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Groundwater
Winter’s Road 3
She I Dare Not Name 17
Fountainhead
Life Line 33
Becoming Peregrine 35
Tolkien Monster 55
Growing Up 77
Australia, Goddamn 79
Last Guru 99
And There Was Kissing 109
Night River
Turning to Crone 131
A Magritte Sky 137
Ma’at’s Passenger 145
A Short History of Solitude 163
Into the Silence 183
Conflux
Facing the Fire 187
The Long History of the Rat 197
The Dinner Party 221
Pivotal 225
My Taxes at Work 235
The Weight of a Child 243
A Slip of Eternity 253
Women and Children First 257
Learning Directly 267
Wolf Moon 271
Happiness 289
Nine Hours 295
Fluviatile
Laying Down Fossils 305
Acknowledgements 315
Select Bibliography 317
About the Author 321
Groundwater
Winter’s Road
For Jamie
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room. The road was more than twenty years long, hard
and deep and winter sharp. Denuded of grief and loss
and anguish, stripped of longing and of my envy of
those ensconced in families all around me, I arrived in
Kagge’s windless silence, and found myself witnessed,
communing with the world in which I had always lived.
My urban solitude sometimes involves conversations
with people, but mainly I am in conversation with my
home. Curiously, idiosyncratically, I mostly address the
ceiling. No matter the actual feature, it is as if the house,
my house, is both a reflection of who I am and a respondent
to my thoughts. I am not talking about yelling at the tele-
vision, or uttering grievances to the dishes on the sink, or
muttering my way through the process of cooking dinner.
I am talking about a companionship of sorts. A compan-
ionship that carries the narrative of my life.
This companionship is not confined to the house.
It includes the lorikeets and ravens, wattlebirds and
butcherbirds, the blackbirds, pigeons and magpies as
they raucously conduct their territorial business outside.
It includes the daily hum of trams, the cyclists yelling at
each other at peak hour on the bike path in the park across
the road. It includes the elm out the front, and all the tall
trees swaying in the wind, the sky behind the trees and the
clouds travelling across the sky. All of us are in constant
conversation. The bluestone houses, the bitumen under-
foot, the Edwardian gazebo in the gardens a few blocks
away. The powerlines and tramlines that mitigate the sky,
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