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stoned and stupid out of the front window of my favorite coffee shop.
It was early in the morning that first day, maybe too early to have been
patrolling the center of the city’s infamous Red Light district. Beer-
drooling fraternity leftovers from the night before were still stalking the
roads like hungry party zombies, pathetically moaning for one more
fleshy bite of Sin itself. A few peaceful locals, hoping to have been
able to go about their regular Monday morning, saw the mob and
Wasted are Coming! The Wasted are Coming!” The tour guides
outside the city’s Old Church hurriedly bang closed the wooden doors,
back in 15 minuten and all the ladies for let quickly drew down the
I watched the carnage from the safety of the Temple, a hash bar run
by Tibetan Buddhists that felt more like, well, a Zen temple, than your
illuminated the room so greatly that even the sculpted Eastern idols,
Chinese spies. Often the first guest of the day, I would respectfully
remove my hat, as per the house rules, and sit near the back,
There I was free to meditate among the statues of gods with names
ritual, and it always made my wake and bake feel like something
‘Dam stoned in this city, that’s the general idea of it. So I wasn’t just
there for green, tea and atmosphere—I was there mostly because
directly across from the Temple, adjacent to the Old Church, in a glass-
woman beyond comparison in beauty and sheer style, who had not
accepted one client in the week or so that I had been watching. When
properly stoned, I would like to think she was waiting for me. Waiting
for someone who wasn’t just there for the obvious, but who wanted to
know her and laugh with her and maybe one day be free to share the
joys of love with her. Ah, yes, I came to this wonderful and spiritual
Yet until that day, no matter how much I smoked and imagined, I could
wonder. Yet, I did not. I hesitated to even think about that long, short
walk to her open door. As the mornings slowly came and went, I ‘d
watch her there, fingering her new iPhone for hour after bored hour,
my confidence began to grow larger until finally, one day I decided that
I would go to her. I would liberate her from that glass prison and take
her far, far away…maybe to this other little place, just across town in
the Jordaan neighborhood, which I knew for a fact made the best hash
could go about the business of living happily ever after. Right there I
visualized my entire future, and learned that the best day of my life
was about to begin! But first, before all that could happen, I decided to
***
About a toke or so before the line, the path to my wet, sticky future
was suddenly blocked by the oddest pairing of tourists I’d seen blow
through this town in a long time. At the counter stood a nervous
louder and younger than she, who didn’t remove his stupid hat, but
know, as an artist, I must say that this interior is quite the blah blah
blahhhh…” Maybe that’s not a direct quote, sure, but that’s what it
sounded like when the prick pontificated about all things he really
Well, this happened three years ago and the jury is still out on that
one, my friends.
docile young man with sleepy yellow eyes and a golden robe offers to
kinds of pot, hash, joints, spliffs and edibles, in grams and euros, no
less, can be a little overwhelming. I’m a daily smoker and I just
swear I was in that first shop for almost five hours, furiously puffing
every strain they offered, because I didn’t realize I could take the rest
there, awkwardly shaking her limbs while trying to decide what strain
sounded the least provocative and wondering, “Exactly how much bud
was in a fucking gram, anyway? Doesn’t this shit just come in dime
bags? Or was that just in those “hoods” that the destitute stoner
ran out of hot air, the Artist returned to the front counter, was told to
with stark gray fibers and an insane amount of tricones, but has
her shades, and all the juicy feelings from before have come rushing
calling!”
their first boy-inspired vaginal tingles do, they, naturally, sat down in a
pit right in front of me and before I could figure out where all of my shit
was and get the hell out of there, the blonde turns to me and asks if I
“How can he possibly tell you what time it is?” The Artist coughed
ahhh…”
observer! It’s not real in any useful sense and the time for this
from what you should be doing at present.” He took a breath to fill his
lungs and went on. “And further, we only ever experience the past,
anyway. Our eyes are little squishy telescopes, always searching the
past for clues of life. How many people do you think waste entire lives
only seeing what they believe to be the present? Time is nothing more
The quiet blonde, herself put off by the 800-lb. dumbass in the room,
grabbed the pipe, expertly lit & hit, held it back for another and let out
shit, and this was just my first clue to precisely how much of a wild side
this chick was ready to ride. Before the Artist was able to muster up
some kind of full of bull retort, the duo’s smarter half was on the
offensive.
“First of all, sir, time is quite real and I would say it’s discovery is the
foundation of our civilization. Our lives are measured by it, our society
depends on it. No matter how much you want to fight it or fluff it away
with--,” she took a deep third hit, “—magical sounding clichés, there is
a finite day and time where you, me, that goofy guy behind us—
Democratic party. Every second from now till then is just another
the very least acknowledge these fleeting seconds and then make the
met,” she said coolly, reaching across the table to brush his fingertips
with hers while slipping the burning pipe into his palm, “you’d do best
playful little smile and the second clue that this one was getting ready
to invoke the true spirit of Amsterdam and let her freak flag fly as far
While smugly reaching across the table to return the pipe, the blonde
ID badge that read in big red letters, “SCI-CON, VIP PASS.” And then,
in the silence that often follows such a wicked burn, I gave the feisty
peeking from the top of her faux leather attaché, filled with complex
geometric thought droppings and such. From then on I called her the
Scientist, if for no other reason that my short-term memory was far too
Speaking of which, I had until then managed to keep myself free of this
boorish back and forth by keeping my mouth and lungs full of tingly
happy smoke. But the heavenly herb double-crossed me when I let out
Artist’s face. NFL fans would know the kind of twisted, kicked-in-the-
sending off the swine looking for a good, shallow time forever. She’d
been waiting too long for our Fated meeting and now seemed the
episode while lost in the never-ending bosom waiting but two windows
south. I had my keys, my wallet, my cell phone telephone and was just
about to locate my Randy’s when the Artist finally digested his swollen
“See, even that guy can’t help but laugh at such a cynical, heartless
mean. I bet he’ll tell you himself! Hey friend--,” he called to me, but I
pretended to not hear. “—why don’t you come on over here and tell
into mundane little bits, and that existence is too pure for us to worry
The Artist spent way too much energy filling sacks of gibberish for me
to totally ignore and since I wasn’t ready to tell him how full of it I
So I lit a proper cigarette and sat down at the only spot that offered a
“So stranger, why don’t you lend your thoughts on the subject,” the
Artist invited with a flamboyant wave of his arm. “Our professional lab
Punctuality. And I’m afraid that without our intervention, her life will
be memorable for nothing more than being easily broken down into
wondering why, oh why, of all the crazy characters in the ‘Dam, she let
If you cut away enough fat from the guys’ pretentious point of view, I’d
have to admit that he did have a point. And while what he said of the
Scientist might be true, you can’t just spend your whole damn life
“Well, since you asked,” I began smartly, “Time is real in the sense
that it fills the only bank account you’ll ever have that has any real
value; it’s a commodity. Especially since it’s not like there’s trillions of
dollars in gold backing up our cotton monopoly money. Time’s like
the account is rapidly dwindling, we should make sure that the time we
only worthy goal of a full life is manipulating this volatile market to our
“Ugh, I can’t believe how ambivalent you two are to this. I’m going to
assume that neither of you have ever heard of Elisha Gray? Didn’t
think so. Elisha Gray was an American inventor, the founder of what is
today known as Lucent Technology, who got his first patent at thirty-
two for improving telegraph reception and owned over seventy at the
“Here you go again with the morbidity! Death and the 19th century,
“What Mr. gray does not hold the patent for, however, is the
office only hours after Alexander Graham Bell’s and thus, despite a
better working diagram, lost credit for one of the most important
modern inventions. I bet time was as real as shit to Elisha, and he
with his mother. See, there is nothing you can say that can change the
fact that no matter how long some hippie drug experience feels, while
we’ve been sitting here pondering philosophy and trippy hand waves,
have, and always will,” said the Scientist, with somewhat of a snarky
tone at the end. “No amount of pretty word-flowers are going stop the
“Nonsense! Of course the Sun will turn, and around it the Earth, and
from that we get an idea of how much sunlight or darkness we’ll get,
but what I am saying is that that only part of the equation that matters
Whatsoever are you going to do, cheri, when the Sun stops burning?
Will that be the end of time? And if so, what was the point of counting
***
In a way, we were having the kind of playful debate you read in turn-
each other on the way to Spain. Except I couldn’t tell how playful this
back and forth was, or if there’d be any satisfactory conclusion to it.
So I rolled one last doob and passed it around the table. I also watched
about to crash his car into a Starbucks while watching a curvy young
skirt slinking her way to biology class. I know that look; I could pick it
The Scientist was finally beginning to get a buzz, I thought, when she
jumped up and yelled, “Eureka!” But that wasn’t all. “You’re right,
you silly little peacock of a man. Time is made up. And you know how
sarcastically.
would know when to apply for your federal grants. And we didn’t stop
there, no! We went ahead and figured out fire and airplanes and
physics and all kinds of shit, even when it may have cost us our lives.”
The Artist was about to note that his kind, too, have felt the harshest of
than what your flaky high school art teacher makes. And she got a
summer off every year. Damn,” she suddenly declared during a rush
skunk. Her rant was pretty hot and for the slightest of seconds I let my
mind lose focus of the beautiful prostitute across the street and that
--ago.
“Well, boys, if either of you aren’t going to take advantage of this ‘neat
little block of timed boredom’ then I’m going over there to that
gorgeous hooker across the way and see if I can’t figure out how to
left the Temple. I watched the girl in the window’s face light up like
Hanukkah as the two met eyes. The glass door opened. They kissed
in the window and as the shades drew, I saw their soft hands move
down each other’s bodies to the well of forbidden femininity. Damn.
The fatal blow to my once-mighty high was the god damned Artist,
Well, I did have something to say. And it was good, too. I had a whole
big thing on how scientists aren’t the outlaws. They are the
titanium safe of truth. If they work hard enough, with all their tools,
they’ll sometimes be able to see inside the safe. But since the true
And then maybe I would stand and bellow out—for dramatic purposes,
upon a time, they saw inside the safe, but didn’t understand what it
was they saw. Art ever since has been the attempt to understand that
moment from our ancient past. Nowadays, the artists are too afraid of
they just keep up the illusion. Or they’re too poor to open an account
Either fucking way, I didn’t say any of that crap. I was comatose for a
few moments, but when I came to, I stood up. Without a word I walked
out the front door. I put on my hat, locked the door to my rented flat
and went to the airport.
know if I could ever willingly relive that week of lost mornings. The
pot in California. But it’s the romantic part that matters, and the
lesson that time, like all things, is as real as we make it, but we do
make it. We just have to remember that we are the masters, not the
The grass is just for all the anxiety I got that last week in Amsterdam.