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Trans experiences in lesbian and queer space

Catherine Jean Nash


Department of Geography, Brock University

This article explores how individuals who identify as transgendered and transsexual men experience the internal
possibilities, limitations, and resistances found in spaces identified as ‘lesbian’ or as ‘queer’ in the City of
Toronto. The article draws on interview data transcribing the experiences of 12 transgender and transsexual
individuals in LGBTQ (lesbian, gay, bisexual, trans, and queer) spaces. These interviews empirically illustrate
how fluid and unfixed gendered and sexualized practices can transform spaces and their occupants. Further,
this article considers the ways spaces may be ‘queered’ and the implications of these processes on the
constitution of LGBTQ spaces. The experiences of transmen in lesbian and queer spaces bring into sharp relief
the complex ways that material spaces, even those arising out of resistive impulses, incorporate disciplining
expectations and new opportunities. Those who research or utilize these places must be attentive to these
processes, if there is to be a serious commitment to the creation of libratory, inclusive spaces.
Keywords: queer geographies, gay, lesbian, queer, trans, transgender

Les expériences transgenres dans l’espace lesbien et allosexuel


Cet article porte un regard sur la manière dont des hommes qui se décrivent comme des personnes transgenres
ou transsexuelles ont fait l’expérience des possibilités, limites et résistances propres aux espaces de la Ville de
Toronto reconnus comme «lesbiens» ou «allosexuels». Utilisant des données recueillies au cours d’entrevues,
l’article traite de l’expérience de douze personnes transgenres et transsexuelles vécue dans des espaces LGBTA
(référant aux communautés lesbiennes, gaies, bisexuelles, transgenres et allosexuelles). Les résultats
empiriques obtenus des entrevues ont permis de déterminer dans quelle mesure des pratiques sexospécifiques
et sexuées, qui revêtent un caractère changeant et indéterminé, peuvent entraı̂ner une transformation des
espaces et de leurs occupants. L’article examine en outre dans quelle mesure les espaces peuvent être
«allosexualisés» et les conséquences de ces processus sur l’émergence des espaces LGBTA. Les expériences que
vivent les hommes transgenres dans les espaces lesbiens et allosexuels mettent clairement en évidence la
complexité avec laquelle ces espaces réels, même ceux qui trouvent leur origine dans les actions menées sous la
poussée de la résistance, sont capables d’intégrer des perspectives raisonnables et des possibilités nouvelles.
Autant pour les chercheurs que pour les utilisateurs de ces lieux, la prise en compte de ces processus est
essentielle si l’on veut vraiment favoriser l’apparition de nouveaux espaces mouvants et pluriels.
Mots clés : géographies allosexuelles, gaie, lesbienne, allosexualité, transgenre, LGBTA

Introduction all phrase for a broad array of distinctive types


of identities, practices, and places that have
This article explores how those who identify as unique histories and meanings. Drawing on data
transgendered and transsexual men experience from interviews with 12 transmen, I argue that
two kinds of urban LGBTQ (lesbian, gay, bisex- Toronto’s LGBTQ spaces identified as lesbian or
ual, trans, and queer) spaces in Toronto—lesbian queer, respectively, and located both within and
spaces and queer spaces.1 LGBTQ is a catch- beyond Toronto’s Gay Village offer contradictory
Correspondence to/Adresse de correspondance: Catherine
Jean Nash, Department of Geography, Brock University, St. experiences of transmen in the latter places due to the re-
Catharines, Ontario, Canada L2S 3A1. lationships this particular group of participants had to these
E-mail/Courriel: catherine.nash@ brocku.ca spaces over their life history. Clearly, transmen’s experiences
1 in heterosexual spaces, gay male spaces, and other spaces con-
Trans individuals are present in all places, not just lesbian
and queer places. This article reflects on the specificity of the stitute a further area of research needing exploration.

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DOI: 10.1111/j.1541-0064.2010.00337.x

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limitations and possibilities for legible self- be a very complicated issue. Participants largely
expression for transmen. Further, transmen re- agreed that the term trans was suitable when
work the meanings embedded in those places finer distinctions are not required.
in myriad ways—perhaps a queering of space, This article is divided into three sections. The
perhaps an erasure—that highlight the relational first provides a theoretical overview of queer
nature of identities, practices, and places. Un- analytical approaches in geography—the under-
derstanding the experiences of transmen in les- lying ontological and epistemological framework
bian and queer spaces is important as it brings informing this research. Queer analytics are then
into sharp relief the complex ways those mate- linked with Butler’s (2004) concepts of schemes
rial spaces, even those arising out of resistive of recognition and legibility (which are necessar-
impulses, incorporate disciplining expectations, ily spatialized concepts) to provide a tool for
normalizing practices, and new opportunities. It understanding transmen’s experiences in lesbian
challenges those who research or utilize these and queer spaces. The second section uses queer
places to be attentive to these processes if there analytics and Butler’s schemes of recognition to
is to be a serious commitment to the creation of analyse data from interviews with 12 trans indi-
libratory, inclusive spaces that support different viduals about their experiences in Toronto’s les-
ways of being (Nash and Bain 2007). bian and queer spaces.2 The final section offers
This argument builds, in part, on contempo- some concluding thoughts about the implications
rary queer geographical scholarship in asserting of this research.
that traditional gay and lesbian urban spaces
are increasingly contradictory and contested loca-
tions. Political and social complexities related to Queering Subjects, Geographies,
newly constituted identities and practices under- and a Legible Self
pin these growing divisions (e.g., Browne 2007;
Nash and Bain 2007; Oswin 2008; Nash 2010b, Despite some attempts in the literature, no
2010c). This is not to claim that these have agreed-on definition of queer theory or queer an-
been stable and untroubled locations in the past alytical approaches exists. Any review of queer
(they have not) but rather that new politics and scholarship reveals ‘considerable disagreement
practices are fundamentally altering how these over its relationship with and debt to philoso-
spaces are understood. If places such as the Gay phy, women’s and lesbian studies, second wave
Village and other LGBTQ spaces are to continue, and postmodern feminism, and gay and lesbian
they will need to recognize and adapt to these studies’ (Jagose 1996; Sullivan 2003; Browne and
changing social realities (Nash 2010c). Nash 2010, 4). As Browne et al. note, ‘queer is
Defining terminology is an awkward and diffi- a highly contested term, one which has a vari-
cult pursuit; for the purposes of this research, ety of uses, applications and some would argue,
semantic understandings were carefully worked misuses’ (2007, 8).
out with each interview participant. The term At their heart, queer formulations (as they
transsexual is understood here as a person desir- have been taken up by geographers interested
ing a physical transition from one gender to the
other through medical and surgical intervention. 2
As ‘the researcher’ and given my seemingly unproblematic
The terms transmen [FtM (female to male)] and self-identification as biologically female and lesbian, (as well
transwomen [MtF (male to female)] were used as a feminist, a queer scholar, and an academic), the opening
in this research by individuals who may have discussions in these interviews were largely given up to de-
tailed (and careful) discussions about personal histories, poli-
had various surgical and medical interventions
tics, and positionalities. Despite the fact that there might be
and may live primarily as men and women while affinities between myself as researcher and the participants in
refusing total submersion in those labels. The that we are members of the ‘LGBTQ’ or ‘queer’ community,
terms ‘trans’ or ‘transfolk’ were often used as in many ways our histories and politics were simultaneously
umbrella terms for an admittedly diverse and partly oppositional yet somewhat collective. Starting an inter-
view with discussions about ‘identity’, ‘gender’, ‘sexuality’, and
not necessarily commensurate series of gender- ‘biology’ opened any number of difficult avenues for explo-
variant subject positions. The interviews for this ration. The discussion here barely does justice to these com-
research made it clear that naming continues to plex and often challenging conversations.

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in gender, sexuality, and space) seek to chal- sistance and transgression. Homosexual spaces,
lenge the heterosexual/homosexual binary and such as Toronto’s Gay Village, were viewed as be-
to ‘question the supposedly stable relationship ing carved out of a heterosexual urban landscape
between sex, gender, sexual desire and sexual (e.g., Valentine 1993; Nash 2005, 2006). Such a
practice’ (Browne et al. 2007, 8). For same sex perspective relied on an essentialist understand-
attraction to be coherent, relationships must ad- ing of gays and lesbians, in other words, that
here to fixed understandings of sex (biological individuals operated within stable, ahistorical,
as either male or female) and gender (as ei- and immutable binary categories of biology (male
ther masculine or feminine). Queer theoretical or female), gender (masculine and feminine), and
perspectives challenge, deconstruct, and decen- sexuality (heterosexual or homosexual).
tralize the binary understanding of human sub- Places such as Toronto’s Gay Village be-
jects as male or female, masculine or feminine, came the political, social, and economic cen-
and heterosexual or homosexual. As Knopp and tres of the gay and lesbian movement (Kinsman
Browne (2003, 410) argue, when lived experi- 1996; Maynard 1996; Rayside 1998, 2008; Warner
ences are examined through a queer lens, we 2002). Toronto’s homosexual spaces sorted them-
are better able to see ‘the indeterminancy, con- selves along classed, racialized, and gendered
tingency, malleability and often repressive na- lines from the outset, although overlap between
ture’ of normative binary systems of gender and groups and spaces was frequent. Gay men and
sexuality. Looking ‘queerly’ allows us to interro- lesbians, often uncomfortably bound together in
gate the lived experiences of individuals in ways political and social struggle, largely occupied sep-
that do not seek to impose a set of binary or- arate and distinctive social spaces (Chamberlain
derings as explanations for those experiences. 1993; Ross 1995; Nash 2005). The social cate-
Queer research seeks to understand the possibil- gories of gender, sexuality, race, and class that
ities of lived experiences ‘operating in incongru- forged the initial spatial outlines of Toronto’s
ent and conflicting relationships with normative, Gay Village in the 1960s and 1970s are infor-
binary systems of meaning’ (Nash 2010a, 132). mally maintained today to a large extent. There
This refusal of the fixity of identity categories is still a strong sense that middle class, white,
and practices seeks to render the notion of same gay, male interests, and a conservative politic
sex attraction incoherent and sets at least some dominate the area, although an increasingly ac-
queer behaviours and practices in opposition to tive queers of colour community has developed
gay and lesbian identities (Turner 2000; Corber (Warner 2002; Walcott 2003; Crichlow 2004).3
and Valocchi 2003). In this context, identities Nevertheless, traditional gay and lesbian spaces
such as ‘gay’ and ‘lesbian’ are understood as have often (but not always) provided safe har-
one of two possible ‘sexual orientations’ (hetero- bour for myriad other sexual and gendered mi-
sexual/homosexual) based on assumptions that norities, behaviours, and practices (e.g., Prosser
see these identities as fixed and stable along 1998; Namaste 2000; Califia 2003; Noble 2006).
with gender and bodies. Further, these gendered In recent years, gay and lesbian social and po-
and sexualized identities are understood as sta- litical organizations have changed their names
ble over one’s life history (Gorman-Murray et al. to some formulation of ‘LGBTQ’ to be more in-
2010). clusive of those operating outside of or beyond
Queer theory in geographical research opened
up new ways of thinking about and under- 3
There is little historical research on the role that race and
standing sexuality, gender, and space. Much of ethnicity played in the development of Canadian urban gay
villages (but see Crichlow 2004). Research that does exist is
the early literature on geographies of sexuali-
largely silent on the role and visibility of racialized and eth-
ties, while recognizing the complexity of gen- nic minorities in gay and lesbian political and social organiz-
dered and sexual lives (as well as age, class, ing, representing a substantial gap in the research on Canada’s
and racial intersections), tended to portray urban gay and lesbian political movement. What is suggestive is the
landscapes as ordered along a heterosexual or role that HIV/AIDS activism played in the emergence of self-
identified, community-based organizations targeting Toronto’s
homosexual binary. Public urban spaces were un- growing ethnic communities. In today’s gay village, a large
derstood as being heterosexual ‘by default’ and number of social and political organizations serve distinctive
homosexual spaces were seen as locations of re- radicalized and ethnic minority groups (Crichlow 2004).

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normative sex(uality)/gender binaries. Queer ac- . . . involves the construction of a parallel world,
tivism operates, with varying degrees of success, one filled with possibility and pleasure, while func-
to open spaces to non-normative gendered and tioning simultaneously as an intervention in the
sexualized practices and identities (Nash 2010a, world of the dominant culture, replacing its fixed
132; see also Nash and Bain 2007; Lamble 2009). principles and binary modes of thinking with the
Despite its arguably oppositional and critical mutability of our everyday queer actions. . . In its
stance to traditional gay and lesbian political space of opportunity, we are free to construct our-
activism, queer is a word used largely in an selves in flexible, unspecified and unpredictable
uncritical fashion in Toronto’s traditional Gay ways. (2000, 224)
Village spaces, in the gay media, and by var-
ious business/social and political organizations. The queering of gay and lesbian spaces ar-
Many queers regard mainstream, homonormative guably expands the possibilities for living open
gay, and lesbian politics (perhaps unfairly) as and flexible lives beyond what some might find
outdated oppositional and assimilationist politics as limiting binary gendered and sexualized cat-
‘bogged . . . down in polemic, critique and endless egories. Yet, despite the optimism around the
analysis’ (Browne 2007, 198). Canadian scholar possibilities found in the queering of spaces,
and activist Tom Warner (2002, xxvi) argue that tensions emerge when the disruptive (re)making
as a political stance, and in opposition to gay or queering of space is not necessarily found to
and lesbian political organizing, ‘queer’ ‘rejects a be libratory for all. As Nash and Bain (2007, 58)
minoritizing logic of toleration or simple politi- argue in their research on the Toronto Women’s
cal interest representation in favour of a more Bathhouse, ‘while queer spaces are often pre-
thorough resistance to regimes of the normal’. sented as progressive, inclusive and tolerant,
Thus, as Rouhani (2007, 169) suggests, ‘queer’ in these same spaces may be exclusionary or lim-
this mode takes on a tone of ‘authenticity’. Queer iting despite efforts at openness’. The queering
spatialization and activism are seen to oper- of space can lead to the possible eradication or
ate somehow ‘outside the spaces of domination’. exclusion of identities no longer deemed libra-
In these accounts, gay politics are regarded as tory. Some argue, for example, that queer poli-
politics that ‘capitulate and are inauthentic; while tics has resulted in a loss of lesbian space, both
queer politics resist and are thus authentic’ geographically and intellectually. Queer women
(Rouhani 2007, 169; see also Bell and Binnie ‘now seem to have given up entirely a conceptual
2004). In this conceptualization, being queer is space for themselves as lesbians in adopting the
to be ‘cutting edge’ and to reject old school con- term and the concept “queer”’ (Faderman 1997,
servative and assimilationist politics in favour 226; see also Prichard et al. 1998). Other scholars
of more radical and resistive practices. In this suggest that so-called queer dykes, in their priv-
framework, gay and lesbian identity-based poli- ileging of gay male culture and their dismissal
tics are located within the spaces of commodifi- of lesbian feminism, have contributed to the ac-
cation and consumption, while ‘queered’ spaces celerated loss of material lesbian social and cul-
represent the possibility of finding alternative tural spaces such as women’s bookstores, coffee
‘anti-capitalist means of living autonomous queer houses, bars, and clubs (Casey 2004; Jeffreys
lives’, although it is difficult to know how 2003; Podmore 2006). Ironically, ‘queer’ identi-
queerness can operate outside capitalist sys- ties risk taking on the essentializing and sta-
tems (Rouhani 2007, 179; Oswin 2008; Brown ble characteristics that queer theorizing, politics,
2009). and practices seek to avoid. Thus, the queer-
This queering of space arguably reflects a spa- ing of gay and lesbian identities and spaces
tialization of the queer project in creating places raises compelling questions about the ongoing
for those who operate outside of essentialized processes at work in gay and lesbian spaces,
gay and lesbian identity politics and those who places historically constituted through the nor-
do not feel welcome in gay and lesbian spaces. mative social categories of men/women, hetero-
Spaces designated as ‘queer’ are portrayed as im- sexual/homosexual, and male/female.
portant because, as Tattleman claims (somewhat The experiences of trans participants in lesbian
idealistically), the queering of space and queer spaces in Toronto ably demonstrate

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how the possibilities for being understood (be- reconstitute that place with new possibilities for
ing legible) as one wishes can be variously a being.
tenuous, problematic, and/or exhilarating experi-
ence, much dependant on the nature of place. Trans Experience in Lesbian and Queer
Being possible or being able to live a legible Spaces
life at some times and places but not at oth-
ers suggests that ‘being’ and ‘place’ are not all- Twelve individuals generously shared their time
encompassing or uncontested and that multiple, and their experience with me for this article.
resistive, and subversive ways of being exist si- All were from the Greater Toronto area and
multaneously. As Judith Butler argues, ‘if the ranged in age from 20 to mid-60s. In order
schemes of recognition that are available to us to locate participants, I drew on local contacts
are those that “undo” the person by conferring in Toronto who circulated my contact informa-
recognition or “undo” the person by withholding tion to all who might be interested. All in-
recognition, then recognition becomes the site of terviews were conducted in downtown Toronto
power by which the human is differentially pro- in public locations. They participated in one
duced’ (2004, 2). Schemes of recognition—those to two hours, in-depth, semi-structured inter-
forms of social and cultural markers that make views exploring their differing experiences in
us visible to others as a certain sort of being— lesbian and queer spaces. Some of the spaces
only render some possibilities as legible and ren- discussed were in the Gay Village at Church and
der others as illegible. Being legible as a certain Wellesley streets and some were beyond that
gender and/or sex when one understands oneself area but almost all were in the downtown core.
as another (or none, or fluid) is to be ‘undone’, All participants described themselves as being
to be recognized as something one is not. If one born biologically female and their current self-
desires to be understood or legible in ways that identifications varied along a transgender and
are not recognized, are refused, or are invisible pansexual continuum.4 Several participants iden-
to others, one is undone again. Transfolk in this tified as male and heterosexual while others em-
study struggle with being and legibility and the ployed a range of terms that crossed normative
possibilities for recognition beyond gendered and categories, for example, heteroflexible, intersex,
sexualized binaries. queer, transsexual, and genderqueer. All agreed
Butler’s schemes of recognition are relations that ‘trans’ could be used as an all-encompassing
of power in that dominant and normative ex- term. Collectively, participants largely identified
pectations constrain and discipline how we are as white and middle class, although several un-
understood irrespective of how we understand derstood themselves as having a middle class up-
ourselves. Yet, schemes of recognition and legi- bringing while currently living a working class
bilities vary from place to place, opening up pos- life based on income and employment. Most
sibilities and opportunities. As Cresswell (1996, had some post-secondary education. The partic-
117) suggests, places are saturated with ‘multiple ipants’ individual experiences in different places
meanings despite the fact that some meanings were as varied and distinctive as anyone else’s,
are encouraged more than others’—normative so there is no attempt here to claim com-
meanings render certain places and practices prehensiveness. However, these differing knowl-
possible. The possibilities for self-understanding edges and experiences in Toronto’s lesbian and
and recognition by others depend on the avail- queer spaces illuminate how attempting to live
able schemes of recognition embedded in place.
If we are not recognized in certain places for 4
The question of surgeries and degree of medical intervention
what we believe we are or if we are recog- was not a central issue in discussions about identity and sub-
nized by others for what we are not, we can jective sense of self. In several interviews, participants did vol-
be undone—our sense of self refuted by others unteer that a sort of ‘hierarchy’ existed in some segments of
the trans community in Toronto. As one participant argued,
who cannot recognize us for who we understand ‘the hierarchy has always been . . . the more procedures you
ourselves to be. And yet, even in being undone, had, the more medically transitioned you were, the better you
there is the possibility that illegible practices can were, the better you passed’ (Kyle, 3 August 2007).

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a legible life, that is, being read or understood ity of identity’ (1998, 4; see also Wilchins 1997).
by others as a particular sort of subject, is ren- Janice Raymond’s (1994) attack on transsexuals
dered possible in some places and impossible in in her book The Transsexual Empire (reprinted
others (Butler 2004). from 1979) also contributed to the longstanding
All interviews began with a lengthy discus- rift between some feminists and trans academics
sion about the complexities of self-understanding and activists. Scholarly work that only attended
(and its shifting and malleable nature) and the to a notion of the transsexual as constructed
implications for considering how one is and is through medical intervention but paid little at-
understood in particular places. Taking up queer tention to subjective experiences (e.g., Billings
subjectivities and positionalities makes it diffi- and Urgan 1982; Hausman 1995; Stryker 2006)
cult (often intentionally) to pose questions about was also the subject of intense critique (Prosser
self-identification, especially given the limitations 1998; see also Namaste 2000; Rubin 2003; Hines
of contemporary vocabularies. During the inter- 2007). Hints of this lingering distrust surfaced
views, we (as ‘researcher’ and ‘participant’) collec- in several interviews, particularly in discussions
tively explored an infinite range of possibilities about various theoretical approaches to gender,
for understanding subjective life experiences and sexuality, and embodiment. Kyle, a community
commented on the social and cultural limi- worker in Toronto, expressed disdain for some
tations embedded in current vocabularies, in- feminist and gay and lesbian scholarship, assert-
cluding the problem of understanding the self ing that ‘every time that I had previously seen
within dualistic notions of male/female, mascu- some article by some person talking about what
line/feminine, and heterosexual/homosexual. As it meant to be trans, it had nothing to do with
a white, middle-aged, and middle class academic the lives of the people’. Kyle highlights the prob-
who unproblematically identified as a lesbian, I lematic application of scholarly theories to lived
shared much history and familiarity with the experiences:
places under discussion with the participants.
. . . I think my frustrations are around the aspect
However, as feminist and queer scholars argue,
of theoretical frameworks themselves in some re-
given researchers’ distinctive positionalities and
spects because people don’t fit in to theoretical
the changing nature of the field, the knowledges
frameworks. Often theoretical frameworks can be
produced in the research processes are necessar-
created and morphed to adapt to a person. . . . It’s
ily partial and situated (Haraway 1991; Staeheli
when it happens the other way around where sud-
and Lawson 1994). This makes the process of
denly people are saying, “well now we know the
working out meanings and definitions extremely
theoretical framework, now we understand how
important (and difficult). We spent considerable
this works for everybody”. Everybody fits in to
time in the interviews making sure we agreed on
these . . . scenarios or these identities or these
how issues should be understood.5
categories and I think that that’s problematic.
Contemporary trans scholarship is highly crit-
(3 August 2007)
ical of academic work that draws on the figure
of the transsexual or transgendered individual as For all participants, the interview format re-
a trope or metaphor for postmodern deconstruc- quired some form of self-description and we
tions of subjects and identities, particularly work struggled to work beyond the limitations of
based on Judith Butler’s notion of performativ- vocabulary. For example, in my conversation
ity. MacDonald takes aim at postmodern feminist with George, he argued against being positioned
scholarship that promotes the playfulness and within pre-existing categories of legibility and
performance of gender without addressing the recognition. He felt that these categories impose
lived realities of transfolk or acknowledging ‘the a stability and certainty about identity that is too
direct and visceral terms in which transgendered narrow a referencing system for life experiences.
people experience the boundaries and instabil- In resisting existing categories, participants of-
ten used terminology that, while seemingly more
5
For a detailed discussion on the questions of positionality, re-
comprehensive, also created seemingly stable cat-
flexivity, and the shifting nature of the field related to this egories for self-expression, such as heteroflexible.
research, see Nash 2010a. George notes: ‘In an ideal world, where no one

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needs me to use more commonly used terms, yond or outside these binaries. Caleb, who as-
“heteroflexible” is my preferred term because . . . serted trans legibility as a political expression,
I definitely prefer women, there’s definitely a noted the difficulties:
preference there but I have a boyfriend. So, I’ve
come to terms with that. We both identify as But coming into . . . my trans identity was even
heterosexual because until we dated each other more difficult because my gender expression does
we were mostly into women’ (11 November kind of vary day from day, hour by hour if you
2006). will depending on my situation. . .. and I’m con-
Similar sentiments surfaced in most interviews stantly kind of policing myself because I want to
and required careful discussion. Many of the be accepted as legitimate and it’s hard because the
participants, in making sense of embodied gen- majority of the people here don’t understand what
dered and sexualized experiences, argued that I’m doing. (18 August 2006)
self-identification was often contingent on dis-
Identities were quite stable for some of the
tinctive situational and relational circumstances
participants, while others worked towards leg-
(e.g., Diamond 2004). Interactions, practices, and
ible recognition by making constant and con-
desires in relation with others had the poten-
scious strategic choices about self-representation.
tial to destabilize, transform, or remake self-
For many transmen, ‘what it means to be a real
understandings. Jose, who identified as intersex
man has been thoroughly problematized’ (Rubin
but preferred to be recognized as male (although
2003, 125). Many participants, to ensure legibil-
not always), noted:
ity in particular places, carefully deployed nor-
mative ‘schemes of recognition’—choices made
I know about the fluidity of gender and, because of
about clothing, hairstyles, bodily comportment,
my social involvement in the community, my ideas
speech patterns, and voice pitch. Participants
of gender might change and if I change, [I might]
considered a large number of social scripts as
not be a trans queer man but a trans gay man
well as the location where such scripts would be
or, which I highly doubt, if I start identifying as
enacted and exercised considerable agency over
straight if I am only going to pursue relationships
self-presentation. Participants acknowledged that
with women who are not queer. (21 June 2006)
there are limits to these choices (as there are for
all of us) in ensuring the desired recognition in
Jose’s comments highlight the complex intersec-
social interactions. Knowledgeable occupants leg-
tion of gender, sexuality, and legibility and the
ibly inhabit spaces by adhering to collective sets
fluid possibilities for self-understanding based
of hegemonic meanings about who shares those
on interactions with others (e.g., in relation-
spaces and for what purposes. In speaking about
ships with women who are not queer). Jose
heterosexual and masculine spaces of sport and
and several other participants also sometimes
fitness, for example, Caleb, who self-identified as
asserted a distinctly trans identity—a self-
trans or male, noted the need to reflect appro-
understanding that deliberately refused any sta-
priate gendered scripts:
bilized position with contemporary gendered,
sexualized, and embodied categories. Public leg- when I’m at the gym I want no questions about my
ibility as either male or female is expressly male identity and that is . . . I mean maybe I am
rejected in favour of an ambiguity to be under- taking this too far and I . . . maybe I really have no
stood as trans. This ambiguity is not intended idea of how the gym atmosphere would change if
by the participants to be read as androgynous they figured out that I was trans. But as for now I
but as an alternative subject position—a diffi- am very traditionally [male] . . . and I hate it. I hate
cult subject position to occupy given that a trans the way that I have to do that, but like there is
subjectivity might be illegible to many people. etiquette in the gym between men that just can’t
Androgyny, by its definition, relies on the bina- be breached. (18 August 2006)
ries of male/female, man/women, and masculin-
ity/femininity and for many of the participants Also troubling our conversations about iden-
in this research, their sense of self worked be- tity and self-understanding was the sense that

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self-understanding shifted over the course of to and generally that’s an empowering choice for
a lifetime and, in all likelihood, might be me. (10 August 2007)
different again in the future. Nevertheless,
These preliminary comments foreground the
most participants embraced this flexibility and
multiple ways participants understood selfhood
uncertainty, regarding it as a positive and liber-
both within and beyond established normative
ating possibility. As Nick noted, ‘So . . . am I go-
categories of sex, sexuality, and gender. Partici-
ing to be male for the rest of my life? Probably,
pants’ commentaries illustrate Noble’s assertion
but I don’t really . . . that’s not a preoccupying
that ‘transsexual and transgender folks do not
issue for me right now because I recognize that
transcend the sex/gender system; trans folks are
things change all the time and I’m comfortable
an important site where its contradictions and
with that complexity now’ (10 August 2007).
inabilities . . . are imploded from within . . .’ (2006,
By contrast, two of the participants felt
100). How and whether one successfully partici-
no ambiguity or instability about their self-
pates in schemes of recognition in such unsta-
understandings. Denis, a lawyer practicing in a
ble circumstances foregrounds the possibilities
small community on the Canadian west coast,
and limitations of legibility in certain kinds of
was quite clear about the proper performance
spaces.
of his gender and sexuality given the expecta-
tions embedded in particular spaces. Unlike most
of the participants, he unambiguously identified
as a heterosexual man, although this position- Legibility in Place—Becoming Undone
ing could be situationally and relationally com-
plicated. Denis acknowledged that choices about For the trans participants in this research, Gay
presentation and legibility depend on place and Village spaces, including those sporting the les-
its normative boundaries around heterosexual bian or queer label, were generally understood
masculinities. In speaking about his interactions as permitting more possibilities for being than
in certain places, he noted: places dominated by heterosexual normativities.
Nevertheless, and perhaps not surprisingly, while
I mean things that I would feel free [to say], jokes we (researcher and researched) seemed to have
that I would feel free to make among gay men, I a visceral understanding of what we meant by
wouldn’t around straight men . . . I mean mostly if lesbian or queer space, our attempts to define it
I’m in or at the bike shop or something like that, more closely were constantly undermined by the
that’s just more watching my audience, put it that tensions between fixity and instability. Many par-
way, which is the same way I am at work. It’s the ticipants related instances where an event was
same way I am in court.. . . but I don’t feel I have advertised as LGBTQ or queer, yet the space
to swagger around, smoke cigarettes in a kind of was really lesbian-only or women-only, or re-
funny way or belch too much. (7 March 2007) ally gay male, or really queer. A space may
be understood as lesbian but straight women
Only one participant, Nick, identified as a
may be welcome (and gay men and straight
queer man, reflecting his desire for more flexi-
men might be tolerated in certain circumstances).
ble ways of self-representation. As he made clear,
While gay male space may be male but with
however, even the seemingly limitless possibili-
a tightly policed expectation that only biologi-
ties of queer sometimes need stabilizing:
cally born men would be present and lesbian
I used to make a lot more choices than I do now spaces were largely associated with an essential-
mostly because things are so relational and com- ist (fixed and stable) identity (biologically female,
plex that I don’t desire to make my life so full same sex desire), queer spaces were often sim-
of stress that I’m always trying to negotiate what ply defined as ‘not straight’ (not predominantly
other people are thinking and also because I pass heterosexual), and promoting an ‘anyone goes’
without a problem. So I’m able to just sort of atmosphere.
move comfortably in the world. I do make deci- Depending on the nature of the location of an
sions about how queer I want to look based on event, assessments were made about class and
where I’m going and who I’m going to be talking racial affiliations. For example, some events were

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regarded as ‘white’, middle class women’s af- I guess I come off that way to people or it could
fairs closely associated with feminist sensibilities be the way that I act or present myself in some
(e.g., Toronto Women’s Bookstore author read- way. (29 September 2006)
ings), while others were designated women of
While a lesbian identity permits membership
colour events (women’s bathhouse events) with
and acceptance in community spaces and in var-
a different racial and classed sensibility. Each of
ious social networks, which identification often
these spatial categories (gay, lesbian, queer) pro-
represented an unsettled and ill-fitting compro-
vided a tentative starting point for discussions
mise. Some participants reported finding it awk-
about who might be present in certain spaces
ward to be read as butch (as opposed to ‘male’)
while acknowledging from the outset that there
within lesbian spaces but declined to dispute
are serious limitations in using these labels.
that reading by others. Participants often strug-
gled to find workable ways to identify or situ-
ate themselves in the lesbian community while
Toronto’s lesbian spaces
attempting to put some distance between them-
All participants identified for some part of their selves and the label lesbian. George argued:
lives as lesbian and had frequented lesbian-only
spaces. For a majority of the participants, iden- I came out as gay. I didn’t know why I had an
tifying as lesbian represented a stage in a long issue with the word lesbian but I did. That was
process of working out a self-identification that definitely one of those gut feelings that the word
resolved internal dissonance around gender, sex- doesn’t work for you. . . . coming out as gay was
uality, and embodiment. Admission to contem- totally positive. . . . So that’s why I came out as gay.
porary urban lesbian community spaces (bars, But the whole time . . . like I said, the word lesbian
restaurants, dance parties, etc.) such as those was just like no, I’m not a lesbian. I somehow felt
found in Toronto’s downtown provided entrance better with the word dyke, I’m not sure why. But
into certain social networks and communities. if you ask me I was like ‘I’m gay’ and they’d say
Several participants recounted being labelled ‘oh lesbian’ and I was like ‘no, gay’. (11 November
as tomboys in their early childhoods. When 2006)
this conduct seemingly lingered into adolescence,
One participant found the imposition or as-
many found themselves labelled as ‘lesbians’
sumption that he was lesbian unacceptable from
by genuinely concerned and oft-times well-
the outset and expressly rejected affiliation with
meaning relatives and friends. Given the associa-
that identity or community. Nick described a pe-
tion of forms of masculinity with lesbianism and
riod in his life where, while still self-identifying
the contemporary acceptance of butch identities
as female, he shaved his head. Nick experienced
within lesbian communities in Toronto, partici-
considerable discomfort at suddenly being the
pants found a certain level of comfort in taking
subject of interest to women whom he under-
up a butch lesbian identity (Halberstam 1998;
stood to be lesbian:
Prosser 1998; Cromwell 1999; Noble 2006). Bry,
a participant working through a transition from Nick: So it was a huge shift in my social experi-
a lesbian identification to a trans identification at ences of how people related to me. When I shaved
the time of the interview, noted that he had un- my head is when the lesbians started whatever
questioned social acceptance as a butch. Bry was they were doing, being my friends (laughter) or
able to maintain lesbian social networks while in- like wanting to meet me.
creasingly identifying as male.
I: You were getting cruised?
I don’t think they really see me any different be-
Nick: Yeah, I guess and I found it really creepy and
cause there’s different degrees of, if you want to
gross and awful (laughter). (10 August 2007)
call it, [of] lesbianism. There’s like the femme girls.
There’s, you know, the androgynous type. There’s This illustrates how working within the in-
like the more butch women . . . Like you’re gay, you tertwined scripts of sex, gender, and sexuality
see people at the gay bar all the time that look ex- both limit and enable various possibilities for un-
actly like I do if not more like a guy than I do and derstanding one’s life experiences. A desire for

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women, translated or understood as reflecting a when he moved beyond those schemes into a
lesbian identity, gave participants access to com- more visibly embodied masculinity. He experi-
munity spaces where certain gendered displays enced hostility and exclusion in lesbian spaces in
along a continuum of feminine to masculine were ways that made it increasingly uncomfortable for
acceptable. Nevertheless, some degree of acquies- him to maintain certain social networks. While
cence and compromise was required and a sense still frequenting some lesbian venues, Caleb sug-
of continuing displacement lingered on. gested he does so now as an ‘outsider’. Other
While Toronto’s clubs, bars, and dance par- transmen related that merely identifying as a
ties initially offered some sense of belonging transsexual, prior to any medical intervention,
and acceptance, remaining in lesbian’s spaces was sufficient to prompt expulsion from partic-
became increasingly complicated once the possi- ular social spaces.
bility of a trans self-identification emerged. Par-
. . . it was interesting because I was . . . true to my
ticipants came to a male identification in diverse
own form of course, I was facilitating the lesbian
ways. While some participants were pursuing
support group here at the 519. One day, I just
various medical interventions including surgeries
announced as part of my check-in ‘I think I’m a
and hormone therapies, others were not. Irre-
transsexual and I’m going to try to transition’. And
spective of the path chosen, a shift towards a
they said okay, you can leave now. It was as sim-
transgendered or transsexual self-understanding
ple as that. (18 August 2006)
had serious ramifications for continued partici-
pation (and acceptance) in Toronto’s lesbian (or For participants who first identified as les-
women-only) community places. While transgen- bians and socialized in lesbian social and
dered identification where one is understood as political spaces, transitioning rendered them
playing with gendered presentations is largely ac- differently legible in those spaces. While sev-
cepted, many participants found they were in- eral participants left the community altogether
creasingly unwelcome in lesbian spaces when (voluntarily or otherwise), others struggled to
their transition from a lesbian to a trans or work out some form of accommodation. In many
male identification was accompanied by physical cases, transmen began their transition while
changes such as facial hair and mastectomies. As members of lesbian social networks and in a
Caleb noted: lesbian relationship. Transitioning reworked not
only self-understanding but redefined relation-
I had a lot of trouble moving out of the lesbian
ships with others, particularly partners. Again,
community. But . . . I wasn’t so much moving out
in his position as a community worker assisting
of the lesbian community as I was kind of booted
trans individuals, Kyle noted:
out if you will. Because in the beginning I was
pre-testosterone and pre-surgery and in the lesbian Most of the transmen that I know are not at all
community that is way more accepted. If you are part of that [lesbian] community. They may have
transgender in that sense [you] just become sort started their process, their transition, while dating
of a really radical extension of drag king masculin- someone in that community and they struggled to
ity butch type stuff. But once I started making the maintain that relationship and in almost every case
steps to medically physically transition, I was out that I’m aware of, that relationship ended up buck-
and that’s when I [was booted out]. (10 August
2006)
tioning of the ‘naturalness’ of the sex-gender system through
Caleb’s legibility as a certain sort of gendered, performances that parody traditional forms of heterosexual
sexualized, and embodied human being was re- masculinity and femininity. Therefore, drag kings are individ-
uals understood as women, who may be lesbian, who perform
lationally constituted within a particular set of
various forms of traditional masculinities largely to trouble
legible scripts or schemes. The limits of an ac- or disrupt sex-gender understandings. Drag queens have tra-
ceptable masculine presence (‘drag king mas- ditionally been understood as homosexual men who may both
culinity butch type stuff’)6 became apparent perform or habitually dress in what is defined as female cloth-
ing. Clearly, in the present discussion, such performances are
potentially rendered incoherent by the presence of individu-
6 als whose identifications disrupt these understandings (Halber-
The term ‘drag’ is a complicated, historically, and culturally
specific term. For present purposes, it is used to signal a ques- stam 1998, 2003; Volcano and Halberstam 1999; Noble 2006).

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ling perhaps because of that pressure or perhaps cause FtMs are essentially sort of stealing the hot
not and they moved out. (3 August 2007) butches from the community if you will . . . . (18
For several participants, participating in lesbian August 2006)
social spaces required remaining legible in these This idea that the lesbian community is los-
spaces as butch lesbians, a position that could ing its butches is a part of a larger conversa-
lead to questions about disclosure and visibility. tion about the possibilities for masculine gender
As George described it, disclosing as a transman performances for people who are biologically
might prompt one of several reactions, none of female and has prompted much scholarly and
them satisfactory from his perspective: community debate (e.g., Halberstam 1998; Rubin
So the lesbians who find out that I’m trans will go 2003; Stryker and Whittle 2006). Rubin (2003),
one of two ways. They will either resent that I’m in his analysis of the historical development of
stealth and want me out of the space because I’m the US lesbian feminist movement in the early
stealth and they remind me that I’ve got male priv- 1960s, argues that the newly emergent hege-
ilege and get the heck out or they start fetishing monic model of female homosexuality excludes
me and being like “oohh, so down there it’s still older versions of butch-femme culture—a 1950s
the same”. So I don’t want to talk to them or they and 1960s North American subculture largely as-
don’t want to talk to me and the ones that don’t sociated with heterosexual gender performance
want to talk to me want me out. (11 November by lesbian couples that also tended to ignore
2006) the possibility of a trans existence (e.g., Fein-
berg 1993; see also Kennedy and Davis 1993;
George’s comments highlight the historically Faderman 1997). Faced with exclusion from les-
complicated nature of spaces in urban centres bian spaces because of masculine or butch iden-
such as Toronto with a long history of lesbian tifications, Rubin argues, some ‘male-identified
feminist organizing (Ross 1995; Nash 2005, 2006; butches changed in order to accommodate
Nash and Bain 2007).7 Longstanding feminist cri- themselves within the new model of lesbianism’
tiques of masculinity and male privilege under- (forms of gender ‘androgyny’) while others opted
pin objections to forms of embodied maleness to transition (2003, 87).
in women’s spaces. These perceptions often sit The linkages between female masculinities,
alongside arguments that transsexuals are buy- butchness, and transsexuality remain compli-
ing into gender stereotypes or have some inter- cated and contested (e.g., Halberstam 1998). Kyle
nalized form of homophobia (Halberstam 1998; acknowledged:
Rubin 2003). Caleb, while echoing George’s com-
I’m almost an alarmist and I’m sure that people
ments about how interactions in lesbian spaces
will kill me for saying this. But I do think it’s a
are complicated in terms of a trans visibility,
little weird that there are no more butch women.
pointed out that:
Everybody is suddenly trans because that almost
. . . within that [lesbian] space I’m still just kind of implies to me . . . we decided oh no wait, women
a butch and there is no recognition of my trans aren’t allowed to be masculine, women have to
identity and if there is a recognition of my trans be feminine and if they’re not feminine, then that
identity it’s either one, fascination or two, like means they’re trans. But that’s not what transness
disgust right. . . . Because within the lesbian com- is supposed to be about. That’s not what trans-
munity there’s a lot of resentment you know be- sexuality is supposed to be about. Transgender,
of course, is about gender. But for those people
7
While beyond scope of this article, the specificities of inter- who are undergoing transition of some kind, tak-
twined lesbian feminist, queer, and trans political and so- ing hormones, changing their name, I really hope
cial histories embedded in places such as Toronto’s LGBTQ
that it’s for good reason and that it’s not because
spaces are implicated in trans experiences (see Halberstam
1998; Cromwell 1999; Califia 2003; Rubin 2003; Noble 2006). they’ve learned that women aren’t allowed to be
Understanding this historical invisibility and the linkages to masculine and still be women. (3 August 2007)
queer political and social histories would reveal much about
the constitution of acceptable identities and practices in gay Remaining in the lesbian community after tran-
and lesbian political and social organizing (see Stryker and sitioning made little sense for several partici-
Whittle 2006; Nash and Bain 2007). pants who no longer found lesbian spaces of

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interest. While friendships with lesbians might be and social movements of the last 30 years (e.g.,
sustained, relationships that were more intimate Prichard et al. 1998; Podmore 2006; Nash and
might be too complicated to negotiate. Denis, Bain 2007). Many of the tensions experienced in
who identified unambiguously as heterosexual lesbian spaces by those not fully identifying with
and male, said that he would not date a les- lesbian identities mark the conflicts involved in
bian with strong ties to the lesbian community the queering of spaces. Transmen, through their
because of the perceived difficulties his lesbian very presence, are part of the (re)constitution of
partner would experience in being with him. He lesbian spaces as queer space, a process not nec-
argued: essarily appreciated by all those present (e.g., No-
I wouldn’t date somebody who identified as a les- ble 2006).
bian. . . . if it was a woman who was very involved Participants made a clear distinction between
in lesbian culture and lesbian identity is very im- what they considered to be lesbian spaces and
portant to her, she’s going to look like she’s in a those places considered queer. Sometimes queer
straight relationship. So she’s either going to have spaces were defined more particularly as queer
to spend her entire time with a bullhorn shouting women’s spaces, distinguishable from lesbian
out “this is really a queer relationship” or she’s spaces by assumptions about the attitudes and
going to feel out of . . . you know, a fish out of sensibilities of those present. Bars, restaurants,
water. So I would think that that particular sort of coffee houses, and various events (dance par-
relationship would cause way too many difficulties. ties, concerts, etc.) billed as queer or as queer
(7 March 2007) women events were generally regarded as lo-
cations where forms of recognition and legibil-
Many of Toronto’s lesbian spaces provide sup- ity were more easily negotiated. These locations
port to transmen before, during, and after tran- were assumed to have fewer of the difficulties
sitioning (e.g., Toronto Women’s Bathhouse). Yet, experienced in lesbian spaces (or in gay male or
the possibilities for being legible are always par- straight spaces). Caleb argued:
tial and compromised. For many participants,
transitioning meant losing friends, social net- I generally try . . . to stick to queer circles, queer
works, and acceptance in particular places. This as opposed to gay and lesbian. So most of the
raises the question of whether queer spaces of- time, my identity is never really something that
fered greater possibilities. is a question in the queer community . . . I differ-
entiate between the two communities [queer and
gay/lesbian] mainly on their knowledge of trans
Toronto’s queer spaces people. So for example if I’m in gay and lesbian
Many Toronto locations self-consciously assert circles, gay men for the most part have no idea
themselves as queer or LGBTQ venues.8 This about trans men. Trans people to them are the
naming is often an attempt to distinguish these girls that they go and see do drag on a Saturday
places from more traditional male/female, les- night. (18 August 2006)
bian/gay village spaces, and their supposedly It is perhaps not all that surprising that ‘trans-
essentialist expectations. Nevertheless, as some ness’ is more easily legible in queer spaces than
scholars have noted, queer is often used un- in other spaces, including lesbian spaces, given
problematically for spaces that are actually the embedded normative expectations. For most
gay/lesbian (Browne et al. 2007; Oswin 2008). participants, queer spaces were places where in-
The overt queering of gay and lesbian space has dividuals were expected to be attentive to or
also met resistance from those who see it as an aware of alternative possibilities for being, in-
erasure of those essentialized gay and lesbian cluding non-normative formulations of bodies,
identities that led to the success of the political genders, desires, and practices. Given this, queer
8
spaces were seen to offer the possibility of avoid-
Most participants pointed out that ‘queerness’ was largely an
ing the fixing of sexual orientation, gender, or
urban phenomena. In smaller cities and rural communities, be-
ing ‘queer’ is not a recognized possibility, not only amongst embodiment. Queer women’s space in particular
the mainstream population but often within the local gay and was regarded as more open to alternative prac-
lesbian community as well. tices, desires, and ways of being. And so queer

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women’s space has become this amalgamation of through the complicated meanings circulating
everything from FtM gender queer lesbian iden- in traditionally lesbian space through their be-
tified but completely opened to dating a trans ing read ‘against the grain of hegemonic gen-
man or even an MtF. As Caleb notes der and desire’ (2006, 61; see also Noble 2004).
Noble’s arguments illustrate how the occupants
Queer has become sort of the open door subver-
of spaces, in their interrelations, are them-
sion if you will because it opens the door to all
selves reworked and, in the process, rework the
these identities. But at the same time it’s subver-
meanings circulating in particular spaces. No-
sive because I could be in a heterosexual relation-
ble’s arguments highlight the on-going historical,
ship but we maintain a queer identity to show our
political, and social processes mediating the pos-
difference from kind of a heterosexual crowd. So
sibilities and limitations of being in place.
. . . my partner is female. But we both choose to
Many queer women’s places in Toronto make
not identify. People are like “so what’s your sex-
great efforts to ensure that transmen are wel-
ual orientation” and I’m like ‘well I don’t have
come and to foster diversity and inclusion. The
one’ you know. I have a female partner so you
Toronto Women’s Bathhouse (also known as the
can make whatever conclusions you want. But we
‘pussy palace’) is a queer women’s event held
choose queer. (18 August 2006)
annually in Toronto over the last eight years,
Queer as an identity or a subject position, which supports the presence of transfolk with
while seeming to create a category of essential- strong statements about acceptance and tol-
ized identity, provides an alternative positionality erance. Such an open-door policy at such a
that seeks to avoid essentialized expectations strongly sexualized event has raised troubling
and the labelling of relationships as either het- questions for some over when queer women’s
erosexual or same sex. Caleb also noted the space should be preserved for women, as well
amalgamation of queer with queer women’s as when transmen should no longer want to be
space where one might expect to find people in such places (Gallant and Gillis 2001; Nash
who largely define as women but who do not and Bain 2007). While the baths may be under-
identify strictly with a lesbian sensibility. Self- stood as women’s space, the queering of that
identified queer women are positioned as more space not only encourages transfolk to partic-
open to or less constrained in their partner ipate but their participation (together with the
choice and less concerned with preserving nor- myriad ways of being present at the baths) con-
mative alliances between bodies, genders, and tributes to the queerness of that space. As Kyle
sexual practices. noted:
The presence of transmen in both lesbian and
It fascinates me that while most transmen who
queer spaces in Toronto’s Gay Village is part
identify as men, pass as men, removed themselves
of the ongoing and multiple processes of queer-
from pussy palace, there are still transmen who
ing spaces; transmen reflect practices and ways
identify as men and pass as men who keep going
of being that challenge the essentialized les-
or who have just started going. They’ve just come
bian (and gay) identities that grounded the po-
out more recently and they feel comfortable there.
litical and territorial aspirations of Canada’s gay
I think that says something about the fact that the
and lesbian movement. Noble’s (2006) work on
space is queering in some way if those guys are
the entwined emergence of FtM and Drag King
able to be there and feel good about it. (3 August
culture in Toronto’s lesbian community in the
2007)
1990s outlines the impact such cultural shifts
have on the understandings of spaces as lesbian. Finally, for at least one participant, queer
Noble argues, in part, that Drag King perfor- spaces were not necessarily the liberating and
mances deploy ‘complex performances of mas- all-inclusive locations they are generally under-
culinity that move beyond the anti-misogynist, stood to be. Nick argued that the seemingly
butch-femme and female masculinities of queer endless iterations evoked by queerness can be
conceptualizations’. In doing so, Noble is argu- overwhelming and disconcerting. Despite the
ing that the audiences participating in these per- promise of queer, social interactions for many
formances are themselves increasingly queered still depend, in part, on some stable legibility

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in identifications. The oft-maligned homonorma- social practices and identities that favour some
tivity of the traditional Gay Village continues to and weaken others.
provide that coherence despite its many draw- Transmen’s experiences, when considered us-
backs. As Nick said: ing a queer analytic, highlight how representa-
tions of self are flexible and unstable but come
. . . . homonormative in the gay ghetto is an ex-
up against the limitations of what can be un-
plicitly gendered sexual community. It’s very clear
derstood. Their presence challenges and reworks
what people are doing and why they’re doing it
the places themselves. Such potentials and possi-
and who they are and how they want to be read
bilities are not uncontested as different groups
and there’s codes . . . . It is very clear, which I
attempt to delimit and contain certain disrup-
appreciate the clarity because then you can work
tive practices. Trans visibility in queer and les-
through the complexities with the actual aware-
bian spaces pointedly demonstrates how these
ness that I need in order to function. This all-
spaces are defended and maintained as well as
queer business, there’s a lot of assumptions I find
constantly being reworked. This is particularly
. . . mixed signals and things that are not clear and
important at this historic juncture as trans schol-
there’s a lot of . . . violence, like figurative violence,
arship, queer theory, LGBTQ political movements,
sort of like emotional or like things that I don’t
and queer activism come up against each other
feel comfortable with. (10 August 2007)
in both productive and contested ways.
Venues understood as queer were regarded by
almost all participants as the locations where the
Acknowledgements
possibilities for being were the least problematic.
Yet, as the discussion of the Women’s Bathhouse This research was funded by Brock University’s Internal So-
suggests, queer spaces still have boundaries re- cial Sciences and Humanities Research Council Grant 2007–
2008.
gardless of how fluid these appear to be. Nev-
ertheless, queer spaces and practices do create
room for more nuanced, complicated, and fluid
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