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Coming to LA
Chakrapani loved Bombay and his life in Bombay both as an attorney and
as an astrologer. Relentlessly more and more people came to see him to
gain an understanding of their unfolding karma. Over time Swami
Muktananda would also consistently ask Chakrapani to come to the United
States with him. In time, Chakrapani eventually said yes. At that moment,
time and space opened up for Chakrapani, he now experienced the
opportunity to bring the art and science of Vedic Astrology to the United
States of America. Many people studied with him, and Chakrapani became
for many, a living source of the ancient wisdom of the Vedic Astrology.
Chakrapani would perceive the person and make direct statements that
penetrated to the person’s mind and beyond their mind into awareness
itself. In his penetrating gaze and direct interpretive experience, a person’s
experiential understanding would go beyond their mental experience. It
would seem as if he was giving information but within his language was the
transmission of a field of awareness that illuminates the person’s
experience of themselves, their mind and their world circumstance. His
consultations created memory of not just what he said but a felt sense of
potentiality within mind and circumstance.
My personal friendship with Chakrapani was deeply informing for me and
simultaneously lots of fun, the best of fun. Through him over time and
through time I learned to experience cosmological dimension of my own
experience. My personal friendship with Chakrapani opened for me the
natural experience of the multidimensionality of life.
His Kindness
Chakrapani was so kind and so generous. I would like to tell a personal
story of Chakrapani’s kindness to me. One morning I began having the
experience of dying. This sense of dying was pervasive and continuous.
Fortunately, I usually do not typically have such an experience. On that
day, I was preoccupied with my dying and leaving everyone I know and
love. Sharon and I were also presenting a seminar on that day to make
things even more intense and dramatic. In the morning after I gave my
presentation at the seminar and I still had within me the experience of the
feeling of my death becoming more and more pervasive. In the afternoon
just before we were to continue with our seminar, all of a sudden out of the
blue the phone rings and Sharon answered the phone, it was Chakrapani.
She came back to me and said Chakrapani just called from California and
said to tell you that you are not going to die. Do not worry. He said then
something to the effect it is not you that is dying. Then later that evening
after the seminar we get a phone call that Sharon’s brother had just died
that morning in Mexico in a boating accident.
Later in Chakrapani’s life Sharon, Peter and I would visit Chakrapani in Los
Angeles and we would experience Chakrapani’s love of his family. Being
with Chakrapani and Dianne and Dianne’s son Amiya was wonderful and
their family companionships was so strong and so full. There is a Shavite
expression that describes this experience. “The bliss of the world is the
bliss of Samadhi and the bliss of Samadhi is the bliss of the world.” For me
it is interesting as I write this brief essay on my experience of friendship
with Chakrapani, I began my story with Chakrapani’s friendship with Baba
Muktananda and my story ends with Chakrapani’s deep friendship,
companionship and love of Dianne and Amiya. “The Bliss of the world is
the bliss of Samadhi!” Of course as we know Bliss overcomes suffering.
A final note. Sharon and I were so fortunate to be with Chakrapani the last
week of his life. For the most part he was semi consciousness and in time
fell into unconsciousness. And yet there was this live vital awareness within
him. I would at times hold his hands and experience the luminous flow of
vital life force come into me. The energy was completely him in his vitality
of innermost awareness. His field of light and energy was complete even
though his body was terribly ill and disintegrating. The paradox was both
amazing and most beautiful. His aliveness of awareness was within his
dying body. Even as I would hold his hand this immense kindness would
come into me. This energy was not impersonal, but his personal energy,
his personal field of light as person. And of course the room was filled with
the soft energy and light.
What I have described very briefly here in this essay is my ongoing and
unfolding experience of Chakrapani Ullal who was both my friend and my
mentor.
Rudolph Bauer, Ph.D. Diplomate in Clinical Psychology.
Washington Center for Consciousness Studies and Washington Center for
Phenomenological and Existential Psychotherapy Studies