DualityTheFemale

Nowthefunbegins!Let'staketheinformationinchapteroneandreplaceitwithitsnatural opposite.Wheredeathismentionedusebirthinstead.Wherespiritualismentionedusematerial instead.Inshort,createadocumentthatreflectstheoppositetypeofegoandpersonality developmentthandescribedinchapterone. Asatheorysupposethis"opposite"typeofegodevelopmentreflectsthenormal developmentalprocessforfemales.Let'sseeifthisisfeasibleandofinterest.Remember,the femininenatureexistswithinallofus,maleandfemale. AsastudyofdualitywewillpresumeDualityTheMalereflectsthenormalprocessof personalitydevelopmentinmales.Thisisjustanexercisetoseewhathappensandisnottobe takentooseriously. DualityTheMaledoesrepresenttheknownstagesofegoandpersonalitydevelopment knownthroughmysteryschoolsofthepast.Tryingtocreatean"unknown"or"hidden"opposite typeofegoandpersonalitydevelopmentisastudyintheconceptofduality."Ifsomethingis true,it'soppositemustalsobetrue." Nooffenseisintended.Itishopedadditionalinsightintothedynamicsofmale/female interactionsmaybediscovered.Itisalsointendedasanaidintheperceptionofdualityandthe energydynamicswithinmale/femalerelationshipsandloveingeneral.Withthisviewpointthe femaleisbornwithGoddessawarenesshavinganintuitiveperceptionofallthings.Sheisborn "psychic".

NeophyteDegree
Asachildshehastheabilitytoeasilyexpressherselfwithwords.Everyoneisstruckbyher innocenceandperceptivenessandtheylistentowhatshehastosay.Shewantstoshareher Goddessperspectivewithothers.Herwordsstingwithtruth.SheisaGoddesswithinachild's bodyandunderstandsallthingsarepossible.Goodthingscanhappentoeveryone.Sheis optimisticandhastheabilitytodowhatevershewants. Intuitivelysheknowsallkarmaresolvesitselfintheend.Shecanbecarefree.Asateenagerit iseasyandnaturaltorebelagainstsociallyacceptablebehavior.Herparentsbecomealarmed andrestrainherunmercifullytonoavail.Shelearnstomanipulatepeopleandpulltheirstringsto getwhatshewants. Emotionallyshehasnostronglyfocusedpersonaldesires.Sheflitsfromonethingtothenext insecondsandhaseverythingshereallywants.Shefeelsjoyandhappinessaseachwishis fulfilled.Lifeisgoodandsheknowsherdesireswillcometrue.Itishardtowait.Thereisno strongconceptoftimeandthedaysblurtogether. Shedreamsaboutherfuturelifeandwhatshewillbewhenshegrowsup.Shewantstobea brideandmarryaprince.Shehastotalcontroloverherdestinyatthispoint.WithherGoddess awarenessshecancreatethelifeshechooses.Sheisincontrol.Herintuitionishighlydeveloped andshecanseehowlongtermgoalswillworkout.Itisimportantshehasadreamtoinspireher

togreaterthings. Intuitivelysheknowsthereisnorightorwrong.Allthingsarepotentialsforexploration.She goesagainstherparentsandgetsothersintrouble.Shekeepssecrets.Thereisapathyand depressionbecauseofaninabilitytochooseonlyonedirectionoutofthemanythatarepulling herindifferentways.Shemighthavetroublegettingstartedbutstillshefindsgreatjoyandpride intheaccomplishmentsofothers. Culture,religion,andphilosophicalconceptsareveryconfusing.Sheappearsverynaive. Everythingseemstogoagainstherinnernatureandisnotharmonious.Sheistoldhowtothink andhowtoactandsheresentsit.Sherebelsandrejectsauthority.Theeldersareblind,theydon't understandwhatsheseeswithherGoddessperception. Peopleareborn,animalsareborn,plantsgrowfromseeds.Sheisfascinatedthatonedayshe willbeabletogivebirth.Whatwillitbelike?Wheredoesthebabycomefrom?Howcanthe miracleofbirthbe?Itseemsunreal.Willithurther? Herparentsandsocietytellhersexisbadbuthowcanitbebadifitproducesbabies?She intuitsthatsexisaneedforafulllife.Withthebeginningofherperiodssexbecomesaportion ofherlifethatcannotbeignored.Thesameistrueforthemoodswingsthatsurgelikewaves throughher.

ZelatorDegree
Shediscoversthatbyappealingtoothersshecanachievephysicalgoalseasily.Everyonewants topleaseher.Allnatureappearsbountifulandcooperative.Thereisenoughforeveryone.All shecandoisgoodandsheisimpersonallove.Shehaslightfeelingsofinnocenceand worthiness. Sheisnaiveandtriesweaklytoenterintophysicallife.Sheisinherearlyteens,theGoddess awarenessiswithdrawing.Shereactstophysicalandemotionalstimulus.Sheisturningherback ontheGoddesswithinandfacinganexcitingandunknownworldwithmentalawareness. Shenoticesothersarefascinatedbyherbody.Shecanwrapthemaroundherfingerbyteasing themandflirting.Sheadmiresherbodyandseekstobemorebeautiful.Shespendsherdaysin joy,experimentation,andcuriositylovingherself.SheisbecomingmoreofaGoddess. Natureandtheworldsurroundherwithlife,vitality,andsensuality.Sheidentifyswithit.She rejectsherspiritualnatureandacceptsphysicallife.Shehastolive.Lifeisajoyandareward. Shecandoanything.Allthingsarepossible.Sheidentifieswithaphysicalsensualbodyanda sharpinquisitivemind. Mindandbodyarehighlyintegrated.HerconnectionwiththeGoddessawarenessismental. Shedoesn'tneedtothinkaboutitanymore.Thereisasenseofbelongingandcompanionshipin socialactivities.Herintellectisbrilliant.AsshewithdrawsfromherGoddessawarenessshe looseshersourceofspiritualenergy.Spiritualgrowthcannolongerbedonealone. Shedoesn'talwaysgetherwayinthingsandgetsintotrouble.Asherspiritualenergyleaves, shebecomesincreasinglyinvolvedinwildemotionalcurrents.Hermentalclaritysuffersandher intellectandreasoningabilitygraduallydropastheyareoverwhelmedbytheemotions. Shewillseekcompany,laughwithgoodcompanions,andenjoythedelightsoftheworld.As

shebeginstodeliberatelyusepeopleshehaslesscompassion,becomescoldheartedandlonelier.

PracticusDegree
InspiteofalleffortssheloosescontactwithherspiritualGoddessawarenessasshegrows older.Attheendofthiscyclethereisnotevenanintuitionconnection.Whatsheisleftwithis herintellect. AtthebeginningofthiscycleshementallyidentifieswiththespiritualGoddess,butopens herselftoembraceallthings.ThisistrueGoddesslove.Sheactsthroughinstinct. Withthebeginningofherperiodsshebeginstorecognizethephysicalnatureinherself.All optionsareexploredtothefullest.Shelovesherselfandthewholeworld.Herbodyrejoiceswith eagerness.Everythingisright.ShehasenteredthephysicalrealmandtheGoddessisstill supremeasanidealalthoughunreachable. Thebodyobeysthemind.Shehasalltheanswersandunderstandsallthingsorthinksthatshe does.Allisselfevident.Thereisstabilityandpeace.Shehasnoexpectations.Everythingisnew andfresh.Allisfulfillment.Thisisthefirsthalfofthisdegree. Thesecondhalfismoredifficult.Shemovesfromapositionofempowermenttoapositionof weakness.Assensualityandtheemotionsbecomestronger,herspiritualGoddessnatureis dismissedcarelessly.Thereisgreatjoyinfreedom.Everythingisfreshandclear.Nointellectual fog.Sheidentifiesmoreandmorewithherbodyandherphysicalenvironment. Herbodycan'tbewrong.Itknowswhatisgoodforitornotgoodforit.Everythingisclear. Thebodycandealwithanythingthatcomesalong.Shetrustsherbodyoverreason.Herbody cangetherthingsthatherreasoncan't. Thisbirthofbodyconsciousnessaltersherthoughtprocesses.Abstractsymbolsbecome difficultandunimportant.Sheuseswords,emotionsandbodylanguage.Hernewbody awarenessisstrangeandshefeelstimidandshy,uncertain. Thephysicalselfbecomesunhinderedinitsattemptsatselfexpression.Itrushesforwardin totalcontrol.Shefeelsweakandpowerless.Allisagainsther.Thereisnopower.Shehasagreat desiretoaccomplishgreatthingsandbecomesomebodyatanycost.Sheplungesrecklesslyand joyouslydownthesteepinclineintosensualmaterialismtotallyforsakingallspiritualvalues.

PhilosophusDegree
HavingbrokenherconnectionwithGoddessshefeelsapprehensionandsorrowathersudden exposuretoahostileandthreateningworld.Shedoesnotfeelsafeandsecureanymore. Thisbeginsthebirthofthelowerhumanegobecausethephysicalworldandtheemotional worldaremorerealthanthespiritualone. Thereisasensethatallischaoticandsheisbesetwithcaresandworriesthatarealltooreal andclear.Everythingistoorealandtoophysical.Thereisnoescapefromthepresentmoment. Thisisthefirsteyeopeningexposuretothetrueterrorsanddelightsofthematerialworld.There

isnomoreinnocence,onlyawakening. Thisisatotallynewexperienceandagreatsenseofapprehensionandsadnessisfeltinthe fearofloosingone'sselfcompletelyinsensualityandmaterialism.Thereisthelureofbecoming lostinthepleasuresandsorrowsofthepresentmoment. Sheishesitantinusingherimaginationsinceshehassolittlespiritualandmentalenergyof herown.Itismuchharderthanbeforeandnolongercomesnaturally.Eventhoughshecarefully choosesherexperiencesshejustseemstogetindeeperanddeeperandcan'tescape.Shemight usedrugstoescapefromthepressuresofunrelentingreality. Thephysical,sensuallifeseductivelyluresherwithpromisesofgreattreasuresandrewards. Moreandmoretimeisspentinphysicalpursuitsuntilallofherenergyandfreetimeiscaught upinphysicallifeandinthepresentmoment.Shecontrolsotherslikepuppets. MentallysheidentifiesherselfasaphysicalGoddess.Sensualpursuitsarefunandshe exploresthemysteryoftoilandvirtueoflabor.Herearthenergiesareturnedtowardrelaxation, sociallife,andenjoyment.Totalhedonismistheonlywaytotrulyexperiencealloflife. Sheisinaprocessofdevolutionandstagnationandsoiseverythingelse.Shedoesonething afteranotherandnothingseemstosatisfy.Sheisbecomingjadedandseeksmeaninginlife. Littlebylittleshelearnsabouttheworldthroughexperienceandsensation.Thereisnospotfor hertofillorpathtofollow.Everythingbecomesmeaningless. Atsomepointshehasadramaticchangeofviewpoint.Sheisloosingtheabilitytobeaco creator.Herpersonalenergyisalmostusedup.Unlessshereceivesenergyfromsomeoneelse shewillretreatintoalifeofdulldrudgery.Ifsheisnotmarriedshebeginslooking.The biologicalclockisticking.Shecan'tdothisalone.Sheneedsapartner. Herwholeattituderemainsselfcentered.Shethinksofherselfandhowtogetthethingsshe wantsinlife.Otherscomesecond.Thisisatimeoftotalselfishness.Mentalabilitiesareatan alltimelowandsheisruledbyemotionsandinstincts.Shewillusepeopleruthlesslytogetthe objectsofherdesire.Shewillfindasuitablepartnerthroughcoldcalculationifneedbe.

AdeptusMinorDegree
Theentireworldspreadsoutbeforeherinrichnessandsplendor.Shecancarveoutofitwhatshe will.Forthefirsttimeinherlifeshefeelslikeshecanreachoutandmakealifeforherself,an empireorafamily. Sheisreadytoactandknowswhattodo.Shecanusepeopleasshewishestoachievewhat shewants.Itisherdream,herempirethatisimportantnow.Herselfcenterednessisabsolute andherdisciplineistremendous.Shecanaccomplishgreatthings.Thereisnomentalhesitation oruncertainty.Shecanseewithclarityexactlywhatneedstobedonetogetwhatshewants.She isamasterandcreator. Herbodycancreatelife.Sheissurroundedwithlifeandvitality.Allseemsfamiliarandsafe. Theworldisanecstasyofjoy,color,soundandbeautifulforms.Allissacred.Thereisnothing tothinkabout.Itisallhererightnow.Lifeisselfevident. SheistheGoddessaforceofnatureunstoppable.Sheunderstandsthekarmicneedfor excitement,thrills,andlifevitality.Alsosheunderstandstheneedforruthlessnessandviolence.

Whenharmonybecomestoodullandmonotonousshelivensthingsup.Shegivesinspiration toothers.Shetakeswhatsheneedsandothersletherhaveit.Shecontrolspeoplelikepuppets. Sheisintoxicatedwithpowerandisonfireformoreandmore.Sheisespeciallygivencontrol overthemeninherlifeandabletodirectthemandusethemtoachievehergoals.Theyare willingtogiveherwhatsheneedsandsheiswillingtoaccept.Shelivesentirelyinthepresent moment.

AdeptusMajorDegree
Atthispointshemustconfrontandbalanceoutanykarmashecreatedinpreviousyears.This isafinalharvestandaccountingwhereresultscomebacktoher.Hermotivepowerisgone completely.Ifshehasgoodkarmacoming,thistimewillbeablessingasotherscomethrough forher.Theynowrepayherkindnessinfullandgiveherenergyandvitality. Ifshehasbadkarmashemustpayitback,loosingallsheholdsdearleavingonlypainand sorrow.Sheidentifyswiththeemotionalandastralworldsofsenseandfeeling.Sheisridinga waveshehasnocontrolover.Thereisnoreasonformanipulationandcontrolgames.Those wereinthepast.Sheislivingtheresultsofpastactionsandsheknowsit. Shebecomesuninhibitedandcarelessofideals.Sheexperiencespuredesire,emotion,and thoughtgettingcaughtupintheintensityofthepresentmoment,butsheremainsboundbyher karmicchains.Insteadofconfrontingherkarmicchains,shemayrefuseanddoanythingto escaperealityincludingdrugandalcoholabuse.Sheisdesperatetogetrelieffromthestressof themomentregardlessofconsequences.Sheisblindedbyherego.Thisiswherethemost harmfulkarmaisgenerated. Thereisnoescapeandtherecomesatimewhenshegivesinandacceptstheconsequences thatarecomingtoher.Inowningherresponsibilityforwhatishappeninganimportantshiftof awarenesstakesplace. Shebelievesshealoneisreal,sheistheGoddess.Sheexperiencesthephysicalrealmsintheir entiretyandhasanelementalawarenessofthings.Thisisherpeakinlife.Sheisforcedto confrontherkarmicchainsandbecomesaslavetoit.Sheissuckedintothekarmashecreated andworkstobecomefree.Thisisanimportantperiodofservice.Shelearnstoreachoutto othersforgettingaboutherselfassheworksoutherkarma.Shehasbecomeamother. Sheforsakesthematerialworldandtriestoplungeintospiritualsalvationthroughlivingfor others.Toherhorrorthespiritualplanesaredeniedtoherunlessothersgivehertheirenergy. Shebecomesdependentonothers.Shestrugglestoescapeherkarmicbonds.Physicalsensuality takestheformofintensesorrowandphysicalagonyasshesuffersunderherburden.Lifeisseen asagreatsorrowthatbringsonlydeath.Theintensedisharmonyisnottolerableandshefearsfor hersanity. Inonewaythismaybeseenastheburdensanddemandsofmotherhoodandchildnurturing. Thereisabalanceofbothgoodandbadthingshappeningandsheischangedforever.

AdeptusExemptusDegree
Ifgivingbirthisaninitiationmotherhoodisanevengreaterinitiation.Watchingyourchildren growupandbeingthereforthemisverypowerful.TheAdeptusExemptushasmasteredbeinga goodmothertoherchildren. Heresheoffersmaterialthingstoherfamilywithoutthoughtofselforpersonalgain.Sheis fulfillingherkarma.Sheiscompassionandfeelingforthosesheloves,nothingelse.Sheis reachingouttoallthingswithinherhomewithnothoughtofself.Sheseeseverything,hears everything,andtalksconstantly.Sheistotallyconsumedbythisroleofbeingamother. ShelongsforthespirituallifeandrebirthoftheGoddessegobutthistimeinthemother aspect.Sheisdrawnuncontrollablytowardthespirituallevels.Asthelastofherkarmaresolves itself,herlongingflingshertowardtotalunionwithspiritualGoddessawarenessoncemore. Thisisfullrealizationofwhatbeingamotherreallymeans.Shebecomesamatriarch.Thereis aninterestingdistinctionbetweenthislevelasamaleandthislevelasafemale.Mostfemales attaintomotherhoodandtothisgradeofegodevelopment.Fewmaleseverreachtheir correspondinglevelofdevelopment.

MagisterTempliDegree
Ithasbeensaidtherearethreegreatstagesinawoman'slife.Thesearethethreefacesofthe Goddess,Maid,MotherandCrone.ForthemaletheMagisterTempliDegreeinvolvescrossing theGreatAbyssandthedestructionofthefalseego.ForthefemaletheGreatAbyssisentering theCronestage.Herchildbearingyearsaredoneandsheisknownforhergreatwisdom. Itisinenteringthisstagethatsheisabletodevelopastrongegoforherselfandfinallyturn towardherownneedsanddreams.Shehaslivedsolongforotherpeoplethatlivingforherself canbeastrangeanduncomfortablechange.Itisnewandnotcomfortable. Sheremembersbeingamaidandbeingamother.Nowsheisoncemoredevelopingaglobal perspective.Sheunderstandsfullywhatitistobeawomanandisabletohelpthoseyounger thanhergetthroughtoughtimes.SheisMotherNature. Shebecomesagreatspiritualseathatembracesallthetinydropsthatareothers.Sheisthe emptyspacethatsupportsthestars.Sheisanillusion,onlyrealthroughtheactionsofothers.She isillusionandallelseisreal.Shesupportstheentirecosmos.Sheseeksharmonyandstability. Sheisinseparablefromlife.Lifeisaction,sheisreaction.Sheisorder,Lifeischaos,together theycreateallthings.

MagusDegree
ItisinthisdegreethefemalereconnectswithherGoddessandspiritualnature.Sheregainsthe wisdomandinsightshehadasasmallchild.Shedoesthisbyoncemorebeingaroundsmall

children.Herchildrenhavegrownandleftthenest.Butshehasgrandchildren. Shefeelstheemptinessandcomestotermswithit.Thisisnotonlyadeathbutarebirthfor her.Sheletsgoofherchildrenandembracesherowninnerchildoncemore.Shewatchesher childrenbecomeparentsandstrugglejustasshehasstruggled.Aspainfulasitistowatchothers suffersheknowstheymustbeallowedtofindtheirownway. Whenaskedshehasmuchvaluableknowledgetoshare.Thechildrenreallyloveherandfeel closetoher.Thecircleoflifeiscompleteandsheunderstands.Herownchildrenneedtobe allowedtoexperienceandlearnthroughtheirownmistakesandefforts. Perhapsforthefirsttimeshecanunderstandtheneedfortoughloveassheinteractswithher grandchildren.Thefemalefindsspiritualitythroughthebiologyoflifeandlove.Itisnotan abstractspirituallightfoundinachurchorthroughprayer.Spiritualitycomesthroughthelove thatissharedwithfriendsandfamily.Itcomesandisgiventhroughahugorthroughserviceto others.Itiswarmanditbleedswhenitishurt.Thatiswhatspiritualityis.

IpsissimusDegree
Spirituallightisonlyaccessiblethroughthephysicalworldsandphysicalman.Shemust journeybacktothePriestesstobecomeachildbeforeshefindsfulfillment.TheIpsissimus Degreecompletesthejourneyofegodevelopmentforthefemale.Thecircleiscompleteand oncemoreshehasregainedherGoddessnatureandherspiritualpower. Inthischapterweexploredanalternateversionofegodevelopmentandspiritualitymuch differentthanwhatiscommonlyaccepted.Thispathisthepathofbiologyandphysicality. Itisthepathoflifegivingbirthtolifewiththechallengesandthejoyssuchapathbrings.The spiritualpathforthefemaleliesthroughthephysicalworldasmaid,mother,croneandleading todeath. Thisisapathoffamilyandapathofservicetohumanity.Thepathofparenthoodisnotas naturalforthemalebutitisjustasimportant. Oneofthethingsthefemalecandointhisdegreeisunderstandandhelpthemalesinherlife tounderstandthispathandlearntovalueit.Atthesametimehavingtraveledherownpathshe becomesfreetogainanunderstandingofthemalepathandgrowinthattypeofspiritualityas well. Insummarywemightconsiderthemalepathofdevelopmentasthepathofcreating somethingoutofnothing.Themaletakesanideaandmanifestsitinthephysicalworld.Thisis alsocalledcreatingheavenonearth.DoingthismakeshimacreatororGod. ThefemalepathofdevelopmentistobringGodsandGoddessesintophysicallifeandto becomeaGoddessherself.Herbodyhasthewisdomandabilitytodothis. Theironyisthatveryfewmalessuccessfullyreachthehigheststagesofegodevelopmentand spirituality.Theybecomestuckatsomelowerlevelandcan'tcontinue.Manyarenotableto bringtheirdreamsintophysicalmanifestation.NotmanymalescanbecomeGodsorcreators. Allmostallfemalescanachievetherolesofmaid,motherandcrone.Theycanfeelthepower ofmother'sloveandthesorrowsthatcomewithit.AllfemalescanbecomeGoddesses.Some justdoitbetterthanothers.Someareabletoachievethiswithoutgivingbirthtochildren.They

willgivebirthtofamily.