THE EXPLODING NOTHINGNESS

OF NEVER DEFINE

ANNE TARDOS

Edited by Michael Byron

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The Exploding Nothingness of Never Define
by Anne Tardos
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To Michael Byron
THE ABSENCE OF PRESENCE

the blank page

the white space
the unimaginable imagined

retracing what already happened in order to find a present, which everyone

knows does not—cannot exist

The always already absent present

Just ask Gayatri Chakravorty Spivak

An insinuation of writing
The exclusion of writing
Without writing
the origin, function, and meaning of writing
The gesture of writing.

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THE POET

The poet writes dactylic syllables—eight times Lovingly but like a shadow

Consented and conceived of melodious French and English conceived through

itself and others
To cheer up the text negating its most indifferent nature
as many women turn to nobility and tact

The enclosure of freedom was at its most indifferent

Water didn’t show such conditions of breaking out
Or inhabiting or developing a dynamic understanding

Okay so far, inevitable writing, no comments so far from narrating

I have ruined but lovingly

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the dynamic of syllables and dactyls in narrating
and took up next the dynamic of understanding

Tenacious tenant loving and conceived and consenting

contemplating death I have

Then they ever okay so

so
I don’t do not

But I write syllables dactyls eight times

Lovingly

Call the dynamic understanding

Tenaciousness

But I write syllables and dactyls eight times

Most lovingly

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Thinking in language by applying melodious French and English
A new day here
between a disturbance and a cheer Between a dinner and all the slights Between
a story and many women

I see I stood up for many women

Inhabiting ok so far
so that okay
okay
good

I have learned
Okay so good, I did because my survival is writing.

You will see

I awoke from
Much much celebration
you will see

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Celebrated you’re supposed to intentionally leave
Much celebration
Spinoza said
Women turn the pump that could accommodate a new writer
Or something new like thinking of love

until the larger more than

wanting
but hidden behind the static while time had to task

Editing and getting off

took a jolt
a cheer up

Never developed to an abstraction as easily as

Remaining loyal to the healthy specimen
loyal but then I had to leave A distance from the cold
and women have bravely moved

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From an inner organ that must overwhelm some women who turn the demons

The famous Chinese inner organs that have consented

So I write a joyride:

“Inky Infinity infantilizing Insight”

Never learned to be a transformer

Feelings come out of time, she adds, she loves the tenacious lodger

at any point in itself and

men are not hidden behind my temple only the mind’s password

Behind my very concept of all this love

Followed by many women who are into preservation

And others who write in an effort to survive

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I write something new.
Philosophy touches all I inhabit.

I write.

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HOW TO UNBLOCK

from a Still Moment

With Nothing Inside It

Begin writing I begin writing I keep saying

Writing I can with certainty I can
Wrong thing I do, I keep saying
Confidently I begin writing in reverse
Everything I reverse I reverse confidently
With certainty
I can believe and trust

Tell the moment

I tell the moment
Truth I write
I am open receptive alert

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Edit criticize
measure
judge
Judge what I look like
What I navigate through
Important just finding a way to make something
I write
To tell the truth, I write
Tell the moment I tell the moment

What I don’t stop I tell

the moment I write I write
I navigate
Hesitate
I run rhythmically
I run without haste
I lay it on the page.

Rhythmically I run without haste

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I make some tea
I take a bath
I have the page
Some tea

I take a new object

a new object
And see if things improve
I have the courage to make things improve
have courage
have the courage to have courage
Have to have the page

Needs to be said on the page,

Said the page.

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IN THE LIVING ROOM

visions are resting

until they are written
you ask
You write the words
Going through the ritual of deciding which words to avoid the most
you finish the poem directly

You write incessantly

run into some remarkable teachers
your notions become formatted
you receive a letter from a lovely friend
focus on the letter
focus on a phrase
written incessantly
until several hours left for editing
while there is nobody home.

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Your brain secretes your ideas
Willingly
Happily

In the living room

Words you ask well yes ahem what notion

and then you delete most words

Then you ask how to let the paper decide which words to delete
with no way around writing
in the hours left
Inventing a human with words
which words
which words
does the brain secrete?
living our own way
in the hours left
We write the first phrase

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