And then, I bent down and kissed her.

The burst of passion that surged through me the moment our lips met surprised ev
en me.If what I felt when her hand touched mine was "almost pure pleasure" , the
n this certainly went even beyond.It was a pleasure more intense than anything I
had ever experienced. One that went beyond even tasting human blood.I could fee
l the monster inside me ache with thirst, only this was a completely different t
ype of thirst, not completely known to me until that moment. A million thoughts
were racing in my mind in that second. Apart from passion, a different, protecti
ve feeling passed all along me. I had a desire, 10 times stronger than before, t
o protect Bella. To never let her out of my sight. To destroy all those who had
ever even thought about harming her in any way.
All these thoughts went through my mind in less than a second.Of course, they we
ren't particularily coherent. The sensation of her lips beneath mine was bringin
g out strange reactions in me. I could feel myself wanting more of her------coul
d feel my control slipping. Her fingers were now in my hair, clutching me to he
r. She was enjoying! This only magnified my already intense feelings. I began to
relax...let my control slip.
Unfortunately, the moment I did that and let my guard down a little, her mouth
opened under mine, and her breath filled me. A breath that was saturated with h
er scent reached my lungs and my throat burst into flames.
Ah, the AGONY! The only thing that could help me from losing my head was the fa
ct that the lips under mine were Bella's. I struggled for a second- a second tha
t felt like the eternity- and finally my 80 odd years of self-restraint kicked i
n and I was able to do what I did next.
I froze. Against all my predatory instincts, I froze.
She must have felt the change in me, for she broke off almost immediately. "Oops
!" she gasped, out of breath. "That is an understatemnt" I told her. Indead it w
as true. She had no idea how big an understatement that was.
Even through my scattered thoughts I could see a tinge of pink in her cheeks,
but her expression looked almost...........guilty? That was so like Bella. She p
robably had no idea how close I had come today to killing her, and she was proba
bly feeling gulity about making me feel uncomfortable.
As if to prove my point, she started to disengage herself from my arms.
"Should I...?" She left off suggestively
"Wait for a minute, please" I said. Although she had no idea, the only thing tha
t was not making me attack her at once, was the fact that I was holding her in m
y arms. Having her there, feeling her against me, enabled me to think rationally
. I held longer than was strictly necessary to gather my thoughts, and then smil
ed.
"There, I don't think it ever be quite so hard again" I said. The smile on my f
ace wasn't due to the fact that I wouldn't have to suffer so much again, but the
fact that I was capable of an "again". The thought made me feel warm (well for
me anyways) all over, almost like there was blood in my veins. This proved my ea
rlier theory true- I was definitely becoming more human.