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Contemplative Journal – spring 2017
January 31 (in-class): The last time I can recall being by myself without using
any sort of technology while I was awake was about a week ago. Whenever I feel
overwhelmed, I take a long shower with no music, no phone, and even only a candle
as a source of light. This leaves me alone with only my thoughts and allows me to
reflect about why I am feeling stressed or overwhelmed and what I can do to
overcome this feeling. This only lasted about 40 minutes but it was enough time for
me to feel better. I was able to focus on myself and nothing else which I find very
hard to do with so many intriguing distractions all around. I don’t purposely set
aside time to do things like this in my fast-paced, technology filled life, but I do
enjoy when I am able to do things like this.
February 2 (reflection): My name is Jenna Mazur and I am a sophomore here at
Loras. I play on the volleyball team here and have been playing since I was in 4th
grade. Getting in the gym with my team is my best stress reliever. Personality wise,
I tend to come of timid and shy however, my friends would say differently. In the
classroom, I am studying Biology in hopes of becoming either a Physician’s
Assistant or Medical Laboratory Scientist. Obviously, I am very interested in the
science behind our body and associated functions but I am also interested and
intrigued by spiritual well-being. I do not consider myself to be very religious
however, I do consider myself to be a spiritual person. I have deep beliefs in the
benefits of self-reflection and taking the time in our busy, technology dominated
society to only be alone with our thoughts. Outside of school and volleyball I enjoy
spending my time outdoors whether it be hiking, biking, boating, snowboarding,
walking my dogs, or just sitting and reading on a nice day. If I could do so, I would
spend my life travelling and exploring new places, peoples and cultures.
February 2 (reading reflection): I chose to reflect on the first passage on page
38. The passage is as follows: “Prayer lies at the heart of monastic life. The
monastic traditions embraced by the community at New Melleray Abbey- and by the
Cistercian Trappist monks throughout the world- are rooted in community prayer
and silent contemplative, meditative prayer. The rhythm of the monastic
community is a balance of prayer, reflective reading of Scripture and manual labor,
each undertaken in an atmosphere of silence, solitude and self-sufficiency” (This
One Dear Place). I chose this passage because I identified a lot of my own values in
this passage- although, I am not a monk. This first sentence talks about traditions
and community of the New Melleray Abbey and Cistercian Trappist monks. I
believe being a part of a community is important for self-development, especially as
young adults trying to find where they belong in the “big picture” of life. Finding
those who have the same ideals and morals as you is how you truly become your
best self, in my opinion. The passage as a whole talks greatly about the importance
of prayer as well. While it may not be in the form of prayer, I also believe greatly in
self-reflection. This allows you to think about either the good or bad in your life and
grow from there. Constantly developing yourself. The last word in this passage is
what I related to the most: self-sufficiency. I like to think of myself as an
independent person and believe that I am this way because I always felt as though I
belonged to the different communities in my life and I took time to self-reflect.
Jenna: An excellent start to the Contemplative Journal! I like what you say about
being a spiritual person though not a religious person, and how self-reflection plays
a large role in that. Very insightful, and I completely agree! I also like the way you
apply the concept of community from the reading about New Melleray and apply it
to your own life. That is exactly the kind of thing we will be focusing on in the
upcoming weeks. 6 points of 6. – Kevin Koch
February 7 (reflection): This week, I found myself in my room and alone in
silence for the first time in a while. Reflecting on my day and the following week I
found myself begin to think of my family. My Dad, younger sister, and myself all
have birthday in the past week/coming week. I found myself missing the small
celebrations we would do as a family when were all home. My family is very
important to me. We are a tight unit and really treasure the moments we have
together. Recently my family took a road trip to Colorado to surprise my older
brother for his 30th birthday. I realized that this is the first time my whole family
(both parents, older brother, older sister, younger sister, and myself) have all been
in the same room in over 2 years as my brother lives in Colorado and the rest of my
family lives in Illinois/Wisconsin area. This thought lead me to start reflecting on
the last time I visited my brother in Colorado. I climbed Mount Bierstadt, my first
14er (mountain that reaches or exceeds 14,000ft elevation). I can remember how the
crisp wind felt, all I could see was clouds and mountains, how it was probably the
first time I didn’t hear everyone’s phones buzzing or ringing. I find a lot of peace in
the mountains and can see myself living there at some point in my life. As I write
this reflection is feels like my mind was bouncing around from many different topics
in my short time of reflection. However, maybe it’s not as jumpy as I think. Maybe I
find this same sort of peace that I find in the mountains when I am with my family.
February 7 (reading reflection): I chose to reflect on a passage from the rules of
St. Benedict. The passage is as follows: “The Abbot out always to remember what is
he and what he is called, and to know that whom much hath been entrusted, from
him much will be required; and let him understand what a difficult and arduous
task he assumeth in governing souls and accommodating himself to a variety of
characters. Let him so adjust and adapt himself to everyone- to one gentleness of
speech, to another by reproofs, and to still another by entreaties to each on
according to his bent and understanding—that he not only suffer no loss in his
flock, but may rejoice in the increase of a worthy fold”. Although my responsibilities
do not compare to that of an Abbot, I personally related this passage to coaching. I
recently began coaching a volleyball team of 12 year old girls. Before committing to
this, I was warned that this would not be the easiest task for the group of girls was
not “very athletic”. However, I decided that I was up for the challenge. And a
challenge it is. I knew I had always wanted to coach but never really thought about
the responsibilities that came with the job. At the beginning of the passage it talks
about how the Abbot is trusted figure among the monks. As a coach, I also feel like I
am a trusted figure to these girls. The girls and the parents trust me to coach them
to the best of my abilities, keep them safe from injury when they are in our care,
and to always be a reliable source to them. The passage also mentions that the
Abbot must adjust and adapt himself to everyone. Not every child likes to be
coached the same way and now that I am a coach, I must learn to rethink every
small detail that I have been taught about the game in order for 10 individuals to
learn them. However, so far it has been one of the most rewarding experiences for
me. In relation to the course, this rule suggests that the monks must have some sort
of figure two look up to, as they do with God.
February 14 (reading reflection): This week, I chose to reflect on a passage
found in Wisdom Distilled from the Daily by Joan Chittister. Not only does this
passage relate to the upcoming holiday, Valentine’s Day, but also my own life. The
passage reads: “Community, the Rule reminds us, is to be built on “chaste” love, on
love that does not use or exploit the other, on love that can give without requiring
equal payment in return, on love that is not based on gratification of the self. And
that is exactly why the Benedictine spirituality of community is not for celibates
alone. … Real monastic celibacy, though, is human love that points to a greater
love.” (pg. 43-44). While this passage may be interpreted as romantic love and
relationships, I think it can also be applied to any relationship you have in your life.
The relationships I have made in the last year have really showed me what type of
people I would like to have in my life. Those who can love with requiring equal
payment in return and those whose love is not based on gratification of themselves.
These people are selfless and make me want to be the type of friend they are to me.
Once again, the importance of community to the monastic lifestyle is brought up. So
far, this seems to be a common theme among all the readings we have done this
semester. At the beginning of the semester when we were doing word association, I
can remember thinking that community was kind of a silly thing to associate with
monks because of their silent lifestyle. However, I the readings seem to be proving
me wrong. The book as a whole so far can be a bit repetitive, but I think this is only
because Chittister is very passionate about the Rule of Benedict and applying
monastic life outside the monastery.
February 16 (reflection): Personally, mornings are always very hectic. Instead of
waking up early so I can relax sipping my coffee, taking my time getting ready, and
enjoying the morning. Instead, I always end up lying in bed until the very last
minute so I have to rush out of the door still pouring my coffee in my travelling mug
and toothbrush basically still hanging out of my mouth. These bad habits also mean
that if I want to get to class on time, I need to be in a dead sprint across campus.
The other morning when I was participating in my usual morning chaos, I realized
that I had left my gym shoes in my volleyball locker in the AWC. This meant that I
had to rush even more to get my shoes before I went to class. I ended up leaving my
room with plenty of time after I got my shoes. While walking to class, I realized that
no one else was in sight. Only me. During this walk, I realized that I don’t think I
have ever walked around campus and not seen anyone while I was out and it was
very peaceful. Surprisingly, since this seemingly annoying morning, I have been
waking up with enough time to walk by myself and not have to rush. I can’t 100%
say that I am going to doing this every single morning for the rest of my life, but I
have found that my once hectic mornings, have become quite calm in comparison to
before.
Jenna: An excellent continuation to the Journal! I can definitely relate to your
reflection about rarely having your entire family together. As we have become
empty-nesters, it is becoming more and more rare that all of our grown children are
with us at the same time. – Excellent association of the role of an abbot with the
role of a girls volleyball (especially when they’re “not very athletic” ). Very
insightful as to needing to respond to their different personalities differently, trying
to motivate them to perform better while not squashing their enthusiasm, etc.
Great training for leadership in any field, actually! - Finally, a fine discussion of
your early morning routines, and finding a way to (sometimes) have a more
leisurely walk across campus, etc. -- I’d also like you to start trying some of the
reflective prompts from the CJ assignment handout, too. 8 points of 8. – Kevin
Koch
February 21 (reading reflection): This week, I am responding to a passage from
Joan Chittister. The passage is as follows: “No life is to be so busy that there is not
time to take stock of it. No day is to be so full of business that the gospel dare
intrude. No schedule is to be so tight that there is no room for reflection on whether
what is being done is worth doing at all. No work should be so time-consuming that
nothing else can ever get in: not my husband, not my wife, not my hobbies, not my
friends, not nature, not reading, not prayer” (pg 105). I think it very common for
people to say that there aren’t enough hours in the day or that they’re constantly
too busy. Although I think it is good for people to be busy and be productive, I do
think every person in American should let this passage resonate with them as I did.
Chittister is trying to make the point that no matter how busy or chaotic your life
may be, there should always be time for reflection and contemplation, as the monks
do.
February 23 (reflection): The Monastery: Our Lady of the Mississippi is a
documentary about 5 women who are seeking something more out of life that have
decided to turn to the monastery for guidance and enlightenment. Each of the
women shared struggles as well. The Abbess explains that the change in culture
and lifestyle will be abrupt at first, but that through silence, reflection, and prayer,
they will all find something in the monastery. Whether it is what they were looking
for or not.
One of the subjects in this movie is Sarah. She was a happy, jewelry
entrepreneur and had a happy life in South Africa. Now, she is a divorcee and
struggling with her failed business. She entered the monastery in hopes of finding
herself again. She compare herself to a fire-poppy, a plant that grows after a fire
has wiped out the land before it. Her mentor explains to her that she needs to let go
of the external things in her life. In the middle of the film, she has an emotional
realization that she needs to move back to the states to be with the people she loves
and loves her; her family. Her biggest struggle was with humility. However, during
her time at the monastery she has come to terms with her life and her struggle and
is ready to start anew. In the hardest time of her life, she has found warmth and
sense of belonging at the monastery.
Another subject is Katie. Katie is a 23 year old researcher at Stanford
University. She says she has lost her faith as she has been studying neuroscience.
Her hope is to be able to reconcile religion and science. At the beginning of their
journey, she does not adjust to the monastic lifestyle. Breaking rules and not being
able to conform to the monastic lifestyle, Katie strongly considers why she deciding
to go through this process in the first place. She strongly struggles with not having
a romantic life and not being able to release these tensions as well as obedience.
After the session about making icons, she states that she finally understands the
monastic life. She comes to the realization how her actions affect those around her,
embracing herself find community.
Sheila is the third of the five subjects. She is a 62 year old widow and retired
psychologist for transgendered individuals who were negatively affected by
organized religion. Her husband also had very strong feelings against organized
religion. She sought out the monastery in hopes to get rid of the burden and anger
she has with organized religion. She easily begins to conform to the monastic
lifestyle; enjoying the silence and focusing on what was before her. She also talks
highly of enjoying the prayers and singing in church, although not completely sold
on organized religion. After speaking with one of the sisters, she begins to
understand some of the components of religion. After being at The Monastery, she
was inspired to go back to work as a psychologist. The sisters’ work ethic and
dedication to their work inspired her to continue practicing.
Overall, all of the women came to the monastery because they were lost in their
everyday lives. Each in their own unique ways, they found enlightenment. Some
within the community, some within themselves. The abbess explains that through
reflection, prayer, and contemplation all of the subjects have found a sense of
balance.
Jenna: An excellent continuation of the CJ! Good discussion of the people from the Mississippi
Abbey film. It leads one to wonder how long most people could handle the monastic life,
whether doing so for a short period would be beneficial to most people. And short of that, the
Chittister quote you discuss, that there is no life so busy that there is no time for reflection.
(Good pick-up that Americans are particularly bad at this!) I like your discussion of the
photographs from your dorm room. That would be an interesting exercise for anyone: what is
the story behind every photo or wall hanging on one’s walls. (Mine would take a while to
tell....Two of my children are artists!) – Finally, fine entry on your silent run. I usually take a
morning walk around or before sunrise. Most days I listen to music, too, but every once in a
while I just let my thoughts do the talking. -- 12 points of 12. – Kevin Koch