
contorted into a sickening grin
than biting the sidewalk.
but somehow,
their eyes are keen--
i look more like myself than
ever before,
but i still resemble my outdated shell
juuuuust enough for them to still know me.
("know")
a delicate wing,
still stuck in your gritted teeth,
flapping gently as you hiss your
favorite new words, the ones
you poached from their native lands;
an earthy aroma,
strong enough to sew flesh shut
and unshatter bones and ungather
coils of prickly memories piled high,
overpowered by cheap cologone;
“interrogate me”
details
enhanced, and then
destroyed by scrutiny.
a body does what a mirror wants;
blooms, wilts.
“a lamb stands up on 45th street”
i want animals to take over my terrain 30 years after my nuclear meltdown : i want plants to grow in spite of themselves : i
want the ukrainian government to construct a massive protective shield and move it slowly into place around me so my
radioactivity does not spread further into the environment \\\ i have been blamed for thousands of deaths and birth defects so
please ensure the safety of my exclusion zone and prepare to dismantle me, i will find love in every fragment that falls
in looks,
in breaths, in
tiny twitches.
faulty components,
wired hastily,
are the bane of our machinist.
a creature plants
its talons in the firmament.
like a stone,
thrown
with Godless precision.
“i’m showing you the art that’s been made about me”
here’s an 18x24" painting of me holding a bouquet of lilies that have just recently been pulled from the ground. dirt is
still clinging to their roots. i'm smiling-- no, i'm absolutely beaming. i look as if i've never been so happy in my entire life. the
aftermath of a tear remains on my left cheek in a wet streak. i'm wearing a yellow sun dress with floral print, and "cat-eye"
eyeliner that is slightly smudged on the left side. both my hands are clasped around the flowers and my face is turned slightly
upwards, a pose reminiscent of prayer. the room i'm standing in is very brown and nondescript, save for an ornate clock on
the wall behind my right shoulder. i'm not wearing my glasses, but my facial piercing is there, and i have a pair of emerald
earrings. my shoulders & cheeks are reddened from sunburn. you can't discern this by looking at the painting, but
“Gumboots” by Paul Simon is on the radio.
the medium of the painting is acrylic on canvas. the title of the painting is "I Think I Can Hear A Voice Asking Me To
Come Home". the painting is hanging in a small museum exhibit and most of the people who see it seem to have a neutral or
positive opinion of it. some of them say that the painting is quite beautiful. some of them say that the woman in the painting is
quite beautiful. a few of the people even say that viewing the painting somehow made them feel more beautiful. in a few
months' time, several other works of art in the museum will be stolen by a pair of professional art thieves. this one will remain.
now, here’s a 3.5-hour-long film of me telling all the knock-knock jokes i can think of. when i run out of knock-knock
jokes that i already know, i start making them up. they get progressively more nonsensical. when i run out of ideas, i try to
repeat all the ones i've already said, in the order that i said them. this is filmed as one continuous shot, the angle is fixed to
show my head and upper torso. from the beginning to the end of the film, a strange figure in the distance (perhaps 3-4
meters back) becomes more and more noticeable. it starts completely invisible, but the lighting changes slowly and the figure
seems to fade into existence, as do some aspects of the background (grass, weeds; clearly an outdoor setting). by the end of
the film, it is apparent that the figure in the distance is also me-- standing completely still, with eyes wide open and jaw
agape. i am clad head-to-toe in a pleasant pastel blue raincoat and boots and hat. and this far-away me is staring directly at
the back of the head of the me that has been talking for all this time. her gaze doesn’t shift.
in the last 2 minutes of the film, the me in the background suddenly lies down on the ground-- not a violent,
accidental fall, but rather a deliberate spur-of-the-moment movement. the me in the foreground hears the movement and
turns to look at what has happened, breaking eye contact with the camera for the first time. it starts snowing. the film ends.
“maternity ward in purgatory”
i wanna see
an image of my own brain
flash so rapidly in my vision
that it appears to be superimposed
over whatever’s in front of me
my spinning eyeballs
show me this image
of my own brain
i wanna see it forever
omnipresent
monolithic
full of wonder
give
the proper space she needs to
approach.
she senses your intention.
turn
sickness
emerging from Gaea. your
dysphoria,
returning to Gaea. your
organs,
trauma,
undone in Gaea. your
triumph,
spitting in Gaea’s face. your
recovery,
mother
repeatedly refuses Gaea. your
father,
rests uneasy in Gaea. your
reconstitution,
well,
thank-you thank-you.
smilecrying, my body says:
thank-you 100,000 times
acknowledgments
a hearty thank-you to Alice, Alisha, Alyce, Anna, Anthony, Arielle, Ashley, Bee, Cat, Corinne, Effi, Elly, Emile, Emily, Erika,
Gabe, Jenni, Jeremy, Jon, Lain, Lindsey, Mary, Monica, Nicole, Rooftop, Shannon, Susan, Tors, and Tuney.
you contributed to the creation of this, even if you don’t know it. you are what i aspire to become. there are many more to
name, but i won’t for now.
dear reader, this address is where you can & should send electronic mail to the person who wrote these words:
corvidaepoetry@gmail.com
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i am grateful, eternally,
that my scars will persist.
they converge in a map
of where i most want to be kissed