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my promise to Heidi Charlayne. I didn’t know the first thing about finding old
friends who had disappeared. But over the years I had developed a methodology
relatively versatile and user friendly. I’m no hacker, just a computer user. So I
found a graduate student at Arizona State who created some customized software
visual representation of how they intersected over time. It was similar to tools I
gone to high school together in the sixties. We weren’t close friends. But we had
been on the football team together. Charlie was never a star, just another body on
the bench. For one thing he was sort of small, but he always worked hard and
earned his spot on the roster. During the winter he was on the wrestling team,
never more than an also-ran in that sport either. I didn’t remember him having a
must have had quite an impact on him. He told me once that life was short and
you had to make every moment count. Consequently he lived his life differently
than most of our classmates from the Scottsdale High School class of 1968.
He threw his heart and soul into the causes he believed in, whether it was
the anti-war movement, social justice, or the protecting the environment. While
most of our peers were clawing their way up some corporate ladder or making a
name in academia, Charlie lived a minimalist lifestyle while he saved the world.
I didn’t see Charlie much during the seventies. I played a year of college
ball as a wide receiver at San Francisco State. While my grades were good
enough to stay eligible and keep my scholarship, I didn’t carry enough hours to
maintain my draft deferment. When the draft lottery was held during my
freshman year of college, my date of birth matched up with number 26. That
meant that without a student deferment it was a sure bet that my ass would be
that if I could enlist for a job I might actually like, perhaps I could avoid playing
13 months in the Southeast Asian Conference. I wasn’t very smart then, either.
When I finally left the Army twelve years later, I returned to Phoenix and
enrolled at Arizona State to study journalism. That’s where I ran into Charlie
again. He had taken his time getting through college, dropping in and out as the
years went by. By 1982 he was about to graduate with a degree in environmental
studies.
issue of local concern. I had noticed a story in the local papers about wells in the
in the desert. We got together. For several hours one afternoon and evening
Charlie told me more than I ever wanted to know about water, water rights,
irrigation, conservation, and a water table that continued to drop. He recited the
Then he discussed the electronics firm that for years had been dumping
solvents containing PCBs on their back lots. When the practice began, nobody
knew that PCBs were carcinogenic. And no one apparently considered that the
solvents would eventually seep into the aquifer that lay beneath the Valley of the
Sun. Then traces of the PCBs began to show up in water from wells near the
electronics plants. Those wells fed directly into the Phoenix water supply. While
sensitive to the possibility of carcinogens flowing into their homes (and the homes
cost to clean up the wells? What would it cost to clean up the dumping sites?
What would it cost them to find an alternative means of disposing of the solvents?
brought a tape recorder I never would have been able to keep up with him. I got
an A on the paper and actually sold a version of my article to the Rocky Mountain
News.
I talked with Charlie from time to time after that. My Rocky Mountain
News article opened up some doors for other stories on environmental issues, and
teacher at local high schools. But he continued his work as a researcher and
advocate with environmental groups. I knew substitute teaching didn’t pay very
base file, then made a note check on what schools Charlie had taught at recently. I
imagined him stepping into a classroom with his frizzy blond hair, frizzy blond
beard, round, wire rim glasses, and what ever post-hippie attire he had scrambled
That was about all I could do with the Gonnerman file. I flipped through
my Rolodex for another number and dialed it. “East Phoenix Precinct,” the
dispatcher answered.
good sign. “I’m sorry sir, Officer Diaz is not in the building at the moment. Can
“Yes, would you ask him to call Travis Jefferson. It’s not urgent, but if he
pending, or in progress. There weren’t that many. Under “In Progress” there
were only two. One was the new one on Charlie Gonnerman. The other was
I didn’t want to think about her. This whole thing with Charlie
Gonnerman was becoming just the sort of distraction I needed. But it wasn’t
enough. I stared at the computer screen, knowing that with the push of a button I
could open her file. As simple as that: open the file; open the wound.
I needed a drink. I didn’t know if I had a problem with booze, and I didn’t
care. I just felt like crawling into a bottle. I closed my eyes and placed my face
into the palms of my hands, my elbows resting on the desk. And with my eyes
closed I could see her, just like the first time I had seen her, in Denver at the
climbing gym where she trained. I could see her black tights, the hot pink sports
top, her long legs, tan lower back and shoulders, and that long, auburn hair that
“They said you called. Wha’s up, man? You sound like shit.”