I've rewritten this appeal a few times before I made it final, just so you all know.

There is no
TLDR. So let me explain why I was banned. I was banned for common courtesy; "rude
condescending arrogant demeaning *TO STAFF and not fit for the server."

I've carefully revised and edited this appeal, and am committing to this response. While most
of this will come off like I'm not sorry for my minor, very minor outburst, I am. And I do take
responsibility for my very minor outburst. You will learn what exactly in detail got me banned
during this read, if you care enough about it to read it. I cared enough about it to write it so
here it is. Lastly, The reason why I didn't appeal sooner is because Nervous told me shortly after
my ban that I should wait to discuss this ban with him, when he came home.

I'll start by asking the reviewing admin to abandon all defensiveness before they settle in and
read, HemmaX (who I'll give a fair chance to defend himself) ain't gonna unban me for shit,
that's an upfront fact... I will not attack staff as a whole even once, in this appeal. However I will
attack certain member of staff's behavior, and I will use that as then pivotal point in my
argument, why my ban was majorly unfair and destructive to the community. I could've
forwarded you all the other walls of text explaining the obvious double standards, shortcomings
and misjudgements on this server. Shit we put up with every day , and don't normally pay it no
mind. But instead, I don't wish to call out Nervous, I don't wish to soil or sully anyone's
reputation as a roleplayer/admin they have tried to sully mine with this ban, and I CERTAINLY
don't wish to harm the server but there's a difference between telling the truth and intentionally
causing harm.

I don't wish to do anything else but get unbanned so I can go back to playing in the server I've
committed 6 months of time and effort to. See but that will not be feasible considering the level
of malice I will PROVE HemmaX has for me in the 80-100 screenshots I will post below. HemmaX
will never let me back... I'm requesting my appeal be handled by someone who was not
involved in either my ban OR my faction shutdown... because everything that happened stems
from clear (and soon to be proven)bias. Forget about the "group decisions" the 4th installment
of FM (who are in question) have made, saying "it's a group decision" as validation. Just because
a group of people agree doesn't make it indefinite. It just makes all of your own perspectives
and opinions right as a group, which has been my entire point since even before my ban.
Opinions, speculation and dictation. We all saw where that got us in March, as a community,
with Nat's faction and the 3rd installment of FM... If it was on topic, I'd remember that it was a
group decision by our faction to CK Carbone but for some reason HemmaX didn't seem to think
we deserved that same respect did we? Anyway, I was forced to let bygones be bygones while
that group (of Carbones) openly and overtly violated the requests of HemmaX and Nervous to
stop slagging us off behind our back and stop interacting with each other, so understand the
frustration in that aspect. I abided by these rules, never once did I violate it in any incourteous
way that went against the ruling. I was even told I couldn't post screenshots of the already
developed roleplay after I had posted Carbone's death in the Luppino faction thread, when he
was still bound to us by oath, ICLY. Yes, ICly.
 In regards to Hemma, and my ban on May 3rd, I've already tried to apologize after the ban, but I
got an attitude in return days later when he tried to sneak captain rank in our discord to fish for
evidence of something they never got. So I simply want you to read the short descriptions and
the actual evidence of me supporting those claims in the description of the spoilers and wonder
if I deserved this ban, AND the faction shutdown.

First will come an explaination, then spoiler filled with screenshots in regards to that statement.
Very Organized. (Which is out of my realm of nature.)

So. Right down to it, officially, I will start by saying this. My ban wasn't much deserved, but of
course I would argue that MAYBE I deserved it. Or a warning, considering I had no warnings on
my record since I was banned, not counting that I have been warned earlier down the line, but
that 1 warning got removed because I was good for a month or so and proved I wasn't the
person the admin note subjected me to... I am told I have one of the worst attitudes, but when I
ask what is wrong with my attitude, I am never given an answer or proof. So, I cannot change my
attitude, I can only be condemned for it.

Inadvertently however, I feel like my ban reason that HemmaX listed, was the answer, so now I
finally do have an answer with what's wrong with my attitude. I feel like now I see why people
dance around that "What's wrong with my attitude" question. Because clearly, the staff has free
reign to do just the same, and worse. Not to go off topic but godforbid you give a guy like me
the ammo he needs to prove a very valid point, while we've already condemned him from 3
other communities using the same narcissitic "Oh he's mad" tactics. I have been called a
narcissist on this server too. I've been called a xenophobe, a homophobe, I've proven those last
2 claims wrong and now I'm getting the new narcissism treatment. Funny thing about narcissists
is, they usually poke and prod at a person, sometimes in a joking manner, and when that person
gets upset or voices themselves even remotely assertively, the narcissist would point his or her
fingers and call the person they've been fucking with crazy. They slap all the "crazy" on the
antogonized, even though they were antagonizing that person the whole time, this way they
don't have to face the fact of being the antagonist in that very moment. People as arrogant and
demeaning as a narcissists would call someone a narcissist just to take the heat off them. It's a
tactic called diversion. Diversion from the fact that they are NO BETTER, than your most hated
(and longest standing) faction leader.

Thankfully before I continue any further, Nervous admits that all admins should be held to the
same behavioral standard as players, in my proof. MAIN point.

Now I can get into a whole convoluted mess of thought like I normally do but lets call out what's
important. If I am everything I was banned for, then the staff is also rude, condescending,
arrogant, demeaning, everything that they listed about me, MONTHLY, if not weekly I would
wager. If my ban is truly deserved, and if admins are held to the same behavioral standards as
players, they would be banned too for their disgusting level of common courtesy I'm going to
prove here in a minute...
But that's not what I'm asking for. I've served 2 weeks to myself quietly, got two jobs, celebrated
my birthday, now it's time to lay what I have on the table. I'm nice and humbled before you get
too overexcited about the content I'm posting here, and what I'm saying with no actual regard to
anyone's feelings. Feelings should never hinder the truth...

And to Nervous, if you're reading this, I never wanted special treatment but I never wanted to be
treated how your staff has treated me since January, to be fair. I'd expect to be punished like any
other rule breaker, I've even refused special treatment from admins like DagoMike and Apache
when they were members of my faction. But, to just expect me to surrender to staff's dictations
while I had something premade- that's just not right, it should've been obvious I wasn't going to
abide by Apache's rules or Ethanol's rules or what have you. I abide to the written rules of the
server, I have for 6 months. I'm a longstanding member of many roleplay communities, no
different than this one, sad to have to say. I was always here to create RP, and make it fun for
people. I didn't spend 6 months here to get everything we developed ripped away by people
who can't handle an attitude they think only they have a right to dish out. You guys say I have a
behavioral issue, the truth is, I don't. I have an authority issue, but I still try to show some
restraint or compassion at least.

I'd love to admit right now that a real man can admit when he's wrong, and show respect to
everyone where it's do since most admins admit that common courtesy is a two way street.
Surely as many haters as I've had, there are people on this server who think I'm a real nice guy,
so keep nailing me to the cross at the risk of making yourself look no different than you say I am.

So before I give you roughly 100+ screenshots let me tell say this.

Here's what my standpoint is:

·0 Staff should not get to say and do as they please while holding other people accountable
for their words and actions alike. They must be held to the same standard, Nervous
admits. They should not be able to make OOC decisions that affect already developed
roleplay. Staff should stick to the basic rules, ajailing people for powergaming,
metagaming, deathmatching, handling reports and making sure not to let their opinion
be the admin ruling.

·1 I come bearing proof of a strong handful of GTAW staff's attitude in my defense, to

undermine my guilt, since I cannot effectively prove my innocence since I do indeed take
responsibility behavior for my behavior. While I am not denying that the remark I made
as menial as it was, was poorly timed and poorly delivered when we had a more a
important matter to discuss, it wasn't that serious. Not serious enough for a permenant
ban, a faction shutdown and a final decree that I am not fit for the server.
Here's another short list of things this appeal will show.

·2 Proof of the behavior of 7 particular staff members since January till now, in May. Those
staff members are as followed. HemmaX. Ethanol. Maca. DagoMike. Apache. Jordan
Kelley. Cerebrus/Flacko.

·3 The hypocrisy behind my ban, and why it's blatently obvious that it's biased.

·4 Proof of the people who disagree with my ban.

·5 Proof of what the admins & staff are doing and allowing, currently, as I am banned, and
while we are shut down.

·6 A very long, bullet pointed TLDR, but not really. Sorry for taking my appeal seriously.

·7 A solution, temporary or permenant, whatever works.

·8 An opportunity to expand on my attitude and why you guys think it sucks as a group.

·9 My final thoughts and possible goodbyes.

Here are your screenshots in regards to my appeal.

FM member Cerebrus, giving us his final goodbyes as a member of faction management. Telling
us "Our faction sucks" and "We'll never make it." This was our very first faction handler ever,
gone but not forgotten lol.
[img]https://imgur.com/PviU7RT[/img]

FM members DagoMike & Apache & JordanKelley (Who recently joined my faction at the time)
acted rudely and corruptively in late February, spreading rumors about other faction leaders and
attempting to give me special treatment despite my total unwant and refusal, don't know if you
read ALL of these screenshots.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/wjrcxAu.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/8LzwwWY.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/DGTVV1v.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/jzq35WP.png?1[/img]

Their attitude in early March, still trashtalking Natasha, I came forth with this:

[img]https://i.imgur.com/Jv48gIu.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/5AKMZsW.png?1[/img]
Note: In late March, they left my faction because of a disagreement with my attitude, lol. Ok, so.

I had Joseph Carbone killed ICly for defecting and they made an OOC stink about it, as people in
faction management who have say in their own and everyone elses development tend to do. I
posted screenshots on my thread with permission from Nervous and Apache proceeded to take
it down in an attempt to ruin my development, I'd call that arrogant, abusive and demeaning,
especially after we just had an issue weeks ago. Did they get banned like I did? No. Because
they're admins, and we need them, which I get. But at least hold them to the same standard
they hold others to. They also told Natasha, who posted a blast of screenshots on her thread
one day to cut out the spam posting because they were majorly exceeded in showcasing, they
told him to stop, but a month prior, they were slagging him off (if you look at the screens I
posted.) Here's proof.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/3MvOA3v.png[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/exy0Xha.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/gNxWQ8K.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/rG5XIs8.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/SasPclK.png[/img]

Here's how HemmaX treated me in what was supposed to be a mediation chat, between Mike &
Apache & myself, in March. This was right in front of Nervous, and even he chimed in and said
"you're too talkitive" to me. Hey Nervous, that's a major red flag, man. I feel like on some days
you're cool and chill, but around other figures of authority, you become something different
than what I'm used to... different than what I know you as. In turn, you coddle this behavior by
asserting your opinions with him, especially during a conversation that was supposed to fix
things between a veteran leader like me and a few aspiring leaders like Mike and Apache.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/r9QBep1.png?1[/img]

The end result:

[img]https://i.imgur.com/J5qCCud.png?1[/img]

So now boom, I'm told to forget all about this shit. Right? Alright, so. On we go.

A week later, I apply for a pizzeria next to Valerie York's Liquor store in Vinewood, an idea me
and an old faction member have been speaking about before he took a break from GTAW. Turn
out, I couldn't get Vinewood Pizzeria because it was "too close" to a social club ran by Carbone,
Hemma told norrig that "management" wanted me to change where I wanted it. Against my
will, I abided, and got Del Perro Pizzeria, which in the end I turned out much happier with
anyway. But again, another OOC rule affecting IC. Hemma tells people to get over it and he isn't
even over it himself.

Hemma must've mistakenly also revealed that there must've been talk of me getting on faction
management, even though I was not an admin, or applied for admin, but it's no longer in affect
because of what he calls "drama" but what we'd all call "corruption."

A discussion ensues and during that discussion I went on to explain the history of mishaps and
run ins I've had with faction management. Changing the subject, he tried to confirm if I'm
actually Arnold Bellomo from an old community he used to be an admin or cop in apprently, just
to tell me it didn't end well. I would even argue that ever since this day, HemmaX has treated
me different. Here's proof.
[img]https://i.imgur.com/a4ntDam.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/CnaH0Eb.png?1[/img]

Later on in April, a faction co founder Baconlove graduated boot camp and made an
announcement that he'd come back. I have learned through Baconlove that DagoMike initiated
a behind-the-back conversation about me personally. While I can't put my finger on the exact
way the conversation went (since it was admittedly behind my back) I reported this to staff, and
when I went to make it final, Hemma discredited the value of my evidence before I even posted
it, right in front of Nervous again.

Here is 2 screenshots of the complaint I made.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/cHABf9d.png[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/s0LkWp8.png?1[/img]

I doubt the audio recording was even listened to by anyone besides Nervous, like truly listened
to, because only he saw a reason in investigating it the audio recording. Although there is clear
audio evidence of Baconlove admitting Mike was disobeying Hemma's & Nervous's previous
orders to not smear us, and refrain from interacting with us, and not talk to us, or about us,
leave each other alone, just weeks after the order, no action was taken. HemmaX said he "took
Baconlove and Mike's statement and said he sees no reason to persue the report any further,"
no other explaination or proof of how Mike didn't blatently violate the rules imposed by Nervous
and Hemma by starting an undermining conversation behind my back with my friend, who he
thought was probably going to ditch me and join the Carbones with him.

HemmaX has even voiced his opinions on how I treat the Carbones even though there have been
no reports of me hitting them up to bother them or fuck with them or undermining their
development the way Apache has tried to do. What the 4th era of FM after Mike and Apache
are doing now.
Lets move onto Ethanol, shall we?

The day I was banned, as I conversed with Ethanol, he told me I can no longer sell guns to Nat. I
can no longer have Rancho13 on the council. A week before he was responsible for the removal
of Inagawa Kai, very obviously he has been working full force to dismantle the council using OOC
decrees and dictations, since it's nie unbreakable ICly thanks to our rules. But these rules do not
limit roleplay at all, we do not have the power to void any roleplay or anything like that. This is
not a small tweak in the development, he is majorly affecting our roleplay with his decisions, so I
confronted him. I was told I do not know what realistic RP is at this point. In that same
conversation, he told me I don't understand realism. When I challenged that arrogance with my
own level of arrogance, he became condescending. Here are the screenshots. Again, not
denying or hiding my very blatent attitude I gave back to him. The discussion was about the
involvement between gangs and mobs, if it's realistic or not.

Here are examples of his attitude.

Reminder: His attitude sparked mine.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/FNjyUG2.png[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/DdqRMSC.png?3[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/QeChm5r.png?2[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/nzAMLXt.png?3[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/1fkvENK.png?3[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/m2NmLZQ.png?2[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/CFaHgDZ.png?3[/img]

This is where the never before seen proof starts. Below are 38 screenshots of the PM to FM that
got me banned in the end, what you have or haven't seen already and what I still have even
though I'm banned from the forums. When I approached FM with this petition, someone ratted
me out and informed them beforehand, like this was some master plan, instead of a genuine
concern the community genuinely had with the admins, so they knew it was coming in advance.
It was already too late, in just two hours, I approached them with this 40 player petition to
change their attitude and stop making OOC decisions that corrupt and affect the IC roleplay, that
was already developed mind you. These screenshots will show you today's faction
management's (and a manager's) response to 40 players total in this server's concerns. And ask
yourself if you've been forced to deal with the things I'm presenting, if you wouldn't be in a little
bit of a pissy mood too. Remember, I don't run the server, like you. Head of FM says nothing will
change or be addressed because it's been "discussed" already, totally dismissive. I think Hemma
was starting to realize how serious of a community issue this was, so he tried to show some
resolve, kind of. Not with me, just everyone else. But you can tell by the way they coordinated
and answered, they work counterprodutively and contradictory to each other, you can tell there
is an extreme lack of standard and communication from the both of them.

Ironically before I was banned, I was actually trying to thank Hemma for being understanding.
Hemma, in his feelings, thought I was thanking him for accepting our terms. In response, I said
"I'm not thanking you for agreeing with me, I'm thanking you for being understanding. Don't
jump the gun on yaself baby." Again, while I admit it was the wrong time to make a slick remark
like that, it wasn't that serious, but this still triggered him beyond his control, and this surely is
the reason why I'm banned, my faction is shut down and archived and 15-20+ players are
affected by this decision. I'm not even counting the numbers in Rancho, Black Rose Syndicate,
and the Inagawa Kai that started to wither away on the activity thanks to another one of FM's
flash OOC decisions. I think if HemmaX, or Ethanol, or Maca didn't know I was Arnold Bellomo, I
believe I would've been treated far far differently. I believe Hemma didn't even care about what
I was trying to voice to him about Cerebrus and my experiences with faction management since I
been here, because all he needed to know is, who I was in other communities. He cut me right
off in the middle of that very serious concern to confirm if I'm Arnold Bellomo, what does that
matter?

More on topic, I think he was more mad he got caught jumping to another conclusion, like I
pointed out is one of the reasons we're in this entire situation. For example, that petition came
about because Ethanol concluded that a gang couldn't be friends with a mob, and our mob
shouldnt be selling guns to Nat's crew either, totally using OOC ideals to destroy RP. He also
proceeded to insult my intelligence and make claims like "I don't know what realism is" and "I
know my mob history better than you." I'd consider that arrogant, demeaning and especially
condescending to us all, not just me. So as a result of that, he issued an OOC rule that Rancho13
will not continue on as members in the council. Let this cover it all. It was an OOC rule he
made up. It's a very blatent, very obvious, very stern OOC attack on the council, me and my
faction that was already ICly developed. This desroyed roleplay on our server while Nervous was
gone on vacation. Although Nervous validated the ban and the shutdown, I just want to say that
he did not give us a fair chance to come forth first. Compare that to rousting up 40 people to
voice a genuine concern for the community we all agreed to voice. How bad really is it? There is
proof in the next set of screens that Ethanol specifically told me that we can no longer be allied
with Rancho, faction management decision is final... You know, we're hearing a lot of that lately,
Nervous.

Here is the PM that got me banned, nothing hidden, everything transparent and up front.
Remember, this is FM and Management's response to 40 players in this community. Your faction
management.

Read it carefully, it's very easy to understand what they're saying without saying. The proof of
him saying we can't RP no more (mixing OOC authority with ICly developed roleplay).

[img]https://i.imgur.com/TtxZGif.png?2[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/Vr01MEb.png?2[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/aO64Np1.png?2[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/22S9X25.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/CnM6FFz.png?2[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/hnOVg8s.png?2[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/2f410Nz.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/U8xug9V.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/rWJnCk9.png?2[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/G3evCSl.png?2[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/hwd1qAI.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/RnSWlUN.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/9Xc3VxJ.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/VEBIuxc.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/ivwLrnA.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/St54scb.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/5L9R7dy.png?2[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/hBZhUPJ.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/H9Yg8vJ.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/nCdYs3W.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/DB1M1LP.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/FhGvpBY.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/NHMrZ4a.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/SlKxVkd.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/Z3Hx1DH.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/g1h7IiB.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/ITyOQwE.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/rVBjQ9c.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/nR95McD.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/EyNlpm6.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/2oHEZlS.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/qXtj0CG.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/fahlqDb.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/3d6aQTO.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/r6D5H2U.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/GdM5ZAi.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/80ntNdJ.png?3[/img]

____

Here's some about Maca.

I have old screenshots of a situation with Maca on the forums. He forum reported me for using
a few words I need not repeat, words that were deemed homophobic and xenophobic.
Meanwhile, I have a non shown screenshot I didn't get to show in time of Maca actually using
the same "homophobic" word we don't need to repeat hours earlier. He reported me for
something he literally did 8 hours ago, and I took a discord ban.

Note: The discord says "today" but this was actually probably sometime in February. I'm
showing the history of me and Maca here. It is obvious he is rude, and we are not compatible.
He was not staff at this particular point in time, but even as a staff member he is full speed
ahead on these decisions, working with Ethanol, Dominkyas, Jauss & HemmaX to close down our
faction as a group decision. I'll provide evidence of that too. Read this very carefully. I'll label
what's old and what's recent.

Old, not a member of staff yet:

[img]https://i.imgur.com/FdhYmek.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/wA9Z05F.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/otg3WOT.png[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/eAeA0BF.png[/img]

This is where it gets more trolly and jokey.

But notice how he talks about me being banned from LSRP... quite similar to how I'm being
banned now. There's some proof of LSRP bias right there.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/nclJRJ6.png?1[/img]

More bringing up my history, proof he knows my history and could potentially be behind getting
me to relive this obvious trollish stigma I'm banned for. Still nobody has articulated where my
attitude is so bad.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/gOIvNWJ.png?1[/img]
Probably because I end it with shit like this. LOL
[img]https://i.imgur.com/9a0ItyB.png?1[/img]

Ok? So I'm a jokester, like everyone else, big deal. Now if I get unbanned from the forums I can
uncover how it's been recently between me and him. It's been not as rocky but a lot more fake
with me and him and he poorly expresses his disappointment in me just a week before
commending me and saying I've been doing good. Don't forget, just 2 weeks before this, you
made me run the fucking gauntlet for an activity boost in our faction. And we succeeded. If my
attitude is really that bad, he MUST be trolling me, lol. Because look what he's doing with the
rest of FM as a tester. He's practically the middle man in getting us OOCly shut down and now
word has it that his "bloods" faction is starting IC beef with remaining members of the Luppino
Organization. So... that's corrupt in itself. Leading the OOC drive in getting a guy banned and his
faction removed, then stealing cars from attacking his faction ICly. See why IC and OOC shouldn't
mix? Yeah. This is really affecting roleplayers and roleplay on your server.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/QeN3Mk4.png[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/IP1zysH.png[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/UjtsCf1.png[/img]

___

The aftermath of my ban wasn't as fun, but I got a good look at some people's true colors. Even
though HemmaX (the one who banned me) specifically told the members of the Carbone Crew
not to take any digs or poke fun at the Luppinos, one did anyway after HemmaX banned me. The
way HemmaX vehemently fights for the Carbone crew's credibility despite their obvious toxicity
makes me really wonder if he works in unison to make this game less fun for me. But that's
speculation. And I'm not really one for spreading rumors like DagoMike and Apache, members of
our current staff. They are the very example of why admins shouldn't be granted the power of
opinion and dictation. They spread false rumors.

But Kill3rkr0k, a member of the Carbone crew(who renegaded from our faction and started an
OOC crusade against us), took the time to take a nice little laugh at my ban, just MINUTES after I
was banned. He would deny that, but. Here you go.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/kUH1t7L.png?1[/img]
Small peak at how Ethanol treated me after the ban, pretty much rubbed it in my face.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/mQhkmR7.png?1[/img]

So I'm banned.

So a week after my ban, probably, HemmaX gets an invite into the discord randomly. I noticed
that since it alerts people in the chat who was invited. I thought about it, decided he can stay.
Then I saw he was given the "captain" rank in my discord. So I kicked him. I PM'd him and asked
what he was up to then he acted like he had no idea what I was talking about. He also proves
how ingenuine he is with me because at one point in this awry conversation, he says he has no
quarrels with me "mate" but admits he thinks I'm an idiot, in the next line. And just a week after
he banned me for being "rude, condescending, arrogant, demeaning and "not fit for the server."

Here's the discord argument after I kicked HemmaX from the server, seeing him as a "captain"
rank. I later banned him, then the real conversation ensued. (I was banned for 7 days already)

[img]https://i.imgur.com/KCCxMoj.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/2WDXwWf.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/KpV9Gaf.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/nZMchRB.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/S4rfghC.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/pL8NVze.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/szIzTgo.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/3VJh5Gz.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/cNTDKcA.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/s6uwhaE.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/UDjiWvL.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/Fk2Aq0Q.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/wasGQgw.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/A7Cql50.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/PK1CYdj.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/bDzhWo8.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/cNdiF5y.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/YgSlsrH.png?1[/img]

Two random ones with Capology he had, a few days before the discord issue.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/Ye2vRlY.png?2[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/7IDQWeU.png?2[/img]

Note: Don't know what they're saying otherwise, don't really mind it though. "Cici is gone" is
enough proof to ensure that they are absolute in their OOC decisions. You said yourself you
don't want your admins thinking they're gods. This guy quit the faction over this, mind you.

Here's Jauss unknowingly disagreeing with faction management's standard in banning me and
shutting down my faction.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/1sb6kOz.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/q3pVcnJ.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/cK4OU5q.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/0sYH4Oc.png?1[/img]

Apache is helping along the destruction of the Luppino Family development of course, by ajailing
people for God knows what. You know... IC and OOC should not mix. Here's a guy who admitted
to me as a faction member that he is ingenuine, all smiles, and he has openly admitted he hates
Nat and Nat will never become appreciated or good enough in his eyes to be a noted member of
the server. Like current FM is doing, he helped along false rumors used to undermine Nat, the
same way this new group of FM is doing to me. Faction management has been a complete and
utter failure in this server and I hate for that to sound as harsh as it is, because it's the truth.
Why we've had 4 different era's in the 6 months this server's been here is only evidence proof of
that fact. But either way, He's already proven how bias he is in March. But that got swept under
the rug. Thankfully Nervous says transparency is this server's top priority.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/yaJ4EUD.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/wO9XsT3.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/I21jofr.png?1[/img]

_____________________________________________
And finally, Nervous's whole take on this entire ordeal, I strategically asked him before I
appealed. What saddens me is that he treats me like a criminal. Quite evidently, he let his staff
(who are in question) in his ear, first. I just want it to be noted that in this next set of screens,
you will see a conversation me and Nervous had upon his return, a few days after our faction
was shut down, 2 weeks after my ban. Hey, at least we still both enjoyed our vacations.

_____________________________________
Q(Me): "Does this server respect objectivity or subjectivity?"
Nervous(N): "You already know the answer to that."
Q: "So objectivity?"
N: "Yes."

Q: "Do you put transparency as the PRIME priority of this server?"

N: "Yes." ["Which is why I ask you to appeal on the forums, and let the handling admins defend
themselveson your ban, and then the faction ban, since it was linked to your ban and you're
continuing to manage the faction OOCly"]

Q: "Should admins be held to the same behavioral standard as players?"

N: "Yes."

Q: "If I, a player, call a staff member corrupt, without being able to articulate or prove why, does
it make it so?"
N: "No, which is why people need facts and evidence."

Q: "If an admin tells a player he has a bad attitude, but can't articulate or prove how, does it
make it so?"
N: "No, he needs to explain why."

Q: "If an admin tells me I have a bad attitude, without explaining why ["like you all have, you
included"] am I wrong for not entertaining that subjective bullshit? :)"

N: DNA, (Did not answer.) ;; Instead;; ["I think there is 5000+ (another lie) of you having a bad
attitude."] ["if it's another player it's another story."] ["but we both know you have the worst
attitude of all RP communities when you want."]

(Something else was said in the middle, read the screenshots, I'm trying to stay on topic.)

Q: "Should we punish admins who behave poorly, especially by their own standard?"

N: "If they have an UNFAIR behavior and really behave poorly, yes. You don't behave the same in
front of a new player with no past between you and that player and someone like Cici for
example."

Q: "Should players be allowed to make requests in group form?" (As in, come together as a
community and make requests for a change?)
N: "Yes, but this is a suggestion, it already exists."
____________________________________

One last rant before I drop this proof.

---
The series of questions got cut off... I did have 2 more for him but evidently he was too busy
doing something more important, which is totally OK even though I'm trying to voice a serious
concern as a member of this community who is appreciated by people other than some staff
members and faction management for 6 months. What bothers me in all of this is, I wrote this
appeal 3 times already, and the very first part had an apology and me admitting I ain't Saint Nick,
in the attitude department. Alright? Stop treating me like Donald Trump, I obviously have
shame. Lol. Anyway, Nervous is certain I'll never admit I'm wrong. He is also CERTAIN (because
he validated) that I am still running the Luppino Crime Organization although I have been job
hunting for 2 weeks. I got 2 new jobs. It was also my birthday week, so I was on a job interview
on my birthday. You didn't even talk to me though, so how could I be mad you didn't know that?
lol. Oh yeah, just trucking along running my faction while banned on my birthday week where I
just got two jobs. HemmaX banned me permenantly just before my birthday, Nervous, thanks
alot lol. Happy birthday Curly xD On some realer though, Hemma, the gift you gave me, was
peace of mind away from this corrosive and corruptive game lead by elitists with a confused
niceguy at the top.

Nervous should remember a conversation we had about "both being on vacation" after my ban,
lol. He knows what's really up, he's just letting the people who hate me, but who he at the same
time depends on, in his ear. Why he validated it, he didn't answer. The same we he didn't
answer how my attitude is so bad.

The same way faction management didn't answer how they can "prove" I'm still "running" the
faction. How could I be running the faction 10 days after they banned me? This is my point
about why letting them admins mix their OOC dictations with ICly developed roleplay is bad.
They become too intertwined in IC and OOC horse-shittery and make up something outrageous
for a roleplayer to even think, and later try to remind themselves to write it in their little
unwritten "book of rules as we go along."

You know, Something as foolish as "I suspect you're still running the faction" after I've been
BANNED for 10 days. Now they punish 15+ active toleplayers, not counting the other 30-40+ we
interact with ICly they're ruining RP for. I feel like that's what separates me from them, That's
what separates my mentality from theirs... In my eyes, and you'd soon see AND Nervous's eyes,
IC shouldn't mix with OOC. Nervous also says admins should be held to the same behavioral
standard as players. So with that said, Ethanol shouldn't be able to "decree" that Luppinos and
Rancho13 are not friends anymore, like he did. He also agrees that admins should be held to the
same behavioral standard as players as well, which is noble. I agree with that as well. And
Ethanol and FM shouldn't be able to just "decree" that the Luppino faction deserves a
shutdown. Nervous is like "Oh yeah I told them to give you free namechanges." like that's gonna
pacify the point. Bro, I donated like 3 times already, I got mad namechanges, lol.

So lets kill this fly, real quick, because it's annoyed me for too long lol.

Here's my conversation with Nervous I waited 2 weeks to have with him, a few days before this
appeal. He sums it up very well for us all, and my argument.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/1AVieh7.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/oeMXo0i.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/IDjRRvx.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/5Ah1ixG.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/zMXx1mh.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/u9gPYdJ.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/tMtipXJ.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/84o4SmV.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/blqbMWV.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/JdXMz8a.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/5mBHKkr.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/2z9sXKc.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/AppRpZW.png?1[/img]

Note: He also encouraged I put forth the petition, but don't make it public, which I didn't.
Here's how he was acting 2 weeks ago, when one of his staff informed him that I am leading the
charge in 30-40 players who wanted a change. (I would say fourty but I heard some folk were
ingenuine in agreeing, they just agreed and ratted me out or something, like I was committing
the heinous crime of requesting a change.)

2 weeks earlier, day of my ban. Just left for vacation.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/zOWdnAb.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/VVVR0lw.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/pr6Vcp1.png?1[/img]

*
Now I put a big red star here, because this is the most important part of this appeal.
Pay close attention, faction management.

To be fair 100% fair to Nervous, he has apologized for his attitude, which is a perfect example of
how players would like admins to start treating them. So before I come off too much like I'm
throwing shade at Nervous, I commend this behavior, 100% because it takes a real man to admit
when he's wrong. You get one for leading by example Nervous. Getting pissy and saying sorry is
always OK in my book, because I do it too and I've never denied that. I actually have apologized
to a lot of people I got pissy with here, whether you'd believe it or not. THIS IS WHAT this
community wants when interacting with admins. You literally have to give it to get it back and
that's what it's all about, this common courtesy business. Anyone who forgot I realized that
must not hold me to such a high standard.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/rJMYS8h.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/usbLAmH.png?1[/img]

Note: Apologized to me in 1 day. 1 day. Handled & forgiven. That's all it takes.

Now since I just gave him a compliment, I hate to do this to him.

He also said just a day before you're reading this that this whole thing, the petition, the ban, the
shutdown was my issue alone. Just my problem, alone. The issues I brought up, privately, in the
conversation that got me banned permenantly. The issues that other roleplayers confirmed I can
speak on behalf of. Here's just a SMALL handful of people who don't agree with the ban, so we
can dead that claim right now. I find it petty to gather more, or present any more than 10.
There are probably 7 people here, just off the whim. People who are not in my faction. People
who I met in GTAW.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/6tP9v4X.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/DAgkrI2.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/grslxbo.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/lwaNFbs.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/vG8SFBZ.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/5Mhq12c.png?1[/img]
[img]https://i.imgur.com/l9at8zp.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/kDG54F6.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/ip9ManI.png?1[/img]

[img]https://i.imgur.com/L4fOeFP.png?1[/img]

Nervous, go ahead and post 5000+ screenshots of my attitude, if you can match me on 100, I'll
sit down. It's only fair. I've only been here roughly about 180 days, so having 5,000 screenshots
of my "majorly bad" attitude would round off to about 27 bad screenshots of my majorly bad
attitude a day, according to the damn calculator lol. That's what you say, not what you can
prove. That's my point. Boy I haven't been banned once on your server, this is my first ban. The
severity of my attitude is so exaggerated, yet you admit yourself that if an admin says a player
has a bad attitude, but can't prove or articulate how or why, it doesn't make it so. And even if
you could prove it, which I'm sure you could, I've already proven your staff has the same
attitude.

Deadass, don't hand in none that are obvious trolling or joking around with people I can do that
with, because you do that with me on the daily yourself. "SHUT UP" or "You don't know realism
at this point" or "I know my mob history better than you" doesn't sound very jokey, just so you
know, so good luck. Neither does "your faction sucks" and neither does Apache calling
Bonestorm "a baby" in /a chat. No ban? I mean shit. Admins should be held to the same
standard as players right? What Apache said to Bonestorm was worse than what I said to
Hemma, in context.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/EmcrJR6.png?1[/img]

BTW: I didn't call HemmaX a baby, I called him "baby." Huge difference, since you're ESL. I point
this out as a courtesy.

One last thing Nervous, if I don't get this off my chest... It'll hurt me. Remember when you said
this to Bonestorm? He'll be mad I posted this but he won't hate me forever. Bonestorm's a real
smart, cool and calm guy, it's a shame you removed him from staff a while back.

[img]https://i.imgur.com/3t5H8lX.png[/img]

Let me just remind you about something I said a while back ok? I always told you I had your
back in growth for this server. You don't ever have to put pressure on me, I know what I'm
doing, huh? How can you expect Ethanol to help my faction? The guy was part of my ban in
LSRP too. Ethanol don't even know who ran Florida or who started the commission in New York
up front. He's shown me there is nothing he can offer me except egotistical claims and pissing
contests. It's in the evidence. You should've just let me do my thing while I had it. But instead
you let admins basically run rampant and think they're Gods on your server sometimes and this
is the end result of letting that happen. You pushed for my "official" status while old haters like
Davis and Caporegime and them were slagging me off, and while I thank that, it was more or
less the appreciation I am thankful for, not the gesture of giving me official. Just that slight
amount of approval. What you need to do is you need to revamp your staff, as you admit in this
screenshot. You need to put the focus where it belongs and stop putting it on the people who
already invest the time they do on your server. I've developed TWO characters on this server.
One with 300 hours, one with closer to 500 hours. And the one with roughly 500 hours I
consider my alt, lol. You've never vocally conversed with me once, we've never shared music or
too many jokes with each other, we keep it pretty professional even though this isn't as much my
job or your job, though it can be argued as your livelyhood since you make donation money off
it. I think we mostly just respected each other's positions and that's how it should've been since
we were supposed to be a team, here. You didn't interact with me the way I interact with your
community, which is totally OK, cause you're the boss. But stop speculating that I'm this guy
who'se "raging in the background" when I'm actually one of the more calmer people on the
server despite my miniature outbursts. Who else would have the patience to write an appeal
this long, knowing it'll probably do him no good anyway?

_________
Wrapping it up, here are some truthful points in regard to the ban & evidence I presented.
(SOMETHING like a TLDR).

·10 I am sorry for my attitude.

·11 I'm sorry this all went down without the server owner present.

·12 I remember Nervous bringing up some "plan" before I let the petition go. This was not a
"plan." I would consider that speculation. This was something that was thought up AND
drummed up in a 2 hour span. The staff just wasn't ready to give us a listen, they'd
rather handle it in an authouritarian form by just making decrees 10-15 minutes after
the actual post. Instead of telling 40 people they are not a majority, and respecting the
fact that they're a good chunk, Ethanol, head of FM could've approached this with a lot
more courtesy.

·13 Forgive me for admitting I'll never change, though I do take responsibility for my attitude
the day I was banned. Don't expect me to just "know" what's wrong with my "attitude"
when you guys don't even know yourselves. Because you haven't articulated it or
proven it.

·14 I've acknowledged I've been warned for my attitude a few times, I get it, my attitude isn't
liked. The ex LSRPers have been telling me this on this server for 6 months, you'd think
I'd have been gone sooner if I'm "not fit for the server."

·15 Shortly after my ban, Ethanol removed out gun warehouse. The same day.

·16 I apologized to Hemma a few days after my ban, expected no response, didn't get one
anyway as expected. Instead, I got an investigation on whether or not I'm still "running"
the faction 10 days later. Another 2 or 3 days after, they decreed I was still running the
faction while I was out job hunting all week and celebrating my birthday about 6 days
ago, and OOCly engineered a shut down our faction, saying I somehow made up and
unwritten rules. People know how I roleplay, I can't run the faction if I'm banned. I can't
even get in game. I don't mix IC and OOC, they do. That's probably that's why this is a
major disagreement and that's why they're using THIS overtly authouritarian tactic to
OOCly rip down what we all built here, more than 30-40+ players, ICly, and that's a fact
because it's in the evidence. They just think they are absolute in their OOC decrees, it's
official.

·17 As I am banned, many players consider my character shelved which is why they continue
on, the possibility of a new boss would've arose if they weren't OOCly shut down. They
say I still ran my faction, and their argument is probably that I am running it from
discord. They don't even remotely understand how our faction works, can't even answer
 basic questions on the history of LCN under pressure. I never told anyone to do anything
ICly, I never suggested something OOCly that someone should've taken ICly. Or on how
players will handle any situation. Sometimes OOC conversations transpire and ideas as
roleplayers are shared in the context of how to present ourselves and how to roleplay
better. Those conversations are kept OOC, anything that happens ICly will happen ICly
and be kept there. I never influenced anyone to do anything in character, so, have fun
proving that.

·18 It's developmentally impossible for me to be "running" my faction, but they want to shut
my faction down before I've been given the chance to appeal my ban.

·19 Here I am in what I percieve as the face of corruption or adversity, calling out what it is
from my perspective, humbled by a week or two and new opportunities in life. This is
not drama, otherwise this would be a way way bigger wall of text. I am still very serious
and very determined to prove my point here.

·20 They contacted Nervous while he was on vacation, not me. I contacted them, as a
mouthpiece for the community. Normally they'd call this me starting "drama" but from
my perspective, that's them inciting corruption and undermining me. Nervous shortly
verbally attacked me after I assume they filled his ear with corruptive anger. According
to some of my members Nervous already got Hemma & FM's side story first. I'd guess
he got that two weeks ago, from today. I mention how he apologized to me for being
angry earlier in the week. I said don't sweat it. I forgave him right there, because I was
showing him that I understand. We all have our moments.

·21 With the petition, I truly considered what I was doing a step in the right direction, not
the wrong one. And without Nervous present, what else could I have done? The best
way to eliminate bias and prejudice amongst two disagreeing groups is to get them
talking. We were being treated dismissively and rudely by Ethanol almost immediately
during that forum PM petition. That WAS until HemmaX came along and pretended he
cared about the situation, only to eventually ban me, the one who brought it forth. I
was disrespected by Ethanol prior to all this anyway, being told I don't know what
realism is and he knows his mob history better than I do. GOOD, so start a mob faction,
so what? I even challenged that he knew more than me, and he ran away from that
conversation. The last thing I heard in that conversation, was "FM ruling is final." lol...
Where's our respect as a community? I was the oldest faction leader here and that's
how I deserved to be spoken to? A petition was the only way to show you guys that we
mean business and we're asking for some courtesy. Instead I got banned. In the end, I
realized why I felt like I had no other option.

·22 I knew full well I was risking the possibility of a ban, Jauss and other members of staff
even told me I was risking a ban, by simply requesting a change. And sure enough, I got
 one. I felt like I was risking it because I'm up against a bunch of LSRPers, who all
remember me as "Arnold Bellomo." This is what makes it impossible for me in new
communities... The stigma. This is why I get banned. I garentee you if Hemma didn't
ask me to confirm I was Arnold Bellomo a month ago, me and him would have a very
different relationship. I've forwarded that above. He literally asked me in the middle of
me trying to tell him about the shit I've been dealing with here. Just because he
"needed to know" like the cat hasn't already been out of the bag since forever. Maybe
he has a grudge, IDK. He said it didn't end well, so his negativity after he confirmed it
might serve as potential bias, if you'd count that too.

·23 My experiences in other communities have desensitized me to these situations, do not

think I don't care, I'm just not accustomed to entertaining what I vehemently believe and
CAN PROVE is bullshit.

·24 I have authority problems, not behavioral problems.

·25 They shut down my faction off of a speculated argument. They would say Baconlove
admitted I am there in discord to give advice and show support to the faction I literally
helped start. You left them all baffled without an articulate reason why I was banned, so
I had to tell them to hang in there and stay solid.

·26 They said I was still running the faction 10 days after they banned me, I was literally out
job hunting. But assumingly because they like to mix IC and OOC, they said I'm still
running the faction on discord. They are full of shit and speculation and there is no way
anyone is gonna buy that just off their word. And if they do, they're just being
disrespectful to me, because they have taken the truth and thrown it aside off
"speculation" with me before.

·27 I believe my ban is unfair. They told my members not to roleplay that I ever existed.
They locked the thread. They lied to the communities face about not shutting Luppino
down because I "decided to act up." Which by their own standard they do all the time,
not just to me. See the above proof, around Ethanol's part.

·28 Nervous told me himself he wouldn't let this happen down the line. This petty,
authoritarian shit that is nothing short of a duplicate of a mentality in other old and
outdated communities... This is what communities always do to me and to us as a
group. Well just for future reference, not one single person from Bellomo is active in the
Luppino Organization. So get over yourselves, maybe. This is a new faction that was
born and built in GTAW and it's a faction you fucked over out of your hatred for me.
Explain how that's going to bring forth "heavy roleplay?" That's quite the contrary of
heavy roleplay, that sounds to me like a setup for "OOCly controlled" roleplay.
 ·29 We have still recieved no proof of:
- Me running the faction OOCly.
- Me having the worst attitude ever, though I'm sure there's proof of me having an
attitude SOMEWHERE, lol.
- What rule the Luppino Organization broke as a faction, with no prior history of
warnings by faction management despite our differences since January.

·30 Never had a day here where I intended for this server to fail, and I still don't. Good luck
in the future if I'm never allowed back after what I've shown you all here, a bunch of
private "under the rug" shit I've been sick of holding onto. It'll be nice to finally be able
to delete these out of my file folder. I do hope my honesty and my hunger for standing
up for better environment between players and staff brings forth the change this server
desparately needs, even if I remain banned permenantly.

________________________________________________
Solution: (If you're with it.)

For the record, I have written up a solution for this ENTIRE MESS. I wonder how many
solutions HemmaX, Ethanol and any other member of FM for that matter wrote up. I'd
wager 0, since banning me and shutting down my faction was the solution they went
and stuck with, and will defend despite Ethanol's statement that the faction will not
suffer. Well... the faction has suffered. Multiple factions have, as a result of your 4th
faction management team AFTER Mike and Apache, who are irrelevant to the ban but
totally relevant to my point. It's a serious issue, the community agrees.

Here are our list of requests for this solution, as a community.

Mainly:
- We want to be given a fair chance to voice our concerns as a community, in any given format,
public or private.

- We do not want an authoritarian staff, we want an authoritative, well behaved, well conducted
staff.

- We do not want to be expected to follow brand new rules as they are made up unless we ALL
or a majority of us agree as a community.
Secondarily:
- We do not want OOC opinions or dictations to affect already developed roleplay.

- We want the admins to be held to the same standard as players, behaviorally.

- We do not want to have "controlled RP." We want to have "developed RP."

- We do not want factions to be shut down at the discretion of any members in faction
management, shutdowns must be done completely IC.

People are quitting our server as we speak, as shown. Following these guidelines will stop this
community vs. staff beef in it's tracks, nobody will lose any power, opinions become null and
void by all parties and instead, roleplay becomes what counts and nobody at all can change that
unless it's done totally IC.
_________________________________________________

What I expect any admin's response if their is one, if there is one:

1. Articulate where my attitude is so bad, with all of this on the table.

2. Confirm whether or not you're sorry too if you were one of the aformentioned.

3. Provide proof of what rule my faction broke, where it's written and why they deserved a
shutdown for it.

4. Don't speak down to me, I'm done being spoken down to by staff starting today with this
appeal. I'm banned but it doesn't give you the right to treat me like a piece of shit, considering
all I've done here thus far. I've been respectful and articulate enough in my repsonses to put this
much effort into this, so give me that same respect or don't respond at all.

If the response is simply: "Stays banned" or "Don't reappeal" thanks for proving my point that
this is not a ban for the better of the community, this is a malicious ban that the banning admin
feels like should never be lifted. DESPITE his biases he's supposed to cast aside for the
community especially as a member of management. I can easily go find another place to RP, I
chose GTAW because I built something nice here and I like it here, and even HemmaX admits I
am a good roleplayer. It's not my roleplay or what I created that's in question, It's specifically my
attitude he says is unfit for the server... so if that's true, take a look in the figurative mirror
Hemma, and read my proof if you got the sand.

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To close it out,
 I know it's hard to bear the burden of giving someone like me the last word. So if these are
my parting words, Nervous, I just want to say thank you for the amazing opportunity to be here
and create roleplay in your beloved server, I truly do respect you despite your belief that I have
absolutely zero respect for you, and I respect everything you're putting together. I wish you
really, really good luck if even if I'm not allowed back. Truth be told, and I'm not attacking you
here either, from the outside looking in I think you are torn between having a productive, growth
supporting staff that is sufficient in creative roleplay standard, and making everybody happy
yourself. One thing I can share with you as a fellow leader is, that job in itself is a futile,
impossible, and endless job. I credit you majorly, for sticking to it anyway, like I've tried to do
myself just until 2 or 3 weeks before the very moment we were OOCly shut down.

So if you have to let me go, I totally understand in advance because you don't want to
undermine your staff. You have a server to run and you've either been too busy, too
preoccupied, or too overwhlemed to deal with this issue. I can't be mad at you for not seeing
the bigger picture. That's their control tactic though. They tell you things like "leave it to me"
and "I'll handle it" bvecause they know you're fair. I feel like they don't want you to see the
bigger picture, because that's how they control you... Just promise me you'll keep your eyes out
for people who threaten to leave your staff if you DO decide to overturn their decision, just so
you know who'se truly loyal to this server and who'se just truly loyal to themselves and their
own ideals, once again. HemmaX does not want developed roleplay or fairness. He's
overstepped his boundaries as an admin numerous times and you've let him. He even admits he
thinks IC and OOC should mix, the way you said it shouldn't. He is a hypocrite. And because he
is a hypocrite, an appeal is not even remotely feasible. I fed him his own medicine in the
screenshots above, a week after my ban during our little discord issue, and the best way to get a
hypocrite to hate you forever is to tell him the truth about who he is. So... I definitely won't be
back by Hemma's hand, especially while they hold the old stigma from LSRP and FiveRP to me...
You have people on this server who care ten times more about your server than your staff do but
that's besides the point. There is no way around the FACT, that this ban, was 100% unfair and
pefectly, conveniently timed during your vacation.

But you know what man. I'd sure love to be back and just get back to creating roleplay for the
server I came this far in. HemmaX calls me a grudge holder, I don't hold grudges, I just keep
evidence. If you overturn my ban, unlock my faction thread and let me do my thing, I'd go right
back to doing what I was doing, everything would be right back to normal before FM OOCly
dismantled a faction I co founded and the roleplay surrounding that faction... You know as well
as I do it's hard to constantly improve with people fighting and holding stigmas to each other all
while pointing the finger at the same time. I don't fight, I prove. I don't attack, I debate. And I
don't swing my dick, I intellectually challenge people I think are assholes, especially those with
authority, those are my favorite.

In the end, all I'd like is something to come home to and have fun with at the end of my work
days, since I got new jobs. Roleplay is that outlet for me. But you can't have fun in a server that
is inherently corrupt, tearing down what you put in effort to build. Inherently corrupt Nervous,
not naturally corrupt... Because although faction management was always naturally corrupt,
faction management only makes up a very SMALL sliver of your server and it was never this bad
until you gave people in faction management the power to think they can change things as they
go along at their own discretion. Put your 5 chosen FM people over 30-40 roleplayers. It'll
always turn out nice and peachy... I'm sure. Probably isn't the first but definitely won't be the
last time your community speaks out as a group.

To the community I may or may not have disappointed as a faction leader here, I apologize. I
apologize for my menacing, apathetic, typically sarcastic attitude if you've ever had the
displeasure of OOCly enduring that from me. I apologize for MY behavior first. Secondly, I
apologize for the staff's behavior in advance. I have never meant any of you any harm and even
if I'm never allowed back, I hope you all have a great experience here and make the most of
what you can, with the staff as controlling as they can be. Forgive them. They're human too,
they're not the endall knowall of roleplay, don't let them treat you like they are. None of us get
paid, so it'd do us great wonders to all keep that in mind when we expect the most out of one
another, this is all done off the love of the community... Community service baby. lol.

I hope in the future, you all remember that the best roleplay is the roleplay that is created
and developed naturally, in characterly. Remember that if you ever want growth as a
community. Leave room for people to grow, don't try to kill them the minute they open up or
spread false rumors to undermine other players behind their back. Don't let IC and OOC mix.
Don't fall victim to the stigmas, the drama, the rigormoroe in the middle of just trying to do this
as a hobby and have fun.

Roleplay that is premediated, and only set to the liking of one particular
roleplayer/admin/admin group out of the many, will always be at risk of not being roleplay in the
slightest. I just want to say that the way we go about things and the way we roleplay in general
needs to constantly improve no matter what. It will never improve if we keep OOCly ripping
down what has been ICly developed. Using opinions as the basis of our reasoning. But we do
need constant improvements and changes. Nothing will ever be an overnight change, these
things require baby steps and before you know it, it's something that is naturally incredible,
exactly what every creative community person wants. Staff can't just change roleplay by making
up OOC rules as they go along that ruin IC development and banning the people they don't like
or the people who may have made them angry at any given point. Ban/Ajail/Punish the people
who actually break the rules. And if you're going to hold players to one standard, hold your staff
to the same standard.

To the staff... meh, don't got much to say to you all as a group, I like a small handful of you, I
am enemies with another small handful of you, the rest of you I don't know enough to hate or
love, but keep fighting the good fight and always work your way towards improvement.
Whoever handles this appeal, take a good look at the effort I put into this and do what you think
is right. Admins aren't the only people who sacrifice time and effort to see growth in this server,
the sooner you learn to respect that the sooner everyone will get along.

Players don't have the luxury of just banning people who make them mad, thankfully, so be
mindful and respectful of that too when you're having a bad interaction with one. Let's make
that step one. I hope you read all of this, if you did, thank you. So much. For giving this the
actual look it's ALWAYS deserved. If you didn't read this whole thing, well thanks anyway I guess.

And for God's sake don't let this become the next LSRP & FiveRP. We're all human, and if we
are going to hold one group of people on this server to a certain behavioral standard, the admins
should be held to that very same standard and should lead by example, as should faction
leaders. Otherwise, admins would at least have to stop banning people for what doing what
they do too, and that's being rude, or condescending, or arrogant, or what have you at this
point.

Make the change. Make this a healthy roleplay environment without people who want to use
their opinions to change the RP. It's very obvious this is just OOC malice and hatred for me, that
is leaking over from other communities. It's pettiness, blown out of proportion. It's baby shit
running up everyone's back, and you all know it. I've done literally nothing to hurt this
community and don't plan to even after I'm gone, so good luck. Thank you for the time in
advance and I hope this didn't piss anyone off more than the truth naturally WOULD.

Try to enjoy yourselves.

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