A better life.

That would surely be on everyone’s mind when they think

about what they really hope in life. Everyone in this world seems to have their own
hopes and dreams in improving their life to be the best. The same goes with me.
My life had changed since this tragedy happened to me. Of all of the people in this
world, I was very, very sad to know that I am suffering from ‘bronchiectasis’. A
total shock. That was what happened to me. But I know, everything’s happened for
a reason.

It all on that cloudy morning. At dawn, I woke up and felt a bit dizzy. I
coughed. To my greatest horror, a dark, thick liquid was all over the sink. The
blood flows non-stop from my throat making me more terrified. My body shivered
and I was scared to death. As it is still too early, I felt a bit guilty to wake my
roommates up. So, I ran to the warden’s house and asked for the teacher’s help.
Luckily, Teacher Salida was there and she told me to call my mum as she is a
nurse and she knows what’s best to do in this situation.

I called Ibu. I braved myself and tried to be calm. I controlled myself as I did
not want to make her worried for my condition. As I assumed, Ibu was in a shock
when she heard about this. She hurriedly rushed down to Lenggong from Ipoh and
took me to the Hospital Raja Permaisuri Bainun, Ipoh. Before that, she also had
informed the Vice of Students’ Affairs, of the school Encik Firdaus to take me to
the hospital. I left the school exactly at 7.00 a.m without even informing my
friends. I was sent to the emergency room as soon as I arrived at the hospital. My
heart beats faster, as my pituitary glands secretes more adrendlin in my body
sending fear all over my body. I felt more terrible once I arrived at the emergency
room. The dull lighting and cold room welcomes me. I saw a few people who were
very sick and suffer from their disease lying weakly on the bed. I was very scared.
 Ward 1B. I felt a bit awkward when I was first placed in this ward as I never
had any experience entering a ward. I usually visited my friends and relatives in
the ward but never in my life that I ever thought that one day I would stay in a
ward. Luckily, Ibu stayed besides me and accompanied me all the time. After the
nurse finished briefing about the ward, the location for the toilet and lunch hours, I
was surprised by the fact that so many doctors had come to see me. Three doctors
observed my condition and even asked me some questions. I answered them with a
very weak voice as I was very tired after losing so much blood. Then, one of the
doctor took my blood by using a syringe for about 20ml. they said that the blood
sample was going to be used for a test. It was a total pain. Only god knows what I
felt. I felt like crying. But in this condition, I must be strong and brave and I must
not fear. Ibu cried for my braveness.

Six days had passed and I did not know what was happening to me. I felt
weak. While I was lying on my bed, staring blankly at the ceiling, one of the doctor
in the chest clinic came. “You had to be patient”. The doctor said to me. I felt
something that was not right. The doctor told me that I am suffering from
‘bronchiectasis’ forever! The doctor even said that I had some scar in my left
lungs. This was due to infections that I may have when I was a child. And now, the
scars in my lung will be permanent in my body. Due to this also, I will often had a
few symptoms like whopping cough and heamopthasis. I will also undergo
difficult breathing as my breath were shorter.

The next day, I was discharged from the ward and I was still too weak to go
to school. Ibu sacrificed her work at the hospital and took care of me at home. I
were given 30 tablets of streptomycin to finish in one month. One big tablet per
day to reduce irritating in my lung. Until now, I still fight myself bravely with
disease. Like what some people said, god sent us problems because we can survive
it. I am hoping that I can still manage a normal life although I have
‘bronchiectasis’. Deep down in my heart, I was still hoping for a better life. And
with that, I fight for myself.