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In the year of my birth, the lives of the blind and visually impaired in
Australia were much harder than they are today. The few who reached
the heights of professional employment, such as lawyers and teachers,
had mostly gone blind as the result of an accident or injury sustained
during the Second World War; they had received their initial edu
cation while they were still sighted.
A number of blind people taught music, but most of those blind
from birth were confined to sheltered workshops or to assembly jobs
or roles as telephonists working the old-fashioned switchboards.
After all, since we blind people could not read print, clerical jobs were
unavailable to us at that time.
I was born prematurely in Melbourne in 1948, when my mother
was forty years old. Because my arrival into the world was between
eight and ten weeks early, my breathing was laboured and I was
placed in a humidicrib and given pure oxygen. The outer shell of
of Dad’s daughter, Jean, whom we called Aunty Jean. When she came
around, she would say, ‘Got a kiss for your Aunty Jean!’ At the age of
seven or eight, kissing ‘aunties’ was not high on my priority list.
Dad served as a soldier in the Middle East, but he was invalided
out in about 1942. I know nothing of these details. By that time, he
was an alcoholic. There was an eighteen-year age gap between my
parents: Dad was born in 1890 and Mum in 1908. They married in
Melbourne on 6 June 1943. Although I know little about how they
met, both came to the union with some personal baggage. It is fair to
say that theirs was not a happy relationship.
It is said that the effects of war flow down to the succeeding gener-
ations, and my brothers and I saw the truth of that. Dad’s violence
consisted of swearing at and pushing Mum, sometimes knocking her
to the floor. I was terrified, especially as a toddler and small child. To
make things worse, I couldn’t see what was going on. These memories
remain distressing for me, ghosts on which I do not care to dwell.
Although I don’t remember it in great detail because I was barely
three years old, my brothers used to talk about one occasion when
my father took an axe to one of the bedroom doors and we all fled
to a neighbour’s house. The police were called, although in those
days perpetrators of domestic violence were generally let off with a
warning. This saga was told and retold over the years among us three
brothers as though it were some sort of classic rescue folktale.
I do remember, when I was about six, pushing Dad on his legs and
telling him not to hit Mum. But he just swatted me away, in what for
him was a reasonably gentle fashion.
As I sit here, the memories come flooding back. I recall feeling
the bruises on Mum’s elbow after he pushed her over. I remember
touching the part of Mum’s scalp where Dad had pulled out a hunk
of her fine hair. Clearly he was suffering from post-traumatic stress
disorder caused by his military service in the war, for which he never
sought or received help, but of course that is hardly an excuse for his
behaviour.
In those days, domestic violence was swept under the carpet. I am
sure that our neighbours knew that Dad was violent towards Mum.
However, it was an unwritten convention in that era that what went
on behind closed doors was not interfered with or even discussed. As
we grew older my father’s health declined and he was less capable of
violent behaviour.
Mum had known several blind people before I came along, which
helped her cope more easily than my father with the challenges
I faced. She insisted on me behaving ‘normally’—for example, she
would scold me if I raised my voice unnecessarily to be understood.
This is what many blind people do, making them rather noisy to be
around. Mum made it clear that I had to learn to survive and to thrive
in a world of sighted people.
I hear you wondering, ‘When did you realise that not being able
to see made you different from others?’ I don’t quite know how to
answer this question. I must have had some knowledge, even before
the age of two, that I could not do some things that others were able
to do. To begin with, ‘they’ had something that prevented them from
falling over, while I fell over far too often.
One memory stands out for me. Just before the coronation of
Queen Elizabeth II in 1953, when I was four years old, Mum was
reading a story to us three boys. She was explaining the pictures to Ted
and Max; I think the pictures may have been of jewels or crowns or
the pageant—I don’t quite remember. I put up my hands to touch the
book, but of course I couldn’t feel the picture. Mum said, ‘Remember,
darling, that you can’t see—so you can’t see the pictures in this book
and you can’t see the printed words on its pages.’
I think this memory stuck because I loved the stories Mum read to
me. Her words cut into my consciousness. To think that when I grew
at that time, didn’t have central heating. There was a fireplace, where
we burned wood, and a small electric radiator heater. I can remember
getting half-dressed under the bedclothes to combat the frosty
mornings. We also used hot-water bottles on freezing nights to warm
our beds and toast our chilly toes. The coldness was accentuated by
the fact that we didn’t have hot water in the home. There was a gas
bath heater to heat up the bath and shower water, but to wash dishes
in the sink meant that we had to boil the kettle.
Many years later, one of the very first things I did when I began to
earn money, was to pay for a hot-water service for the family home.
Even today, I never ever take hot water for granted. I still find it a bit
of a miracle to have piping hot water come straight out of a tap.
Like many other post-war families of modest means, it was many
years before we acquired a refrigerator. Instead, the ice-man came and
delivered cold blocks of ice, which we put in the ice-chest to keep
things cool. Nor did we possess a washing machine. Instead we used
a gas copper to wash our clothes. I remember feeling the stick with
which Mum used to churn the clothes in the hot water. And then there
was the complex task of wringing out the clothes through what was
called a wringer: two rather lethal rollers that could suck in careless
fingers and hands, and squash them flat.
Of course, in those far-off days, disposable nappies had not been
invented. The housework of sixty years ago, almost all of which was
done by women, was hard and gruelling. We children benefited from
Mum’s efforts, perhaps without appreciating the human cost that
she bore.
the alphabet, and also various shorthand symbols. For example, the
shorthand for the word ‘the’ is dots two, three, four and six.
Before machines for writing braille were invented, braille frames
were used to ensure the even spacing of the dots. A braille frame
contains lines of cells with six places in each cell where one can
puncture the paper with a stylus and make dots on the underside of
the paper. When the paper is turned over, a blind person can feel the
dots through the pads on both index fingers, and work out the letters
and the symbols. All of us, blind and sighted, read from left to right.
However, the person who is writing the braille on the braille frame
(they were called braille transcribers) must always write the braille
letters backwards and from right to left. Remember that when you
push through dots onto paper, the dots come out on the other side
of the paper.
When I began to learn my braille letters, I used what was called a
braillette board. It had groups of six holes in the form of the braille
cell, and to make the letters, one pushed pins into the holes. The
pins had round heads on them, which meant I could easily feel each
letter and could learn to put them together into words. Once I had
mastered my letters, I used a braille frame to learn to transcribe the
letters backwards and from right to left. These days, of course, elec-
tronic braille displays mean that children never have to learn their
braille back to front. When I was a little older, I learned the symbols
for braille music. Again, I had to be taught to transcribe these musical
symbols from right to left.
I learned my numbers on a board called the Taylor slate. It was
devised in 1836 by the Reverend William Taylor who was super
intendent of the Yorkshire School for the Blind in England and was
originally known as the ‘ciphering tablet’. This board consisted of
many star-shaped octagonal holes into which one could fit square
pegs made of lead. On the top of the square peg was a bar, while at
its bottom were two raised dots. By turning the square peg in the
octagonal hole, one can feel either the bar or the two dots in eight
different positions. These angles correspond to various numbers.
Interestingly, the Taylor slate appears to be remarkably similar to the
board used by Nicholas Saunderson, who was a blind mathematician
who lived in England in the late seventeenth and early eighteenth
centuries. He taught mathematics at Cambridge University.
I had a truly remarkable teacher—a young and highly gifted
woman named Evelyn Maguire—in years one and two, and also for a
time in prep class. One of my most treasured memories is of Evelyn
reading Kenneth Grahame’s The Wind in the Willows to our year two
class. It is still among my favourite books.
Another of my cherished memories of being with Evelyn was
when she took several of us into town to meet participants in the
1956 Olympic Games. We met a man from Belgium to whom Evelyn,
who had been raised in Vietnam, spoke in flawless French. I was
truly amazed that Evelyn could speak another language. We also met
several young American sailors, who were the first Americans I had
encountered. Of course they had real American accents, like those
I had heard on the radio, and they were all so very tall. They picked
me up and let me wear their sailors’ hats.
Evelyn challenged me and always answered my questions. One
day, something about babies being born came up in class. Evelyn
explained that women had a hole through which babies came out.
I asked her could I please feel her hole? She told me that that was
something I would have to discuss with my wife when I was married.
Evelyn lived well into her eighties. When we chatted in her senior
years, Evelyn was still amused by this story.
The Royal Victorian Institute for the Blind contained not only our
school; it also housed a sheltered workshop in which blind people,
mainly men, made cane baskets and straw brooms. Before the days of
ubiquitous plastic bags, people used cane baskets for their shopping.
I believe it was a badge of honour to purchase a basket, or a bassinet
for that matter, that had been made by the blind.
The sheltered workshop, which was known as ‘the factory’, was
separated from our school playground by a fence. We could hear
their knock-off hooter each afternoon. One day, when I must have
committed some transgression, a staff member yelled at me that once
I turned sixteen I would be out of her hair and I would find myself on
the other side of the fence, making baskets.
I was not finding life good at that time. There were the stresses of
domestic violence at home and at school I was being bullied by some
older boys. I knew in my heart of hearts that I was smarter than these
bullies, but to be told that I would be making baskets in the factory was
the last straw. I remember sitting on Evelyn’s lap and crying. She must
have told me—and this I remember—that I was going to do better
things than to make baskets. This gave me the courage to hang on.
Thinking back, it is hard to recapture the sectarianism that was
endemic in the Australia of the 1950s. From my memories and from
what I have learned since, the Institute for the Blind was a very Protes-
tant charity, full of noble ideas about how the blind should be assisted.
I don’t wish to exaggerate, but in some way we Catholic kids were
made to feel lesser than the other children. It is difficult to understand
at this remove, but the Catholic–Protestant divide was most certainly
present in the Australia of the mid-fifties, no doubt a hangover
from Australia’s first white settlement in 1788. These memories of
exclusion have led me to feel deep sympathy for my Australian sisters
and brothers of the Muslim faith, who are now seen as lesser citizens
by the Christian Anglo-Celtic majority.
Brother Patrick O’Neill, a Christian Brother, was a towering figure
in my primary school education whom I first met when I was in year
one at the Royal Victorian Institute for the Blind. He and two very
replied that it had fitted him more firmly when he was a younger man
and had had thicker fingers. It was not until I studied Australian history
that I realised the significant role Archbishop Mannix had played in the
anti-conscription campaigns during the First World War.
When I was seven years old and in year two, it was necessary for
my left eye to be removed and replaced by a plastic prosthesis. My
retrolental fibroplasia had caused blood vessels to grow in the back of
my eyes and destroy the basic structures required for sight by detach-
ing my retinas away from the optic nerves. Both of my eyes were, to
say the least, messy; they were virtually dead organs. Worse than that,
the blood vessels fibrosed and became hard over time, causing me a
lot of pain and headaches.
I was referred to Dr Hugh Ryan. I liked Dr Ryan’s waiting room
because it contained a series of steps that I loved to run up and down.
Some of the women and men who were in the waiting room were
very concerned about me playing on the stairs. I remember Dr Ryan
coming out and saying, ‘Ron, of course you can run up and down my
stairs. You are such a clever boy.’
I had my eye removed at the private section of St Vincent’s
Hospital, which was known as Mount St Evans. Having my left eye
removed at the age of seven was much less traumatic than when I had
the second eye removed at the ripe old age of forty-one. I must have
seemed a rather articulate, if not precocious little boy, albeit very
small and slight in stature. For whatever reason, the staff didn’t think
I would like the children’s ward, so after the operation I was put in a
room with five or six older men.
Once I had recovered sufficiently, I had fun climbing into bed
with each of my fellow patients, apart from one gentleman who had a
sore leg. I was cuddled and read to, and enjoyed lovely conversations.
I was probably even given chocolate. In retrospect, this was the kind
of contact with grown men I had never had before, and I loved it.
P
My life underwent a subtle but important change the following year.
The St Paul’s School for the Blind, Melbourne’s first Catholic blind
school, had been established through the work of Brother Patrick
O’Neill, and I joined the first intake of students in February 1957.
The transition from the Blind Institute to St Paul’s was hardly
traumatic. When the school began, several of us moved there
together, including my good friend Peter Walsh, who had been with
me since prep. I left those cold stone walls of the Blind Institute; gone
was the sheltered workshop across the other side of the playground
fence, standing as a reminder of the limited futures then facing blind
children.
I found myself for the first time in an extraordinarily large house.
The school was located in an old Victorian-era mansion in Fernhurst
Grove, Kew. It had a kitchen and bedrooms, and even a ballroom.
It was the first large house I had ever seen. By ‘seeing it’, I mean the
understanding I gained walking inside the building, learning of its
size by pacing out its rooms and listening to the echoing sounds of
voices and footsteps.
saw the law as a potential occupation for me. She read to us every day,
and she instilled in me a love of poetry. I particularly enjoyed the light
Australian poems of Banjo Paterson and CJ Dennis’s The Songs of a
Sentimental Bloke.
Finally (and I can hear her voice while writing this more than a
half century later), Essie used to tell us that we would be ambassadors
for blind people throughout our lives. We should be ever conscious,
she said, of our potential impact on those around us. Again, I have
tried to take her words to heart.
Another of my special teachers at St Paul’s School was Hugh
Jeffries. It was he who introduced me to the blind cricket compe-
tition. Hugh was born in 1917. He had some sight, but by the time
we met, all of his peripheral vision had disappeared. Hugh taught
music, but I can’t help thinking that if he had been able to use the
information technology that is now available to me his career would
have taken another path. He was interested in business and in politics.
Unlike many of his contemporaries, he possessed a broad view of the
world. It was true then, as today, that the vast majority of blind people
live in developing countries, and Hugh showed deep compassion for
the millions of blind people denied the assistance that we enjoyed.
When St Paul’s was established, Hugh was appointed head
of music. He taught me the piano and how to read braille music.
Although he could not see anything at that time, he also taught
partially sighted students to read printed music. He told me he could
see the music lines and staves in his head.
I well remember when I was about ten years old, Hugh played
us Beethoven’s magnificent Fifth Symphony. He also loved the music
of Johann Sebastian Bach, inculcating in me a passion for classical
music that I have carried with me ever since. Hugh taught me musical
appreciation to year eleven, and it was a subject I enjoyed and which
presented no difficulties for me.
always bowled from one end, and the batters always batted from the
other. Batters who were totally blind were allowed to have one of
the partially sighted team members as a runner. So, when I batted
and I hit the ball, my team mate would run for me. This is a sport
I enjoyed into my early university years. It helps explain my con
tinuing fascination with all aspects of domestic and international
cricket.
P
In 1959 my oldest brother, Ted, left school aged fourteen. This was
permitted under the law at that time. He started out taking a series of
odd jobs, but later carved out a fine career in the transport industry
with a multi-national firm, working his way up from driving trucks
into middle management.
After finishing year six at our local Catholic school, my second
brother, Max, moved to Hampton High School, where he stayed up
until mid-way through year twelve. He left school to work for an insur-
ance company, moving on later to employment in the Weather Bureau,
where he developed expertise in the emerging field of computing.
My general living skills improved as I got older. Even as young
as seven, I would help my brother Max prepare Mum’s coffee and
take it in to her. In those days of relative privation, we used a liquid
substance called coffee essence (derived from chicory), which came
in a bottle. When a little of it was dropped into boiling water the
concoction tasted a little like coffee. We had no electric toaster at
that time, so we used to put bread under the griller of our gas stove.
Max and I made fine toast. My mum ensured that my blindness
did not in any way exempt me from household chores. From my
early years, I took turns with my brothers to dry and later to wash
the dishes.