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2009 27.05.09 surgery 11.06.09 18.06.09 Thursday 22.6.09 Monday Hudec 25.06 2nd hudec completed the 2nd exam 8.7.09 dr Hudec sends specimens to me 10.7.09 pani Kubekova ( 15.07.09 I sent specimen to dr Levitt 28.07.09 Liker sent application to send me the doc. 24.08.09 prep. sprava arrived. (written 18.8.09, sent 20.8.2009) 4.9.2009 strange feeling (the same as in last year that something will happen or I must do something) 28.9.2009 soha tobbe nem beszelek a szuleimmel - worst day of my life; visit of I. C. with my parents 4.oct.2009 worst night - I scared Roland and everybody 10.10.2009 strange good feeling inside 3.nov 2009 visited dr. O. in R. So. curse was removed 12.dec 2009 family constellation #2 dec 22 Dr. Mango Margit -- 2010 feb 13 2010 Dr. O Bratislava (meg 3x kell menni) feb 21 2010 - 3th family constellation march 10 2010 - Doc. Vidi ck april 8 2010 - phoned to Dr. Pusztai, made an appointment april 13 - somone started to send me energy a few days ago. 13th april he claims he is Gabor Zalezsak. apil 13 - R. Sob. Dr. O april 16 - phoned to Trnava; I was adviced to call Dr. Vidiscak because Dr. Kruz liak is still on sick leave april 16 - appointment with Dr. Pusztai in Budapest (I owe her 5000Ft!!) april 21 - called Dr. Vidiscak - said I am to contact Dr. Dobrovodsky may 1 - morning daw - I had a dream that something wrong will happen in the gard en (very realistic dream, cats, rats, dogs, fence, mother.) may 04 - mornng daw - again controlled dreams; (about E. Tolle; when I connected to E. Tolle in deep alfa and could hear voices in English ) may 5 - morning daw - again controlled dreams; (someone had been trying to make fun of me in a kind way by dreams; dream: programmer interview VB,...) may 5 - morning daw - again controlled dreams; (it's Vincent !! he says that, he wanted to make me visit Isabella. I resisted..) may 7 - morning - I had a dream in which I asked a woman's head if I need the su rgery. I received negative answer (nemleges valaszt) may 25 - visited Dr Dobrovodsky jun 6 - F. Erzs. Budapest (kinez) june 21 - odber u Ockajakovej (last 19.okt.2009) jun 30 - I called dr O. next visit will be 21th july jul 2 - Erzs. Budapest jul 21 - Dr. O (he was very disappointed) jul 28 daw - very deep alpha dream; msg: sotetseg lesz; valamilyen varos a terke

pen (cheh vagy nemet, lengyel,..) jul 30 - father met Decsi Attila's father. He told him there had been school reu nion 2 weeks before. I had not been informed about it. jul 31 - in my dream my father came to sleep into my brother's bed. aug 4 - very strong astral dream. I went to WC in my dream but then I recognized that this is a dream. SO I went again. This time I did a small astral journey i n the old house in the living room. (mther in the room sleeping) aug 5 - dream; rat jelmez choki hatizsakban (csoki eves), 2 new women probablu n eokib; In my dream my brother asked when I was last in a church?, I was next to a bus stop the two women took a foto of me; energy of cour se was sent to me afer the dream aug 18 - dream; In my dream my brother sent me a message from "ujvari baratnomto l". Place: old flat in Lastovicia. Msg: I cannot imagine what a wife I will have. Volt zene is. flying in clouds (astral dreaming). "jarmona" aug 23 - energy, dream (smeone questioned in my dream why I do not eat, what I m y problems, diseases). I think it was Ebi (xxx) aug 24 - in my dream I was in a hospital, sombody just dies and he told me a pho ne number 0911.... aug 28 - termeszeti katasztrofa (haz, lavina), radicova, SOS!!, Egyszoval figyel meztetes, hogy katasztrofa jon. aug 30 - X-ray in Trnava (pictures on CD) aug 31 - dreams. Valami bankett fele. Pivoda, Molnar A., Salo tanito neni, mothe r, father, brother,. SOmeone said I had a phone call on my hTC. Language HU another dream at about 7:00 am: in my dream I saw the painting/foto mad e just after my parents'marriage. There was a movie I saw about my mother. language Hungarian oct 24 2010 small hours : my oath: moral, never hurt anyone, be nice (no more su ffering) Oct 26 small hours : probably Dr. O, dream. laughter f nov 3 - Dor O - some clearing, before a sexy relax dream about a tennis player g irl. nov 16 - grand mom (sent me energy). I made a strong decision. There are many wh o believe in me and I am not going to let them down. I'll do my best to not hurt anyone. I stay ethical, moral, faithful, he lpful. I try to become a better person more modest and considerate. nov 18 - dream. my helper is a woman. she says the situation is grave nov 27 - depression; a woman SK tries to let me know to seek help. in my dream my mother scolded because I am not working; after it I woke up; the message was that she had learned some days back that I a had give back my trade licence. After the dream I felt worse. Both father and mpther know it. Some days ago before the dream when I went to the kitchen in the morning I noticed that they did not greet me and were sad and resentful. The day befoe th ey had been normal and quite happy. My mom calls me fiam again. I do not know how they figured it out. 30 11 2010 - dream. witty dream. I am old (50-60) and with my wife we are on a p lane. I order pizza and then tell the stuardess to have some gang bang after the pizza. the dream shows the face of my outraged wife. 1 dec 2010 - DrO session. some lock remmoved again 2 dec 2010 - dream; I always make too late decisions; I still "dream vegetables" , the situation is grave. I should travel somewhere 3 dec 2010 - very strong healing session; I am quiete sure it was E. Pearl's hea ling but not sure who did it. I even saw with closed eyes a very strong hot ligt. I failed to acce pt it after a second. Then I had a dream (I locked the door of a room and lied a woman that I want to save him, in fact I felt I was going to hurt her).

4 dec 2010 - it turned out the helper is a person (not some entity). The problem with the healing is that only that can be healed that is seen (felt). It requires a higher consciousness, I need to feel my body more. In the dream (Hungarian language) I was told that it takes 6 months of practice to strengthen the consciosness. Then it could heal. 30 11 2010 - dream. funny dream. I am old (50-60) and with my wife we are on a p lane. I order pizza and then tell the stuardess to have some gang bang after the pizza. the dream shows the face of my outraged wife. 1 dec 2010 - DrO session. some lock remmoved again 2 dec 2010 - dream; I always make too late decisions; I still "dream vegetables" , the situation is grave. I should travel somewhere 9 dec 2010 - made appoinment with DrO (18 march Friday 2011) 10 dec 2010 - zaneta Drakunova (former school mate). nickname: belucci555 , ala piskolabol. Terno 2nd floor; divorced, 1 kid 11 dec 2010 - bad energy removal. could not remove all from my chest and head. T hen 2 attempts to give me energy symbol. In the left upper corner of the picture there is a logo. Then some energy spheres. 13 dec 2010 - negative programming regarding Dr. Dobrovodsky. similar to curse. In the morning probably dr O removed it. 14 dec 2010 - Dr Dobrovodsky spent several hours with me. (he took me to alpha a t the crack of dawn) 16 dec 2010 - dreams; there is sb who helps me and perhaps loves me. Helps me wi th energy. she praised me I am doing fine. humility, forgiveness, helpfulness, being candid... She showed me a dream. I was a solder (tanks) and there was a woman. We said at the end we shall never do bad things. I ha d black hair in the dream. 17 dec 2010 - dream; definitely I learned that one of my helpers is Horvath tani to neni from elementary school. 19 dec 2010 - Kaderabek almost all night. He revealed his identity. Sent me som e dream (Counter Strike) ;DrO morning after7. left up bowel peristaltic simulati on 20-12-2010 massive session. First programming (I am more religious she said). Af ter that I started to dream vegetables again. I am very tired mentally. Very strange dreams: a woman w ho is still virgin and she is to give birt to a baby boy. Is she my wife? Places, in my dream (mountain ous). 21-12-2010 Kaderabek session. Dreams altered by him. He saw me shitting in the r oom on a paper. Very embarassing. He made me play computer game on a PC. He showed my name on a paper sheet with mathematical excercises. He made me meet a few former school mates. And he had some ridiculou s remarks. (eg. maybe you get some money from your mother). After this I told him to stop i t. I asked him no more dreams. Then fell asleep and when I woke up at about 7:20 I realised that I had had anot her dream. That time it was a dream about my mother. He criticised me why I'm not more helpful. A fetched a g lass of water for myself then my mother asked me to what about her. Why I had not fetched a glass of water for he r also. After the dream I got angry and upset. I told him to stop it for good. I also le t him know what he had done is not ethical, moral. Whatsmore the hungarian brain controller's website states th ey respect the will and help only when the subject agrees even if he or she is a child.

22-12-2010 massive astral dream. It was Dr.O. After many attempts he managed to bring me to alpha then I fell asleep even in alpha and then I found myself in an ambulance. I swal loed something and Isaw how it goes through my digestive track (but it was all mechanical, like a flipper game). Eventually it arrived to the rectum where a big flipper was and it worked. He ap plied a new program for that. Then the pipe from my mouth was removed and he even removed some cavity from my teeth (which was only my intention) . Then I woke up. It was a very deep and real dream. 23.12.2010 I took 10mg of Bisacodil. I had stomach ache during the nigh. When th e English lady came to help me. She said I am a gentleman. I felt flattered. She loves me. I kissed her. Then sh e left and I felt bad. SOme other fellow must have come who wanted me to promise something. I did not know what. Then I fall asleep and I had dreams. A man who looked savage and cruel. Later it changed to my face. He wanted to let me know that I was bad. I understood his concerns and I promised to not hurt the English lady and anyone in this life. She might come back again. I do not mind. 24.12.2010 - massive programming session 25.12.2010 - the day before I again falled back. I had negative thoughts and wor ries. During the night I had a dream with Dr.O. That was the first time I had seen him in my dream. He 26.12.2010 - massive programming by ms Horvath. Language was hungarian. I had a lot of vegy dreams Probably it was about moral things and etikett. I expressed my wish not to give me more. She was not angry at all. "Mar csak ez hianyzott a boldogsagomhoz" had the idea together then laugh. 27.12.2010 - vegetable dreams again. then some dream at school. I had my compute r brought to the class room (middle school). Then it turned out that some people were using it and the desktop was full of pr ograms. Somebody even installed Netscape Navigator and it mentioned that it might be inf ected with viruses. Then Hortai came into the classroom. Language was HU. People: Kalman, Rana, ... Also there was a group of people and it turned out that it is a German language group. On my left side was my brother. On my right side the two German girls from the B SC school. 28.12.2010 well it is Erzsike who tries to persuade me to start with Dr. E Pearl . At about 6-7 pm I feel some energy, presence. Well, it's her. She helped me to relax and dream. Again at home (lastovicia). She mad e up an excuse for the odor in the room: a climatisation. 29.12.2010 yesterday I started to read Dr. E. P's book. After having read about 10-15 pages I definitely started feeling warm in my body. I had a notion that the book is filled with so called trigger world o r sentences. As if you were after a hyphnosis and waitig for the correct words to trigger the program. I got scared and stopped re ading the book. I deleted the book. During the night when I went to the toilet I stated that I definitely ended with this book and person as I was not convinced that it had only good intentions. It is creepy that you ca nnot decide wheather you want it or not. The guy states it uses no symbols, yep but instead he must use hyphno

sis to put a program in the head. It is too new and not proven. No one wrote about it much. I read some forum comments too about the author of the guy. They state he has rather big ego and dresses opulently (crocodile bo ots, etc). And he is not always kind. Well, it is more than enough for me to forget about it for good. After I stated this I went into the bed and I again felt the good wa rm energy in my body. It was a neokibernetic. They had stopped helping me a few days before. I made a choice I wan t them because I trust them and even they like them. I do not want to spoil anything. DrO also contributed and I felt he was pleased about my choice. So was I. The lady showed me her photo :). She is very kind and trusts me. I l ike her a lot. She must be a little angel. God bless the whole team and thank God I feel quite well. I also sta ted that I need the surgery because the rectum seems to not work. I do not mind the surgery. In January the nurse is to c all me and let me know what is to be done. Dr. Dobrovodsky was hesitant he needed some time to consult with Dr, Vidiscak. Dr. O taught me to be less selfish and be more considerate towards m y mother. I stated I would not mind remaining ill till the rest of my life as long as I had love and peace. The body is seconda ry but the soul and mind are more important. At the crack of dawn I had a dream again with Kaderabek and I think with Kalman. I can clearly remember we played ping pong. Hm. Interesting. 30.12.2010 massive dreaming. guided dreams just for fun. First I was given ener gy (my favourite). Then the woman fucked me ona sofa. The first guide was a slovak woman (she sent me a letter in my dream that she loves me). Very kind angel. --- 2011 2 jan - my birthday. When we had a lunch we drank champagne. They had been calli ng me "kisfiam" (mother) and Attila "gyerek" (father) for a long time. So I thought since it was my bday it would be the highest time for me to object this. I just corrected my mother to not call me kisfiam. Not even fiam. She resented a nd quickly went out of the kitcshen. I think she even cried. This morning I reached alpha on my own !!!! I think I ca n use the energy (symbols) from nkibers. they gave me. Tried to show me the symbols. After 18:00 my father came into my room and told me that my mother refused t o make my dinner. I explained to him that I did not wish to be called kisfiam or gyerek. Then he told my mother afterwards she started crying and was angry. Regardin g her I do not value her enough and I should be grateful for her help. She said if I do not let her calling boy that means I do not deserv a mother and I should stand on my on foot. Right now I have 31.91 Eur on my bank account. I need t o sell some shares ASAP. In the middle of January I should have a phone call from Trnava hospital. I do not have a plan at the moment. 03.jan 2011 - I had a dream in middle school with Mr. Rosko teacher. Also with some other guys (I think they were Kovago and Kalman). Early in the mo rning I was trying to get to alpha whenever I reached alpha they were talking. Like I was watching the wall (to fix my atten tion) and just heard n Hungarian something like this "nem tudom mire gondolsz eleg unalmas".

Another sentence "sok rlt ember van a vilgon, ha nem tennnk amit tesznk egyel tbb len e". Because I asked them what they wanted. As I mentioned the day before I had my bday and my mother just fall out with me. In the evening I even heard her very strong thoughts something about "I was diagnosed with lung cancer". My mother the day before was histeric she said I should be happy that she is stoll alive. She could be having lung cancer? Since when does she now that? My mother slept till 9 in the morning. After my brother went to work she went ba ck to her bed. I got up after 8 and found breakfast (porridge). I went to Tesco to buy some foo d and look for bargain. I found nothing there to buy. When I got home I was surpised my parent were behaving if nothing had have happe ned. They call me now by my name, though. When I got back from Tesco she was cleaning the flat. My bed was made, too. And she was communicating with me she asked me some questions. They were calm and not worried as they day before. Wery strange, as if they had talked to someone who had reassure d them. 04. jan 2011 I had two programmings ! The first was after midnight. It was someone who sees t he future and wants me to lead there where I could find my wife. I was happy during the programming and I talked in English to her. It could have been Isabella, I am not sure. I said to her "Lead my way". It was not an ordinary programming. It was differen t. After it I started to think what to do. I think Vancouver is the right choice. Then the second was an ordinary one. It was in hungarian language I guess. After the second programming I had again vegetable dreams! I was not happy at all. for example a dream I can remember: A regi ebedlo ajtajanak jobb oldalan egy kb 2 cm vastag feher lec volt . Es a faterreal volt osszefuggesben. I also can recall a dream in which my father as bastling something in a garage. In my dream also appeared the notion of flight. after the second programming I h ad the idea "fekete magia". Cite from my January horoscope: "The Solar Eclipse on the 4th marks a new beginn ing for you" (http://www.cafeastrology.com/monthlycapricornhoroscope.html#2nddec anate) 05.jan - my first dream was with my mother. The place was in a cheap country lik e bhutan and I showed her many detached houses being built. She mentioned the 750 000 SKK and hoped that I still have the money . When i woke up she was awake as I heard her (probably) crying. Then I fell asleep and I had massive vegetable dreaming. Fort unately some helpers tried to lead my dreasm. I got angty and told them to stop it. Well I should not have done that. One of m y dreams was in a hospital where I was waiting for the surgery. Piros mama appeared there, my mother (she loved me) and my father. All sort of nonsense dreaming. I drove a motorbike with my mother for example. Btw My father called me "Ati gyerek" in the morning when I was having my breakfa st. 06.jan - vegetable dreams. I was dreaming with Dr.O and with other angel. Dr.O c learly recommended my to buy a new computer. Hm. In my dram I was hurrying to the hospital and he was trying to stop me. He was k ind. 07.jan 2011 - now it was Sztarovics who sent me some dreams. Clearly it was him. He stated that he would want o send me an e-mail. In the dream he spoke about thinking and how it relates to future events. And mo

st strangely about Christ. He tends to think that I think that I am Christ. This is ill. I do not know what made him think this. I asked h im to let me be and do not bother me. 08.jan 2011 - lot of dreams. I had a dream which wanted to show me that I live u p to the clouds and have little money and treat my former friends rather in a superior way. Probably because I refused the help of Sztarovics yesterday. And in fact the help of all former school mates. The dream was probably made by Horvat tanito neni. I told her that I do not mind if she continues helping me but should keep dreams and suggestions to a minimum. I also had a dream with dr.O. He was around and I addressed him with some problem I cannot remember. He went into my body (I clearly saw it). It was quit e impressive I assisted him in it. Then he checked the heating (radiator). I was lying in my dream in the old flat in my parents' room. Quite interesting. Then I woke up. I still have dreams they are not vegetable but rather precarious . 09.jan 2011 - I woke up after a bit strange dream at night (I went somewhere al one. Then in a big hall a lot of people were sitting , also me. Somebody sat next to me. It was young. I watched a man with mustache in front of me.). After I woke up I felt osme energy. It was as if it was sent by a dead person. Then it turned out that it was probab ly Erzsike. Hmm. I fall asleep. I had a strange dream. It was an airplane. There was some warning that something bad would happen. Then I woke up. I told her I failed to understood the message. Then I fall aslee p. I was hugging her but she had no body. She was slim and it was good to hug her. Then I woke up. She began a session of healing (E. Pearl). It took long till I fell asleep again. She probably wanted to tell me something but I do not know what. Myabe sh e does not want me to be surged. 10 jan 2011 - an insight. I realised what a big chunk of old mind stuff I am. No t free at all from past. Total mind clutter. I job offer from delia.sk. They have a huge clutter and mess and would like someone to clear it up for them. The guy mentioned with slight anger "Takto to uz nemoze ist dalej". You attract what you are inside. I am still a big mind stuff. This is what I attract. Mess and old crap. What I want is to get rid of the past and the old energy. I just do not know how to. I also realised during the night that I do not feel a nything. I am like a robot. I cannot refuse the surgery. It would be truly foolish to refuse the surgery. Th e rectum is really problematic and I do not see any chance of improvement being it programming or anything. It has nothing to do with this lif e therefore the solution is not here. Thus the surgery is inevitable. 12 jan 2011 - a few dreams with Dr.O. He even worked a bit on me after I sat to my computer. He resented a bit because of the bear. He felt offended beacuse he thought of beer as "no beer no work". As is typical for bricklayers. He is not a damn bricklayer. I should have bought whiskey. 14 jan 2011 - Anna nurse. "Vytajta pekne Anna". This message appeared in me "som eone wanted me to greet her". She wished me good luck and said I had a good heart. I said I love her and always would. She is an angel.

15 jan 2011 - in my dream I got a picture postcard in HU language. "A szex a ver keringes felpezsdiesere is jo. Hedviga". (100% sure about it) I also had a dream. A boat trip on a river? Dani and Kalman were there I think. And some other people. I invited them for a boat trip and asked them if they would come. Hmm. ___________________________ 16 jan 2011 - I had a dream in which I eat with many people around a table. They spoke English. There were some women as well. Then I woke up and I smelled some odor going into me through my nose. These spir its then told me to "bon apetit". They simply open the aura and enter the body. Very spooky. I told them that I ha d made a decision not to have anything to do with this man and his healing. It was never my choice. I asked them politely to leave me forever. I really do not want to mess up with this weird healing thing. I told them I want to remain a normal average person. Btw. I had very bad vegetable dreams. Very bad. I woke up exhausted again. I'm quite apprehensive. "It is interesting to note that reports from all over the world have come in fro m people seeing angels and other dimensional beings after or during a Reconnective Healing sessi on. Sometimes these "beings" were experienced as physical appearances just like a pe rson materializing. At other times, many people reported smelling the fragrance that an already dece ased loved one used to wear or a sensation of that person touching them. And yet others reporte d hearing messages spoken to them, though no one else was there. My friend, for example, "saw" parr ots flying around the room. " http://ezinearticles.com/?Reconnective-Healing---People-Are-Reporting-Miracle-He alings,-But-What-is-it-Exactly-and-is-it-Real?&id=3488818 "The next day I began reading where I had left off in the book and again smelled the minty smell and finally read that some people experience odors. " http://www.unsolvedmysteries.com/usm512977.html?t=Angels "You can smell, taste, see pictures, hear voices and feel the touch - even thoug h I never touch you." http://www.herbshop.se/english.html --------------------18 jan - some chinese women in my dream. Language Hungarian. I have pretty good energy. I tried to go to alpha and more or less I succeeded. After many days or weeks I had during this night the b est sleep. I look better now but still pale. Very strange dream. A lot of people in my dream. It seems to me that none of the m was real. I created them. I talked to them and they talked to me. But I think none of them was real. 20 jan 2011 I woke around midnight and I had a meditation (aura ironing session). Then I turned in. I woke up in alpha! I was semi sleeping and a sheet of white paper wa s in my hand with printed text in Hungarian. Unfortunately I could not reed it well.

Then I looked up and the head of my brother was there. I asked him if his name w as Roland He answered yes. Then I saw his chest too. Then he began trembling. I think he was scared of me. Then he jumped up and ws walking around me. I felt I needed to get away. I started to count from 1 to 5 like I had been taug ht. Then I woke up. So it was alpha. Then I slept again. I was dreaming and in my dream I was flying as if I was a pl ane. somebody even occupied my body. They like me. I told Tomi that he can be my guid e. He is a very good guy. it was Tomi (Roland's former school mate) who I had dream with. 21 jan 2011 - vegetable dreams. hmm. 22 jan 2011 - Erzsike again spoke to me in my dreams. She said Ishould learn Eng lish at least a few hours every day. I said to her I was having a break and I would start learning from February. 23 jan 2011 - huge vegetable dreams. Sometimes I had some normal dream butthey w ere forced by former school mates. The last one I can remember is from Starovics. There were three of us standing b y a grave. He prayed and said to me God protect us from some people. Then he turned his back to me and went away wit h the young lady (curly haired). He is upset. But I do not know why. I also had some programming regarding E Pearl (I think in Hungarian language). I told her I do not need any programming. I told her I must wait till I can speak to Dr.O. 25 jan 2011 - Erzsike with somebody tried to "surge" my rectum! I was moving and I heard ughhh. They could not because I wake up. I got upset. But soon I appologised to her. 26 jan 2011 - yesterday I was reading Osho. I realised that I must accept myself including my body. I also realised that agression can be good and it is needed in order to defend m yself. The direct way to skizofrenia is the long lasting indecisiveness which tears the mind apart. It just cannot go longer. I certainly will accept the surgery. I got anger after this realisation and in order to prevent getting skisofrenic I must defend myself and be certain what I want. No more indecisiveness. I cannot let anyone to give advice to me. It is just disgusting that some brain controllers whisper into my head their opi nion. They want to save me from the surgery. They dislike me because I am not employed . They judge me because I do not help/my mother. How dare they are to force me to do things. They are like little children. They are too shy to tell me their opinion into my eyes. Instead they do it in anonymity (not anymore) from their warm and safe beds. If they did it to me in person I would kick their asses. What do they take me for to do this to me? I s this help? Do they realise that they influence me and disturb my dreams? Why are they sure they are right?

How can they know what is right for me if they do not know my life situation? It is not Silva method at all. It is sheer egoism what they are doing. They do not respect privacy, they just e nter my life and eavesdrop. Then I fall asleep. When I woke up I remembered a dream. It was a job advertise ment on profesia.sk Between the requirements there was that DISP 1 level is required. I said I knew what was DISP. Then Dr O removed something from me. SOme energy or what. Then I woke up. Fall a slepp again. Afterwards a programming session began. It was about job. Adviser (sport eg.) !? Learning English. Then it was politics and KDH!?? I clearly recognised this statement: "Dospel som k nazoru ze DIP je dobre." Well. Not very moral and ethical. I guess this was not my though. In the morning before I got out from my bed I had again a vegetable dream and th is awful sentence!"::: "zveggy kell tenni is elpuszttani" Sheer egoism again. They want to change me. They would not help me without shapi ng me to their form. It is not love at all. I'd better end with them once and for all. I just need to ask him what to expect. Is there any protection I need from his side. I am very concerned about these, l et's face it, mad dreams. Definitely I need to stay independent and do not let anyone to give me advice or influence my in any way. I feer this is not going to end up well. I had made a mistake when I visited Ms ISabella. Yes. 16 o'clock - after a thought I do not feel very well. It is similar feeling to D ublin. Something left in me since then. Dr. O should never program me. Something is wrong with him. In March I'll say go od bay to him. Final decision. It is no use to continue this. I do not see any improvement. When I started visi ting him I felt fine. After Dublin I am still not good. It is in me. And I still have vegetable dreams and negative thoughts !! 27 jan 2011 - short before I woke up I had a dream with my father who wanted to shake hands with me. I refused. It turned out that it was Dr.O. I woke up and then he sent some energy into my abdomen. 28 jan 2011 - I had a dream with a woman and a man. The man talked in SLovak. He brought up the topic of madari , madarsko Cina. I woke up and got upset. I told him to leave and never come back. I overre acted it but I was right. I cann't stand when someone sees nations. And I do not want politics and such t alks when I sleep. He appeared as Dermisek who is in Australia. I do not blame him but probabli tha t was an unfortunate topic. I do not regret sending him away (time: around 3:0 - 3:20 am). The woman stayed and had some dreams with her. One of the dreams I can recall was in a bath. She had stockings on her and a dress. She said it was hot there and took off he r shirt. I then woke up. I thanked to her. The next dream was at middle school. Urban collected some money. 2 euro I think. I said I had no money. Then I found in my pocket a wallet. With some coins. Then I counted the coins on the desk. When I laughed that I wou

ld give him many coins. Then I saw a big bundle of coins. They want to program me that I am not broke. NIce of them. I am grateful for the m. I wish I would not need their help any more. But unfortunately I have vegetable dreams. I hope it would improve. I also have some anger in me so I have to sort it out. The last dream I can remeber was with DrO. I poured a beer and we drank it. I ca nnot judge him. Probably my task is to forgive and be more considerate to others. It is not easy to forgive when they just spoilt y our life, threatened your helt even life. Everyone has the right to be angry and hold grudges. NOt easy task and the statu s quo and life situation is just annoyng. I am to travel to Budapest for me FCE diploma in March. I look forward to it. I need to get away from all this. 29 jan 2011 - I had a dream. I followed a judge with a woman or so. He disappear ed from my eyesight for a second and then turned up again but that time HELL was written on his back. I woke up. I thought it was Erzsike. Then I felt some energy from outside. I asked her why the dream? Then I fell asleep after an hour of thinking and self monolog. I clearly heared "Nastval si ma". Then I had a semi alpha dream in Hungarian lan guage: Hokuszpok mondta "Elfenekellek titeket" (Hupikek torpikek mesebol). So far it was funny. But then the next dream was about a statue. Either he or me wanted a statue. Probably me. But he showed it would be a monkey statue. I felt disrespect from his dream. He was sent to help me by God. He might be in me now?! Because the energy is now in me. Regarding the statue : earlier I had an alpha dream when Dr.O was disrespectful and I visualised a Buddha statue. He was cleaning the statue. I do not know why this rivalry. Then I had some hindsight that I would go mad after the surgery. He said in Hung arian with a strange world I cannot remember that I would go mad and he would pick up your heart ?! I am quite disappointed. Did I soemthi ng wrong? Well, I judged Dr. O. But only in my head. And I never wished anything bad for him. In fact, I begged him for pardon to for give me. I am a compulsive critics. It is the ego. I had promised I would criticise less. I think I managaed to do it. This all loo ks awful. I was bad in my previous lives probably. What am I to do? Am I to refuse the surgery? Am I to believe the voice? Am I to escape somewhere? 30 jan 2011 - megint eves volt az allomban. Aztan felebreds utn E. Parl fle treatme nt. I was reluctant. Then I had a dream about traveling. I had a luggage in my hand. I went downstair s and there were bus stopps next to each other and people queuing to them. I recognized Plichta waiting for a bus but I went furthe r. At the last bus there were three men. One of them was Balko Csaba. Interesting. I asked them where they travel to. I a m not sure but they mentioned Komarom. Then I woke up and asked what was the dream about. My next dream was stronger in alpha. It was in the old kitchen. I was watching the small TV set. It was awful (like in Basel anatomy museum) because I saw the inner of a human body and even small childs head and in the background there was some German like curse (murmuring). Then I saw a child and his skinny dead body. Then I heard a woman's voice in Hungarian who said az anya tudna tamogatni. Then I woke up. Probably the message is this: the surgery is not a way and I sho uld really start living. Well, if only I had the energy. Btw.: I said after I woke up: The strategy is "Wait and see". Then I had another strong alpha like dream. I was in a room with white walls. I

went downstairs. It was a wooden German like building (like in Alsasko, Colmar). It could have been the school in Sladkovicovo. There was a "reception" with a smal TV set showing the video from the security cameras. I looked into it and I think entered the pictur e. I found myself in a large room with many young people sitting like in Harry potter. I was walking in the room. I found in the corner Saint Pope II I only smiled. Then I found a small statue of Saint Mari. I did not do anything. Then I decided to fly. I coul d not fly much in the room. Then I walked on the chairs and I bumped into one young man (chinese like). I fall and said to him, s zamolassal kell kijutni alphabol. 31 jan 2011 - My first dream: I was on a bus with prisoners when a sexy woman wi th sexy white ass got on the bus. I stared at her ass when she stared back to me. Then I woke up. Yesterday I watched a movie called "Love and other drugs". It wa s a destiny. I had been right about the theory that someone (DrO) was ordered to help me and he needed to watch this movie too. He is in me or was while I was watching it. I have muchmore better en ergy since yesterday although still not stool. I understood the message ""By judgement you get to hell". My pu nushement was the family contellation where I blamed my father and I felt like someone who demands judgment and punismehent for the other. We are not to demand punishemetn even if someone hurt us badly. I think that was the problem. DrO also has judged me and God ordered him to help me. Unfortunately the future probably cannot be changed. This makes me feel blue. I hope in blessing in disguise. I am quite sure I am going to have a beautiful wife. I might become ev en rich. I had some other dreams during the night. It was about my brother. I was watching him being attacked by a wolf-dog but my mother was there. He was in the part of the garden, which was solved. I was watching him from behind the fence. The dog run towards me and my father but had nearly any power so he collapsed on front of us. My next dream was in a classroom. The classroom was full of children. I was talk ing to some student sitting in the first bank opposite the teacher's desk. I was standing. I turned back and a small child (could have been 10 years old) was sitting on th e place of the teacher. Then an old short blind woman with stick came into the class. She I sat down in the first middle row. She gave me some money on a flat china plate. There were coins on them. My next dream was again in a school I think. We were in the backyard of the scho ol when someone shouted loudly. I looked there and the fence was damaged and there were jackets (men) lying on the grass. A dog had been there. It might have been a car accident caused by the dog. My last dream was about my father. The dream took place in the dining room (Lsto vicia). My brother was sitting on the sofa and my father was sratching the wall behinf m y brother.

The plaster was coming down from the wall and my father was sratching it. He was resentful to my brother. He said something like rossz, de legalabb a mien k. The remaining part of the garden has been on sold for some months now. Certainly father is concerned about what he would be doing after the garden is sold. He is quite dre aming of a family house. Yesterday he asked my brother to look up on the Internet an ad sel ling a family hous in the city. 1 feb 2011 - again dream with dogs. I was fondling the dog we have. I was squatt ing in the corner of the garden (the corner at the neighboor's side). Then a second dog came which I also fonded . Then I heard dogs barking. Smaller and bigger. I stood up and saw my parent. My mother was holding a fork m y father a mattock. They went against the dogs. The dogs were angy and snarled. I recon those dogs came f rom the neighbour. Something is going to happen and it might be related with dogs. Does the dog rep resent something else or is it meant literally? Is the dog we have going to catch hydrophobia? I am worried but not intend to do anything yet. Then I had other dreams. It was again Mr. Kaderabek. I think he wants me to leave the town which is also my intention. This city has got no perspective for me. No future. 2 deb 2011 - Kaderabek again. I got upset. I told him not to do it again. He feels sorry for me. He is a good chap. He saw a lot of suffering. Both of his parents had cancer. It must have been awful to see them. This is one of the reasons why I do not wan t him to see my own suffering. How can he be happy if he seeks sufferers. I do not care if he is des tined to do it. He must realize that he cannot relate to all suffering. It is pain body. He just feeds his own pain body. It is better for him to not see anybody suffer. Or at least he should not help t hose who he knows closely. I reassured him I would not die and unfortunately he cannot heal me. It is no us e in continuing energy healing after a month. I do not want him to be my slave. He just cannot do it forever. I also told him that a disease creates an action. Teach someone to catch fish rather than feeding him every day. He agreed with this. Unfortunately brain controll is a very basic milestone and regarding me it is re ally not ment to help strangers. It laks wisdom and knowledge. You cannot just send someone some kind of energy forewer. If it does not help after a month of healing then it is not going to heal the person. I als o told him that energy healing should be done with the conscious consent of the patient. One of the reasons is that en ergy healing influences labor results. Especially endocryn hormones. Say someone has got hypothiroidism and he is monitored to assess the medication dosage. Now someone without his knowledge starts to send h im energy. Thus his thyroid starts to produce say sufficient amount of hormones. By the day of the b lood examination comes he gets better and the result is then biased. The healer stops the healing or send

irregularly energy. Then the problem starts to renew itself. It is annoyng to visit the doctor again . So it is not much use in energy healing when it cannot heal anything. There are many reasons why someone is ill therefore it is a bit naive to think that all diseases can be healed by energy. He said he would pray for me. I am greateful for him. He has a very good heart b ut should not be so much compassionate because it only feeds his pan body and prevents him from seeking h appiness instead of sufferring. I regret I did not mention to him to participate in a family constellation. Pity . Then I was healed by DrO. Some funny dreams. I opened the door but the door hand le remained in my hand. I was about to pay at he cashier but something was too high. I was sending two l etters home but the post woman told me that it is Hollywood not Slovakia. Then I heard someone talking in Hungarian. He said I would meet her in the UK an d I would see the world from a different perspective. He also said that the woman would be older than me and sh e would never forget me. Hmm. 3 feb 2011 - dreams. Bad things are gonna happen. Storms seen. They cannot be el iminated nor averted. The dream was by drO. Very serious energy problems. I have got hardly any energy . He needs to send me energy quite often during the night. And my dreams are very vegetable. Rather se rious. I had also a dream which advocated me to travel on holiday to Roma. It was me wh o said only a miracle could help me. I am not sure if it is the right place to seek for miracles. I am reluc tant to do anything as I feer that it would be just another bad karma, like last year Italy. I am not s ure who the dream was by. 4 feb 2011 - I had some dream. Then I again had Dr Pearl session. It said I'd r ather wait till March. She only healed me. And to my great surprise she is called Bernadett.Hmm. She li kes me :). Little angel. I wonder who sent she to me. Then at the crack of dawn I had DrO session. He trained the rectum again. I have not had stool for several days and it has become hard and I feel quite we ak. Unfortunately the large intestine is constantlty constipated and in this way it has little chance for healing. The longer the constipation lasts the wors because it gets diletate d more and more. 5 feb 2011 My first dream was on a train. I came out of the toilet when I saw my luggages o n the floor. Then somebody came and said it must be hard to travel with little money. a bookshop with many books. My sight was focused particularly to a book by Osho. It was strangely in Dunaszaedahely. The dream was by my former math teacher RnDr Lenart He revealed himself. The bottom line of the dream and the other dreams was that they would like to see me leave this town.

I said the teacher how glad I was to see him and he was someone I really looked up. I wished him good health. I talked about investing on the stock market. I also said how nice it woud be if someone could lend me 1 mill Eur for a month. I would return him after a month even with some profit. I clearly said them that I prefer e-mail. I said I was not a fax machine. Btw. he wanted to know my phone number. Strange. Why would he call me? Can't he just send me e-mail?

6 feb 2011 - my first dream was, I think, with Csiba,. I am not sure. Location m ain square in NZ. I did not see him. I just had the notion that it was him. He also mentioned the phone. And some wifi internet. Then I woke up and somebody sent me energy into the abdo men. It was not comfortable at all. I felt no love and his energy was pretty dense. I asked him to leave. It is unfortunate that many people just cannot refrain fro m "helping" others. It is becoming more and more annoying. He only said mentem. They just do not rea lise how unpleasant is when someone is being watched. You can feel being watched. And you can feel the dense energy which is pumped into you. It is totally different when it is done by a loving woman for i nstance. After he went I began to think. It was about half past 3 am. Then I fell asleep. In my dream I went downstairs and then had to crawl. Then I finaly saw some room I stood up. It was a room with blue comfortable armchair's. I had the feeling that someone c aled me there. My former schoolmates were sitting there. Kiss Attila. I touched his ehad to see if he is real :) Molnar Antal. And other I cannot remember. I went to Antal then I said to him "N epotrebujem vasu pomoc". Then I woke up. Certainly somebody helped my with energy I just do not know who it was. But I am sure about it. Then I had some dream with Kiss Attila. He even tried to phone me. I appologised to him for the inconvenience. I had dreams with my old bicycle. I had dream in the class where I see Forgach P eter. I had dream in a cinema where people were sitting. On my right there was, I thin k Kiss Attila. I am not sure. I saw in the row in front of me Forgacs. I greeted him. I showed him thumbs up. Then I woke up. When I finally woke up in the morning which was afetr 8 am two thoughts appeared in my mind: De jo lenne felejteni. Meg jo, hogy tudok szeretni. I have no idea who assisted me in the astral travel ling. Now it is absolutely clear that even Mr. Kiss Attila is a brain controller. I really do not want to mess up with them. Btw. Molnar did not seem very friendly. And in fact he has a strong carma with m e. Very strong. I do not blame him, however.

8 feb 2011 yesterday my mother was quite sad and frustrated. Maybe because I had to point out to her that I was not a "kisfiu". SHe of course resented. But did appologize. She said: "Bocsanat, tudod en mar csak ilyen oreg vagyok". She was sad the whole day. I overhead my parents' conversation while I was in th e toilet. She felt sorry that she had not got the pension last year. Otherwise she would have gone work somehwere. She felt ra ther blue and depessedn yesterday. SHe said she would find any job, preferable far away, so that she would spend at home a m inimum time. I completely understand her sorrow and depression. She must be very bored. So am I. I really need to leave home. It just came to my mind that the other reason for h er bad mood could have been the fact that I still have not paied her the money. I have been waiting for the money to arriv e from Czech Republic.. I sold some shares. In the evening I had a lot of dreams. It turned out that Bernadett is probably f rom the high school (GDF). She likes me, and so do I. I had a lot of astral dreams. I found myself in a house with rooms. There was a kitchen and a living room in it (with a computer). There was tea in the kitchen. My second dream was with my former teacher from the elementary school called Mr Kollar. I clearly can remember the dream because I was quite conscious. I was waiting in a stephouse. Some of my former schoolmates were climbing the st eps and went further somewhere. I recognised Decsi Attila, Lehotai Melinda. Then the last person was Mr Kollar.. He stopped at me and shaked hands with me. He asked me to repeat handshaking because he felt it had been week. So we shaked hands again. He was kind. His first question was what is wrong with my head. I said I had a m ishap some years ago when I had heart my head with the door of the wardrobe. He said I look better than a week ago before. It seems that he visits me regularly. Then I woke up. Some nostalgia about the old days when I was a school boy. About the regime. Then I fall asleep. My next dream was quite conscious. I was in a room and Barsi was there for sure. Unbelievable. I was doing something wih the computer. He then adviced me to click somewhere and I said and smiled into his face with l ove and said you are an "bergeek". Yesterday I found on my disk a PDF (Arthur-E-Powell-Asztraltest.pdf) on the astral world. The dreams I have prove that there is an astal world and ma ny of us live a conscious life there during sleep time. I myself do not find it useful as I believe that a sleeep without knowing anything is the deepest and healthiest sleep. Such a sleep is egoless, you do not perceive a nything and do not use your imagination. 9 feb 2011 - yesterday after 16:00 when I was sitting in front of my computer I received a lot of energy from DrO. Before he started sending me energy he sent me a thought : Dear God help me ..... It means he is not willing to help me. It is the trick of those who are relu ctant to help but have to or feel sorry. They

make the patient to ask God for help. Well, it is disappointing. Certainly I need to end non functioning relationships. In March I am going to say to him I do not want him to be my doctor. Yes, he failed. Yes, he could have done more in the beginning. And yes, he judged me. So do I. After this I thought I would have a nice sleep. I was wrong. I woke up at ab out 2 am. I had been repeating some thoughts in Hungarian in my head. The voice said h e/she is someone. It was about pregnancy ?! I think this time it was Erzsike. She again wanted me to believe in Jesus or what. I told her I could not as I had never met him. The energy was rather weak, however. I had dreams with my brother. It was ni ght I went back to my room (in Lastovicia). My brother's bed was empty. I lied down in my bed w hen my brother came to the room and throwed something onto my bed. I got scared. It was my rucksack. It was not empty, it had quit e heavy weight. Then I woke up. I was in bed mood in the evening. I had a dream with Kollar too. I was not v ery kind to him. At the crack of dawn I asked everybody should leave me. I wanted to be alone . After this I had vegetable dreams. Totally meaningless. For example: I was i n my brother's garden and I saw a helicopter landing inside th garden. I got scared and hid because I though it would blo w up. Then I saw the neighbours through the fence, I even greated them in slovak language. Totally crap dreams. It took me a while to wake up from the bed, I even overslept for a while. I did not feel up to getting up. When I looked at myself in the mirror int the bathroom I was shocked. I look ed really pale. I had never seen myself so pale before. I er in I very I can also remember a dream in which I was beating my palm. I really had ang myself. This is very sad. have a lot of anger in me and I cannot let it go. I feel hopeless and I am very negative and pessismist inside. feel it cannot end well.

10 feb 2011 - It was midnight when I woke up. I had a dream but I could not reme mber it. I thought it was Erzsike again. I said I probably would go to a satsang. I menti oned Gangaji and Mooji. I went to the toilet then. I then fall aslepp. I had a clear dream. I had my new earplugs and I listened to it. It was in Engli sh language! It said Mississippi and contacted (I cannot remember everything). She also said despite spirituality I need the surgery!!! Firts I thought it was dr Dobrovodsky. Then that it was Dr Mark Levitt. Nope. Then she sent me energy. It was a diffeent energy. She also said it was a miracle (probably she ment that I contacted her). I fell asleep . Then I again had some insights. She wanted to let me her identit y. I had a notion that she is a nurse! What an excitement I had. A beautiful nurse. The subconscious mind is able to do miracles. It found a nurse for me. She also mentioned that I asked her help and she helped. She is my good karma. T hank you dear nurse. I am so glad and thankful. I love nurses very much. There were more of them beca use later when I woke up again I had a thought hi girls ! I overslept again.

Self destructive dream: somebody cut his arm with knife. Then I was shocked and it associated it with a tree that was cut the same way. The tree was bleeding. I touched the liquid droping from it. The time zone in Ohio is -6 hours to my time zone. When I woke up the local time was midnight. In Ohio it was only 18 o'clock. It is strange. Or was it Mr Burt? No, I do not think. Yesterday I wrote to Burt Hardig, he responded yesterday at 8:47 pm. I woke up at 8:30 am today. I had a drem in Hungarian language. I was hold by tw o angels and the voice said : a mennyorsagba visznek. It was real because I felt a nerve stimulation coming from the legs till the sto mach. It was similar to dr.O's nerve stimulation. It is now 10:45 am and I had stool twice and my rectum works better (at least th at is what I experienced). I mentioned that I would need a miracle some days ago. It was true. I really had thought that in 2009. I also had this thought when Erzsike made me dream (in a bus) before the last family constellation. 11 feb 2011 - I had some dream with a dog. I tried to recall the dream after I w oke up but failed. Then I went to the toiet and returned to bed. I fall asleep. I had another dream . We were walking in a wet muddy road (int the direction to Kamoca) when a police car was coming in the opposite direc tion.The police car slowed down and I realized that wemust get off the road because I looked back and a car was approaching us . So we (mother, I and I think also brother) walked on the road. I had the feeling that the bad events are still not over and I must be cautious. I then woke up and I thanked the angel for the dream. I asked her whether she is an entity or a real body. She answered (I think) she is not real. I felt love. I decided to trust her. I knew she would not hurt me because she had been so patient with me and she tries to save me. I love her and I am very greatful to her. I allowed to heal me . Then I felt some smells and I could bread them into me. It was not a strong session but it helped as I had stool early in the mornin g. I ofcourse begged the angel to not hurt me because I had been hurt so many times. In the morning I was sent energy into the stomach (I think it was DrO). 12 feb 2011 When the nurse(s) from Ohio healed me they visualized my father who fondles my h ead. A common technique not to reveal yourself is to make the patient think the healer is a parent. This however can have some of its drawbacks. I noticed that I am somehow again too connected with my mother. When I think of her (it is enough to look into that direction) she wokes up. It is bad. I would like to get out from here. I am just waiting for the surgery. Yesterday before going to bed I was watching a movie for children about Jesus. A about 8:30 Pm I felt a smell and it went into my body. Before I had a thought "Jezus tanitvanyai". I do not know what to think about th ese entities. They however do their job diligently. My first dream was in Hungarian. Somebody asked me if I believe in God. He said he did not. I said yes but I think I am God. I meant it in a good way that it is the one consciousness. He laughed, tipikus ujvary. I sa w prostitutes around me. I woke up and I was quite scare. I thought it was one of the entities. I then ca

lmed down and after a tiolet visit fall asleep. It turned out that it was Dani Andras. He even introduced himself. He came from the neighbourhood and at first I did not know who he was. Interestingly I saw him from my ed which was high up int the garden in the air. I also saw my mother's bed on the ground in the garden about 25 m from me. The bottom line: - he envies the bitches - he makes fun of it that I sleep with my mother which of course is a rather mi serable thing to say the least - he said "nem engedjk, hogy valami bajod essen". I got upset in my dream becaus e I talked in favour of the surgery. Unfortunately I see that the surgery is necessary. - he was not respectful at all - he made me look at my watch and it showed 11 o'clock. He wanted me to get up as he did not want to sleep so long. - he talked about his dreams of growing bio vegetables. etc. - I saw my dick in my dream. He might have made me to do it. Verry irrespectful mate. The worst so far. - I do not know how to get rid of these guys but I do not fancy their help at a ll. So I had all sort of dreams about agriculture. I saw green houses, 13 feb 2011 - I had a session with Kaderabek's little brother. Firtst it was a d ream. Then I offered to relax. It took quite long. Then I had other dreams. He sent en ergy into my abdomen. Then he showed in a dream himself and his brother. I shoked hands with them. I r ecommended Kaderabek family constellation. Then we tried to go to alpha. I had a dream with Kalman Peti, too. He also laugh ed. We tried some music. Kaderabek Peti said I had too many thoughts. I got up at 9 am today. I had a dream before. It was with Molnar Laszlo, I think . I asked him if he was a gay. I then had a knife a pistol and a hammer. I even throwed the knife to someone wh o was like i circus. Luckily I did not hit him. I am concerned about this. I ought not to dream with weapons. 14 feb 2011 - !!!!! My first dream was in Hungarian. A bridge cracked due to flodding. This was a sign that the future from this day continues as was foreseen. I my digital camera which was dampy and I tried to dry it with a napkin. The napkin got dirty with dust. I felt I need to buy a new dig. camera. I was tking pictures of women. Naked women. And I showed one of them to my brother. It was a naked woman with white background. The dream sender was happy and c ontent. I think she wanted to let me know that a chapter in my life is over and I can expect better things to happen. WHat a relief. It turned out that she was ISabella the my belowed spiritual friend. I like her and respect her and I'm greatful for her help. She sent me energy directly to the abdomen but not just that, she made the l arge intestine move. I do not know how she did it. I asked Isabella if DrO was still upset. I can entirely remember my next dream. I was not widely awake. It must have been said something because I talked back. I said something : "Mit er ha a halal megtalal." Then I woke up. I heard DrO laughing.

My next dream was very strange. I was dressed in my home dress and I was wai ting with Starovics (former school mate) for the lift to come. It was in our first block of flats on Lastovicia street. It is strange that I peeked at the door bell and instead of names I saw flowers. in two row and in the thrid row a black background with flowers. I had the thought that it represents our former dead neighbour Jewish woman who lived next door alone. Then the lift on the left hand side arrived on our floor. The guy opened its door but a woman was in the lift. She went upstairs. He c losed the door and the lift went upstairs. The larger lift arrived the door opened. I can clearly remember Starovics wa s talking about something. I did not know for a while if I was to enter the lift with him. Then I looed at myself and I saw I was dre ssed in home dress. So knew no to enter the lift. He entered the lift and I felt I must say goodbay to him. I shaked hands wit h him. Then I woke up. My next dream was also with lifts. All I can remember is being in a lift wit h someone and I realized that we must not go downstairs because the basement of the museum was under water. Very strange dream. I woke up. My last dream was even stronger and more spookier. It was in the garden. I w anted to go away but in my way was a heap of ground in front of me. Then I wanted to bypass the heap but I had the thought that "ahh it is full of mines". So I turned back and went there. I was on a bicycle but I do not think it was relevant. Then I saw bricks on the ground and some invisible energy pulled up the bricks as if it was about to escape from its prison. It gained in power and I decided quickly to step in the bricks to push it back. I sensed that below the bricks is an evil power. Then asked my brother to th row more bricks on the heap to prevent the evil to come out. I jumped out of the bricks and turned my back to it and I was on my way away . Then I turned back and I saw smoke and in a few seconds later fire. In a box I saw a small bible and smoke was coming out from it. It catc hed fire. I said my brother to put out the fire behid him. I did not feel scary (I lost the ability to feel emotions some months ago) b ut the dream itself is very concrete and scary. As if it wanted to tell me that I have no choice I am going to confront evil . And she wants me to read the bible or so. Hm. I do not know. I do not feel the need to read the bible. I would only cr eate evil, I think. I need to gain presence and love. That helps better than stories. I got up at about 7:40, therefore it is not likely that the dream was by Sztarovics himself. I also remember having a dream regarding the selling pric of the garden. I r emember 2 or 3 million SKK. Strange, because it is being solved at price 20Eur (1.2 mill SKK). 15 feb 2011 - My first dream was with Hortai and Hausleitner. We were talkog abo ut something. Hausleitner left. We got there. Hortai started talking about a viruses. And I got up. It was fake again. Then I was bothered again by souls probably wanted to heal me (Dr. Pearl). I told them politely not to bother me. I told them to wait a minth or so. They talked English and/or Hungarian. I can rememer soul interoperability. I cou ld smell lot of different odors. Then I fall asleep. I had all sorts of dreams. I can't remember. My last dream was in a kitchen or so. I even saw a cinema. There were many peopl

e there. I can remember I had some negative thoughts. I can remember what I said: "I want to live." Then I felt an energy and I saw my arms too. Then I said I want to die, punish me. I absolutely feel guilty and blame myself. This is very bad. Those who were infl icted upon violency blame themselves and hate themselves. So in the end it turned out that the persones were again my former school mates. I gained consciousness in the end and I said that guy looks like Atlasz. Then I saw a guy who was from Azia or so. And then I started talkin g in some chinese language. I just made fun of it. Then they got a buzz and revealed themselves. I clearly saw them 1 m in front of me laughing. It was Harish, some new guy (tall and blond hair), Karesz and Kaderabek Laci. When I woke up I smiled and told them you are a good farangs (white people called in ThaiLand). I am a bit disappointed having seen Kaderabek. I told them to keep out of my min d. He did not listen to me. So now what? I should have asked him to promise me. They just made fun of me. They laugh at a n unconscious man. Who knows how they influence me. I do not think they bad I just want to sleep alone and not disturbed by anyone. After this experience I am quite sure that all the dreams yeaterday were made up aka fake!! There was no Isabella, no photography whatsoever. 16 feb 2011 - Yesterday in the afternoon I got fed up with the status quo. I was disappointed by Kaderabek. I felt frustration and even hatred. It is hard if you cannot escape and they kee p annoying you and completely ignore you. I even thought of some kind of revenge. Definitely I decided to let thme know th at I do not want to see them in my dreams including my parents. Brain controll is not suitable for evyerybody because many use it just for fun. And they annoy others andmake fun of them. Brain controll should not beused for helping others at all. It is quite useless anyway. So I decided to form a positive wish: Az szeretnem ha orok bekeben hagynanak vol t osztalyarsaim is tanitoim. Most of them use it to feed their own ego but they are not brave enough to tell it to you in person. It is not fair. Anything you are not able to tell others you should not tell them through telepa thy. So much ego I saw them : - judgement (why I am uneployment) - I should not be surged - they sent me fake dreams with lies - they made fun of me sometimes. - they judged my religion What makes them do this to me? They are not responsible for me in any way. We ha ve not met each other for ages. Not all of them of course. I hope it is over once for all. There were some good fun with them of course but I felt less than them and I seldomly felt humility or respect. I do not mind provided it is not gonna happen again. The situation is grim and I became helpless and frustrated. I want to work and d o some useful stuff or travel around the world. SO I was repeating this thought (wish) over and over again in the bed when I not iced an association with "osztalytars" -> barat I thought it had been their work or DrOs. I choose my friends. I do not need the m. I do not know what a friend is. I do not believe in that. It is always needing and feering the other. Then I went to the toilet and I got upset because I could not have my own wish.

My wish was not negative. I wanted peace from the past. I got upset of DrO. Because I blamed him for what had happened. It should not ha ve happened. It does not matter now. I must be considerate and value his great efforts to fix me or just to keep me a live. I said some bad things. He asked enamy? I said yes. Then I regret that. Why did he think of that that I would be an enemy. WHat is an enemy? What makes someone an enemy? It is always action - reaction. I am a victim not an enemy. Then I realised in bed that I was right. I do not have friends. They should not call themselves friends. Acquintances is a better term. We spent some time together. Nobody tried to prev ent the terror in middle school inflicted on others. Nobody had the courage to rais his voice. How can the be my friends? I cannot re member helping me. A friendship is based on : I help you and then you help me. trust is essectial i n a friendship. How can somebody your friend id he lied to you, or cannot trust you? Friendship is old and does not work. It is not natural at a ll. It is a manmade thing. So I really was desperate yeaterday and I damaged a bit my aura. DrO had some wo rk. I promised him I would not hurt anyone. I do not see why would I hurt anyone? I cannot see the point in it? I had a notion that dear Isabella was there too. She said a miracle would happen . I had nown well before visiting her that only a miracle would help me. I fell asleep after 11 pm. I had a dream regarding Erzsike. I could not decypher the meaning of it. I can also remember standing on left of my brothwer and I introduced Kaderabek L aci to him. I do not want others to feel sorry for me and see me as a miserable man. I am no t miserable. I would need some money and I could move away from here. I see the future quite gloomy, however. I am hard u p on money and seriously ill. No flat of my own. No job. And cannot see the way out. I would travel if I had m uch money. Not everyone is here to work and have a family. 17 feb 2011 - programming to find a good bride. DroO did it. i gain had bad thou ghts. Some magazines. I had a dream. The main heroine was a blind woman who was desperate. She was told that by time things would improve. She needs to be patient. It was ment to me. I still have vegetable dreams and this does not seem to be improving. It is very concerning. I had a notion that I had a dream with Csibi too. Hm.. My last dream was at a sc hool. I saw a woman teacher there. 18 feb 2011 - my first dream was meant to be funny. It was DrO who "kicked my as s". I was rolling down from a hill. I cannot remember much from the dream. I fall asleep and my next dream was in a school class. My brother was kicking a football. I was afraid he would destroy the flowers. I had a lot of self talk in the evening. Then I had a dream in this room. Somebody was sitting on my desk and I looked ou t and saw a witch light decoration in the window. It was Isabella. I do not know what she was trying to tell me. I think she wante d to ask me if she can help me. Then I had a dream. It was my brother looking out of the window. He told me to l ook into my mother's eyes. I did it. I saw another woman's face probably Saint Mary's face. Then I felt a t

ouch in my anus. Finger's touch. I also felt fear from the anus. Isabella tried to help me. I do not know if it w as successful. Although I felt something but I 19 feb 2011 !!!! - yesterday I was really tired. DrO has probably resented beca use I was still judgeful. I am sorry for that. I almost fell asleep after lunch. I had not been so weak for a long time. My fir st dream was in Hungarian. It was a woman. I cannot remember precisely what she said but the bottom line was that she was m y wife in my previous life. I hurt her. But then she hurt me badly. At least she said that. I did not want to know what she did to me. I felt her in my body. I appreciated her help me. I said I forgive and do not want any suffering to her . Probably I did not deserve her. She sent me another dream. I was having sex with her and she complained it hurt her and I think there were more of us men. I am sorry. I felt she was conscienscious about her bad deed. I do not want her to feel bad. I want her to be happy and loveful. I do not need the past. I believe in a better future and human kindness. We all did some bad things but it is illness and not sin. An ill person needs love and compassion not punishment. It is interesting becaus e this was the first time I learnet that someone hurt me in my previous life(s). I did not even thought of it. After I woke up I heard a though from the soul who claims himself to me my friend!!! He said he has a message for me from the ex-wife: she wants me to be happy. Than k you little angel. I felt strong energies and an extensive aura work on me. The being (soul) did a good job on my aura. It relly helped. Unfortunately I have not had stool yet but it is fine. I then had another dream. I was waiting at a bus stop. I was told something and then I said ahhhhaaaa I see. But I cannot remember what it was. I was about to travel somewhere. Then I realised that I am waiting at the wrong side of the road. So I crossed the road and I run to catch a bus about to leave in the opposit dir ection. I got on the bus. I took out my ticket which I pushed into the marker. A man was there with brown moustache. I could not see his face. It was important for the dream sender to make me see t he mustache. I then sat down. I cannot remeber clearly what happened. I realised that I left my bag at the bus stop or soemthing. I then woke up. I sarted to decipher the dream. It was a bus going to the wrong direction. It wa s in Bratislava. The man had a mustache. Maybe he is the wrong direction. I asked for another dream to prove the message. In my next dream I was pissing to the toilet and I had hard dick. Hmm. I then fi nished and my father saw me or something. I overheared my father saying: ugy ugralt a prosztataja. Maradt volna Pozsonyban . I had the notion that I was mad in the dream. I clearly heared the word Pozsony. In my next dream I was in Bratislava and I was dressed in my home dress. I went into a shop or shopping alley where I saw a stand selling lotto or sportka. Nobody was there but I saw te woman coming towards me. She talked in slovak. She said : vidim aky zufaly ste. pomozem Vam.

I said: a nie kvoli peniazom. I saw some starrs and a stamp used on the right bo ttom corner of plans. So I was told to trust because they are going to change the future for me or som ething. It is a plan written in starts coming from above. Ok. I certainly going to try the lotto in Budapest. But I do not know why I cann ot visit DrO? I just want to thank for his diligent work and say goodbay to him. Probably he resented and he would kick my ass. I feel he canno help me any more. I must find some other solution. Maybe the surgery or Dr Eric Pearl. I am not sure. March is going to be interest ing. I can also remember a dream. It was in the old flat on Lstovicia street. I was s tanding in the door-case. The door to our room was open. I saw my mother sleeping the bed. I was standing face to my brother. He held a magazine about flowers and gardenin g. I then closed the door with an excuse to my mother that there is draught . As if I was going to tell my brother something important. I was or I heard singing somthing. Definitely I had to deli ver a message to my brother. I had the feeling that my brother wanted to be with my mother. And I did not. or so. He is 33, healthy, not even poor financially but still single. Hm. It is his life but I think he would be happier than now if he had a family and a baby, And my next dream was even more surprising. I asked the helper to say something about him at least his name. So I had a dream and he showed his face and a child's face, he kid might be his child. I recognised his face and said his name Decsi Attila. I then heard a happy glee. He was happy that I f inally realised who helps me. I do not know a few things. What about dear Isabella? She cannot hurt me but it is true that she may not be interested in changing the future as it suits her as I would help her son. I thi nk she said "you are my angel". I heard Decsi said he had tro leave. He works as a taxi driver. I heard it from Lakatos Zsuzsi. I was reluctant to get out of bed. I was still tired in the morning. So I fell asleep again. And gu ess what I had a dream with Lehotai Melinda. Hm. She just wanted to let me know that she is also my helper. I learned tonight that I have true friends who want me to be happy and are helpf ul to me. I am greateful to them and happy to have them. added at 16:00 - after lunch I had a terrible fatique and sleepiness again. even worse than yesterday. I ate poppy seed pastry. Also yesterday. I should not eat any more. 20 feb really In the Then I train. Then I Then I 2011 - yesterday in the afternoon I felt energy sent by Kaderabek. I was weak. evening I had a dream with thoughts such as Szent Istvan, malacok, stb. had a dream with Vanko Zsolti among my parents . Bicycles, travelling by etc. Nothing particular. woke up and I felt energy. I went to toilet, I had taken laxative. fall asleep and I was semi wake up when I had erection and then a picture

of a bamboo appeared in me in black and white. She said she was Melinda. I was pleased. She was in me while I was going to the toilet I think. She is very soft and tender has hardly any ego at all. Very kind angel indeed. I only could feel a consciousness in me not a will, a presence. Resepct Melinda. I had another dream. She was lying on a bed I was crouching and wanted to look at her but couldnot because of the great joy I felt I got embarressed and quickly turned my face away. She has a lovely smile. Very nice experience. Then I had a dream with my brother. I was reading a TV bro chure and then went to my room (old flat) and struggled with cables of my headphone. The next dram was with my mother. I w ent into the kitchen. I wanted to drink coffee and then she bursted out and I said I did not even drin k coffee. I might had the dream because It could be early morning and my parent were drinking coffee in the kitchen. I a m not sure. I think she wanted to say : elj a maban. Right. It is uneventful and boring to l ive here. She said 9:30, I said I would welcome her also tonight. She is very kind. A love ly angel. 16:57 I had a session with DrO. He sent me energy and seemed fine to me. I a m so glad he has not got hard feelings after my complaints. He is a good mate. I really needed energy becase I was feeling q uite low. Before him I had been sent energy from little friends although not did not last long enough and I began to have wor ries how I would survive the 18th of March. Now I feel better and my ego has grown a bit and I feel good again. 19:00 Today is the first day that I called him friend. I am not going to cha nge my mind about this whatever may happen (I hope). I wrote it while he was sending me energy so we both laughed a lot. It looks very grim with me and I needed energy. He had reseted a few days ago after he kicked my ass. He admitted now that h e sometimes would lock me up somewhere because I have a lot of thoughts. I even mentioned Mark Zuckerberg because I said what if I would be a good programmer? He said Mark is a good guy. I think so. He donated half of his fortune to Me linda & Bill Gates foundation. What a noble act So we laughed a lot but it looks severe. 21 feb 2011 - I was very weak during the night. Right after I went to bed I felt DrO was working on me. My first dream was with Kalo. I gave him two CDs. I saw his parents too. We were in a hospital (I presume in the local new hospital) He said he needs to speak to me about the future but outside the hospital so the parents would not hear it. Then I woke up and I heard I need medical attention. I was rather weak. So I cal med down and relaxed to help the energy flow into me. The energy escapes from my body trough the legs. It was not easy for him to rout e the enrgy into my stomach. I had to help. They were at loss. I had the notion they wanted me to say what to do. There were many of them. Gathered around me in stral world. I joked a few times. I talked them about the constelations. I said I need to fac e death to realise that I am really going to die. I said I lacked a motivation to raise from the floor. Then I said after many minutes that I do not need anything.

I had another dream with Kalo. I can remember sitting next to each other in fron t of a cumputer. Each had a computer in front of them. I was wearing my favorite blue shirt with white t-shirt under the shirt. I had a very clear dream with my bro. He I was lying and awake he was standing a nd patted me on my thigh and was cheerful. He said everything would be fine. I asked him angryly what is your question. The n he finally popped out. He said a short programming would be needed to improve my health. I refused. The n I woke up. I had also a dream in the workplace in Bratislava. I was in a room. I went out f rom the room but could not go further as the alley was blocked. My last dream was just before I got up from bed. I was lying in the street. A wo man was talking to me. She said I would kill or hurt somebody. But I would be taken to the hospital. I would spend there 6 months. By then I would have cerebral accident and greatly damaged health. Then the mira cle would happen. I guess it is bullshit. It was my overactive imagination. I think the surgery wo uld be needed but then I would en up in the hospital because of mental problems. Nobody can get away a serious crime with a short lasting stay in the hospital. So it was only a nightmare. I has asked several times everybody that I do not wa nt to know my future. My mother has indigestion after taking a new medicine for high blood pressure. S he was quite nervous and today morning. She has has been having serious problems with her blood pressure. It is not stab le. Sometimes it is high and now and then it is low. She felt frustrated even sobbed for a short while I was eating my breakfast (sam p). 22 feb 2011 - Yesterday I by chance got to Erzsike's website again. I had a stro ng feeling as If a programming is about to trigger in me. It was DrE. Pearl's programming I had the notion. Then I felt much more better. I felt some warm energy. I had enough energy yesterday to work till late. My first dream was in the garden. It was in Hu language. Someone wanted me to re member who I am. It was Bobby Juing (from Dallas) sitting at the table in the garden. His last sentence was: nem megyek haza. Then I woke up. He is a soul or somethin g like that. Definitely without a body. It took me a while to figure out. I felt love. He loved me. I said I trust him b ecause he likes me and allowe him to stay with me. My next dream was beginning in a hospital. There were a few of us going somewher e in a hospital. I saw Kaderabek but he stayed behind. He went to the toilet so we went on. They of course deliberately made the dream so that I realise it and remember it. I had to leap a hospital bed. A patient was on the floor next to his bed. I poin ted out to the others to be careful not to step on the patient. Then we reached a room. A beautiful nurse came to me and asked for me insurance card. I took it out from my pocket. She asked me to sign the card. In fact it was a paper : I saw on it fizetes and a dotted line, etc. I woke up and started to decypher the message. I figured out that they need my p romis, oath to be good only the can I be reconnected with god. All was in HUngarian language. I was hesitating because I knew I would spoil som

ething and would be punished. I could also remember from my dream that they showed me women with sexy ass. So I figured out that they need my oath I would not hurt anyone. I then nodded w ith agreement and said I promise to God I would not hurt anyone if I do not have to, definitely not a woman. I can also remember a dream I had with my mother and brother. My brother had a d ream that he should have longer hair?! We were in the living room of the old flat. I tolked to them. I explained them t hat these dreams are injected into us by them. Something like that. I also can remember a dream when I was heading to my room and I was eating a fir ed fish. This drem wanted to say that they care about me and they suggested my mother to cook me good food I like. I said after the dream that I trust them. Certainly there are not from this world and could know more. I give them 2 weeks to heal my rectum. If they cannot do it they are useless to me. All I need is HEALTH !!!!! 23 feb 2011- I had no further dreams with any non-physical entity. My first drea m was with Pintes Bela (former school mate from elementary school). He sent me a dream in which I stole (or found) some money an d he was chasing me. It was not very pleasing experience to me but he was kind and loving. He even wanted to lift me and mentioned his we ight (almost 80Kg). I woke up. He was sending energy me. I reminisced old times and thank for his help. I expressed how pleased I was by him. I reassured him that I have helpers and would not need his help. I then fall asleep. In my next dream I was constipated and somebody se nt me energy, it was painful. He wanted me to turn to my back in my bed. Then I woke up in my dream. Of course, I did not know that it was a d ream. I felt that I had to got to the toilet and probably soiled my underwear. I went to the toilet which was in the old flat in the smallest room of the flat.I sat on the tolet I pulled down my underwear. A piece of stool was in the underwar which fal into the toilet bas in. Also the underwer fall into the toilet. So I had to take it out from the toilet. Pretty embaressing situation. Then I wo ke up and once I realized how embarressing it was. I was receiving energy. I think it wa from Bela. I told him not to do it but he kept sending it. I got a but upset because I expected him to leave. I quite hate when a brain controller feels the need to help. They are obs essed by helping despite their lack of proper knowledge or abilities. It is just annoying. SO I sad him to stop it. I said him in English "Bugger off" . Then I said "It means: odpal". I said to him that he could find this English expression quite useful in English pubs when he gets insulted by so me thugs. I heard nagyon kedves vagyol. :) I think they are a bit fed up with me :) in a good sense. I criticised again Kad erabek. Becaue he got me Pintes Bela without my consent. At least I cannot remember giving him my permission. I had a weird astral dream. I found myself in a place. I was about to enter a la vartory when I saw through the door window the shape of a tall man. He resembled DrO. I felt scared a bit by him . He opened the door and said in En glish : This is real. I went further. It was not a lavatory. I felt somebody is waiting for me. The tall man nodded in the direction of another man who seemed to be waiting for me. I felt I had met him before. He was welcoming. He asked my name, he said it and wote it in a book. I asked what the place was. He replied it was quite important place. Some reserchers were there. Scuba divin g researchers. I talked to some of them. They mentioned

they did some research underwater. SOme of them were in scuba diving suits. One of them spoke with russian accent . They mentioned drinking water. I personaly think there could be some reality in it, but I mixed real with my own imagination. I disappeaered then. I can remember doing a conversation without pictures. It wa s about the English exam. I mentioned "Egyaltalan valaki megcsinalta A-ra?". Before this I had another ver y realistic dream probably made by DrO. I switch the channel on the TV et and I recall it was ZDF but to my great astoni sment it was a sex channel :) I lost the dream after a second or two becasue it made me embarrassed a bit. The n I can remember the finding myself in a pool made of stones. I was watching a small fountain. I looked at my hands to fo cus on the now. Then everything looked more realistic. I looked around. The water was shoal. I saw nobody. I started walking with excit ement so that I would find ladies :). Probably DrO did it :) So I was pretty excited when I encountered three sexy lad ies. They were taller than me. And I got scared and said I was shy. After this excitement happened that I talked tosomebody about the English exam. I then suddenly gained consciousness and looked to Hausleitner (another pretty kind angel from elementary school). I said to her I B2 is not enough I would start learning for teh C1 exam. She then said but you had said you do not have time. I do not why but then she k issed me on both cheeks and even wanted to kiss me on my lips. I turned away slightly my lips (I do not know if she is married or not). She loo ked really happy and excited. I noticed on her left Melinda angel. She looked stiffly at me without any expression. I then woke up. I was very buzzed by that experience. Somethin like that had never happened to me. Now I feel committed to C1 exam as I should keep my word. I said this is the real inspiration. Such angels can inspare us men with their love and patiente and inner beauty. She is a real kind angel. I wish her all the best n life. True angel heart. I can also remember a dream. I found myself on the back seat of a cabriolet. I s at behind the driver. I saw a country. This also could have been made by DrO. I should not criticise my alma mater (ele mentary school). I also criticised brain controllers. I feel good while I am criticising something. It is the ego. I should be able to see it. It is not easy as I am half awake, half sleeping. I overheard my parents' conversation while I was on the toilet. She talked about her dream. She saw my father in her dream walking into the sea.. She had a dream on a seashore. My father was naked in her dream. While my mother had a good mode I do not find it kosher. It depends who send her the dreams. If it is a family member (Hedviga for instance) then it is absolutel y ok as she has love. If it is someone who is not a family member and whats more younger then I find it a bit rude and irrespectful. But I do not know who does it. After all she feels better and that is the most important.

24 feb 2011 - my first dream was a strange one. It was a suggestive dream. (I re member Osho) When I woke up I said I do not want his dreams. I said his energies are ok but the dreams are not. I thought he was Kaderabek L. I went on criticising. I particularly mentioned the dreams sent to my mother. They had become too irreal and she could become suspicious. I said I did not see any reason to do it.

I started to relax and he ehlped me to balance the aura. It was quite ok. I even mnaged to hear some words from him. He is quite good brain controller. I almost managaed to fell asleep but then I got very tired my muscles numb. So I turned in after a short apology. The relaxation lasted for at least one hour or so I perceived it. My next dream was about it: I said to my mother: majd megmondom ha megjottek a k onyvek. The dreame wanted to let me know that he knows about it. Somebody is prompting to my mother about what are my intentions. After I woke up I wanted to know who does it. I was suspicious of Kaderabek. The net dream was very intensive and clear. I opened the door in our flat. It wa s Antal Molnar and Mr. Hortrai (former form master from middle school). Antal was friendly, we shook hands. They vehemently rushed into the flat and obv iously Mr. Hortai was very indignant. They were looking for an exercise-book. He searched in my room the book. And I apologised the excercise b ook had been archived. I mentioned the time. It was 1.00 am. He still was sort of upset. Then I woke up. I was surprised by the dream I had n ot expected him and Antal. I had told Antal to keep off my life. I was not sure whether he was Mr Hortai or Mr Kollar. So I asked him to let me k now. My next dream was short. I was dressing and my mother called me "kisfiem". She asked if I go to The Nethe rlands too or just Prague. I looked at my watch also. Then I woke up. I still did not get the answer to my question who the dreamer wa s. The next dream was in the presence of my former school mates. I recognised the teacher and Daniel. There were five or six of us there. I said (of course in my mother language): I think I should look at it at home. I think. Dani had it deliped. He laughed at me. The bottom line of this is that they wanted me to start living. They could not s ee the reason why had got stuck with my life. Just a few minues ago I realized he had been watching me. He has just apoligised to me. Fine. I forgive him. He said it was a mistake. This is what brain control is mostly about. Demanding others to work harder and be successful instead of finding love and peace and being compassionate. He must have been observing me for quite a while I have the feeling. And they bl ame poor Osho's books. Nope. My mother this morning emphasised the world fiam. She must have received teachin g dreams like me. I'd better not say anthing to this. Btw. I promised Mr. Hortai that I would come to the next class reunion. Falls I would not be able, certainly I would send an e-mail about myself. Regarding food. He noticed how skinny I was on the last reunion. He must have th ought I do not eat enough. That's the explanation of food in my dreams. Yes, he judged me without suficient information. I am glad I did not look ill back then. 25 feb 2011 - So yesterday in the morning after Mr Hortai appologised to me I fe lt relived that I would have peace. Well, I was wrong. I woke up 5 times during the night. I do not find it pleasing . I had a dream in the garden. I was only whispered thought and my mind freely cre ted the visual part. I cannot clearly remember it. All I can remember it that the future can be chane gd or something like that. Probably Mr. Hortai. It a few minutes before midday when I went to the toilet. I said him it had been a challange. And I appologised to him too. I felt sorry. So I felt asleep again. In my next dream I felt I was receiving en ergy to my legs. I had a dream in which a woman's leg was cut and bleeding. I did not feel anything of course. I wanted to call somebody from my P

anasonic GD phone. Then Mr Szabo David (old acquaintance) appeared in front of my and was politely and gently asking me to not phone. I did not phone. I dropped a remark that it is the programming's result. He sent energy or somebo dy else. I felt asleep. My next dream was suggestive. It was suggesting me to learn or practice Silva me thod. I woke up and was disappointed. I had thought I would have peace. What's worse they did a small irrespectful jok e. Which was triggered after I woke up. This really made me agry. They wanted to demonstrate their power or a meek fello w. How miserable they are. I asked them to stop it. I told them I do not want to practice Silva method. I f elr bad and cold and nervous. They might have sent me some negative thoughts. They became reactive. After this I realized how dangerous pat tern was at in them. They started an ego battle. I asked them what would they do to me next time? They would pick up a rifle and after that a gun and a nuclear bomb? I have no interest in this. I think they understood as they sent me again good e nergy but I did not feel well. I do not like being a helpless victim who is regularly judged and made fun of. I t is very childis game and I thought I would never ever in my life experience such a diminishemnt of my own dignity. They are irrespectful and igno re my wish. I had to express several times to stop because it could lead to hell. I said I forgave them but do not wish them to influence me i n any way in the future. It took me a long time to fall asleep again. My next dream was again a disrespec tful one. I was in a shop with my mother and she called my kisfiam. I got embarressed and angry at the time. I went away from here silently but I felt indignated. I woke up. I did not make objections this time. I only felt helpless and hoped to end soon this misery. It has becoming to be galling to say the least. Healing other must be performed with the greatest respect an humility. The healer this way heals his own ego and both benefit. Whereas what they do is just feeling fine at the expense of their meek fellow. I do not want anyone's help in such case. I warned them I would do a counter action of some kind if they do not stop what they are doing. I took me a long time to fall asleep again. I got up at half past eight. Before it I was visited by probably DrO who talked Slovak to me. He was not very happy. I am not participating in their childish ego games. While I was writing these lines I felt fore sure Mr. Hortai. Who tried to influe nce my wording about them. He said friends. Or it could have been DrO. I am not sure. I do not think it was DrO. He does not waist his precious time with such neglecting issues. 15:29 : Why do we need friends? Because some people are enemies (unfriendly) , derogatory. I was thinking about it over and over again. Some of them created a litt le program which was triggered after I woke up. They wanted me to taste my of penis. Probably none of them objected agai nst it. While I was writing the first line of this paragraph (at 15:29). I reall y felt as I had been attacked. It is a psychological attack. DrO contented me he said I would go to heaven. God wants me there. He as

k a faithful deeply religious must be feeling very sad about these things. He sent me a lot of energy. He repeated several time s to content me that he is my friend. Thank you. I also mentioned him that those terrorist in my room at Bournemouth were harmless, only spooky. They were more respectful to me than these who call themself friends. I must wait for Dr. Dobrovodsky's phone call from the hospital. Right now, it seems that the surgery is imminent. I might try Dr. Eric P earl's Reconnective healing after I have talked to DrO. 26 2 2011 chosen sex angel (meant to be funy dream) - critics from my side (asked to leave the wrong duer) minden nvr lma (music by UB40 by others , true dream and the interpretation als o) rtartalma megntt // grand father rettsgi mennyiszer megyek WC-re words /lng HU/ questoning tomorrow mi az ami megosztotta "back then" - nincsen szakmaja erre raghatott be 18:31 almost the whole day DrO was with me and strenghtened the defense prog ram. He knows what to expect. We should catch a rat tonight. I joked that he was my football trainer 27 2 2011 - the psychoterapeut did not come this night. At least I could not per ceive anything. I had dreams with sexual content (I was pissing, I masturbated probably also ). When I woke up I did not want to think of these dreams and tried to focus on something else. I imagined a lot of money, go ld, precious metals. While I was imaging these things somebody made me to visualise measuring my heig ht :). First, I thought it was some school mate again. I can also remember hurrying to a travel agency, when at the door some teacher w as waiting for me and wanted to say something. I cannot clearly remeber this dream. Before going to bed I set the alarm clock on my mobile to go off at 1:59 am. It did go off and I was suddenly woken up by the phone. I heard loud laughing and mentioning Bugar and Magyar. This was really strange. Then it came to me. It is know that Ms Isabella strongly stands for Mr Bugar. Therefore this experiment proved that there are more around me during me sleep in the astral space. They guard my sleep. And they are neocybernetics. When DrO mentioned yesterday that I develope d a karisma he probably referred to his colleagues whom he observed. I had some dreams after this whics for sure were made my little friends. One of them was in a shop. I was shopping. I was carrying the shopping basket to put down when I saw the exit door. I had the thought that I could just walk o ut from the shop when I quickly realised that they maight think that I want to go out as I have not payed yet for the goods I bought. I had only thre e goods in my shopping basket. With this dream wanted Ms Isabella or semeone else prove that I am candid. Then

I found myself in the street with my luggage. I had a rest. Somebody came to offer his help. I refused. He offered to put me luggage on the near bank. Also he wanted to give me a phone number. I refused. Then he offered me 2 cent to pay if I take his phone number. I refuse d. Ms Isabells calls me angel. she is a very kind woman. She show some good things in the future. 15:35 !!!!! I had a feeling that I was sent suggestive thoughts from the psy choterapeut (likelihood 99%). Because I had a realisation that the solution to happyness is to realease th e pain body. Many times happyness has a too high price and it is too risky. Many people a re satisfied with just piece. One thing is essential. Always the patient must make the hard decision and i t must be his/her free will. I had an idea that schools should have an anonym survey to measure the satis faction leevl in classes. This idea was the result of a suggestion. Mr Hortai used against me the know ledge that I worked / was interested in psychometrics. How dare he. He just cannot stop doing it. He is obsessed by having last world. He needs to be right. He cannot stop doing it. I am upset. They found my weak point. His friend bo thers me during day. He tries to persuade me that it would be good for me to release old pain. I wonder how he images this. Do es he think he would do this remotly? Is he completely idiot? He violates many rules. He crossed the border.

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28 2 2011 - yesterday I decided to start again with Dr Eric Pearl Reconnective h ealing. I downloaded his book in Czech language. My first dream was very wague. I remeber only some opening. When I woke up immed iately came to me an intense energy through my legs. It asked if I allow it. I repeated yes. The energy talke in Hungarian language. It was warm and quite strong. I did not feel fear. The energy crawled till my abdomen. I had to relax to allow crawl further but it reache only the abdomen , partly my chest. Later it turned out that the energy cannot talk it was my helper who is a Reconn ectiv healer. She's nam is Somogy Mariann. She introduced herself. She could we middle aged wo man.

Befor she introduced herself I thought the energy can communicate with me. I promised the enrgy I would not hurt anyone. Because Ms Isabella asked me what would I do if I were healthy. She responded alwasy very quickly in less than a second. When I said "megbocsatok mindenkinek". She replied: megbocsatottal. I appologised to God if in the case if this decision would end up badly. I said I need to help myself as my physical condition is severe and I do not even know the date of the surgery. I am still waiting for the phone call from the hospital. So we began the session. At first it went very cumbersom as my abdomen was fille with air and it was almost impossible to get the energy into the large intestine. My ego was also in defending state so I said some negative sentences such as : m egolom magam, megollek. DrO said: Btw 1 : 0. He was there and felt he was not sa at all, he w as even happy with my decision. Then I managed to put aside my ego and the energy went into the intestine and I managed to get rid of a lot of air after which I felt great relief. Ms Somogyi said first a bubble, but then said corrected herself and said a ball !. Yes, the descendant part of my large intestine on the left si de of my stomach was dilated into a small ball size. It is a common symptom of HD. After the woman introduced herself and I learned that the energy cannot talk I g ot scared and nervous a bit. WHat helped was that I said she was my nurse, head nurse. I felt she was unhappy about the fact that I had been given rather much nocebo a bout myself and I felt guilty. She was right. I felt guilt after all the thins that happened. She is a very lov ing woman who does not judge me and loves me. DrO also agreed and showed me a mirror to show me that I am an angel. After this night DrO perceives me differenly. He got used to me , he does not ta ke seriously my joking remarks he knows there is no hatred in my jokes. She or he mentioned that I do not even feel guilty because I visit sex angels. T hey liked me for it. It is true. I said them I had always visited them with respect and love and I fe lt pleased to be able to help the financially and said them some good white lies and compliments to sooth e their liitle ego. I got asleep. While I was sleeping I felt the energy in me. I can remember a blonde girl close to me. In my I dream I was - he programmed me all morning while I was sitting in front of my computer - in the morning he sent me very kind dreams (cat, fish food, irish beer) His first dream was: I saw a stetoscope in his hand . I was in white T-shirt a nd he was listening to my chest and arm. - he himself said I should sleep longer. He became very kind and loveful. I do n ot know what has changed. - Kaderabek 1 march 2011 - My first dream was before midday. I woke up 10 minutes to midday. I can clearly remember it was about my penis and

the language was HU. I saw my penis and the end of it was bended. He told me to straight it back. I had the very minor feeling that it could be Kaderabek (he wanted to help). I got aslep after it. My next dream : My father was calling the ambulance at night because my mother f elt poorly. I got scared but then I was showed her. she had just something minor. Then I wok e up. I was woken up by the headnurse. She started the session but it went very weakly . I mentioned that Erzsike is a bit better when I was given a kiss to my forehead. It was her ! I was pleased by her ;) I could not calm down and I felt very tired so after my apology I felt asleep. I dreamt with them. I was in the kitchen of the old flat. I knew that Ms Erzsike is there but I could not see her. Somebody else was there. It was Eva (represented life). They gave me sausag e. I objected that it is not healthy. Then I woke up. I thanked for the kindness. They tried the session again. I did not go well. I said I did not feel the need for it. I had taken 5mg of Bisacodyl and it just did the work. I had a substantial stoll in the morning (I went to toilet only 2 times) Erzsike mentioned I should move. Yes, I fully agree with her and I could feel he r repulsive feeling about my current life situation. I said I felt quite optimistic about March. (trip to Budapest, visit of DrO, pho ne call from the hospital). My next dream was with Kalo, Haris and do not know. I was on the board of an air plane about to set off in a few minutes. I was seated already when they announced that the flight is cancelled. So everyb ody had to leave the plane. I had some things to carry. They made me to carry even a pair of shoes. Sone of a bitches ;) some of the passangers had the J Silva book (the old yellow). I was not suspicious then. The music started playing I recognised Kalo and Haris. I wanted to leave the roo m. Because of the loud music I showed a man that I want to leave the room and piss. Then I saw the exit. I went out. I saw p eople in a large spacious place. I heard some signal music. They wanted to tell me that I should go into the right direction. Then I woke up and we talked. In English. The bottom line was that they wanted me to stay in this country. Somebody of the m said patriotism. I laughed ;) I do not know why they want me to stay here. I replied and what about you? Are y ou still here? Are you mad or ill? They took it as a joke. I thanked them and said I ejoyed the dream. However, I expressed a little object ion. I said I would welcome and ideal dream in which everything works and I am successful. I provided an example : The flow by Csiksz entmihalyi. We joked about the IT crowd. They seem to watch it too. This inspired me and I t old them that I would like to win a competition and become a member of 8+ privat club for those gifted individuals. I invited the nurses to o. They agreed and said during the weekend maybe. Then I fell asleep. My next dream was on a bus. It was going somewhere. I looked out the window and I saw that the path is narrowing and became a dirt road. So I felt that I am on a bycicle and behind me is Kalo. saw

lands and we were cycling on the banks of the river Nitra. I enjoyed it and looked back. It was him. But he did not look at me and had a pu dding-face. Then I woke up. I said I really enjoyed myself. It was about 5 am. I went to toilet after this. Then I had a dream in which I visited the company I applied for a job. I had an appointment with a young gentleman called Ing Radovan Toth. I entered the company and the office girl sad he is not in. I woke up. I was wondering. Then I realised that it was he who sent me the dream. He wanted to say something or so. I was woke and could make a short conversation with him. He said mate zmysel pre humor. Before this dream I had a strange dream in English language. I heard a voice in of a man who encouraged me as a box trai ner. He said: Look at me !! Look at me. It was Radovan. It is very likely that he had tolked to DrO and they both laughe d. He is a good guy. He said stay alive. Yep. I have a very low self-confidence and there is a slight chance of committin g suicide. There is self hatred and I often feel threat from others even if I should not. Certainly I had been said that this is what I should work on as it is a carmic task. I had a programming by Dro about 9.00 am today. I did not feel well. After the p rogramming I feel better. I certainly invited Ing Radovan Toth to my 8+ club. He likes me and he is a nice man. Yes, he had asked my opinion about the job and I throwed at him my critics (it i s a mess, SEO masturbation,...). He resented a little bit and called me now "son of a bitch". We both laughed at it. :)) He sent me some e nergy too. He is a very good guy. 2 march 2011 - !!!!! attack !!! My first dream was Hungarian. It was in Hungarian languae and showed a world map . It said. Sajnos nem tudjuk meg Sherlock Holmes milyen orszagokba utazott egeszen 1 even at. Then I woke up. It was sent by Ms Isabella. She cannot see the future as long as one whole year. After it everything would be as she had seen for the very first time. No one kn ows what would happen. All they know that a miracle is to happen with me as only that can help. No furt ehr information regarding the nature of the miracle. I wasj joking about it and said that Sherlock Holmes disappeared in the fog because he has woman related matters to sort out and he does not want to be seen . Of course, I only joked. Then I I can remember talking to Antal but no visual thing. I was talking about stored procedures (mySQL) When suddenly silence came and somebody touched my ars and then pushed my head. They saw it. At least Ms Isabella. She said : I had told you. She ordered me to get rid of th e entity. It was strong. It was an entity. Language: hungarian. They do not want me here. ! They even called for a preast to bless me. Pretty scary from this point what hap pened.

3 3 2011 I was tired and was waken up for a healing by "head nurse". I fall asleep. I wa s very week and listless. I had some strange dreams I cannot remember. When in the middle of the deepest v ery unconscious dream I made a statement. I do not know what it was. Then I heard Dr. Eric Pearl . He said he sent me some statements. SO I had a long session with him. Not very succesful but I gained my power back and I was very alert and attentive again. He was showed my future. I do not know why. Prob ably when it happens I would be the last man on Earth to know about. He congratulated me and started a session. Talked about waves to feel. He did not use my arms. I was laying and just sensin g. The problem is that my abdomen is rather swollen, the large intestine is filled with air and it is very hard to feel the large intestine and direct the frequency into it. It is fine to sense your muscles and the frequency often heales the muscles but I wonder how could I feel and inner organ e which is not painful? I just cannot feel my inner organes thank God. I promised to him I would be prac tising it every night. And that we would meet each other soon (probably) in Budapest in November. I am a bit sceptic that it could heal me but it is true that these healings are miraculous and all it depen ds on is how concious is the patient. An elnlighetened person would not have difficulties to heal himself I guess. We laughed a lot. They (DrO) sent me dreams after the session. With sexual conte nt. I also had a dream in which I opened wide the windows in my room and saw marchin g students. They graduated from school. They wanted to tell me with the dream that I really should be mature now . Ok, I udnerstand but why they cannot understand that I do not need their dreams? I know what is my problem. I just need time to wait for more information then I definitely would make a dec ision to leave the country. Dr Eric Pearl know my future. I do not wish that everybody would be informed abo ut my future. I guess the whole school knows my future. 4 march 2011 - healing by a new woman (she sent me her face). First, I thought s he was Eric. She is Hungarian too. It went extraordinaly well with her. I even felt smells an d energy and warm. I fall asleep after some session. I was dreaming being in a theatre where some k nowledge was imparted to the audience. She wanted reconnection. And in a blamingly way blamed me for loosing reconnecti on. I wake up and in a few seconds realized what she mentioned. I felt again sinful. I felt in my chest some pain ( in the aura). I got upset. I had been given a nocebo again. I was blamed. It seems that this reconnection i s really about reconnection with the universe. I felt bad and I felt guilty. I again had thoughts of evil. I felt even worse an d weeker. Yesterday I realized what is my problem. It is not that I am ill physically but my own self blame and hatred for my "sins" in

previous lifes. The dark forces try to push me down and will as long as I will b e indecisive about where do I belong. I am quite in limbo between evil and heaven. The reason is because I still could not forgive myself. I used to be a candid angel and I sinned and I cannot forgive myself. I am sure Gog has forgiven me. It is just an identity. I punish myself by choosing wrongly. What I need is to WANT TO LIVE !!!!!!! I ne ed to decide strongly that I want life !! After this I had vegetable, absolutely meningless out of the context dreams. Bec ause they suck all my energy. Because I am faltering. I should convince myself that I am good and not punish m yself anymore. I did promise God I would not do anything bad. But we are deceived by dark forces and we think we did it. I reall y need to WANT TO LIVE. Erzsike was absolutely right. I do not want to be healed because I still blame m yself. It is bad. Very bad. The solution is simple: fall in love with something from this life !! anything: a work, a woman , an activity. I cannot be in limbo any more. Afer this I had several dreams. I saw in my dreams: Kovago Dani, Sztarovics. Lan guage: Hungarian. They are REALLY concerned about me. I can remember I talked to Melinda in Englis h : you could bribe or hire her. Totally insane. Does not make sense at all. And that is it! Very sever. I saw so mebody crying. She had long hair. All I know she was my former school mate. They are very concerned about me. The last dream I had was in an orchard. I said: it is an orchard, ovocna zahrada . I said I could remeber this. I saw Hausleitner there. I sawed her. The message w as: you are in an orchard as Jesus. Be careful. Yes, unfortunately there are some forces that want take ownership of me or just push me down. I can remember such a visit in my childhood. I recalled that event yesterday. Wh en I was a child I went to my room for something. It was dark and my brother was still watching TV. I felt a very strong negative energy and fear. I hardly managed to ascape from the room. Unbelievable experience. It really impressed my and after that night I fel t fear to go to the room alone for a long time. I felt feer in darkness when I was a child. That negative energy was something t hat pushes me down and it started in 2001 or 2002. It is almost the same as in the movie Harry Potter. 5 march 2011 My last dream: was walking in a forest (it was the local Berek). I saw everywhe re dustbins and plastic bags with rubbish. Then I saw a train at the station. I saw Hausleitner talking to somebody. She got up the train. I woke up. It was sent by Erzsike and Hausleitner. They really want me to get th e hell out here. Everything is a rubbish here. Yes. After all those events I can sayu the same. Yesterday I found a solution: I needed cheap English language course but native speaker teachers. It is very expensive for me to stay for months in Canada or Malta because of the high acomodation and food prices. I checked Bangkok and I found an international language school where all the tea chers are native speakers. The tuition is not cheap (around 700Eur / month (25h/week)) but everythng else is ch

eap. I am glad becasue I will be able to enjoy the nature, the beachers and the people while studying. I will need a s tudent visa. Definitely it is the best solution. It would be a holiday and a useful study whi ch hopefully will end with a successful C1 certificate. 6 march 2011 I had a dream with Sztarovics and Kaderabek. I cannot remember what it as about. I only know that they trained me to be more struggler to whitstand lifes adversities and do not give up. When I woke up I told I did not want such an approach. I politely refused his help. I allowed him to stay still. A bit later I said I wished I had not said that. I do not want to punish anybody. I said he can stay. I then had a n idea. I said he can come whenever he feels he misses me badly. We all laughed. There must have been many around me. Dani Andras was there too. I said he can st ay and be a door guy. He was lucky that I did not kicked ass. LOve is acceptance and I can accept all of them and they are valuable peers. The n I fell asleep and I had a talk with Sztarovics. He was mild and polite. He taked about this new "energy" and about her girlfriend. He seemed to be apprehensive in regard to his girlfriend. He said: nem tudja hogy baja eshet. SOmething like that. He also said it was har d to teach. Yes, I agree with this. Life is not easy. But at least he has a woman to share his sorrow and happiness. He was thankful for the talk. I felt better because I was not judged only understood and maybe even admired. I woke up and talked again about satsang and reminisced the old days when I was love itself. Then I fall asleep and I had a dream in which we were rehearsing the school leaving ceremony (elementary school). I had to tak e of socks. And were moved. Kovago Dani was with me. It was sent by my form master from elementary school named Juhaszne Bln Magda. She is a Silva practitioner too. She had read my mind many years earlier. She gained information about the school leaving ceremony and learned how hard it was for me. She must have been touched by it. I saw a belt in my dream too a suit. When I woke up I knew there was Ms Magda wi th me. And not just yesterday. I thanked her for everything. I reminisced the school years and could not mention any negative event. Those fo ur years was a quite pleasant period in my life. I had to emphasized that we all in the class are elit people and we all owe a gr eat deal of greatfulness for what were given by our teachers. They were strict I said but we learned self-discipline and to be honest and cand id. An elementary school is not just about imparting knowledge but also about showing good examples of humanity and kindess. I also remebered t hat she is a caricorn like me and she as born on the 1th or 3rdh of January. I said capricorn is a combating personality whi strives higher and higher and most of them in the end become winners although their beginnings of life are were hopeless compared to others. She was pleased and I expressed my desire to meet them all, probably in 2012 whe n we would be after most of the challenging events. It turned out that Ms Szal va was there too. I also spoke to her briefly. I said s he was very strict and she had a nickname Stallone. I and Sztarovics gave her that name because she was a strong personality. I can remember when she asked us to let her know her nickname. But Sztarovics decided to not let her because we were afraid that she would rese nt for her nickname we gave her. I wished them very good health and I expressed my pleasure.

I had some realy vegetable dreams again at the crack of dawn. I am concerned abo ut these meaningless dreams. I woke up about 5 times during the evening. While I was writing these lines one of my former teachers was silently listening to it and then later revealed herself. She sad she loves me. She is having an afternoon nap. She sent me some energy. I thankful for her energy it felt good. I feel very peaceful. Also Dr E. Pearl was sending me some good vibrations in th e morning. My life has changed to great extent since I visited Ms Isabella. Life is far cry from what I had expected. You are seldom alone, there hardly privacy or secrets, there entities everywhere, and it is all messy and sometimes meaningles s. My task is to accept it and come to terms with it. I am not sure but I think I had a dream with Dro too. He was not happy about my trip to London (Mooji). Btw.: she asked me to not tell my mother about these things (Silva method, astra l world). I cite "Nem kell panikhangulatot kelteni".

7 March 2011 I was woken up at 0:30. I was a bit sulky because of that. I wish to be able to sleep at least 4 hours without disturbing. I tried to do Dr. Eric Pearl with somebody but it did not g o well. I was too sleepy. I fall asleep. Than again tried. I became complaining. I was realistic a bout my situation. Unfortunately this technique is very difficult. It requires stillness and love a nd compassion. Dr Eric Pearl himself states that after three unsuccessful session it is probabl y no use to continue. If I remember correctly I have had so far at least three strong sessions and unf ortunately the rectum is not better. My large intestine got even more diletated, my hemorrhoids are large r and I have sleeping problems. I am also very pale. In essence, I am not sure if I would be able to heal myself if I am not in love. Let us face it, I look ill. I was irrespectful because while I was complaining I heard ""we would help you". Then I said, I was at first kicked into my ass and hurt then they want to help me. I wish I had not said that. I was just tired and desperate because I lost precio us time and on the material levelI gained nothing. I feel it was a mistake and I do not feel better than 1 a nd half year ago. I learned a lot but Dublin was a mistake and I feel I did not deserve that. It c aused some negative consequences and events so I paid a lot of price for that and here am I without any improvement. I am probably an annoyance to my parents. I can feel it. I just realized a few d ays ago that my brother's bday was not celebrated. Or at least I do not know about it. He did not wish to see me. I really need to leave this place and sort it out because I have been here for t oo long and I do not know what else could I learn from this place.

I can remember talking to someone but then I had a thought in my mind "enemy". I got scared because I do not know for why. I appologised. This morning I analysed the events from my m emory and it was from DrO. He resented for something. Probably I was not talking about him in a respec tful manner. I do not know as I cannot remember anything. Then I had a strange dream. I cam remember I fall to ground and I stayed lying t here. It was winter. I was lying on my stomach. I heard footsteps. I expected they would lift me up f rom the ground. When I felt energy from my legs till my head. I woke up. I heard: Kura, ez igy n em mehet tovabb. It was a stronge alpha dream. Another alpha dream followed. I was sitting next t o a woman who looked like my mother but she was not my mother. She said her menses is late and she was not feeling comfortable. It was like a kind of excuse for something. I then said to her. And I feel the s ame for 31 years after which she bursted crying. I stood up and left the room. It was in the living room of o ur old flat. I left the room and I said : Nem akarok meghalni. it was dark and I felt some en ergy. I heard : megrdemled az egszsget. I was wondering (she wanted me to understand) who she had b een the woman. At first I thought that she was an elderly woman a healer. Nope. She suggested m e thoughts so that I could learn the thruth. Since she had menses she must had been a young woman. I had another dream in a shop. I was shopping in a small grocery store. I bought chocolate bars and I saw some cakes. Language of course was Hungarian. I then woke up. I was surprised by such dreams. Then I had another dream: I was going home. I saw two ugly looking doors and I s aw my former school mate Toth Roland who went into another apparment. After he entered the room I heard l aughter of some people inside. I think he did not see me in the dream. I then woke up. My next dream was also in Hungarian. With some people around me. And then I saw Csibi (Raj Tibi). He shaked hands with me. I woke up. Then I knew what it had been all about. I was surprised but did not mind. I could not care less. We talked while I was a wake. He has quite good telepathical abilities. I could catch pretty many thoughts of him. He was astonished by my lifestyle. He admired me. He asked me since when I had b een leading such a free life. I replyed L that is a secret. But then he replied you have been doing this since your birth in a joking way. He is a good mate and I was pleased by his dreams. I turned out that he brought along many ladies. Some friends of him. And generously he let me play with some of them. Thank you ladies. I wonder who does not know about me. Probably my parents are t he last one on the planet who does not know about my lyfestyle.

This morning while I was analysing the events and dreams I remembered the "nemy". I had a feeling it had been DrO. Strangely he received my own thoughts when I started writing thes line s and he seems to have forgiven. I disturbed him for which I appologize. I did not know that I can dist urb someone with my thinking. I must be more careful, I do not want to disturb him next time. And I promise I would be more respectful. I am too young and I must learn. He is a real role model and really really love him and I am so grateful for all his selfless help. While I was writing these lines somebody (Ms Isabella) else was eavesdropping an d laughing together with me. Even now. 12:36 Lady Hedviga contacted me also. Today is a busy day. She suggested a good piece of idea to me: Since my father is looking for a new TV set (the analog TV signal is scheduled from the day after tomorow to switched off). I shoudl generously buy for him one as Christmas gift. I agreed with this excellent noble idea. He gave me 20 Euros when I was broke (or they thought). and as the good old dharma teaching says what we give out we receive bac k. He went by bus to Tesco to look after a suitable one but he is just wast ing his time. I promised lady Hedviga that would do this nice human act for my father to make him happy. Now I have been waiting for his arrival. I am going to order one for him from the Internet since cheaper and there is a wide choice of TV sets. It is a miracle but she is with me while I am writing these lines and laughing together with me. I am pleased to have a helpful angel. I was told that my mother little brother is looking forward to welcome m e after so many years. And I promised lady Hedviga that I will visit them. I will be pleased to so. Hopefully next year. I wish I will have found my wife by then so that I could visit them and introduce my dear girfriend to them. 8 march 2011 - I got to bed late yesterday as I was looking for a suitable TV se t for father and I had a shower too. It was almost 10 pm when I got to bed. Once I lied down I felt that some body is working on my aura. I started with joking. I thought it was an alien energy and they are goi ng to kidnap me. Then it turned out that it was DrO. He forgave me. I joked a bit he said he was angry, of course he did not mean it. I joked a lot. I said I wished I could escape forever. He fixed my aura. I fell aslepp after an hour or so. My first dream was a mixture. I saw A ntal in it. They said I had a special guest. I did not know who it was. I thought so me former school mate.

It turned out it was Akos my mother's younger brother. He was happy to m eet me. He congratulated on my nurses and angels around me. He said they are ver y kind. I expressed my sorry for not visiting him for 20 years. I said I wanted to contact him but I could not remember his surname. I still do not know his surname. He changed his s urname. He disliked Hangonyi. He said he was glad I do not take after my mother. He wished me all the best and I promised I would visit them next year. Hopefully by that time I will be more healthier. I emphasized how lucky he is that he has a lovely nurse. He said he was happy and a successful salesman. I am glad that he is abl e to work and has financial success and happiness. Later on he sent me dreams. One of them was: there was a storm and there was no Internet. Shortly after came the second dream: I was on a bus and I said the road is very narrow and the bend is too ti ght. I heard a low creepy voice. He made fun of me. And I understood at once. I felt bad that I had not c ontacted him for so many years. SO he made a little parody dream with love. I joked back. I said I have a fobia of travelling and I hope to get rid of my fear by next year. We laughed. I allowed Lady Hedviga to ask for me by DrO, a fter all she is a close realative. In the morning while I was in bed DrO strated working on my aura. I was surprised. Ms Isabella was with him too. We laughed again by my jokes. I said God wanted him to be more easy goin g and me to be more mature. I think I know when I can joke and when not. DrO was full of love and he thanked me for the teaching and challenge. He said I am an angel. I said if I would win a larger amount of money I would give one third to Ms Isabella and him because they are my good friends. I reassured him that I keep my promises or at least I try and that I wou ld help him all my life and Ms Isabella too. I will make up for the losses and what he had sacrifice to save my life. Or mabe after some time he will find it as a change for better. You can never know what. He had e an anema. We all I said a dream job to a good joke. He asked one of the nurses to assist me. They gave m laughed. I asked the nurse for a kiss instead. you hav many beautiful helpful nurses with angel heart. Isn't it be a doctor?

I talked about my sufferings (to Akos) [lost twin, curse,..] 20:05 - somebody visited me (maszk technique). She was at least correct. She asked : ki van itt a few times. I was guessing. It is most probably Jasmine master. It was a pleasant fe eling to have her. I had some thoughts and I guess they were hers: child, you have some neg ative emotions.

9 March - I had a dream again with Mr Hortai. I can remeber Bartal Gabor. They c ongratulated me for my wedding. They showed me a groom's cake. When I woke up I got disappointed. They again app eared in my dream. I found their dream a bit selfish just to have the last word. I do not have a gi rlfriend they only may had heard my destiny. But this does not condone their dream. I clearly stated I did not wa nt any dreams from them. The day before I asked the others (my helpers) to not let anyone close to me as I am not receiving new visitors. I simply wanted peace. So I joked and said how come they sent me a dream: what a bout the door guy Dani Andras. I visialised a baseball stick in his hand meaning that he would kick asses if ne eded. So I was disappointed because I felt the dream annoying and felt I was not tolerated. Ing. Hortai at once said Dovidenie. They had counted with this scenario and I ha d a feeling that they wanted to provoke me. I had sessions with Dr. Eric Pearl. It took him a while to let me know that he i s not healing me just sending me energy. I understood it and I was very pleased by his friendship and help. I then fall a sleep. I had a dream in which I found myself on a county road heading into a village. I heard a pistol 9 3 2011 after 17.00 q1 sk 19:0 Ing. Ing R Toth - ze vraj mam prizvuk!!!!! 10 March 2011 Yesterday a lot of people sent me energy. In the afternoon at about 19 o'clock I was visited by Ing. Radovan Tth. He reveae d his name. He said only Tth. I first thought of Roland T. and then of a teacher with the sam e name. But it turned out that he is my friend or what. I appreciate his help and I respect him a lot. He said I speak with accent :). We laughed. I reassured him he did not have an accent. When I got to bed I was very tired. My aura was greatly damaged. Marika Agi (megmond Erzsikenek, I am crazy,.. arrogans allszent 11 March 2011 My first dream was sent by someone who is Slovak and he was very lovely and kind to me. He treated me with some food and we laughed. He also sent me some energy. In my next dream I went to the kitchen (old flat) and heard voices coming from t he bathroom.

I ate something from the table and I realized that my parents are talking togeth er in the bathroom; I overheared them. The point of the dream was to make me realize that my parents do not have the pr ivace because our flat is very small and of course I am the only one to blame for this unfortunate situation. Yesterd ay I bought a big trunk in Tesco stores because I seriously want to leave this place. I am considerate myself and see wh at an uncomfortable situation is this. The dream was sent by Juhaszne Magda (my former form master from the elementary school). I had a feeling that someone else was there too, my father's sister's daughter. It is very likely as she is also a former teacher at elementary schools. I got upset because I had been aware of the situation and I had been determined to leave this place and fix my life. I told them that I had bought the trunk already the day before so there was no r eason to send me the dream again. I tried to sleep but I could not fall asleep so I got upset and became reactive. . I had all the reason to be upset and sulky. So I started to criticise. I had been having sleeping problems due to other brai n controllers and entities so I was really hopeful yesterday that I could have a nice long lasting sleep. And they just woke me up to show this pricesless dream which had use for me. Of course they agreed. Then fall asleep but it took me more than an hour. In my next dream I met Pista Molnar and Marian Rablanszky from middle school. Th e shook hand with me and we all were very pleased. They are my true friends and would never hurt me. I was glad to meet them. I fall asleep again and in my next dream I was suggested something: I was showed that I do not let woman close to me. I agreed completely and told t hat we capricorns have built a strong fortification which can be defeated only by a very special woman. And I mentione d right after nurse Ann who almost succeeded. Then I had a strange dream. I was jerking off in the lavatory. Then I was in the kitchen and met a woman who I could not really recognize. I was pleased but could not recognize her. Right after this I was in the living room which was absolutely empty and I again almost strated jerking off. That was very strange. I woke up. I was suggested th at the woman was a nurse. And it turned out that she was nurse Ann. I was not sure if she was taken or not . I asked. I had a dream in which she showed me a lovely smilly girl. So it is her child. I was pleased to learn that she had got married and has got children. The bottom line of the whole thing is that she has been practicing Silva method for quite a while. And she was observing me. I recon she has been practicing Silva method at least since the year 2008. As to the dream with jerking of: she perceived when I was doing it from time to time. She is a very sensible angel. She perceived it and did not like it because she believs in love as an angel and not in sex without love. I am sorry for this. I have just realized how widely spread is Silva method even in this God forsaken country. I promised her that I would never do such a nasty thing again. And I would not m ention her because I respect her and she is taken now. I wished her very good luch and health and happiness and was very sorry and felt a bit embarressed.

In the mornign when I was about to get out of bed I was thinking of what had hap pened during the night. And I was very sorrowful. She was listening to me while I was thinking and she s aid that she had know that I would have died for her so much I loved her. I told her I still love her but do not want anything from h er and would help her anytime when asks to do so. There is no coincidence in life. It turned out that she was with me in 2008 and we made love in alpha in the morning. I can remember a morning in 2008. It was after my satori. I was in bed and I was full of love and I imagined her how I tenderly lover her. It was not a coincidence. She was real ! She perceived the same and enjoyed with me. Unbelieavable!! She must have suffered a lot because she was observing my struggle and she knew how much I was in love with her. I said to her that I would be happy to have my next life with her. I would be th e happiest on Earth to be married with her. I also said to her that I have other destiny and she should not regret this. I s urve greater purposes and she would be proud of me. THE MOST unfortunate thing that turned out is this: She was asked to hurt me by her girlfriends by Mr. Hortai F. This man is very dangerous man. She found nurse Anna and asked her about everyth ing. Of course nurse Anne was complaining and Mr. Hortai persuaded her to give me a lection. It was yesterday. I was really di sappointed but suprised as I found the dreams to be strongly sexual. And they just wanted to suggest me to fuck my own mother. I was daubtful that sich dreams cannot be sent my my former school mates or somebody else from school. So it turned out that nurse Ann was very upset and she was angry to me. I blamed for those dreams Mr Hortai and his friends. I did not understood the dr eams . I knew they were sent from women. My good friends wanted me to know about it and asked nurse Andd to show me the d ream. I sorry for what happened. She must be felling very bad because the timing was the worst. Yesterday I was very weak and I had little cha nces to survive the mornign. DrO had to fix my aura but it almost so bad as after Dublin. I almost fall back. PS: I can clearly remeber that lady Hedviga sent me some energy with full of lov e and she said that she also sent to Roland. What a kind angel she is. Thank you. 12 March - THE BREAKTHROUGH Yesterday I realized a few things. I realized that Ms Anna was upset of me rathe r than lovely. I started thinking. I remebered the day before. My aura was greatly weaken witout any reason. I reme mbered DrO had to remove from my aura a lot of black solid objects. It came to me. I was sent curses not only dreams by women. I wondered why would they hate me so much. Then I realised that Mr Hortai must had his fingers in it. I had never imagined such vicked things of him. He had changed a lot. He had persuaded Ms Ann to hurt me. He must have talked to her bad things about me. He wanted to discredit me. She believed it. So she asked her girlfriends to curse me and treat me. I realised how much she h ad suffered because we could not get together as a couple. She had been desperate and very unhappy because of me. She resented and hold gr unches. I felt sorry and compassion towards her and

I felt really miserable because she had to suffer. I was feeling blue the whole day. My mother had definitely received dreams in which she was showed Hell because sh e is a bit wicked. I am quite sure these dreams were sent also by Ms Anna's friends. What does it m ean? She hates my mother because she sabotaged our chance. She knew that Ms Anna love d me but told me nothing. She became jealous of Anna. I related to Ms Anna how much she suffered and desperate she was. I so sorry and would not forget this great mistake of my. My mother has hurt me a lot and she never wanted me to happy, she is a very egoc entric woman. I feel pity because nurse Annna was my destiny and we could be so happy together . I was pensive about what decision to make. I was at loss and hopeless. I had los t the direction had been stuck for quite long. I started thinking. I got a response from a Thailand language school. The price was OK. I checked the average monthly temperatures on wikipedia. I found it too high. There was another thing that bothered me. The school had two offices: one in Bangkok and the second in Pattaya. Pattaya looked cheaper and I also liked that it is a smal l city with 100,000 population. But the city is basically all about prostitution. It is an ill fated prostitutio n center in Thailand. Although it has got a beach. So I started thinking. I somehow did not feel like going to Thailand at all. I f elt I need to be among my own race. I remembered my stay at a language school in Bournemouth (UK). There was a young teenager from Germany who told us a story about sex tourists travelling to Thailand. She despised such tourists. The second hint was Rory, the teacher, who joked about Hamburg. He even recommen ded me Hamburg because of pretty prostitutes. I had a schoo mate right from Hamburg (Nino). I felt this must be a hint I had b een waiting for so long. I definitely knew I need to go to the Reconnection seminar in Hamburg. Yesterday I made a decision. I bought a bus ticket to Prague (cost only 15 Euro) . I would spend a day in Prague and continue by bus to Hamburg. I am not sure about the language school yet. I have some hope that I wo uld be healed in Hamburg. My great realization was this: I asked myself: What do I want? There are prostit utes in Thailand. No. After Ms Anna's dream I felt again some fire and desire in me. Some desire to get married and be happy. I had lost my hope and belief that I could find someone like her. Yesterday I realized that I need to get married. I realized that there must be a third woman out there waiting for me who I hurt in some previous life and now I need to pay back my duties to her. These two wman (Erzsi ke, Anna) kicked my ass a bit. The third woman is not going to do it. Because I would not turn her down. I do not want to miss my last third ch ance. I would do my best to make her happy. This is what I truly want. Yesterday in the evening a magical thing happened. I watched Dr. Eric Pearl's vi deo and I felt that the energy gets into me more easily and stays in me longer. I also began to have headache on the left side of my head. I t was a strong headache similar to what I had felt when it started back in 2001-2002. I knew Ms Ann helped me. She must forgive me and felt compass

ion towards me. She had hurt me but that was exactly needed. My hint was correct. Last year I wanted a family constellation with Ms Ann. I fe lt she is key to my health and destiny. Unfortunately nothing happened during the family constellation. She first showed interest in m e but after a question she resentfully said: she did not want anything from me. I also had to He has and I realized yesterday that without DrO's help I would be certainly dead. He clear my aura and remove the curses. saved my life at least four times by now. I am very greatful for his help trust him and respect a lot.

When I got to my bed I felt the energy in me even stronger and I had a strong he adache. My first dream was about some Zen Master. Something abstract. I only knew that i t was probably from Mr. Hortai and I thanked for his help although I felt that it was not so love driven. But it helped. She had to hurt me to feel compassion and now she wants me to be happy. A bit later about this. When I woke up after the dream I thanked Mr Hortai for his help. I started to me ditate because I had a pretty strong aura. My first thought that I received was: ugye csak vicceltel tegnap? I thought they meant my arrogant criticism after the dream in which my parents h ad intimate chat together in the bathroom because of the crowded flat. I appologized for my arrogance and I said it had been a joke only. Ms Anna started talking in SLovak. I did not hear much but I coudl clearly hear this world: "podraz". She had been told something completely different and she had been persuaded to hurt me. She did it but if she had known how ill I was she would never had done it to me. My theory was correct. Mr Hortai did some job against me and I am sure he painte d me black in her eyes. So it turned out that Mr Rablanszky Marian got the excellent idea to invite her and send me a dream. She was resentful and still angry yesterday when she sent me the dreams in which I was jerking off. But yesterday I felt bad about her and she probably felt it or checked me. I pro mised I would never hurt her and if did it was only because of my careless. I heard the word "bosorka" regarding Ms Isabella. She might know about her too. She might know that my mother went to Isabelle with a selfish agenda. She was jealous and she wanted some cure. She intrigued against me to sa ve myself for herself from the nurse. So we finished and I promised I would never think of her. Which would not be eas y in the beginning. Then I started to rehearsing my English adjective words. After a while I heard the world: handsome. Probably by Ms Ann. It felt felt good to my ego. I even said this. Nurse Anna has got 2 children. She is said to be happy. I took me very long to get asleep. Somebody was sending me energy While I was writing these lines Ms Isabella was eavesdropping me. I know this be cause she said "ksznom" to my daubthful thoughts about her.

I was thinking that I only need to find the third woman. And she would became my wife. After this I had a thought "You do not need to seek any more", It was Ms Agi (former school mate from elementary school). She is single. She is a kind angel. She would marry me any time. I then had some vision (I was not sleeping) with two marrows. I became a bit sca ry. I suspicied again poor Mr Hortai. I asked DrO to tell me when whe meet each other. He said I could but you would n ot like it. I then knew that it was Agi. She resented because I said that there was no affinity between us. I said my wif e must be very special. She must trust me blindfold and respect me as a man. And I also said I need a romanic meeting. When you meet you r karmic partner you feel something special. I said I need such a meeting again. I really felt sorry and appologized myself m any times. I advice her to do a family constellation,. I asked her: Are you dareful enough to do a family constellation? Or DrO could h elp her just by checking the obstacles. It could be a curse. While I was writing these lines the cute angel Melinda asked me "marry". Love is not a negotiation. Love is not story based. You do not fell in love with the story of the person. Y ou love him/her soule. If you are in love, you can sacrifice even part of your large intestine just to get close to her.

Bartal Gabor alpha dream: Figyeljetek meg utoler mindekit es mindent eler az eletben Snow covered mountain (because I am a capricorn) Erzsike - I held the hand of my wife 18:27 I again had Gilbert attack after I had jerked off. There was something str ange in it. I almost fell asleep but had a vision. My father ordered some sexy clothes for m y mother. Then some dream about skoda. I had a feeling that somebody made me sleep. While I was writing these lines I got an idea. I could remember she said in English she did not regret it. It can be true or false or between but does not matter. I t is over. I am being watched regularly but do not know since when and by who. Ms Sabikova warned me. I promised not to do it again. But she cannot forbid me to think about her today as I have been writing this log for myself. She should be

13 March 2011 Yesterday I went to bed at 9 o'clock. I started with Alha sound. I relaxed. When a woman started to communicate with me. She talked to me Hungarian and help ed me by sending energy and balancing my aura. She joked. She said she was my lover an d she was 40 old. And she said Dk. Then of course she said she was lady Hedviga. She said to call her Hedi. She said I can think of anything but not say it alaud. Because I hurt many. I asked her about Sabikova. I said she or her friends are spy on me. She said: rmnyos. She holds grudges, I am sure. She hates me. She loved me a lot j ust the way I did.

I had a dream in which I had stool and I saw my own excrement. I do not know why it was necessary. It was not a funny or critical dream. I just cannot rememeber everything. Then I had a session with Magda tanito neni. She was angry because I had sent he r to hell. SO I had to appologize a lot but she forgived me. I know, I was rude but she rea lly loves me. Thank you so much. It is an abuse to tell a Christian: Go to hell! They believe in hell as well. Lady Hedi sent me two dreams regarding why they do not like me : 1. Zen 2. black humour Then I talked to Sabikova again. I think she was asked to help me. They realized that we still had not finish it they way we should. ANd it keeps me stuck where I am. She was asked but I felt she hates me because she was hurt. She sent a dream in which I opened a world map from my ricksack and she said stiffly "Vyberte si". She had been said to help me because I got stuck because I still felt some connection to her and I wished we could en d it as good friends at least. I wish I was a brain controller I could talk it over with her. I will have to as k DrO about her. I need to know if she is fine and happy and why she hates me so much. I promised her I would never hurt her and I am her true friend who would help he r any time and I love her. I asked her to write me an e-mail with all the truth and about her feelings and opinion but I doupt she would do it. I am not sure if I talked to her. I had a feeling that she left after som e time and then I was talking either to myself or to someone else. I feel guilty and angry to myself. I'll as k Gof to have a life with her and I would make her as happy as I can. 14 March - I woke up I had some positive suggestive dreams and some energy. I joked. They joked back. THey said there was even a Polish lady among them so t heir have grown. I fall asleep. In my dream a prostitute was handling a call from her client. She spoke how to get there and to bring some chocolate. They involved into my dream my mother and brother too. My mother saw in my computer an index.htm which was a list of sex angels. Fortunately the link gave 404 error,. But then she opened a txt f ile with phone numbers. She wondered. I woke up. It was ok. I liked it. I started visualizing some sexy nurse from bes zamolok hu with a stetoscope. They laughed. It was fun. Then I fall asleep and I had dreams in Hungarian language. The dream was in our old flat. My father touched me on my buttock and I reacted angrily. I was lying on the sof a. I felt another touch arounf my arm. I reacted agrily when my mother was sitting next to my head. The dream was a speculativy dream to reveal problems in a gentle way. Unfortunately Mr Hortai's rat is back and at work. I have a notion that Puha Att ila works for them. He also tested eating. My father took a slice of salami from my plate. I warned him again. He is going to create a very bad carma for himself.

This son of a bitch sent me a message even during the day yesterday. The message was : "I need help". 15 March !!! Programming of peristaltic in the morning DrO: it was supressing of the tra uma (molestation, fondling of theleft side of my abdomen). Yesterday I was in Budapest. Visited Tya (xxx tart). When I was in the train on my way home I thought of Tia. I felt her odor. I had a slight feeling that she thinks of me too. When I got into bed I was thinking of Tya and I felt sorry for her because she h as some helth issues. I imagined that I healed her thighs and sent her some love. She must have felt it. Sabikova again contacted me and she complained. I had felt something and I went into the feelig. Unfortunately it was nurse Anna. And I promised her that I will not love as has enough love. I appologized her. I said it was hard for me to not think of her. And I said it may take some days to forget again. She did not seem to be upset. I complained to DrO abou the rat we have. I said Mr Puha A (former school mate f rom high school). I asked him to catch him or else it would be bad with me. DrO surprisingly sad h e would talk to him. He must have done it as I heard later Puha Attila who said he knew the psychoter apeut and he said something that he might help. I criticised poor Puha for being a snake. Sorry but I cannot stand to be fooled by my so called friends. I need respect and honesty. I do not like to be treated like a fool. Puha had played a game and he thought I was not aware of it. I was right, the psychotherapeut sent some messages to me on Sunday. When I got up at night, I heard messages: I will not be selfish. The kind Tya vi sited me during the night, she is a brain controller. She met there my helpers and they asked her about my performance. They must have told her my story and they told her that I am a good guy. But it is true that she got impressed by me as decided to chek upon me sooner wh en I was on my way home. She was persuaded by my helpers to make some fun with me. She communicated with me in English. She is my girlfriend now. She is very kind intelligent lady. We had some intimate cuddling and hugging and kissing and caress together. And I felt that she loved it. It was good for her and me. I asked her to teach me how to be a better lover. I asked to send me some sexual dream in order to teach me. I might visit again a nd I promised her I would not be selfish again. I would make her cum. She sent me a dream in which she showed my camera. She probably could read my mi nd when I was at her. She is at very high level with Silva method. I truly respect her and admire her.

I am grateful for her gift to me and hope she enjoyed it a bit. I wished her good luck in life and hea lth. I had then a dream with coins. Probably somebody got upset by my visit of Tye as she was there in astral world and might have been introduced to many being there. I had a notion that the dream wanted to tell me that myself being a bit broke I waste money on girls for sex. And it turned out that it was again Mr Hortai. He might have been pointed out that my love life is my own private matter and no body is to get involved with it. He, however did. After this dream I had a dream with Richi among two or three unknown people. He was neatly dressed in suit and had groomed hair and we went somewhere (in Nove Zamky). I woke up in after a few seconds. I can remember he fetched a drink to everyone of us. Also I saw his not very friendly looking mates. They eat cake or took a cake fro m a vitriol. I saw a dream with a closet and a shit. They talked to me but I was not sleeping and I coul not hear them. My heart beat went up. They threated me. This clear psychic attack took for abou t 5 minutes. My aura on my chect got weakened. I bitched out Ritchie. I said to hime to respe ct my private life. I found it realy cruel. He just comes and attacks me with 3 other his friends? H ow come? Later I learned the reason why. Hortai himself spoke to me. He visualized a dog just after finishing his excrementing and cleaning his wretc hes on a grass field. Ne szarjak mas teritiriumaba. He can't have not hear this when a few days ago I said it. I just imagined that I would not shake hand with him the next time we meet each other (school reunion). I just imagined it and I said "Sz arba nem nyulok". He either received this message or was eavesdropping when I imagined this. But m ost likely somebody said to him. Somebody who was there when I said it betrayed me and said back to him yesterday . Mr Hortai was most probably criticised again that he interferes with my private life. So he must have felt bad and found a reason to bite back again. He used the "Nem nyulok szarba" thought as an excuse for a psychic attacj performed by 4 people. Unbelievable overly hars countyer at tack!!! Just for one thought he is able to attacj somebody really but with many people. And he is clever. He choose somebody who has strong language and no inhibitions as he is not at Mr Hortais level. Mr Hortai simple wanted me to discredit and feel embarrassed. It is likely that nobody else wanted to take part in his childish games so he asked Ritchie. I bet he said nothing about my state. I find him very frivolous and malicious. He himself does not do the sin of attacking me so he askes his students to do th e dirty job for him. However, they know nothing about my state and (this was the case with Sabikova)

they just do it. No sane person would do such a wicked thing to attack another human who is getti ng out of depression and has been chronocally ill for decades. He deceives them in order to get them to do the nasty thing and hop es that carma would not punish him so much. Very astute and disgusting behavior, to say the least. Mr Hortai wanted me to know by suggesting that he's former students are so good that they fight for him. That's ok but I do not see any reason to prove it. He has some personality probl ems serious ego problems. Very serious. It is ridiculous and disgusting to me. Obviously he enjoys these e go battles. He of course, admitted that he has carma and he would have to work on it in his next life. I warned him and he just keeps continuing. We both made a peace agreement. It ha s reached a point that is too severe and someone could be hurt. It is not a game and it does create carma. Why did it happen again although we had reached a peace agreement earlier. Becau se I learned after our peace agreement that poor Sabikova was deceived by him. And she was hurt and she regrets it. He is a troublemaker and creates wares but himself stays out of it. He seems to be interested in hurting me by others and r uining my good reputation creating indignation. skld This situation just got out of control and some rules should be introduced and m ade sure they are not violated. First of all, I do not want people who are not serious about ther help to me wit h me. I am not an attraction to be visited and observed by anyone. Only those few faithful freinds and helpers could be all owed to stay with me. Everybody else should go away as I want to have a private life. The helpers are with me not because of some fun but they are really protecting me and monitoring me. Everyone else is there just for his own amusement. I do not want to entertain others and share my private life and thoughts with others. I find it very immoral and d isgusting to watch others secretely. Since I expressed this wish I could blame those helpers for letting them hurt me . An end must be put to it in order to avoid any more conflicts. It is not fare th at I am judged for my own thoughts. Eavesdropping - can it forbidden?? 13:08 - I got Gilbert attack but I had the feeling that it was remote control as I received a message in Hungarian: "n semmin nem nevetnk". I was very sleepy so I decided to lye down and I got asleep. I had nightmares. I realized something. At first it seemed that I had a Gilbert syndrome attack. Then it turned out that it was the side effect of programming by DrO. The subconscious mind just keeps c hewing on the trauma and cannot get rid of it. It causes the fatique. The mind produces similar dreams which are all related to touch and feer. I had the same nightmares when I was a child. Now DrO tries to supress or erase the trauma but he cannot. The int estine works better but the mind produces nightmares and it causes fatique.

16 March 2011 - Clash of views. I went to bed very early yesterday at about 8 pm. I was very tired. I got up at 9 o'clock. I had had vegetable dreams rather grim. I had a notion th at Ms Erzsike was with me. I complained that DrO could not resist and did some programming to supres trauma tic events from childhood. I had told him to not do this without my consent. I got to sleep soon. When I woke up again it could be midnight. DrO was with me and he had been dreaming with me. He said not to speak. Then Bartal came to me. At first I thought it was ZOli but then I learned it was Laci, his brother. He said Zoli had been offended severely by my inadvertent labeling (cigany). He said many had left me because they felt offended by my words. I had said (tho ugh) zsido, too. I know Magdi or Erzsike got offended by this world. I have never said who was ci gany or zsido. Dr Eric Pearl is a jewish man. So what? In fact, I did not mind it. I said I only needed a doctor and one or two faithfu l nurses. I joked about my labeling. I appologized to them but did not help much. I said that they believe in some words. I could not imagine what is wrong with z sido or cigany or hell. I said I could had said cucumber, zulu or other words. So what? Why those words are not offensive? - I asked. I wanted to show them that they were ridiculous because they believe in some wor ds. We are not responsibel for our thoughts as they can come from somewhere else. But we are "responsible" for what we believe in. I refuse nocebo. Therefore I cannot read the bible. However, Christians created bad things and made other to believe in it. ANd it is obviously true because they felt bad when I said hel l or death. They fear these things. I proved them that I don't. Of course, everyone has its own fears and be lieves. We are not to judge them. I had a feeling that Laci understood it. I like these guys there are candid and honest guyes and respected me from the very beginning. I am awfully sorry for their disappointmen t in me. They also should understand that I am just sleeping in my own bed and thinking. I do not see them. And it is a bad habit to label things. I would never say those things to anyone in real life. They wanted me to get to sleep. They fighted back. I had some dreams to show me that I am obsessed with prostitutes and even older ones. When I woke up I criticised why I am being watched. WHy they jude me for having sex. They expressed they mistrust despite my swear to God. They said I had been watched. They are many and they observe me, eavesdrop me. I just find it a bit disgusting when somebody watches others while they are jerk ing off or having sex. I find it overly disgusting and impolite. They have a fear that I would hurt a w oman. I criticized them for not trsuting me. Since they believed in negative events th ey gave truth to them. I emphasized that it is not the thought that manifests but the underlying emotio

n, believe. Since they are worried and it is obvious as they cannot trust me and must observ e my thoughts they are toxic and manifest negative events. I said an angel is so naive and innocent that always believes in positive events and cannot think of anything bad regarding anyone. I was right about it. A brain controller should not be worried as he powers the negative event instead of the positive. I asked them to leave me. I was right what I said and I have not regret it. I said I do not need those who are worried because that is no help to me. I felt some of them got really upset. I asked them if they would keep their opin ion even with their faces. I asked DrO to tell me a list of names of those who does not believe in me. It is really important to me that I should be sleeping only with those who trust me and want my happyness. I am not interested in ego bathles every night. I would escape if I could but th ey always bother me with their dreams. I'll ask DrO to clean up the mess and show out everybody who has n o job or mistrusts me. I am not an attraction and I find it really annoying. I also expressed my wish t hat I do not want to be observed by anyone during daytime. They wanted me to swear on the bible by lifting my left arm. I refused by share darefulness. (polgrpukkaszts). A sweared to God and promised Tya too what she does not need to worried. I would love to see her come and tate her juice. SOme of them really think low of me and they see some evil in me. They have a ve ry strong ego and hate others who do not share their opinion or religion. I respect others but like to be given peace by them. They despise me. I had then a funny dream. I was lying on the floor when some English speaking gu y walked to me. I felt annuyed necause he started talking somenthing liek giving advices to othe rs. Then I stood up from the floor and to my great amazement he was only about 80 cm tall and had a chap on his head and had a knife and started to use offensive language (fuck, ...). It was funny and they mean to show myself with this little guy. I had said before that I was arrogant and I myself felt it was a self defen se. Those who created the dream see it clearly as it is. I am sure DrO was one of th e creators. He is not as judgeful as used to be. It is also a question to those who feel insulted by my words why they come back? Well, because they love to fight. They love to win ego battles. I do not feel so weak to need so many people's help now. I myself would run away to have my peace. But I canno t. I learned that Tya was also there. Later on she said she is ateist. Well, I can imagine why many of those older Catholics felt the need to leave. Su

re. I do not judge them. But they dislike me and think lower of me because I like a prostitute the same way as any other woman. She is a good woman and very intelligent. I lauged and asked if Erzsike saw Tya. After a few minutes a thought appeared in me: "Nem rdekel, hogy hova dugod.". It is correct. There is nothing to be proud of. It is only a temporary solution to my needs. We can become friends. At about 7.00 I owed me a dream fucking her and sexonds and she She is a fun. I flattered she to be taught by She might get a had dreams sent by the nimfoniac Tya. She sucked my cock, she sh in which a man was she was crouching. She made my dick to feel it. It lasted a few moaned too. was a cat woman and she told I her tom-cat. I said I would love this sexy lady. vibrator. I would not mind.

I had a dream at 8:55. It was in Hungarian language. It was blackmailed in the d ream by a man. The bottom line of the dream was that some people were disappointed and wanted t o blackmail me. After this I had another dream. I was in a drug store and by the counter I saw m y mother offering somehing. She was kind and I was laughing and puzzled. I refused to buy anything and turne d away. I heared a voice: zavarban vagyol? I got up and realised that this dream was abo ut blackmailing. He mentioned a car he would like to have. He threated me to tell my mother this journeys of mine. I could care less. I got disappointed and refused the dreamer and said I cannot tolerate this at al l. It is very low to blackmail someone. I went to the bathroom and I had a notion and some pictures of a dream. I though t of Mr. Dermisek. I realised that he could have sent the dream. However, I could not see how he managed to send a dream in Hungarian languahge. I had known he had a school mate who knew Hungarian. So I thought he was sleeping in Australia with his friends. When I sw itched on my computer I learned that there was no evening at that time in Sydney. While I was eating my breakfast the lady was talking to me. And I said that Mr Dermisek is a very good guy and she said "je pysna". They told me that he had split with his former girlfriend and now he is together with a beautiful lady with Hungarian roots. They were staying in the States. I wished them all the best and I persuaded Mr D ermisek to finally settle down and marry that neautful angel. I have a feeling that they are a married couple now. 16:20 one of the ""nurses" Agi or Melinda sent me some energy but before that made me to think of the new rules. Strict rules should be created in order to avoid such disgusting battles . It is futile effort and I am not interested in it. I would run away if I could to have peace. They should have realized that they are not useful, needed. If someone is a patient he needs peace and care. 17 march 2011 - !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday some strange thing happened. I felt really weak and bad as the day bef ore. I had to lye down on my bed. It was only about 18 o'clock. Before I fell asleep I felt something strange: I felt there is a greater reality and this is just an illusion. I quickly fell asleep and I started to have some vegatable dreams. I suddenly wo ke up and some saliva went into my nose as if I were about to vomit. I felt scared a l ot. I felt hell and sin. I was reassured in Hungarian language that my sins had just been forgiven and I should thank for God. I felt renewed energy flowing into my body and I was not sleepy. I really looked bad and very scared because never something had happened before it. I jotted down the exact time of this event. it was 7 : 23 pm. Before I got alsee p I felt like I would die, I was so weak and listless. I had to went out to the bathroom because my mouth and nose was full of saliva. My eays were a bit bloodshot. I almost stifled because of the saliva. Something went out of my body. I checked after this what felt different. The only difference I could feel was a more lighter chest and almost free energy flow. Certainly my energy was sucked away by this sin or entity inside of me. It could have been an entity. I asked myself: am I healthy now? Do I have bowel moevements? Unfortunately I did not feel I had been cured physic ally. Even now, I do not feel healthy. I am just hopeful that my energy level would be higher and I could accept health . Definitely I need to try out Dr. E. Pearl's session. I am not sure if this was the miracle I had been waiting for or something else. The horoscope was right. March brought the last eclipse and it gave me something. I went to bed early and I expected a very good peaceful sleep. Unfortunately I w as wrong. My first dream was an alpha dream, a very strong. It was a nice creative video t ogether with Kalman Peter. We were sitting opposite to each other and he was talking and showing some video on a computer screen. He made an honest confession. He wanted me to persuade to accept my situation and act accordingly. I did not s ee the point of the dream. Then I had some short visual dream inwhich a man watched his own penis in a mirr or. They missed the point. It is a waste of time. They probably do not see the problem. So I just ignored t hem. This made them upset and they started to attack me (Silva method). Since my aura was stronger I could receive message consciously. messages and vis ual dreams. All in Hungarian language. They wanted me to marry Agi (former school mate from elememtary school). And those messages carried some anger and agression. I just got surprised and a bit scared because I was bombarded by dreams, messages. After a while I asked for help. I got upset and asked for some help. DrO said no t to be upset. THen he must have programmed me to know the person's name who sends the message. And I was surprised because I rece ived messages from several people: Gajdos <woman's name>, Dani Andras. What I was surprised by was the timing. Nothing had happened so wha t made them to do it. I could not sleep at all till 4 am. They bombarded me with messages. I then received dreams on prostitution advertis ement just the same way is it is on beszamolok.hu. ANd he said: Either marriage or prostitutes. He threated very angrily and violen tly. I asked Agi she said it was Dani ANdras.

I was angry and upset frustrated and dispappointed because I wanted to sleep and get a nice sleep. Finally at about two o'clock they stopped. Then Mr Zoli Bartal visited me and he forgave. He came together with his brother Laci and maybe Roland Keszegh. They helped me to relax tried to fix my aura. Sent me some dreams. And they kicked my ass in my dream and felt so good and relived after wicked dream. Only after this I felt that they did not hold grunches any more. We shook hands and I said they were very good guyes and candid. After this I thought I would really get to sleep. Dani Andras thought I needed more punishment. He crossed the line. I can remembe r from the dreams and messages a rifle being pushed to my head they mentioned Dugovics Titusz, a historical person, who was executed for betrey al. Dani Andras really liked Agi and he wanted her the best. I just do not think this is the best way to find a suitable suitor for her. He r eally made me upset because I have my own dignity and do not like to be treated like some dog. I threated him to stop or something is gonna happen to him. I again had to repeat: It is bad karma to hurt someone or even help soemone without his consent. I got so upset that I thr eated them with curse if they would not stop it. I again felt disappointed and felt that there is no morality among these people. They did not show even the slightest respect to my privace, they gossip about me, and they just attack me in such a violent way. The worst thing I felt was that they do not take into account my weakened health and they threat me like a piece of rug. If I had been Agi I would have felt very miserable because what woman is someone who allows such low practices. She must have felt really miserable. And also myself. What do they think of me? I am not married because I feel miserable but becasue I do not want to be married until I got better or rich. I find this to be utterly humiliating. Later I learned from some dreams that this evening was a punishement for my crit ical thoughts about religion and Catholicism. I strictly forbade anyone to send me thoughts and dreams. I said I would not use telepathy to talk to anyone so they should write me an email if they have something to say. I made some exception: two nurs es and professionals can do it nobody else without my consent. I forbade it to Kalman. I also forbade to spy on me, to read my thoughts. I said them how impolite it is to spy on someone, to enter someone's private lif e, and to disturb somebody while he is sleeping. And I expressed that I did not find anything funny it at all. And if t hey could not see the cruelty of their act then they are either mad or just as cruel as they seemed to be. Yesterday I was not feelin g well: I had a mild headache and was constopated. So I asked them politely at first to stop it because I would like to study and I needed to get a good sleep. I can clearly sense from their act a great deal of enviousness and even some mal ignance. Whe have not met each other for about 10 to 15 years and they just cross the bor der of my private life and talk about me in absense without any respect and they make fun of me and ridicule me as if I w ere some rug. Yesteray I clearlty felt it was the last time such thing happened. I strongly co ndemned such practices. I am not somebody to

ridicule and I am not the guy who is for making them some fun. And asked them to stay out of my life and NEVER EVER think of me. At dawn I decided to listen to some music because the best way is to ingnore the m. Then they stopped and I eventually fell asleep. I had some strange dreams in Hun garian language. Forma 1, a little shivering with cold, pizza. They showed me a dream and a message : ne ljj vissza. At first I thought they fea r me but it was my mother who they fear a lot. I would advice them not to mess up with my mother. I had a dream with DrO. I was in his office and I was about to ask them some que stions when somebody disturbed us and I was in the garden. Then I realised why he did it. He did not want me to ask ques tions. He let me know that I should not ask any question regarding the astral life. I f eel, however , that I should clarify some things. After all this felt compassion and sorry for Agi. She helps me and I am quite su re she loves me and would not turn my proposal down. So I asked her what was wrong with her? Asked why was she still in this country. Was she ill? So she started to help me with the relaxation and we could made ourselves made u nderstood. It turned out that she works in England/Ireland in a Wilkinson store as a cashie r woman. She said when she gets gome she lies down in his bedroom at 16:30 (Uk time) and goes to alpha. It was 8 o'clock when she said "time pressure". There was only 7.00 am in the UK so it makes sense that she is with me even at 8 am in the morning. After 8 o'clock I went back to bad. I had a sesion with Dermisek and his wife. They are still in the States. They helped me to balance my aura and we tried to make some conversations> Dermisek emphasized that they are married. Later on I realiz ed that I am not rival to take his wife or girfriend. She works as a cashier in a boutique with e xpensive wines. Dermo said he counted vegetables. I wished them a blissful life together and I m yself was happy to hear the good news. I also thought that there was the highes time to settle down for Dermo. 14:00 I felt tired after lunch the same way as yesterday. Dermisek's wife also offered me Agica to merry. She or someone else said she wa s virgin. I asid I did not want to know about. It is her private matter. 19:10 !!!! I have just remembered that a slovak woman called me yesterday befor e the miracle happened. She told me to "objednate sa " po neviem com. I needed the phone number she said it is on the web site. I had a feeling that there were many phone numbers on the web site.

This was the strangest memory in my life. I felt it happened. I even che cked my phone number. Nobody called me. It can be that what happened yesterday was not done by Dro at all !!!!! I clearly remeber the voice was a woman's voice but she talked in Hunga rian ?!!! I thought it was Ms Isabella. What was done to me yesterday was an extremely professional and magical thing. I had never experienced anthing like that before. Today while I was sitting on my chair I felt that energy I had felt on t he day when I visited Ms Isabela. I felt it on the right side of my adbdomen for one second. - Decsi recommended me to give a wide broath to Bratislava because it is the wrong way. Was he only joking or he had some information? - I have a feeling that I would not find DrO there tomorrow. - Today I remembered the strange event of phoning me which seemed absolu tely true but was not. I cannot remember many thing from yesterday. I cannot remember my drea ms I had before the miraculous event. 18 March I started with meditation. In my dream Mr. Ricsi appeared. He came to visit me i n the hospital. I met him in the passageway. Then I woke up. I knew he wanted to tell me something so I said I would meditate and listen to him. I reassured him that I was not angry at all and I am willing to listen. After an hour of aura work I started receiving the first pictures in my consciou s dream. I describe the message briefly : He was sent by Mr. Hortai. They wanted to let m e know that there is a real nurse in Innsbruck who has a little baby but no husband (I do not know why). She can cook well. It took us till midnight to get together the message. He wanted to let me know her e-mail address too. But somehow the a-mail address appeared as something@dildo.de. I also became violent becasue while he was trying to show me the e-mail address I was in the same room (old flat smallest room) with my own mother in the same bed. And I stabbed her into her leg and said you are selfish . When I started the mediation after I got into bed I noticed that I was sent some pictures of sado mazo. I was suspicious of Mr. Dani Andras. He is a wicked man. He has hurt me many tim es, never appologized and still keeps behaving like a child. He is a shame. Then I fell asleep and I noticed that I had a session with Erzsike. I praised he r and flattered her. I was sent a dream. They wanted me to realize how noxious is the place where I l ive sleep still under one roof with my parents. It is treat to my health and they are right about it. This dream was sent by Mr Antal Molnar. I said I have other concerns and they ar e future related. But I was kind. Then I had a dream with Erzsike. I was on the bed again with my own mother in th e old flat. Erzsike told that I would be moved to a flat of my own or somethign like that. So she just told that I would not sleep

together with my mother. My mother was really there. In the morning when I went into the kitchen my mother greeted my with "Attil" ve ry stiffly and sadly. So she really was present in the dream. I have just returned from toilet and I o verheared my mother sobbing for a few seconds. She is seriously ill. This just cannot be normal what she believes the way she s tubbornly holds his sons to her and does not want them to be free. Then I woke up after the dream. I said I know I would move house. I just do not know where to move. Some extra money would be welcome. Today I am visiting DrO and I hope he can tel l me somw good news. But I doubt that. Dr Popovics 14:00 visited Dro His first question was How I had been. I replied fine. he pretended that he could hardly remember me. While I was waiting for him outside he sent me a message "nech sa paci". He was kind. He asked for relatonship. I replied NOPE. He said still there was negative i nfluence. Findings: negativne ziarenie stredne silne na profesiu, vztahy, travenie I asked some questions: * Dr. Eric Pearl - nepozna ho, ale urcite nie je na skodu * can we change the future? - Sure. Even those events earlier seen by a prec og cleared everything, however he needs to make sure the curse would not be pas sed to offsprings (children) - he would not recommend the surgery. We agreed on an appointment in August . I gave him to beer he was pleased he like beer he said. 19:37 I felt I was being watched and suggested something. It was somebody fr om middle school. 19 03 2011 - meditation (a few days ago I started Silva method) I felt somebody on my left hand side and I thought I was Tya (szex tunder). It was DrO. He is a very kind and lovely man. He pretended for a while being Tya. When I reached alpha I saw a black BMW car for a few seconds. It was DrO's c ar. I congratulated to his car. He deserves it. I fought back. I showed Tya to h im. He helped to balance my aura. I got sweat and then he said I can sleep. I tu rned in. I am not sure about this but DrO let me know my talents: photography, politi cs, programming

Then I woke up and I was offered a Reconnective healing session. I refused p olitely. I was tired and did not feel like doing it. SO I was sleeping. When I woke up the next dream wad with Erzsike taling abo ut Reconnective healing in front of an audience (lng HU). I was sleeping on the lastr chair. I only heard some sentences. It was real on astral level. I can also remember a ,an talking to me kindly trying to persuade me to accept reconnective healing. He said in HU Lng: hasonlo, mint a csaladallita s, egy leszel az erovel. So te bottom line was this: Erzsike talked about it and the audience were given fine tuning including me . I also was warned not to use it on others till the time I get the certificat e. and they called colleague astral Ing. Radovan T. - I told him he is a friend Eldest sister of Erzsike (full of love and kindess) IN the afternoon I fell asleep again. I had to lye down I was so tired. I had similar dreams with my parents. I was agressive in the dream. It is gr im and I am concerned. The subconscious mind is still working on it, thus I'm very exhausted. Today in the morning Lady Hedi helped me to have stool. I asked myself: Does she work? Because she sleep a lot. She responded: szivvel lellekkel dolgozom. She does not have to go out to wo rk any more. She is a very kind woman. Thank's a lot. Unfortunately DrO separated my Astral body from my physical. I had a feeling that when I am very tired I do astral travels. I do not fanc y this. I was doing astral travels close to the morning with lady Hedi. I got up today at 6:30 am and I can remember the following happened close be fore I opened my eyses. I had the feeling that I was sitting behind lady Hedy and we were cycling on the road on the main square of Nove Zamky. I did not see lady Hedi, I only saw a woman behind us. She was saying: megol om ha eljon! Then lady Hedi: Ancsi ! very angrily. I woke up. I got the feeling that she has something to do with the previous events when they wanted me to swear on the bible. 20 3 2011 I woke up before my first dream. It was half to midnight. I must have been w itty because the nurses hardly could discipline me. They said: Szofogado leszek or szomething. I was flying in the garden. Nurse Anna was also there and said: I will bite you. She is worried. I wanted to speak to me but probably not in real life. I think, one day we c ould speak when I would be healthy.

I said I have never been happier than the day when I handled her my gift. I said we were supposed to get married because that was a very strong karma. I blame my mother but I am slo responsible for this. She could see all my suffering. She must be very strong but feels sad and un happy about me. They sent me a dream. They showed me again in a room togerher with my mother and brother. We were sleeping. I started packing my things and left the room. Ms Sabikova really wants me to feel better and get married bacause she feels sorry for me. She said she helped me. She is an angel. I said I had lost the meaning of li fe because she was my meaning of life. I promised her to fix it somehow and definitely leave this place. I have bee n careless about myself because I did not see the purpose of my life. And I still do not know what it is. In my next dream I was in an IT office. Everybody was neatly dressed. I had some team of people. We expected Sir Bill Gates to arrive the next day. The bottom line is this: I should give up my hopes in I T becasue there is not much success for me and I should find something else to make for a living. SO I found myself in the company of some Hungarian young guyes. They mention ed Szolnok. They said all the nurses left me expect Maria from the old flat. I am sorry for her. One decision of my mother has ruined some people's lifes including her's and made some people suffer and brought sorrow. She is responsible for a lot of suffering includi ng her own suffering. All could have been different and I do not think I am a better man than in 2 006. I am doing the damn way of karma insted of dharma. I had been doing the dharma work before I visited the kind Ms Isabella. After my visit of Ms Isabella everything has collapsed and nothing has worked out for me at all. former school mate from Kisujfalu - he had serious flu. I said : betegeskede m I had a dream in which I was at school and we were writing some exam when Ka lman appeared next to me and he said I visited him and I should not have. I could not remember when I had visited him. I said it must have been a dream. I am worried what if I would annoy some people. I do not want to be an annoy ance. In August I am going to end with DrO defnitely. Yesterday he split my astral body from physical body. I cannot remember him asking me. He just did it. Tonight I had a huge number of dreams. I do not not want to dream with all sort of people while I am sleeping. I as ked him to do it back. I had to have an afternoon nap. I got up at 15:22. My dreams were quite ok.

I complained that Erzsike did not let me die. I am sorry to have complained but I am rather tired and unhappy.

21 3 2011 - Yesterday I woke up half to midnight. I was receiving energy from a nekibernetics. Later I learned that she was an elderly woman. Unfortunately Decsi Attila was ri ght. She said it was a serious mistake to send me to him. I had read in a web forum t hat DrO was disqualified from noetis.cz It was in 2009 if I remeber ir correctly. I had been feeling real ly weak and I found my state to be very grave. Yesterday I was receiving energy for maybe an hour or so. I ha d been low on energy for a few days and it was so severe that after lunch I almost fall into koma or deep sleep. I had from the very beginning a feeling that he did a minimum to me at a very sl ow pace. After the accident he still was disprespectful to me and very demanding. He has changed but I am still not sure he wants me to be happy. I am sorry to say but I have lost more than a year and there is no improvement at all. The evidence is the woman who wanted me to make an appointment with her. She hel ped me realy. I cannot remember my dream fully but I can remember a peace of paper with some n otes to help me remember things. - they have never heard of his technique or what - mam sa objednat ked to bude bezpecne. what does it mean? She then said to stop talking because Bartal Zoli approached me. The showed me dream in which I was a wounded soldier and they carried me, saved me. My last dream was in Hungarian: A woman said : te tetted tonkre a not. I am wor ried. I definitely cannot trust Ms Isabella or her friends any more. It was enough. I had enough suffering. I admit I had to suffer. But I believe my destiny was di fferent. I was to marry nurse Anna and I am sure we could be very very happy together. She however manipulaed my de stiny together with my mother. Ms Isabella had the audacity to ask me why I did not love my mother. I was very surprised. I thought she knew what my mother was. The only thing I can say is that since I visited Ms Isabela I suffered and have been unhappy. I had dreams among many former school mates: Kalman, Sztarovics. I had two dreams with Sztarovics. In one dream he showed me a joke written in a Hungarian newspaper. Of course, he made it up. It was not very good. I had a dream in which a lonely man was showed in a large house. There was a roo m with many many radiators. It was of course deliberat to show me that in my new flat I would heat enough so as not to shiver with cold.

big rabbit dream 22 3 2011 - first dream with Barsi. I could not even remember. I thanked for his dream. I slept well. Then I started thinking. I remembered a strong thought I had when I was sitting in front of DrO. The thought was "Bohapust lo !". I kept repeating this in me and I tr ealized that the thought came from somebody else. The so called "miracle" two day before I meating came f rom a woman who wanted me to visit her. It was not DrO. He absolutely does not want to heal me. At least he would not hurt me after all this. I made a mistake. Decsi A. was abs olutely right. I should have refused his further help. Now I have an appointment with him in Au gust. I promised I would finish this with him because he is not the man who would heal me. I must move somewhere else and cancel our appointment. Then I should visit anyon e from noetis.cz I should arrange a session with somebody from Noetis in May or June. Alpha dream Antal - verem Antal sent me an aplha dream in which I was lying in my bed but the bed was on t op of a Dermisek's wife went into my body and said she was my mother. I believed because I had never experienced anything like that before. I asked who was my father. She said God. She married to God. I laughed. Later it turned out she really was Dermisek's wife. I have never experienced such an angel at such high level. 23 3 2011 Yesterday I was again very tired. Btw. I am very pale and I look really really i ll. It is my aura. Yesterday at 20:17 Raj Tibor called me and I did not pick up the phone. At 10 pm I had a dream with him. He mentioned some angel. I had the feeling that he has a prosective girlfriend for me. I had such a feeling. I told him I would move to Thailand and never come back. I also told him to send me nurses there. Thailand is heaven. He visited me with his girlfriend / wife. She said he is my ex-friend. I said OK. Do not care. I might call him back but r eally do not know what to do. I got up at 8:00 am in the morning. At about 7.00 am I started meditation to alp ha. In fact I had been taken into alpha before and I had great music. I am not sure who did it to me. Then I decided to deliberatly go to alpha without a guided meditation (no record ing).

Before I got up I was sleeping but then suddenly came to a realization that some body uses Agykontroll. I was not allowe to say it !!! I then said you uses Silva method. I could say it alaud. It was very very strange. I saw more than 60 small rectangles and I had the feel ing that I had been asked to choose a rectangle. Each rectangle holded a secret meaning or value which could had been programmed into subconsious mind. I was really surprised and I got suscpisious that maybe I was not helped by the Dermisek couple. 24 3 2011 I had some dreams I cannot remember. It turned out they were from nurse Anna?!!. I am not sure. I praised the dreamer because I loved it. I felt very well. The dream was differ ent. I sensed it was by a woman. And I felt very well. She was a bit upset because I though of her yesterday. I just felt some love ins ide me and later I realised it could be her. I am sorry. I joked a lot because I want her to be s miley and a bit happy. I joked I would create some hernia so that I could see her again. I said I survi ved because of her. I flattered her a lot and I hoped she liked it. I would like to talk to her when I would be a sesoned brain controller. I asked why I cannot be Anna's friend? Why I cannot think of her as a very good friend? Why we cannot talk to each other sometimes? She still keeps visiting me and I guess also spies on me a bit. I do not mind, I just do not want her to be angry. I joked, I wished I could see her being angry. have never see her angry. I said I think I would find her sexy. I know she is a woman a mother a wife. I respect her wish and I always would. I said I was going to leave Europe. After I woke up I got energy from Dr. E. Pearl. Unfortunately I was so sleepy th at I could not concentrate. Agi still wants to marry me. I think she understood it; I would not marry her. I do not need a marriage. I could marry anyone. There are a lot of matrimonial prostitutes in Thailand who seek for a fo reign husband. It is not about marriage. I want to find my soul mate and be happy. Marriage cannot guarantee this to you so I do not see why many women dream of marriage. I do not dream of marriage at all. I do not want to be alone. I need m y soul mate and I want to be happy. Later children too. It is far cry from what Agi wants. She wants to get married. Probably not even s ex. Well, good luck for her. Love is not enough to marry someone. I can love many people, children, animals b ut I do not need to marry them. I said also to them. I do not mind if a woman tells what she wants. It is fine t o me if a woman says she wants to have some good sex. Not just marriage. A married couple should be equal and the woman shou ld not be embarrassed to initiate a love making. Agi sent me dreams. She started with English language. She was in a Radio show a s a guest and talked English nicely. She mentioned some books or what. We laughed a lot. She is a good mate to laugh and feel fine. I could not remember the first part of the dream. So I asked Agi to send the dre

am again. So she did. She showed me that I had sex with 3 woman and I did not have energy to have sex with the fourth woman so I jerked off to her. Then I saw water in my dream. I was bathing and the water was dirty. Regarding h er and probably also the kind nurse I have dirty thoughts. I know, I am not an angel. I have seen some problems in me. I wish I could be be tter without suffering but it is very hard. A relationshop would test me and I could learn a lot. I ask God to help me find my soul mate who I have been seeking all my life. Then I asked her kindly to let me say how I see myself. Because it was her persp ective. I said I like to help others but I am not Bill Gates, not even employed, married or healthy. We help the way we can. I found this way. I support financially an emotially you ng women. SOme of the are orphans who have never met their parents and were grown up in an orphanage. When they reached 18 they had to leave the orphanage but without much money or further support. Some of them h ave high ambitions and wish to get a higher education. They need money and they chose this quick way of getting the money. I do not jud ge them and I wish they would find a better way to earn money but there is no other way. I am at least very polite and bring them g ifts and never do things they do not want. I make them smile, love them, fondle them and always greatful for their service. This way I bring some cheer into their life and they get the money for a very easy service as I am not someone who makes them work ha rd. I do not see anything bad about it. Yes, I am miserable because I could not marry anyone and I do not even have a gi rlfriend. This is it. I have to put up with it. I do not have any reason to feel sorry for myself. We all must succeed in some w ay and find some happiness in life. I am glad I am not that ill and I hope I would never be more ill than this. I am not sure but Agi does not like nurse Ann because I had the thought "sarkany ". Well, she has a big ego, I saw it on family constellation. But I was happy damn. It is fine to quarrel sometimes and then ha ve some good sex or laugh. A mariage should not be dull an boring and just perfect. I felt happy and I have never felt more happier than that day when I gave a gift to nurse Anna. I do not let anyone to destroy my illusion about nurse Anna. I like my illusion about her and I want to remember her as I met her. I respect her a lot and I find her very elegant and moral and pretty. God bless her and help me forget her. In the morning I again started a guided mediation into alpha. In the end I heard this: Wished me good luck for me new pofession (lng Hungarian ).

25 3 2011 first strong dream: old flat; some lamps. Then in the street (could not recogniz e where). I felt some wickedness from me in the dream. When I woke up I asked the person not to send me dreams. I also asked who he was . I was suspicious of DrO. It turned out after another dream that it was Kalo. I wonder why he does it.

I had a strange dream: elementary school's backyard. I ran across the backyard. I met a gipsy. I kept running. I run rushed into the building. Then I found myself in a classroom. A teacher wa s there. He asked : so it is London. I replied : No, I feel it is Roma!! It was in Hungarian. They anticipate a miracle because everyone is talking about it ! And the want it to be in Roma! Because it sound just great. They expect it to be a catholics miracle. Because the are catholics. They would like to talk about after it and feel good that they sent me to Roma because the told me so. I got upset again. Why? Because I asked numerous times DO not you ever tell me what to do !!!! They just do it. Did it again. I started to criticize them. Then I appologized because they threated me with a dream that they would toss me into an abyss. How wicked they are. I criticized their behaviour, I cannot escape them, they ca n go whenever they think so. But they became reactive and threated me with a punishemnt. What the fuck do the y think who they are? I hate such ego battles. I hate being told or suggested what to do . If someone is unable to send me an e-mail then he just cannot be my friend. That is there is to it. I said I fear catholics people because they tend to punish others and awfully ju dge everyone. ANd they believe they have the right to do it, to correct others. The problem wi th such people is that they should clear up a bit in their own backyard. I mentioned pedofile preasts and the curre nt pope who thinks the usage of condoms in Africa is a sinful act. Probably they did not like it. SO I asked myself what is that I do not like about catholics people: - some of them are pushy. They want to change you. - they have a lot of scandals including holocaust and the dark middle agaes, r eligious wars I said many people have left the church recently because of pedofile scandals in Germany an USA. I also mentioned a preast who I met on the train on my way home. It happened abo ut 10 years ago and I talked nobody about it. I was travelling home by EuroCity train from work. I found a seat in a compartme nt where I could be alone. Soon after a drunk preast entered the compartment and sat down. He was silent fo r a while but then he started a conversation Hungarian language. He asked if I was married. I was 21 or 22 at that time. I s aid not and with a bitter face because I knew I was ill and had some problems with chronical headache too. He probably thought that I was a gay. It turned out that he had visited his fath er in the capital but his father refused his visit. From what he said I could easily come to a conclusion that he was a pedofile and even gay man. I was frozen and disgusted. I felt anger mingled with fear. I did not leave bur now I know I should have lef t the compartment. I do not judge this bloke. He was made to be a gay and pedofile. He must have st ruggle a lot becasue nobody can accept him not even his parents. Nobody is going to cure him. It must be an awfull stuggle with hims elf. It a very bad karma. When started talking about it a woman got upset and said she had two little chil dre. I can understand.

I am sorry of I created some furore. I also said I would not send my children to a church. Becasue I fear catholics people. Who knows. Perhaps nobody believed me. I do not understand these people. I canno t. Then in the morning I satrted soem meditation. I gain fall asleep. But I could c atch some thoughts. And it seems that Agi Forro was with me. She believes me and trusts me. She said I should get marr ied. I do not think so. I said a miracle must happen that I would marry anyone. I am not going to marry anyone unless I am healthy or wealthy enough. I also said that I myself prefer buddhism because they would not hurt a bug. I admitted later that it had been a mistake. I promised it would not happen next time. I must be tolerate. But they could not respect my freedom to choose and they wan ted to influence. I had asked not to do it. I find their advices useless anyone because they know next to nothing. I appoligized. But they showed me their teeth and they seem to be able to bite. I have a firm belief that I should get the hell out her becasue I am fed up with people of this sort. I need something new, someting fresh. And I am confident that it should be Thail and. I love Buddhism and tolerance and peace. 26 3 2011 - Yesterday at about 17 o'clock I lied down because I was tired. I fal l asleep. I had a dream with a former school mate from GDF (high school). I woke up and I realized that even he is helping me among many former school mates. I did not like the idea but well Ok. I cannot even remeber his name. He was the guy with that Metaxa. The metal outfit guy. I thought there are many who help me and he said: sokan. My first dream was about 10pm. It was by Bartal Laci. He said "Nagyon nagy vagyo l". reproach - ringing phone Mark Brouwer sbdy mentioned Farkasne Agi and Melinda (Jockey Youing), Anxious , dream with a naked nurse Nepmesek 27 3 2011 - !!!!!!!!! Yesterday in the morning while I was sitting on the toilet I overheared my paren ts talking about grandfather. Only for a short time. Father mentioned that he could not reisist the desire for alcohol. The day before yesterday I started using Facebook. I added Melinda and Hausleitn er as friends. Yesterday I was looking at ther photos. They had two photos from elementary scho ol. I looked at them and noticed that the director of the school published a lot of historic photos from the life of t he school. I found a lot of very old photos of this town. In the afternoon I got an idea to watch The English patient out of the blue. I d ownloaded the movie and watched it.

I had forgotten what was the movie about exactly. The man heroe of the movie is a Hungarian count Almasy. He is a keen Africa trav eler. Falls in love with a married English woman. They meet each other secretly. In the end of the movie the woman crashes with an airplane in the desert. His husband dies. Almassy gives medical attendance to the woman who had broken h is legs and a few ribs. Almassy leaves the woman in a cave nearby alone with water and food enough for a few days. He goes back to the nearest town to get help. He walks 3 days and nights but eventually reaches the town whe re he meets English soldiers. He is asked for his name and identity. They take him for a nazi as he has a Hung arian name. He becomes a war prisoner and transported elsewhere by train. He manages to escape from the moving train. Find s German soldiers and gives them his maps of the land he had been working on for fuel and an airplane. He flies back to the p lace he had left the woman only to find her dead body. I felt emotional pain when it turned out that he was unjustly inprisoned for his own name. My first dream ended after midnight. I cannot remember the dream. My next dream was strange and it was in the past. I remeber from the dream the old flat. I was in the bathroom. I saw toilet paper , I pissed. After this I woke up. After this I had a lot of sensless thought and I lost myse lf in thinking. My mind kept producing some dialogs and monologs and I completely lost my consciousness. After some months I again felt that I am near to madness. Of course it is the past I just do not know what triggered. I had very pessimist ic thoughts and absolutely meaningless thoughts and dreams. I can remember a dream when I took a pill (Omega 3) and saw that only 1 was lef t. My mother was in fron of me and she said let me help you this is not going to help you. I also heard some music. The helper had a hard ti me to bring me back. I can remember a dream that followed. It was in the place my father worked. I sa w a bubble and another person who was my rival or so. I killed the rival person. I throwed a knife into his body and I felt nothing. F ortunately I did not see his dead body. I did not feel emotions but acted in desper or angrily. I was looking for something or escaping from something. I saw English like build ings and then opened a door. I knocked on it before. It was open so I went in. I found a woman in her 40's behind a computer. I had a feeling that she spoke Slovak first but then she spoke I think it was only my imagination. I had the feeling that I am in virtual reali ty and I am watched and monitored. I knew the woman is not real. I felt her body had been scanned by 3D scanner and she worked there as a monitor person. I asked her to roll over buty she did not. Then somebody came and she went to see in. I saw the building as some hotel. I k new I was being watched. Then I woke up. I can aslo remember in my dream a girl and a (borotva borbelyoknak van). Then I was showed a imafuzer insted of it. It is grim and serious. WHAT IS THE MATTER??? It is the grandfather again! I do not know how but he came back. I still do not

live my own life and it is suffering. gret suffering. Awful. It was not that long ago (a few days) when I was at DrO and he said it is ok and he mentioned the relatives and their negative influence. He said know we must make sure it does not get passed to my offsprings (children ). But the hell it is still at work. It still managed to get back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I said also that the future cannot be changed. If yes, at least I should try to remain sane as long as possible. Because the la ter the collaps will happen the shorter time will last. Next year in March I definitely will be all right and healthy. This m eans I should try to remain sane for at least 6 months. I do not want to suffer for 6 months, therefore I must be more careful. No more movies at all. And I definitely must get the hell out here.

28 3 2011 - my first dream was after midnight. I can remember it was around Lastovicia street. I had 5 minutes to get to the co ach or railway station. I cannot remember else. My next dream was bad. I had a serious short fight with my brother. Then the pic ture was changed and my father gave me a plate of food. He said: vastag belu. I heard it and I woke up. I got upset a bit. I thought it was a man. I said he o r she must leave. I said I have the freedom to choose who I will be with and they have the freedom who they will help to. I said it wa s rude to say that and irrespectful. Somebody said it was a nurse. I falt bad about it. I said it was all right, I di d not mean to hurt her. I know they have a hard job and they must be exhausted with me. I said I was just fed up with all of them. And i t is true. I am really fed up. Sorry. I dream with them for months. I also asked them not to give me dream with my par ents. I am fed up even with them. After 31 years you really get fed up with your parent regardless if they were ok or less ok. Then I had a dream in which I saw 3 women. They were TV hosts and talked Hungari an. They wanted to say something to me to their defense. I cannot remember but I feel sorry for them. They are my true friends. I like them a lot and I promised it would not take long. Till the end of the year I would be up again. I had my next dream. It was in the garden. I saw a dog who I released from capri vity. The dog was happy I started to fondle him then I saw fire under him. Then I saw my father who was burning in fire. He caughed a fire. He was sitting on something but he was not listening at all. I asked to bring water to put out the fire. The fire got quickly stronger. His b ack was burning. I went close to him and touched both of his hands somebody was pouring water on him. I saw smouldering his body but he was not feeling it. Then I asked to call for d octor quickly. I woke up. I was wondering how can somebody be so negative and pessimistic like I. I really do not know. I said I would en up in a hospital as Ms Isabella told me so. In my next dream I was in a hospital with very few patients. Language: HU.

The bottom line: I was the only patient in the hospital. I heard : I am a hypoho nder. I received an e-mail from GDF: Eletveszelyes GDF. What I do is life threatening or my own life is threatened?!! I hope to receive the money soon and get a ticket to the Reconnective Healing se ssion in Hamburg. Then I hope to get to Thailand and be able to sudy and survive. I got another message: vagy abbahagyod vagy megszoksz, elo van irva. I guess I should stop being negative and pessimistic or leave the continent. And I guess Erzsike or somebody wise said that. I can also remember being said this: "hideg vagyol". After soem vague dream. I s aid I could not feel anything. Not even fear. I am like a robot. I truly cannot feel being angry or happy. Fort unately I am able to feel love.

29. 3. 2011 - I started with meditation. I got asleep. When I woke up in the middle of the night I had a clear feeling that I had been sent some dreams to ridicule me (headphones, prostitutes). I chose a strategy not to pay attention to it. I went to toilet. Came back, reci ted a Zen poem (I recently bought a book by Katagiri). I started to do Reconnective Healing. But after some time I received visual mess ages, dreams which were again purposed to ridicule me. They were: I watched my mobile phone and received an SMS message with MILF. I sh ould marry a MILF, prostitues, etc. I just kept receiving them and could not concentrate on the healing which is a p ity because this healing requires full attention. Then somebody went into my body and said in slovak (I think) that all of them ha d erection. This means they were my acquintances and they had been eavesdropping again in the afternoon (I was browsing beszamolok.hu). The woman was right to decide to visit each of them and check their body feeling s. These guys are absolutely ridiculous. They themselves would like to have a good fuck but they either cannot afford or have girlfriend/wifes. I just do not understand why the ridicule me and disturb my privacy, sleep?! I a m again disappointed because I thought they had stopped doing it to me. But not. They are envious and should be ashamed of themselves. I don't know why they despise me so much. Then I fall asleep. I had a dream with Melinda, Angyal Peter and probably with Vadkerti Roland. I am not sure. We were a team and did a competition with another team. Melcsi was looking for rulers in an open water and throwing to me. Then somebody (maybe Sztarovics) counted them. Then I woke up. I was not very useful as I did close to nothing. Then I woke up. I greated them and was glad that after 16 years of not having seen each other they are still my friends. I call Melcsi my true friend and Bart al Gabor too. They have very good heart and they are not envious of me. Thank you and God bless you. I have met in my life a lot of envio us people, especially in middle school. I cannot stand envious people. I find those people disgusting. I had a strange dream in which my mother was in the kitchen of the old flat. SHe was standing and not moving. Then somebody said or suggested that she is receiving some messages from friends. The point of the dream was that my mother gets information from somebody.

Somebody likes her. It is not a bad thing but I find gossipping very disgusting. I can remember another strange dream. I was on a bus. Sitting next to the window . In the seat in front of me was sitting a young man. He said to me in Hungarian: Cserlnk?. I looked round and saw vacant seats so I sai d yep we can. I did not understand what me meant. I woke up. Later I had even stranger dream. It was in the living room of the old flat. Lang uage: Hungarian. I could not see faces and I could not recognize anybody. A man was hugging a wom an and I also went closer with love but then I recognized that he is like me becasue he had the same Reconnective Heling energy.. He sent towards me and it was so strong that I fall down. He even said how strong it was. When I woke up I still could feel the energy so it was not just a dream but it happened and the person is real. The woman shouted when it happened to leave. She wanted him to leave. I have no idea who he was and who the woman was. Btw. yesterday I got an idea. They ridicule me and annoy me. After my death I co uld easily revenge them all this and I even said it to them yesterday after the shit dreams. I warned them again to stop sending me dreams a nd suggestions: I absolutely do not know what people are they that they disturb me. It is all right if they dislike me. I could not care less. But I cannot tolerate when they disturb me on a regular basis. DEfinitely I will give a job to DIP Palcso. She should give me a protecting prog ramming against their rubbis dreams,. After this I had very vague dreams. I cannot remember them. My last dream was on an airport. I saw ryanair airplanes and I saw white sand an d a dog. I had the feeling that I must have hurt someone because they sent me to Thailand . They would not miss me. I have no idea what I said in my dream that made them to send me this dream . I also heard this: seggfej , istentelen.

30 3 2011 first dream. valami fut verseny. Agi volt ott , meg Bartal Laci next dream: I woke up and I remembered this: SzvetlanaHu.sk I laughed but I saw that Zoli is not laughing and I realized that I had beeen se nt again disturbing suggestions by some folks. I got upset a bit but then I said I could forgive bu t I warned that I want peace! massive programming and tasting (checking) the traumas. I was very aware of it almost fully. I had a strong alpha dream: I flied and said in Hunagrian: oda utazok, ahol megt alom a gyogyulasom. Then I saw a woman who greated me and said: elarulok neked egy titk ot. Then I woke up. (dance,..) 31 3 2011 - I cannot remember everything as I am writing these lines at 2 pm. I think I woke up at 22:00 but cannot remember why. After midnight I started relaxation, meditation. I received a thought: Aggdom. I guess it was by lady Hdi. She is right. So do I. My subconscious thoughts are rather filthy and sometimes they are leaking into t

he conscious level. I can remember a dream in which I threated my own brother: I did not touch him. I am not sure if he was real or just my imagiantion. It was a bit violent but did not hurt him. I do not know why I lost temper. I can also remeber a dream in which I saw my brother from 1m as he was having se x with a pretty dark curly haired woman. It was a bit violent, not gently the woman moaned once. Then we co uld see his dick as he pulled out. I got scared after this dream. I can also remember a dream in which I was sleeping in a bed when I saw a young boy or men who was doing something around my bed. I woke up then. My next dream was in the living r oom of the old flat. I saw children and their parents. They were standing close to the wall. I saw pa intings next to each other. I got the sense that the family is the Bolgar family. I also can remember a bed for three people. I asked: Sexelni fogtok. Mert akkor elmegyek hotelba. Then they gaved me money (some Hungarian coins). I woke up. I thought again that they were the Bolgar family. I also received a dream like message: I saw a newspaper and I had a sentence: dvzl titeket a nstny rdg. I can clearly remember Csibi. We were at a school. He had a textbook on his desk and it had a Chinese writing on it. I am sure he deliberatly dreamed with me. I saw some young women around h im too. Unfrotunately I got the sense that somebody was dreaming with me. I d I I d also can clearly remember a dream in which I saw a woman about 40 years old an I said she is too old. also remember browsing beszamolok.hu in my dream. think, this dream was sent to me by Dani Andras or somebody who should not sen me dreams.

My last dream was with a woman. She said : az Internet ma nem mukodik. I got ups et a bit then I said: ok, ugy sincsen fontosabb dolgom. I think it was by lady Hedi. They are aprehens ive about me and so am I. I definitely must be more careful and I hope to survive till my appointment with Ms. Palcso in Bratislava who is a member of Noetis. 01 April 2011 The dream I had was in English. I had to fill in some paper form and I remember there was somebody next to me. I had to fill in some locations and indicate them. And some accommodation. I thi nk this was my dream assisted with others. I got up at about midnight. My mother was snoring very laudly so I could not meditate and I was a bit nervou s and upset. I am fed up. SO simple. I am fed up with the way I live and my old school mates and teachers who

cannot respect my privacy. I was complaining a bit and I was right about it. I criticised Dr. E Pearl's ene rgy. I said it is very weak and it is not an energy. I have to be pragmatic and find a solution to my problem. I need to heal my body so that I could work or study more effectively. I give to the Reconnective Healing a try but I am very doubtful. It requires a total concentration and relaxation. I had several sessions and nothing has improved at all. I said it is ineffective to make my large intestine move because I need to contr ol the energy myself which is ridiculous. I spend hours to reach some success every night. Sorry this is not the solution then. It is meant for healing and not for giving energy to the inner organs. Either I would need some new energy or underg o the surgery. I found meditation to very useful and I am going to contionue with practicing relaxation and Silva method. Unfortunatelt the semianr is very expensive (around 1000Eur) but why not to give it a try. Maybe a miracle would happen but I do not believe in these things. I believe in action reaction. If I do somethin g the universe responds to it. Nothing is free unfortunately. I received this message after relaxation: smutna There is a woman who helps me but she is Slovak probably. I said Lady Hedi is wo rried she is sad and I am fed up. Just great. I had a critical dream : the bottom line is that regarding the dream sender I wo uld like to solve my financial problems by marrying a richer woman. I clealt can remeber the "financial problems" from t he dream. First of: he or she is spying on me because he knows about my financial problems . I found this utterly disgusting Second.: he had the audacity to even criticise me and reveal me that he had been spying on me. He made me very upset. I shouted at him to never ever think of me. I despised him and offensed him with adjectives like: asshole, fucking asshole, disrespectful. Next dream: I had a dream in which I was showed the old pc monitor and I saw on it some xxx pictures. I think I was searching for soem tart on a web portal too. The sender of the dream deliberately wanted me to know abou t it because he switched the photo on screen upside down so that I raised my attention. I tried to remove the picture frm the screen beca use I got embarressed. When I got up I went into rage. I had known about this little addiction of mine and I knew the person just wanted to point out to my weak side. I bitched out him because I felt offended. I had stated and asked eve ryone not to send me opinion or anything else. I said he was doing it anonymously and he is a shy asshole. I said if he told me an opinion in person I would kick his ass. Later I received soem dream in which it was : Gabor. All right. whichj one? I gu ess Bartal Gabor. He was present when Mr. Hortai sent me his dream in which he congratulated on my marriage. I said Bartal is an asshole and I said nobody from middle school could contact me or read my mind. They are envy and have little love. They arre just annoying and do not want to see it. I sent him to hell.

At the crack of dawn I had an interesting dream. I was explaining why I need ene rgy. WHy my large intestine needs energy. WHen I gained consciousness I was in the living room of the old flat and my brot her was listining to me with widely opened eyes. He was speachless and looked like someone who had seen a strange man . I recogni zed this face and I hate it. He thinks I am a fool and he had no idea what I was talking about. I said : tunj regelizni with a slight emba rressment because I did not want to talk to him. Either it was an accident and I thought of him but it is more likely that someon e deliberately made it. I do not know why some people play with others like a cat with mice. I find such people disgusting and I would kick thei r asses. Then I had a dream with dogs. It was in an open space. I was up and down was wat er. Some man was in the water with dogs. Language Hu. The dogs were german shepherds. 13:32 phone call from a mobile phone. I did not answer. Owner of the phone is a middle aged man from Bratislava. I think it was Csibi. The last dream was even stranger. I was in the kitchen of the old flat. I was ex plaining to a man that the laxative works very slowly because the intestine got diletated. Then he said: Akkor hagy terelgessem neked az energiakat. He got behind me and he touched my next and my anus. I felt energy then I woke u p. I objected that I did not consent. I said nothing. 02 April !!!!!!!!!!! A got up half to midnight. I had again some critical dream, at least I felt so. I deliberatly ignored so I could not remember the dream at all. I went to toilet and I repeated in myself : add meg m agad add meg magad, latom ahogy elhagy erod, felsz, en uralom a helyzetet. I read this in a book. It is about defence against psychic a ttack. Then I got asleep. I had some dreams I could not remember. I woke up at 2 o'cloc k. I went to toilet. And I started doing some meditation. Some Slovak and Hunagaria n speaking woman help me. They are probably older than 30. One or two showed me their faces. They are new. I do not know why they help me and who asked them to help me. I respect them a lot and I promised I never forget those who helped me. They are angels, helping the meek and creating a very good karma. God bless them. The SLovak woman is called Henriatta I think. I received again some dreams with sexual content all in Hungarian language: a wo man masturbating and a thought "szeretem". I can also clearly remember browsing again web pages with tarts. I got upset and annoyed. I woke up and I just wonder who the hell is playing this ridiculous childis game with me. I despised him. I said things: it is ridiculous, he is shameful, I bet he had no girlfriend, he could be a gay, odpad, zberba. I threted him with bad karma. I said it is a very bad karma because he is annoying me despite my strong object ion. Moreover I am ill so hurting an ill man is worse karma (I think). I said I would get his indetify and he would be punished by someone or just by k arma.

I had a clear 100% genuine message (with voice). A slightly fearful young man sa id this: Amit Angyal Pter s Ksa Laci csinlt, nem kellett volna. I cannot remember what else h e said. My helpers must have started investigation. Probably they did not know about it. I said I forgave him but I should not receive any dreams or messages from them. I was really serious. I asked him to tell this to others. After this I fell asleep and I was relived that I ended a long lasting attack pe riod. In my dream I sat in the kitchen of the old flat and suddenly I saw a tall big b lack man. Interestingly I got the idea that he is some ambassador from Africa. A young wom an was with me. She stood up and shaked hands with him. Then I stood up and shaked hands with hi m. I then woke up. At first I thought he is some new helper. Nope!! He is one of them and he wanted to scare me!! He imagined that he was evil. He w as conscious becasue he changed his body into black. To threat someone with evil is a very wicked thing. I cannot remember hurting hi m. I also had a dream in which I was wrestling with him on the floor. I took it as a game. I was not scare. I do not get scared easily. Not any more after all I went through. Then I had a dream with Melinda. I was holding in my hand my digital camera. Mel inda was about 2 metres from me. Somebody was taking a photo of her with a big lense camera. It was quite big, ab out 30 cm diameter. She was looking at me. I wanted to take a picture of her but then I recognized t hat someone else is taking a picture of her and so I did not want to disturb her. I switched off my camera. I also had a dream with Magdolna. She described what had happened to her. She had been to an airport. A man told her she had lost a 8Eur baknote she took it and went on. What if I was that man and joked her? I do not know. I applologized everyone if I had offended them. I can also remeber a class, I was sitting There was a bin next and pushed the chair He then said why did r others?? Strange? dream with my former school mate from middle school. First next to him. to me. There was dirty toilet paper in it. He took a chair next to the bin. you sit next to shit.?? Either he meant me to be shit??!! O

I had lot more dreams I just cannot remember all of them. I woke up a bit tired. Conclusion: - I can remember appearing ANgyal Peter in my dream months ago when I was having a dream with Dr O. Pity I did not pay attention to it. I thought it was just my imagination. It was not. Bad things happen while I am sleeping. W icked people influence me want to discredit me, damage my reputation. In that dream we were speaking with somebody when he just appeared and started to talk in a filthy dirty language. I said him to go away and respect my friends. This was months ago (january or feb) and I did not pay atten tion to it. It was strange however.

- I am just dumbfounded by the amount of hatred and ENVY they have towards me. A nd it is conscious probably. - They are wicked truly. - The dream I had in which my brother violently had sex with a woman was probabl y real. He really did it. I had thought of it why he is not married yet and I thought of the same proble m I have. He does not deserves it at all. After this dream I became even more disappointed. - All these people want is to DISCREDIT me and made me seen in a negative light. They HATE ! me to the bottom of their heart!!! - The situation is serious. I received a life threat yesterday. He said: meghals z. We even wrestled on the floor. I got up and I realized how serious the situation was. In my dream I thought o f it as an innocent play. That was my luck as I did not fear. So I could not be beaten. I am strong and in a good moode. I heard by my helpers. "Hogy hagynnk tged egyedl. Meglhetnek." - I have the feeling that I offended some people, hurt them in their feelings. I had a dream or message: About the bible. I said it has only three useful tho ughts or so. Somebody must have resented. - I must stop provoking and be more careful. Egos are dangerous. I did not know how serious the situation is. - A lot of people made me disappointed. I do not see any reason to stay in this country. It is full of filthy people. Everyone who gets the chance escapes the country, no wonder. - there are some new women helpers . Some of them are SLovak. They installed me an energy surce that can be focused by my attention. I had this had before. They are professionals and might be neokybernetics. - I remember having a dream a few days ago: "dvzl benneteket a nstnyrdg". I am quite re it was sent by one of them. It made me worrid. Now it turned out that they want to dirty me. It is simple not my thought. They are infected with evil I am sure. I had never imagined such an evil behaviour and hatred. - I am disappointed also with my former helpers namely Hausleitner , Melinda, Ba rtal brothers. WHy? Becasue they let filthy people to aproach me. Becasue they could not stop them. Hausleitner probably lied to me about her marr iage. She IS married regarding her facebook. There are photos of her own marriage on her web page. The ceremony was last year in October. Why doe s someone joke about these things? She wanted to fool me? Was it Mr. Hortai's idea? Why Dani Andras threated me with a rifle to marry her? Has she got divorced? I cannot understand these people. THere are a few things in life with do not jok e with. Marriage is one of them. - I have a slight feeling that I have a soul mate young woman (could be a former school mate) who began to appear in my dreams. In the kitchen with the african man I saw strongly that the woman belongs to me or is with me. I could not see into her face. She had longer hairs. - Moreover I think I should not think of Melinda as someone else likes her also and is rival to me? Maybe her husband? I do not know. - I got an indea. WHat if the thought "megverem" was not my own thought? What if Angyal did it to me? as a joke? It is pretty likely that last year in October I had a couble of people around me and well there is a slight chance of that. In that case it is an awful misfoortune. 03 April 2011 Very busy night. I am rather tired. I had some suggestive dreams but cannot remember the details: gyerekem legyen. T hey encourage me to get married as if it had

magical healing power. Anyway, let us be realistic. Usually it takes a year till marriage from the first meeting. At least I would not marry anyone without cohabitation. DrO A Slovak man was talking to me and I saw in a different room DrO. He did it corr ectly because I had said I'd rather do not want to see him any more. The Slovak man said he had been following me and I am doing fine. I have a chanc e to have a good life. Those sun of a bitches asked him to reassure me everything is all right. It is a lie. There are some people who disagree with him. Mr. Hortai dream in which I bought some cebab or what at a buffet. Also I eat chicken wings . I have just finished my lunch and I had broiled chicken wings. Mr Hortai used suggestion to make me say he is good. What an asshole he is. He s hould not have contacted me and I strictly asked him to stay out of my life. * Bottom line - Mr. Hortai again thought that he would interfere with my life. He violated our agreement. - Mr sztarovics and Kaderabek again felt that they need to repeat they idea. I a m heading to the cementery. They again violated my wish. I had clealy stated that I am not interested in a nyone's opinion. - I had two dreams with Toth Roland. He violated my wish. I had stated that I do not want to see anyone in my dream from my middle school ex-class mates. I redused his help. In the second dream he said: 50 evesen fogsz megnslni jokingly 04 04 2011 I first woke up before midday. I cannot remember anything. My next dream was with a couple of former school mates. I cannot remember them. All I can remember is that I saw a woman and I knew that I am the only new here so I should introduce myself. I did and she responded: En xx anyukaja vagyok. It is strange. Somebody took me to them to spend some time with them. My next dream was short. The following happened before I woke up. I was sitting on a chair when a man sat next to me on a separete chair (kitchen chair). He spoke Hungarian. He said something like hianyzik valami. I then sat behind hi m and put my legs to his chair close to his head to show how I despise him. I said something about his bible. I am sure I had met his guy but I dislike him and I think he could be the psychoerapeut. When I woke up I was upset becasue it turned out that some people keep disturbin g me. No wonder I cannot sleep well. They want to change me, influence me. They offer their bible, they cannot accept me as I am. I shouted at him to never ever come back because he is not a pleasant person to me. I said I would kick his fucking ass if I met him again. I think he said some bad words, so he got upset. He has absolutely no right to d isturb others!!!!! He is not welcome. My next dream was with Dr Marko. Of course he was not him. He spoke nothing, how ever. I was placed on the surgery bank and was waiting to surge me.

He was sitting back to me in front of a computer. He had a joystick and controll ed the bank. I then woke up. I had the sense that they want to influence me to undergo the surgery. The hell with these people! They influence me while I am sleeping. They are abso lutely immoral and disrespectful. It was 03:20 when I woke up. I had some sexual dreams. I saw two woman who put their underwear into their pus sy and their pussy was just huge about 40cm. I had a dream in which I was somewhere and somebody took my credit card and gave to a receptionist who said it was stolen and asked "money". All in Hungarian language. Credit card (hu) Many of my peers hate me and feel jealous of me. THey have the audacity to bothe r me regularly. They are disgusting. I cannot stand envyousness and hatred. They are rubbish people to me. I had an alpha dream in which I was among three people. They dream started with this. I was in a room and I saw a man next to me. He was to prepare a bouquet but seemed that he had forgotten. There was some gre en flowers on the table. Then I got the idea that there is a nicer flower behind the table. I picked it. And then I played with th e flower. I changed it to all sorts of flowers. Unseen in this world. Then they told me to look at the golden something. I saw a 10 cm x 4 cm golden o bject and something like jesus was on it and the Slovak flag. Then I looked behind me and I saw two women. The were elderly women. Some of them celebrated her birthday I and I feel that some of my school mates d id. I do not know. * Conclusion - I must tell a DIP to program me how to say NO when I meet a discomfortable me n and send him away. Elkuldeni a kellemetlen embereket. - I want to kno who sends me dreams so that I can catch him. Again, it is a DIP 's work. - I have just checked on FaceBook. Bogesz (aka Bolgar Laszlo) had a birthday t oday or yesterday. I can remember this: I was sitting in a school class (elementary school). Behind me were sitting Melinda and somebody else. I made a paravan between us. I did not want to see them. 05 April 2011 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I woke up a half to midnight. I slept deeply and in my dream I sensed some energ y then I wanted to move but I was strongly pushed to the floor. In my dream I was lying. Somebody was there and he sent energy int o me through my anus. I felt the same when I had been attacked by a demon. When I got scared I heard t he same music played by the jewelery box bought by father to mother. My mother had been doing a cleaning some days ago and she open ed the box to play the music. I had not heard it playing for years. So when I realised what trouble I was I heard this music and thought of my father. I hardly tried to get up but he was damn stronge and then he sent energy to my h ead through the back of my neck. I recognized this behavior (technique). Regarding my notes I met him on the firs t of April 2011. He is a human.

I thought he cannot be a human. When I woke up I started thinking about what had happened. It was on astral level, sure. My so called friends betrayed me again. They are worth close to nothing. I remebered something from the events that happened before I woke up. I could remember a bed I had to sleep on it. It was a big dark room. I complaine d the bed is slope and I was reluctant to sleep. Then I remeber leaving and they caught me. They did not allow me to leave. I can remember something more. It was again about my father and his marriage. They wanted to let me know he lov es my mother. They want me to leave because my father wants it. They could be some relatives o r father's friends???? I have no idea. But I guess they were sent by Mr Hortai. They are strangers to m e and very young which means dangerous. I can remember a garlic before or after the violence. I got asleep at 2 o'clock. I thought a lot and tried to relax but could not. And it happened again. I felt more people holding me but I was very angry and I could move a bit. I woke up. I went to the toilet. I said I had been trained by some demons in my childhood b ut they were not much different from them. I said I felt no love at all from them. I was very angry and upset. I said it was an outrage and I kept wondering what k ind of humans they were? I said they had created a very black karma for themselves. I had never experienc ed such a violence inflicted on me. I could not understand why they did it who they were. I said I was fed up and th ey were mercyless, unkind, violent, and ruthless. I had not been able to sleep well for weeks and they kept annoying my sleep. I s aid they were rubbish, assholes. I said if they would continue disturbing me I could commit suicide or just go cr azy. It is a torture I said. I threated them that I simple had to contact a helper who would sort this out be cause what they very doing was simple torture nothing else. I got asleep. I had some dreams again. They were highly disrespectful. - I looked myself in the mirror and I saw there was food between my teeth. - Something about plane tickets. How stingy I am. About price of KM. - I was in a shop. The shop attendants (2 woman) asked me if I wanted to pay. I was puzzled and said I was there with my mother. My mother said she wanted to buy some undergarment. Then I said I would wait outside and was embarressed. - In the kitchen. My mother was there and my brother. My mother called my broth er kisfiam. This did not work well out for them they wanted to show me that my mother cal les me kisfiam. But it is no longer the case. They just make up some reasons to mock me. It is even unfair as it is a lye. My mother does not call me kisfiam. - beer, I drank my father's beer When I woke up I just asked them what the fuck they wanted from me? I asked them to respect my wish. I asked them to leave me and never visit me or think of me again. I mentioned t o him Jesus and that they would ridicule him the same way as me. He was not married and spoke strange things. They are shameful. But t he person who encouraged him to do this is even more shameful. I mentioned them eavesdropping. In my opinion it is a sort of disease watching o thers. Not to mention how shameful it is and what a

disgrace for their parents. Every child is taught early that eavesdropping is sh ameful. I thanked for my helpers and thought of lady Hedi but then a thought came to me Isabella. It was her. I had asked why were my friends? Where are they when I need them???? Ms. Isabella deserves respect if it is true that she helped me. Then they sent me a dream in which I was watching a neighbour woman who was pack ing her luggages. It happened in a village in a detached house. When I woke up I sad how miserable they were. They tried to excuse themselve by comparing real life scenario with direct mind reading and sending dreams and opinions even if the person disagrees . They also made a dream in which I was crouching outdoor and one of them came and ask "megmondjam" ki vagyol? I throwed sand into his eyes then came the second and the third. They must have been at least four young men younger than 25. It is Hortai's style. He always sends many people to me as he is scared. It is n ot a noble behaviour but a miserable old fearful man's behaviour who has self image problems and lack of love. The last dreams were meaningless rubbish. Batman, some tiger, etc. They mentione mellrak as a thought. They could have cursed me. They are young an d victims of an egocentric teacher. * Conclusion - betelt a pohar - I am quite sure it was again Mr Hortai who sent some of his (former) students to "help" me. Why? Because he got utterly envy after I received so much love from women. The day when Dermisek's wife said I was an angel and she was my mother. He got envious and decided to destroy my peace and love. After it ANtal appeared in my dream and he said why not help insted mr Hortai with some heavy work. Why bother women. The on the 1st of April a strange guy appeared who sent me energy. He offered me but was not given my permission so he is an asshole too. He is constantly eavesdropping because that is his obsession to watch other pe ople's life. Yesterday I was very angry at him becaue I could see through him and detected the evil in his acts. He wanted kudos from me but he used psychic influence to look greater in the e ayes of others. He had violated our peace agreement because he again was doing his seemingly h elpful act but with evil intentions. His intention was to break the love and make me to send my friends away. Very astute and wicked person indeed.

06 April 2011 !!! I woke up after 10 o'clock. I was at a school. I was sitting in a class and ther e were many teenaged pupils in the class. It was teaching going on when I gained consciousness. One of the pupils stood up and picked up a pen and handled to me. I said nothing. Everybody was strange to me. Then the young teacher (woman) said "Mar megint bes zelgettek". I was puzzled as I said nothing.

In order to clarify the situation I said: He passed me the pen. I can remeber before this a strange thing. I was in the kitchen with a man and a nother young guy. The man was younger than my father (max 40). I could not recognize anyone of them. Only the man spoke. We were sitting by the table and eating. Them man behaved as a father and said in Hungarian: egyl. And I: behozom and I started eating faster. I eat fried eggs. Then I woke up. I felt the Energy of Reconnective healing and it was Dr. E. Pearl. He said: jour ney. I tried to relax but it took very long till I could fully relax. The session took for almost 2 hours. It was not as intensive. Relax ation is absolutely key. He likes Lui Armstrong the trumpeter. He visualized me as he is playing for a se c or two. I am not sure why. Probably to make me breath. So I learned that it requires full relaxation and it is not easy to relax when y ou are fully constipated and have other pains. But we managed together. I felt some smells etc. I thanked for his help a lot (I felt he was a bit disappointed and I do not know why). I should speak to somebody (in alpha). Then I walked out to the toiled and got asleep. Before I woke up I was in a room with a few young people sleeping !! I recognize d only one of them. He was Vadkerti Roland. Said: Veled mehetnk? And talked in a harsh way something like: en viszek magammal kottont (he mentioned some brand) and laughed. Then I felt Dr Pearl has arrived and I woke up! We started another session. This time it was better. Took no longer than hour I guess. I drank some water and fell asleep. I can remeber a bus ride dream. I was on a 3 day long bus trip or what. It was v ery short. I had a third session with Dr. Eric Pearl. I woke up and I immediately felt a st rong energy flowing through my abdomen into my spine. He was satisfied. My constipation did not improve but I said I would not eat muc h and clean mz large intestine next week as if I would go for an examination. It is key to minimize the false feelings that are not disease ba sed. I had a dream in which I was quite conscious. I saw myself and I felt it was DrO doing it. I had been angry because he separated my soul to travel freely in the astral world and I did not aprove he did not ask (cannot remember him ask ing me). I really do not like this situation as I cannot sleep well and I wake up too often and hav many dreams with all sort of not very kind people. I also felt he helped me with Mr Hortai. He could had asked him not to bother me again. My next dream I can remember was at school class. When I gained consciousness I was sitting by my bank and I saw people around me. Somebody was sitting next to me. It could have been Mr. Roland Toth. I recognized somebody (cannot remember) than I recognized Bartal Zoltan. I smile d at him with full of love and he did the same. He asked me Hogy vagyol. Then I recognized his brother too. Then Mr. Decsi Attil a. He was strange. He said something bullshit like: egy honappal korabban jott meg az iskolaba. He deliberately made up the story in order to not reveal anyting and make me believe that I am at a school. I knew the place was not importand and I did not care if I was a pu pil or not. I expected some communication from them. I had to ask Decsi to repeat his story, he laughed but I did not. I felt it was

meaningless bullshit. Them Melinda walked to me and she said seriously that: Nem erdekel mit mondanak rolad nem hiszek nekik. Mintha valami rosszat csionaltam volna. Then the person (man) next to me said laughingly: De csak a harmadik vagyol. Then I woke up. I thought about it an I figured out that I promised Melcsi tundi to marry her in my third life. In my next life I would marry nurse Anna, I promised to her. It seems that there is a second prospectous braid candidate. Decsi does not want me to anticipate anything. But there was something. Somethin g happened. I had had a dream with my ex-school mate from Kisujfalu in which he said miert ultel kuka melle (there was toilet paper with s hit in the dust bin). Then I had a dream in which I got up from balcony). Opened the balcony door, then I mother came and I went out to the balcony I woke up. The wanted to tell me with the I then had another dream at the school. I most empty and I saw Lecsi tunder walking I followed her. bed (old flat, smallest room with the closed the heating and my to get some cloth hanged out. dream (in my opinion) to wake up. saw Sztarovics there. The class was al home (in the corridor) and

Unfortunately I fell asleep as I was a bit lazy. I had this strange dream: Old man (a stranger to me) talking to me in Hungarian in first person. He said s omethink like : ezutan eletemre ugy tekintek mint valami szar (nem emlekszem a pontos szora). What was his intention. Well, the "kind" man wanted to make me feel bad. He deli berately talked in first person in hope that I would pick the sentence and believe in it as my own about myself. What an asshole he is !! And Hungarian of course. When I woke up this sentence appeared in me: "nknt vllaltam a felelssget." * Conclusion - I must have done something bad in my dream. Why? Yesterday when I was thinking I got the idea of hiring an entity removal guy t o collect info and rumours from the astral world around me and to write me his founding by email. After this there were no more annoyances. I ha d the feeling she does not want me to know something that everybody in the astral world knows and talks about. I did not write about it yesterday because I felt it is not important as I was not sure about it at all. But now I know I was right about the feeling as Melcsi tunci said it in my dre am. Today I was at my GP for vaccinatin against tethanus (+ difftheria) 07 April 2011 I got up at about 10 o'clock. I had some dream but could not remember. I felt th at it was Erzsike. I do not know how. I asked her to resend me the dream. She started some healing but I did not feel like doing it. It was not effective, I had no stool this morning. I mentioned the guy from yesterday morning. I also said that I do not know what he had meant. I said I can remember a dream in which I killed somebody. But I said when I promised God that I would not hurt anyone I meant th is world not the dream world. I said I felt no gilt.

Some healong but I did not have the patience. The dream I was asking for was repeated and it was about my usual morning after I get out of bed. I looked at my watch and I looked out I drank some water. That's all. Yes, I said it was right. I wake up with the same listless every morning. I am q uite depressed and feel low. But this is mostly because of the long lasting constipation. I had a dream with Sztarovics. He again criticized me. I cannot remeber but this was the third time I can remember. He is bully as does not give me peace. What would he say if I annoyed her regula rly? He has low ethics. Then I had a dream again with my mother. I was in the old flat. It was night. I was sitting by the computer when she came into the room. Then I was in my bed and was cold and she came to cover me. I had also a dream in which I went somewhere on foot with my parent and my broth er. ANd then I was showed that we could not go further. Then I was showed a train and I went into the train alone. They wanted to let me know that I must continue my life alone. I know and this is nothing new but the my problem is that for one I am rational and hard up on money and for seconds I have no idea where to move. People move to certain places for these reasons: - love - work - holiday - studies - maybe healing I have not idea what shall my decision be based on. I am interested in studying English but I am a budget student. I have been trying to get to Thailand but I could not find a suitable school so far which is very disappointing. I cannot stay in Thailand for longaer than 3 months. I would move there if I did not need a visa. The only way to get a one year visa is through a school. But I do not want to waste my money on a language school th at is low quality and cannot enrol me into an advanced course. I'd love to work as well. I like programming but it is very demanding and I do n ot feel up to. I simple cannot work as a programmer for 8 hours every day. Unfortunately I do not have other professions so I have no id ea what kind of job would I get in these hard times being the unemployment rate above 10 percent. To be pragmatic. If Reconnective healing does not work out well then I will dema nd the surgery. For a very simple reason. I am unable to work thus I ought to be eligible for in valid allowances. I should retire as an invalid. Then I would wait till I day. But I cannot be an invalid without trying out the surgery. Some sleep. Then I had some rubbish thoughts. I was wondering who from.

I had a dream in which I was leaving a school and some of my former school mates were there. They were looking at me. Nobody greeted me but I did. I recognized Szendi Csaba, Molnar Laszlo, G. Gajdos. I received from them a lot of dreams to ridicule me: - a small baby pissing then they moved above me to piss on me. - many times they showed my purse and it was almost empty just small pences. - a used preservative - I heard sz szrs punci AFter this I knew what they were up to. Probably Mr. Hortai sent them to me. I was rather disappointed as I thought they would not hurt me after so many year s after all they are adults over 30 years. I thought of the dreams and I found out that they did it because they were envy of my money. Probablt ther is nothing to envy about my health, my living conditions, my relat ionships (no girlfriend), my job (no job), etc. So I saw through them. I said I look really low them,. I said they are moral rub bish. But there was one thing I appreciated. They showed me their faces so they do not feel bad about their envy and loathing towards me. I said I can understand being envy. It is pretty common. But I fail to understan d why me??? Why do they envy that little money from me? I had never met more envious people like them. I was utterly surprised. I laughe d in the early morning. I felt good because it turned out that even in this awful situation there are st ill people who envy me !!! Isn't it ridiculous???!?! Today I was thinking of the school dream and I think Mr Horati decided to let me know that I am kicjked off school and do not I ever come back to school. Very wise decision. He kicked me sooner than I could him. They even had the audacity to despise my friends. I am not so sure if they despi sed Melcsi and Bartal but I thought of them. It was not nice because they mentioned that: Zoltan or Laci is thinking of killi ng his aunt. My mother said it to me in the kitchen of the old flat. She said: Malna orult ! something like that. I cannot remmebr this. And also that soembody was singing in the street so what???!! 08 April 2011 At about midnight I woke up and remeberred my dream. It was not visual rather a teaching. And to my surprise it was an elderly Slovak woman. She was talking in my dream, I heard words such as ampiont, etc. WHen I woke up I was greatful to her. I said I would bless her after my death an d protect her. I never forget those who helped me. Then I was meditating. I felt somebody is with me. It turned out there were many . An elderly woman showed his full body picture. Then somebody else said: vychodne SLovensko. And the rhird one was Dr. Ockajakova. She also sent her picture. Before that I said it is very rude and impolite to read others mind and violate their private life. SHe sadid: Thank you for keeping me alive. I asked her to reveal her identity. S he did it. She told me : ezutn mr csak lefele a lejtn msz. And mentioned some mistake. She spok e Hungarian. I English and sometimes

Hungarian. Somebody helped me with my aura. It turned out that she was Dr. Ockajakova the n edokrinologist. She is a lovely woman. I allowed her to watch me 2 a week. She said some greatest mistake. Either she did it or I? I do not know. Probably nothing particular. I had a dream. She introduced me to the director of the building where stray do gs are collected. And the director mocked my mother in Hungarian: "Nagyon sok mindent arulunk it." He laughed so did I. Before that I received thoughts (I was not sleeping) from Trk Laci. He recommended me Emilia a tart. He visualised she had nice big breasts. That was all. I felt good because he is not envious at all. He is compassionate and friendly. Then I had some dreams with somebody. Most interestingly we flew into a well and I was under water inside the well with him. I do not know why. I do not know who it was. In my next dream I saw a beautiful tall lady who spoke to me in Hungarian. We we re in front of the drug store at the bus station. She told me that this area is special. Of course she just wanted to show me how to leave town. And btw. somebody is eavesdropping me while I am writing these lines. This somebody (an angel; married) suggested me to write ... she wanted to make me feel better. I have some protecting angels around me and the are watching me and I am getting used to it. I saw in my dream another woman who offered me some food. She was also very kind . I felt so good that night. Yesterday I got up at 5:30 in morning, I travelled to Budapest. 09 April 2011 Yesterday I picked up my language certificate at BME language school. The day before yesterday I had made two appointments with two tarts. I received an SMS message from the first tart asking me to confirm the appointme nt with her (9:30). I received the SMS message at about 8 and unfortunately I noticed it only at 8:4 0. I wrote back and confirmed. Soon after she wrote me back this: "Ne haragudj de mivel eddig nem jeleztel viss za nem tudlak fogadni." I was disappointed but I slight suspicion why it happened. It was to do with my ill fated phone number. I had a second meeting at 3pm close to the BME school. I went right to the school and I decided to make up for it with another angel. I tried to call some of them I had in my phone. Being Friday, all of the angels I called very busy or had their phones switched off. On my way out of the building I noticed a public Internet box and I decided to f ind some new pleasure for myself. It took me 40 minutes till somebidy picked up the phone. We agreed to meet at 13 :30 (14. district). Her name was Krisztin. And she looked promising. The meeting was rather awful. She was a total disappointment. Judging from his p hotos she looked like a glamour lady. I met her only to find out that she was a contrast She was not quite what I had expected. She was a low woman. A 19 years old teene ager.

She was not intelligent and elegant, she was a pretending prostitute. I took the 15:47 train from Keleti. I walked home from the station. While I was walking home I had many thoughts. I thought of Erzsike in an upbeat way and recalled Tia (tart) who is also a brai n controller. I then had this thought: imadkozol. Obviously I was watched by someone and in fact I could have been watched the who le day. I do not know wo did it but now I feel that I was being watched also while I was at Krisztin. Krisztin was sent some th oughts too to make her more cooperative but she was not at all she felt a great deal of aversion towards me. In the evening I sat by my computer and I had the feeling that I was being watch ed. When I go to bed I had some thought what I would do. I thought of visiting some local and then I had the thought "tesim as na rozkos.". I was also thinking of my mother. What about her I asked? I have been thinking a bout giving her the book by Dr. Pearl but I am not sure. Unfortunately the book is not nocebo free. The speaking patients are very creepy and she would not like it at all. On the other hand by the time she gets reading she would feel immediately the positive healing energies and he r pain would be relived. I also was thinking about Dr Ockajakova's mock of my mother. I said to myself I have to defend my parent's honest and respect them. This is every child's responsibility. Regardless of what they had done to me. Th ey are my parents and no one should have the audacity to make fun of my parents. I cannot find that funny. They irrespective if they do i t to a son. I am a moral man and I find it irrespective to laugh at jokes of my own parents! I do not want this to happen again. I had a dream in which my mother was talking to me. She said somebody vomited at her. I got up and I recognized the style. It was Mr. Hortai again. He probably decided to become the good guy. I asked him to never read my mind and never send me any suggestions or dreams. I told him only those can give me programming who I visited in person an d asked them for help because I trust only them. 13:20 - 13:45 someone made me sleep. And suggested me. It was a violence. A posi tive suggestion but in a violent form. God should punish the wrong doer. No one can violently make me do anything. I wi sh to have a free choice and independent of violent people's influence. I hope Mr. Hortai was dismissed and never again in life will think of me and dis turb me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had some bad dreams. I really felt confused and near to insanity! I can rememb er again dreams about my purse some coins. In the morning I felt I was made to repeat these words: kenyszefrancia, kikotoze s, etc. Then after peace I was told it was nurse Anna who helped me eliminate the attack ers. The attacker this time was Mr. Vadkerti Roland (former school mate from elementary school). She talked to me. Somebody sent me energy. Nurse Anna is a strong believer. She would prefer me to have a religion. But I do not. I like nurse Anna. She is an angel too. I respect her even more. She said I am "odvazny". I do not know what made her think so. Because I do not feel intimidated to think anything of anyone even if I know they may read my mind? Perhaps it has to do with Mr. Hortai. WHy should he be bigger

and more respectful person than me? Just because he is elder? He cannot buy, cajole my respect. I never did things for respect but I feel I li ke to be respected as anyone else. And I know I am less respected than most of my peers. I should not feel inferior oty or superiority at all. But I do. I guess nurse Anna's friends are monitoring Vadkerty R. Such a bloke as Mr. Vadkerty makes me cry and wonder about the sanity of this fu cking country. We have not met or seen each other for 16 years. And suddenly he starts to backb ite me and threat me like a doormat. He is 31 years old as me. I am highly disappointed. He was always a proud Hungar ian. He is the shame of the nation. A nation is strong when it is united. Most Hungar ian people are envious and full of hatred towards their fellow. Lady Hedi helped me also. I do not know whose idea it was but pobably it was not me the only onw who felt that they went too far. They crossed the line of humour, they showed no respect to me, no compassion at all only pure ENVY AND even HATRED and despise. I think low of them and I do not want to see them again in this life. They are w icked and careless. They deliberately harm their fellow who is seriously ill but the only thing is they are interested is in making some fun by harming me. They are disgusting filthy people. I have a strong aversion to them and I despise them. I had slight alpha like terapy dreams with nuse Anna !! Yes, she took part in the therapy. The aim of the therapy was to look elsewhere and seek a not married woman. I must have felt attracted towards her as I can remember I was said ne mar megin t annara. something like that. Also it was strange because I felt an energy surrent that gave me a power to mov e to my own way and I was sad I will find her but then I also heard she will have the power to beat you. Who did they tolked t o? Evil in me? I also saw Kalo in a dream. He was to showme some clothing. They do not like my clothes. I do. They are determined to make me marry someone. Well well, it is a hard tough job. YOu pure things. I am a man and it would be easier if I were a woman. Much more easier. It is har d for a man with such a disease and age to find somebody who would accept me and not demand better. I am not dreaming of marriag e as many ladies and especially elderly ladies in their late twenties. I am dreaming of becaming free of my suffering and become absolut ely free. Free of religious people, free of friends suggestions and expectations. I would love to win at least a large amount of mon ey so that I could travel and see the world. I am quite old and tire. Life has made me worn out. I do not feel up to marry an yone. Anyway, I am realistic and I see marriage in maybe 2 years not sooner at all. Ho w do they want me to survive by that time? The miracle is gonna happen this year so the marriage would happen only after th at. I do not expect the miracle but I am at loss and f I had the money I could at least escape somewhere. I have some hopes of me eting Ms Palcso the DIP. I'll ask her what to expect and what to do. Can the future be changed and Why wo uld I want to change the future?! * Conclusion

- for some reason nurse Anna wants to help me and spoke to me. She wants me to b e happy. - Undortunately it looks that I had been infected by evil and I have evil though t in the subconscious mind which sometimes flows up to the sonscious mind. This believe that Dublin was a mistake is now widely accepted and they not look upon me as evil but a victim of evil. It myself stated that I did not feel a better man after Dublin and I felt it was unnecessary and a waist of time. DrO feels more ashamed as he now sees how my life was destroyed and Ms Isabella is to blame for this. Also those who could have prevented this but did little. I feel she chose instead of me and I was not asked what I want. She chose the be st for herself, she just exploited me. Kalman I told him i takes a lot of time to single out the true friends from the wanna b e friends. He is a sort of true friend as I find him highly moral, ethical, relyable and SERIOUS! I told them I am not a Hungarian because renounced my nationality a few years ag o to have less problems. I hate judgements. I told them I always received more from Slovaks than Hungaria ns. I am greatfu to Mr. Dermisek who was my first master. 10 April 2011 - !!!!! I got to bed very early. I fall asleep without going into alpha. I left my body and went to Kalo. I can remember when he was phoning and Haris wa s there and I was distrubing them. They politely wanted me to leave. I left. I then had some confusing thoughts (ve ry grave, meaningless, close to insanity) and I saw Maro !! who visualized me a large appartment. Then he made me woke up. I looked at the clock it was only about 9 o'clock. Some seconds later a spirit went into my body. I felt it very clearly. I got sca red. I thought it was from Reconnective Heling. Itr was not probaby. Then I stated to leave my body. Nothing happened. Then I as ked God to protect me. And that I need friends who guide me in astral dreams. I stated I wanted to become a better human without su ffering,. I was worried and I hated again DrO because he spoilt my sleep and deliberately did it. Then I got asleep and I had some very real dreams with somebody. I felt that the location was the "Milliomos negyed" in this city. We were in the streets. I saw at least 10 other people. They were lying on top o f cars. They were just souls. And I had a guide whom with I communicated in Hungarian. I think there was some party. There was a moment when I looked at a woman and se e her breasts and said party drog. Then I saw police cars and I had to hide. Hmm. He or she said she was a mother etc. I cann ot remember. Then I saw even little children with ballons. I did not feel anything and did no t even laughed. When I woke up I was scared because I knew I had been far away from my body and it can be very dangerous if I meed somebody who is a thug. I knew it is much more easier to do some sinful act by this. I also annoyedly co ncluded that DrO again did smething little evilish.

He deliberately separated my soul so that I could do astral travels. He had know n very well how young soul and naive I was. And Decsi Attila was right about him. It was a mistake to visit him in Bratislav a. I should have at once discontined the work with him. At that night he did it and I felt some evil in him. This night I again stated t hat I do not want to see him again and I am finished with him definitely (for good). I started doing meditation and aura balancing. Somebody helped me with my aura. It was nurse Anna. She sent me "Lubim Ta". I was not sure who and then later (after ion) she managed to send me Banska Bystrica. Very kind woman. nurse Anna - she said "Lubim Ta". She gifted me with "imafuzer". promised to keep it till I die. It is a gift. I know she is an angel, married. Interestingly she ook at me". Either becasue I would fell in love with her or she just does not want it. I respect her wish and would do a lot a lt of relaxat I accepted and asked "do not l for her.

Then I had an astral dream. I was in a room with walls with some people when s b ird came and took me away. I few through the wall with her. I flew into a tree. She said she would show me how to hide in a coca cola tin. S he was Ildiko. She called me Doctor. I replyed: Why did you call me doctor? When shy said : I am the doctor. And I: if you are a doctor why do not you heal me? She said : Meg nem jott el az ideje es kulonben sem talaljuk a gazdadat. It was a tale dream. I was an rge. I saw borzok and some tale houses. I then was killed with a paddle. Then I woke up. I also had some dream in the old flat. I was in pidjama and wanted to go into th e bathroom. My bro was there. I said then later would come but he that's all right. I went in to wash my hand. He was nake and saw his small penis. Interestingly the wash basin was wull of black mad. I woke up and said I felt ok becasue I reconciled the good old days when I spoke to my bro. I said it it was 10 years ago then I heard laughing. They were Csibi. They are irrespectful as almost everybody in this mad world. I could not understand why. All their dreams were despising. They lau ghed at me not with me. They also showed a dog. And I had the feeling that they wanted me to call baster d. It is hard for me. I wanted to have peace but I have to hang out with them.

I meditated a lot this night and I directly received some thoughts and visuals. I received a visual in which somebody unlocked a wardrob. It was a woman and she said she was from Bratislava. She said she has the keys to my heart. She said she was Mrs. Palcso's manager Mr s. Korcsekova. Hm... She said I was not honest. And talked in Hungarian. Nem voltl szinte. I think she meant that I said I had been visiting DrO but not am z more. I said: povedal some, e chodil som k doktorovi Ockajkovi. Je to pravda, lebo od te lefontu k pani Palcsovej some nebol u pna doktora a taktie mm v mysle zru i stretnutie s nim a dokoni s nm. She was not at all. She seemed to be a young woman. I had another dream. I was outside the building in Lastovicia street. It got qui ckly overcrowded and started to rain.

I went quickly into the buildin in order to close the windows. I aproached the l ifts. The larger was open but was full of people. So I quickly walked to the smaller l ift. I wanted to call it but the door was open. I entered the lift and I saw aunt Mar i (Mari nni from flor seven). I was puzzled a bit and I greeted her : Udvozlom Mari neni. She did not greet me. She said : Jo haza terni ?! She knows I am reluctand to meet her and I do not feel attracted to her. She wan ted me to know she is watching me. I do not want her to watch me. They wanted to let me know they pray for me (amig van mit vesziteni). It is typical ridiculous egoism. They want me to feel grateful for them. And exp ect something. It is not love at all. When you help and you expect something then you are an egoistic bastard. There are two kind of people: 1. those who help only to show their superiority and even make you feel little a nd make fun of you. It is typical for younger people. Csibi certainly does it. It is even worse when they are a group. Then the collec tive ego seldom can refrain from criticizing and despising the helped person. 2. the wiser ones help you becasue they feel guilty and want a better karma. The y help because they want you to respect them and to feel obliged to them. Older and mainly strongly religious people fall into this group such as Ma ri neni. 3. the third group is very rare, They help for the good feeling and because of t rue love. They work alone. Such a person is Dr. E. Pearl. He does not need anything. He's got wealth and a very good karma. He does not need anything. They pray for me. I said I do not pray. Margit mama. She had her right hand in plaster???!!! Very strange. I've met her in the old flat. I was sitting in front of my computer. I asked where she would stay. I had the knowledge she came only to visit us. She was not happy. She seemed disappointed in me. I was again at a school and the teacher was a man. He violently ushered out Kesz eg Roland because he was speaking. He wanted me to show what would he do to me if I continued speaking. I heard some e ducation pavilon. I do not know what do they teach. I have no idea. He also mentioned in a dream making someone asleep. I said he was dismissed. I d o not know what is this game but I dislike it. I've met Hausleitner at school. She sat in the first row. I can clearly remember having said this: It being Sunday, all the banks were closed. Torok Mario - I got up at about 8 am. I recall some dream with Mario Torok and his friends. They slightly suggested massage to me. I do not know who seeked them. Probably I was. * Conclusion - They tried to explain why watching others is not a sin (because God is watchin g through us). Ok could be but I expressed my wish not to do it. And they have to respect me and take it seriously. - They take me as some product of them that they can shape. I am an independent adult I cannot stand violence.

What some of them does is share violence. They program me without my conscious p ermission. - I am still not respected by most helpers. They constantly violate my wish and if they do not like my wish then they reprogram it. They are shameful and I wish the worse karma for them. Ridiculous people. I wish they gaved me peace forewer. - They violate constitunal rights. It is a crime. They deserve a fine or even in prisonment. *So who are my true friends and helpers? - definitely those who did not scare to do more than a prayer. Those who proved their commitement to help me and darefullness. Those who love and respect me. Those who do not doubt in me but ha ve a strong belief in me. Those who do not want to change me and accept as I am. Those who never make fun of me. WHo are those?? - Melinda, nurse Anna, Isabella, the Slovak woman who showed me a golden medail , the DIP woman who removed a sin from me recently, Erzsike and her friends, Kalman, Bartal brothers, Dermisek couple (absolutely p ure angels), Rablansky Marian, Pista Molnar, Gabriel Haris, Tomas Plichta, Lady Hedi, Szulcsanyi Maria 11 April 2011 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No more interested in the past !!!! I got up (do not know what time). I wanted to say something and I noticed I had been reprogrammed regarding emails. I am not sure. Not serious. I went to toilet but I was pretty upset. I presented them my new rules. I asked them to obey them: No men over 33 year can read my mind. Nobody can program me only those who I visited in person and asked for help. Nobody from middle school can read my mind. No teacher or former teacher can read my mind or send me thoughts. (Erzsike is the exception, se used to be a kindergarten teacher.) - Nobody without my prior consent can tell me his or her opinion about myself. - I do not want to know the future. I know enough. I threated them pretty seriously. I said I would make sure they woul suffer prov ided they continued hurting me. I said I woul make them cry fter my death. I was angry. I got asleep and I woke up later. I recalled I had had a dream which was in Hu l anguage an it was about some negative thing. About some bad place. I thought of the dream as a threat. I started thinking. Anger generates new anger and it would never stop. But then I recognized why it happened. I had to fel the same as my victims felt. I had to feel that it cannot be forgicen if we were hurt by others violently in a cruel way. I felt compassion towards th em and I know thery are waiting to punish me. I cannot and would not ask them to forgive me. I have no right to do it. But I recognized if I want to judge others then how could I ask for mercy? It was my challenge. I almost failed but I hope it was not too late to recognize the mistake and make the following statement. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I have been hurt by a lot of people in this life and I promised I am not interes ted ion their punushment. All I wish for them is divine love

which can heal them without suffering. I really do not feel upset only disappoin ted and tired.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I thought of Jesus who said something about throwing a stone to somebody. I real ized my karma is not so god that I could afford to throw stones to anyone. I am going to be judged because I hurt some people in my previous lif es. But I ask God to be merciful as I am with others. I do not want to suffer if possible. Instead I wish divine love for myself to se e the bad in me. The judgeless seeing heals and that is the miracle. I believe only love can heal. That should be the way people are healed in the ne ar future. New age, new sort of healing. I did it to end the endless attacks. I want peace and freedom. I wish I had a fr ee choice and full privacy. I also criticized eavesdropping. I found it amoral and shameful. I mentioned con stitutional rights and violating personal privacy is a crime and it is punished. Most of them violate the law by secretely reading minds. They do it to feed their curiousity. I also said Mrs. Isabella is my friend and I respect her much more than most of my so called friends. She respects me and would not hurt me. Yes, she did one or two mistakes and she might be obsess ed with the future she saw. And it is true that the future can be changed. Definitely it can be. adjunktus Kosztolanyi, email they made me eavesdropping at home Bartal Laci buying food Slovak woman Kovago , CD kovago, packing things fire police Mrs. I Kanada! * Conclusion - they made me to leave the continent by their annoyng disgusting behaviour

12 April 2011 I first got up at 10 o'clock - reconective healing (also yesterday) with a man (he does not fancy me very muc h) * Conclusion - to my great surprise they PLAY a game! There are two groups of people. The BAD and the GOD. The BAD sends me negative thoughts (sexual) also. from 1st May he is dismissed

13 April 2011 I started with meditation. It took me long. I was doing Alpha from a record and I sensed some sexual suggestions again. So when I finished it I spoke to my helpers and maybe even to those who were nt my helpers. I was critical. I said it was enough and the highest time to end things. I critiocized both groups (helpers, and wrong doers). I said they are just playi ng with each other and maube do not intend to end it as they are enjoying it. I believe I was right about it as it h as been quite a while they cannot stop these recurring annoyances. I gave them 24 hours to stop it and even addressed t he wrong doers. I told them to think about what they had been doing. I wanted them to realize w hat they had been doing. I got asleep. I had a dream in which I was cycling with two other guys. I liked the dream. Then suddenly I woke up in my dream. I was sitting in the old living room and a book fell off my hand onto floor and I saw some exrements around the book. As if I vomited on the book. I said someth ing but could not remember. I felt somebody ha done something negative. I tried to remember what I had been dreaming. My mother was in the dream. I could not really remember the dream. I then fell asleep and then I had some dreams showing homosexuals. As if I were a homosexual, just hints. After I woke up I asked the following: Who is the dream sender and what he or se h wants from me>? If nothing then probably the person is a pervert. Pervert do things for their ow n pleasure. It turned out Mr. Hortai wanted to contact me. I refused angrily. I repeated aga in: nobody from middle school is allowed to do anything and no teachers at all. I am allergic to teachers. Briefly the story is this. Krisztin the tart I had visited last week on Friday t hought that she should make my dreams worse. Fortunately Mr. Kalman thank to Mr. Hortai found out and they let the lady send me some dreams. I also asked the person to tell me who he is and what he wants. So the lady let me knew her name, it was absolutely obvious. But I did not learn what she wanted from me. She sent me very very despising dreams. She visualized a few men who were going after a woman who was wearing mule on he r legs. I was one of them. Obviously the men were gays. The lady is a very low woman morally and has a dirty language too. I also had a dream in which I was walking in the street she was behind me severa l metres and loudly was talking that she sent seven or emails and she said what I shoudl do. I could not hear her and cannot remmeber a nything but I am sure the lady did some disgrace to me.

All I can see is that I am judged, attacked, hated, envied, and all this happens unjustly to me. I did nothing to the lady. I asked what was wrong with her and she said nothing. I was not pushy I was tender but true a bit nervous because of the strange behaviour of hers. That is there is to it I can see. This what happened is just amazing. It is more than obvious that the karma, curs e is still active and working nicely. I amazed that she accused me of being a gay. It is concerning and this makes me think. I am sure the curse (Dublin) has consequences and I hate DrO even more. He tends to say not everything to me. He said only a few negative currents left. Nope, DrO. Nope. You are wrong. I should not do anything with woman as they are dangerous. SOme women are evils. They curse, they judge, they are jealous to great extent, they posess. Some women are very very ego-centric and they can be very dominant and dangerous. I absolutely do not think that should star even a relationship. I have been working on my health, unfortunately it is not better at all. * Conclusion Judging from the events there is a reason for me to be concerned. Definitely I must be more cautious. It is also more than obvious that Mr. Hortai keeps spying on me which I found highly disgusting and it is a disgrace. Poor Kalo had to deal with the dirty prostitute. I said it was OK to Krisztin. She is only 19 and I cannot expect much from such a young girl. She should mature and see others too. Right now, she sees nobody except of herse lf. I really hope this threat was eliminated and she forgets me. I just keep wonderi ng what a strong ego identity have some people. If the Reconnective Healing will improve my health I would continue doing it if not I will choose the surgery because I am fed up with experimenting. I am more and more determined to get healthy and fix my collapsed life situation . Things look really bad. I whish I could work at least. I would . Or studty English abroad. But I still h ave to deal with thos disease of minwe which I find very annoying and a more and more unfair. I have been ill since my birt, I suffered very much and still after 31 years I could not notice any improvement regarding my health. Yes, this is a ver y bad karma. It is ridiculous what Mrs. Isabella said to me: Not only good things will happen to me. Well, I have had enough of bad events. I am eager to experience some good events. I am at loss and anxius to receive so me unexpected gift from life.

14 April 2011 some dream about a bear. I was a bear. Lovely tale like dream. Sure it was a wom an. Dr. E. Pearl session suddenly nurse Anna came Dr Pearl said a visitor

nurse Anna guarded my sleep (she made me watch some Czech movie) she showed some sense of humour (Hu flag, she replaced SK flag) Between two sessions I was sleeping to gain again some psychic energy and I noti ced that I had some negative thought which were coming from the negative energy I have in my bo dy. Varagya: mutasd meg Csaba Dekan : MySql db Krisztin : - choose a shue for your mother - visit a brothel ( a door was open) I was to enter. I knocked on the open door, nobody came. somebody tried to prevent me to return back to Lastovicia (lifts were not workin g) Unfortunately later found myself lying in front of my mother and saying her "Ma r csak a halalra varsz",. She laughed. I went away. * Conclusion - I have a rather large negative energy starting from my head till my stomach. I ts density is the highest in my head which manifests in weakened mental abilities (especially left brain) and 3D visi on problems. - Relaxation is key for this healing - Love is fairly important too. - The cold felt is actually the negative energy itself (some love is useful to a ccept it) 15 April 2011 After 2:00 am I did relaxation session with Dr. Eric P. He wanted me to sense. At about 4 am I noticed nurse Anna. She wanted me not to forget religion. I promised her I had her gift but my religion is still in progress. I said her I respected ehr a lot and would help her anytime. I praised her a bit: I said she was a very beautiful angel and a good woman and certainly a mother and wife. I had a dream in which I was encouraged to stop using a technique. I had visitors from Plejads. They touched me. I had never felt such a touch befo re. It felt like driving nails into my body. They wanted me to STOP using a technique. They said God had blessed me and they had given me a programming which would prevent me from doing a revenge to others. They showed me an example from the past : Bosnia . Some did the same revenge to others. With beings from the Plejads I had an excercise. I saw people doing things and a t the same time I felt the movement in my fingers. For example: A woman was holding a cigarette in hjer hand between her fingers. A t the same time I felt it in my fingers. I also had some dreams with people in wheelchairs. In the end (close to morning before I got up) I had a dream with a Reconnective Healer who criticized me because I was noisy during seminar and did not pay enough attention. Strnage. (April 20: It was Luka the Ge rman young guy. Thanks Luka.)

16 April 2011 17 April 2011 18 April 2011 Luka had his birth day yesterday. He did Reconnective healing session for me. He spoke German to me. I appreciaed his help knowing the fact that he had his birth day and he devoted some time for me. I said he was a good guy. B. Hellinger: hozzjut valamihez, ami nem t illet meg 19 April 2011 The Reconnection failed attempt. Mother's alarm clock went off. German woman tri ed to do The Reconnection. 20 April 2011 I had a dream with one of the farewell always works with hearth dream: Mary (Erzsike) told a story about herself and she admitted that she is no t a saint. Then she tried The Reconnection. Failed very soon. * Conclusion - Erzsike was attacked and criticized heavily by other psychoterapeuten and oth er people. - It seems to me that she was attacked psychically and she was near to insanity !!! She warned me. In my dream she was a dog (my ex-dog). - DrO is not angry. He keeps watching me from a big distance. I like him a lot and he is my friend. I respect him a lot. - I am to expect a curse! It is going to be bad. - It turned out that Ebi (the tart from last year after my last family constell ation) was constantly watching me and SHE SENT ME NEGATIVE THOUGHTS. She is angry at me! Still. - I had a feeling that she threated me tonight. She does not want me to visit s ex angels in Budapest at all. She had warned about me many sex providers. So I have a bad reputation. I'd bet ter stop visiting them. - I have no idea why would anyone on Earth curse me agian?!! For what?????????? ???????????????????? - It also turned out that I am completely sane and all right but I have been in fluenced negatively by EBI !!!!! I am almost 100% sure that she was manipulating me even in Bournemouth. - Tonight she definitely sent me some dreams in which I was cleaning a chair, p icking up banana shells from ground. She wants me to be a homosexual. She wants me to be a woman or what. She sends me suggestions while I sleep. She also wants me to be threated by a psychoterapeut. - massive fatique and sleepiness after lunch (lasted for at least 40 minutes) F or sure it was caused by her or somebody else. 21 April 2011 !!! (an elder hungarian psychoterapeut appeared in my dream) First I woke at 11.30 pm.

taking pictures, brother. I asked for a rifle? Father in the living room of the old flat. Remote controll of the TV set. I gave it to him. There was music on television. At about 4.00 am I woke up. I remembered something from my dream. I dreamed with father and brother. I said I do not want to see them in my dreams! I also said no ex-teacher or man older than 33. They are all dismissed. I went back to bed and I heard you have your nurses. I said I want to spend my t ime with young kind nurses and angels. I said I would medidate. They helped me to balance my aura. They really enjoyed the time spent with me. Later I learned their names too. One of them was called Lucia, etc. Nurse Anna a rranged them for me ;) ALso Agi tunci was there from England. I flattered them many times and I was gre atful for their kind help. I love nurses. I said being a nurse is one of the best profession for a woman. I said I would n ever forget their help and I would help them any time. They are my good friends. I said I was glad because of their kind company. I sai d God sent them to me. * Conclusion - There are some psychoterapeuts who are convinced that my chronic constipation is caused by traumas. The problem is that they annoyed me with dreams to prove their truth to Erzsi ke. One of them made me to meet my brother who was watching my penis. Then he cal led in my father and I angrily asked do you want to look at it ??! That was the end of the dream. In the last dream the guy showed his face (old man). I told him to stop annoy ing me and embracing me among my friends. How dare he was to influence my dreams and who know what else he had done to me. He is such an asshole. - Erzsike is under pressure by these assholes who blame her and do not believe in her theory. Erzsike does not want me to suffer anymore. She desperately seeks for a woman for me. She is convinced that I need a relationship. I have been unhappy for quite a long time and this makes me ill. I need to ch eer up myself and my soul needs a soul mate. - nurse Anna is a true friend. She arranged some young kind nurses for me. :) S he is such an angel. Thank you and God bless you and your beloved family. 22 April 2011 !!!!! My first dream was with nurse Anna. She wanted me to be Slovak. I woke up and sa id all right. I was born here. I'd rather did not have a nationality. I will never forget where I came from. I do not really mind. After the dream they sent me energy and worked on my aura. I talked to nurse Anna. I mentioned to her Andy Warhol. Nobody knows where he is from. I said I really think I could be an angel. I mentioned the movie Dogma to her. I also said that I had noticed the existence of fobia from Hungarians in Slovakia. It does exist. I said it is unfortunate that some small percent of the population develop and spread anger and hatred towards minorities in this co untry and it can be proved by reading the discussions under online articles of some mainstream medias.

I also mentioned energy vampries to her and that one of the nurses is an energy vampire in the ward she works. She probably knows who I mentioned. I also mentioned my grand father who was never asked for forgiveness by Slovaks. I asked her to decide which country she would like to live with me. And I asked her to choose anything else but not Slovakia or Hungary. I also talked about my childhood. I said the story my mother used to retell me m any times. I always thought she exagerrated it. It was in the confectioner's shop. I lifted up a glass table cover and holded it for a some seconds. I did not not drop it. She said it was impossible and everyone was amazed. Yesterday I said something very important. I said everything that is going to ha ppen in the future is also the result of their contribution. Without their help I would not reach the future. I am grateful for their help and will share my successes with them and hapiness. It is very important to not forget about them and invite them to contribute. I w ant them to know that they are important and they contributed to every healing. I would never heal anyone I only help to happen. I am wiser an d more ready to accept this very difficult errand. Anyway they may become even more successful healers. Nobody knows their future. Good human relationships are very important. I told them I do not have much time left here. I will be glad to return home. I might come back to visit them and love them. Who knows. I made a resolution yeasterday. My mother came home and she said she had lost he r baalnce in the street and fell on the ground. She did not broke anything. I felt sorry for her and decided to help her by lending my Recon nective healing book her. I hope she would not send the angels to hell and she would not be scared. I truly wish her good healing and improvement. I ca nnot help her more at the moment. I might try myself a session of Reconnective healing. I am daubtful however. I a m fed up of doing futule things. Nothings really works out. I've been just drifting since 2008 and I cannot find my place in this little wor ld. I am going to lend her the book on Sunday and she would feel considerately bette r the next day. I want to surprise her. I hope it will work. I also asked what is an angel? I keep wondering what does it cover? I always tho ught angel is only a world for kind people. Now, it seems that they have special abilites and power. I do not feel so specia l at all. In fact, I need other's energy just to survive. Lady Magda - lady Magda appeared in my thoughts. She wanted me to kiss her hand which I did . I think, she did not like the idea that I consent to be a Slovak. In English nat ionality means: statna prislusnost and narodnost at the same time. I could not care less about it. I had said I did not have a nationality. I would never deny my backround. And it is also true that I am a citizen of this God forsaken country. Keszeg Roland appeared in my dream. He asked if I would like to go with him to 8 c class because they they need someone very strong. I wondered why he thought of me ;). I do not feel strong or special in any way. The enlightenement is over and I am a very normal human. I had a lot of dreams. They just kept sending me the playful dreams. Such as:, Forma1 , dogs.

When I woke up in the morning a sentence appeared in me: Ostanem na Slovensku. Haha. Dearest kindest nurse Anna wants me to stay here and be a Slovak. She is j ust cute. :) 12:20 !!!!!!! Dr Marko has just sent me energy and he revealed himself. I like h im a lot and respect. He is a very special man. He is someone I really look up to. He is a role model. God loves him a lot. He said God has blessed me. Or something similar. Maybe God may bless you. He lo ves me, so do I. I asked him to give my best regards to Dr. Vladovic, Dr. Koren, Dr.Molnar. And I also said I miss the nurses. :) I love those nurses. THey are angels and I always enjoyed my stay there. There a re so kind lovely women. * Conclusion - still being watched by those who should not watch me (8C class, former school teachers, etc.) - some changed my dream (I can imagine they were from 8C), How dare they are to disturb my life 23 April 2011 I woke up after midday. I had a short session with Dr. Pearl. I love this guy. H e is caring and is helpful. I will help him and do him any favour he wants from me. Thank you some much for helping me. He did Reconnection but it was not much for soem reason. Then I fell asleep and I had some sort of dreams. I was on a train. I saw some s exy woman. Then a homosexual man came up to me. Then I woke up and I knew it was just a cumbersome attempt to dream with me. The ladies deserve a rest as it is Easter and it is all about women. It is nice of them that tried to help me. I did not enjoyed the dre ams at all. I sent them away, The only guy I recognized was Rana szabolcs. I spoke to him for a while, he had been in New York. I praised the nice photos he took. Then I started some meditation and Dr. Marko came to me. Such a nice man he is. He helped with my aura and mentioned that he has a married daughter. He was a br ain controller and he read my mind when I was in the hospital. I remember the dareful joke I did. I had an idea to say to her daughter (she wor ked there as a surgeon) to say her father that she is in love with me. I just wanted to see Dr. Marko's face for fun. And he knew about this joke of mi ne. I like him a lot. Very nice man. I wished him a lot of successful surgeries and good life and health. DrO was in the background and he sent me some thoughts. We laughed a lot. DrO promised me I would be married to an angel. Well, well. it must be a miracle I guess. Right now it does not seem so promising. I like things have improved with people around me. I said I had an interesting k arma. I have been meeting people from my past and all of them is nice to me and respects me. I am so glad to have Mr. Dermisek and his beautif ul wife. I do not know what for is this good but I cannot foresee it yet. It must have some sense I guess. I can remember clearly when I suddenly found myself in front of my mother who wa s talking.

There were other people there. I could not see them. My mother was confused and nervous. She was sayin: Nem ismerlek fer titeket. Jezus csak nekem nem segit. When she saw me: Te mar nem szereted a tejet. Toth Beata sad we must keep together and I saw these people: Tth Beta, Dani Andrs, Kaderbek I was conscious. I woke up and I denied Dani Andras. I got indignated by the ide a. That guy hurt me a lot and despised my in front of my friends. He hated me and e nvied me. I have forgiven to everyone but that does not mean that now I am friendlu with e verybody. I am not. I have my own human dignity and I choose the people who I am together. He is bel ow par. He is an ashole. I am sorry for him but he has to learn a lot. I do not know whose idea it was bu t I do not like it. I sad I am not a doormat or a rag. I need respect and those who cannot respect m e even the despise me cannot by my friends. He is not a pleasant man. I do not feel well with him and I learned from life that I need to choose always based on what I feel. I must keep distance from people who are unpleasant to me. I have learned this and life has proven to me that it is a good peace of advice for everyone. Nice dreams in the garden: playful dogs, flying, etc.. 24 April 2011 I went to bed at about 9.30 pm. I woke up at about 0:30 am. I could not really remember what I had been dreaming. I only remembered a senten ce in SLovak language. Je mozne Vam pozlat SMS zadarmo? Something like that. I then went to the toilet and after I came back to bed I started to think. I kne w they were listenign to me but did not know who. I thiought of teh movie Romeo and Juliet and then I thought of the mov ie LOve in times of Cholera. I thought of the main hero who had more than 600 lovers in his life but loved on ly one woman. They said they are Christians. I said Ok but I am free. I recommended them the m ovie to watch. I also rehearsed some English words. I recalled Dr Bajza from the slovak TV seri al Panelek. Whjat if it was him???? Then I fall asleep. I can remember in my dream somebody told me to be careful. W hat if it really was Dr Bajza and I just bothered him. He is an actor. I was watching the serial yesterday in the afternoon. I my next dream I was in the living room of the old flat. My mother and brother was there. They were watching TV. I had my mobile phone and I had 5 new SMS messages on my phone. I received a photo. I can remember somebody was talking to me. I heard his voice . He said he is in a much better place than me. I looked at the clock in the living room and it was near midnight. I felt tired so I decided to go to bed. I went out of the room and I met my father who just came back from the toilet. I tried to switch on the light in the toilet but could not. I tried again, it was switched on in the kitchen. I tried again t

hen it was switched on. Then I went to the room I used to sleep in with my brother. I looked in but I fe lt fear. When I was a child I sometimes had some bad visitors in the room. I feared and n ow I know why. It was not just a fear from dark. Than I felt myself on a bus in NZ. I knew somebody could not see his body. He was communicating with me in English. He said : ? I was wondering as I could not remember any dating. I got off the bus and thought I saw Melinda siting on a bencs. Then I was flown back to my bed in this flat. Then google 200 000 Doctors?? SMS?? * Conclusion - I bother others and I know they are quite fed up with me ! - I was warned by Erzsike a few days ago that I could await a curse and I may go crazy??!! Well, it is easy to make somebody upset this way. I have to be very careful. - DrO may "play" with me??!! May guide my dreams?? Keszeg Roland, Bartal Zoltal kutya (hagyjad) Kalman, Toth K, Haris G., Thought: Minden vagyam teljesul. An old woman and Eckhart Tolle: Kurva rosszkor elkezdodott. was in contact with me but I shall I take on a date again? who the man could have been. I woke up.

25. 4. 2011 I went to bed at about 9.30 pm and fall asleep at about 10 o'clock. I gained consciousness in my dream. I was in a yourney to Thailand or what. I cl early remember that I wanted to go away but then some women slapped my naked ass. First they did it with legs. I woke up. I got utterly upset. I do not know who they were but they were probab ly those 8c class. Yesterday they sent Keszeg Roland to ask if I want to help in 8c because they ne ed someone strong. I went into rage. It was not that long ago when I made a very serious statement. It was on the 11th of April. I said I forgave everything in the sake of peace. And this happens. It is Easter but that does not matter to these so called Catholocs people. I have not hurt these people and they did it again to me. So I made a very serious threat. I said I do not want them to send me anything a nd they must not read my mind. I warned them if they would after this read my mind even fore a minute or send m e anything I would hurt them and make them cry. I sweared. Becasue I am fed up with them. I thought I would have peace but they just picked me up and think of me as some rag with which they can play without consequences. I said I had forgiven everything to ev eryone before 11 April but that does not mean

that I would forgive everything after that day. THey simple have gone too far an d they did it deliberately no doubt to make me feel bad and to enjoy themselves. I wonder how can a man of 30 be so childish an d primitiv in alpha. How do they behave if they are not in alpha or drunk? Are they basterd animals? or what? I cannot understand wh at makes them do this to me?????????? I threated them that I could kill them. I did it probably in past lives and I am not nobody who has no power. I said after my death I would thoroughly check the past and punish them make them cry and learn some e thics and respect to others. I am a 31 years old man and I live quite normally without any sins and they just keep hurting me and despizing me and ridicule me. Enough is enough. This was the last time they hurted me. I am not a rug. I said I request respect. I was pretty lost and complained a lot. I blamed ms Isabella and DrO. I have not noticed any improvement and I see my situation quite seriously. My constipation is severe. I cannot sleep well. I have no energ y. Less and less money. Cannot work. No girlfriend. I am skinny. Less love. Bad thought and dreams. It took me a while to finish this and it was no sooner than 2 am when I fall asl eep. I was given The Reconnection I could smell the odor. Pretty funny odor. Nothing particular happened. I had also the feeling that those guys helped me who had been sent by Erzsike so me weeks ago. I am not sure. Then I had some dreams in Slovak language. I had a dream in which I vas omiting acid, The point was that I should not emit anger and hatred. I know but I was upset. I do not know what shall I do in order to have peace.???? I tried to be nice and polite. I asked them to leave me. And it happened again. Sorry but I have my human dignity and I just cannot live like this. I said I should be surged. I had some thoughts I would not need. They are obsess ed with a miracle. Absolutely obsessed with a miracle. I cannot wait for nothing. I had a strange dream in which I saw superman (the young from a TV serial) and a young woman. The woman took a knife and went away. I had the notion that superman would be ju dged and become suspicious for the knife which seemed to be his. I also had the feeling how stupid superman was to let the woman take the knife. Very strange dream. Then I had some other dreams but I cannot remember them. To my great surprise I had a dream with Martin Trnovec. It was a short one. I was said I cannot shot a fox because I have no permission to do it. I saw his picture on a gate. I woke up and I greeted him and was thankful for his visit. I said I would not h urt him. He is younger than me so I am very merciful with people who are younger than me. I wished him good luck, he alth and success. I said I respected him. Why would not I? Works, pays taxes, he is intelligent and married. As long as he

gives me peace I do not have any reason not to respect him. Then he said I am a rabbit. Hahaa. I laughed. I think he did also. Nice people a nd I am glad to be able to work in Bratislava. I learned a lot there. Thank you. I do not know why I cannot learn, why I have t o suffer and live like this. I want to work and be peaceful. Then to my great surprise I had a dream in Hungarian in which I heard the conver sation between my mother and a woman. My mother was argumenting why her son could not go with her to the product prese ntation. She said her son is very busy and has no free time. I wonder if it was my brother or me??!! It is absolutely interesting to me that it turned out that my brother was invite d to the presdentation too but I did not know about it. Well, my mother thinks she gave birth to her children to make her happ y forever. She has no interest in letting us live our own life separately. This dream came from the couple who are likely to buy Roland's garden. Somebody mentioned HTML5. I am not sure. I said it is an utopy and disappointmen t after XHTML.

26 4 2011 I woke up at 1:30 am. In my dream I was with ladies. I can remember asking the p hone number of a girl (in HUngarian) who did not give it to me. Then I saw her with bags and I felt my mother and sai d all of them are like this one. I woke up and said you are outdated if you need to be asked phone numbers as we have e-mail addresses. Then I had the notion that I was disturbing. Afterwards some lady went into me a nd said szeretlek. Either Agnes or Melinda. I had a strange dream in the kitchen. I was sitting on my PC chair but I was in the kitchen of the old flat. My mother was cooking and I sitting in the chair which was moving a bit. My mother was talking something like : tojasos krumpli, soska fozelek. I also sa w piskotat. The small TV set was on and I heard something in Hungarian. I said this in the 21th century some toilets will collaps. In hungarian. It looked to me that somebody entered my mind and said these sentences to make f un of me. I of course woke up. The problem is that this night I could not sleep very well again. I can also remember a dream in which I was manipulating with computer components computer (zdroj, kabelek) I felt that the energy in me whihc is connected to my conscious focus did a grea t job. I just moved my attention to a nbody part and I distionctly felt the energy flow ing into me. I went to toilet which was a great surprise to me. It seems to me that I would n ot need any surgery if I had enough energy. Well, well. Either it will be substituted or my chakras need to be cleared

which is a huge suffering. So I had a substantial stool and I went back to bed pretty happily that I would be sleeping very well. I told everybody to leave me alone. I fell asleep but not much time after I was entered by somebody taken into alpha and I heard a loud music which took about a minute. I tried to stop it but I could not. I tried harder but could not. I spoke to him. I asked why?? He spoke back in Eng lish to me. He had a young man voice. Then it was over. When I felt asleep again I had the answers from a helper. She even showed me his full body. He did it because he envies my money I have. That little money I have. Hm... I always forget that I am a rich person. She sent me a dream in which a woman was about to pay in a shop and I among othe r persons were watching her. The woman decided to pay by credit card and I had the feeling she felt embarrassed because she did not want to let others know how much she paid. Them we were given her signature and credit card which was not Visa but Kaiser?? ??!! I understand the guy was a young man but what the hell he is thinking???? Does he know that I not only have some money but also some parants and a disease ? Does he know that the money comes with all this? Does he envy me for my parents and disease or just the miney? Does he know that he is healthy??? Does he know what a gift that is? Is he young and healthy? Then why the fuck he cannot work harder???? WHt the fuck he envies me and not Mr Slota the politician who robbed most of the money he has from tax payers. Why are these so called acquint ances of mine so limited in thinking and primitive?? WHy do they envy me and despize me? Is it still karma? asked about mother got dream about her, new medicine ect. Answer seems to be yes * Conclusion - from yesterday I have some energy that fills my aura. It is in my attention. Where I focus my attention it fills with energy. I feel much more better since y esterday. I guess it was a DIP and not DrO of course. - today I lended the book by Dr. Pearl to my mother. She seemed to be hopeful an d grateful. She is very frustrated by her health. It is true. - I just realized that even Mr. Hortai envied my money. Even him !!!!! THis country is totally mad ! - It is bad that some strangers met me and they develop negative envious emotion s towars me. My helpers should not let anyone to get close to me. Strangers have nothing to do with me. - I am utterly surprised at how envious people are in this fucked country. The local Hungarian minority is a despize to the country. They envy each other a nd develop hatred. The hell with such people. I really shopuld leave this rotten country. 27 4 2011

I woke up after midnight. I had some dreams but could not remember them. They were some woman related. I can remember two other dreams: 1. the bottom line was that we do not talk about brain control 2. I was in pidzsama and I had a bottle of some liquid. I drank from it. Then I wanted to cover it with a coin. I chose a coin from a few on the table and covered the bottles open ing. The coin, however was too little so it fall into my limonade. I was a bit annoyed and said that I need to buy a n ew bottle of that liquid. Then I woke up. I did not know who was the dream sent by. The dream might mean t hat is does not pay of to be tight fisted. I asked the angel to say my name. I was in a very good mood and full of love. I do not know why. I thought she was a DIP or her manager. I was joking and called her baby. Sexy b aby, lady. Angel, kindest angel. Whatever. She sent me a dream. She was the nurse Anna Garaiova. Hmmm.. I think, she likes me. I did not refuse her help. I was just surprised. Then I had an alpha like dream. Former school mate called Mt. He had had problems with his back at school. I saw him but did not shake hands with me. Then he turned back and did I guess. I woke up. He criticized me slightly. Regarding him I spend too much time with sex, etc. I also saw in a dream a table put across railway line. It was a mother and a chi ld. I guess it meant not to hurt them. Well, he might have heard about the thigs I did in my previous life. when I woke up I got upset. It turned out that he had been spyin on me for more than 10 years. He was my school mate for only 2 years. And I was totally surprised what he want ed. Why he had been spyin on me. I asked him to leave and not to read my mind. He did not give up. I heard a messag I love him. It was sent by someone else. He was not behaving badly or like an enemy. I just was wondered why after so man y years. We were not even friends. He was operating on astral level because after I asked when I would have peace? In the coffin?? Immediately I felt he wanted to go into me and I got scared becasue it is a kind of terror. So his mistake was that he was pushy and it reminded my the attack of those evils. Very scary thing . He was strong I hardly could wake up. I can remember my childhood. I was many times annouyed by such entities. EIther good or bad I do not know but I do know that I did not have a very peaceful childhood. I had many dreams with him. I had a dream with cactuses. I never saw him. In my dream I saw my mother who by accident broke off a cactus. It was still alive. I had a dream with banana tr ees. I guess he was helped by the guy who was sitting next to me. He also said or sent a dream how good it is to criticize.

I can remember a dream in which I was looking out of the window of my room in th e old flat. I saw bricks everywhere. Children took bricks from the waist container and I saw a few heaps of bricks. He pointed out that I like to criticize. Etc. But he was loveful. I heard az Istenit from a woman. I exagerrated it. He was a friend and I was rud e to him. I realized it and also realized that how bad feeling it is being refused for no reason. All right I said he can send me some dreams twice a week and by this he would help my helpers who in return would love him and he might get even a ki ss or two. I said I had forgiven everything and he had not been so bad to me at school. I t hink it was all right. I got out of bed at 8.30 am. Before I had a dream in which I saw my father my mother. In my dream I saw a han d anatomically and an explanation why it hurts when it is grabbed in a special way. Then I saw how my father grabbed the left hand of m y brother he showed pain. Then my mother also. Then I got the idea or he that maybe I shoudl try it out also. So I went to him and he grabbed my hand but I did not feel pain I made a huge efffort to not let push my hand down. I wa s not feeling fear instead courage and playfullness. I strained s much that I woke up. I had the idea that he made it deliberately. I looked at my watch and it was 8.30 am. I was wondering who did it ???? who was the guy?? iS he an angel or the school mate.??? Is he unemployed like me?? I also heard a critics regarding which I am too noisy/

April 28 2011 Before midday I had a Reconnection. It was Dr. Pearl or some of his colleagues. He only initiated the process in my dream. I was lying on my left side. I woke up and immediately recognized the situation and did my best to accept it. I felt odors and I did a great job because it lasted pretty long. At least 40 mi nutes. It started down and I allowed everything, accepted as much as I could and I felt the frequencies, and I helped to allow them to come up. The frequencies reached my head not enterily but I consider the session to be hi ghly successful. MY aura was considerately repaired and my quality of sleep was greatly improved afterwards. Before the session I had a dream in a restaurant. I was hesitating but then I de cided to call a tart :) Then I woke up. Pretty interesting. After midday I had another The reconnection attempt. I was dreaming semi conscio usly the following. Some kind of cake with lemon was and I had to talk about its ingredients. The idea of the healer which was a young woman who was asked by dear Magdi neni (form form master from elementary school)

was to prepare me to feel, sense. I did not work becasue I started thinking in m y dream and that means I used thoughts instead of feelings. Absolutely nothing happened. I took it as a kind and true a ttempt to help me and I thanked. I joked that the angels my not work today. Or that since I had not paid I did no t get the healing. or that I am also a healer so I should try to heal myself. They said "majd masko r". THey are very kind. ANd I am thankful for their true help. With the improved aura I had a deep dream. I did not have an alpha dream, yet it was interesting. I somehow entered a class room and I saw there Keszeg who asked somebody (Jancsi ) to catch me ???!!! I was flying or what and they wanted to catch my left arm but I did not feer and went through the wall and they disappeared. I woke up. I then again fell asleep and I heard voices. A group of people. They were some o f my former school mates in a class. I heard the voice of Varagya. I am not sure 100% but I would say it was hers. I started the communication with writing messages on a computer screen. They did it simlarly. We did not talk about anything. But then they said: Dani A ndras ma megint ..... Dani Andras was there, obvious and he hates me still, obvious. He said something or so. I was said by someone else that he went to India. I then saw two indian little b oys who talked in Indian like language. Was that info true. Of course, not. THey made me a fool. The just wanted to get rid of me and they are absolutely not interested in me to gain consciousness. They do not want me to ta lk to them because probably they spread lies about me and do not want me to clarify them or just revenge the m. Unfortunately this group was not my friends because they despise me and make foo l of me including Varagya Sz. I should ignore everything that I hear from them as they are not interested in c ommunicating with me. I am simply not welcome in their. I should not visit them. I also saw a new young lady who said in Hungarian this: falling in love in 80 da ys. Hmm.. I can also remember a web page and the world family in it. They do not want to h urt me but do not love me nor respect me. I can understand it. It is pity that I do not have many true friends. Hm. Well. That's it. Kovago. Raining. He was running to a building with two ladies. Dream with Csibi. * Conclusion - those, Keszeg, Varagya, Dani Andras have no interest in taking me seriously an d they just take me for a rag or rubbish. They make a fool of me by talking nonsense to me and I get confused. I do not li ke them at all.

29 4 2011 Yesterday I sent an e-mail to Farkasne Erzsbet (family therapist, Reconnective He aling practiticioner,.). I asked her for a Recnnective Healing appointment. I asked I need it in 2-3 week s time. Or else she could recommend me somoen. There are about 20 Reconnective Healing practicioners in Bu dapest. How shall I know which one is the best. There is really a difference between practicioners. A big differenc e. This night I was given a Reconnective Healing by Erzsike. I was surprised why. S he did a great job. It was very warm everyvhere. I could recommend her to anyone. I was not healed but my aura was improved. 30 4 2011 I did not have much stool yesterday for some reason. Yesterday in the evening I took 5 mg of Bysacodil. It is 8 am in the morning and I still have not had stool. When I went to bed I thought of Erzsike and felt she is already ready for me. She started the healing but I was not in a good mood and started thinking. The angels do not want to heal me. It is obvious. Too obvious. I am not blaming them for anything. It is useful to face reality and facts. The day before I left for Hamburg I noti ced somebody from other worlds who repaired my aura. He sent me some visuals too displaying that I am a strong man (body). But he did not heal me. They watch us and know wverything. They could heal easil y anyone. I have had more than anough pretty strong sessions and unfortunately not a singl e problem disease has been solved. Not a single. It had not lasting effect. That's why I do not want anybody to bot her me with Reconnective Healing. They cannot heal me. I have to do something else or just live like this. I have no idea. But I DO KNOW that I should be threated by a very very good psychoterapeut. Yes, it would help. The surgery would not make me happy. This trauma is very heavy and just pushes m e down and digests me. So yesterday while Erzsike was working on me I started thinking. I alwasy felt after some period of time what I was to do. WHen I was unemployed afte a year or so I sterted learning I knew it was what I was supposed to do. Then later I felt strongly that I must work and make use of the knowledge. It was all right. I loved my job despite commuting to work. Then I was unemployed but I found something exciting, I did some research on Aja x and XML stuff. I loved it. I worked in ImgPub as well. I loved it as well. And I was constipate d pretty severely but I knew what I was supposed to do. Then a year or two years before my first surgery I felt something very strong an d strange. It was knew and I felt that something happy would happen'. I felt nurse Anna before I met her. At least a year before I met her I could fee l and sense that something big is going to happen. Since 2008 I am just struggling. I lost the joy from my job. And I felt worse an d worse. I missed the purpose of my life. How can you miss the purpose of your life?? Well, I did miss. She was it. I supposed to be happy. It all started in 2006 whe n my mother sold the house. Bad events started to happen. ANd yesterday I just realized that I probably finished my job. Is there a next t rain for me? Is there a new chance for me?

Maybe a last chance? Considering my health, as long as I would not gain improvem ent I do not see any chance. So yesterday I realized that I alwys did what I felt I should do. What do I feel know? I said yesterday that I could not feel anything. Is it true or I can feel something. Well, to be honest I feel something. I want to be healthy. I want to get rid of my traumas. All of them!!! I do not need the surgery. That would not make me happy. That's n ot a success story. I need that therapy. It is going to be hell. Yes. I cannot live like this. I do not see any enjoyment in my life. Yep, maybe because I am depressed. Of course, I am. ANd unhappy deeply. I really hope the DIP woman can tell me where shall I go with my shit problems. It is really a bad karma to be born into this tiny country where despite wanting to be healed there are no good hospitals so you gonna suffer. It would be different if I lived in Germany. They have the best hospitals,. They definitely suffer less. defintely. SO am I to suffer here? Because I do not think I have enough money fo r Germnay. And this life is just not cooperating with me. I really do not know why I cannot win some dosh. I tried. Nothing,. It is cruel. Very cruel. I am interested in becoming healthy but I am not feelin g like suffering in the worse SLovak hospital for months without any result. I am simply not such a masochist. My last chance is the DIP woman. I feel such a hopeless lad. Why fuck I am such hopeless.????????? I should double check these feeling not to make something foolish again. I was joking but that was a bitter joke.. She left and I think she was disappointed by me. If I was to blame that I am sti ll unhappy and not healthy. What I feel most sorry for is the precious time that I lost and wasted. Also the money. DrO was my biggest mistake. I made many mistakes after 2006. I wather often did not do waht I felt I was sup posed to do. My problem was that I trusted Ms Isabella, I trusted DrO and they all lied me an d I just wasted my time with them. In fact I did a huge discovery regarding the true cause of my problems and they are all psychical problems from my early childhood.[ It is very disappointing and frustrating that after 31 years I have not solved m y past yet and it seems to be a huge problem. But this is how it is andf fuck it. It usually pays off to do what you feel you have to. Like Steve Jobs did. Do not settle down. Keep seeking for what you need. I had a dream in which I was about to visit Erzsike and I had hand bag. I was on my way to Ersike when I bumped into Kovago Dani. I looked into my bag, there were some books and a toilet paper in it. I even dropped my ID card and picked up. There were more there I do not know who else. I felt Erzsike also thinks that I would visit her for ego reasons to complaion h er. No, nope. I never thought of it that she would do a remote healing. What I wanted is a pro per one ot one healing.

Well, she maybe knows it better. Probably there is absolutely no difference betw een remote healing (asteal level) and in person. And if that is the case then I do not see ay reason to visit her. Yep. She has not written me back but I feel embarressed and I feel it was a mistake t o bother her again. I do not want anything from her. Yes, it was a mistake. Maybe I just missed her. I needed some love. Maybe. Sure. In my next dream I was in a completely new place. I saw many people there and I have a notian they talked English. When I woke up I was lying on my stomach and The Reconnection started. It was ei ther successful or made to look like successful. I can admit I had some visuals probably not from humans and they were strange. I was sweating really. ANd I felt a lot of hot. Also could smell new odors. So it was a proper healing session and I should have been healed. Well, nothing was healed at least I have not noticed anything particular. I had dreams in the garden. I saw my wife or just somebody. I saw my brother. I was told I was a children. Kaderabek, Dani Andras, Magda tanito neni. 1 May 2011 Yesterday I was silent. I realized that I was not behaving very well and my ego had grown. Also I knew I would not be healed by the reconnective healing. So I wanted to accept th e situation and not complain. I watched E. Tolle. I was quite silent. When I went to bed I felt immediately some energy flowing into me. Very distinct lyu felt. Well, it was the dearest kindest woman, angel, I have ever met, Erzsike. Thank you, and God bless you. She sent m e (normal) energy for at least 30 minutes. I was realy low on energy. I even had to lie down in the afternoon. While I was receiving the energy I was wondering how it was possible that I was still alive and healthy. I have no disease only severe energy deficit. I loose energy very shortly. I had a dream in which two young chaps wanted to sit on me. I was sitting and th e wanted to sit on me but I felt pain in my stomach. Some woman, I think Erzsike took their hands and went a way. I went after them and said to her in Hungarian something rude that why they had to hurt me. Then I wok e up. I thought and knew it was because i was sent energy during my sleep but these tw o persons were close to me. And I imagined that. I can also remember a dream in which I was liyng on my parent' bed in the old fl at and somebody was lying next to me. I gaind consciousness and I nudged him so that he feel off the bed. I felt that he was a man. Less than one second after I nudged him I knew he was Mr Pintes Bela. I did not woke up. I was quickly sent another dream in a totally different place . Then again some another place in a car where my mother was.

WHen I woke up I said the following.: There are too many people just playing with me and they absolutely confuse my dr eams and my mind. My subconscious mind thinks confusingly. I said I am not a TV set that you can s witch from one dream to another dream. THat simply confuses the mind. It is very harmful. My mind just starts to dream and speak some text it is creative but confused and speaks nonsense. ALmost like a mad mind. I do not find it funny or helpful . I simply need to dream on my own or with 1 or two helpers. I aslo said the difference between a helper and a friend is that a helper wants nothing from me. He or she only gives. While a friend wants something from me or wants his own identity enhance by maki ng fun of me or joking in front of his real friends. I said I do not need friends. I need helpers. I also said I do not want nurse An na to visit me every night. Why? I have just remembered. In my dream I gained some consciousness and my soul recognized her and I talked to her. I said she was an angel. Then they, the others quickly changed the dream into a different place in the garden. I saw cats and I fondled them. DO they realize how they confuse my tired mind??? ? SO I said she'd better keeps away from me for her sake. And I criticized the helpers that they cause harm to me. They confused my mind a nd it cannot go on like this. When I talked to nurse Anna they should not send me another dream. If they do no t want me to talk to her than why they allow her to visit me? Anyway I do not find it bad to talk to her. My soul loves her. I do not want anything from her. She disappoite me a bit after she or her friends cursed me. And made me sleep, e tc, etc. When I look back what has already happened to me this year, then I am shocked. T otally shocked. So many attacks and hurts and threats and near deaths situations and fears that I am terrified. All because of Dublin. Which I firmly believe was a huge mistake. ANd it does have its consequnces and do suffer. Why are we ill? I asked myself the question and I figured out that it is not the germs or viruses that make us ill but others. I have been having sleeping problems for some months. I realized if there were no people wanting to hurt me or despize me I would not have sleeping problems. I was sent some very negative tho ughts in disguise by tarts. My mind was severely confused by people lying me in my dreams. I was hurt by Mr. Hortai the most. He sent to me a lot of enemies or better said he created a lot of enemies for me. He sent a psycho ther apist to have a look at me. Then I had another therapist who wanted to proof that Erzsike is wrong. They wer e evil. They just provoked me with my brother to proof their truth in a vicius way. How dare they were. All these people inclu ding some of my former school mates hurt me. And the result is that I have sleeping problems. I woke up quite often and canno t sleep deeply without worries or thoughts.

I have been having confused dreams for some time. The realization I made was that there is nothing wrong with me !!! I am only a v ictim of some people who play with me during night. There is no curse. Or they act out the curse. It is a sorrowful reralization that many people are ill only because of others. It is not germs, viruses or some planet constellatio n. Nope. There are toxic people among us. And they can be very dangerous. Somebody said I have a lot of enemies. I felt some anger and despair. I then had an alpha like dream in which Melcsi tnci suggested me that I am a lead er and I felt the idea that I could leade a war. I laughed inside and afterwards explained her we cannot fig ht egoism. I then woke up. I think those were my thoughts and honest from my heart. I am co nvinced that egoism cannot be fought. It generates more pain and war. I said I want peace and had forgiven for the pas t. I do not want enemies. They should forgive or forget me. I then talked a little bit about the world and this country. I said there are ma ny toxic people here and life is very difficult if you are other than the average. I praised Melcsi tunci and wondered how is possible that she has such a low ego. She is almost enlightened. I look up to her a lot. I said brain control is the challenge of the humanity but I think in many countr ies it is a curse for many. We cannot fight but we can leave. And I am more and more convinced that I have t o leave. There is no happiness here for me. It is a miracle or a blessing if you find your ideal partner, spouse. It helps to live someone like mindid and like hearted because you do not feel al one and you live for some reason. The secret for happiness lies in lies. How have to lie or disguise your happines s instead of bragging. Sometimes you cannot share your happiness even with your own parent. Many times in this country. Because they envy your happiness and resent, of course they pretend they are ple ased but nope. So many want to be my friends. I do not need many. I need especially female frie nds. Cat mewing by Dani Andras. Probably. Indian music by Hausleitner Agi. She is such a playful angel. She loves little fun and jokes. I like her. I mentiond her that she had lied to me about her singliness. I could not underst and why shy had done it. It was not very nice. I told her I was puzzled and eventually relived after seeing her Facebook accoun t. I told her she does not have to fear me (jokingly), I am not a threat to her, I am not going to rape her. She told me her husband knows about me and he gave permission to help me. He is a good husband he is not jealous.

Thank you and God bless you. Mrs. Isabella promised again my miracle. The only problem she has no clue when i t is going to happen. After how much suffering. 12:00 Ildiko has just visited me. She suggested me to marry an angel so that I w ould become and angel without suffering. Some other things I remember. I said the south of this country is a hell becasue of people who live here. I said with a sense of humour that I would give it to Hungary as it is seen by m e as something filthy. I joked, yep slovaks need cheap vegetables. I also mentioned what is an ideal wife. Many men prefer wives with less IQ but m ore EQ and love. I myself share this idea or belief. I said I prefer women friends. I visualized Dani Andras at a restaurant table an d myself. And I said well, I would feel more pleased with a woman. I did not mean in a bad way. I wish him a good life. When you suffer and have sufferred enough then you are grateful for peace and yo u value peace and willing to forgive and forget. I do not care about the past any more, I wish to have peace and forgiven ess. I really wish to have some better life. Unfortunately it does not look very promising but well. I must be hopeful. * Conclusion - it is highly important that attacks, negative suggestions would be eliminated druing night - it is also highly essential that I would have a better sleep and better dreams . - Mrs Farkasne seems to have accepted or convinced by Mrs Isabella that my desti ny cannot/must not be av averted. She seems to have reconciled with my destiny. - Mrs Isabella keeps repeating the miracle. Does she know the price of it? How m uch extreme suffering will I have to get? She does not seeem to know it. Therefore I find her decision a little bit i nconsiderate, cruel and maybe selfish. I have just checked my freen card DV 2012 application. Bad luck. I was not selec ted. I tried last year as well. I should have more luck with life.

May 02 2011 I had Slovak helpers when I woke up first. I cannot remember the dream. I was given Reconnective Healing. Then I fell asleep and then I woke up again later. I was receiving energy from Erzsike, I am not sure. I then received a short dream by someon. It was telling that a man hurted a little girl and also said that there was a pr oblem with him. He showed a man in a neat smoking and did some magic trick. At first I thought it was by some psycho therapist. Then I started thinking and

also wanted to know what was the point of it. It was probably by Mlinda or Her h usband. She was concerned about my negative thoughts. I reassured her I like children an d since I reached the adult age I cannot remember ever wanting to hurt a child. They smile at me always and never fear. I can understand her concerns. Prostitute and her tatooes. Analogy. Mrs. Isabella and her husband. My little rats :0)) She started sending me some energy and I just came up with her husband. I had been missing her husband. I thought he had gained access to heaven already . Nope. It semmed he is still her. I felt two or even three entities entering my body through my nose. The smell was familiar. But not exactly Vinco's smell. They softened the energy in my abdomen. They said they are my rats. THey wanted me to smile. I did. I loved my little guests. Deep alha dream to proove the problem. I guess it was watched by many. Several times received energy today during the day. I have an appointment for Friday at Erzsike. 3 May 2011 Cesnek Jozef - really despising dreams. It is said I had upset some Catholics people. Yesterday I talked a lot. Unfortun tely. I just said that he knew his destiny. And how hard it was for him. I was not so critical. The Reconnection again. It seemed to me that I had back the young charming blond psycho therapist lady from Germany. She said Erzsike is helping me all day?!! WHy?? SHe said it was a gift (the healing). During the healing I started to have thoug ht and some visuals. There was something about psychotherapy. I do not know what. The first dream I r emember was walking in the filthy streets of this country. I was asked if people are so bad here what am I looking here still. Well, I have an appointment. It said there is someone waiting for me in Dublin. At Oconneyl street. I saw som eone peeling potatoes. Later I realized it was a joke. They meant the lady who has statue. Later I had some thought half slovak, half Hungarian. There is someone who is in Hungary. Will I marry her. Etc. At first I took it seriously but it turned out it was a v ery cruel joke fueld by hatred and envy. ANd the guy was Mr. Cesnek Jozef who introduced hiself in my dream. I was shocke d. I was not pleased by his visit. He was my clas mate for 2 years at middle school and he just attacked me with hi s very disrespectful dreams. They were to despize me and fool me. I was wondering who let the guy close to me . And I was also wondering how dare he was to

hurt me again after he had done to me. He was a very bad guy at school and I nev er hurt him and totally forget everything. Instead of apologizing me for being rude to me and unkind and violent sometimes he came to make a fool of me and my master in front of others. I did not invite him and hope noody had invited him. So I fi nd it very impolite and pushy to do this. Well, but what can we expect from low people. I said I had forgiven verybody and I did not have anger in me. I asked everybody not to hurt me because I had done nothing. I am only a vistim of other's unfortunate faults and my wrong decisions. That's all. ANd I am ill. I said I wanetd peace and wished everybody regardless of being my enemy or friend a blissful life and happines.. I do not know if they wished the same for me , nor if they asked me to forgive them. He is not my friend. And cannot be. I also received a message: Kibekulni. I tried and kindly asked everybody to not hurt me and not to read my mind. Unfortunately they seem to ignore my wish and my privacy. What a pity that they do not respect my wish. This is exactly the evidence that they are curious bastards. Mrs. Isabella.. Cutortok we meet again afte I had CT. * Conclusion - some new attacks are to be expected ? - I cancelled the appointment with Erzsike. I do not want her to help me any mo re. We'll meet each other after death. - Some people are pissed off. I however, was here in my bed and I swear I hurt nobody. - Erzsike is pissed off me. I can understand. I do not want to think of her any more.\fs - when I woke up I had in my right ear a strong ful csenges, zugas - today 3 may 2011 at 20.00 I have just noticed that I have a slight in both of my ears.

4 May 2011 Yesterday when I went into bed I felt a strong energy. I could move it from my p alms into my body. I filled my body with this warm energy for at least 2 hours. Nurse Anna was around me also. With the renowed aura I was more conscious and I could catch some visuals and thoughts. After some hours she asked Preco nerozumiem :)) I had a lot of thoughts. marry someone. I think she feels bad. I ul angel. I gave her roses because e keeps seeing me and helps me. I hope she to move this flat and do something. I hope Which she also noticed and pointed out. I said I would like her a lot and she must be an angel. She is beautif somebody suggested me. She is really consciousness , sh is happy and wish I could show some improvement. I need to have the nergy.\fs

It is still Dr Pearl and his friends who help me. - I had some bad dream and the message: Erre van szuksegem.

- I saw three or for people sleeping on the floor they had zsak on their head. I went there as if I had been an English language student. I was wondering wh y they were sleeping. After this I felt if Erzsike was there and then I was in this room in my bed but then my father came into the room and said Attila gyerek and was naked. I was told not to look there. The point of this was to make Erzsike feel puzz zled. Some people do not like her or me. I feel sorry. It could be because I woke u p those guys. * Conclusion - The original idea was that Erzsike would send me energy during the day and ni ght but I cancelled the appointment and I do not want her to help me any more.\ I feel sorry for her. - Erzsike is despized by some people I noticed it. They may think she had hurt me. - Unfortunately nothing happened yesterday. Somebody installed a new energy, th at's all. It is not my reward by God or a miracle. Nope. They realy want me to be heal ed by The Reconnective Healing. ANd they realized that the aura is pretty impo rtant. also a relaxxed state and the funny smells also are to be accepted. - Agian the blonde psycho therapist helped me. She makes me have a sexual experience with a woman and then starts the sessio n in order for me to accept the funny smell and be relaxed. The problem is with presence, whi ch should be higher. - I realized I annoy some people during the night. I was said hulye by somebody when I intangled into some thought stream. in Hu ngarian.

5 5 2011 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! attack by the same entity. Immediately I was protected by a young DIP man. Thank you. What a shame they do not want to end my suffering. 7 may 2011 "Do not be like Cassandra because we are not gonna help you". I hear this in my dream. Unfortunately my sleep is not very good and I felt some evil for a while in me. I was said I always choose the wrong. I was recommended to pray. Today I understood what is the matter. Now I see everything clearly. It is true that Mrs Isabella speculated with DrO. They never had the intention t o change my destiny. Never. That is why DrO was so reluctant to help me. It is true that the sufferin g could have been avoided and I would not have been waisting my time. To my ego the time after Dub lin is a waste of time. Dublin was a huge mistake! DrO could change my destiny but he is not going to do it. Not at all. Could others do? Yes, but :

- it is a huge curse and nobody is stronger than DrO He threated me on Friday. When I was called on Friday by the DIP's assistent I remembered the threat and I felt a very Dublin like dense energy in my left part. I had difficulty bread ing. It was his programming of course. He had said he would not help. Regarding him the curse would went onto me fully (sort of like Dublin) - Erzsike changed my destiny on the first family constellation and it was a huge mistake. Regarding Bert H. the therapist must not change destiny. Therefore I do not th ink it would be a good idea to change destiny esoecially if I would receive a miracle What am I to do???????? Very simple. Enjoy life. And do not worry. Most importantly do not get involved with ezotherism or anything similar to it. It was me who said only a miracle could help me. I said Mrs. Isabella lied to me . It is too late to find a solution. It is too late. There is nothing that could b e done. The only thing is to have some good friends who would help me. Without their hel p I would be dead by now. Time is important. I need to survive this year somehow. I was told also that t he surgery would be a mistake. The kineziologist said I will nod need the surgery. The only thing that matters to me when will the miracle happen? WIll it happen a fter Mrs. Isabella's vision came to true??? Btw. The reason I was made to leave this flat is very simple. It is a fact that lady Isabella can see when some bad entities would attack me. She simple did not want to attack her!!!! So Simple. 8 May 2011 I did not go to the DIP. It is 8:11 am. Now it is 9:15. I have just called Mrs Korcekova (assistant of Mrs Palcsoova). I said I overslept. I am so sorry. She said I do not have to pay. I feel bad but I could not do anyt hing about it. I had a lot of dreams during the night. When I first woke up I had some The reconnection healing. I was not doing it ve ry much. But I am grateful. Then I met Bartal Zoltan in my dream. I fondled his aura with my hand and I said I like him. I do like him. He was always very modest. I was warned by him bad things are gon na happen. I wanted to know who are my enemies. I was showed the picture of our elementary school and Keszeg Roland. They said Teufel. They said he is really bad. Well, I can remeber one dream I ha d a few days or weeks ago when he wanted to catch me. But he does not seem bad at all. The I had a dream in a large hall. Bartal Zoli was there and many other people, I cannot remember all. Then I saw at the end of the hall Pintes Bela who worked as a barkeepr. I decide

d to go and see him. But then in the middle of the room I just saw Kovago Dani who was dessed very ne atly. He shook hands and he showed me a table where former middle school class mates were. They all were dre ssed as I they were celebrating something. I saw Mr. Urban Gabor to who I said Hi. He then said : leszarom a Hi-t. Well, no body was happy about me. Then immediately I found myself in the same large hall (in the beginning of the hall where I saw Bratla Z.) facing Keszeg Roland. He was just passing by but I talked to him. I wanted to know why he or my enemies hate me. He did not answer this question. He said he is bad. And I would suffer. I saw a change in his eyes. I gave my hands to his hand and I felt almost nothing bad. He said I would feel. And he also said that he is more evil than my father??! Then I had a thought of Dr. Pearl and I started doing the movements to heal him. He did not want to release my hand so I lifted him up then I throwed him to my b ack then If felt some bite in my neck. Then I heard Eleg legyen. Hm..... It was real. I really did not make up all this . I do not believe he is bad. Why would he? Earlier, after I met Bartal Z I asked I want to know why my enemies hate me and what if they could forgive me. Later I was sent some dreams. I must have said some erotic parodies. I also can remember showing on a computer screen the number of Hungarians in this city. I also can remember two women who had the same parfume and they were homosexuals. I can remember I had been suggested parfume. To buy parfume. What if I took it a s an offense and said some jokes.

some fair, we could ask questions Some young woman. English teacher or what 9 may 2011 lots of dreams. I woke up before midday. I had some dreams. In my dream I woke up and stood up. I noticed that my shoe laces were tied together. I said Fuck off. I woke up. They tried to provoke me. I knew. I went to the toil et and that was all. After a while I got asleep. I was woken up again after some time. It was again s ome despizing provoking dream but I cannot remember. I was receiving negative thoughts. I was waiting for more than 1 hour and the ne gative thoughts would not end. It was an attack from Hungarian speaking people. I did not know why they did it . They even tried me to see my dick. I was receiving energy but I refused even that. Mrs Isabella as well passed by s he sent me energy.

She wants to let me know she helps me. Nope. She spoilt my life. She lied. Not o nly to me. I have forgiven. I also received messages like Imadkozni jo. I said I had no religion but beliefe . Unfortunately we all have believes. I trie to believe in positive things but I would need to eliminate negative peop le from around. I then got asleep and I received a written message. The sender was fed up with m e as regarding him / her I speak about prostitutes, sex angels. I had asked my helpers to eleminate the attacks. Sending negative thoughts to so mebody is a very bad carma and a shame to every brain controller. AFter this I had no negative thoughs. I got asleep but in my dream I was in the living room of the old flat with my br other and he said that he had not watered the cactus. I saw the cactus was dying and I became very angry. I throwed my slippers to the floor. i woke up. I was wondering why they disturbed and annoyed me. In my next dream I found myself lying next to Vadkerty. He was kind and smiling but was lying too close to me. I said to him to go away becasue some might think that he is homosexual. I stood up and I banged his head into my knees. I was violent a bit. I felt a bit bad. I woke up. I said he had been asked not to show up to me ever. I had saud he was not a polite person to me. I threated him to respect my privacy and not to do it again. Before I banged his head he said I was a little cat. Then I received a vison with a pram and two boyes in it. I said Ok maybe you are married,. Congratulations. I then had another dream in which my mother was talking to my brother and she st arted her talk with a sentence ending with the world "kisfiam". I then said. This is the problem, you have just answered t he problem. I spoke to her and asjed her if she kknew what she had said. Unfortunately this was real and she might heard it real ly. I woke up again and just asked WTF?? I said the way to happiness is to express our wishes and not to be inflenced by anyone. I also had a dream in which an elephant was sitting on a toilet and said it hurt s a little bit. Yesterday I tried to chat with Melcsi tunci on Facebook but she was idle. She as ked me in my dream if I wanted to say something important. I replied nope. A dream with nurse Anna?? For a while I could remeber that I had a dream even wi th nurse Anna. Hm... I am sorry for tha and I do appoligize. Student Agency , some book Close to morning I had some dream with the pretty stewardess from Student Agency (the bis to Prague).

Before that I had some book from maybe them. I had a look at the pages and then they tried to send me a message. They asked if Slovak is OK. I really bothered STudent Agency in my dream. Oh shi t.. And I hate DrO for that. Before I got out of my bed I had some dream with the woman from Student Agency a nd I saw a man who was watching me. Hm. Very interesting. I did apologize. I really do not want to disturn others an d violate their privacy. Sorry again. I also had at some point that Varagya was interacting with me. Hm.. 5.2 mill people in jail. The person wanted to point out that this remote spying is now so common that everybody would be in jail.

10 May 2011 I had a dream with Mr. Haris. I met him in the street in this city. He was dress ed neatly and had a nice black puppy. He did not say anything and did not even shook hands. Later I had some other dreams which pointed out that nationality is not to be th rown into dust bin. Hm.. Ok. I have their opinion. Thanks. At least three years ago I decided that I do not need it. Sorry. My other dream was to point out that gentlemen solve their problems easier. I wanted to get to some place and I had to do a lot of detour. Then I saw a gent leman dressed in business suit who went down by a glassed elevator. And I said to myself And I did such a huge efort while he took the lift. I just wonder how would they solve the problems I have if they were in my place. I also learned that they fear me. Which never had happened to me since I am adul t. Ms Ildiko helped me. I found myself in a class room with some ladies. I was stan ding, there were two people next to me. I said hi to them. I can remember somebody was talking about charity. Giving money to poor people a nd then people who were well of came too. I turned out it was Ms. Ildiko. I said health and job is needed to be happy. I a lso said that all the unemployed people should move to some place and create a new country. That's what did after America was d iscovered. Mostly unemployed and lost people moved to America and built a new heaven. The problem is simply that we have not enough work. The solution would be to shorten workin hours or working days per week. Simple we should divide the work we have between all people. If there is so little work then people should work less and earn less money. But healt is a more tough problem. The country is responsible for providing heal

th care system for their citizens. Unfortiunately this country failed in achieving a quality health care system. An d when you are diagnosed a severe problem then you are pretty lost. I also had some stupid dreams. I was in the garden and I was shooting to some pe ople. I simoly do not understand why some idiots must spoil my dreams. I had stated ma ny months ago I do not want violence in my dreams. No weapons at all. I am suspicious of Csibi. I do not want him to dream with me. He is such a child. Yesterday I was very very tired Today I have extreme tiredness. on the bed and sleep for almost one hour but did not I hardly can keep my eyes open. and sleepy. I have been tired since 10 o'clock. I had to lie help. I cannot remember when I was so tired.

The explanation of course is simple. Many people stopped sending me energy. That's it. Yesterday Haris told me in my dream that I have 18 friends. But it seems to me t hat they want something from me. I told I do not have to do anything. Today I called a new DIP Galanova. She said to call her manager. Ok I did. She was nervous and quicly said that she had no time and she would call me back. Hah. She would not call me back for all the tea in China. Simply I have fucked i t. I should have gone there to Mrs. Palcso. I believed in the threat of DrO. I definitely end our relationship in August. Both, Mrs. Isabella and he lied to me. They definetely did not love me. * Conclusion I have 6 months to survive. I could take in hand my destiny. AFter all that was the only solution I was expected to do during the family constellation. But I doubt why would I. Or how can I get a job if I am so weak and pale. Does it make a sense to somethi ng. I need to do something which makes me encouraged and happy. What is it? In August I end it with DrO officially an in person. I do not see any reason to continue it. Nope. If I have to die then I would. I despize people who sacrifice other people and pretend that they help.

11 May 2011 I woke up at half past midday. Some crazy dreams. I felt I dreamt with Sztarovic s. And I also felt Hortai and Toth Roland. I again had food in my dream. I remember some salami cutted. I saw three slices then when I looked back I saw much more slices. It is Mr. Hortai's work. They also tried to convince me of the usefulness of certificates. In my dream a guy had 5 certificates.

I was upset and I said to respect my wish. I had said I do not want him to read my mind nor send me anything. They are just irrespectful people. I dislike and despize them. Unbelievable irre spectful and work with their ego not with their heart. When I got asleep I had some dreams which were a bit despizing. I looked at some old school exercise-books and I thought of Jandasz teacher. Those guys or some of them were former middle school mates. I asked them politely not to do it any more. I do not want them any more. \ Then I had a dream in which they thought of Mrs Anna malikova (former member of SNS). She was a leader of some African country. And they all laughed laudly and then some touched me so they we re around me on astral level. Unfortunately it seems pretty bad with me as my thoughts are sensless and goes o n and on. Without end. I need to find a job or get surged. Or do some education. * Conclusion - now I know everything. They will wait till I go mad and reach enlightenemenet . I was always wondering why and how I would be so influencial. The answer is DrO will posess me and give me a new identity. I do not agree with it and he never asked. He is to tally crazy and cannot accept the fact that I do not want anything from him. - Definitely I MUST PUT AND END to this ill relationship. - He simply loves himself and everybody else is less than him. Totally huge ego . - Too dangerous person. Absolutely immoral. They lied to me from the very begin ning. - My mind show the signs of crazyness. It just thinks and thinks and without an y sense. - The ladies fear me and no wonder. I am very concerned about my future. - The future can be changed and it is always worth to try. I want to take into my hand my own destimny. I do not allow anybody to influence me. - I WILL NEVER HAVY ANY RELIGION! - I WILL NEVER HAVE ANY NATIONALITY! - I WILL LEAVE THIS COUNTRY ASAP! - I SHALL CONSIDER SURGERY 12 May 2011 Mr Hortai or maybe nurse Anna decided to take action. A DIP woman did some correction. Minor. I still have excessive thought chains when dreaming. There were no attacks this time. I saw Sendi Csaba in my dream. We were sitting in a train. Next to him there was a womna. Dr. E. Pearl has given me some info to protect against demons.

18:30 I noticed DrO made some fixing. Usual fixing he used to do every day after Dublin. I think he understood my critics and he may have accepted it. They were cruel. In the afternoon I picked up The Power of now and I read a few pages. It did good. I also had a realization this afternoon. I recalled Burt Harding saying "We alwa ys choose love". What does it mean we choose love? The answer is: It is God's will. When you do s omething with love or make a decision your decision is one with God's decision. Did I choose love? No! I had the luck of rewarding with the chance of meeting a beatiful angel and I chose fear. I chose DrO instead of E. Tolle. I chose DrO because I trusted him. Because he i s a doctor and they have an oath. Not only they help everyone regardless of skin color of religion or fate or gilt iness but they cmust not hurt or lie. I was fearful and he made me to choose between Mr. Eckhart Tolle and him. I did not listen to my heart. What is the conclusion from this? Fear may arise and this may make you change your earlier choice. Never let fear to change your choice made by love. I had been happy to meet E. Tolle and I had known it was my heart's will. Later I had an awful family constellation\and this event made me fearful. I changed my decision because of the new fear. No. You have to be dearful to choose love. And I am sure you are then rewarded by li fe if you do so. I was not dearful enough to choose love. WHat a ridiculous thing it is to refuse love?!!!! The secret to happyness lies in being deerful enough to choose based on your own heart and not on others' influence. Yes, it means you will make some people upset and loose their friendship or even make new enemies. What happens when you do not choose love? YOu will get sooner or later fear and suffering. What am I to chose now? Can I still choose love? Or I have to suffer? What is considered love? Do I have a choice? WHat does my heart, soul want?? I want to be healthy and not just physically but mentally. My soul wants to be free of past pain and fear. The question is how can I be hea led?? This is exactly the hardest decision. Back in 2009 when I chose DrO despite trus ting him I made a mistake. Sometimes we cannot be healed. We must reconcile with the fact that we are not h ealthy. I just wonder how would have my life unfolded if I had chosen nurse Anna? I was ill. I was after a bad surgery. I have no idea but I would like to know. Mrs. Isabell may know the answer. Today I read a few pages from the book The power of now. It was useful for me to

remember myself how to choose correctly. The soul must choose and not the mind. The mind is the lier and cause of sufferi ng. I must carefully examine every choice and sense what I feeel. Unfortunately I do not have many choices. All I know I want to be healthy but I do not want to torture myself. I do not wa nt to suffer. Where can I find the most suitable and mildest healing technique? I have tried a lot of things but al l were useless. Btw. I am very glad that I went to Dr. Angszter Maria. That family constellation was key as I cannot return my grandfather's destiny. Erzsike messed up things a bit and that constellation was working. The last constellation was hell. Sorry about that. One of the biggest mistake in my life. * Conclusion - eventually afer some months they realized that it would be time to stop attac king me and they even try to help in order to lessen their very bad karma. They may have heard that I am heading to become insane. Well, yep And they contributed to it with a major part. They really did an evi l thing and it is a bad karma. - the situatin is grave and I should move somewhere - It does not look very well as I cannot sleep well and I might be attacked by some "visitors" 13 May 2011 My first dream was with nurse Anna and her helpers. She made me eat meat :). I can't remeber details. She also said to Otcovstvo je po ehnanie. I know. She would like me to get married and be happy. But I have other tasks fi rst to do. I have huge painbody and I feel the need to get rid of it. Because that's what t he soul wants. No soul wants to suffer and be unhappy. I had a longer monolog. I said what a curse it is to have a serious disease and be a Slovak citizen. It is not enough curse to be ill but your chances are less and you might even be hurt at the hospital. Really bad karma. Really bad. Close to the morning I had healing dreams with Erzsi neni. She is the kindest wo man U have ever met. She is healthiest woman I have ever met. I had some dreams with my brother. I saw three people lying next to each other n aked with penises. She wanted me to accept myself which is love. Self love. Love of the body. I kno w, I do not love myself enough. Reconnective healing is a challenge to me because of this problem. It is awful to learn after 29-30 years that you have a huge task to solve left. And you cannot move forward without solving it. You cannot move forward.

I had a dream with a big cat and it hugged me. Thanks, it was Mrs. F. Erzsike. 14 May 2011 I woke up areound midnight. It was strange. I had the thought that I was with Cz eh people :) Hm. Really nice. Then I fall asleep and I had a dream again in a chool class. I recognized RnDr Lnrt and Urban Gabor. I said : kvazr and then the teacher said, yes, we learnt about it last week. And I looked at Urban and I felt sorry for him and said he might have looked at boobs. I heard laugh of seve ral man. Haha. Well, these nice people help me to not get into trouble while I am dreamin g. I thanked for their help but then I said: Everybodyis waiting for a miracle to h appen. I also talked about what I had read yesterday in the evening. I read about seein g the future and being able to change it.( sometimes). I had an alpha like dream. It started with my mother who was talkin about the pa st. But I have the feeling that I made it up. Then I was walkin on the street (podzamksa) I saw trees. The dreem became more a nd more realistic. Then I found myself in the garden and I was walkin there. There was high grass. I walked there alone. When I got to the near end of the garden I saw a man behind me with a dog. I was levitating above the ground a few cm's. I showed him my middle finger. Hm. Interesting. WHy I did it. I do not know. I though he wanted to catch me or limit my freedom. And since I could fly I thought he cannot catch me. Before this dream I had a dream with probably Mrs. Magdi tanito nni. I found some thick book. It was a Russian book. I did not see her but I felt her. I was there with my brother. I also had some dream in which I was sitting in a car and I saw a young woman in front of me. The car was not moving. I also saw some chat. The lady looked at me but I was reading the chat in Englis h. Then I saw another young lady closer to the car who seemed to be interested in m e. I did nothing. She even was yealous of the first lady. Then I thought I should introduce myself so I did. Rather interesting. I had a dream with a cat. She was sitting next to me. I guess it was the lady wh o is going to buy our garden. They spoke Hungarian and mentioned Moricz Zsigmond. I had some felling that someone offered me part from the garden. Hm. I said I do not want to buy it.

After the dream with Mr. Lenart I had some voice in my head in Slovak language. "I tychto veaciach sa absolutne nesmie hovorit" I guess he had on mind the miracle. Yes. It is a mistake. I will not talk about it. I must not talk about it. I many times asked everyone not to say anything about the future. Why. Why??\ I still had a dream in which someone made me to to cleaning (cleaning of the car pet). I had the feeling that I had some communication wuth Lakatos Zsanett. The phone rang and she went away. They do not seem to be interested in talkin to me. They keep me in some illusion or what. I had a strange dream. It was in the old flat. I released the blinds on the wind ow. Then I looked down and I saw and old lady sitting on a chair and looking at me on her balcony on the third fl oor. The lady had the same blanket as I have and I said to myself she is like me. She said "Hossz". Mr. Hossz dies several years ago. I woke up and I felt some energy coming into me . It was very natural so I would not even notice the energy. Does it mean that dead people send me energy ? Hm. Why? * Conclusion - there are stlill some people who despize me and maybe they are right. Who kno ws. I may have hurt them. I appologized yesterday, all I want is peace and some bet ter health. 15 May 2011 My first dream was in the living room of the old flat. I saw a little boy hidden under a wall unit. He was asking who would be his mother tonight. I saw in the room many nagazines on the floor. When I woke up I felt that there was somebody in my body. It felt good. She helped me to calm down and in a semi dream like state sent me some dreams to let me know her identity. She showed me a map an Filakovo. It was lady Hdi in my body. I said she could be my mother until I get healthy. I said I am her gift by god b ecause she enjoyes it. I had an alpha like dream: little child with winter hat sent by someone else who I had beaten up! He spoke to me in Hungarian. I woke up. he wanted to warn me and he was a bit ag ressive. Tried to throw snow balls to me and kick me. He was about 80 cm tall. I woke up and I was really wondering why I could not remember anything about wha t he had said. I said I was sorry about it but that was all. I did not feel guilty only a bit b ad because I promised I would not hurt anyone. I said he could get some financial compensation from DrO because he is to blame for everything. In fact, Mrs. Isabella and DrO spoilt my life. Let us face it. Since I visited M rs. Isabella only bad things happened.

Only a few good things but in general I am hard up on money and I had curses and attacks and Dublin. And I cannot sleep alone. That is what bothers me most. I dream a lot and I hate it. I do not want to dream at all. Yes, he did spoil my life and yes he was careless and maybe he did on purpose. I cannot say any good. And I paid and I trusted because he is a doctor. That's my mistake. I truested h is oath and I thought he was a gentleman. Let's face it. I was disappointed by almost all doctors in my life. By almost al l. We visited with Dani, Kalo and someone else a couple of old people in their own room?!!! They were in bed and I felt a bit guilty and bad so I woke up. I felt I had seen them before. I do not know who they were. They were some relig ious people or what. Some dreams that I throwed something to the cross that is on top of the church. I guess this was the explanation. I did it. WHy? Probably because I was upset of Catholics people. I can recall they tried to persuade me to become one of them. Some of them were pushy and astute. I asked again to respect my religion which is Zen. WHy they cannot respect other religions? Sorry, I am not a Christian. I have no religion nor beliefe. All I want is to be a good man. That's all. And I blamed bran controllers. Why? Because most of them experiments with those who do not practice brain control. I can remember I had some dreams years back and I am sure most of them were sent by brain controllers. Sometimes I felt puzzled by the dream. It made me think in the middle of the nig ht. Did not they realize that the disturbed my sleep. How dareful they were to disturb me! I coudl agree with some nice drea ms occasionally but I had quite many. I woke up after those dreams and I was wondering and thinking and then turned in again and fell asleep. They waisted my time. They entered my private life. Woke me up, made the think of bullhit and sometim es I did not feel fine during the dream. It is not a bug sin but it is not very moral to disturb others. I would not do i t to anyome. Maybe to my own child ot close friends with their consent. Definitely not on a regular basis. I my next dream I was in my bed and I heard a young man's voice talking in Hunga rian. I wondered where the voice came from. I then looked at some little gadget and I realized that the voice comes from it. The folk was saying: Gimnazium diploma. Fel kell hasznalni, ami van. Then I had a dream in which I saw a woman in bed with 2 men. A prostitute or wha t. I heard her talking in Hungarian. She was kind and said let me rest or something like that. I was standing in front of her bed while she was in her bed with two man next to her. They were lying in the bed. I realized the men were adults and I only a child. But I expected the men leave and the I could have sex with the woman.

Somebody relly wanted me to realize that regarding her or him my soul is only at child level. Then I had another dream in which I saw Angyal Peter on fron of something. Then I looked at it and it was a computer. The computer had a very long CRT monitor. I then came to the conclusion that it was sewing machine. I also felt there Dani Kovago. Father and a child with whom he was angry and unkind. Istentelen gyerek. My gran dmother probably showed others that I am the victim of my parents and I had a cruel chilhood. My father turned it into hell on top of my physical illness. He was cruel and heartless. My last dream was with Margit mama. We were sitting on the floor when an old man walked up to us. She said she knew the old gentleman. I stood up and introduced myself like this. : En a nagymamam noverenek a lanyanak a fia vagyok. Margit grandmother wanted me t o KNOW it was her! Very nice. Thank you for trusting me. ANd your kind help. I said I would need so me better luck with life maybe even a miracle. I also had a dream in which my mother was doing something with the curtain and t hought that I would come back from the hospital. !! Hm. was it the future? I definitely do not want to stay here lo nger than needed and once I have the hospital I am moving to some apartment which I would rent. * Conclusion - they take me as a child which is why they may be more indulgent - I am fed up with being a victim of others' mistakes. - I am fed up with being punished all the time. - I am fed up with judgements and being ridiculed. I want to be respected like anyone else. - I am not going to suffer for anyone else's mistakes or sins. 16 May 2011 I had two reconnective healings but not successful. Both of them were performed by slovaks. I saw a few young slovaks in my dream before the reconnective healing. I spoke t o them in Slovak language. my mothers thoughts appeared in my mind ???? * Conclusion - Today I realized that I am dying. Yesterday I had dreams with Margit mama and this morning I had dreams with a lot of strange people. My last dream (I got up at 7:35 am) was with a pretty yo ung woman who had a hair do and she asked me if I wanted the same hair do!!!!??? She is not alive. She is dead. Good God. - I also realized that it is vital for me to leave this flat ASAP and start my fucking life. Otherwise I would accept some shit destiny from my parents.

17 May 2011 Yesterday I visited Doc. Prevendarova in Bratislava at 15:30 She asked me questions about my medical problems. I told her about family conste llation, curse, neokibernetics, etc. As I expected she visited me during my sleep and she started a healing. She used a very hot energy with love. She asked me to smile. She spoke to me in Slovak. She likes me and must have hea rd some rumours about me. She showed me she was Christian. Haha. I think they start to accept that I have no religion (yet). They are all lovely people. I am really glad to have known and met so many wande rful doctors. DrO is also a good fun. Yes, we had a lot of great time together. I might punish him without reason. I am sure I would love him as well when I will be happy and married. Yes, he is a good guy. I think Doc.Prevendarova spoke to Doc. Vidiscak or some other because she mentio ned MuDr. I had some alpha dreams. I saw the decription of Pregnyl in my dreams. I also had a dream in which somebody was behind and he was jerking off is dick a nd a woman was sitting but in front of the grid. Very real and shocking dream. I had another dream with grand mother Margit. We were around a lied table. ABout 4 people altogether. She was sitting next to me. My dream began like this: I knew she had a birthday. So I congratulated her and gave her two kisses on her cheeks. She smiled. I said eljel meg legalabb 10 evig. I did not know she was dead. She has never dies for me. I do not feel different. . In fact, I am glad she returned home. I also had the feeling she does not want me to live in fear any more. I like her and I am grateful for her help. Close to the morning I had a despising dream. I saw my mother sorting a regiment of cloths for washing and I heard Mit csinalnek ha nem takarithatnek. Somebody thinks he can send me dreams. I do not know why some brain controller t hink they can disturnb other peoples's sleep. * Conclusion - it seems people consider one of my strongest merits is smile and good mood 18 May 2011 Yesterday during the day I really felt Doc. Prevendarova's job. When I went to sleep I felt she started doing some aura job instead of sendingm e energy. I got asleep but when I woke up I had a rather bad dream. It was in the garden. There was strong wind and it was blowing

away the parts of the building we were in. I saw Mr. Kalman sitting behind a co mputer. I woke up and I felt that my aura in my abdomen is rather weak and it felt strange. I smellt a very bad smell reminding of shit. It was strange ideed. Doc Prevendarova surged my aura. Well, well, disobedient lady. I had not given my permission to her to surge me. I bet she does not even have a certificate by Dr. Pearl. I realized by this that many healers are so egoistic that it is simply amazing. I have never ever met people who would be so dareful to dive so deeply in the aura and mess things up. The resul t was that it was worse. I was given Reconnective healing and I again realized how important it is for m e. It is very difficult to do without energy. It is zen, definitely it is. While I am writing these lines (9:45) I am receivi g reconnecive energies for which I am very grateful and I don't care who sends it. hedgehogs in the garden (apple) etc. I was with Japanese people. I showed them some japanese movie (trailer). One of them asked me to shake hands with other Japanese young men. Then with women but they did not show interest. He said I s hould initiate hand shake. I am not sure who was the guy but definitely a former school mate. I am suspisi ous of Csibi who is an undeveloped child and despisez me. Deliberately wants me to disgrace myself so he teaches me wron g things. The person is an asshole. systematic constellation by Erzsike. I am not sure what was the desired intent. Maybe just to make me realize that Dani A. belongs to the class. They may perform a real constellation. WHo knows. I said it was a great idea. After 15 years there are still grievances and some hatred. Quite interesting. Kaderabek, Dani A. Varagya Sz, And some other ladies. * Conclusion - There is nothing to solve and heal expect my ego. - I cannot have energy as long as I stay here. I cannot change my parents nor I want. - I must practice regularly and I hope I would attain such an improvement that I would have stool only once or twice a day. It is not easy but this is the most secure. Consciousness is key for Reconnective Healing. I am really thinking of attendi ng a seminar with Mrs. Katie Byron in Austria. I would help. Or only a two week stay in Switzerland. - I must learn to say NO. It is very hard as it requires a healthy aura which I do not have yet. Mrs. Erzsike was right, she is always right. - ANd I need to find a stresless job. It would be nice to do some easy job. - somebody again said "megollek". It was a man and probably RnDr Lenart??? - some of my former school mates wanted to let me know that while I sleep unco nsciously I behave dishustingly (they showed me peeing in front of them afterwards they left and closed the door) Before 18.00 I had a phone call from a company from Budapest. I was invited for an interview on Friday. A few minutes after the phone call I felt bad. It is something like curse or gui

lt. 19 May 2011 !!! Warning !!! again by Mrs. Isabella dreams regarding father May 20 2011 - Mrs isabella. asking me to go to Canada. Even to visit her. May 21 2011 - again asking me to go to canada. Mrs. Isabella threated me that bad things gonna happen. Dublin. Again? Why? I would go poor. Etc. etc. I said I have a DIP who said everything is all right. So I do not fear. Fenyegetettsegtol valo felelem. Kineziologia. I said I do not have the money. I submitted a lotto ticket yesterday in Budapes t. I said. Look. I am a responsible and rational guy.. Once I wanted to go to Cana da to study ENglish language, I had the money and the courage but nobody sent me energy so I cancelled my plan. Sorry, I am not going there until I would have some money that I do not need. Therefore I promised if I won the lottery (min. 1 million + 1 Ft) I definitely would go to Canada. I am not a fool. I said I could win more money I would donate much of the money to charity. I said it because I keep word. After this some former school mates (I think Mr. Repka G.) appeared and said if only I would keep my word. Probably they thought I would give them money. They are wrong. I am not going t o give money to anyone who is healthy including his family members. If you are healthy then that means that you are supposed to work and take care of yourself and your family. I am not really healthy but despit this I must find a way to make a living. Tha t's it. And not wait for some miracle, which would not happen anyway. Miracles happen in extreme suffering. I am not going to suffer any more . Not for others' sins. Sorry. I am fed up. I had a dream with Mrs. Erzsike and she said I MUST leaqve my parents. She said it would not influence karma but megvaltoztatja a viszonyt. * Conclusion What is the lesson I learned? I must not tolerate threatening. In 2009 I was threated that bad things would h appen and I REALLY REALLY must vist DrO because he is the only one to help me. Bla bla bla. I was threated badly!! I trusted and did it. The result: I suffered like hell. Now she again starts it. I have learned the hard lessons of life dear Mrs. Isab ella. Nobody can threat me. Because I ignore it. Nobody can reveal the future to me.

My task is to live with what I have. I cannot count on anybody expect on myself . So it turned out that no miracle would happen here. May 22 2011 My helpers tried to heal me. Even they admit that my rectum is the PROBLEM. It was strange the way they tried to heal me. Haris G. and Kalman P. was said t hat I belong to them and then they dismissed me. I was on a shopping cart then they pushed it and then I was rolling down on a slope. They tried to wake in me the feeling of dismissed. I did not feel that way. Dur ing this I felt my rectum. SOme heat. After this I said a few thing (when I woke up). I cannot remember all. I said m y soul is unhappy and it wants happiness and to have a normal life. I said my soul wants to heal others. Later I felt Dr. Pearl who was not happy becasue he said you do not heal. I kno w, it was a slip of the tongue. People are so sensitive about words. About words!!! They are thought based. If you love you do not need the language at all. The majority of people including brain controllers see and perceive thoughts. They give thoughts an importance. I was not speaking publicly so I hope they can understand that I was not cautio us how I expressed myself. I should have used the world HELP. Every sould is happy to HELP. Healing such a magical world. You are happy when you see that the person who you helped is grateful and feels better. It does not matter if he is healed or have less pain. Then I had another attempt. This time with my father. They tried to raise compassion in me towards my father who certainly feels bad about what happened. It did not work. They even used the work "apucika". Nope. I am not a girl. It i s too late. I am 31. He must forgive himself. I am only disappointed. That's all. I do not hate him. A bit I envy him for his relatively good life but it is none of my business. He has better karma than me. I do not judge him. I am glad I have love and compassion. It is evolution. He has a lot to learn either by suffering or whatever. I saw Bres tanito nni and Kaderabek Laci. I was a pupil and Kaderabek was cheatin g. He had some texts in his phone and the teacher noticed it and asked him to give it her. * Conclusion - it is ridiculous that some people consider my self thoughts utterly important and it so Matters what I think.. It absolutely matters to them. WHy? I am not important or influencial. All I wa nt is some better health so that I could be more useful and finally start my own life. - So I received still some despizing thoughts, dreams, all in Hungarian languag e. I like Slovak people because they give me peace and they are much more polite.

May 23 2011 I can remember a dream with somebody who had sun glasses on and he looked well b uilt and taller than me. He talked HUngarian. He said "????? erzek." . Then I saw him come into a room wh ere I was and he blocked the doorway. I said "Nagy egot erzekelek". I bumped into him to release the doorway and went away. At first I thought he was Pista from middle school. When I woke up I said he might be a friend but I do not know. I said I could bot recognize him. Then he said he was Decsi Attila. I said they cannot respect me. Then I had a dream in which I was in a room sleeping in a bed and then the door was opened by two door boys. Then I saw only one man. I asked if Everything was arranged. He said: Igen asszo nyom. Hm... Then I woke up. I then said "Igy kepzelem el a tiszteletet". Of course, I missed ladies and bath but I was lenient. This must have rile their ego am I saw my hard dick. Son of They made me masturbate for a I touched my balls and I felt because after this I had dreams. In one of the dre a bitcs. second. In one of the dreams I was in a room and I would need sex.

I was in a school class. There was Hausleiter, Sztarovics. Interestingly there w as some home work. I then had a package of lard in my hand I opened it and smelled the fat and I liked its smell. In one of the dreams I saw ebroker web UI and I saw that "agykontrollosok" went money 30%. THey wanted my money. "I am gonna make appologies." - this was the sentence that appeared in me when I woke up in the morning. * . I stil deserve respect and I do not like such people who disturb others and mak e fun of them. I am disappointed of them. 24 may 2011 Somebody was trying to say me something. I think it was Mrs. Isabella. The person was trying to bring me to alpha. But there was a problm. There are some guys there (maybe former school mates; C hesnek J. for instance) who rile me by my brother. They visualise him and he touched me and I got upset. so I tried to lock myself in the bathroom of the old flat. Conclusion they have some plan but I am nt sure. they had been upset and resentful because of the things I said. they seem to be willing to forgive me and they may help. I received a lot of despizing and disgusting dreams but I did not feel hatred

I then tried to get asleep on the floor. But I was waken up by my brother. I even remember a dream in which I was threatening him to pull off his teeths b y punching him in his face.

* Conclusion - something is gonna happen - I should be in Canada but I do not feel up to going there. Not to mention that I really cannot afford it and anyway why would I got ther e? - I see the situation severe and now I see that what a disadvantage it was to n ever have a room of my own. It was my parent's negligence to not move to a bigger flat. They pretty much neglected us especially me. - It may happen that they are not humans but souls. I do not know but I am susp icious of Mr. Cesnek J. who always bbehaved wickedly at school and he hated me for something. 26 May 2011 !!!! Ivan the bus driver was in my dream. * Conclusion - it turned out that some people who I do not know or are much more older than me spy on me and laugh at me It was a sad surprise to learn that there are many people watching me only to entertain themselves. 27 May 2011 Yesterday I was to sign a Contract of Tenancy but Germany p again despising hotel an ad with teenager girls offering sex services. It was hard to resist but I di d. I saw other men who also were eager to do it. I then thought of how good it would be married and not having to see those filth y men. Someone created a dream in which I eavesdropped my father who said I would go to Germnay. I had said I would go to India. To study something. "a trauma akkor is megmarad" - a thought appeared in me when I woke up. Juhasz Gyula Kiss Attila surgery somebody Margit mama 28 May 2011

I had a lot of astral dreams with Csibi. Quite a lot of women were there. I did not recognize anyone of them. Close to the morning I had a dream in which I saw an envelope and money put in i t. I heard a man's voice saying in Hugarian: Be kell fejezni. Rendbe kell tenni. (n ot exact quotation). Yesterday I had a dream encouraging me to undergo the surgery. I believe the per son who sent me the dream is wrong. Doc. Vidiscak is not the guy who exects me to pay him some m oney. He knows how severe is my condition and he is relucatant to surge me. Maybe MUDr. Dobrovodsky but I do not think. They simply do not want to hurt me. * Conclusion - yep. Before the Reconnective healing seminar I said that I would go for the s urgery if no improvement would happen. May 29 2011 I went to bed late yesterday, at about 11 pm. When I woke up I remembered someth ing I had been dreaming. I was again with ladies and they taughed me some social things. I had a nice dream (astral; I had a body and part of my soul which left my body) with Melcsi tunci. The only thing I can remember was that she said "Akkor sporolni fogsz. Mikor veg yem meg az uj automat?" I replied. Ma? Holnap? She replied: nem. Then I woke up. She tested me. I felt r eally good with her. I was pleased to be able to spend some time with this beautiful little angel. Th ank you so much. I hope she is not scrared :) Then I remember some of a tale. I wanted fondle a chicken and belole." I was indignated adn dream with a Slovak woman. She scolded me because I thought to I reached only its tail. She said "Nem tudod mit csinalnak said: nem tudod milyen higienikus vagyok. I saw a ham roll.

I noticed that I very often eat in my dreams. Probably my soul would love to eat a lot but my body does not feel like eating because of constant constipation. Then I had a dream again with some women. One of them was talking in Hungarian. "Sok orszagot meglatogatok es leirom , hogy mit erzek, mint a nagyapam" Somethin g like that. Then I woke up. I could not see the woman. Hm. Interesting. May 30 2011 I was in Budapest to get the keys from the flat. Fazekas Szilvia (real estate manager) - she visited me in my dream and said: A ranyos kisfiu vagyol. Somebody said in Hungarian: annyira felnek toled (nok), hogy mar vlozky viseln ek. Erzsike: she asked me "Hogy vagyok". She sent me dream about my father who is

pissed off because I let in the sunshine during the day and it is hot in the room (my mother cannot stand very hot). She also sent me in the same dream that I have to go to study something. Hmm.. Erzsike also wanted to let me know that I am watched while I sleep. Somebody sent me a dream in which a woman with big breasts cooled her breasts with ice rocks. It might mean that I should calm down my libido?? * Conclusion - this is the second day that I did not have attacks. - I was said that there are two men who help (probably they monitor the attac kers) 31 May 2011 My first awareness was a man speaking slovak. He was speaking into a phone while sitting next to me. "Prijemne doladovanie a oslovovanie zien?" I woke up after this. Reconnective Healing Rajo, Rajecke Teplice V. Tvrtko * Conclusion - they seem to speak to a lot of woman and ask them if they were interested i n me?!!!! I find it a bit ridiculous 1 Jun 2011 !!! When I went to bed I felt love. I heard some religious sentence. I believe onl y in god or something like that. I got asleep. I was not suspicious at that time. Then I woke up before midnight. I was shocked. I had a dream in Hungarian lang uage in which I was talking to a psychoterapeut and I spoke about the future. I said I would be ill and would not know who I a m and he would be my terapeut. Mrs Isabella wanted me to feel sorry for my mother and in my dream she wanted me to take her destiny which is Going mad. This is too much. I asked her not to send me dreams and now she is trying to M AKE me take someone else's destiny. It can be seen clearly that my destiny is different and she wants to CHange it !!! It is utterly immoral and filthy. I had a dream in which I was buying a train ticket in a hurry. My helpers want me to leave ASAP. * Conclusion - I was right. Now it was proved. Mrs Isabella is a paranoic witch. Very dang erous being. She is a malicious low woman. A liar!!!! 2 June 2011

I went to bed at 10 o'clock. I woke up before 11 pm after I had a dream. It was "nem meneklhetsz". Mrs Isabella is a really evil. She loves to see me suffer. A crazy witch. Very e goistic. Deeply unconscious. I had a dream in front of my brother's garden. I saw a few foxes and one of them came close to me and I fondled the fox. I had a dream in which Is saw a web site of a UI designer. I guess he was from a jecke Teplice. I had a dream with Erzsike who said God is sleeping and she mentioned Yoga and I ndia. Hmm.. Well. Well. Do they know the future? Mrs. Isabella told everybody the futu re I guess even dead people know it. Before I woke up I had a dram in which a young woman (below 25) was lying next t o me and I was waiting for a CT scan. She was a prostitute and was waiting for me. I was drinking water and said Attol fugg mit vallal. I did not touch her. Then I saw deserve. Somebody thinks I deserve some sex before the suffering. 3 June 2011 Thor Lilla Mr. Kollar - future should not be told Marcibal ? DrO reassured me by a dream that everything is fine. That is what he said me in person when I last visited him. 4 june 2011 a dream with my mother: the internet was not designed for commerce. It was an ex periment. ????? then some healing. hm.... some soul (funny smell) Kovagi, Kelko, Csanyi Roland * conclusion - I see thing groomy. I had many visitors and not peace. For instance I had a dream in which my mother told me that a postman is waiting and somem catalogue he has for me I went to the door and answered it and told that I am on the first floor. Then the dream ended and something totally else came. - again some cleaning I did ( they made me clean bathroom or what), toilet !! 5 June 2011 Dreams with Kalo, Kovago, Toth Bea, etc. In my first dream I saw a dog who was set free. After a few seconds somebody sai d in Hungarian: he had a lot of stool. I woke up.

Pretty unewentful evening, at least I was tired and could not remember much. In one of my dreams my father came to me and asked me to show a map on my comput er. It was the old map of the big Hungary. I became fed up and said: Tunjs a P be! I can remember another dream. It was in the old flat. I overheard my father sain g: megint szemetelt. * Conclusion - I am pretty fed up with being a patient who has to endure the humiliation of being examined and questioned and felt sorry for. Always somebody comes and tries this and that and tries to be smart. I am fe d up. 6 6 2011 !!! I woke up and I could remember slightly some dreams. They were in Slovak language. I also noticed that some energy was installed. Usu al DIP work I guess. It was all silent and peaceful. But I started thinking. The part of my soul which is a little child is freely travelling while I am slee ping. It meets some people and they form it. I think DrO's plan is to program that part of my ego and shape it the way HE wants it. It also means that my conscious identity is going to die. I fell asleep and I gained some cosciousness in my dream. I saw Csiba Janos in a class room. I was flying there or what and somebody told him hagyjad. Then I fall asleep. Soon after I again regained my sonsciousness and saw Csanyi Roland. He was sitti ng next to me. I got pissed up and my jaw was shivering. I showed him the door. Did not hit me. He interestingly said: a munkahelyemrol dob ki. An old nurse in Slovak language. Co citate, bibliu I was lying on a bed. She then pushed my bed to other room. I saw some projection to the wall. Some kid of movie but at the same time I felt some thought in Hungarian (good ones). I gained more consciousness and I wanted to change the projection. At that momen t Mr. Angyal from elementary school appeared behind me. She did not do anything but I did not feel him friendly I was uset and angry to him so I went ravage and beat him up or I wanted as he disappeared. Then a jipsy young man appeared . I thought he is his friend. I saw a pen on the desk and picked it up and wanted to fight with him. He was kind and he touched my left arm. I woke up. I t hink he was Bartal Laci. I am not sure. Strangely I could not recognize him. After this I received some despizing dreams: - my flat was burning - I saw a naked woman and all over some gel (they wanted sperma I guess but I im agined her pussy juice)

Then behind me was my mother. They wanted me to feel ashamed. - Somebody told me in Hungarian , mar sajnalom, hogy talalkoztunk I blamed Mrs Isabell and DrO for everything which is true. I was peaceful and it was not me who started all this violence. Then I received a dream as if it was by DrO. I saw a hand and a virgula in it an d he was inspecting the reasons of these things. Everything is from my past life. Of course, I did not hurt anyone in this life s o I just keep wondering why they hate me so much. * Conclusion - I was recommended to visit a real DIP by a woman. She had concerns. I screwed up with Mrs. Palcso. I got cold feet. I really need a DIP. Mrs. Isabella lied me from the very beginning and in fact she deliberately infl uenced me to choose badly. - I was thinking of saboting their plan as I can foresee their plan. What if I get rid of Slovak citizenship and gain Hungarian. I really should leave this country and never come back. - It is obvious that they had know I would go to India. It is also true that Mrs. Isabella wants me to take my mothers karma. They want me to, they put a pressure on me!! She wants me to go to Canada becasue they have a good hospital. She herself sai d I need a good hospital. June 7 2010 somebody kicked my head (it was in my hometown in front of the house which is ne xt to the park full of nutmeg trees. Then I saw a lot of children around me. Btw. the thug He was looking for someone . Obviously my helpers made the children so that I would not revenge it. It did n ot. I had a in which I was in a room with opened window. The flat was high and I cou ld see the city (my hometown). It was the view from the flat we wanted to buy once (Near the ciname) but the la dy was not serious about it so she got cold feet. I watched the sky and saw some stars. Then Mr. RnDr. Lenart appeared in the wind ow and I saw the empty bed. I got scared a bit as he few into my room suddenly. I called him Dr. Bubo and I could hear a lot LOOOT of people laughing. He has a lot of young people around him and he does not sleep at night. Very kin d of him that he tries to help me and save me. I am grateful to him and his helpers too. At least 6 people could have laughed a fter I said Dr Bubo. Then I woke up. I said I need a motivation to be in my bed. And I thought of a naked woman then Barbie the young prostitute came into my mind and I reminisced her beautiful body and shy timid personality. I really loved her. Now she could be 20 and I have not problem with a marriage with her. Of course, I was only yoking. I am realistic and live with two legs on the groun d. She needs a rich man and anyway she is too young to me. But I love her a lot. She was the best I ever had. Sometimes I miss her and if s he worked I would visit her regularly and make her happy. I can remember having a dream with Mrs. Isabella. At first she was in a room with my mother. I was in another room and the doors w ere open. I cought sight of her and got scare that I should not see her or she should not see me.

I eavesdropped for a short time but I cannot remember or I did not hear. The she came to me and called me a Tall friend in Hungarian. She said something to me but I cannot remember it. I had a funny dream with my mother. I was in the old flat and my mother was behi nf the locked door. She wanted to come into the flat. She asked to open the door but I could not how. Then I saw 3 keys on the floow. She even asked me to ask Roland for helo. Then I woke up. Well, well she cannot let me go. It is a shame. A big shame. I had a lot of dreams. One of them was with Mr. Gajdos. I went into the toilet to piss and I fell on th e floor which was dirty. Then I saw my backpack and then came Mr. Gajdos who took a bread out of my backpack. I got upset and I chased him to kick his as s. I cannot understand why they despize my and disgrace me. He was unfriendly at all, and I think he appologized after and said that he resp ects me. Who know. I am angry at all. Then I had another dream with a stranger who in the end showed me his name. I chased himm that was all. He called himself Budai if I can remember correctly. June 8 2011 I said I was fed up with the suggestion that I should get married. I explained them why they were wrong. Marriage is a decision of two not only min e. To marriage there is a long path. Marriage is not a product you can buy. Some dreams I had. In the metro. And then I saw my brother who met a bloke and h e said finally and they kissed each other. They had meant it t be a joke. I was not upset. I reassured them that I am a het erosexual and I do not have problem with finding a girlfriend aborad such as France or Swizerland. I told them some stories from my past. I re minisced my train travel with two beautiful French ladies. The only problem I had was that I did not have my passport so I had to get off t he train in my home city. Otherwise I would have travelled with them to Budapest. I also shared with them my thoughts I have when I look at my sofa in the living room. And I also complained about women in this city. I said they are not into marriag e. They are money oriented. I than said that I had been thinking of getting a tart for my brother. They burs ed in laughing. I was laughing alaud myself and I was really concerned about the neighbours. I hope they did not get up. It was about 3 am. Kalo Kaderabek my mother at 6:21 said Beszelni akarok veled. Hmm She was not sleeping at that time to it was somebody else. * Conclusion probably Mrs Isabella is a negative influence to me as she wants me to take my mother's karma or what

June 9 2011 I deliberately started meditation and it brought its fruits. Withs some help I managed to get into deep alpha. Music was playing which I enjoyed a lot. Energy. Directec energyy into my larg e intestine. Alpha dream near the morning. In my alpha dream I received a message in Hungarian language. Ujabb info ra ke ll varni. Or I need some new method to heal myself. I said I came here to work. I am not going to spend my money on useless things . After the alpha dream I started sleeping normally but I had a lot of dreams an d when I got up I was quite exhausted. I do not what dreams I receive during night but I assume very negative program mings. June 10 2011 !!! A lot of dreams many with Homosexual man. Krisztin probably. Yesterday I encounterd her ad on the web and probably I tho ught of her again in my dream which she revarded with her dreams. June 11 2011 at 0.30 I had a dream in which inspected something about my family and I hesitat ed between B. Hellinger and Robert Hellinger (there is no Robert). There was about some muder or what. The bottom line of the whole thing is that s omebody really wants me to get into trouble. And he or she goes further and chooses more and more disgusting methods. Then I had a dream in which I was in a class again but the class had no ceiling and roof. I saw in left had side a ruined many stores building and some gipsies was the notion. The view was pretty impressive and I said panorama to a teacher who said 35mm. I had the notion that Toth Beata and Toth Roland was there. The bottom line of this is that they were my friends because they teached me tha t I am not a child. I can remember saying we are adults. They also tought me that I am no longer live in the first flat on Lastovicia str eet. This was proved in the dream I had some hours later after this. At 7:00 am I had another "manipulative" dream with my mother. The dream started in the old flat and I knew that I was not living there any longer. However, I could not figure out how it is possible that I was there. I then had the following dialog with my mother: Mother: Kisfiam, meg vagyok ilyedve. I was conscious enough and got upset and sa id I am not Kisfiu and then I woke up. Probably my mother was not sleeping any longer. I assume she was up already. So the purpose of such dreams is to make me feel compassionate towards my mother. Mrs. Isabella was upset that I did not like my mother. She as ked me despizing why I did not like my mother. Of course, she knew it very well that one must love someone in order to take his /her karma. * Conclusion - I am not a fool to - I find hard to decide what to do. I have money problems, the stock exchange i

s just crashing, USD is low. I had some losses. June 12 2011 My first dream was about a homosexual marriage. Someone (a woman) was there and I said there would be no marriage! She expressed some concerns but I cannot remember. Language was Hungarian. After the dream I said he or she cannot be my friend as they would not send me s uch a dream. The dream was not despizing maybe it was funny. I had some self talk after for about half an hour. At 3:00 AM I woke up and was upset. I was threatened not only by words but by a DIP (probably). In my dream I saw my mother who was looking at me and I said her not to look at me. She then turned away and I said a bad thing (s ome bad word). Then I can remember some wind (the same technique DrO used when I said him in my dream that I would be bigger than him). I was upset and wrote down the time. I knew who was behind all this. I asked Mrs . Isabella to forget me. I complained. I wasted 2 years of my life for nothing. I asked what for was that good? It helped nobody and created unnecessary problems and suffering. I really turned out that she wants to help my mother. I asked her if yes why she does not help her? Why she cannot send her healing or why she did not recommend her a DIP. I simply cannot understand her. In a dream she confirmed that she sends regularly healing to my mother. Ok Fine. And why am I needed? Why does she need me? Why I must love her if I do not see her as I live separately now. I said she was a cruel woman as she sent me to hell and before Dublin all she co uld utter was this: Mindenki oldja meg a problemajat, ahogy tudja. Fine. I told her I do not trust her at all. I told her I despize everyone who is a lier. She is a big lier and a con woman. I said I refuse to be threated by anyone. I simple will not tolerate it anymore to threat me especially with lies. I said I had learned my lectures: Never hurt anyone. Fine. Now I should fix my l ife a bit as she ruined it. which is absolutely true. My life is ruined. I received some dream after this with tale graphics and I started to sign the mu sic from Vecernicek (TV tail for kids) and I heard a lot of laughs. Nobody trusts her anymore. She is a lier and I detest being told a lie. I said I have forgiven her but I learned what I needed. There are people who do not tell the truth and some of them are very malicious t o say the truth. This is not heaven but a very hostile place to live. People are selfish and revengful judgeful etc. I wonder if she respects my wish and let me sleep in peace. She can help my moth er but I do not want to be involved in it at all. She again stated that the lady exists in Canada. Of course, she exists. Probably she is now married or has a boyfriend. It was my own decision to go to Canada to learn English before I went to the las t family constellation. The only reason I did not go to Canada was that I was dying and I simply did not have the energy to travel. NOBODY sent me energy to travel to Canada. They did not care, including DrO. What the hell do I want from such filthy people?????? NOTHING! No more such peop

le. Selfish people with huge ego and very dangerous people.!!!! * Conclusion - there is no future. I do not know my future. All I know is that I cannot day. - By the end of the month I really must make a decision about what I want. India looks great but it is very very hot. I hate extreme heat. June 13 2011 I can remember a dream in which my father told that mother went to the cellar a nd somebody else had to go with her. It was again a speculative dream to make me feel compassionate. Anyway I had dreams with my brother. I also had a dream in which TV news was showing the stock exchange declin. Very steep decline of some stock NASDAQ or something. I saw only a chart. I woke up up at 4:45 Am I remembered a dream in which I was fondling a little pig which had only one ha lf. I saw his brain. Then I saw my brother who was phoning in Slovak language and used a wording Joj which is not characteistic to him. Then I can remember that the throwed towards me something. I got angry. Then I found myself in the kitchen of the old flat and my mother was there. I w as throwing things to her and I even was thinking of slapping her face. She was saying : Szuz maria. Hm. She was not scared, she was resentful. I thought she was fake. When I woke up I checked the clock and unfortunately it was 4:45 Am which means she probably was true. Well. Well. Pity. SOmebody really wanted me to hurt her. My brother was fake of course. June 14 2011 I went to bed at 9 pm. I got up an hour later. I was with some of the former sch ool mater from elementary school. In my dream I asked them to send me a nurse to my flat in Budapest. They made me wake up. I do not know why. After it I complained a bit that I am lonely and that I find it hard to find a j ob. I also asked them t send me a tart on the day of my bday. Then I remembered that at that day was the birth day of Hausleitner Agnes and I wished her happy bday. I am glad I did not forget it. She is a nice little angel . Then I got asleep and I had a lot of dreams. I slept well, I cannot remember any disturbing dream. I had dreams with Mr. Sztarovics. I am sure about it. He is a good guy. Then close to the morning I had dreams with Mr. Kalman. I can remember being in a large room where many young people were. He was sitting next to me and some people were there around him. I saw Melinda angel as well. Somebody asked why I do not joing the 1 year school . I guess they ment the photographic school.

They also said to me that I am not the ONE. They ment Mrs Isabellas prophecy. Ye s, it is only an alternative future, the worse I guess. Massive ordinary energy was sent throughout the whole evening. I still feel tire d in the morning. I do not sleep deep enough. * Conclusion - what I should do ? What do I want? June 16 2011 Yesterday at 8 pm I had an unanswered phone call from my father's phone. I assum e it was my mother. I did not answer because I did not hear the phone ringing. Anyway it cost me mon ey to receive calls from home. I did not sleep well. I had insane or waird dreams. I gaine conscious ness in my dream and I saw a lot of people sleeping in a sitti ng position. Then I saw Melinda. I can remember a dream with her. I was in the living room of the old flat and w atching TV. She was standing and watching me. Close to the morning I saw in my dream Mr. Dlhy (hosszu) who is dead. Well, I do not like these things. I saw my mother in my dream and she mentioned Mr.Hortai. I was to go to Bratisla va. June 17 2011 strange woman with curly hairs said: pajkossagbol olni akarok (she had love an d laugh). My former school mates probably were worried about my suicidal thoughts which were never serious or I never believe d in them. They just happened in after Dublin and now it it is a kind of deerfulness or a bad habit. I reassure them I am not go ing to end my life at least not as long as I can bear suffering. So they must have took me to some specialist or what and the woman saw that there is nothing wrong with me. Absolutely nothing. Btw. this happened after I saw 4 children from Tibet. They were my school mate s. They fear me that I would hurt them and they know I would not hurt children or animals. Then I can remember a dream in which I gained consciousness and I saw three or 4 young man in neat police uniforms. These uniforms were a bit more like marine uniforms. I recognized Juhasz Gyula and I was wondering why they wear it. I laughed at Juhasz Gyula and said wear normal clothes. Then I guess I saw Szt arovics in normal dress and I was glad and smiled. June 18 2011 I still had some confusing dreams. I could not sleep well so I had some alpha like dreams thanks to my helpers of course. One of them was with my father who showed me a book full of photographs. I lik ed them. Buddhism was mentioned as well. I got an SMS message in Hungraian: rajtad kivul legalabb 3man vannak veled. I found the SMS very strange and I looked around and I found myself in the living room of the old flat on the sofa then I found my brother

there who was also sleeping. ANd I said : I sleep alone. One strange dream I had. It was in the kitchen of the old flat. My mother was there and something was simmering on the kitchen-stove while I heard my father talking about some bread. He buyes his bread or what. I gues s my mother reflects her unhappiness to him. That is what she does. They were quite unhappy. They never had any happy momen t together. She did a mystake but I guess that is what she deserves. I have never seen anybody with bigger ego. She is miserable on one hand nad di shusting on the other hand. Quite a loss of time. She cannot change and would not admit her mistakes. I do not want anything fro m her. She puts me down all the time and converts me to her puppy or what. I am not a fucking PUPPY!! I am an adult. I also had some dream in which I was thinking of Lad Hedi who found me, who kn ows where I live. Close to the morning I was thinking of a surgery or leaving to a cheaper count ry such as Bulgaria. It is really a bad thing that I cannot find a job. I am unable to work 8 hours . My health has got worsened since t descending large bowel is rather slight pain as well yesterday. I . I am responsible for my life, my What do I really want? yesrteday. I feel my abdomen exploded. My lef compressed with air. And I felt some am really responsible for myself, nobody else happiness, my way I live.

The answer is simply ; HEALTH! I want to be able to earn money. If you want to survive you need to have some money income. Otherwise you can s tarve to death. Close to the morning I had a dream. On a piece of paper I had some numbers. i assume it was by Fazekas Szilvia. I do not know if she is married or not. I said she must love me. She is concer ned that I cancel the contract. Anyway she is a kind and good woman. And vey sexy indeed. My mother called me today. She is rather worried and nervous and neurotic. She called me kicsim, kisfiam, etc. June 19 2011 I was with women. One dream I remember was set in the garden. Somebody warned (s houted) that a dog comes. And it came. It was black and very tall dog. I had some fear. Everybody escaped to buildings (the buildings we had in the garden). I decided to stay outside and see the dog. He wanted to bite me but I put my ruc ksack between me and him. Then I throwed something which the dog returned me. He got close to me. He was t all. It turned out that he was a young man with black hair. He spoke in Hungarian and said: egyszer elvagtamm a torkomat. I woke up. I was not fearful but I started to analyze the things and I quickly r ealized that he was one of my enemies. I am not angry of him at all. He is a bit miserable because he is envious and he has hate and some cruelty.

Envy is not the worst thing it is pretty common here in this country but hate an d cruelty is a bit more serious thing. I adviced him to learn and not to hurt anyone. He should take my advice otherwis e he will learn the hard way which will be painful. I asked the question to my helpers what can cure envy. In the morning I had a dream in which somebody told that : Aki nem tudja elvisel ni az elet termeszetes szenvedeset, az nem erdemli meg az eletet. Then my very last dream was this: It was in a bus and my mother was sitting in front of me (looking at me and she was telling me how hard it is that she cannot make sudden muvements becasue she gets very strong headache. I woke up and I got a bit upset becasue I had the feeling that the person who sent the dream was compering me to my mother and he or she was feelin g sorry for my mother. But then the word father was suggested to me several times so I guess the dream sendder wanted me to know how my father feels. Yep, he feels sorry for my mother but he does not love me. He is a kid and he is sorry to loose his mother. i can understand it, he never had a father anyway. I do not blame him. Fine. May be his lack of luck is the reason that I do not have energy. I just wonder what he is going to do after he dies and leaves this world. He will see what he did and how much sorrow and suffering caused. Welll, I guess he will feel bad. June 20 2011 Attacks !! Yesterday at about 7 am while I was watching TV I received a suggestion "ongyo gyitas". Well, it was from somebody. Thank you but reconnective healing is definitely n ot what can heal me as long as I would have such a big ego. I am being provoked almost reguarly by stranger d uring my sleep which I found utterly disgusting. I had a dream in which I went to a shop but it was closed and I had to go on s trairs up. I then turned back and wanted to go back downstairs but some people were around me and a little cute 5-6 years old girl. I then ju mped down and woke up. I received Reconnective healing but was not very successful. The reason why I saw a girl in my dream is simple. They wanted me to be in a love state which is fine. I feek sorry for them. The y do almost everything to help me becasue they are compassionate and good hearted people. On the other hand some people really ha te me and the worst thing is that I never hurt them and never did never had negative thoughts about them. I keep wondering why some people are s o dirty and malicious. They could kill me if they knew they would avoid the punishement. All sort of strange people hate me and make fun of me a nd judge me etc. In an astute way, of course, in order to not spoil their own karma. I find such people very deshonest becasue they are not straig ht. They speculate and are far cry from gentlemen. In the history gentlemen fought a duel which was the most honest and open way to solve problems. One of them died many times but it was not backbiting and stabbing from the ba ck. Also in sport it has always been unfair to attack from the back. Those people who did it were despized by everyone becasue the societe (at least the hight) had strong inner values. Those were the times when a real gentlemen

had to be deerful and honest. Nowadays people curse each other and send them bad dreams and thoughts and sug gestions while they sleep. What kind of people are they? They are not scary people becasue they would not accept a duel. They fear deat h, cannot accept the consequences of their actions so all they do is to find ways how to hurt others without spoiling their own karma. What low people are these ! If was invited to fight a duel I would accept it because I do not fear death. I would not shoot I would not move at a ll. The problem of course is that I know that I cannot die, not yet. So I would alway win duels. Ok, it is maybe unfair. But I despize these people because they judge me and think low of me but they do not realize how low they are themselves. What kind of man is someone who cannot say thing into your own face? WHo cannot hit you becasue he is scary. I can remember a dream in which I saw a house whose main door from the street was opened by force by some people. I then ran away but then bumped into Farago (one of the twins from elementary school) and Fica Patrick. Farago hold my hands and I was very angry. He said : menjunk gereblyezni. They wanted to help but they do not know that they should not use violence. Then I can remeber somebody talking to me to get rid of the cum (in Slovak lan guage). I think he used the world "semeno". I did not knwo what he wanted me to do and so I pissed into a pisoar. Only for a while could my dick be seen. former barber woman she used to work in the barber shop I have been going to f or at least a decade. I was really surprized when I learned that she was behind the door and wanted to hypnotize me or what (that world came to my mind and the book I had bought in libri (about seeing the future, astral jo urneys, physical protection). * Conclusion - I decided to be surged for the following reasons: 1. Eckhart Tolle always stated that we must not refuse medical help. We coop erate with our doctors and complain only to them nobody else. 2. Reconnectibe healing does not work and is not going to work as long as I am threated and despized almost every night. 3. my helpers have not enough energy to make my bowel move and unfortunately the rectum is too weak. It has not enough functional nerve cells. I really have Hirschprung's disease full stop. Nobody can change this fac t. Nobody has ever escaped death or surgery. It is a fact. I believe the surgery will help me. I am pragmatic. I wasted 2 years for nothing, All I have is enemies and malicious people who would love me to be even more miserable. They are unkind ruthless and hearhless. They have no compassion and it is very sad. It is shocking that some people think they cand do everything. My only salvation is death. Nothing lasts forever. No suffering, no human li fe will last forever. I am sure I am going to have a beautiful life in my next life. A simple but full of peace and love. 4. I was recommended surgery not only by the surgeon but by nurses from the USA (Cincinatti hospital) June 21 2011 I went to bed at 11 pm. I got up 20 minutes after midnight. I can clearly reme mber the dream I'd had before I woke up.

Toth Roland, Rozsa Sanndor and some others were running as if something scared them towards the old flat from back side. I saw them and they took over me I slowed down as I did not want to run with t hem. Then I found myself in front of the entry door to our old flat. It was closed and I knew that Toth Roland and Rozsa Sandor were ther e. I did not feel comfortable as it was an annoyance. Somehow the door opened and my mother, father and brother were behinf the door . I had the feeling that the flat is too small for these uninvited guests. I said : the flat was too small. I saw the face of my brother who really was frawned to me adn he noticed the guests as well. Pretty interesting. These former school guyes are not true friends at all. They like to play with others instead of respecting privacy. I do not like them at all. They are envious as almost everybody among them including the form master who even hates me. I complained when I was woken up. I said I would not want to see my parents or brother any more in my dreams and I wanted to sleep alone. At least I wished I could sleep alone. I found these guyes disgusting as they just entered someone elses home???!! They had not been invited. So I do not know why they did this. I gues someone was watching this and made me to see everyone behind the door to make me realize that I shall find a new home a flat of my own. At about 7 in the morning I clearly noticed Urban Gabor who was at astral l. For sure. I got out of bed at 9 am in the morning. When I got up I remebered Mr. Mark Brouwer. Well, it seemed he spent some with me. If I had to choose between him and former school mates from middle school then I would choose Mr. Brouwer as he respects me and he is ychoterapeut. He probably does not judges people or even despizes them but understands them and feels compassionate with them. People too easily e others and they do not even have the slightest intention to think first. leve time a ps judg

Anyway, I find people very amoral and filthy and dirty as they eavesdrop every body and just do not respect privacy. They are asholes. Scary little asholes who would not ask you a question in real life. Instead th ey make fun of others and exploit their abilities to entertain themselves. They are morally low and at the level of a bug or a worm. This is my opinion. I find it really sick if somebody who you have not met for about a decade keeps spying on you regularly. What kind of pervert is this. However, this is not the worst. They are some really assholes who have the audacity to send you dreams. Some send you bad dreams and make you feel bad during your dreams. Why they cannot understand that people sleep to regain their powers to be able to work during the day? Why they play with other people? Do not they feel ashamed? Little children do it but not adults? Are they adults at all? Do they realized how low it is what they are doing? Th ey are like old women who are nosy and like to gossip about their neighbours or relatives. Very disgusting feature indeed. June 22 2011 I went to bed early at 8:50 pm and I was woken up at about 10 pm. I could sligh tly recall the dream I had had and I felt it was again somthing speculative to h urt me. I felt it was something new, some new tricks or joke or suggestions. So I said I wanted to have peace and i begged everybody to not hurt me or anyone else because nobody has the right to bother others while they sleep. It is a very ba d karma to backbite somebody while he is sleeping and it is extraordinaly bad karma to hurt or despize a severerly ill fellow man.

I criticized a bit those who eavesdrop regularly despite my wish not to do it t o me. And I also expressed my hatred towards those who attack from your back when you are unconscious. They do not have the audacity to say their opinion right into your eyes instead they send you negative suggestions or dreams. I do not h ave high opinion of those and unfortunately it seems to me that there are quite a lot of people who do it regularly which is a shame. They are a sham e. They do not take responsibility for 2012. I had a dream with some strangers (adults speaking Hungarian; more than 40 year s I estimated). I found myself in the garden. The gate opened and I saw two new strangers. One of them had black hair, the ot her was clearly recognizable. He was Mr. Szapu (former neighbour of our garden). I had a dream in which I saw a crosswords and I said : vestkyna, jasnovidkyna. etc. Then I heard: "Nagyon bntja szegnyt." Mrs. Horvath, my former teacher from elementaryy school, seems to be a good fri end with Mrs. Isabella. Mrs. Isabella is probably despized by quite a lot of people and so do I. Somebody, probably Mrs. Isabella, manipulated with me, she wanted me to try thi ngs out or what. I can remember holding the hand of a man and I thought of India and then I felt that for a very short moment I went into his body. It was a coincidence of course. She told me that with 2012 spirituality will rise and etc etc. Reconnective Healing is simple. All you need is love and presence. Not hing more. I despize esoterism. It is about knowing too much. It cannot really heal the so ul. Btw. I reall do not know what she wants from me. I do not know. I talked about finding the right woman. I said you must feel a vibration in you constaantly for many months. And the vibration will attrct her. That is all you need to have to find the RIGHT woman. If you walk i n the streets and look for a suitable woman then you are a poor looser. Chances are little that the woman you think she is right wou ld be really the ONE. And of course I said that a DIP can help you to activate that high vibration in you. I said DrO would not do it. I also said that I did not need DrO at all. Any DIP would have been able to rel ease the curse from me. ANY DIP!!!!!! Now it may be too late but I do not think. It is never too late. There is no de stiny only choices. If we vibrate at a high frequency and we are in a good mood and do not complain and worry too many times then chances are that we will not attract any bad things. A curse is a real challenge but there is a chance to avoid it. Certainly the traditional compassion we know about is the direct way to catch some curse or karma or low vibration. In Hungarian language egyutterzes means that you feel the same sadness than the other person with whom you feel compassionat e. It is a very bad custom and our parents tought us to do it and it is a challange to get rid of this very harmful custom or bad habit. Real

compassion is love and not feeling bad. Buddhists know what it is. * Conclusion - I believe I am able to get away with the punishment. I am not a fool to suff er any more. The surgery is needed unfortunately. I am going to call the doctor next week o n Tuesday. - Mrs. Isabella just cannt respect my wish !!!!!!! I am getting more and more upset about her. I told her again. I have forgiven but what she did was cruel and very amoral. And I cannot respect her for that. Because it is obvious that it was a mistake and it was not supposed to happen. I feel like a victim of some crazy people who made a conspiration against me. I do not want to see these guyes again. I asked mrs. Isabella to leave me and let me be. I do not want to know the fut ure and I choose happiness and freedom. I am free o choose whatever I want and I hope to be able to choose love. The f amily I come from is a nest of hell and bad karma. I quickly need to get away as far as possible from them becasue - let us face it - it is dangerous and causes unhappyness. - I began to clearly realize what I need to do. I am responsible for my own destiny and happyness and I need to get away from my parents because the cause of my constant unhappiness was THEM!!!!! I always felt free and relived when I was aborad (Paris, Switzerland, Wienna). And now I know why it was. - Unfortunately rumours spread quickly and it seems to me tha my father's acqu intances visit him and check up on him regularly.\ The problem is that they are too nosy and check upon his sons. June 23 2011 !!!! I was watching 2 movies on my notebook in the bed until 2:3 AM today. Yep. I did not want to sleep. And what happened. When I woke up about 2 hours later I again felt that Mrs. Isa bella was persuading me. I asked her not to influence me ever!!! I was very serious about it. What she is been doing is cruel and annoying. I started to criticize even DrO which I regret. I wish I had not done it. I thin k he is the victim of Mrs Isabella. I said the questin is : can he fix me or not? What is he up to? I think he said we finished together. I said only in person we should talk and say farewell. I stated I wanted to have peace and love. I do not want to have enemies. I want to forgive and I am sorry if it takes me longer. I got up at about 9 in the morning and my last dream was a message or AD. I gues s it was from Tia (I had visited her before, tart). She sent me a short AD for Dori baby who is a tart. She emphasized her experienc e (many years in the business). I also had the slight feeling that she sent me that she loves me. i thanked for her kindness and praised her sexy body and intelligent mind. Tia Alpha dreams in the morning. Music all sort of. Very good mood and smile. My fri ends had some music with me. Thanks. I like them.

June 24 2011 I woke up at about half past midnight. I could recall my dream I had. It was the strangest I had ever had. I was talking with some elder man in Hungar ian language. I could not recognize the man but the dialog was very strange. I knew the man is the pope !!! I asked him about shaving. He said he does not have to shave. Then he said "megmutassam a porn gylytemnyem?". I said: mutasd! Probably this was by someone else who eavesdropped and made fun of it. I then woke up and was astonished. It did not take me long that thy program me. They want to design my reactions in advance. They envision that I would meet the pope!!! They know that I do not like him. So they train me to like him and other people while I sleep!!!!!!! This is amoral and a crime !! I never agreed to any kind of personality change a nd they are going to let me suffer! They could easily avoid my extreme suffering that is about to happen but they are so cruel and heartless an d selfish that they let it happen.They want to take ownership of me. I was very upset because they are determined to carry out their evil plan. They sent me to HEll (Dublin) and now they are going to make me suffer and watch it till it end probably without feeling even the slight est gilt. I despize such people who sacrifice one person without his/her consent. It is not love and cannot be love! They are going to do it despite my heavy protests. I started to make fun of it. I said I would sabotage their evil selfish plan. I was thinking of possibilities. I thought of becoming a Jewish but I refused it because I would not hurt my peni s. So I thought of stating publicly that I am a gay! Nope. I refused it. It would be a lie however it would really spoil their plans. A homosexual cannot be a religious man. Nope. Then I thought of committing some crime so that I would be in jail for a few yea rs. They would not let me out even if I would become enlightened. Also I thought of getting married with the first prostitute in Thailand. I spoke of wikileaks.org and I said how much I respect their members. They have the audacity to reveal the truth. They are brave men. At about 3 am I could fall asleep. I could not sleep long however. I had a dream in which I saw my brother next to me. I was sitting and he was spe aking. He said that : "A szemlyisged ugyanolyan, mint anyd, csak sszetettebb." I got upset and expressly sa id stop it I do not want to hear it. Now I believe it was Mrs. Isabella the amoral person who never ever respected my wish. I had asked her to leave me alone and not to disturb my dreams but she keeps disturbing me and talking bullshot to me. I hate her a bit. She is a lyer and a cheater. A very dangerous and astute woman with huge ego. I asked my friends to never lye to anyone about me. Never make up stories, I wan t to know everyone that I never was a religious man not even my mother. I am a victim of my own ego and othrer's even bigger ego. I am only an unlucky v ictim who waas first sent to hell and then let suffer extremely.\ Then they would state that my mother prayed to Jesus who healed me!!! Ridiculous !! My mother is a selfish woman who became resentlful and neurotic after I had the audacity to fell in love with a beautful nurse who I love and always w ill love and respect. I feel sorry for her that she must see all this and she might feel guilty that she could have saved me. I do not want her to feel ba d but probably she does as I myself feel very bad about what happened. It is a very sad love story.

I fell asleep and at 4:52 am I had a dream. In hUngarian. There was somebody Jesus (not the real one, just a fake) who wanted to talk to s omebody who had hurt me and I said. Majd en beszelek vele. I said: artottal nekem, ne arts tobbed nekem. I had the f eeling that the person was dead. I do not know who it was. Then I saw the form of my mother and a new healing power. Very little low as wel l. I accepted the healing it went into my abdomen to heal my large intestine. I still felt Jesus there (he was not Jesus at all of course). Somebody said: ne arts a rossznak. Probably Mrs. Isabella knows what an evil is my mother. She should suffer and go mad! It is her karma!!! But Mrs. Isabella is a cruel woman who wants me to suffer. I do not agree. I am not Jesus who always agreed. Of course, it was Mrs. I again. What a cheap trick !!! The healing did butkiss b ut I was thankful. She did it after nearly two years and only to stop me from the surgery. But I am determined even to die instead of become some evil people's figure. I always wanted to be neutral !! I founded it always very important. To be impartial and neutral. I also said that that the truth (this conspiracy against me) is going to be reve aled and probably religious people will hate Mrs. Isabella and even curse her for what she did to me. Religious people love judging and even piunishing others. They will take care of these filthy people. I will make sure the truth would be revealed and I am a victim. Nothing more nobody special and there is no destiny. My destiny a nd wish was to become healthier and married to a woman who I love. I want to be an ordinay person, not somebody. I do not want to become somebody. I had also a dream in which I saw somebody talkin in Hungarian who wanted to hav e sex with some woman who was on her knees. Mrs Isabella meant it to argument or show me how bad I was. There is nothing wro ng with loving or doing sex. I promised to god that I would not hurt anyone and frankly, after 31 years of il lness I guess I can acknowledge the institute of marriage and being kind and soft with a woman. I can value women. * Conclusion - I can be asute as well but at least I am not going to hurt anyone or I shoul d say the truth will hurt not me. I always wanted to be just and truth telling and honest and now I think I shou ld not be shy and I should let people know the truth There is absolutely not risk to me but to my parents as well. They will tell n onsense and bullshit but thanks the videos I am going to records their lyes will be revealed and then people will judge them as they do always. - I can easly record videos as they are very authentic and upload them as priv ate videos to youtube. Then I can publish a blog post which would become available only after a certa in date I can set. People will seek for information about me and about my past. That's what they do. There will be some who woudl be interested in finding somthing bad about me as well. I do not feel guilty or bad about the things I have do so far. I only hate my blindness and the lack of courage to express my love and accept the thought of being married with a seve re health condition. I only regret this and the numerous oppurtunities and fan I could have had. I missed a lot from my life including sex and alcohol and parties and friends. I am sorry for that. But one thing is sure. I do not have to feel shameful abo ut anything I have done becasue I do not need to hide anything

from my story. I am deerful enough to admit that I love prostitutes and women generally and sex of course. And I watched porn movies etc. So I am probably not a saint person and never want to be called like that. I w ant to know everyone that I am an ordinary person who was made somebody against his express disagreement. June 25 2011 ATTACKS ! I went to bed at usual time at about 9 pm. I woke up at about half past midday. I got a warning in Hungarian language : ha az mondod, hogy meglm, akkor ne csodlkoz z, ha tmadak. Something like that. Then I got asleep. I got up again and the dream I had had was set in Nove Zamky in the street. I saw in the street some many gutters and many security cameras. I had the feeli ng that I was searching for some shelter or home and I was a bit wondering if I could live there. Sztarovics and others were there with me. When I woke up I asked if the had been scared of me. I said it is their problem as I am not aware of that part of me. I said that it could have been schizofrenia which is fragmented mind. a part of a mind was isolated becasue of extreme trauma and it is an isolated personality which could never develop. That is why it is child like or behaves like a child. I also said that it can be programmed and activated. Regarding some rumours secu rity agencies CIA, NSA use such people or create such people to use them as murders or sex slaves. I read about it on a web page written by a Hungarian author. Another dream I remember is being with some totally new strangers. I was lying c lose to a middle agaed woman and next to my was a man who spoke English. He said do you do it usually? I said yes, she os my teach er. I asked them to consult an expert such as Dr. Angster Maria. Later after some sl eep I heard : psychic protection you need. Yep. This means that there are still some people who dislike and hate me becasue they envy me. somebody: your English is good (probably a suggestion that I should go abroad) Letter from Mrs. sabikova (nurse Anna). In Slovak language. She thanked for my g ood wishes. Very kind of her. June 26 20111 I woke up after midnight. I had a dream in Hungarian language. I was in a hurry to the airport. My parents were to give me a ride to the airpor t. I realized that I must be there 2 hours before the arrival and I was nervous to not miss the flight. Then I woke up. Somebody, probably Mrs. Isabella wanted me to travel to India. Yeo. When I woke up I talked about dreams and happyness. I said Mrs. Isabella certain ly has a dream.

It is fine as long as she does not forces her dreams to someone else. I talked a bout my dreams which is getting married and live a very ordinary life in peace and love. I refuse to be famous and to be involved in politics. The secret of happyness is to go for our own dreams and not to live the life of someone else. Bill Gates, Steve Jobs all worked hard to make their dreams come true. I came up with a witty idea that I would do DIP as well. Becasue I can seel plac ebo too. Then after half year later I would travel to the Dominican Republic and never ev er come back. After more than an hour of selftalk I finally got asleep. I saw in my dream a youtube video which has been seen 5 times. I was asked if I wanted to see it. I refused and woke up. I then fell asleep and saw a video clip about Mr. Gasparo vic (current president of Slovakia). He was against corruption, he spoke in Slovak language. He spoke about some comp anu who made contract with a mobile phone provider and he thought it was too expensive or what. I woke up and I said I did not care. I said this country needs a new generation of piliticians who are clear and have strong moral. This guy is a shame to the country as he is an ex-comminist. This dream was sent also by Mrs. Isabella. Then I had a dream in Hungarian. My mother burned her hands by cooking and I sho uted that it would be painful. Regarding the warnings I had received first, my mother would suffer and she need s to be saved and then I would. Ok.But how?? And why cannot a DIP help her?? Close to the morning I received another dream in which I saw that a school teach er was about to teach us how to masturbate. It was part of the lecture. The dream was short and I heard then this word: Cund ra. The guy could be a Slovak guy and he was interrupted by one of my helpers. It is noticable that women help me who are brave and deerful. It should be a man job. I feel really sorry for these brave women w ho must deal with filthy people. I was very weak in the afternoon again. In the morning I noticed that I had a lo t of senseless thoughts when I was close to sleep. Now (20:00) I feel fine and strong again. In the afternoon at about 6 o'clock I received reconnective healing and it was by Mrs. Elisabeth (Erzsike). She said: "vigyazz magadra". * Conclusion - I am thinking of taking her to a real DIP - I am indignated by Mrs. Isabella who has less moral than a prostitute - a lot of brave people help me to protect me against envy and evil people who send all sort of negative thoughts and dreams. - my parents are really worried about me. I was in bed at 10 am when the doorb ell rang. I went to answer to door phone and\

it was my mother. They asked me to let them in. They had not informed me about their sudden visit. Obviously her voice was full of worry when we spoke yesterday. She could receive bad dreams as well . They brought me a lot of food and my suit. She worries that I find it hard to find a job. I am worried about totally else. June 27 2011 !!! (the mistake) I woke up short lying and I was Then I saw some n up and said I after midnight. I saw I was "wrestling" with Mr. Molnar. He was holding his hand so he could not move. soap bubbles. Somebody tried to bring me a foto. Then I was woke was sorry.

I talked to them and asked what shall I do. They said me to listen but we could not communicate. I saw in my dreams: Kaderabek, sztarovics, Molnar Antal Peaceful night. I heard: you have emotion. It is hate. They are right. Unfortunately they are. I said: you discovered water. I also wanted to know if I was to contact a new DI P. I did not get answer. In the late afternoon I definitely felt better and I know that it was the work of DrO. However, he put into me a very strong energy which attracts the same energy ver y strongly. Unfortunately not a lady but HIM!! He also programmed so that I would sasy that he is my friend. NOPE! Since it was a peaceful night I thought I was with my friends only so I said I need sex . I exaggerrate it very much. But I also said that I would like to be married because that is what makes sens e to me. I expect nothing good after this. I also discovered that people's negative thoughts make me feel bad and tired. A nd also my digestion works hardly after these negative suggestions hardly. * Conclusion - I am punished for my thoughts regularly. It is 2011 modern Europe and some p eople punish me for healthy sexual thoughts and desires and dreams ! - I am not to think of such things as I am eavesdropped every day and night by very pervert people who will have an extraordinary hard NEXT life and very bad karma. Mrs. Isabella was right that these attacks would continue. - tomorrow I am going to cancel the appointment with Mr. DrO. June 28 2011 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went to bed at midnight. I woke up at 00:50 am. I had a drean in which somebody in English said that my friend would think I was an evil. It was set here in the flat. I was sitting on the sofa. Family constellation wa s mentioned. The purpose of the dream was to make me release a strong effort. They want me t o hate my friends who help me. It was a work of a DIP and most likely not DrO. Mrs. Isabella warned me again. It was her idea. She is an EVIL !!!!!! She asked some DIPs to lock up my mind so that nobody can bother me. They ised a password or what. I saw passwords.

I had very insane dreams. Just like after a personality programming. * Conclusion - I cannot be programmed by a DIP for at least 1 month, - I need to get a Hungarian passwport to screw their wicked plans. - My mother ought to visit a DIP as her karma would flow to me. I need to stop it. June 29 2011 Yesterday I had a job interview. I was really tired. I also phoned Dr. Dobrovod sky who said I should call him next week. It seems to me he is reluctant to help me of uknown reason. When I got into bed he visited me and wanted to communicated with me but unfortunately it did not work out well. At least he helped me to improve my aura. Both men tried to contact me yesterday when I was in bed. Probably one of them s aid: lelky csontvaz. There is something in it. I can remember I had a dream in which I was pissing into a bath which was in a r oom. Somebody else was there as well. I also can remember a young lady (only her hands) who was talking about Satsang in Hungarian. She said: -10 fok celsious hideg. And I: extreme satsang. Then I touched her very small ha nds and I felt her soul a but. Then I woke up. I had a dream with Plichta Tamas. I cut my leg and called the hospital. I met hi m and somebody else in the street. He lifted me. Etc. I cannot remember all. I can clearly remember a dream in which somebody was telling: piros feher zold ( note: the colors of the hungarian flag). Szilvia Fazekas reminded me of rent. How kind of her. There is still time to pa y it sho she should not do it. I do not want her to do this. My mother is worried about the money I spent. "Annyi penzt elvitt otthonrol". I heard he cry in my dream. One of the strangest dream I had was with the former pope : Jan Pope II. He was I think reminded me how long he lived and strong he was. Btw it was peace. I cannot remeber any despizing remark. Strangely I cannot reme mer having dreams with my former school mates. Were they bannned ?? * Conclusion - I am getting convinced more and more that I really need a psychoterapy. The problem is my mother who is getting crazy so much is he worried mostly abo ut money not my health. SHe was a woman.

24 may 2011 Somebody was trying to say me something. I think it was Mrs. Isabella. The person was trying to bring me to alpha. But there was a problm. There are some guys there (maybe former school mates; C hesnek J. for instance) who rile me by my brother. They visualise him and he touched me and I got upset. so I tried to lock myself in the bathroom of the old flat. I then tried to get asleep on the floor. But I was waken up by my brother. I even remember a dream in which I was threatening him to pull off his teeths b y punching him in his face.

* Conclusion - something is gonna happen - I should be in Canada but I do not feel up to going there. Not to mention that I really cannot afford it and anyway why would I got ther e? - I see the situation severe and now I see that what a disadvantage it was to n ever have a room of my own. It was my parent's negligence to not move to a bigger flat. They pretty much neglected us especially me. - It may happen that they are not humans but souls. I do not know but I am susp icious of Mr. Cesnek J. who always behaved wickedly at school and he hated me for something. 26 May 2011 !!!! Ivan the bus driver was in my dream. * Conclusion - it turned out that some people who I do not know or are much more older than me spy on me and laugh at me It was a sad surprise to learn that there are many people watching me only to entertain themselves.

27 May 2011 Yesterday I was to sign a Contract of Tenancy but Germany p again despising hotel an ad with teenager girls offering sex services. It was hard to resist but I di d. I saw other men who also were eager to do it. I then thought of how good it would be married and not having to see those filth y men. Someone created a dream in which I eavesdropped my father who said I would go to Germnay. I had said I would go to India. To study something. "a trauma akkor is megmarad" - a thought appeared in me when I woke up.

28 May 2011 I had a lot of astral dreams with Csibi. Quite a lot of women were there. I did not recognize anyone of them. Close to the morning I had a dream in which I saw an envelope and money put in i t. I heard a man's voice saying in Hugarian: Be kell fejezni. Rendbe kell tenni. (n ot exact quotation). Yesterday I had a dream encouraging me to undergo the surgery. I believe the per son who sent me the dream is wrong. Doc. Vidiscak is not the guy who exects me to pay him some m oney. He knows how severe is my condition and he is relucatant to surge me. Maybe MUDr. Dobrovodsky but I do not think. They simply do not want to hurt me. * Conclusion - yep. Before the Reconnective healing seminar I said that I would go for the s urgery if no improvement would happen. 30 June 2011 So my mind was locked so that nobody can send me messages or visual messages. I felt they were trying and sometimes I got up so hard they tried. I feel energetically very well. My energy level is normal. I had some strange dreams. One of them was with Lakatos Zsanett (former elementary school mate). Her lips w ere painted and she kissed me on my cheek. I was afraid that the lipstick would be seen on my face so I wiped my face with some paper. I again saw Angyal Peter in my dream. Nothing bad but I had told I do not want t o see this guy. SOme slovak language I heard in my dreams as well. I think someone was suggesting me to learn something. I think becasue of the fai led job interviews. The company I was yesterday at for an interview has not sent me a feedback back yet. I guess I was not convincing enough. But my JS skills were really pretty good.

1 July 2011 (very peaceful night) I dreamed with Toth Karcsi and Janoska (he was my bank mate in middle school). There was somebody stranger there. I had never seen him before. I saw Chinese children in my dream. When I woke up they reminded it to me. I had said to my mother yesterday that things had changed since I got my first j ob. The globalisation created a very competitive environment. China, India, provide millions of fresh programmers every year.

Unfortuately programming is not a long lasting investment as it quickly becames replaced with another technology and its learning curve is steep so anyone can learn it. I received a dream also in which it was said that I waisted some time. Yes, it i s true. The guy to blame is first of all Dr. Marko who did not do the right surgery. Then again he is to blame who did no t want to surge me. All right. It was a nice spiritual experience in 2008 but after that I should ha ve been solved my health issue somehow. Mrs. Isabella was a complete disaster. She really caused me a lot of trouble and pain. Dublin was a great mistake I do not see any reason for that. It was for nothing. So we (Toth Karcsi) and I were thinking what to do but yep I have no capital so it is beating a dead cow. It is a problem if you do not have a capital, and not even a flat on mortgage. For my financial troubles my mother is to blame who refused to sell the flat to me. It is an unimaginable negligence from her side. Parents should always take care of the future of their children. I was reliable and recognized how important it was to get a flat so I decided to buy it. I received a message from Tia (lady in her early thirties who I visited this yea r to have some fun). She said : I received your message and it was sad. I was surprised as I did not send her any message. Well. She sent back a little card Szeretlek. I love her too. I expressed my sorry that many young ladies have to do the job they do like and she is such and intelligent and elegant lady. I said she deserves a better job. One of the young man who I was interviewed by the day before yesterday visited m e. He had a very good mood and he said I was not reliable. They need a reliable worker. So regarding him I am not reliable. That is the rea son. Well, it makes me feal better as I thought my skills were lacking something or my face was not convincing. He may know about m y constipation problems or even my surgery It is very unfortunate that nobody wants to take the risk of empoying me for 3 m onths on probabtion. They do not want to risk at all. I should deserve a chance at least. But who know what is the best for me. I may find a better job or invent something new. Such companies will never invent anything, they just get the job done as quickly and effectively as possible. They do not innovate. But I like to experiment a little and try out new approaches. I told this guy that I need to change future. He bursted out in laughing which w as really kind of him and I felt good becasue I love kind lovely gues. I gave him a little riddle in JavaScript as well and praised the te st code in JS to check if the candidate can recognize closure. I had the fealing again that DrO reassured me again that my destiny is fine etc. And I saw a cross which was put above the front door. They still want me to be christian but I do not want to belong to any religious group. I like to remain independent and impartial. 11:00 - I noticed a strange energy in me. Very slightly and it has something to do with the curse and Prague.

12:43 - It had to do something with the Eclipse. Today is my last eclipse regard ing the horoscope. One of the strongest. I wonder what else may come. An energy started to flow into my stomach. It canno t be a real human sending me enery. It is too strong. Today my mother went to fetch me the translations of the offic ial papers to get a Hungarian citizenship. It was my grandfather. Two days ago I looked at the papers and I learned that my grandfather was born on the 23th of December 1907 and my grandmother the 7th January 1907. I had a strong painbody and some tears. I felt the same bitter my grandpa could have felt. I again felt the pain he could feel when he was deported. I have a firm belief that they are NOW happy and together ! They got divorced an d am sure my grandpa was unhappy about it. For some reason they belong together now and they are both happy together. Maybe my grandma has forgiven something my grandpa. I feel better. But this is not enough. Now I have life force and energy but stil l disease. It takes a lot of time me to get the solution for my problems. Nope: it was Dr Dobrovodsky. I was wrong about it. 13:29 Today called Dr. Dobrovodsky from Trnava hospital (colorectal surgeon). His problem was that I am from Nitra region and not from Trnava region. So he ga ve me 2 options: - go to Dr. Korcek (Nitra) - write an application to the hospital in Trnava to allow me to be hospitalized at them

Jul 2 2011 I had some dreams with Gajdos. He was with some woman. Peaceful night. Then I had a dream : I was lying and a dog came to fondle me. I fondled the dog. They tried ti imagine that there were some fences around me b ut the dog came through the fences. It was a so called enemy. They mentioned after : baratsagos agyvedelem. Something like that. I also can remember: Az egeszseg nemcsak a testi egeszseg. Yep. I know. Szilvia Fazekas sent me a dream to ask if I handled the paper with the meter sta te. I mentioned her the book written by Domonkos (6 ik erzeka kbn). She said she'd rea d it. * Conclusion - so today I wrote an email to Jasmine master to hear her advice. I might try some therapy as the surgery is not a healing. Jul 3 2011 I did not sleep well. I got up several times. Not because of annoying people. I

just cannot sleep here well. Somebody played with me. It was in Hungarian. I saw a man and a woman. The man w as called : Na bundi. He was behavinfg like a dog. But I saw a man. I got upset and told everyone not to play with me. And I said I was fed up with dogs. I had some karaoke night. Somebody helped me to deepen my sleep. I can remember myself being in a bed. Then I was in the living room of the old flat and the room was crammed with furn iture. I was sitting and there was somebody else there also sitting. I saw two people moving a bed. It was quite dark so I tried to switch o n the light but the bulb bursted and I got upset. I then later found myself in a room and I played all sort of music. There was a projector there. There was a young man there in pidjama. He could have been my brother but I am not sure. It was nice and I enjoyed it a lot. After it I guess Hausleitner said it was her. And some other guys. Dr. Marko : "Starajte sa o seba" I am sure he blames me because I refused the surgery in 2009. It was very cruel what he did. That was cruel that he did nothing and knew about my extreme suffering. He should have surged me and do an ileostomy or colostomy right after the first. Now I have a hardly functional greatly damaged large intesine and a Hirschprung disease. And I had a surgery which was good for nothing. Close to the morning I heard some talk in my dream and it was Istvan (Pityu). Apparently he is still in heaven. Interestingly I heard the name Hortai too. I do not know why. He also mentioned beer. He talked Hungarian. 16:30 I have again a weak sense of something bad in the air. Some curse again. S omebody really wants me to catch it. I am not going. I am going to screw her plan. On Friday next week at 11 am I hav e an appointment in Budapest to handle out the documents needed to get Hungarian citizienship. * Conclusion - I really need to make up my mind and stick to the plan. - I think it is simply. I need to find a good hospital to get rid of some tr aumas. If there is no such hospital then I am really afraid I have to undergo the surgery. But before I would like to visit Katie Byron. And it would be pretty useful to send my mother to a DIP. I would feel bett er. So I need to tell her.

Jul 4 2011 Despizing dreams !! Yesterday I felt that smebody had been suggesting me. I thought of Prague and Ir eland and England and I really felt

slightly the curse in the background. very slightly. Then somebody started to send me some energies and made me think of the Notebook movie, the young lady. I guess she was Erzsike. I am not sure. I felt better after it because she still likes me. It increased me self esteam a nd I wrote back an SMS message to Mr. Szabo Balazs frm EOX kft. that I am attendind the 2nd round of the job in terview. When I got up in bed I noticed that somebody was starting to send me energies. I guess she was Erzsike. Something is about to change in me because I feel like able or wanting to fight for myself and good things. And she likes it. I am beginning to take back my destiny into my hands. I do not want to be a toy of some bad people. Mrs. Isabella does not like it I am sure. It is interesting that I'd wanted to g o to India and now I do not feel like escaping. Unfortunately I have serious traumas and I need to get rid of (some) o f them. The only problem is I do not know how. I received a world message from somebody who claimed he is Szabo Balazs. He said I need to reherse those parts I am weak at. He persuaded me to come. Then I had a dream in which I was given programming tasks. Then I heard: tenyleg nezeh lehet a programozas. It was Magdi neni. Then I had a dream (I think I was receiveing messages not visuals, the visueals I saw were produced by my own mind). in front of the garden. I was sitting ina car and I was about to take a laxativ e pill when somebody was cycling and was looking up. The message could have been this: azt hiszed nem jon ra, hogy nem vagyol egeszseges. I even heard that the person would inform the owner that I had been recommened p sychotherapy. This person for some reason hates me. I asked her/him and she mentioned that I h ad done three things that cannot be forgiven. But I do not know what. Till morning I had many talks which really confused my mind. It started with cats. I heard people miaul like cats. The talked Hungarian. Nem talaltunk Romeo es Juliat ezert macskak. At least 5 people. I am suspicious of Krisztin (tart from Budapest). I remember dreams: szekeles, masturbation. I remember a big cucumber and i slapped my brothers ass or what? Then I mention ed that Leda (tart) has bigger ass. I looked at the cucumber in my hand. Then I had a dream in which I was about to call tarts after the job interview. E tc. etc. All they want is to make me look dirty and pervert. They would die of envy if I started a love relationship with a woman. * Conclusion - I am learning. If I do not fight for my own happiness then who? I was so naive. I thought everyone wants my good but this world (country) is f

ull of negative people who either want you to exploit or even harm you. It is disgust ing. - today I mentioned my mother the DIP (I just said a healer) and she was not h appy at all. She has self pity. Great self pity. All she wants is to harvest love from othe rs because she is so ill. But when I offer her a help for free she refuses and gets a bit resentful. I said she harms me when she is worried about me. When I got home she was rath er down and sipping or what. She said: akkor nem fogok tobbet aggodni. Of course not. Now I feel I want to travel back. I do not feel good here. ANd I really woudl love to get some job and live far away from these people. I do not want to know anything about them no phone calls at all etc. Jul 5 2011 Sztarovics Andras agian mentioned me religion. I refused. I said I had a religio n and it was Zen. I fell asleep and when I woke up I remembered somebody mentioned DrO and that he would dispel evil from me. It is ridiculous. It is only ego. There is no evil in me. I started Reconnective healing and it was very succesful. I reminisced some ladi es from my life who I loved and it worked a bit. I felt a higher vibration. I could heal myself if I were in love and had a relat ionship. I realized how blind they are who just read the bible. It is not enough. If you have love you do not need belief. You have beautiful positive and optimistic thoughts. Love is really needed for Reconnecti ve healing. It is essencial. After a session lasting an hour or even longer I fell asleep. I gained consiousn ess and I was in a school class. Somebody mention Rozsa (a family name) and I was looking around and I saw a lot of students. I saw close to me Mr. Toth Roland I had notion of Hausleitner Agnes and by the teacher's desk a yo ung unknown man was sitting reading something. He asked a question in Hungarian: what was the profession of somebody. I then woke up. Apparently they screwed up. They made up the situation and I gai ned too much consciousness or what so I got up. I said I did not care. Thne I fell asleep again. I found myself in a smaller room. A figure of earth wa s in the center of the room and a man was talking in Hungarian. He was like a teacher. I then started to fly in the room with a chair I was sitting on. The man disappe ared. I gained so much consciousness that I looked at my left hand but at that moment it was scribbled and I had a notion of Trk Laci (e x-school mate from middle school). I woke up again. I was upset. Then I tried to sleep again.I found myself in a room. I ran to lie down on the f loor to relax but Mr. Toth Roland had to talk. SOn of a bitch. He mentioned me the computer that is slow needs to be defragment ed. I woke up. It was too much for me and I got really upset. I sent him and his friends away. I really do not know how can somebody be so annoying and why

cannot realize that I do not like him. He is unpleasant to me. Cannot he realize it and get off? Get out of my life? Cannot he do this favour for me? I than remember a dream in which I was sitting and my mother came into the room and took the scisoors from a drawer. In another dream I saw my mother and I had a scissor in my righ hand I was prett y upset. I saw Mr. Pischinger in my dream. He asked "Mi a baj?". * Conclusion - some former school mates play with me and they are not considerate at all. Concretely I had told Mr. Toth Roland to get out of my life a month ago or eve n earlier. He ignored my wish. What kind of evil son of a bitch is this? Tonight I asked him angrily to leave me and that I never wish to see him. I really hope he eventually understands it or do es he have limited mental capabilities? - What can make you ill or depressive is lies regarding your own future from t he dirty mouth of a filthy witch called Mrs. Isabella. If I think about it what he had done to me then I must say that she made me il l and stressful. She sent me all sort of dreams, warnings. My father is supposed to die soon et c. I never ever want to see this filthy old bitch. I hate her for what she had do ne. She made me fearful. Filthy evil unkid ruthless and cruel woman. In a class (Rozsa, Toth Roland, some male teacher).

July 6 2011 Mrs.sabikova (nurse Anna) with her friends visited me and were happy and cheerfu l because they day before I did a self healing and I thought of her and other nurses. The healing was effective as I expressed great love. They like me. So do I. To be more concrete: my first dream I can remember was this. A young man was tal king to me cheerfully. He asked: let's fight. I said : yeah it is ego but fuck it! I am not a gay. It w as all about poor Mr. Toth Roland. I said I did not want to see him again because he made fun of me and anyway I pr efer women. July 7 2011 I received several time Reconnective healing. It was Erzsike the angel who shine d my life. She brought light to my pathetic life. She is a diamnd in this dark life. I am sure she has many friends and everyone l oves her and respects her. She is wise as elder people should be. I am very greatful to her. I received a short dream from the guy I had visited the deay before at EOX kft. He was a bit upset that U wasted time on a task that was wort only 5%. He was right. One of the mistakes I made was that I did not choose a strateg y. The right strategy wold have been to concentrate on front-end instead of back-end. Also I heard in my dream the world "szorgalom". They wached all candidates in order to see them how they get prepared for the

2nd meeting. They wanted hard-working. There was windy at night and I had a dream in which I was looking out of the old flats's kitchen to the street. It was beautiful. The wind was blowing and bending the chestnuttree. The clouad were purple and th e windows was opened ajar by the wind. Dust was blewn into the room and I turned back and there was my mother caryying a cooking pan (sklillet). I felt she was dearest kindesr Agi tunci. She is a beautful angel lady. Very res pectful pretty young kind lady. Then I saw one of the block of flats catching fire. I got up and asked myseld wh y I had such a negative dream. Was I negative? Then later I had a dream with my mother. I was sitting in the old living room an d I had the lunch on the table. I was eating a cookie instead of the lunch and my mother told me to throw it awa y. She was angry at me. I said: ennyire problema vagyok. then I saw my mother and brother. She had her b irthday. The dream was made up as the word "szuletesnap" was put into her neck. My brother said: ne idegesgedj, or ne aggodjal. Then she bursted crying and it was her birthday. They wanted to show me probably that she is still worried about me. I know shw has some issue and she gets sik when I get away. There is something w rong with her. Regarding the prophecy she is going to have a strong headache and then I would follow. That's interesting. When I worked in Wienna she got almost mad regardingm my bro because I did not s end SMS message. But I was away for only a week. And when I got home I saw that somebody was searching my drawer. It was her. Later she had that rare uncurable disease Meniere. It was when I worked in Brati slava. I am worried she would cause me problems again. What if she cursed me. What if s he has a curse? Shall I visit a real DIP? I am so sorry she refused to visit the DIP. I really w anted to help her. But she would not let it because she loves suffering and she does not know it. She is so unconscious that she cannot see it. She is not i nterested in solutions. She LOVES suffering. Unfortunately it is true. Shall I visit a real DIP? July 8 2011 Short after midnight O got up and I was astonished. I had a dream in which my m other was jerking off my brother's dick and I was doing the same. She was speaking Hungarian. SHe was sort of understanding that it is not a syn. When I noticed it I felt that the person who did it was scared. Somebody made me dream this and he was a Hungarian speaking chap or lady. I was rather low after this dream and hopeless. I had a dream set in a school c lass. I was standing next to a desk and wanted to sit down when I took notice of Mr. Hortai (former form master). He did not say anything. I sa id he could sit down. He did nothing. Then I saw Mr. Sztarovics who walked up to me with a newspaper in his hand. He said he'll show me sowmthing. It was Oracle database. He just tried to move my attention away from Mr. Hortai so that I would not say anything bad. I had a dream with Mr. Dekan Csaba. He phoned somewhere. I also felt Mr. Dermi sek.

July 9 2011 My first dream was with sexual content. I saw Mr. Lebo (from elementary school ). He wanted to suck my dick and spoke Hungarian. I am quite sure he was not real. Someone made me to dream it. Very annoying. T his time I warned him that it is a crime to annoy someone. I had a dream set in a school class. I saw Mr. Kollar Tibor, the former from m aster from elementary school. I saw some paper. It was about Slovak language. I said you emigrate and do not need it any more. In the end of the dream I saw Mr. Grcsi Andras. He was nice at least he stood for his dream and wanted me to know it was from him. I unfrotunately thought it was from Mr. Kollar T. but then I realized that I was wrong. Anyway I said I did not need it. And I f ind it a sort of violence if someone sends dream to someone. I said I am open to opinions and I chose email or electronic mail. When I slee p I do not wish to be disturbed for nothing. Zsuzsi and Erzsebet some kind of doctor (examined my rectum) told me in Hungarian : operalni kell I was warned of Mr. E. Tolle's path. Not to go through it. imafuzer July 10 2011 I was watching a movie till 11:30. I got up half an hour after midnight. Somebody was talking to me about Jesus. I was a bit pissed off. I simply do not know what do I have to do with him or Catholism?? Nothing. Then I heard it was my "baratno". I wonder which? Was it nurse Anna? Later I had a dream in which I went into one of the two rooms. The room I went i nto was empty. I had a blank sheet of paper and I wrote my name on it. I saw young people waiti ng outside. Then a priest came in and I was expecting punishment. I said I had not hurt anyo ne and had not beaten up anyone. Then I got up and I said it was ridiculous. I have no clue what had happened and why I had such a dream. I received energy. I had a short dream . It was a message written in a Hungarian newspaper. It said: megha pokol is a fold csendben kell lennunk. Something like that. Then I had some dream with a very pretty young strange woman. I felt she was my friend or what. I had a dream in which I was bathing in the sea. I jumped into the water froma ship. Rather strange dreams. At 7:00 am I received a message. I got a mail from the hospital. They really wan t me to surge. How nice of them. I said I really wanted to be surged last year. They lost time and I could have avoided hell if they werent so slow. I rat her upset and regret that I could not have been surged last year. Today I cancelled my registration at the event with Katie Byron and sent an emai l to Mr. Takacs Attila asking him to help me get a permanent residency address in Trnava region. Then I will get a new ID card and then conta

ct the hospital. Takcs Attila Titulus PaeDr. Telefonszm 0907513525 e-mail takacsatti@hotmail.com July 11 2011 My first dream was about sending SMS. joga, cekla I spent the night with my former school mates. Varagya Sz, Sztarovics, Haris Gab or, etc. Horvath t. neni was sending me enegy all night. I've just looked into the mirror and I looked pale.

July 12 2011 yesterday at She informed y) and weather I wrote back 00 in Brno.

9:30 PM I received an SMS message from Mrs. Pivovarova. me that Mr. Rene Kamenik would be in Brno in July (23-24th of Jul I wanted an appointment. that yes I wanted. So I have an apppointment at July 23, 2011 15:

I receive quite a lot of dreams telling me that I need a surgery. I received messages like: Be an average person. Yesterday I received an email regarding I can pay the language school. Well, I am very surprised. I am to go there in person today. I'll go and ask them. I am still convinced that English is a very good strateg y for me. If I cannot earn money at least I should learn something that has long term value for me. * Conclusion - I am a bit worried about my decision to visit a new DIP after I was threated by DrO that it would not work. Unfortunately I have a bit insane dreams. It makes me concerned. So my mind st ate is getting worse t say the least. - I have cancelled my appointment with DrO. I sent him a polite SMS message. July 15 2011 My phone rang at 12:56 today. I picked up but I only heard somebody typing on a keyborad. The numer was my father's. This makes me real concerned. I suppose he did not want to call me. The button must have pushed accidentally. But this also means that by the last time he called me he has not called anyone . He had used to phone my mother every day. My muther must have went real nuts. I am quite concerned about the prophecy. Where was he when my number was called? In a hospital or at a doctor? What with ? With my mother?

Jul 16 2011 There is a probably young woman (Hungarian lng) who know reconnective healing and who sends me energy and spends some time with me during the night. I do not know who she is. * Conclusion I speak a lot while I sleep and it has little sense (pritty insane) The woman does not want me to be surged I guess she wants me to find a lady or what

jul 17 2011 First I got up at about midnight. I felt strange energies. It was a DIP woman. M y ex-school friends asked a DIP woman to fix me because they had been concerned about my mental state. Now it is sure she was a DIP woman and also yesterday. It felt like I did not cooperate and she threated me or what. She sent me energy and it was really needed. I was very weak. In my next dream I saw Mr. Rablansky. I spoke to him t. I had crazy dreams. They wanted to show me what insane dreams I had. Now they want to prevent it. They still may think that I should be fixed by a DIP a girlfriend. Unfortunately I do not think so. My greatest concern very weak and pale. So I do not look healthy. I also saw Kiss Attila , Kalman in my dreams. The DIP woman yesterday told me (or somebody else because it was in Hungarian la nguage) that my mother is a good mother. Well, to some extend yes. But caused me a lot of trouble and embarrasment. I had a dream in which I said. I have a mother who I can love. But I do not nee d a mother. I am 31 and I need to pass my love to my own family and children. a dream in which I said I cannot change future and it was sort of stressing that it is my choice. When I woke up (9 am) I remembered something about going to India. Probably Mrs. Isabella still cannot respect my wish and get out of my life. She must have sent it. She does not like me being her. I do not know why. She mu st have a reason for this I am sure. But it is not for my good I am sure. jul 18 2011 peaceful night. I got up close to midnight. I had a dream about a2s2 webhosting (Mark Brouwe's f ormer webhosting provider). I filled in my name. The guy was Mr. pop3. I do not know what he wanted. He said he loved me. He is a good guy. It looks that everybody does Silva method just not me. I guess he wanted to sugg est me that I should contact Dr. Mark Brouwer who I had worked for. Yep , I was thinking about it too. I will see after this weekend. I need a good peace of advice from a DIP. Then I should eventually make a decision and try to fix my little pathetic life. but do not know exactly wha what am I to do? Obviously and I should work and have is the lack of energy. I am

Then I had a strange dream with my brother. He wanted to buy a new TV set but I disagreed. I said the signal is weak and there is no need to replace the TV. Then I had a dream in which a woman in skirt was massging a man' s dickk with her legs. I saw her pussy and then I looked at my own dick. I hope it was by Tia (a tart I visited this year). Btw. she is a very kind good heated woman. Doc. Vidiscak sent me a dream (in Slovak). Some woman was talkin to my mother th at it has to be surged. When I woke up I talked to him. I had the impression that he wants the stoma for good (because the sigma part of the large intestine is removed already). Tia sent me a dream. She said I was an angel. Very kind lady. She sent me a lot of energy btw. Thx. little angel. jul 19 2010

jul 20 2011 7:52 am DrO phoned me. He wanted to confirm my sms. I asked if it would be fine to see a DIP in Brno. He said yep. So I happy that I am free of negative people for good. Tia lady was sending me energy. Thank you so much. She is an angel. Yesterday I was seeking for my next sex partner and I found a special angel. She is a pervert 28 years old lady. I got very excited by the idea of visiting her. She has long red hair and small tits but big ass. And she looks special to me. She loves spanking btw which is odd. So I was very excited and I could hardly s leep. I was thinking of her and envision what I would do with her. I also asked my little friends to send me extra energy for my secre t mission. I also said I would merry her without knowing her because I find it very romanti c and crazy. My angels were joking that the best idea is to fuck before marriage. So they hav e some nice plans. Very kind of them. At about 4 am I had a dream. She rushed into a room and holded some papers and x -rays. She talked Hungarian. She was upset. She said I was healthy and there were my medical papers. She blam ed me that I blamed my mother for not lettting me surged when I was 5. She also wanted to suggest that the bad surgery was also my mistak e. I was upset and wanted to throw the papers to the floor. At first I did not know what the hell she wanted from me again. Later I found a likely reason why he did the dream. Simply things do not go as s he had envisioned. She is not control any more. And make her upset. I am sorry but I have other plans. That's it. It is my life and I am gona fix it. At least I will try. There may be other reason. My mother may opened my medical records hidden in my drawer. I was such a fool I left them home. She must have read them and the diagnosis is clear. Hirschprung's disease. Now s he must be feeling miserably. I am sorry for that but I am not

responsible for her unhappiness and misery. I even offered her help but she refu sed. She is toxic and very dangerous. Definitely I must get married because things do not look very bright. She may go crazy. And I have clue for what. She may have bad karma. It is my interest to save her. I tried, refused. What am I to do? Certainly I refuse negative dreams and dreams about the future. I do not want to know the future. Mrs. Isabella again was irrespectful. She started the dream with this: "Kisfiam" . She is scared. * Conclusion - I waisted two years from my life but if was good for something. I learned tha t those who do not show respect and love to me cannot help me. I keep wondering how can somebody be so evil and cruel. Jul 21 2011 In my dreams I saw some male friends. Close to the morning I had a strange dream. I had some newspaper and my name was written on it. I had the firm belief that it was Mr. Juraj Szcs my former teacher from middle sc hool. Unfortunately there are many who watch me and feel bad. Also the name "Rosko" ap peared in my mind. He was my math teacher in middle school. He made fun of my height (I was short) and now he feels bad about it. He did not hurt me at all. It just made me feel ashemeful when it happened. I received a sort of picture postcard. Somebody sent me but the message was from my mother. It mentioned the elder's people house. And flowers (flower seeds). Yes, she love s flowers. It made me compassionate. I feel sorry for her. She is ill and feels miserable. She fights loss. She canno t accept loss. But she is in the age when losses happen. She looses her energy, abilities, beauty, memories, health, etc. It is a very na tural process and is awaiting everyone. The essence of buddhism is accepting loss because a loss is always an opening to god. That is the miracle in it. I know it is very hard to accept some loss but it works. I tried to help her but she refused. She punishes herselves because she does not love herself. She did some bad things, some awfil things and she has an identity that she is a bad mother. After this message I started a long talk about this. I stressed that I am not re sponsible for her unhappiness. And it true. I wish she would admit that I need to get married and find my own happiness. Wor k hard for it and fight for it if needed. Unfortunately hapiness is not for free and some of us pay a big price for it. Sh e never wished me good marriage. I had a short dream with her. I was sitting in front of my brother's LCD monitor when she strated talking to me.. I had this dream at 5:15 am. She said: kisfiam. I got upset and said I was not that. She is like a mad person who just cannot accept the fact that : 1. I am not hers 2. I am not a boy anymore. She is quite hopeless as she is unable to

Jul 22 2011 !!!! I woke up at about 1 am. I had had a dream with Decsi Attila. I started to think which country to go. I thought of several countries. I knew I had some audience. I reminisced Bournemouth. I mentioned Selcuk but pro nounced his name Selcuk and I got the name bac right Salcuk. I think it was Bushra. Unbelievable she is watching me. I do not mind. As I remembered the past I had some need to think about the . I still can remmeber that energy and fear. Unbelievable. Something remained in me. And I really should n. I doubt that the curse was removed. I have doubts about it. me to learn the truth. So I went into quite a deep fear and it took me to release mebody sent me Reconnective Heling which was useful. bad events in Dublin not think of it agai It is the highest ti it by acceptance. So

It was great fear. When I released it and got asleep I had a drem in which I was locked up in a dark room and I did not want to open the door. My brother was behind the door but I knew it was not him. I looked through the d oorhole. He was my helper but I do not know him. I am really fed up of these people. There are strangers to me and I prefer to sl eep as I had in the old times. I think Erzsike said to me my helpers do not want to talk to me. Fine. She was w ith me and tried to convince me that life is good when you achieve the maximum of it. While it happened I saw prostitutes and a prostitute in front of me. Some filthy men are watching me constantly and they send me visuals. They did it. They love prostitutes and they do not want to let me ha ppy and healthy. Erzsike tried to give me Reconnective healing but I received dreames and it suck ed me consciousness and lost myself in the dream. I had all sorts of dreams. I find the situation absolutely ridiculous and I firm ly believe it cannot go on like this. There must be a solution to get rid of negative people. They send me visuals of how I cookd and even they make me to lo ok at my penis and I also received a sentence: silne socialne davky. They were told the insane dream of Mrs. Isabella. She is such an evil woman and dareful. SHe absolutely ruined my life. She talked bulshit about me and about an alternative future and now I am intersting to a lot of people. SOme hav e hopes and some hate me. Just because of an insane olf widow who talks bullshit. I had a dream in which I was after irigograhy x-ray examination. I am sure it wa s from a doctor. It is hard for me to make a good decision. * Conclusion - a few words about the past ! family constellation, cursem DrO, Dublin, - energia, zapcha, (surgery Trnava, Nitra) Do I need a surgery? Do I need psychoterapy? (an extremely severe trauma as a toddler) - negativne lide konstantne rusia moje sny. Posialeju mi negativne suggescie ( I am a homosexual, prostitutes, I wash the toilet, etc) Can we improve my sleep? Without negative influences and suggestions. - curse ? - partnership? wife soul mate?!

July 23 2011 I saw Mr. Hortai in my dream and probably Mr. Richard. I wanted to escape. I fel t discomfort. It is not my fault but I do not feel well in Mr. Hortai's presence. It is not hi s fault. It is as it is. I have forgiven him and it is water under bridge. I wish him good learning from his mistakes and long life and prosperity. I told him I did not want to see him. I want to close my past and look forward. They reminf me bad days. I know they feel guilty and would like to make up for it but as I said I have fo rgiven. Yes, I have opinions and still think that he was an asshole but it was just his ego. It all right. Le t us forget each other and look forward. Find new friends and move forward. I really find it a bit odd and strange that someone keeps watching me after 14 years. I do not want to have anything to do with them. I do not want to see them or meet them. I am not going to attend the reuinin which is expected to be held next yeard. No pe. Sorry. I do not need to see them. I want to find better people who are closer to my nat ure and have no bad karma with me. They really should understand this. He was sending me enery after I woke up but I refused. Let it go and be open for new events and friends. By opeb for the new. Do not stuggle with the past. It is t needed any more. They just remind me the past. No thank you. Then Miss Tia aranged me to meet a 24 years old angel who is probably a tart and her name is Orsi. I saw her legs in my dream. I also saw a man in my dream and I was sure that I had seen him somewhere. I thi nk I had sen him in a photo from Jasmine master. He probably attended the Deeksha. Jasmine is a nice angel. Thanks. It is 16:45 and I feel better. I was about 40 minutes by Mr. Kamenik. I am in Br no and writing this from a bench. He said the following to me: the problem is in the family. The relation with my father did not work at all. T hat is what he said. Rearding him I am closed and lost in this world. I closed and only hope to not b eing hurt again. He was right. He said I accepted the positive change or what. WHen he said that I felt happine ss. And I still feel it when I think of it. He recommended me to wait with the surgery. He asked me to monitor how I feel an d try to get a life. That's what I feel I need to do. It is very hard to get employed with a chronic constipation. He made sure my body would recover so it should work better and better. I am optimistic about the Wienna job. It is a permanent job and I am open to new opportunities. I must accept any good oppurtunity. He was honest and he admitted that things do not look well about my body. As a r esult of closedness there are problems with my intestine dvanastnik. Srdcova arytmia and artosia (klby). Capricorns have proble ms with their joints. It is their risk. Everythig looks fine. I must be optimistic and make efferts for happiness and ge t back to life. Find a job. Regarding relationship. He also said that the relationship is very damagaed. Yep

. I know. He also mentioned that it is very hard for me to join some society or new system . Make new friends. So he explained the why and was optimistic about the outlook. Btw. I saw Mr. Forro in my dream. Her youngest daughter, Agi, is getting married soon. I wished her happyness and a very good life. She is a beatuful lady. Very very good hearth. * Conclusion I must monitor myself my psychical state and try to improve a bit my body. I need to involve myself into some daily activity to not think about bad things . If I do not get the job I would like to study English. I hope the advanced lev el course would be started. - regarding curse. He said he could not detect any curse on me. Mrs. Isabella and DrO just made me scary. It is part of my karma. I have been c onstantly told negative things which is not true. I refuse to listen to negative ideas. They are lies. All of them. I really need to find a job and the Wienna should work. I felt really free when I worked there. Quite happy and optimistic. July 24 2011 Yesterday I returned from Brno very late. I got to bed at about midnight. I felt energy, the same as DrO used to give me. But unfortunately I had a dream with my mother and I knew it was because he was working on my personality for which I had not given any permission. They are obsessed with my mother who probably hates me. I sad farewell to Ing. Kamenik. He is not a good DIP. He did not hurt me but wha t he did was not much. A real DIP would do the maximum and not the minimum. A real DIP would not play with my personality. It is a shame. H e is a shame. I felt an entity and it was probably Mrs. Isabella's ex-husband. I sent him away . I had quite a lot of energy so I got into alpha. I saw Melcsi and Agi angels. Th ey were talking to each other. They said it was a pity I had not been able to find a real good DIP. They mentio ned a DIP who helped a lot, I was conscious and asked them to tell me his name. It was "szatmari". Unfortuna tely I could not find him. Then I found myself in the garden. My old dog came to me and wanted to jump int o my neck, it was nervous. I made him calm down. I said listen to the birds. Then more and more dogs came. At least 10 more. All sort of dogs. Then I suddenly saw people around me. It was Mr. Repka Gabi and Kovago Dani. I s aw a strange man and I got upset (somebody made became angry) and asked what the hell was he doing. He did not answer. Repka said Please do no t. You must not. He said he was Pavol Habera the famous singer, composer, etc. He is about 50 yea rs. Unfortuntaly I kicked his ass but I believe I was made to do it. I still do not have enough will power to say NO. When I woke up I appologized and really felt ashamed. He is a very respectful ge ntlemean with great heart and he has some beautiful quality songs especially from communism. I did not know him. The name was familiar to me of co urse but I failed to remember him.

Today I listened to some of his songs and he LOVES. HE LOVES. This guy knows wha t is LOVE. Amazing. Sings with passion and most of his songs are about forgivnesss and love. He must have made some mistake in his life and g ot split up with the woman he loved. I do not know. I respect him because he experienced TRUE love and he is quite happy. He lives w ith a supermodel aged 40. Nice guy. I would be interested to learn how he got know me. Why he spends time with my fr iends. What makes people help me or feel compassionate about me. I slept until midday and received some dreams: BKV. While I talk about good moral I now and then travel without a ticket. I mus t stop it. I know. "egy orszag butitasa tokeletesen mukodik" - the situation is unfortunate and I d o not fancy it. It is amazing that brain controllers spread rumours. * Conclusion - I must find a new DIP. Mr. Kamenik was also more interested in fixing my pers onality than my health. He definitely worked for Dro. - Ten days ago I placed a script into the web page for reporting about myself f or my parents. Since that nobody visited the page expect of me. It looks like I am kicked from the family. Yep. My mother is so resentful that she told my brother not to check my status. He has not looked at it for 10 days. He does not love me or even hates me. July 25 2011 yesterday before I went to bed I practiced Silva method. While I was doing it I received a visual. My nose was dropping. Somebody sent me. Regarding him I am a : sopliak. Quite many people hate me for nothing. I did nothing. I went to bed at about 9:40 pm.. Before it I watched the lord of the Rings. It i s a masterpece. I love it. It is about power and evil. People cannot resist power, fame. And they are able to sacrifice innocent people's lifes to gain fame or to make their insane dreams come true. I still believe there are good an gels somewhere who are JUST and are able forgive me. My heart is longing for that. I do not feel sinless. Everyone holds a responsibi lity for his deeds. I did nothing wrong. And I keep my promise to God. I am not going to hurt anyone if I do not have to. I have learnt my lectures. Now I see enlightemnment and suffering from a differe nt angle as well. Nobody should long for enlightenment because it is many times a punishment. It is death. It is eliminating a personal ity. Because of hatred. It is a curse wanting to terminate somenone. Someone's dreams. Hopes. I was told that DrO would heal me because he can. Of course he would. They want me to became my soul. And accept my mother's karma. Nope. I refused it. It is again evil's plan. It was a mistake to visit Ing. Rene Kamenik. He is not a moral man. I was programmed to be more religious. They so need to give me a Catholic identi ty. It is so important for them. Fuck it. I was astute and said my mother needs to be healed first. Karma falls from above from your parents, grandparents. They know it very well. I said Mr. Kamenik can help me find my wife. Nothing more. But they wanted DrO.

Oh yes, he has some bad karma. He shortened my life. I have lost my dreams. Two years from my life. I have some enemies as well. And I do not feel better at all. What an astute guy he is. He never asked my forgiveness. All he is interested is my personality. That's all. I refused and I am not going to change my mind about it. I said I would go home in august to see my mother on her birthday. If she feels better and apparently healed, I will visit a new DIP and ask for he r advice. I received a dream. It was by some woman whose brother has some problems with hi s back and asked me what to do. I said I cannot heal anyone. I may be able to heal flue. I said The Reconnective healing is here to help us. If she loves her brother then she is the idial person to help her because she lo ves him the most. Reconnective healing is about love. I said did not have in plans to become famous. * Conclusion - the key here is that even if there is no curse on me which I doubt, I am in d anger as long as my mother is not fixed!!!!! It is essential to fix my mother first. Only after she visited a DIP or underwe nt the suffering which I would want to happen, will I be safe. July 26 2011 Horvath tanito neni asked a man to do Reconnective Healing for me. It was nice. He was Hungarian and after a lot of time I managed to become presence, one with him. For short times but at least it is a success. She did some suggestions in the form of a dream. I was at a school class and ne xt to me was Sztarovics A. I was doing a paper exam. Then she congratulated to Bartal Gabor who finished t he exam. she said to him you will get grade 5 if you finish the exam first. SHe also said to me with soe anger "ne legyel olyan, mint apad". SHe ment his d oodling away time. She wants me to be the same when I was very hard working. When I woke up I reassured her that I would not take on my father. I also said she should be more indulgent with me as I had some heathcare issues. Anyway I am no more in my twenties. It is harder to get out of bed in the morni ngs than used to be. Anyway the night was peaceful. I got up at least 8 times during the night. I am on my way to Budapest from WIenna. I had a job interview at Die.Socialiste n company. It was all good and they were impressed. Unfortnately I do not know JQuery and have no experience with Facebook API. I had the sense that they were brain controllers. ANd I also asked a very littl e salary. They will let me know the result this week Friday. I may start working from Sep tember the soonest. It is a nice challenge for me and I really would like to work on short projects not lasting longer than 3 months. July 27 2011 My first dream was about my father. It was shown me how nervous he was in the g arden and a doctor was called. It was not real. The point of the dream was to correct the yesterday's dream. I thought they men t his doodling away time. Not really. They ment his

nervousness. Both of my parents are nervous people. Not at ease. Plus worrieful . My reply was: You cannot change dispositions. The childhood especially the first 6 years are determining. And it is a huge sh em if parents cannot provide a peaceful 6 years for their children. Only 6 years, that's not that long time. My parents could not provide. They fai led. There was an attempt to give me Reconnective Healing. It was not successful. I was nervous. Nervousnes depends on two aspects: quality, strenghtness of aura, external influences, inner calm. I received a lot of despizing negative suggestions during the night. I do not k now the reason of it. I did nothing yesterday. I was busy in Wienna and I got back home at about 9 pm. So I do not know why so many negative influe nces. They made me see my dick. They suggested me that my stock is doing weakly (I sa w a graph). "Mocskos ciganyok" appeared in my thought. Something regarding alcohol. I also had a dream in which my mother called me Kisiam. etc. I got a suggestion regarding the law of attraction. Yestreday I noticed that Mi chael (boss) was very nervous. Most interestingly his job offer has this: "and has the nerves to make it work in all browsers". I really think the office environment could be nervous and stressful. I mentioned the job I had in the capital. The boss, Mr. Loidolt, was abnormally nervous and he created a very fearful thretening environment. It is unfortunately true that you attract what you issue. I am nervous after so many threats and bad events. Meditation helps and I should do some peaceful relaxed job. The job at tralandia.sk was fine and the boos, Mr. R adovan Toth, was a very relaxed guy. I really feel sorry he did not choose me. I regret his decision. The salary was very good, the only thing I di d not like was his cluttered , messy project. Then I thought, you see what you attract. Again a job which is full of old stuf f and messed up and complicated. And now it is even worse. Now I attracted a job which is full of stress and the boss is a a nervous guy. I feel sorry for EOX. K.ft. Those two guyes were extremeley relaxed and very ki nd. Everything was fine at their office. I really wanted to get that job. It was near to my flat as well. Pity. Very pity. I saw Andrea (from elementary school) in my dream. They mentioned I need help. Chocolate as well (good for 16:45 I have just had a phone call from father. He said I got a letter from Ams lico. And asked when I would come home and how I was. * Conclusion some Hungarian speaking women try to make me worse. They give me negative sugge stions which is a crime and violence. I wonder why? Why they spoil their own karma. Why they are doing it consciously ? Why they cannot forgive, anyway I do not knwo why they hate me or envy me. Krisztin or the first tart was a mistake but they punushed me and now

it is more than a year. Why the hell they cannot stop it? July 28 2011 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Breakthrough Yesterdy in the afternoon I started some self healing by watching Dr. Pearls vi deos. I think I finally got it. It was effective with strong heat. Unfortnately my so ul cannot be healed. I do not know how to help it. Then body could be helped but the energy doe not heal. It just fixes the aura a nd the inner organs work better. Not that special. I wonder what is needed for real healing. I do not know yet. I went to bed at about 10 pm. Dream about the future. 4-5 of my friends. In a metro. I also had a dream that told me that my parents love me and want me to be healt hy. I again had a dream regarding future. I had a daughter in the dream who went to a special school because she was very talented in mathematics. New Age was mentioned in the dream. Language was Hungarian. egarding the dream I will have been married by the end of July 2011. I have no idea how this could be done. I said I did not believe in it. I promis ed I would be a very good loving husband. I need to find my soul mate. A Reconnective practitioner from Budapest. It was good. He knows me I do not. A man. We both enjoyed each other. At about 5pm I felt that I need to remember Bournemouth. I had a look at the sc hool's website. I felt if I was there. It is a special unique feeling to be in Bournemouth. I w as sent energy into my abdomen and it was the same woman (soul) who was in my room in Bournemouth. It interesting. Yesterday I watched the Lord of the rings and when Frodo was dying an Elf woman came with great light. I though I need a similar special angel from heaven to save me. To day she came. I gave permission for her. Is this something normal or I have will and it will be made. She loves me and I love her soul. She is like the woman in the movie. What if I ask for more help from heaven? Would it be so easy? * Conclusion - I had never had stronger and more intensive self-healing before. - my helpers hate prostitutes, most probably some prostitutes send me negative suggestions. They do. I heard: mocskos kurva. Some of them are filthy but I believe not all of them. Tia for instance is a beautiful soul.. July 29 2011 Yesterday I lost some of my hopes as I felt worse. I really felt in my left ab domen a kind of disease or even fear. The day before I had great Reconnective Heling session but despite that I felt worse yesterday. I realized I probably cannot help myself alone. Unfortunately I am not strong enough to keep my health status. It seems to diminish which makes me

worried. I have been doing a lot of efforts and the health just cannot improve . It even worsens slowly. I do not know if it is because of the curse or it is some destiny. I have got no idea. Dr. E. Pearl (Gandalf) Roland Toth Mrs. Isabella. In the afternoon at about 13:00 I heard this sentecen: read the bible. It was nurse Anna. She is religious but I do not mind. Yesterday she said I was legolas from the Lord of the ring. Kind woman. She is at home with her children. Erzsike gaved me a strong healing session after it. I like her and she likes m e. I respect her a lot. She is my master. I promised I would not do anything foolish. July 30 2011 Juhasz Gyula, Dani Andras, * Conclusion The son of a bitch Mrs. I asked some DIP to reprogram my mind to LOVE her! Two days ago I hated her and that gaved me power to change my life. Now I cannot hate her. She is gonna pay for this. She deserv es PRISON sentence till her death. That is the minimum she deservers. That would be the minimum sentence for her. The only minimum. She is a dangerous astute amoral old witch. July 31 2011 Yesterday in the evening I was pretty upset to this woman of Mrs. I because she is a fanatic religious woman. When I woke up in the evening and went to the toilet this sentence appeared in m e: Pozehnam Vas! I was really disappointed because she with her amoral DIP friends had programmed me and they seemed me too fanatic and pretty sick. So I criticized them and said that she must be a fanatic becasue although she lo ves the bible she does not love me. The DIPs were not better than her. They have a moral codex and they violated it. They told me they loved me and they wanted to show me the future. Bla bla bla. They had fallen in love with a story and had forgotten to respect t he teaching of Jesus. Jesus taughed not to hurt anybody and to him everybody was equally valuable and lovable even prostitutes. These guyes, are a shame. So yest erday I asked to stop them. I had been asked for that for many times and they just could not stop it. I threated them and said I would spoil their evil plan either by a tatoo (fuck y ou) or maybe by suicide. Well. That was their plan to scare me. Their plan is to create a new Jesus and they want him t speak what they need to hear back. I said I had no choice because of others who cannot respect my life and will. Close to the crack of dawn I had a dream in which I saw my notebook and a softwa re was removed and a new was given. I felt some energy in my body being removed and a new given. It was fine and it was DrO. Then I had some strange but short dream with mother and later with brother. I sa w his mustache and said : semen.

Then I had a really strange dream. I was in this flat's kitchen and I thought of some children's death. They died because of me and said that was a really bad karma. Then a thought appeared in me which was "I need a c hild". I felt the large intestine on my left to move and some great relief. I felt happy. Really happy. Then they looked at my childhood and I said: they tried to kill me. That was a mistake. I really feel an inner nervousness. I fell very bad. No more happy. I had told that my past especially the childhood is tabu. Somebody was curious. Mrs. Isabella now has what she had been dreamed of. I could still spoil her ill dream but who know when it will drop and that will b e the end. Probably within one month it is gonna happen. I hope to not think of it but it was remembered again and I had not asked anyone to to that for me. I was in bed till 11:30. My friends are very naive. Somebody told you were a men. So they really thought they could outwit Mrs. Isabella. Nope. She had been nervous for the last few weeks and I know why. Because it was time. And she was needed to make it happen again. Not me. Not my mistake. It was not my mistake again. I truly have no free will. I got programming as well. I need t find a woman and she should be English. I sh ould study etc.q * Conclusion It is important to avoid her dream even if it happens which is very likely now. Aug 1 2011 I went to bed at about 9. I was given Reconnective Healing by my favorite nurse s from Banska Bystrica. Most interestingly I felt one of them's personality. After some contemplation I found out who she was. She was the nurse who smiled at me. She is probably a good colleague of nurse Anna. She is marrie d I learned that but I am glad they are all right and happily married. I wish them good lifes and true happiness and love and health. They are very ki nd angels. I miss them a lot. I woke up at about 4 am. I had a dream with Molnar Antal, Kovago Daniel. I saw some papers and Thor Lilla's name. I did some thinking. I had the notion they showed my boy. And they told me it i s USA. Which is very bad. Because that is what I must avoid. I can find any beautiful woman in Europe. The future has not been changed. It i s me who change it and if I want to be truly happy I have to. I feel it terrible that some people have not understood the seriousness of this situation. They think I am special or what and they do not value my huma life. I joked about giving autograms for 10 Euro, and selling my not wr itten book whose title should be My Secret. Close to the morning I heard this: - elkenyeztetett - menny vissza anyadba - raffle or lotto. I saw some numbers. - love your nation, country

* Conclusion - I do not feel free and happy and do not feel anything good in the future. - I really should visit a DIP whoi would help me attract the ideal woman my sou l wants. Aug 2 2011 !!!!! massive programming by a DIP ! Political programming. Then negative suggestions be average people. I went to bed in time at about 9 pm and started with Reconnective Healing, I ha d a practitioner who helped me. Probably a younger woman. When I got up (I had a mosquito in the bedroom) I remembered strange dreams. Be fore I had reconnective healing again and I had a dream in which I saw my father who talked about some taxationa nd lissa bon in Hungarian. He mentioned income 80 000 Euro income per year and some taxation which is bad regarding him. btw my knees were hurting as I was shopping yesterday and carried 2 bags. I am going to have problems with my knees. I also remember an alpha like dream in which I phoned someone and talked Slovak and talked about my aking knees i received negative suggestions such as : saw my rucksack and there were bottl es of beers in it after shopping. I was made to look into mirror (someone wanted me to show my face to him) Someone was interested in my dick Someone suggested to return to Slovakia. Someone suggested dark, etc. I had a dream around 5:30. I saw a men lying next to me. I was at the back of s ome large room. It looked like some gathering (political), The man was talking to me in Hngarian. He said: senki sem tud rad gondolni. I g ot scared and touched himn. I was held down by someone else. I got scared and asked my friends for some help or Dro. i have no idea what is drO up to. No Idea about it. I still want to believe he was lied by Mrs. Isabella very badly and he is not t hat bad. He never ment to hurt me. 14:00 some massive negative suggestions, my energt level dropped and almost fal l asleep. There would not be much sleep tonight. The reason for malicious attacks is again the same: ENVY! What they envy?? A th ought, nothing more ! Some thoughts, dreams about the future. Thoughts are for free. Anyone can have any thought, they do not need to buy it at shops so I really do not understand what they envy?! Pretty shameful and annoying that they envy my dreams. They should dream the sa me. * Conclusion - I need some divine help - all I asked was peace and I have no peace. I have no idea why?!!

- I should consider getting away. - Someone is still obsessed with the future. Aug 3 2011 !! When I went to bed after some time half way to dream I saw a young man who spok e Hungarian to me and told me : Ne rjngjel. "Egy ferfi a nyomodban van." They told me to stay with them. The problem is tha t the soul is traveling freely and unfortunately meets not the best people. Jasmine master gave me a thin book with the title : Fogadd el az eletet. I saw another middle-aged man there. Interesting. In my dream I saw Kalman P. He said: diploma, tanulas. Hm. I have one. I also s aw Mr. Haris. He gave me some music soings on digital memory stick cards. * conclusion - I absolutely have no place. Even in my dreams I am just seeking for something . I never rest. - As the DIP Ing. Kamenik said I do not know where do I belong, where my place is in this world. - When I woke up in the morning I felt deep emptiness and soul ake. Yep, this i s the reason I cannot be happy. - some men are really pissed off me and I heard they should be more indulgent a s that soul part of me is really a child. - I firmly believe that mrs. Isabella judged me! The miracle would have happene d anyway if it had not been wucked up in Dublin. She really lied to DrO. She knew he would judge me as well. - someone is programming me to discontinue Reconnective healing. I noticed it t oday arounf 3 pm, I got sleepy. Yesterday several attempts to give me Reconnective Healing failed becasue I sta rted thinking about the kitchen and fall asleep. He or she has been doing it regularly for some time. Aug 4 2011 !!! programming by foreign DIP + very serious hate attacks After midnight I noticed a programming by DIPs. They made me do Reconnective Hea ling to feel the joy and then they connected this joy with taking part in conferences.I got upset and asked for some help. I was upset . I received several very hateful dreams. The first was this. Someone wanted me to go the food down the wrong way and to suffocate. My helers got scared. This was the worst most threatening dream I can remember. Then it was a dream set in the garden. I saw my mother pissing and my father and I said : perverzek meg WC-juk sincsen mindenhova pisilnek. My father pissed into my mouth from distance. I then washed my mouth. Someone re ally hates me and wants me to know it. So probbaly it makes him feel relived. I hoped now he feels better and he or she would not punish me agai n. I did apologize for my mistakes I could had made and stressed that nobody is perfect and we should be more forgiving and tolerant to each other. I also stressed that opinion is a key elemenet in democracy and nobody can be punished or judged for his private opinion as lon g as it is not published. Then Mrs Isabella wanted me to persuade to go to the USA. She said she had promi sed my alleged future wife that we two would meet each other

in the near future. What a liar she is. Of course it is not true and she is a so rt of ridiculous woman now. She also tried to send me some dreams but my good friends (Toth R., Kivago, 2 ot hers ) started to sing in the street (in my dream) so that I would not hear it. Mrs. Isabella tried to say something about : sarga a karmaban , piros. Etc. Something regarding her is not kosher. Regarding me everything is kosher as long as I am allowed to make a free decisio n and live my life and take responsibility for my deeds. I said I was not going ot the States at all. First, I do not have the money, sec ond I need to finish school which will last 5 weeks. I also had a dream in which I was licking the pussy of a lady. Close to the morning my dreams were very confused thank to the many dreams I rec eived. It is quite severe I would say. In the morning Mrs. sabikova went into my body and sent me energy. Almost defin itely it was her. She said call me Darling. :) What a beautiful lady she is. Thanx. The later others did the same. My aura was pretty damaged. * Conclusion - Panic is a bad thing. I am not special, I did nothing, I am not going to do a nything special and therefore I should be peaceful. - Stick to my plans. My original plan was to move here and find a job. Now I am going to study English. I am not going to change this plan. - paypal donations - she has gone to far. She has the audacity to violate human rights which is a very serious crime. - somebody said to me she hates me. Yep, it is true. she does. Aug 5 2011 peaceful night nurse Anna in the mornign with Erzsike Aug 6 2011 !!!!!!!!! CURSE Mrs. Isabella has just cursed me tonight. Because I was not respectful and I can not love liers and those who just cannot respect the constitution and human righ t. I might love and forgive but NOT respect her. So I feel pretty bad. My energy is diminishing slightly. Fear mingled with negative energy is arising me. She has been watching me, even now. Very cruel woman. I find cruel to curse some one who is innocent as he did not violate law or constitutional rights. Becasue I was alone in my bedroom and as not being a brain controller my thought s were not published and I did not send them to her. I did not mean to hurt her I just despized her and that's fine. I went too far a nd I admit that. What was the parody all about? Well I imagined a near future in New Castle. I sa w a which in the near forist living abandoned and evicted. She was evicted into forest because she was cruel that people started to fear he r. And did not want to see her face any more. I just said that I might kick ass for she had done to me. And I encouraged other to despize her anyone who violates human rights. In order keep peace she forced to leave the town to the nearest forest. genreall y this was all if I am right. I and I said that she was evil and

she hated which absolutely true. She has the right to hate anyone on Earth as as long as she does not hurt anyone or obeys the constitution or law or the Bible ef she claims herself to be true believer. I want her to respect privacy forever and I do not want to see her again in this life. I do not want from her anything and I repeated that several times and just did not respect this wish of mine. For which I hate her. I do not want to hurt her. So I am very y more after It would not ot do again. disappointed to the least. I believed that shw would not hurt me an all this that I had to endure becasue her. have happened if she had respected my polite wish. Which she did n So she failed again.

What is scary about this woman to me is that she is just watching and she may fe el somehow. I am getting nervous. I feel bad bad not guilt !!!! Anyway somebody again did some programming about personality. Which SOOOOO MUCH important to them. I refused his proramming of my personality. And I asked not to bother me anymore about marrige. Becasue I am not gonna marry anyone this year. I have plans. I am gonna study English. Just now I have been saved by DrO who removed the curse and he was asked by forg iving lady Mrs. Isabella. And I ask for forgivness. It was a good lecture for everyone. I do not hate her any more but I cannot trus t her. Nobody is perfect, not even me. She regrets her deed adn I felt she promised me not to hurt me again.?!! I respe ct her ability to change and learn from mistakes and I truly wish her good furtune, peace, love, heath, prosperity. The beautiful, kind, nurses asked DrO to help me. We have got something in commo n with DrO. We both love nurses. We worship them. Their soft loving heart can make any man become a loving angel. Just now I was given a healing and energy by a kind married nurse from the hospi tal from New Castle. I am very pleased about this and I am glad that we have some good angels in the old hospital as well. New development: allegedly there is a nurse who is interested in marrying her. I am open to marriage and would love to get to know her. Someone who can accept me must really love me and she has been helping me. I had met her already I just do not know which and when. At about 2:0 am I got up and I noticed that probably DrO was programming me with out my permission. What they need is to make me obedient and accepting their commands. They want to create a robot. It is getting very bad as they commited violence on me. It is very bad to do it to someone and I CANNOT trust anyone of them. They want my TRUST but I do not trust. I do not want them in my life. Cannot they just understand this??? I do not need them. I mentioned the usage of dice for making a decision. They are able to program an y mind but not God or destiny. So a dice could be helpful. * Conclusion - I need to marry someone and DEFINITELY visit a DIP

- I founded out that many people are awaiting some miracle and trust Mrs. Isabe lla. I found it scary as they want my death and awful suffering. They do not love me but the future. It is a disappointment to me. - I noticed a personality change already. I am less of a rebel and cannot hate so much which is a bad thing. - The reason why my gilt was removed (left large intestine responsible for mega colon) is becasue from the guilt I had power to fight back. Mrs Isabella is really scared because I could hurt her or I do not know. She kn ows she is bad and evil and shy might be judged by others. - She tried to negotiate before the curse was removed from me. She said if you go to the USA. Hah hha ha. NOPE. I have a school starting next week and it will last for 2 months. I cannot affo rd a travel to the USA and second I do not know why would I travel to the USA?? !! ANy idea?? - there is the analogy of a cooked frog. The frog is slowly cooked so that it w ould not jump out. In the end it dies. Aug 7 2011 Aug 8 2011 I woke up at about midnight. I heard the world Jesus. I find it ridiculous and b izarr. I had some thought chain which had been anticipated. Some people find funny. It turned out that I am being hated and still cannot be forgiven. I criticised human cruelty. Ing. Kamenik lied to me or at least violated the ethical codex and he is the vic e president of noetis. It is a shame. I had believed he would be different. yesterday I definitely came to a realization that I have some very bad enemies here on Earth and all they wanted is to navigate me to the greatest suffering. I was badly misleaded and now I have little time left to fix it somehow. I find this disgusting to say the least. While I was having my usual laughter session about my wifes in several countries I noticed a great hate It was probably DrO. I also heard that in my next life ..... I felt I might be hurt by some of them. Erzsike was with me. Then I fall asleep and had some dream. I was taking medicine. Three or four sort of medicine. They cruel thing about all this is that they know already the possible future but would not do a damn thing to save me. They can r emove the curse easily. They want my suffering. I also noticed some programming about being strong. They want me to be strong so that I would not die of awful suffering. I wish I would die so that I could say I was killed by human ignorance and reven ge. They want to sacrifice me. I have a firm belief that the challenge they face is that they MUST NOT sacrific e me. At all cost. They should not be the same as 2000 years ago. There are many who just silently listen and vitness the whole madness instead of giving me an advice by email for instance. Secretely they may wish for the worst to happen. M y belief is that the miracle they anticipate would happen at all cost the only thing is in what circumstances. Suffering can be avoided. It is true. T hey want my suffering. Because they hate me. I disagree and protest laudly. They ignore me and hate me even more. It is evil. Do I have a responsibility? Yes. First of all for my own life. What is the solut ion from all this. It is true I need the help of a DIP. I had been warned and they loved me who warned me.

9:22 some DIP is sending me energy. I had tremor and nervousness in me. I have s ome job to do. 11:04 it seems some DIP or other has just removed the curse or what it was. Than x * Conclusion - I must call a DIP and arrange a meeting ASAP. I will ask for two sessions. Th e first will be for my mother. - It is essential that I should not make her worried because that would be even worse. She must trust. - My health situation is worsening. I was sent energy by a DIP. - I noticed a very strong weakening of my aura and I had some really confusing dreams. Aug 9 2011 The whole night some friends were working on me. On my weak aura. Now it is morning 8.30 and I feel really weak. Close to the morning I had a drea m in which I saw a man's head and some kind of fish coming out of his head. I think they wanted to suggest me the idea that I have an entity in my head. Yesterday night probably a DIP switched off my aura and it was so weak that it l ooked life threatening. Now I do not know if I should go to the school and weaken my aura even more or j ust go by somehow and wait till the end of September for the appointment with the DIP. Jasmine was in my body among many other friends. Kaderabek as well. They worked with Reconnective Healing on my aura. Jasmin said: Gyulollek. Aug 10 2011 I did not go to the language school yesterday, because I was so weak and I did not want to risk. I was expecting that I would need to survive till my appointment with the DIP. They had been anticipating the event that happened yesterday during the night. I was really concerned about my state yesterday as I noticed that the dense ene rgy was strenghtening in me and spreading further despite the many hours of Reconnective Healing. I had the following dream: I saw my brother behind a coach and I prayed him wit h low voice (in Hungarian) : ez a te sorsod add oda nekem. I saw a ping pong ball and and I said I would kick the ball. I w ould goal the ball. I woke up and I felt happy. My aura was energetic and I did not feel any foreign energy in me. It was probably Erzsike who tried this rebirth. My soul understood and accepted his death. I think I do not want to die. I am not healthy though. Yep, something else is needed for that. It was a nice family constellation close to death. Quite real. Then I had many dreams. I was given cognitive dreams to get married and an obst acle was dicovered, many obstacles. I heard in Slovak programmings such as: Preco nechcte prijat Vas osud. I also had heard from Mrs.s Isabell a few days ago that regarding her I would n ot be married if I do not undergo the worst.

So she had the audacity to inject into my subconscious mind some programming to accept some suffering (I think instead of my mother). I also heard: my mother cannot have more children but my wife as many as I she wants. Today I am healed again by probably Erzsike. In the midday I had a session with a nurse who really loves me as I felt her love. * Conclusion - I really need to visit a DIP and ask him to fix everythin he can so that I c ould be up and ready to work again. - there is more dense energy in my head, unfortunately it remained in my head. It is hard to get rid of it using Reconnective healing as I cannot feel the left side of my head due to weakened aura.

Aug 11 2011 My consciousness diminished yesterday. A DIP woman helped me to have energy. Sh e let me know her face. Looked young and pretty. Then I switched on my notebook and did some Reconnective Healing. Jasmine maste r let me know that she was present. She is a kind and beautiful angel. Close to the morning I had a dream in which my mother was talking to me. She wa s not my mother, she was Mrs. Isabella. She astute woman. It was hard close to the morning I had to imagine that I was married which was not easy. 21:00 I had a dream in which someone was at my leg and I said magia and wanted to kick him/her. She was the old which Mrs. Isabella at astral level. She messed up my aura. After I woke up I continued sleep and had a dream in the old flat. I was in bed I saw my mother. I felt my energy was leaking away through my legs. She had known tha I was fill ed up with positive energy and it is hard to let in a low energy. She commited physical violence as has hurt my aura and gave me programming. Yes . Some kind of programming as well.

Aug 12 2011 00:19 I called Mr. Sianta He picked up the phone after a few rings but was surprised and said he did not know me so he said he would try to connect to me which he did not do. He was right. I do not blame him. After it I got panic and asked nobody can mend my aura on my left leg? I though t of DrO with a question. later while I was doing reconnective healing in a sitting pose at my desk I not iced a very strong presence. In the bed I knew it was DrO which surprised me. I had weird dreams and I am asolutely sure that DrO some other DIP did a pretty strong personality programming. It could be that the aura damage was part of the plan and they made it together

. DrO simply wants to build a trust. He wants me to trust him. I have no reason to trust him nor do I need anything from him. If Mrs. Isabella harmed me it is her responsibility to remedy it and it is not me who should call for help and be very grateful for givin the help which anyway c ould have been planned beforehand. I had a dream in which I was showed and had a catholic cross in my neck. I also saw myself among ladies but they did not take interest in me. Close to the morning I had a dream in which I wanted to use an elevator but it went downstairs and the doors hardly could open. I guess I wanted to visit my mother and my good friends did not let it. Very ni ce of them. Never let me visit my mother or vice versa. I had some dreams sent by DrO.. He seems to despize Erzsike and her plan. I can remember a dream in which he said let your grandfather be.

The programming I was given is this: - I must emanate : Trust me ! I will talk bullshit but people need to believe i t and trust me.. - DrO wants me to trust him. - a very strong programming for becoming a politiciamn which I must defy strong ly. - it seems to me as if I agreed to something but I do not want to suffer. After 15:00 I was sent an energy which is probably from Dro (into the large int estine).Why? He cannot be my friend as he lied to me and did not warn me from Dublin. - again some energy after 8.00 pm by DrO Aug 13 2011 I got cognitive programming by Erzsike. Some people messed up my identity. It s eems that they told me I need a man not a woman. Also my soul is closed, not open. I was adviced to open it and to find a girlfr iend. Also to practice Reconnective Healing. My mind or soual must travel a lot during my sleep and it creates a lot of conf licts and people hurt me. Aug 14 2011 My first dream I can remember was probably in a school class. I saw there Hausle itner Agnes. She truly loves me and feels sorry for me. I felt some call but did not see anyone. She looked at me and I saw in her eyes that I should not go. I went out the class and then I do not know what happened. It was probably DrO. I hate him for not respecting my wish. My first dream I can remember was with a dog. The dream was set in the garden. I saw a dog approaching me and it was angry and wanted to attack me. I ran into a wooden building and closed the door but couldnot entirely so I saw how the dog was jumping up and reached my finger. Then it came in and was jumping up to me. I managed to love the dog and fondled it. Soon after a middle-aged woman came and wanted her dog back. I joked and asked money for the dog. Then I woke up and knew that the dog was an angry human. My helper said the dog was actually a woman. So probably even some women hate me. I was lucky the dog became peaceful and did

not hurt anyone. QUite interestingly I did not hear any dialog from the dog.. I remembered a dream before the dog came as it came suddenly so it interrupted s ome dream. In that dream I was told that I would not know who I am, almost no identity and I must find some love, my wife. Almost eve ryone know what would happen to me but they do not do anything. And some people hate me becasue I resist the future because I have my own plans. Mrs. Isabella is a shameful liar when she says that is a destiny. I saw Toth Roland in my dream. We were going to the old flat and I saw a puddle and I was told to bypass it. The truth is I was suggested to bypass a reporter. Then I saw myself in the vest ibul of the old block of flats and I heard someone was calling me. It was a man, a Slovak reporter he asked me when I would give him an interview. He mentioned april 2012. I said "zartujete"?. We spoke Slovak. I find the situation absolutely ridiculous. DrO my enemy made m e to become popular. He wants me to be popular. Unfortunately his programming is working as my good friends could not stop me to accept the ridiculos reporter . When I woke up I was wondering and asking what he wanted from me? Some promis? i s he crazy? Many people see that one alternative as a destiny that cannot be averted. They a re absolutely wrong. And I want to know the world that I had been warned because it was not my destiny. There is no destiny. Karma can be delayed or even avoided. Some good friends warned me a year ago. Now it has become extremely hard to avoid the worst as I have been programmed by amoral DIPs. Alas for them. Then I had some alpha like dream. I saw icey hockey. Etc. Then I had another alpha dream in which I saw Vuity Tvrtko narrating a story of a young boy who had some problems wih his eays. I saw some X-Ray machines. The language was Hungarian Then I had a dream with my former school mate from elementary schoo. Mr. Bartal G. I slept in a room in a bed and him and somebody else was there. It was dark and we spoke. I wanted to know what thing would my form do? He was n ot specific only said: elkepzelheted. he was not happy at all. I can uderstand it. Everybody sees is that I should deserve better health and ha ppyness which means a happy marriage. People who hate or envy me cannot or simple do not want to understand that enlig htnement is not a personal achievement. It is death. They envy death from me. Very nice. Aug 15 2011 !!! Finally the first evidence from the mouth of a friend (do not know as appeared as my father) that I have been been being programmed by some amoral politicians or sort of people. I even saw one of them. He had long curl y hair and weared a suit. But this was later. It all began with my request towards my friends to help me . I did it after I noticed that someone was sending me energy and it was from a DIP. Pretty sure. I do not know if it is from DrO and if yes WHY?? I h ave my new DIP and I do not want him to interact with me or watch me. I wanted to talk to them in alpha. It sort of worked out. I saw Mr. Rablanszky M., Kovago, and Decsi Attila.

I asked them about the future. Decsi said: nem mondanam gonosz dolognak, amit tortenni fognak. I wanted to know for what purpose will they use me for? Bad things or not? It is unforgivable if someone does remote programming and i t is against someone's will. They also said it is not karma. Yep, it is crime! As I was talking to my friends who know pretty much about the future already I found myself in a new room and I saw a young man there and I guess my friend Decsi. It could have been a delusion as it is easy to take a nyone's form in dreams. I asked them what would be the disastrous event. The talked to each other abou t bla bla. I hate it. When I ask about something I want exact answers. Not blablba. I sensed a pull from my hands and when I looked ba ck I saw the white door in our old living room. I then saw my father who pulled me back away from them. But I was curious and wannted to know WTF? I went closer to them when my father was still holding and I felt love so it w as not him. Then finally popped out: Hupnotizalnak teged ezek a politikusok. Then I woke up. This was what i wanted to hear. I cannot remember being told a ny useful piece of information. Thanx for nothing and thanx for not respecting my wish. It is all their fault who could not sent away thos fil thy people such Mrs. Isabella. * Conclusion - after all this I would not do psychotherapy as it is too dangerous - marriage is a good cure but at least I need some money (if I cannot get healt hier) Aug 16 2011 Mr. DIP Sianta and (I guess) his dear girlfriend started to fill me up with en ergy. The day before I visited him and removed the curse I had. When he was doing it I heard a disappointed notice: Dagadt. Somebody was dissa ppointed. As I was being filled up with energy I heard 20%. I really had 0 energy. Then suddenly I found myself in a strange world with many young people. It was I guess and astral yourney. I met there Toth Roland. Rozsa S. Kalman Peter. Kaderabek (we shook hands) and I was introduced to a bunch of much more younger people. I saw them very weakly. Then I found myself among strangers who provoked me (three times) by slipping their hands into my pocket on my triusers. There were at least 8 of them, and looked provoking. I left them soon. I saw e ven Kovagoo Dani later. Most interestingly I met a tall woman who had a very pleasant aura and asked m e something in Hungarian. She was lovely. I could not talk to her as I woke up. Aug 17 2011 Yesterday I met Behnam, the former tenant. I went with him to return the UPC i nernet devices and cancel the contract. The office was closed it opened only fron 10.00 am so we had a long chat in En glish. Close to 10.am he asked me why I was not married. I said him that I had done some esoteric work and I'd learned that my twin die

d when my mother was preganant with me. It was a shock to me as emotions were releasee in me and I got nervous and my hand began shaking a bit. It was hard and I was scared what wold happen. When I got home I still felt the trapt emotional enerhy and I felt that my lar ge intestine started working. It was great. In the evening Erzsike neni with some friends asked me for more traumas and as far as I remember I had 2 traumas. I really felt the trapt energy being removed . Regarding them one trauma was huge. All of them were in my early childhood. I must have suffered a lot being a child. It was not only unhappy but both emotional suffering and regular physical pain due to chronic constipation . My aura felt better after all this. Unfortunately my mind has problems to work it out those dreadful events and I had very senseless strange dreams that night. Erzsike neni and my friends were seeking for traumas in me and I counted at le ast two that were removed and some energy was released. They said the last trauma was huge. All from the early childhood. I only had s trange dreams after. In one of my dreams I was running and Mr. Sztarovics A. was running next to me and said: leszazalekolt vagyok ne rohanj olyan gyorsan (he wated me to stop). * Conclusion DIP conclusion : - my father hurt me in my childhood - I had a curse on me (regarding him I let in on me) - at the age of 13 I cursed God - my age is 7 years (on astral level) - I had 0 energy ! - I MUST NOT DO ESOTERIC WORK ! (mate zapis) I would be punished - My mind wants to die (this is from childhood) - I am present in 9 words at the same time (regarding him) - I had some (padnuta dusa) which he removed - he really fixed my aura when I called him on Friday after midnight (good man )

Aug 18 2011 Yesterday I took 10 mg of Bysacodyl and I managed to have stool in the evening and I could empty my larhge intestine pretty well. I had some mosquitos so I was woken up several times during the night. My firs t dream I remember was with some ladies. I saw some computer and I saw Mr. Isabella and the "boszorkany". They are cute and nice. They tought m e a bit. Then I had dreams with Slovak speaking chaps. I heard some names and then I asked: to je kto . Then they said, ice hokey or wahtever. I saw Rablanszky I guess. This night I had a lot of dreams and mainly rather strage dreams. My mind need s time to overcome the trqaumatic past which was remembered. I saw Kalman as well. I have just remembered that Jasmine master helped me with reconnective healing and during the night they tried to give me but I was very tired and sleepy. Jasmine master was cute and loveful she sent me a dream to let me know that sh e is taken and married. She is an extraordinary womna and I just adore her. She is like an angel. Very pretty and sexy btw. It is unbelievable kind of her that she is helping me and I am so greatful for her. I truly wish her a beautiful blissful life with her husband. She is just and a

ngel. I also had a dreams with 2-3 dogs. I was walking on the macadan road to the ga rden. And those dogs were freely running everywhere. Today I got exhausted and had to go to bed after lunch. I was sleeping for 30 minutes and when I was near to wake up I felt a woman lying on my back (I was lying in bed on my stomach). She had curly hai r and definitely she was a human and woman. Pretty interesting. I was very negative during the night. I feel tired and I do not feel anymore that affinity after the DIP session. Al most as if I had not been at a DIP. I do not feel much more better and I was this week at him. Hm. Well, I hope to feel better after the second session. I must take my time to recover. I had a curse on me and had no energy so I nee d to wait a bit and relax. * Conclusion - Regarding my future I am quite convinced that for me the number one priority is to improve my health instead of getting a job. - practicing Reconnective Healing on a daily basis is a key as Mr DIP Sianta d id not send me more energy as far as I know. I really should find my own enerhy source so that I could help my large intest ine to work during the night. Reconnective Healing helpes me to become mindless and to sense and feel and lo ve. I would recommend it to everyone,\ - I think I go for the CAE exam held in December. I have some months to get re ady for it and I hope I would pass the exam Aug 19 2011 Somebody sent to me energy (DIP energy). Maybe Mr. DIP Sianta. Thank you. Magda tanito neni asked me in my dream if there is love everywhere. I gave a ve ry pre-learned answer. I said there was the divine love and soul love. Then I received Reconnective Healing (inside my body). Later I also had a dream in which I saw some of my hadn-made electronic circuits at middle school. When I woke up I thought of it and said I was not interested in those things an y more. I admitted it is a nice past-time activity and quite joyful but you just cannot make money of it. Hardware is ruled by Asia and USA. Then I sai d I would rather take the CAE test and then I could move to Bangkok to teach English. I realised that teachers are also not very felexible especially in our contry. They would teach you outdated technologies for decades. I felt some people loved it. Yep. Sorry, but when I look at teachers they proba bly chose it to have peace and not to be forced to change and change. Teaching is a very comfortable profession (would be if pupils were more obedien t and respectful towards teachers). There is a proverb: Those who know work and those who do not know teach. It is true to some teachers. Sorry. I had also very negative dreams and I did not sleep very well. I remember a dre am in which everything was ruined in NZ and I was looking for my old flat. There was a strong wind. I saw Sztarovics net to me. I saw gipsy children, Laka tos Zsanett as well. Etc. Some primitive people think that just becasue someone respects people regardless of their race is to be despized and made fun of. * Cocnlusion - unfortuinately some very low educated and low people still keep watching me a

nd try to push me down. - my intent is to really pass the CAE examination and get the fuck away from ce ntral Europe Aug 20 2011 I can remember my second dream was strange. I found myself in the kitchen of t he old flat and I saw small religious statues (Saint mary). I picked them up and liked them or what. Then I went back to the bedroom (stil l old flat) and got into my bed. Then I woke up. I had a strange feeling and I was suspicious of Mrs. Isabella. I had strange dreams. And they were not sent by somebody. I did notice any of my helpers. Very strange. I have the slight feeling that the DIP way cannot make my large intestine work . I dozed for a while in my bed and I received probably Reconnective Healing. I was so weak. * Conclusion - I have just relized how serious the worlds of DIP Sianta were. He meant schiz ofrenia. And it is still a prospect. Aug 21 2011 I went to bed late as I got back late from the fireworks celebration in Budapest . I remember a dream set in crampt bus. There was a young ;ady there and we exchan ged a few words. We spoke Hungarian. She is from Slovakia and probaby studies in Nitra. However, there was a young we ll built man there who was negative and said my father has a sanatorium. He is the chap who suggests the idea of death o r suicide to me. I simply find it quite unfortunate to live in a world where some people try to h urt you or want your harm or sadness. On the other hand I am pleased by those who help me and others because that is t heir inner need. They may do a dull boring job during the day but in the evening they fulfill their soul's need to helpp others and to love. I truly respect those people and find it extraordinary sorrowful that I cannot be one of them. Many people are not yet at that level. Very unfortunate. I wonder what is the case with eastern countries such as Belgium or Switzerland. what percent of the population is at such a positive level? The aim of the young lady who gave me Reconnective Healing is to make me more op en and to touch my soul. To heal my soul. Some relationship would greatly help but yep, it is so hard to find someone. I had a dream in which I heard my mother talking. She has got money worries. Aug 22 2011 There is a man who has been disturbing my sleep regularly every night. I had st range dreams again. I saw patient, plaster and his penis and how he pissed. I recognized, he was the same as the day before. And I was pretty sure that he was doing it consciously. He just sent me negative thoughts. He said I wanted to bang a woman. So what? There are/should be priorities in li fe. First of all it is none of his business and I find it extraordinaly galling to be riled regularly by some prick. It is the highest shame when someo ne pulls someone back to the mad and he feels some kind of joy? I did some self talk and I worked it out. I said it is the highest shame becaus e he did not respect my life and freedom. I said he had his own life and he coul

d end it, improve it, whatever. I respect his life even if it is close to worthle ss. It is his life. But the hell if he cannot respect my life !!! It us utterly disturbing and harmful to suggest someone bad things and even dea th or suicide. I just cannot stand for it. Nope. So I got fed up and I addressed him. I expressed my free wish to be undistrubed and I said I wanted to improve my life and become more useful. I am not satisfied with my life situation and I do not really think banging a w oman / prostitite would solve anything. I said I had way too many problems and I could not afford to think of sex. It i s unfortunate as I believe every healthy man should have regular and healthy sex with respect towards women. Yes, some women like it hard and i do not find it bad at all. Sex without love is fine to me but respect and tender should be the minimum. Sex with love is of course the best to have. That should be the be st. BUT I am not willing to wait for that as I getting older and older and I go for the second best instead of just waiting and waiting for some love. It is important to me to be considerate toward woman even if I pay for it as a serv ice. I am convinced about it and I wish I could afford to have regular sex. Because I can learn or help others just by that. Many people despize prostitutes, they find them filthy and amoral. Not me. It a job/service like any other and we men should make sure theit human dignity is not violated. Their human dignity is important and I find it importa nt to not bully them into anything. I was judged by two prostitutes unfairly. I am conviced about that. If someone is a prostitute and refuses to h ave even sex but takes the money then she just failed as a service provider. I had little energy yesterday and unfortunately it is a problem. It means there has been little improvement regarding my energy since the DIP session. I was sent energy but not reconnective healing energy. I had a dream in which I saw a middle-aged woman crying and helding my hand. She mentioned Jesus and I saw some paper sheet with some text. I was sent energ y by people. I saw meny people around me. I saw even Bodzar Eduard (middle schoo l). Then I had another dream in which I saw a priest in black and he looked very se rious and he was all in black. Some women thought that they ask for his help. I find it ridiculous and arrogant as I had statet that my religion is buddhism. I am not open to haggling or discussions about it. It is a fact they must accep t. Today I was again very week and lacked energy so snoozed for some hours. I had some dream in which I got the message to get soem : labimadat She was my dear kind master and forewer friend. I respect her. I know who loves truly. And she is one of them. She is such a woman. Than you. * Conclusion - I am getting fed up with this state when people dictate me what I am allowed to do and what I should not. They send me energy when they deem it to be good and it means I am not independent and I am getting really fed up of all so rt of women who are enforcing the religion instead of just helping without expecting anything from me in return. I do not want to be a product of some religious people who think they know what I need and is good for me. They keep saying and repeating marriage as a sort of solution to my health prob lems which I find utterly ridiculous. I am determined to undergo a treatment by a very good therapeut the only proble m is how to find him him/her and how to finance it. They can keep me alive but I do not feel alive. I do not feel up to going to wo rk and if I do not have a regular income I should not get married.

What I need is an expert and hard work. I am ready to do it as far as my mother will be cleared by a good DIP. Most people keep talking bullshit to you instead of telling you what would heal you. They are interested in keeping the status quo because they can feel superior. Aug 23 2011 In my dream I was talking in Slovak language to a bunch of (6) very young ladi es. They very curious to see me and it was arranged by some nurses of mine. I have no idea why!? If they needed encouragement to future profession I am gl ad that I could make them more enthusiasthic about their job. I am gald that I could help by some good words. I hope that was intention and not something else. I feel they like me but do not know why. They may feel compassionate about me and what me to be happy and married. I am so pleased to be accepted by so many good people. And I am really thankful for their good wishes. And I wish them they same hapi ness, long life and prosperity and health. Some ladies tried to fill me with energy but unfortunately I am very active in my dreams and never sleep. So they try to appear close to me in the form of my father and brother this ti me it did not work. I feel sorry for them as they must endure some sort unkindness and my rudness. I am really for this. I hope this situation will not last for very. * Conclusion - I have a slight concern what if the future cannot be changed. Why people are interested in me? What if because of the future. Aug 24 2011 I slept deeply and cannot remember many dreams. I got up first about 3 am. Could not recall any dream. Then close to the morning I got a message that people from Nove Zamky help me ! ! Wow. That was quite odd. Then I had a strange Alpha interaction with a man who spoke Slovak. Before I wa s show a young lady's face. I have the slight notion that these people have some plans for me and they alre ady have picked up some ladies for me. He wanted me to be a christian I find it miserable (I am miserable) but well, if they have good heart and are pretty, I could give it a try. My sould wants something else. I want to be more healthy and have energy and practice Reconnective Healing and Silva method. And then finally get some job and get married. Winning some dosh would be very welcome but I hope Universe will respond and he lp me. Then I had some with a beatuful middle-ages lady speaking Hungaian in my dream. I do not know who she was but she kind and I love kind angels. She spoke to me about the Hungarian see (Balaton). I find it a pretty good idea to travel there but ALONE?!! Well, it looks a bit miserable but fuck it that is the way it is. Yesterday I was in a net caffee. In my dream I called mark Brouwer using skype. I then quickly stopped. He called me back ?! I think I need to consult him.

Aug 25 2011 I had some dream with my brother. Although I did not see him I knew there was something about him. anyway my dreams were moderately strange and senseless. For instance I had a dream in the big garden we had and it was an orchard full of peach-trees. I was up above the trees and there was somebody there (I met that Slovak men on the trai, he was sitting ne xt to me). He was dangling from a tree with a rope around his neck. Then I saw an airplane taking off and I knew it was my brother. In my opinion it all has to do with the things I encountered yesterday during the day as I studied English. I do not know how can one dream freely if he is all the time limited by his fr iends. I wish I could dream freely and nobody would influency at all. I am getting fed up that people are just annoyed while I sleep and my sleep me ans a trouble for them. Totally utterly ridiculous. Then I had a dream with two woman. Most interestingly there was again somethin g with my brother but I could not see him. I saw two women and one of them was dressed in a sexually attractive way (neat ly dressed). I was waiting and I had the kowledge that there would be some marriage or what but did not know whose. I then throwed a piece of pap er into the dust bin and came back. I gained much consiousness and I woke up. I heard "Nagyon fiagyazz magadra fiam!". I hope it was said by my dear kind master Erzsi neni. I was wondering why she said that. I promised her that I kepp my world and I would not hurt anyone. I really did not know what she meant. Either my enemies or myself mean a threa t to myself. I said I wanted to solve my problems and I am determined to do so. She staerted sending energy. I said I love her and Jasmin e master. I said this world is cruel and filthy. People are not frank instead they do back-biting. They keep thinking how can they hurt you without spoiling their own karma. It is a practice of shameful scary people not heroes. I hate lies and find this world too negative. Full of negative inf luence. The worst thing is that people hate those who achieved something through hard work and they try to pull them back to the mad. I find it disgusting and despizing. They should be inspired by the successful people and respect those deerful peo ple instead. I had some sleep and then woke up. I had another dream. This time it was set i n an ordinary classroom. There were students there. I was walking there, I saw a small palm tree. And went back to sit down to my desk. I had a computer there so I was watching some women's photographs. Not naked. I was interrupted by Gorcsi Andras, I thi nk dear Hausleitner Agnes was there as well. I think I could recall some other dream in which I wanted to choose a tart and I was about to select one. I was however, suggested that I had not on me the GPS and even my mother appeared. I had the feeling that I was at home but that was not true. I even was annoyed that I had left in Budapest the souveniers I had bought for my mother's bday. My friends, former school mates, tried to prevent me to dream about sexuality. I approved their deed and said I did not want to dream about sexualit because that is none of business and it is my own private life. So I was thank ful to them and I noticed my abdomen and the stasis of stool in my intestine. Yesterday I took 10 mg of bysacodyl but had harldy any stool at night. So I in spected the situation and I came to the realisation that my dear friends screwed it up by forcing me to remember traumas while I was sl eeping. As I wrote it earlier it worked fine to express the dead twin when I was talki

ng to Mr. Behnam (former tenant). It really worked and my arms were trembling and it took about 2 hours. I really felt that my large intesting started to wo rk better. But that night they forced me to reveal some traumas and I had really bad dreams for 2 days after but the problem was (I pointed out ot it ye sterday) that the fear got somatized again into the abdomen muscles. When I inspected my abdomen muscles in the bed I noticed how stiff they were a nd even spasmatic. So I concluded that unfortunately the fear was not realeased relived and dealth with in the present moment as I was sleeping and pretty unconscios so therefore the fear must have been somatised into the muscles which made my condition even worse. Unfortunately they did not kno w what would happen and it is worse than before. I said I did not want them to do it again and they should not do what they are not sure about. I said fear muist be dealth with in the present moment and any trauma must be released during the day while awake and not in sleep as the fear and energy cannot be released. They messed up the whole thing and I feel again that I waisted my money and chances. I feel sorry as They wan ted to help and were entusiastic but they caused harm to me. That was too quick and too many traumas tried at once. it should be done gradu ally and not too many at a time as my mind has limits and I do not want to get mad. So I lost my hopes and went into negative mood again. The result is that I had some strange senseless dreams. I had a dream in the garden where my father wanted to sell me a camion. i said I could not drive one and did not need. I d o not know what was their intention. Simply I am fed up with my parents. I left their flat to not see them and ther e I have it. they appear in my dream. Fuck it. Fucked up life. I said I would try some special massage to released trapped fear from muscles. I do not even know what is the name of it. Fine, I'll find out. I also had some dream in which I saw a cake. Maybe a groom's cake. I am not su re. I find it ridiculous that they keep suggetig me marriage while I do not even have a girlfriend. WHat I need is a woman who would trust me and believe in me that I am able to do it. Certainly it would help a lot. Unfortuinately there is no such woman who would be interested in me and m y fucked up dreams. Fine, I'll do it and try to fix this. I gettiing out of money which means I will have to work soon and I do not feel up to going to work and spending their 8 hours. I am realistic and pragmatic. I should not work. I am ill and sick. I am deter mined to solve it as I am getting more and more upset about the status quo. This simply does not lead to anywhere. * Conclusion - find a special massage therapy to release emtional pain from muscles - ask Mr. Sianta for a good psychotherapeut. - I should wind some dosh at least. - I promised my dear beloved masters to keep my word and shall never forget th is!! Aug 26 2011 Yesterday I read some chapters from The Power of Now by E. Tolle. About the pa in body. When I woke up afterm midnight I was in a very bad mood. I again thought of th e unfortunate thing thad had happened. I felt a bit hopeless. But then I remembered the pain body and I made fun of i

t and I got into a very good witty mood. I reassured my friends that nobody is guilty of anything and everyone is alrea dy perfect. The only problem is the pain body. I also joked about marriage. Getting married with a pain body :). Then I felt asleep and I was sent energy and they avoided me to have sexual d reams. I made an impression on them. Because I was able to turn my bad mood into a very good one and I appreciated their dear help and love. I am glad to have true friends. I made an important realization. I thought of the mishap and I concluded that it was ego. I get into trouble because some so called friends want to heal me all the time and they keep doing it. I had not agreed to it and they j ust did it and now I am more cinstipated than before. I am not sure who was it but it could have been Horvath t. neni who has hurt m e some times and I just wish not to mess up with my life. I said DO NOT YOU EVEN TRY TO HEALL ME! DO NOT YOU DARE. I am fed up with peop le who know what I need and do things without my permission. I simply must not allow it. It is crucial. My father wanted to help me in my c hildhood, DrO wanted to help me etc. NOPE. This is pure arrigance and egoism. Sending energy and some positive thoughts i s absolutely fine but trying to do psychotherapy remotely is utterly egoistic. Fine. I hope they learned frm it. I also stressed that yo u will be asked for help one day and then you help if you are able. And it is an honour to be asked for help because you are trusted. and then you do what you can do. It is not healthy to try heal everyone and heal the whole world. Nope. That is egoism. Btw. nobody can heal anyone it is the God's decision or will never mine. Reconnective Healing is really a New Age form of healing as it absolutely gets rid of the ego and it is really not about I am then one to heal you. There are people who are negative and envios and then there are pushy esoteric people who think they should heal everyone without even asking. it is a sort of respect when you do not want to heal anyone. When you are wait ing to be asked to help. Then you are a true maste when people ask you to help them not heal them. It is total egoism when you just de monstrate how good you are and smart and can send opinions and advices to everyone you meet. There is nothing respectful about that. Mr. Hortai was s uch a sort of person and I hope he learnt from it and respects privacy. I also said I am not going to heal anyone and I am not to heal anyone because it is sheer egoism. I feel sorry how far way I got from the healthy balanced ego. I am pretty egoi sm and it is mainly because I have been provoke for a long time so my ego got thicker in order to protect himself. I realised how important it is to watch our ego and painbody and do something about it. Practicing mindfullness is essential for a relatively happy life and a good co habitation with you spouse. The first dream I had was set in the old flat. I was looking out of the window and saw in the street dear kind Agnes Hausleitner. She is one of the kindest cutest prettiest lady I have ever met. She has a ver y good heart and she loves me and wishes me the best. So do I to her. I greated her and she talked to her. She mentioned she needs somebody as she w as to travel to Portugalia by car. She also said that she had heard that I work in IT. The interesting thing about it was that I did not hear her properly so I stated to see her closer and closer as if I was the Tao. It was a nice experience to become the watcher and see her from very close. Th en she disappeared. She must have been impressed by me. I also heard this: "Anik tekerj." She is the former school mate from high schoo

l. She is said to have attained the seminar with Dr. Pearl in Hamburg. It seems to me that she is still helping for which I am very grateful and I ad mire her perseverance and patience. Some people made slight negative influences to me. I saw sparrrows in my dream and I was suggested that the birds pood on me. Definitely nobody would have such a dream in which birds poo on them. What I find extraordinaly unfortunate is that whenever I gain some slight impr ovement in my state or get some kudos from my friends they immediately must despize me and punish me. I cannot understand such a primitiv e behavior and jealousy. I also heard Bruce Lee. My last dream was after 8 am and it was set in the old flat. I saw my father in the parlour of the old flat. He said this: "megegyeztunk ne m telfonalunk nehogy letegye, etc" I must have sent some message to my mother which must have made her worried. M y father called me the dat before yesterday. I must be cautious and egoless not to screw up thing and make her become suspi cious. It is key that she goes to a DIP. * Conclusion - I realized this cannot go on like this. I need to fix my problems and not wa it for some firends or miracles. Nope. If I need a psychotherapeut the fine. I am willing to undergo it. I want to become independent and practice Silva method so that I can protect myself and sleep much more better. Unfortunately those who do not know Silva method are pushed down by those who know. They are exploited by some other people and thus they become victims of others . It is important to practice it and become conscious even while sleeping. - right now the most important is to take my mother to the DIP in Nitra in Sep tember and clean her karma and dispositions. Then I would be free to work on myself. 28 ag 2011 warning 29 aug 2011 !! massive DIP programming Yesterday after mindday I felt something bad and knew that the affinity given by Mr. DIP SIanta was gone. Then I received some energy into my intestine and a new affinity which I figured out. It was getting married. SOme really nice DIP did it to me for which I am very greatful. In the eveng I woke up at about 2:4 am. I Had some dreams about food and eating . Then I woke up again and I had some dreams about ladies. Then again I woke up and I saw a woman in the street and I was in the room I wa s sleeping.. I was looking at her trough the open window. SHe was young and beautiful with bl ack hair. She gave her hand to shake. She asked for my name and I was searching for my vis it card but did not give her anything. I had a feeling she came to ask me for a favour. I had other dream in which I said "nepoznaju zakon". The DIPs were Slovak.

Most interestingly at the beginning I had dreams with Sztarovics. Was he real or only a projection? I have no idea. * Conclusion - I have a mixed feeling. On one side some DIP(s) truly help me and they want m e to be married. On the other hand I feel some other DIP(s) might not do this for free. They pro grammed me to help them in the future which means they expect me to be special. I do not want the futur e Mrs. Isabella saw. I refuse it. Why they cannot help my mother and remove the karma from her? Today is bank holiday so I cannot travel back. I amm going to the bank tomorrow . 30 aug 2011 31 aug 2011 Hungarian speaking people helped me. I was sent energy but their problem is tha t thanks to the inner fear and nervousness I am not open to energy so they must do some tricks. One of their trick is put me into a car and then people sit next to me. Concretely tonight I found myself in a car and a very young man in some uniform sat to my left and a woman to my right. Jasmine master was smileing at me. I was so conscious that I recognized everyth ing but was wondering what was going on Then I thought ot said that she is angry at me and would be for a while. She th en said : ki nem allhatom az ilyen szemelyisseget, amitol felni kell. My personality (the personality of my minime) is rather stiff. It i s because I have inner fear and cannot surrender to it. When I was looking at Jasmine at her face I felt that it changed. Someone tried to make me think she is an old woman and I wa given a thought that Magdi neni would move to Bratislava . Hm. That is impressive. I understand that they did not want me to insult the young and married jasmine master BUT that piece of information about Bratislava makes me think. I think i n terms of the last family constellation I am at the stage wher Erzsike made me look into myself. I am about to collaps and that is Mrs. Isabella's plan. I had been said in my dream : Menekuljon!! Anyway my nerves are a bit shaky so I do not think I would need more shot by DI P Sianta. Probably that is their plan but I refuse to be given more as my body would not survive the stress and a nerve collaps is likely. In order to avoid it I need to seek expert help and not waste my time and money. yesterday I looked back and I concluded that bad things happened but sme soluti on was reached anyway. - some blocks were removed and it made my intestine work better - the syn which blocked my left colon (probably caused megacolon) was removed b y DrO. Thans for that. - the curse was finally removed (15th aug 2011) by DIP Sianta. Thanks. - The problems with the lost twin seems to be solved. I accepted his life and d eath and some emotional pain blcking my intestine was released too. When I think of Mrs. Pusztai who offered my a half year therapy at the cost of 20 000 Ft / h the price seems to be the same. I understand that some suffering is inevitable and necessary in life in order t o learn from it and burn some karma. I do not think I deserve a nerve collaps and not even my mother's karma. Regarding my mother. I offered her help, she was absolutely suspicious and she just cannot trust me. I admit I was not loveful and persuading at all.

Fine. She said it is normal to have diseases, they come with the age. I do not know what is right and wrong but I at least tried. * Conclusion - I do not feel well about them. They are getting fed up with me and I feel lik e they conspired against me to end their own misery. - I feel like NOW is the time to take into my hand the destiny and do what I fe el to be true in my heart. It is psychotherapy. - Today I write an email to Dr. Angszter Maria and ask for her advice. I am thi nking of avoiding Bratislava afeter all this. I cannot be given another shot. 1 sept 2011 Attacks!! I had some dream but it was disturbed by the thought of Porn. I had the slight feeling that they taughed me to donate to hospitals and Unicef. It is a bit strange. Then I said that they were miserable as they want to teach LOVE? What do they k now about it? Not much. I could not sleep for a long time. I had some thought chains. Then I had a dream in which I met Melinda (former school mate from elementary s chool). She was upbeat and excited but it was not true. She wanted me to ignore some negative people who had been pissed off again at m e. She succeeded but only for a short time. The strange thing was that she talked about a car accident and about the death of twins. I was not reactive at all. I do not have problems with twins. Something must have happened as some people are upset again. Then I met Kaderabek (the location was elementary school) who talked bullshit a s well. Mentioned some microbiology that it is really hard. Then I felt some pulling and I saw Gajdos and some other person. I wanted to go somewhere and then I felt something in my anus. I removed spots from my anus. Interestingly I had some sense that it could have been from Zupeman but I do not think at all. When I think of this they really must hate me. I did not hurt them at least I h ope. Then I can remember seeing some videos by Dr. E. Pearl. He was sending some ene rgy to me. Thanx. He is a man who I really look up to. He said I needed a wife. He has got very good heart. I had some self talk. I mentioned Mery (xxx angel) who I would like to visit. S he is special and very blessed as men (her clients) worship her and bring lots of love to her and gifts. Mery is an angel and she has a good karma. She can enjoy the love she is embraced by and feel like princess. So I look forward to meet that angel and love her and enjoy the short time with her. I would even marry her. I felt people just wanted to tell me their opinion. I refused it. I refuse opin ions while I am sleeping. I do not care about opinions. But they want to be right to feel more important. It is an awful and very primi tive game of the ego. I should ignore them. There is no other way. I did not sleep well as I was sent some dreams and I interrupted the sleep at t he beginning of the dream. As far as I know all dreams were in Hungarian language. I had some really despizing dreams. I saw some men with short dick and I had th

e notian that is me. Somebody said someone without emotions is dead, etc. Something really pissed them off. I have the feeling I should get the fuck out of her and never come back to Europe. Then I had some Hungarian dream as well by a man. He mentioned Szent Istvan (th e king) and me. I would be lower. He even decided what I would be. I felt like some posession that people can put into a place and worship. I do n ot feel like being loved at all. Love is total acceptance and not shaping the other. I was again suggested religion in my dream. I must be a Chri stian. But I cannot be. * Conclusion - it is almost true that the destiny has not been changed. It could be because the curse was not removed or because of my mother - a DIP from Prague offered me to change destiny. I did not respond as I was no t shure what it was all about at the time of happening - there is a solution and it can be done by a powerful DIP - some people really want me to be a Christian. I cannot be. I have not practic ed or lived like a Christian. - the situation is bad and I have no clue why? 2 sept 2011 Warnings! My first dream was a warning or some explanation (at 1.30am). I think it was ve ry just and by Erzsike. I took some stronger medicine for my nerves. Mrs. Isabella was mentioned. I heard these words: kifosztani, kiksziteni And I also saw visually some artificial women bodies, sexuality. I also heard that "I am alone". After the dream I started to meditate to go into alpha. I did not asleep . I he ar subconscious: someone was trying to send me info as sentences or words. I catched only: kikesziteni, have fun and care about my body as a child's body A warning: something bad would happen and I had the feeling that in real world. Then somebody sent me a dream advocating going to Germany. Also mentioned 4500 Eur as a salary. Most interestingly I heard this : Golden age term which could mean that my task is to survive and then I would be healed. Close to the morning sb said: Learn language (akarat hianyzik) My energy level is very weak!!! * Conclusion - Mrs. Isabella is still pissed off and will do anything to hurt me and she doe s - some bad event(s) might happen - last week I was advocated to travel and stay at Balaton lake? Why? To avoid s ome event? - today I cancelled the appointment with DIP Sianta. I do not risk. I am pruden t.

3rd September 2011 I had dreams with school mates from middle-school. I was given Reconnective Hea ling as my constipation is a bit severe. My large intestine is just not moving. It is blocked heavily by emotional pain. I hope the ne DIP will find a solution for it. I can remember Kiss Attila, Molnar Antal. I my I I had a good joke. I told them that for their good work I would surge them in next life as a favour. would be a physician in my next life and I wish to have nurse Anna near me as would be very pleased.

I had in my dream Mr. Leodolt from Wienna. Strange. He did not shake hands wit h me. He probably despizes me. I also remember Mr. Kalman who did some Buddhist stunts. Generally they are tak ing good care of my minime. 4th September 2011 I had a dream set in the railway station in Nove Zamky. I saw there my father a nd brother. They left me there but I was thirsty and wanted to drink. My father came back and gave me a bottle of mineral water and 20 Euro. Then I had another dream and I saw Kalman who was the sender. He wanted me to p ersuade to travel. I saw some bus and I again was in NZ. It was Mr. Kalman. He tries to save my father. As the prophecy by the astute ol d and ugly women is believed to be true by some foolish ex-school mates. It is not my karma. It is my mother's karma. Then I had again some dreams with Gajdos and Mate and ML. They were envious a b it. I saw in my dream two women (ex-chool mates, Melinda was one of them). They thr owed snowballs to me and I turned back. One of them turned into a little polar bear so that I would not throw back anyt hing. And I did not. I said when I woke up that I could sniff envy from many kilometres. It is true. They chaps are still a bit envious of me. I find very disgusting and ridiculous. I keep wondering what the hell is so app ealing to them in my life. Is it the peace I have becasue of solitude or is it the women with big breast ? ?! I guess it is the latter one. Yep, they are married and they will neve in this life have sex with any other w oman. Beside this I wish them good karma and good sex. Sure. I do not care. * Conclusion - I truly do not have friends as they cannot respect my religion (Buddhism) an d they want me to suffer. - they listen to Mrs. Isabella and want me to travel to Germany - they are witnessing my suffering and do nothing to avoidi it. I doubt if the y can, of course. - it is only a matter of time when karma will be ripe and my mother would suff er and for some reason I would - There are two efforts for me to do: - strenghten my religion - try to find a way through DIP to clean mother

- I was accused of killing my father. I am fed up being judged for nothing. - I was lied again. They wanted me to get cold feet and move ass somewhere els e. But why would I travel away? They just do not get it. I cannot escape all my life because of an angyry old filthy woman. I am responsible for my own life. I have some problems and I intend to find the best affordable solution for it. - marriage would be a very wise and peaceful solution - Shall I travel to Thailand as I want to get married ASAP? 5th September 2011 I had the feeling that I was given some programming after midnight. I am not su re, however. I saw some Buddhism, job, cash maschine? Then I had another dream in Jednota st ore. I was asked if I had pocket money. I was given energy and not by some person but similar way as DrO. So it is like ly that some DIP did it along some programming. I had the feeling that Jasmine was as well with me. I had strange dreams. I had a dream in which I looked around in my house. I saw the kitchen which was huge. I counted almost 100 seats in it. I met some bloke as well who showed me some book. Then I entered another room a nd I saw women. Not many. I recognized Varga Andrea. Then I was sent some depressive thoughts such as: hogy kerultem ekkora szarba. I can also remember a dream in which I saw the old street (Lastovicia) in my ho metown. In one of the dreams I was sitting in front of a computer. I heared some music and I got scared as it was too loud. I lowered the music then. I saw a hand and I stabbed a pen into the hand. It was Hungarian speaking. I gu ess Jasmine. Then I can remember an A4 sheet with some writing and then a highlighted sectio n in it in Hungarian language saying that a company is looking for some employess. I really should get employed but unfortunately my c onstipation is pretty severe. I regret cancelling the meeting with DIP Sianta. 6th September 2011 I think Keszeg Roland (ex-school mate from elemetary school) was sitting next to me and touched my head from back and had that evil view and grind. I saw another man (very big body) too. I woke up as I felt the energy as he touc hed my head. I threted him to release my head with a knife and then I banged his head with a comb. In my dream I was recommended massage. They think I do not feel my body which is pretty much true.

7th September 2011 I had a lot of dreams but basically nothing happened. The first dream I can remember was me talking in Slovak about some politics. I m entione communists. somebody else was there who suggested the building of housing estates. I was upset as I had said that I hated politics and that I was apolitics. It is awful. They think I would live in Slovakia.

They are wrong. There is nothing for which I should stay in Slovakia. 8th September 2011 I saw three new young people. I had some sexual dreams. In my dream I saw my dick and it was thick and I saw my brother's and it was ev en mor thicker than my. I do not know what is the point of these lies. Why they cannot respect my wish not to see sexual dreams. I was told to get some friends. Interestingly they do not want me to get marrie d anymore. Probably they got it finaly that I am sick. Conclusion - people try to fix me by lies such as I have a big dick etc. I hate lies. - religion was again strenhtened. I heard this> I ama Catholics. Which is a lie . - some people try to hurt me by telling me things such as hurting a baby or som ething wih my father. - I am concerned about some dreams I had. I had a foto and I was telling it is deformed. The past is slowly leaking and the mind tries to work it out which cannot solve anything. - I regret not going for another session with Mr. Sianta 10th September 2011 A lot of dreams! I went to bed very early at about 8 pm. I had a dream in which I was at a schoo l class and Melinda wanted to sit in front of me. The chair next to me was on the desk so nobody could sit on it. I however wante d her to sit next to me and I removed the chair from the desk and she sat next to me. I holded her left hand most interestingly. Aft er this I woke up. Pretty strange. Melinda is someone I really look up to. She is a very simply being with lots of love and cute. Then I got to sleep and my next dream was set in a school class again. I was li stening a teacher. She was talking in Hungarian and almost sure she was Thor Lilla (former form master from middle school). She tried dissuade me from Buddhism and it was about the bangle I wear and then left without arguments she said Madala is black magic. This was the point when I got up. This made me a bit disappointed. I said religion is tabu to me and even the law in this country (Hungary) prohib its asking anyone about his or her religionor nationality. Also in surveys thouse questions are tabu. So I rellay found it a bit selfish a nd pushy to influence me. I said I had been reading such books for many years and I do not want to deny the usefulness of such books and buddh ism. I am open minded person I read other books such as books by Bert Helllinger and I found some really good things in it too. I had another dream in which I was suggested to go to Germany as I need to stud y English. Ridiculous dreams. Some people anticiate things or were told bullshit and they want me to make a s udden decision which is based on nothing just a dream. I do not know how can somebody be so far away from reality. There is no reason for me to leave this country as I cannot afford to live elsewhere. It is said. If I won some larger amount of money I would definitely move to Can ada or Sydney. I like English and it is the best innvestition. I had some short dream in which I was told something in a slightly despizing wa

y: you are a celebrity. First of I do not have real friend, second I am not rich and third I did not wa nt it. I am victim of a very astute woman. I had some other dream with Melinda but cannot remember what. I think she got f ed up with me. I can understand it. I was told I had been biten by a dog and I could not go to school. Close to the morning I had some really messed up dream. I saw a green brief-cas e and I mentioned there was a bomb in it. Some people still do not want me to find peace and they envy something I do not really have. It is ridiculous and I am a bit fed up with envy and envious people who not jus t envy me but hurt me. I have just recalled a nice dream I had close to the midnight. I among a few wo men and I was said Forr. And I was showed a very small girl and she was a daughter of one of the Forr lad ies. I then showed Kaderabek who asked me how I was. I said constipation. I then wok e up. Those forr ladies are nice women. They think of me and love me. Women can be so kind. Really kind. * Conclusion I have a feeling that DrO had been asked to make me feel better as some really good people do not want me to suffer. It is nice of them but I do not know why should I move to Germany and why that bad event cannot be avoided. 11th September 2011 A lot of dreams! I had activated unwittingly an alarm in my watch at midday. It goes off every d ay. So I got up exactly at midday. I could remember the dream. It had something to do with green color. I fugured out that they constantly hypnotise me and they want to trigger the program. They know about my strict rules documents and they want to somehow disregard that. I have dreams in dreams. The dream I could remember was something with green co lor but inside that dream there was something else which I cannot remmber. I had some other dream. I was thumbling through a newspaper (I think UjSzo) whi ch was on the floor. I then felt that Melinda touched my foot. I found myself sitting next to her in a school class. I said I had been reading some magazine. Then I can remember myself lying on some bed and listening to some music and lo oking at the class room. I knew that the folks from Kamocsa are late and so they were missing from the class. A bit odd dream. Most interestingly I then saw in my dream a river and a cafe on the river. I fe lt fine and liked it. I thought it was Paris. I saw some dancing woman or what and still thought it was in Paris. Nope. They tried to rewire the feeling I have about Paris with Slovakia. They want me to return to Slovakia. Nope. No way. They fucked it up. Btw. I was receiving DIP energy (installed). I needed it as I was pretty weak. In the morning I looked into the mirror and my face was rather pale.

I heard this: ziadost They want me to write some ziadost? Is it regarding Trnava hospital and the sur gery? I had dreams with my brother. I was watching a hospital's reception through th e window of the old flat. Somebody next to me mentioned psychiatria (in Hungarian language). I saw the re ception, a doctor. It was lively. * Conclusion - I am still being hypnotised and the program will be triggered after I open th e document holder which has green color. It is amazing. - their primary goal is to make me return to Slovakia !! - I shall ask the DIP to lock my mind !! so that no other DIP could enter it. - I must place my strict rules into a white envelope 12th September 2011 !! LEFT ALONE WITH THUG PEOPLE ! My first dream I can remember was in my room in the old flat. I saw my mother. It was something about my passport. My mother came home and she was bragging to the neighbour about some passport. I frowned at her why she had to brag to the neighbout. Then I saw her come into my room and I was standing behind my desk. Then I saw the ex-neighbour who was working as a dustman and was married with a gipsy woman. At first I felt proud, I was proud of myself then I felt that he hates and desp izes me and thinks low of me. Of course, it is envy. It interesting how many envious people have I met so far and most of them since Dublin have hurt me and expressed their hatred. So returning to the same dream I then took a fotograph of some group of people at the same room but then they suddenly turned their back to me and showed their naked buttock. Probably they despize me for something an d they feel a strong need to let me know that. They do not despize only me but my mother as well. I have a lot of problems wit h acquintance of my parents. I am punished by them but I had not done anthing bad to them. My parents are awful I know, they have awful thought about others and hatred but why I am punished for their bad behaviorur? I woke up and went to the toilet. I had more despizing dreams. I saw pigs and I heard: disznok. I was made to shoot monkeys as a video game, then shoot people. I felt my fathe r behind me he touched my hand but I did not react. He was Erzsike who tries to help me and lessen the negative impact. These peopl e are trying to spoil me, to make me bad. They are cruel people. DrO did the whole thing and he did it deliberatly with an evil plan in his head . He is an asshole. Then I had worse dreams. It was in the kitchen of the old flat. I was made a ba nk robber. I can remember I asked for money and I had a toy pistol in my hand. I saw a black person who was held hostage and he cried out : Ne tord el a kezem. They want me to hate black people etc. These people do not want the world to be a better place. They pull everyone back to the darkness. They are irresponsible and frivolous as they do not realize karma. They deliber

atly create a very negative karma for themselves. Since that mind part in my dreams has only 7 years (told by DIP Sianta) their s in is even worse. Influencing a child to do bad things is something like in Africa. Those African bastartd dictators created an army of c hildren. They made them to kill people and hold a rifle. They do the same to me and they cannot see the cruelty in it. I keep telling li fe is a dream and that dream level is also a dream. The sin is less as if it was done in real life but they have a responsibility a s they are totally conscious as they are brain controllers Unfortunately they not just control their own brains but others' which is amora l and bad karma. It is a mental violence. Oh yes, and I can remember I was made urinate in an office in my dream. Somebod y loves to watch it. I was thinking in the morning. Do I have friends? Definitely not in this real l ife as none of my friends picked a phone to warn me when I needed and asked for a waring. Nobody had the courage to send me a fucking anoninous e mail!! I cannot see the reason of it. I feel resentful and angry about it. They hurt me a lot. Not everyone of them. But they hurt me. They showed the cru elty they have despite being a religious person. They failed as we all do. On top of that they started all those violences. They did it, my own ex-school mates !!!! No enemies did it not the evil from hell. They did it to me!! They made fun of me and despized me and lied to me. Can I call them friends? Definitely they cannnot be soul mates. They are not. However, I admit that a tr ue friend can forgive. Can I forgive them for what they had done to me?! I am sure I am disappointed a lot. I would never do such a thing to anyone of them. I think the evil sleeps in everyone of us. It does. Especially it wakes up when people get together and then it is called collective ego. Collective ego is a very dangerous thing. Very dangerous. * Conclusion - most of the helpers had got pissed off after I thretened them with bad karma for changing my religion - I do not want to forgive them. I wish them the same punishment. - they resent and left me and only Erzsike and maybe some other left. - the place you live, your neighbours have much more importance than I had thou ght. It can have a significant influence on your life. 13th September 2011 Filthy dreams I did not sleep weel. I was woken up many times and deliberatly by so called en emies. I cannot remember my first dream. Then the next was with my parents. They were working something and my father started singing: esik eso. It was laud and it was not his voice. Maybe it was a woman's voice. I woke up as I heard him singing. Then I saw my brother. I was sleeping in a bed and he was in his own bed. It wa s in the same room. He came to me and complained about something and I saw his penis. His underwear slipped off of him. Again hungarian. I woke up. Then I had a dream with my father. I saw my hand and the skin was peeling off a nd then he started talking something. I got upset and cried out : tunj a pi*aba. He said : Te tudod.

Then I close to the morning I heard this: veres volt a kezem. My last dream was good. I saw two young couple. And I heard: Jo reggelt. I got up at 7.00 am. I had the notion somebod threatened them and it was Mr. Sianta. * Conclusion - I fail to understand why I am hated so much when I cannot remember hurting th ose people. I do not even know who they are. One of them is the former neighbour but I do not know the others. They have bee n doing this for a while and should stop it. Whatever I did to them cannot be so big that I deserve this. - I feel the need to solve my problems and I am thinking of seeing a sexual psy chologist who could help me dissolve my sexual traumas. - I have the feeling that Erzsike wants me to like my father as it is important . Those filthy people on the other hand want me to hate my parents. - If I could be programmed without my consent they could be as well. Why they d o not program those filthy people if they are causing harm regularly? 14th September 2011 Serious threatenings My first dream was some religious threatening in Hungarian language. I did not want to remember it. I was tired. I did not sleep well again. I had two mosquitos and some thretening dreams as well. so the threatening dream was a strong alpha dream. I was pushed down by a force and it lasted for maybe 30 seconds. It was some kind of threat. Then I heard a woman kindly telling me this: "Szeretnm visszakapni a ltsom". I am so sorry for the hopeless people who were a lie by a very cruel astute wom an. Lots of hopeless people were given a false hope. I understand their pain and misery but they must understand that I wish to be h appy and live a normal human life. I will not live very long thanks to DrO but that is fine. I did a lot of work a nd I wish to get married and I hope Reconnective Healing will heal my pretty damaged large intestine. Am I selfish? God can gift us and he does sometimes. Dr. Pearl was given a huge gift for free. He did not suffer. Probably did not even ask God for that gift. All I want from life is to catch up with life and enjoy those few years I have left on this Earth. I would be glad if I were gifted by some magical powers but I am rather realistic about life. I was not given much by life and it was damn cruel and hard. I do not want to be punished by anyone and people must und erstand that they were lied and they must not hate for being so ill and selfish. I deserve some happyness and a peaceful life. I have money worries and it would be nice to improve my health an energy level so that I could earn some money. Then I had some dream in which I was made understand that I am waiting for some thing for some woman. I also had a dream in which a woman was singing in Hungarian about me getting h ealthier. She was kind but a stranger to me. Then I had a dream in which a Slovak woman was asking for my credentials. We go t with the dream till I said my name. Then I had some suggestions that some people wished me HELL of a suffering. Why

? Probably because I did not heal them or because I refuse religion. I am not bad guy but I want to be independent of any religion because I do not see the value in it. ANd I am not the only one who disappointed. I had a dream in which Haris and Toth Karcsi were sitting next to me and Karcsi was talking to me but I did not pay attention. When I woke up I heard Can you forgive? I can forget and I want to forget all t hose dreadful things that happened to me. They want me to be happy and wish me to fix my life. They have never hurt me. I like them a lot. Fine lads. It seems that they contacted some kind DIP lady who could maybe change my desti ny? Is there a destiny? The thing is that I do not see their concern? What is their concern? This psych osomathic constipation can be improved either by a DIP or a good psychiatrist. Then I could have better stool and fix my life. I do not have a c urse and I really feel better and I am glad for that. * Conclusion - it is grim. Many people begin to see it what it is all about and how serious it can become !! They were irresponsible and frivolous. They played a game with my life ! It is their responsibility. I am i ndecisive. I nee to try the DIP way and then a sexual psychologist. A surgery may be needed to give a time for the grossly d ilatated large intestine to gain back its tone and shape. 15th September 2011 peaceful BUT! The first dream was a bit longer alpha dream in Hungarian language. The whole d ream was about cakes. The history of cakes or what. The filling of cakes and the proportion of the fi lling. 25% was mentioned. Then I woke up and I felt that I was given some Reconnective Healing but pretty weak. I have been very constipated. Magdi tanito neni. I had some dream in which we from school went to the Hungari an Slovakian border. I do not know why. These dreams are so insane and meaningless. They are just dreams for the mind. Then I had a dream set in the garden. I was sitting to a table and eating somet hing. I saw three other young people. Then I said: ako by som to ani nebol. Very interesting. In the background I saw young children. One was playing with fire. The others were throwing up and catching a young boy. Then I had another dream. It was a bout some women. They were talking English. I can remember eating fish as well. I had another very strange dream. I was lying ona bed a there were other peopl e on that bed. I mentioned some signal. It seemed to me that my brother was there but not sure. He was close to me so I got off the bed. I found myself in another bed. But then my brother came again close to me and l ied next to me. I talked to her in Hungarian language. I wanted him to move to another bed. He responded: ki akarsz toloncolni? (not t he exact quote).

For some reason I heard this told by a woman (maybe my mother) > "Az oldalamon akart kijonni." * Conclusion - They are absolutely confident and sure that it would happen. The church is r eady to take ownership of me so that they can make use of me to save their institution. - some astute people want me to feel bad and want me to remember the bad past. They are evil. 16th September 2011 full of threats and Mrs Isabella I had a lot of alpha dreams. I had a dream in which I was a child in the garden with my parents. I am quite sure Mrs. Isabella had the audacity to make me dream that. She reali zed how far I got from my parents and that I am not going back to them. So she wants me to feel like a child as a child can take up his parents' karma. How astute she is. She must have seen the past and she recreated the same envir onment. I really should get married. Then I had some dream about weather forecast. Etc. When I got up I realized how miserable she was. She really must be feeling sad that I visited DIP Sianta and he removed the curse and improved a lot of things. Some former school mates from elementary school are really pissed off me. I hea rd this : "Allandoan maszturbalgat". I saw knife as well. They threated me. They canntot kill me or hurt me. I a bit too imprtant. Somebody is pissed off that I do not speak Slovak. So what I am in Budapest. Wh at I see here is that many people are envious and what they envy is a dream of a sick old astute cruel woman. Somebody mentione F ekete Laci. I do not know who he can be. What am I to do with him anyway? Nothing. I like my nurses and I am sure I will help them I can. They have a real good he arh and I value such people. I love them. I saw WARNING. I did not want to see it. I could not sleep well as I was bombar ded with messages whicg they thought of important but to me they were just personal opinions of people who I despize. * Conclusion - my mother's karma is a real threat and I should figure out how to protect fro m it. 17th September 2011 evil plan ! My first dream was with Melinda (former school-mate) and some other persons. I saw a river and I had a camera and I saw some motor boats on the river. Unfortunately I saw my mother in a pram next to me. I woke up. Then I had anoth er dream. I was sleeping in a dark room in bed and I was sad this: az ordog napja megvannak szamlalva. Hm. I knew that my mother was in the room s leeping in a bed. Now I know why Erzsike tried me to get closer to my father. I failed. She knew

what woud happen. MY little me (I think it is mind) is rather evil. I saw myself walkng with a kn ife in hand. When I woke up I started a long selftalk. Obviously the mind needs to calm down and nobody can do it so they had to resort to my mother which was Mrs. Isabella's secret long awaited dream/. Now she has an excuse why. Beca use they need me to calm down. Definitely the want me to be a child. I am 31 and it is ridiculous that somebody at this age takes up his mother's ka rma. Fuck you. So they do not want to spoil their karma and they want to look all very saint a nd sinless. But their plan is evil and cruel. This is how they fabricate a bad man. Well, Jesus is similar. He did nothing on ly had some strange thoughts which was threatening to the regime. So they killed him. Pretty bad destiny. These asshols fear that I fall in love with a woman. That is their greatest fea r! Why? Because then I would be protected without any magic. And it would be all legal and nice. But they DO NOT want that happen !! Are the y not EVIL???? They do not wish a young man marriage and love. They are just evil and astute. And they probably consider themselves clean and innocent. I despize such hypocrats. I also can remember a dream in which I saw Mr. F. Hortai. I was worried that he would come to me. There were many people in a room probably a class and he walked up to each of the person and I was awaiting him to do the same bu t I felt worried and discomfortable. He is not a pleasing man. He is one of those hypocrats who asks other people to evil things because he is a strong believer and simply he is too religious to make sin. So he asked my former school mates and other young people to hurt me. He despiz ed me to the nurses and they cursed me and probably he enjoyed it a lot. WHat kind of man he is? Of course he did nothing he just made others to sin. Do es not evil do the same? Evil seduces as in order to misbehave. He did the same. Very evil like. Definitely not a straight personality. A kind of person who does backbiting instead of telling you into your face what he has on mind. I had asked him many times to get the fack from my life as I do not like him. I did again. I said I did not hate him but cannot stand his face. Sorrry. Simly there are pleasing persons and less pleasing persons. He is one o f the latter. I guess he is eavesdropping regularly despite asking him not to do it as I do not wish to be spied and watched by people who are not my frie nds. He cannot respect me and neither can I but I have at least the decency not to spy on him. I wish I could forget him forever but he just keeps coming back into my life and I simply cannot get rid of him. What he wants me? Is he waiting till someone kicks his buttock? He is immodest. Then I had another dream in which my mother was fondling me like some child, Sh e loves it and she cannot or does not want to see that I am 31. They could feel very pleased about my misery. Erzsike is a nice woman and full of love but she judged me and very much. I did not deserve such a punishemnt. I learned the lecture and now I really should fix my life but they would not re move my mother's karma. So astute they are. And my mother would not see a DIP so stubborn she is. What I realized is the yesterday's attacks. What made them so upset? Well, my c lear seeing of the evil plan! I saw clearly what Mrs. ISabell wants to achieve. And I knew shw cannot use black magic because now she is watched by al

l kind of so religious people! And I realised how weak is her plan and it UP TO ME to mess up her evil plan. So I said buddhism is nice but they practice it in a very peaceful environment. Her in Europe there are really evil people and as Bert Herllinger said we have to fight. We really have to fight sometimes otherwise we are going to loose. My not simply task is to get a girlfriend ASAP and survive till the DIP session. I am sorry my mother refused the DIP session. She is a bit evil I guess. I joked a bit. I said a proper man fights. Gets into fights in pubs, drinks alk ohol, gets drunk and fucks women. Only a woman can help me become a proper man. Where can I find such a woman? Ho w can I fight back that awful karma. They want to damage my mind, my memories. They know what it is all about and they are just watching it and probably feel so satisfied as the evil plan works and they did not have to spoil their karma. But I must be strong and I fight and protect myself. I aslo said that a proper man or family man would have kicked Mrs. Isabella's a ss. I mean it. That would be the minimum to kick her fat ass. She kept me waiting because my mother's karma simply needed time to ripe!! It i s about to threat somebody and I do not want to be that guy. I said her only luck is that she is woman. Otherwise I would have beaten the sh it out of her. She made me procrastinate the psychotherapy and she kept me waiting and she lie d everyone about some miracles. ANd some believed her. Now everybody knows she wants me to suffer and wants me to hurt. It is not my k arma. It is not my punishment, My mother was bad she refused my help now she is going to suffer. I don't care. She does not deserve my love. She has hurt so many times that is just unbelievable. And she cannot threat me like a man. Unfortunately I cannot hate her as Mrs. Is abbela asked DrO to reprogram my mind. Is this moral? Is this a forgiveness? She never admitted her mystakes. She is t oo big headed. Not much time has left unfortunately. I was a fool that I did not go to a psych otherapeut and did not take Mrs. Erzsike's advice. It was hard for me in Slovakia. She really adviced me to seek a very good thera peut. And it is nearly imporssible in the country I was born. Now it is absolutely impossible to start such a work. And yes, it was a huge m istake to cancel the session with Mr. DIP Sianta. They lied me again. I do not know if lying someone is a sin but if was God I de finitley would punish lies seriously. I am fed up with lies and people who keep lying and cheating and manipulating o thers. I hate them. Lie is a feature of evil. Evil wants us to make bad things and cheats us and seduces us. Then we suffer i nstead of evil. What a non fair play game. It is not fair. The nurses are on my side. They showed human kindness and no judgement from th e very first second. They respected me and felt sorry for me. I am very greatful and pleased to have met them. Such people are innocent and f ull of love and deserve heaven, They are not asstute and do not want to hurt anyone. I love them and respect them. I said I owe them and I definitely w ould help them. Be kind and the kindness returns to you. They were wise and have a good nature. God bless you kindest nurses. Now it is clear that Mrs. Isabella wanted me to move abroad so that I would not

meet an ethical DIP such Mr. DIP Sianta. He is a good man and like such people. I may not respect him because I do not k now him but he is a realyable man and has good heart. Conclusion I must survive till the DIP session I need to ask the DIP to clean my mother as she is toxic. wonder would do it. If not I mst ask her to make hate my mother or I need som e protection against karma. - sex helps a lot. My sexual life makes them upset as it is a medicine against karma from parent's. It is better than nothing. - sleeping is very dangerous. I wish I did not have to sleep at all. It would s uch a nice thing to sleep consciously. - good human relationships help to anchor my sould and strenghten my power. The question is where do I find in a city of 1 million people some companioship???? It is pretty easy in India. 18th September 2011 severe threats and outlook to the future My first dream was some kind of programming to respect women or what. I had some commmunication with some women (I had never met them before). I was asked: Hasznalati targynak tartod a noket? I said no and I had never hurt anybody in this life. I said I could prove it to her she just must contact me. Then I had a dream in which I was sitting on a chair which was in a reat height . So I could not jump off it. I saw some threats to make me warn. It turned out that there is some evil in me and it does not like women only sex . I had felt it once (one month ago or so). It is a problem. It was a mistake to remove all sins. Many people find their di seases bad and not fair play but I say it has a reason. Unfortunately suffering is the only cure these days as love is an utopi in this world.\ I was given some insight into the future. I was not recommended psychothreapy! I would loose my mind or identity. I can anticipate some waves of attacks and it would make me cry. I need to find some friends but it is damn hard. SImply I cannot find any suitable English language course. I was warned that some people from Hungary would use corporal punishment and ca tch me in real life !!! They said I need to go away. I do not know if I can trust them or not. I am realistic, however. I have an ag enda and plan. Once I get my advanced certificate I get the fuck out of this place. It could be Bangkog. The exam is on the 7th December 2011. I was said by Mrs. Isabella that I would not be married if do not know what. We ll, well so it be. I can accept even that. I was showed a bunch of nice elder women who help me and work as a firewall. Th ey simply control my mind to interpret things differently. I see angry dogs instead of peopl etc. I am very thankful for them. They have b een creating a beautiful positive karma. They must be happy as they can help. I was strictly prohibited to watch porn, and violent movies and to tolk to enem * I

ies. In my dream I saw a beautiful young woman who studies French ot teaches. I said I wanted to study French. It was love and smile. I woke up. I was recommended to move to Szombathely. I checked on the net. They have a mod ern prison. It was a joke. I saw a young woman as well who said : nagyon komolyan vettem a harmoniat. all right. I'll ask the DIP lady what am I to do. They force me to undergo psychotherapy a nd Erzsi neni does not want it. SHe is right. I have a well functioning mind and it would be a mistake to loose it. I want to study more. I feel the need. 19th September 2011 continuing My first dream was not a dream I only remember somebody talking in Hungarian. S he was talking about herself when she was born. She had a twin who died and had some problems with head etc. I felt bad and I h eard : a francba. My firewall could not neutralize entirely the threat. It is backbiting. They know I have some issues and they use it agai nst me to crush me. Then I had a dream in which my mother was talking. She mentioned she was in alp ha and she saw some sausages. This time they use against me my compassion. They want me to take my mother's k arma. I was recommended to join some community as marriage is not in prospect. I hear d Miskolc for instance. I was thinking and I must admit, there are very strong communities such as army , rock-climbers, free-fall parachutist. Such a small team of people is strong because they have a shared experience whi ch involves fear of death or the threat if death. Unfortunately they must be fit. I saw in my dream the director of Trnava hospital. He wanted to speak to me. I was upset and did not talk to him. I woke up. Later I realized who he had bee n. I despize them because they want to save their ass. Basically if commit suicide the case would be investigated and they would have some great troubles why they did not surge me with this very severe condition. I thought of commiting suicide but there must be some other solution. I would l ike to win some large amount of money and move to Australia and never come back. My soul was pretty upset I can remember a dream in which I was talking badly ab out Mrs. Isabella. She is an awful cruel person and the greatest lier. All she did is to make me w ait till my mother's awful karma gets ripen. Basically this was her goal. She lied about miracles etc. * Conclusion - one solution I was recommended is to join a strong community. They power of t he community would save me from karma.

- the second is the surgery. Dr. Dobrovodsky admitted he was wrong. Yes, he was . He kept waiting me for nothing and I lost a lot of precious time. - psychotherapy has become a non feasible as it would mess up things a lot. I h ave a well functioning mind and an ill body. At least I should keep my mind sane and make use of it to make a living. I cann ot use my body to earn money, I'm not well built, I am skinny. - many people who subconsciously want to die take up risky sports such as climb ing etc. The truth is they want to die but do not know. Is that suicide in their case if they happen to die? Is it punished? 20th September 2011 continuing Yesterday I attended a Buddhist teaching session on karma near Keleti Palyaudva r (Orszgos Meditcis Kzpont). I saw a lot of beautiful young women there. I got back at 11 pm. My first dream was very strange. An old woman was talking to me in Hungarian language. I had the feeling that she was preparing me for visiting a princ somewhere in M onaco or what. A woman. She asked me to kiss her on her lips. I did but did not want. It is awful. They are mad. Blithering idiots. Then I was listening to receive some messages. I did receive. I was said that I would have some health issues. It was a woman but do not know who. I was said to use my head to look round me and I'll find a solution. I was said also that everyone is responsible for himself. I asked for something concrete. I was showed a dream in which I had the feeling that it was by Szilvia Varagya. She is not married as far as I know. Why? She was into me at elementary school. I was asked what I feel when I think of marriage. I said it was past. It was th e result of the curse. The bottom line is I think that I really should find any woman ! Any ! I should at least try. Yep. At least. Close to the morning I had a strange dream. I got a question regarding HTML. I saw HTML code and a question. I then heard music (rock) and a chubby younger man who was in a room and back t o me. He said: slovenksy narod. SOmeone spreads rumours and I do not like this. They could be disappointed late r. * Conclusion - It would be nice to find a girlfriend so that she would not let anyone to tak e ownership of me.d 21th September 2011 In my dream I saw three dogs. I fondled them. I saw a young woman coming near to me but then I saw Lapaj (the big dog) being angry and chasing something. Then I saw the two dogs who I fondled. In t he end I was sitting on top og the big dog like Maugli

and I said to my father that we must shoot this dog. I said it because the dog had been violent and in real life it was a bit unreliable. I had some short dream with beautiful artificial PC game showing a countryside . I saw helicopters. Etc. Again I felt the presence of my father. Later I remembered and praised the dre am. I said the dreamer was creative :). Then I had a strange dream which made me very disappointed. I saw Sztarovics a nd Melcsi. Sztarovics said he wanted to become a priest and said this : "Kenyeret ltok benne.". He then got scared as he realised that I was aware of the dream. He quicly man aged to steer the conversation away, he said: mutasd meg sth. I got up and I started a not really nice despizing talk. I had been asking for countless times to accept my religion. I find it astute and a sort of backbiting. This is exactly what I dislike abou t Catholism. The lack of respect towards other religions and the pushy way to spread and the efforts to control and get rich. To dictate what c an be and cannot and strictly speaking it is all about what you must do and must not do. So it is good for karma. But modern people are not so bad that they need such a list. We have moral and I believe most people have enough love in themselves to not hurt anybody or ask for sex a married womna. It is aging. People nowadays need to know how to get healthier and they want t o get answers not dogmas. They are interested in improving their life situation firs of all. And they need a good working recipe. The Bible lac ks the recipes how to heal your body. We have esoterism fot such things. Yoga, brain controll and all sorts of energy healings. People believe that we are to help each other and improve this planet. People such as Sir. Bill Gates are truly determined to improve lifes of those who suffer and have little chan ces. We all must do this. It is happyness to help others. It is a great guft to be able to help. Not everyone is able to help and that is not much hap piness I am sure. I digressed. So I said that most people are like sheeps who accept everything that is in the Bible and they are follow it blindly. Both got upset and I was said to be ashamed. I argumented with the fact that I had asked kindly to not talk about religion. They did not respect my whish. It is a disappointment when somebody cannot res pect your wish. I said religion caused a lot of suffering in Earth. Huge sufferings were inflicted because of religion. Many children had to endur e sexual abuses in church. I said Catholicism is not an elite group. Not even buddhism but they cannot accept critics and they are still violent. T hey just fight to maintain their religion. Buddhism is totally different. It gains more and more people because it is all aout freedom and asking questions and arguing. Buddhism is not mandatory and exactly that is what appeals to young people. Th ey can visit teachings get together and it is a good feeling to feel the love and acceptance. It is for young people. When you enter a chuch you se e elder people there and it is rather dark and cold. I love Buddhism becasuse it is about equality and true respect and humility. T hey are not perfect but I personally like such gathering for the reason that finally I can be with people who are like minded and like hearted. They could have went off Catholicism. Young people are critical and open to new things. They see that Catholicism is not the best recipe to imrpove their health and m any people these days simply left the church beacause of those dreadful sexual abuses inflicted on children. Many people do not want to have anything to do with such people. It is egoism in a way as they cannot forgive it. Basically I hate to separate people. There are we and the others. I wish there

was no religion at all. Only good moral and law. religion is many times a separation. It is many times a feeling of superiority or being more moral. Naturally I asked for forgivness but I really really do not want to be bothere d by religion any more. Sorry. I simply cannot see where they had got the audacity to do this to me. I have little true friends. I know. I should va lue those true friends and I have been learning more about the value of true friendship. Unfortunately this world is so bad, cruel and false that we n eed friends. It is hard to find good friends. At least I find it hard. I hope to make some friends among Buddhists. They forgave me. I like Melcsi a lot. I cannot hate her. I love women with lit tle ego. I love such women. It is peace and respect. I wished them all the best and congratulated to Szatrovics for his young daugh ter. He is lucky. I respect his profession. It is nice to shape the future of young people. But I am an adult and I have some human rights. Please respect m y religion and forgive my foolosh ego. You probably have no idea what it feels like when somebody attacks your religi ous views and personality and does it from your back. It feels like you are not respected as a human and when it is done by a former school friend a deep disappointment. I am glad that I am not the only Buddhist and that it gains some popularity am ong young people. Many brain controllers think they can do everything. THey feel superiour compa red to those who are not yet Brain Controllers. I can tell from my experience that it is bad to send all sort of things to peo ple who you do not love !!! It is a sort of violence. It feels bad that you are not given help in a respec tful way but you are being manipulated by others and you feel helpless. I might have done the same or even worse in my previous life. Now I know it is bad. We should not play Gods. People tend to gain power and exploit it to feel even better. It's not love at all. I find moral and ethics very important especially when there is no or little love in this world. And there is hardly any love in this world. I know. So I repeated myself and said religion is Tabu in my mind. Also sex. It is tab u. I do not want these meaningless arguings about religion which only generates separation and hatred and furore. Religion is a strong identity . I do not mind if Buddhism is criticized at all. It is not my identity. It is my way of life, my ethics my guide my viewpoint to the world. There are many viewpoints and it should be a personal choice of everyone. No religion is perfect at least not to me. But I am smart and pick the good th ings from everything and use it to help myself. Close to the morning I had dream about ice hockey! I felt many people. Slovkas . It was DrO who tries to give me a big belief that I am some master etc. It is all astuteness. I do not owe anything to Slovakia as a country and I sai d I have my own plans. I would like to be a teacher of English language in Asia. I have just had some thought about what Sztarovics and Melcsi did. They risked that I would be punished. I had been warned that waves of attacks are likely. I was not told the reason. Sztarovics must have known about it and

YET he risked it and now it could happen. It is his responsibility! He could have encouraged me to take up Buddhism as it makes me feel happy. NOP E. It is only selfishness. Those who love me wish me only those things that I dream about and want. They should wish me better health and a good marr iage. But these people want me to fulfil their dreams not mine. How dare they are! I am gravely disappointed and a bit angry as he put me on r isk. He put me on risk only to influence me. I am nobody, unhealthy and he puts me on risk on top of that so that I should be feeling even worse. Sorry, but you just fail to see the astuteness of your own ego. You are blinded. Ice hockey. * Conclusion - I was pretty sure that I had been suggested such words as "Imadkozzunk, etc. " I call it fanatism and disrespect of my personality. I like psychologists more and more as they show great acceptance towards their patients. - A lot of people are sure it will happen as it had been envisioned. I am inde cisive as to what to do. - I want to keep my ego and be humble. I hope I can reach a health state which would allow me to work and make a living. - I like the freedom of choice. It is great to have a choice. I love democracy . - unfortunately there are still dreams intended to hurt me

22th September 2011 * begging and trying to persuade some threats sort of punishment I was given but it did not work as I had a painful finger s o it was not fearful. I heard and felt that I was guilty. Nurses felt sorry for me for what had happened the day before. They said they were my friends. I was pleased. In my dream I was in a school class and I saw Puha Attila there. He showed aga in a computer. I said to him to get away. I had asked him month ago but he might have a short memory. He is not my friend. I had another dream in which I was sitting in front of a computer and I talked how PHP was good and similar to C. I knew there was Toth Roland there. He then touched my ear airplane a woman asking for my home. I replyed Slovakia. some blaming and trying to make me feel bad for other's suffering. I heard: a little girl has been developing cancer and tumors. I am sorry. I has been the case for hundreds of years. Some threats such as my father would die soon. Some despizing thoughts such as : tvoja matka ma kralika. * Conclusion I need to live my life and accept that I am not healthy and by very greatful a nd thanful for what I have including current health. I am greatful to be alive to be able to learn and study what I want. And it co uld improve and I could find a soulmate who would be comassionate. I find it very rare that someone who is healthy is compassionate. It very rare . Chronicaly ill or thos who suffered a lot show much more compassion and understanding anf have less expectations and more acceptance wh ich is almost true love.

So I feel better with those who suffered because they are simply and do not ju dge or demand something from me. And it is great to encourage them at least they need somebody not like many healthy woman who do not really need anybody just kids and money.

23th September 2011 serious threats and anger from Mrs. Isabella My first dream was about doing me an anbomdiman X-ray with contrast liquid. Th e bottom line is that it will go wrong and the surgery is necessary. I was said : "It can be avoided". Very astute. No, it is fine. It does not wor k at all. I received dreams in which I was told again about young children who are ill a nd if we can allow this. I said no. They play with my consciousness. Then I got a touchy dream in which I received info about my bro. He had been a t hospital with nerves and he had been beaten up by doctors. Wow. After a few seconds I realised that she wants me to hurt and definitely o pts for the psychotherapy which I refuse. She is getting more and more angry as the future is diminishing and then it wo uld mena that shw would have to pay for all the suffering she caused. And she is evil. Very evil. She has invested so much amoral deeds so far and n ow it looks that she achieved nothing at all. I am quite sure the lady who caused all this problem after I visited DIP Siant a is Mrs. Horvath. I said she did a bastard job again!!! She again hurt me and this time very very much. I am upset to her a lot. She s aid she loved me but I do not need her love. I need peace from her. I am fed up with people who do things without my permission. I saw Mr. Hortai. I was sitting to a table and he was talking about some digit al toyes. I did not feel anything negative towards him. * Conclusion - so it turned out that there would be a surgery or an failed attempt to remov e the somatised trauma - in both cases the hospital is guaranteed - I was said to visit DIP Sianta. 24th September 2011 Yesterday I felt weak and went to bed in the afternoon. During the sleep I had very negative thoughts. The problem is really that I wander when I sleep and I pick up negative though ts from lower worlds. I have no idea why. But it has to do something with my black hole DIP Sianta mentioned. I had dreams with Varagya Szilvia. It looks like she is still interested in me and would marry me?! I did not see her only felt her soul. It was almost a feeling when I felt when DIP DrO removed the sin for killing some children and it was replaced by I need a child. Then my soul was happy and laughing. I was said in Hungarian that I would have a CHOICE and that they hope I will m ake it. Does it look like I do not have a choice now because of karma.

Szilvia said we would drink brwown beer in Bratislava. She seems to be living there. I aslo had a dream in which I bought a lot of things and I dropped in front of her and it was as a pack of preservatives. I started laughing a lot. I felt fine. They said to me that I need to remember the connection. This makes be worried a lot. I am still in dannger of my mother's karma. Will the DIP lady remove it or it is impossible? IS this so called marriage offer true or they just want to make me believe in order to save me. Today I had very very little energy and I got up from the bed in the morning w ith serious neck ache. I did not sleep well and my neck is stiff and I can hardly turn my head. I am in pain all day. In the afternoon I had to go to bed as I had no energy and in my dream I was s howed the Dalai Lama and then I sent energy but later I was made to think of Mrs. Isabella. She thinks I am her toy or what. I am no t her toy. I had asked her countless times that she cannot think of me. I do not want to do anything with this woman at all. She lied and made my life a hell. SHe is the woman who rouned my life. She is astute. All she cares about is her own karma.. Nothing else. She wants to destroy me completely. She wants me to suffer like hell. Just awful. * Conclusion - it looks like they know the hospital is a fact and I will have a choice of m arriage - the best woudl be to do NOTHING but survive till the end of the year. Why? B ecause. 25th September 2011 She threated me not to defy myself and that it would not hurt ! How dare she wa s. I was sent a dream almost sure by Erzsike. It was in the garden. Somebody was n ext to me and gave me a rifle and spoke English. I aimed with the rifle to the sky. Then another weapon I tried. Then I saw the old dog called lapaj and three donkeys. The dog was killed by the donkeys. I walked up to the dog and was dying. I want ed to shoot it with the weapon to end his suffering. I was given the notion that I would need a weapon to protect myself. I had another dream in which I saw many my former school mates. I heard sort of a music resembling the anthem and a woman looking like Erzsike was speaking. I realized that I must be silent. So I was standing and saw Sztar ovics next to me. Erzsike spoke as I was a refuge. I had said I escaped here into this country. She asked what refugees must do fi rst. I recignised to deal with the inner. It was a fake dream. THey want me to deal with my traumas but nope. I am not go ing. I have everything I need. The surgery is unfortunately needed. Someone will pay me for this definitely. A wfully shitted my life.

I had a dream in which I knew that I had 400 000 skk more money. They just give me shit but how can I believe in dreams when I live in reality? A dream telling me that I should eat only soups. * Conclusion some people are going mad. That which is the worst. Obsessed and cannot give me peace. Constantly manipulates me and sends me dreams. Ignores every wish of mine. This is gonna hurt her. - the best for me is the surgery 27th September 2011 I again got a manipulative dream in which I saw my mother who had some mishap w ith the hot bioling water. I helped her but quickly realised what it was all about. I heard a woman's voice saying in Hungarian this: goldol kozz ugy, mint a korhazban. Well, well. She is obsessed and wants me to manipulate or what. I feel bad and I hate myself that I did not start the therapy much more sooner. I have learned a lot and the warning sign was on the day when I was given the D eeksha. Now it seems to be too late. It is a fucked up situation. Before this dream I had a dream in which I visited my parents who had a lot of food and I felt great. They want me to persuade that such a suffering is worth and I would not got mar ried without it. They lie to me. I can be sueged. Today I sent the letter to Trnava. I hope to get a response so on. I am a bit angry because I was reluctant and I wasted a lot of time with that asshole DrO. He did a lot of bad things to me. I was warned n ot to visit him again. All I wanted is to day goodbay to him and giv him the beer. He hurt me at the same night with an astute idea what wou ld happen. He knew what would happen and he did it so that I would get into troubles. * Conclusion - th DIP needs to do this: 1. check my mother and remove all major threats and karmas 2. help me find a woman 3. give an advice how to solve the problem : shall I start psychotherapy or nor ? 4. absolutely it is necessary to isolate my mind from that which !!! very impor tant. she keeps bothering me and I am simply tired. 5. Ask her if she could recommend a stronger DIP to help me better 6. what is the prognosis for me? Can I avoid them, how. 28th September 2011 I was programmed again by a DIP. I can remember the Bible. To love it or what. And I had an idea that in one day I can earn as much as 10 000 Euro. They want me to be rich. I do not want to be overly rich. I want to be well off . It is a bit serious. When I woke up in the middle of the night I could remember talking that I want to heal people. They want me to grasp that idea. They want me to want it so that they can pray for it to happen. But I do not want to heal everyone as it is impossible!!

These people are mad, fanatic, hypocrats and could become seriously dangerous. They talk all bullshit about freedom and love and the truth is that the hate an d judge and speculate and make others do things onstead of letting me to live the way I want. I had a dream with Varagya Szilvia and Melinda. Varagya let me know she needed someone who is not a shy guy. She gave me some coins to make me feel low. She feels resentful towards me and despized me. She has not bad heart only a b it big ego. Melcsi on the other side is an angel. She sat next to me and gave me some gifts . She mentioned Ogyalla (town) and Friday. Hm.. Then I woke up. Before that I heard Besztercebanya and biblia and that it is nice etc. People cannot respect my religion and wish which was never mention religion and anything connected to it to me. They fail to respect my WISH. And I am frustrated. I had a dream in which I was talking to some Slovak guyes about technical matte rs. I guess the guy was from Kremsa Design Slovakia. So it seems that my code was inspected by them. I had asked the contact person to give me some feedback and they thought that would do it. I heard: zrusim. What if they offered some employmene t to me? I do not like such way of communication but this world seems to be accomodated to it. Then I can remember phoning to probably a psychotherapeut (the one I had been r ecommended) * Conclusion - the surgery is a viable option in this mad world where you just cannot think what you want. 29th September 2011 programming Strange dreams I had. I had a dream in the garden. I can rememeber rain and ta king pictures. Then I can remember a warning 18 an middle east. They are concerned that I wou ld have sex with someone younger than 18. It was a DIP and energy was set up as well as I am very weak. I had some dream in Hungarian in which I saw some small statues. But they fall apart. I criticized again why they could not leave their religion at home. I had some despizing dreams already and it was in Hungarian. With parent. I had a concrete dream in which a man said: Eltorott a mecses? They know the future because of the astute ugly old which.

I can anticipate attacks. Why ? Probably the DIP session will be succesful. What is their aim? To get me into hospital. Will they succeed? Who knows. * Conclusion - It looks that I should opt for the DIP help to get rid some of the traumas a nd then go for the surgery. 30th September 2011 The day before I was in Nitra to see Ing. Barbirikova. She did little and I do not know why. She felt fear I am sure. But she was kind and loveful. I gave her my mother's date of birth and she diagnosed things with her hand instead of the virgula. She said my mother had : - ma anexiu (nasilne pripojeni, privlastnovanie deti) - she was cursed - and she cursed me - cela nervov. She removed the curse from me She promised she would remove as well. (5th October: She did nothing a DIP. The DIP did not want to but did nothing more. the curse from my mom and hopefully the bad karma that is why she asked me 1 Euro. She is not even see me. )

1th October 2011 programming Yesterday I phoned to DIP Sianta's manager who said was on holiday so I had to call DIP Sianta. I did call him near midday but he was reluctant and serious. He said I had cancelled the appointment and that he had working so she adviced me to call him later arouf 15. I did but he did not pick the phone. Then he called me back later after 17 o'clock. He gave me an appointment for ne xt week 9 am. He voice was not so serious than before. He is a good man and hopefully dareful enough. I have no idea what would he say . He may refuse to help me but definitely he should help my mother. It is amazing that Mrs. Isabella wanted me to suffer with a curse on me and wit h a curse on my mother and with a bad karma. Despite without a curse that future is still in prospect. And I am sure after DIP SIanta has cleaned my mother it will not disappear. So it looks that she wanted for me unnecessary suffering and it is just cruel. I was programmed again by some DIP. I protested after and later I heard: Hajzel ! They are angry. I had some cars in my dream then I had short dream in which I saw the Hungarian parliament and Drogan Antal standing. The suggestion was that nobody would take him seriously and that the forint would remain low. I find these people ridiculous. They stil l se enemies and they are fear driven. Millions of people suffer of cruel diseases but the m ost important thing for these assholes is politics and some Mr. Drogan.

How ridiculous and utterly miserable. They do not trust love or God. They do no t trust me. They do not want to give my freedom. What I want it respect and freedom. I have high moral and I am sure God has as well. I am not going to be famous or have anything to do with politics. That anticipated future may wanish. Definitely I should consult with a professi onal psychotherapeut. And get familiar with the options I have. There are fortunately a few path to the same destiny but it does matter which w ay we choose. There are more difficult ways and less. I shall find the less difficult path. * Conclusion - ask DIP Sianta to clean my mother's future and the curse - defense against Mrs. Isabella and DrO. - continue with the the improvement work because ther is to improve - ask him about the psychothreapy - tell him the surgery and ask him WHY?? - ask him what kind of awful suffering is in prospect even after removing my cu rse.?????! 2th October 2011 programming and the truth revelaed Yesterday in the evening before the computer screen I started thinking about wh at DIP Barbirikiova had said about DrO. She should not have said that. WHen I thought of DrO I felt energy and it made me feel worried. The problem is him actually. My first dream was without visuals. I can remember some music and some thoughts about Austria and anthem. The next dream I remember was supposed to be a bribe. I saw a young English spe aking lady but somehow I knew she was France. She invited me to dance and etc. I woke up. I was not flabbergasted by the dream. I knew it was some illusion. Then I had a dream in which I was sleeping in my room and I heard the msg that MrsI was there. And I heard: boszorkany. I got upset and said get out. She was there or somebody as I felt that moved my right hand to hurt myself or what. What made them upset is the way I asked them to bugger off. I said: get the fuc k out from my life forever. That could have made them upset. Then I had some dream in which I was waiting in front of a lavatory and I had t o piss. Mr. Gorcsi (former school mate from elementary school) was there. I was nervous a bit as I had to piss but I had to wait. He said: Ussed (beat). Then I had some dreams and I saw knife in my hands. etc

a lot of thoughts and visions about eating and cooking Dro made me hurt my father in my dream. I wanted to hit him with a cutting boar d and threated him to obey law. I do not know if it was real. I heard "curak" aft er. It was an unconscious dream. I heard : "I can bid farewell to my personality". I have just remembered I seriously threated DrO that he might be punished by an yone from heaven. I asked him to stop it and I said I had chose peace and love. They do not seem to stop it at all. They look forward for my suffering. Just cruel. Simply humn cruelty in the 21th century. Human unsonsciousness.. * Conclusion - the bottom line is that some people are frivolous and want me to do bad thing s. They sort of play and do not realise that hurt themself. It is still karma as t hey have an intention and it is bad. They feel a joy to rile others. It is so sad. - I hope to get the permission for the surgery 3th October 2011 I visited DIP Sianta. I started with my mother and he simply digressed. He managed to steer the conversation away from my mother. Certainly I had been programmed earlier to not oppose him. 4th October 2011 Mad programming There was heavy programming during the night. I recognised the trick. DIP Siant a had been taughed what to say to me so that I would trust him. He lied to me about his cancer he had a year back. It w as a special trigger. He used triggers. These guys want me to tell their bullshit publicly so that others would believe them. Like that there are 9 paralell worlds. I do not give a fuck. I am also sure they want me to go back to Slovakia. Well Well. * Conclusion - they want me to become Cristian and work on it heavily. It is a serious crime . - they threated me with a curse if I have removed my mother's. I wonder if it i s true and whose curse it is. Is it true? - I pissed them off so they did evil programmin such as no mastrubation (the wo rld Faj) , and no SEX and no rules they want to eliminate the printed sheet of rules. They replaced it with no rul es. It is fanatism and evil. They create an awful karma for themselves. It is viole nce and a serious crime. - they want me to become violent and feel bad so that I could take my mother's karma. Very astute - I had been warned that my personality would be very different. I am sure the reason is that they want me to look inferious to Jesus - I decided to publish this document now on Scryble - I mentioned I could join Jehovas. They would go mad about it but could not do

anything. I do not give a shit to them. - The real solution would be to get married and ignore my mother. It is her kar ma she refused help and she hates me. - I was thinking of moving to Thailand but it is not easy to find a job. - So far no trauma has come out and I believe they had made it up. I know about all traumas and I have no problem about them. - thanks to immoral people I am still in trouble. The DIP in Nitra did not even come she sent her manager who did NOTHING!! Although I had been offered help (serious help such as lottery etc) I do not kn ow who was that. I only know one of them is from Prague. - today I made an appointment with Dr. Dobrovodsky i Trnava - the best would be to get lost somewhere unknown and cheap such as India or Ba ngladesh - I definitely need to see a moral DIP - they really thought I would be so stupid to go back to DIP Sianta. - I shall wait and see if my intestine improves without a nerve collaps. I am c urious what would happen. Then I may find a moral DIP or get employed or leave the whole continent I called M. Palcso's manager. She said she was in Wienna and I should call her on Friday. A pack of lies. 5th October 2011 serious warning to discourage me from something!! My first dream I remember was with a person in a wheelchair. He said he hated h imself and he was blind. Tears fell from my eyes. He spoke English but supposed to speak German. I woke up and I thought they want to train my compassion or what. I said they do not even know what true compassion was. COmpassion does not come from the ego therefore it cannot be programmed. They think compassion is a habit. Nope. It is a gift that happens and it is nev er the decision of the ego. I was disgusted again how dare they were to bother my privacy. I have been getting pissed off these hypocrats who are blinded by they own reli gion. They violate the constitution and democratic principles. They forgot that religions exist and can freely function only because of democr acy. Therefore I find it an outrage to disrespect my religion and freedom. I remebered the sentence form DIP Sianta: "Militantne chranit dobro je zlo". But I say: "Militantne chranit dobro je democracia". NATO and all these peace movements are evil?? Yes, but we have to protect democ racy. Noone can be punished without a court case. That is the democratic principle. We have the organs to punish only after a leg al and just court case. Bad things happened in the last century bacsue people were blinded by they big plans and most people just watched what was going on. Many people died without any real reason just because of an evil p lan about a better future. It was too late to wake up and counter attack the evil. Being irate I got an idea to contact a guy who mentioned remote programming and molestations and some civil organisations who may help. So I thught I would write him and email and ask for his help in order to clean out all these very religios people from my dreams because they just cannot respect my wish not to talk about religion. Then I had a better idea which was that I can declare officially my religion an d it would be an attested document. Why I fight this religion? Because I do not think I belong here. I have been reading books on buddhism and

hinduism for a decade and somebody comes and says you will be christened and talk like somebody religious? Nope. Sorry but such practices just cannot be tol erated in the 21th century. This violence and arrogance pissed me off that some astute and very selfish people want to use me and dictate me. Nope. I want to b e trusted. Trust me and respect me. I am a human but equal with everyone. Tolerate my views, opinions and religion. Everybody is responsible for his acti ons. Mistake happens but such a conscious and constant push is simply intolerabl e and sometimes as I see it as a crime. I had a dream in which I was sleeping in a warm home with kids and a couple. I felt so good. Really good. They wanted to tell me to find finally my own family. I want it. I really want. But unfortunately I am constipated. So this made some people upset and I was threat. Some started the attacks after wards. I was lying in a bed and woke up in my dream. I saw my brother and I saw my tig h with a large blister. I asked what? He suggested I had fell down and I was unconscious. I saw serious threat about death. All dreams were in Hungarian language which m akes me wonder why they hate me? I have no attacks in Slovak language. The nurses are worried. They are just my angels. So cute and good hearted women . I truly love them all. Thank you very much for believing in me and all your su pport. I was sent another dream from my friends. It was at a school. I got upset by Ju hasz Gyula who had eaten something greasy and the desk was full of spots and my rucksak as well next to the table. I shouted : "You do things without consideri ng the consequences. You careless.". Sure the intent was to warn me before I do something foolish. Yesterday I determined I was not going to hate my father and nobody would judge him. Only his close relatives can but I myself refuse to do it. I am grateful to him to give me good lecture and I needed it. I do not want him to be hurt or judged by anyone. Nobody is saint and I like him. These guyes have astute plans. Erzsi nni said she loved me. So do I. She is my master. I heard close to the morning: Rakoczi * Conclusion - I need to declare my religion so that I cannot have a religious funeral etc. - I CAN be healthy !! all is needed to cure my mother from the curse which can be done in a minute. NOBODY was willing to do it !!!! Mrs. Isabella knows about her curse for more than 2 years and all she has been doing is watching her suffering and how her health is diminishing. I asked DrO if she wa cursed and he replied no. These people are simply evil a nd cruel. What upsets me most is that I could have a beautiful and peaceful life and get married and do the things I want. To remove the curse from my mother. So little is needed. But they would not do it. They fear to HELP !!!! What kind of humanity is it in the 21th century that fears to help becasue a bunch of religious fanatists threat everyone. The futur e is about human kindness and helping everyone without discrimination. What is this sick movement that cannot see evil in the plan? Why normal thinkin g people with heart cannot help my mother and me?? - it is pretty ridiculous that religion is more important to them that HEALINGS

! They should be grateful for God to give this gift to somebody but they would not accept the gift without religion. What if God does not want religion?