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by
Alina Călin
February 2018
Alina Călin
Donath 140, Corp C Ap. 3
Cluj-Napoca, 400293
Cluj, Romania
alina_calin16@yahoo.com
1 INT. CHAPEL OF THE SPIRITUAL CENTRE 1
Inside the small chapel of an Ignatian spiritual centre, a
couple of young people attend a mass with a general
unusual attention. Well, most of them...
A pious girl stands out of too much piety: dressed in long
and large blue and white clothes, wearing a necklace with
a big cross and a few miraculous shiny icons of all
existing versions of the Virgin Mary, and one with Jesus
in 3D. A few more rosaries, a kerchief on her head held
slightly inclined to the right, hands folded and a meek
expression make her look both comical and pious, and, for
some, quite scary.
Two chairs behind her, a blond boy yawns and almost falls
asleep. He gets a nudge from the girl to his left,
probably his annoyed girlfriend. He takes out his phone
and scrolls among apps in desperation. She rolls her eyes
and crosses her hands.
THE PRIEST
You’ve all come here to retreat,
in search of God. Please remember
that first of all God is the one
in search of us. He works with
our desires and this is a time to
let him speak in the silence. You
won’t be talking during these
days, except for a few minutes
each day during spiritual
guidance, but there’ll be a lot
of talking with God. So I assure
you no loss of voice ever
happened during the spiritual
exercises for this reason.
(some of the tension is
diffused, people smile
serenely)
Always remember that God calls,
invites. Never bursts in with
violence or constriction. So
listen to the gentleness of the
silence, find the stillness in
the storm, and there is God,
revealing himself to us, calling
each of us in a personal way, in
the greatest desires of our
hearts... Now, we might be
experiencing darkness... fears...
(MORE)
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 2.
FADE IN AS REMEMBERING
2 EXT. ON A BUSY STREET, EVENING 2
A man and a woman seem to argue about something. It’s
night, cars go by making lots of noise and flashes. The
woman is upset trying to explain something, looking at the
man. The man is looking away, only when the woman shouts,
the louder tone catches his attention. She’s turning to
walk away, he grabs her hand, starts panicking and crying.
THE WOMAN
We need to discuss these things,
otherwise, I can’t go on like
this, I’m unhappy! This is
painful for both of us, so let’s
do something about it!
THE MAN
Don’t go! Please... don’t leave
me...
THE WOMAN
Have you heard any word I’ve
said? (now shouting) I didn’t say
I’m going, but we need to face we
have problems... and we can’t go
on like this!
THE MAN
Don’t... please...
THE WOMAN
Why are you acting like this?
5 EXT. IN A GARDEN 5
The same man picks up a flower and carefully places it in
the woman’s hair. Sun dances among the leaves and the wind
makes a swishing noise among them.
GOD’S MALE VOICE OVER
"Then you will call on me and
come and pray to me, and I will
listen to you.
THE PRIEST
We will begin this morning with
an Ignatian contemplation based
on the text from Matthew, when
Jesus walks on water. I will be
guiding it following the steps I
recommend you all to take during
your individual meditations
throughout the day. You will all
receive a piece of paper with it,
so I’d rather you don’t spend
time taking notes now, this is
not school.
(he smiles, shy giggles are
heard)
Also, the steps are not about
checking everything on the list
(MORE)
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 5.
THE PRIEST
And there he is, I see with my
mind’s eye how God looks at me,
sees me as I am here, now, and
smiles...
(light and emotion on
people’s faces)
I ask God to help me offer this
time to him entirely, with all I
am and all I have, for his glory,
praise and service...
(he starts reading the
gospel)
"Immediately Jesus made the
disciples get into the boat and
go on ahead of him to the other
side, while he dismissed the
crowd. After he had dismissed
them, he went up on a
mountainside by himself to pray.
Later that night, he was there
alone, and the boat was already a
considerable distance from land,
buffeted by the waves because the
(MORE)
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 6.
THE WOMAN
Men... 12 men go into the boat.
You send them through, but what
do I do? Should I go? But I am a
woman, where do you send me?
(she looks lost and the
question come out as
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 7.
THE VOICE
You are a woman! Your place is at
home. You have nothing to do
here, you’re a woman, not a
disciple. This is men’s work,
strong men, a storm is coming.
There’s no place for you here!
The woman falls down devastated. The face of an old woman
appears saying:
THE WOMAN’S GRANDMOTHER
Your father was so disappointed
when he heard you’re a girl too -
and the third!
(she laughs amused)
I was there when he got the phone
call.
Then a few men dressed in suits shake hands. The woman in
between two of them is disregarded with no salute or
handshake, as if she wasn’t there.
THE VOICE
There no place for you in a men’s
world!
A father closes the door in the face of a girl without
saying goodbye, disregard for her stretched hands longing
for an embrace or words of love.
Tears stream down her face, as she gazes at the frozen
image of Jesus.
THE WOMAN
This isn’t you, is it? I may not
have the right to ask for an
answer now, but you are not like
that. These are just shadows of
my past, pains I carry through. I
will leave them aside and I will
wait until the real voice of my
God will answer. For I Know you
will, I can wait not knowing my
path, not knowing how do I follow
you as a... a... woman...
(the word sounded like a
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 8.
THE WOMAN
I wish I was in the storm, out in
the boat. There’s so much inside
me, I want it out. I fear no
winds or waters, I’d rather
battle them!
(her eyes still wet, her
face contorted with pain)
JESUS
I know. It’s the storm in your
hear that you fear, the pains you
still carry. Let me take them
away.
THE WOMAN
What do you want me to do? How
should I follow you?
JESUS
All in good time. You’re welcome
to come and pray with me now, on
the hill.
(he takes her by the hand)
The rest of the scene appears as they stand on a high
hill. The wind blows strong and distant, rain and thunders
illuminate the night. Not very far, on the sea, 12 men in
a boat struggle with the storm.
JESUS
I think I am needed there.
(he shows towards the boat)
THE WOMAN
And what do I do? Send me away
home if you want and I will go.
JESUS
I do not want you to go, but the
answer you seek is much more
complex for now. Look down.
The woman looks at her feet, on a calm water, in the midst
of a stormy weather. Jesus makes a few steps, like dance
steps, and she follows, a dance on water. He then lets her
hand go.
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 9.
JESUS
Have patience. That’s all I ask
now.
The woman finds herself again on the cliff. She looks as
Jesus approaches the boat of the apostles. Unsure about
her path, all she can do is trust... and wait... she must
accept not knowing, but she believes she’s safe in the
confusion experienced, she’s in God’s hands...
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 10.
KAREN
How are you today?
THE WOMAN
I’m good. Really grateful to be
here.
KAREN
Has it been a good day so far?
THE WOMAN
Yes, I think, yes. Unusual, but I
think good... The morning prayer
went... unexpected...
KAREN
Walking on water?
THE WOMAN
Yes...
(she struggles to say)
KAREN
How did you experience the scene?
Was it from the boat or... ?
THE WOMAN
No...
(hesitates)
It felt like the boat was... for
the apostles... and... not for
me...
KAREN
Why do you think you were not in
the boat?
THE WOMAN
I don’t know, it just felt
like... there is something else
for me... and... the question was
how do I follow Jesus, and I am
different from the apostles...
how do I follow him as... what is
my role in the church ...as... as
I am.
Her second attempt to say the truth out loud the word
woman failed. She becomes anxious and ashamed, but the
words just wouldn’t come out. How does she follow Jesus as
a woman? She looks at Karen, lost for words.
KAREN
Is there something that feels
like an impediment?
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 11.
THE WOMAN
Perhaps, but not exactly... it
ended peacefully as if it’s
supposed to be something else,
but it’s not clear what.
Karen looks a bit puzzled, but remains silent.
KAREN
What was the grace you asked for?
THE WOMAN
Faith. Faith that there is a way
for me...
(the phrase remains
unfinished, after a long
pause she continues)
Then, in the first meditation
during the day, it was Isaiah 43,
a passage very dear to me.
KAREN
What touched you most?
THE WOMAN
It was...
She opens her bible, though she knows the words by heart,
just to check they are still there and be able to read
them aloud:
THE WOMAN
"Bring my daughters from the ends
of the earth...everyone who is
called by my name, whom I created
for my glory, whom I formed and
made."
Karen nods to this and remains silent for a while. The
woman’s face is brightened up by the meaning of the words:
she is his, created to glorify God by nature.
KAREN
What are you seeking in these
exercises?
THE WOMAN
If you mean vocation... I think I
know where I tend to, in marriage
(she’s anxious again, a distant
future no doubt for this, so a
subject to avoid) but I’m not
here for that, but to deepen my
relationship with God.
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 12.
KAREN
There’s also a personal vocation,
that is unique to each of us. The
way God touches us, the gift we
receive and are able to pass on
to others. It’s a particular
talent, unique for each of us.
I’d like you to think about that.
The woman looks interested and happy about the idea and
the change of a subject she was not at ease with.
FADE OUT WINDOW
10 EXT. OUTSIDE THE CENTRE, ON THE GROUND 10
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 13.
VOICE OVER
"Two men went up to the temple to
pray, one a Pharisee and the
other a tax collector. The
Pharisee stood by himself and
prayed: ’God, I thank you that I
am not like other people-robbers,
evildoers, adulterers - or even
like this tax collector. I fast
twice a week and give a tenth of
all I get.’But the tax collector
stood at a distance.
The scene reveals far behind this man, another person,
sitting in the last bench of the church, looking at his
hands open and upward, a tear drops down but silence is
kept.
VOICE OVER
"He would not even look up to
heaven, but beat his breast and
said, ’God, have mercy on me, a
sinner.’ I tell you that this
man, rather than the other, went
home justified before God. For
all those who exalt themselves
will be humbled, and those who
humble themselves will be
exalted."
The woman steps into the church. As if invisible, the
other two men do not see her. She walks around as if
inspecting the scene. Jesus enters the scene and they both
approach the first men, the Pharisee.
THE WOMAN
I don’t get it. There’s nothing
wrong with aiming to be a good
person, and being happy about
it... except perhaps being too
self-content about it... and
thinking that despising others
for not being as good is his
right... and not seeing his own
pride is a grave sin as it stops
him loving others... because he’s
not asking for forgiveness and
love, he’s not giving it to
others...
(Jesus moves his head in
approval for each statement.
She looks at him.)
I’m sorry... I’m doing it through
and through... I keep asking you
to help me not to sin. I wish my
prayer would be a gratitude for
keeping me from sinning. I find
(MORE)
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 14.
FOCUS ON HANDS
13 INT. COLLOQUIUM ROOM 13
The hands of the woman, and then the woman entirely we
see, seated and looking at her hands, open upwards.
KAREN
What was the grace you have asked
for?
THE WOMAN
To know my... sins...
The last words came out with difficulty. She’s feeling
again anxious and unable to properly speak. A wave of heat
and sweat, but she wants to be sincere.
THE WOMAN
And acknowledge that I am a...
sinner.
She feels ashamed for both being a sinner and for not
being able to accept it openly in front of others. She
looks at her hands for a while and then back at Karen.
KAREN
We’re all sinners of course, but
we’re loved sinners, loved by
God... this is the essence of our
faith, God’s love, that took our
sins away... and that love is
what sustains our whole
existence... What about the other
meditations?
THE WOMAN
I remained for some time with the
text from Osea... I found it very
beautiful...
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 15.
Her face was full of light and hope, but also a glimpse of
fear - is she dramatizing it all, is it too much?
KAREN
What touched you most?
She hesitates again, though she remembers all words
perfectly, she finds herself again paralyzed in letting
all the emotions out: the joy and beauty of the words, the
encounter with a God who loves despite the horrible misery
she just found inside herself. She picks the bible and
opens it.
FADE INTO THE BIBLE
14 EXT. OUTSIDE THE CENTRE, ON THE GROUND 14
THE WOMAN
I did... I do... but it’s all in
the past... I wanted to do so
much good, but I failed... I keep
failing...
JESUS (cont’d)
text. Here: "And I will take you
for my wife forever; I will take
you for my wife in righteousness
and in justice, in steadfast
love, and in mercy. I will take
you for my wife in faithfulness;
and you shall know the Lord."
(he looks her in the eyes)
This is what you desire, isn’t
it?
THE WOMAN
Why would you say that, after
seeing my truth, full of sin and
failure?
JESUS
I know the whole truth you carry
with you. The darkness all fades
in front of the light. I choose
to be faithful and always love
you.
Now the woman stands there alone. She closes her eyes and
holds the book tight to her chest. Her expression full of
emotion, with the great feeling of being loved as she is.
Undeserving. Without her own ability to do it properly -
but because he said it, she accepts with gratefulness what
could never be earned...
THE WOMAN
Thank you... I accept... Your
way.
She remains on the spot but there is a fade into the same
scene but at sunset time. The scene reveals other people
around the same spot, near the lake reflecting the dim
light.
FADE INTO LAKE THAT TURNS DARK (NIGHT) THEN LIGHT BLUE
15 INT. IN THE WOMAN’S ROOM TO THE CHAPEL (AT THE SPIRITUAL
CENTRE) - DAY3 15
Fade out from the window. She wakes up with the same words
in her mind (VOICE OVER as she raises up and looks on her
window at the morning ground and then walks towards the
chapel, enters and sits): "And I will take you for my wife
forever; I will take you for my wife in righteousness and
in justice, in steadfast love, and in mercy. I will take
you for my wife in faithfulness; and you shall know the
Lord."
Her eyes fixed on the crucifix, she prays in her mind:
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 17.
THE WOMAN
I ask for the grace to be worthy
of what you offered me. To be
faithful to you, in righteousness
and in justice, in steadfast
love, and in mercy.
She ponders to think what could she do in exchange.
THE WOMAN
You deserve someone worthier to
serve you... Least I can do is...
What to do... Offer you my truth,
so you can transform it. In
confession. I want to do it
right.
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 18.
VOICE OVER
"While they were traveling, he
entered a village, and a woman
named Martha welcomed him into
her home. She had a sister named
Mary, who also sat at the Lord’s
feet and was listening to what he
said."
As the voice speaks we see Jesus walking through a small
village and seeing a beautiful looking house that has a
different feeling. He walks further towards the central
point of the village, but he’s with a bunch of followers,
so all look out their windows in curiosity. Men and women
alike around this Jesus, all get around as he preaches.
MARTHA
He looks like a decent man, a
prophet with wisdom. Lazarus, why
don’t you ask him to come in our
house. They must be tired and
hungry of walking all day.
LAZARUS
I think you can ask him yourself.
It is your house, and he looks
like a man who would not be
offended being asked by you, even
if he’s not from these places.
Look, there are happy looking
women among the traveling
fellows. He doesn’t seem to be at
all like the fanatic you invited
last time and took offense at it.
MARTHA
We’ll go together. Mary, will you
join us?
19 INT. MARTHA’S HOUSE 19
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 19.
JESUS
You have beautiful sisters with a
big heart. Take care of them and
love them greatly.
Jesus looks towards Mary, who blushes and smiles back with
gratitude. Then he looks towards Martha, who was busying
herself trying to make everything perfect for this great
man that made her this great honor to come into her house,
at her invitation, in a forgotten village. She comes to
him to asks for her sister’s help.
VOICE OVER
But Martha was distracted by her
many tasks, and she came up and
asked, "Lord, don’t you care that
my sister has left me to serve
alone? So tell her to give me a
hand." The Lord answered her,
JESUS
"Martha, Martha, you are worried
and upset about many things, but
one thing is necessary. Mary has
made the right choice, and it
will not be taken away from her."
Two people look like they are waiting for the same thing,
for the priest in the colloquium room on the other end of
the corridor. The pious girl is wearing today less
religious necklaces and as she sits on a bench, she looks
out the window, looking relaxed. The blond boy walks
slowly, head down in a very small book, not turning the
page for more than 10 minutes now.
Anxious and restless, she feels more stupid than ever.
Someone gets out and she enters the chimney room.
THE WOMAN
First of all... I realized it is
very difficult for me to see
myself as a sinner and accept me
as being a sinner.
(the words came out with
surprising ease, but with
strong emotion of a truth
spoken out loud)
And I realized I have neglected
confession many times or done it
superficially for this reason.
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 21.
THE WOMAN
Because words come out with
difficulty...
The priest decides to end it, gives the absolution and the
final blessing.
FADE INTO THE CANDLE
23 INT. CHAPEL OF THE SPIRITUAL CENTRE 23
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 22.
THE WOMAN
I am not worthy, and I’ll never
be. Unable to do a proper
confession today. But perhaps
what is most important has been
said, and that is sufficient to
you. And this is what matters,
your love, your mercy, your
greatness that lifts me up. Today
I choose to make it less about
me, miserable me and my faults...
and celebrate you... your
kindness... your forgiveness
beyond my ability to confess...
for today I know your love...
truly unconditional...
She has bright eyes and desire and gladness fills her
heart as she approaches and takes communion.
THE PRIEST
The body and blood of Christ.
THE WOMAN
Amen.
As she walks back to her place and sits, in her mind:
THE WOMAN
I asked for the grace to do a
good confession - in my
definition of good confession to
make me feel good about giving
you something good. Instead, you
give me your love and acceptance
in what I feel is a dreadful and
imperfect me. You give me love
for imperfection so I can love
imperfection myself.
MARY
It’s such a beautiful thing.
The woman smiles awkwardly, not feeling it as so. That is
surely something for the future, distant future. Will she
ever have children? Will she ever have someone besides her
to raise them? Sadness shadows her and pain is visible on
her face. She sits.
THE WOMAN
Ongoing pain for years, a
relationship that does not seem
to go anywhere. Sometimes is ok,
but whenever it is serious,
responsibility, it all falls
apart, I’m on my own, broken and
unloved. He seems so far away
from being able to be a father -
barely capable of taking care of
himself. I don’t want to be
alone, raise children alone, I
would like to have someone
besides me, take care of us.
(MORE)
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 25.
MARY
What if from all this would
result a child... a newborn child
that would love?
(she said the last words
with great enthusiasm and
joy)
This is what you want, isn’t it?
To give love a shape in the
world?
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 26.
would love that. She would give anything to know she can
do that. All resistance in her was wiped down by this
simple idea. Any child loves, nothing really special about
the idea. As such any child is God’s action. She knew
that. But to hear it that way made her heart melt, and joy
and hope filled her. An offer that could never be refused.
An offer that wiped away all fear and pain.
THE WOMAN
I would be glad to take all
hardships of this relationship,
no matter how it goes, if it
would give birth to a child that
loves. A child through which God
loves.
THE WOMAN
The idea of... a child... a child
that... loves...
(she hesitates, and realizes
again that is more difficult
than she thought to say out
loud and put into words)
(MORE)
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 27.
THE WOMAN
I think I found also something
about my personal vocation...
What you said a few days ago.
KAREN
Good... What is it?
THE WOMAN
It’s faithfulness. It is what I
have received from God and what I
can give further... A fidelity
that perseveres through
hardships, and does not give up
on people.
KAREN
That is very beautiful!
THE WOMAN
I’m not sure if that’s something
general, but this is what came up
now, these days.
KAREN
Thank God for this gift.
THE WOMAN
I am very grateful for it
indeed...
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 28.
THE WOMAN
Yes, I did. It was lovely to
write it...
KAREN
Being grateful and praising God
for the works he does in our
lives transforms us. Makes us
available and aware of the beauty
and grace we receive. Otherwise,
we might just pass by it and not
notice it. It is us more than God
that need to realize the good in
our lives and be grateful for it.
The woman nods and the two look at each other. The woman
does not feel like saying anything else, not does Karen
ask for more.
BACK ON THE GROUNDS
Sunset again. All of the people gathered again to watch.
This one is the most beautiful of all. Each day different
it was. Clouds make it colorful.
The woman has almost finished a painting of a woman
carrying a baby so as to take him somewhere safe. Warm
colors, like the sunset, and the woman is in motion
holding the baby and looking forward, her back bent with
the weight. There’s tenderness in it. The baby sleeps, no
care in the whole world. It is both the feminity of God
carrying each of us with gentleness and protection, and
the woman painting it who wishes to protect love and
vulnerability in herself, and in the world. For motherhood
is also a gift from God, we must receive it before we
manifest it.
VOICE OVER (THE WOMAN’S)
My soul praises the Lord for
loving me as I am.
VOICE OVER
"Afterward he was traveling from
one town and village to another,
preaching and telling the good
news of the kingdom of God. The
Twelve were with him, and also
some women who had been healed of
evil spirits and sicknesses:
Mary, called Magdalene (seven
demons had come out of her);
Joanna the wife of Chuza, Herod’s
steward; Susanna; and many others
who were supporting them from
their possessions."
The woman looks at it, and says her mind:
THE WOMAN (VOICE OVER)
The only icon that shows them as
a distinct group is actually
about them going to the tomb. We
don’t know much. Where were they
in Jerusalem? They surely
traveled with Jesus to get there.
Where were the women during his
last supper with the
disciples?... Were they there
when Jesus washed their feet and
told them the last words, his
testament to love one another
(MORE)
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 30.
JESUS
Mary!
He speaks her name, and she knows it’s him. But Mary
Magdalene changes into the woman and Jesus calls her for
the first time by her name.
JESUS
Dahila!
She looks again, smiles and slowly goes away. On her way,
she spreads her arm to touch the leaves that make the
swishing sound and she remembers him, perhaps one day her
fiance, then Mary and the child that loves and joy fills
her hear.
(CONTINUED)
CONTINUED: 32.
THE PRIEST
These days you have experienced a
personal encounter with God, that
I am sure had a transformative
effect on you. However, I must
advise you that the current
enthusiasm may be treacherous, in
the sense that you may feel like
you can do anything and have
plans to live on roots and walk
barefoot preaching in towns, but
when winter comes you’ll get cold
feet and give up.
(a small laugh at the idea)
Let things settle down. This is a
moment of grace to sustain you in
your everyday life you now return
to.
We see the woman and a man sitting near her, the same man
as the one from her memories. They hold hands at some
point. We walk through the people in the chapel and look
at the faces, bright faces, showing gratitude, joy,
freedom. No tension left, no strain. Just peace and love.