It was after the initiation into the Ether element and as Metatron

(among
other duties, the Lord of the Ether element) and I chatted about the
initiation, he eventually announced, that there was a being waiting
to
speak with me. As you can imagine, in the beginning there were
many
tears, but as the conversation went on, Susanna began to teach me
what
our true relationship was and how soul contracts work. This was the
true
beginning of my freedom. Freedom from the bindings that ego and
the
3d Illusion had placed upon me.
Since this experience, I have also found answers as to why we are
here
and what our sacred soul contracts are. I have met many people
whom I
know I had agreed to experience certain things with. It is easy now
not to
judge them, but to experience them for what they are -and they
most
definitely are expansions of our total being. I now know where we
are
going and I am passionate about sharing this with as many people as
I
can.
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New Path of Awakening
Sometimes I wondered that had I made different choices, would
certain
events have been different? Could I have awakened earlier to my
journey? Could I have seen the signs earlier and recognized the
contract
agreements? I now know, however, that these events were all
absolutely
perfect for the soul journey of everyone involved.
Having experienced loved ones die and for myself to have to go
through
so much pain, allowed me to surrender to deeper aspects of myself -
a
surrender that I know I would not have made otherwise. It generated
a
huge difference in the way I view and experience life. In sum, it
greatly
enhanced my spiritual journey.
Full Circle
All the skills I developed early on in my life and those of most recent
times, are now being put to a much higher purpose - my own
awakening
and that of others. This happened for a while, particularly via the
Online
Spiritual Community* (which I and two close friends founded).
Teachers
from around the world shared their light, wisdom and insights with
us,
and all that entered the online community. I found great joy in
assisting
people to step into their power, and in sharing the secrets of this
universe with so many.
I am blessed for every single experience I have lived in this life. I have
found great joy, sometimes bewilderment, sometimes confusion,
and
sometimes pain. This is all a part of life as we awaken more to the
why
we are here and what we truly are. I understand that “I” arranged all
of
this and I AM following my own divine plan, just as each of you are.
(Boy
that was hard one to get my head around in the beginning.) I know
why I
am here. I have found unconditional love. All I had to do was be open
and willing to ask!
I am now traveling the world sharing my experiences with those that
desire to hear. I have written a book and another is on its way. Who
would ever have expected that? Certainly, not me.
Who would have ever believed that I, at a certain point in my life,
would
embrace GOD and all that it entails. Again, certainly not me.
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Who would have thought that I would stand in front of hundreds of
people, LOVE every single one of them, and know, that they love me
back? I would never have ever dreamt of it.
Life, when one begins to understand the true purpose, really IS a
JOY.
Sharing
This is perhaps, one of the most essential
parts of anyone’s awakening journey. The
more you are willing to share with others what
you are experiencing, the more answers you
will find.
Have the courage to ask questions. You might
be surprised at the answers you get and from
where you get them. They often come from
places or people you might not have expected
them from.
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Sharing
Why I feel sharing is so important in our
journeys
From the very beginning of my awakened journey, I realized that by
sharing my thoughts, my experiences and what was happening in my
life, I more often than not received answers to questions I was
currently
wrestling with. By being willing to share your experiences, you are
putting out to the universe that you have many questions. The
Universe
has so many weird and wonderful ways of placing answers on your
path.
Enjoy!
I consciously chose the word wrestling, because at that time in my
journey it often felt that way. In the period of my awakening, to use
a
popular term, I had so many questions. I was like a sponge and I was
looking to get my answers from anywhere I could. What I didn’t
realize at
that time, nor would I probably have trusted or recognized them as
such,
but I had all of the answers inside of me and that I could simply tap
into
them.
I used to frequent the Celestine Vision * chat room a lot. I made
many
new friends there - many of whom I am still in contact with to this
day. At
that time of my life, I was still recovering from that very tragic
period, and
this was a safe place to be. I could log on or off whenever I chose. If it
became too difficult, I could always cut and run. There were many
there
who influenced and assisted me in my awakening journey. I could
often
be found there until deep into the night so that I could meet up with
people from all over the world and their different time zones. One of
the
things I clearly remember is that I could not understand why some
there
had their answers all the time and that I did not. I will NEVER forget
my
question to the moderator of the system one day.
My question was: “How come I am not getting answers to my
questions
John?” The answer that came back to me with, totally peeved me.
Boy!
Was I angry with him! I thought he was fobbing me off with some
kind of
flippant remark. It took some time for me to realize, but I will forever
be
grateful to him for his reply. It was: “Go inside Ian and you will find
your
answers.”
(In fond memory of a wonderful being Mr John Winthrop Austin. I
will
always be grateful John and we will always Love you.)
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I of course, at that time, did not realize that I was indeed always
looking
outside of myself for answers. Please do not misunderstand me here.
This was a very valuable lesson - and an important part of my
journey.
By my willingness to share and ask questions I was being helped
along
on my own journey, while assisting others upon theirs. As I was
asking
questions and being a student, I was allowing others, to be the
teacher.
I also devoured one book after another, attempting to find the
answers to
my questions. I found many answers, and in doing so, I found that I
was
finding even more questions. Every single book provided answers
and
more questions!
I would take these questions into conversations either online
(internet) or
offline. One of the main lessons and perhaps the most important,
was
that I have and always have had the belief, that there are no stupid
questions - only people who remain in ignorance because they did
not
ask their questions.
At a certain point in my journey I started to learn and realize that I
was,
indeed often receiving answers to my questions from within. I know
you
are going to recognize this next statement because I know we have
all
experienced it, or will. In the beginning, I doubted those answers. I
did
not totally trust them. Those of you who are still in that space, I can
hear
you asking now: "Well how did you come to learn to trust them?"
Although I can feel my OPOM’s* chuckling at this one, however I am
taking it absolutely serious. The simple answer to that one is “TIME”
and
the willingness to play with it.
The simple fact of the matter is, the more you play with it and the
more
you share, the more chances you create of having what you are
receiving, confirmed from other sources. “SHARING!” This builds the
trust factor and at some point you learn to totally trust what is
coming
from within.
Another fascinating fact I would like to share with you here is - we
have
been receiving our messages all of our lives. We just didn’t know
what it
was and we didn't trust it or give it a second thought. We didn’t
recognize
it for what it was. The realizations I am sharing with you now came to
me
because I shared my experiences with others We exchanged
experiences and we all got our confirmations. This is why I feel that
this
part of our journey is so important.
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There are many great speakers around the world, many wonderful
writers and authors. I would certainly recommend you listen to or
read
their work. You see it is my belief, that all of us are a part of the big
puzzle. We are all, to a certain extent, answers to all the questions.
We
just have to share and intermingle to get the 'right' combination to
decode the puzzle, so-to-speak. This is a whole different subject and I
will definitely be coming back to that one in a later chapter as to why
I
know this is so.
You could also, of course, go within after reading or listening to these
writers and authors and ask whether it is still current or accurate.
The
reason why I say 'current' is that we are evolving at such an
unbelievable
rate right now, sometimes some of the information written will
already be
out of date or at the very least have changed to a certain extent.
I do firmly believe that we are all important. Yes! YOU too. You, who
may
be just starting out on your journey. “YOUR” questions will refresh or
bring more clarity to those who have been travelling their journey
for
many a year.
Sometimes it takes a little courage to share your experiences. Once
you
get past whatever blockages are preventing you from sharing, you
will
find that you discover your own answers, or others will provide them
for
you, as if by magic! I use the term magic as I feel the way this always
happens, has a very magical quality to it.
Here is something you could try experimenting with. Put it out to the
universe that you wish to share with someone a particular
experience
you are living right now. Trust that the right person will be placed on
your
path to assist you. It has never failed me yet. All I had to do was put
it out
there, then simply be open to whatever was happening around me
at the
time. Quite often, during normal conversations, the opportunities
would
arise. One or two words are generally enough. I truly love the way
this
has always worked for me.
Enjoy in JOY your sharing experiences.
* The Celestine vision chat rooms can be found at:
http://www.celestinevision.com This is also the main site of James
and Salle Redfield.
* OPOM’s = Other Parts of Me… (we are all one)
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Learning Process
For many traveling the awakening journey, no matter which level of
awakening you are at, it is always an advantage to look into healing
modalities.
Whether you choose Reiki, Shambhala MDH, EMF or something
elsethere
are so many out there- you may find it a little confusing to start
with. Persevere and trust your own inner intuition. It will guide you.
You
may like to experience a few different modalities first and then you
can
choose what interests you the most.
Be alert for any modalities appearing on your path more than once
or
twice. If a particular modality is being placed in your field of
reference
Learning Process
When it is your time to awaken and remember
who you are and why you are here - whether
through a personal tragedy or a natural process
- there will come a time when you will feel
guided to expand your awareness. Whether it
be through some kind of healing modality or
spiritually enhanced initiation, trust those inner
feelings, or physical 'signs'.
Do the research and when you feel you have
found something that provides some kind of
recognition or stirring inside you, trust it and
go with it wholeheartedly!
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regularly, you can be assured that your guides are doing that for you
by
bringing something into your awareness until you take notice. Yes,
and
this happens whether you are aware of your guides or not. Trust!
They
ARE there.
It is also good to remember, that as you work with these healing
modalities you are not only a conduit for the energies to travel
through to
another being, you will also receive healing yourself. I am sure you
have
heard the saying-'what goes around, comes around'. This applies to
healing and loving also - whatever we give out will always come back
to
us!
While working with any of these healing modalities, you will, after a
period of time, begin to receive and trust your intuitive feelings and
thoughts. This too, is your guides passing on messages through you,
for
whomever you are working on.
So you see there are many advantages to finding a healing modality
to
study and expand with. There are a great many out there and I am
sure
you will hear from one practitioner to the next, that their modality is
the
most beautiful and most powerful. This is the reason I recommend
you
trust your own guidance and intuition. Your guides will never steer
you
wrong. NEVER!!!!
Enjoy and be in JOY in every moment of your expansion, with what
ever
you choose, it truly is a magical and wonderful experience.
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Soul Contracts
We are Spiritual beings here on Earth, having a human experience.
It is thought by many that it is the other way around. Rest assured, it
is
not!!!!
During seminars, conversations or guidance, I have been asked to
talk
on this subject. I have watched the many different reactions to the
facts
that I am about to share with you. it is for this reason, that I state in
advance, that these are for me, irrefutable facts. They are a part of
my
inner knowing. This does not mean that you have to accept them as
total
holy truth. Please use your own discernment as to what you take out
of
this and what you do not.
Soul Contracts
Yes, we all have them - whether you
believe it yet or not. Even before
you incarnated into this life cycle,
you made many agreements with
many other souls to have particular
experiences with, while here.
Please just be open to the
possibilities within this next
parable. You will find that it serves
you well as you are more and more
open to the potential for growth
from every experience.
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Before we ever even enter into any particular life cycle on this planet
there is a process beforehand that will more or less guide us through
out
our entire lives. One would need to imagine a whole group of souls
planning and preparing. Some of who will have experienced many
incarnations together. It is a beautiful, meticulously and intricately
planned event for each and every time a soul desires to re-incarnate.
There are plans made and within those plans there are back up plans
created, several in fact. Why? Certainly one of the reasons for this is
the
times we are now living in. So many are becoming very aware of our
true
potentials here on earth and we are continually manifesting and
cocreating
new experiences. Within those new experiences the original
plans are continually being adapted and changed. Our choices within
every moment, our every thought and all words shared, are creating
new
realities all the time.
One of the most asked questions after sharing much of this kind of
information is: “If this is all true Ian, then I must ask myself if I do
indeed
have free will while here on Earth?” My answer to that would have
to be
“YES” to a certain degree. We have free will in that we are
throughout
our life cycles, continually faced with choices. At times we will make
certain choices intuitively and they will be in total alignment with our
original soul contract. Sometimes we will deviate from the original
plan
and this is where those back up plans come in. Certain members of
your
soul family, or soul group will be around to offer assistance and
guidance
helping you find your balance again. Why do I use the term balance?
Because so many are not aware of the original contracts - or even
the
purpose of being here on earth. We often make choices that are not
in
alignment with our original soul contracts. This creates an imbalance
and
often leads to illnesses, lack of energy, depression etc.
It is important at this point to make a clear statement - that our souls
are
never in judgment of our choices. It is us, in our human form, that
because of the distortion through ego, will choose to judge. Our soul
groups, family, and mates, are certainly those on this side of the veil,
also following a pre-agreed contract.
Perhaps it is also important right now to define the word contract. It
is not
like a contract that one might make here on this Earth plane. On a
soul
level, you will never be sued for different ('different' may be
translated as
wrong) choices, nor will you be judged or called to answer for any of
the
choices you make. Any and all choices you make while here on this
Earth plane, are always seen as experiences, which often may well
prove to enhance the souls' original contract.
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At this point I would like to share some examples of how a soul
contract
might develop while on the Earth plane.
Recently a young man contacted me, he and his wife were clearly
confused and distraught. They had just experienced a miscarriage.
There are of course, many reasons why a soul would decide at some
point not to live out the term of pregnancy. Imagine with me for a
moment, that in the original contract of the two parents they had
agreed
to be abusive towards each other. Imagine again with us that at the
moment of discovering a pregnancy both partners enter an
agreement
with each other that all abuse would cease and desist for the sake of
the
new born. The newly entering soul had as a specific desire to
experience
and grow from the abusive experience. It would feel the sincerity of
the
new agreement the parents had made and would choose to seek
other
parents whereby it would be able to fulfill the desired experience.
Often
times this would result in a miscarriage by the originally intended
parents.
Another example of this type of contract was shared with me by
another
friend. She discovered that she was pregnant with a child that she
could
ill afford to have due to her circumstances as they were at the time.
Being aware that she could contact this new soul entering into her
body,
she connected with it, discussed the options and mutually decided
that it
was not in her best interest to continue with the pregnancy. They
therefore, both mutually agreed to terminate the contract and a
miscarriage followed as a result. Imagine more people being aware
that
this is possible? We would no longer have the conflicts in human
emotions around abortion. It could all be taken care of on a soul
level.
In my own personal experience, I had contracted to become
spiritually
aware at a certain stage in my life. With my soul family, mates,
group, I
had set up certain potentials/possibilities. My awakening was
originally
set up to kick in after the death of a very close and dearly beloved
friend.
Although that pained me greatly, it had not had the desired result.
The
next stage, or back up plan if you will, was to lose another being that
was
extremely close to me. This too failed to create the desired result of
awakening. It was not until I experienced the loss of my own
daughter,
that I had been affected to such an extent, that I did start to ask
questions such as “Why me?” Obviously, this has led me to where I
am
now, and I am now fulfilling my desired contract here on this earth
plane
during this life cycle. Does this mean that everything is now plain
sailing?
I would have to answer that question with a “no”. There are many
reasons for that too, suffice to say that I am still often not quite
seeing
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the full soul contract or purpose for my being here. Much of it has
been
revealed and I am following to a largely accurate degree the
contract, yet
while in the human form there are always going to be issues around
the
ego that desires to lead us astray. I always attempt not to judge
these
experiences because of the knowledge I now have, but I am still
human
and I am still functioning from behind a veil, so now and then I do
deviate
from the original plan.
Because in the beginning of this chapter, I also mentioned soul
groups, I
will share with you something that is becoming very visible to so
many
around the planet in these wonderful and magical times. Many of us
are
now stepping into our fullest potential and because of this we are
drawing others to us that agreed to assist. We are finding and
reconnecting with many individuals from all corners of the planet.
We are
ending the illusion of separation. We are working together for a
common
goal. The common goal being, the ascension of all beings present on
the
planet earth at this time and assisting to see through the illusion of
fear,
ego, personality etc. We ARE returning to oneness together. We are
returning to the fullest state of LOVE in oneness as one heart
beating/being. Heaven on earth is being created by all of us in this
now
moment. Congratulations one and all!
How do you know if you have met someone from your soul family or
group? Have you ever just been walking down the street or out
shopping
for example, and all of a sudden you see someone who looks very
familiar? You might spend days afterwards pondering on where you
know them from. Chances are you don’t know them in this lifetime.
Chances are that they have been a part of your journey in previous
lives.
It is their vibration that you are recognizing. I have experimented
with this
many times. When it happens to me now, I simply walk up to this
person
and begin a conversation. Sometimes I found that they were not yet
awakened and that was ok, so I walked away, often leaving a very
puzzled being behind me! (chuckle)
More times than not though, it has opened many new doorways and
new
friendships and I love to discover the similarities in our journeys.
Most
times we meet again for a reason and it is always exciting to discover
what that is!
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Have you ever heard of the fool's prayer?
It goes something like this…
GOD
I want my life to change.
I am not happy with how I am.
I am dissatisfied with my financial situation.
I want a partner that will love me for who I AM.
Fools Prayer
It is my sincerest hope, that by sharing
this next parable in the way that I have, I
touch your heartstrings.
That you may find points of recognition
and that you may be willing to change.
There is truly one constant that we can
rely on in this universe and our lives and
that is change.
When we resist change - especially
change that is placed in front of us so
that we are fulfilling our life’s contract -
we create imbalances within our physical
bodies that always lead to illnesses or
disease (dis-ease)
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GOD: So dear child. What are you doing about it?
Fool: But God, I thought if I asked you. You would fix all that for me?
GOD: My dear child. I have been placing things on your path for so
many
years, offering you the opportunity to change your circumstances
and
your journey. Yet everything I have placed there, you have been
blind to.
At times you have even scolded me for placing those wonderful gifts
on
your path.
Fool: Oh my GOD… I did not… I wouldn’t dare!
GOD: Would you like me to quote you?
Fool thinks for a short while about this one and feeling a little bold
and
thinking that this could not really be GOD anyway. “Sure! Go for it.
Knock
yourself out.”
God ponders for a moment…(here we go again [chuckle]…. Doubting
Thomas…)
GOD: Remember the time you asked me to take you into my arms?
Fool: Oh! Um, I think so. Was that the time that I was so depressed
that
I didn’t want to be alive anymore?
God: Yes! And do you remember that huge Mack truck that just
missed
you? The one that, at the last second you jumped out of its way? Do
you
remember that cliff top you were walking along? What happened
there?
You caught yourself on a branch and held on for dear life until you
could
scramble back up?
Who do you think placed those things on your path?
Remember the time when you were so broke you asked me to help
you
out? You had just lost your home. I placed an Angel on your path
offering
you food and shelter. Do you remember what you did?
Fool: Oh my goodness. I couldn’t have gone with that person. First of
all
he was colored, he was also a vagrant living and begging on the
streets
to get by. Quite frankly he stank?
God: Ah my dear child… You asked for help and I sent you an angel
that
knew of a warm safe place just around the corner of another angel
friend
of mine who often gave him food, something to drink and
occasionally a
little money. Were you not at that moment in similar circumstances?
Was
it not an emergency? What did you do after that? Yes! That’s right.
You
walked the streets for nights on end, sleeping on a park bench during
the
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day, and what did you do during those times? You scolded me yet
again
for forsaking you - for not being there, in your darkest hour.
Fool: Oh, I know what is happening here. This is not GOD. You are
the
Devil. You are playing tricks on me.
Get behind me Satan or I will call upon the LORD and have him deal
with
you.
GOD (chuckling at the thought) My dear child, I have walked behind
you. I have walked beside you. I have picked you up as you fell. I
watched over you as you slept. I have even placed my creatures on
your
path performing their comical antics to provide you with a smile. I
have
provided all that you asked of me and yet, you continue to choose to
blame it all on someone or something else, while quite clearly I have
been with you all the time and you have had choices made available
to
you.
Fool shuffles somewhat sheepishly with feet… feeling the truth in
God's
words....
GOD: My child, may I ask you a question?
Fool: Rather glad of the opportunity to stop squirming…
Oh yes GOD. Please do…
GOD: My child! Why is it that you fear change so much?
Fool: Fear change GOD? What do you mean by that? I don’t
understand.
GOD: Allow me to take you back to certain events in your life if I
may?
Fool: Sure GOD, go for it…. Knock yourself out…
GOD (God rolls his eyes and sighs) Do you remember when you had