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JULIA KRISTEVA
for Lydia Uldry-Natchcva
myth of resurrection
1 haven't forgotten my mcther tongue. It comes back to me adrnit talking: with rnore and rnore difficulty, 1 hours' immerin dreams. Or when 1 hear my mcther then, after twenty-tour
when 1 listen, as through a stethoseope. to my own dual body and mind, For 1 don't dehnirively mourn the language of my childhood: that would imply decease, detachrnenr, a scar, a forcrypt, by
sion in that now distant sea, 1 find 1 can swim in it quite weil. Or again, when I'mspeaking a foreign language example Russian or English, for if I'm at a lass for a word or can't
that stagnant and decaying reservoir, I've built a new home: 1 live in it, it lives in me, and it's here that what 1 make bold to call "la vrai: vit," the true life of the rni.id and of the Hesh, unfolds. I fed the indescribable impact of the pearly mist that skims the Adantic marshes, absorbing as if inco swirls of Chinese silk the shrieks of the laughing gulls and the nonchalant maliards. Idream Apollinaire. From siesta of the of a spring when motor cars the vagueness which is my
remember the grarnmar, I clutch at the old lifebelt suddenly ' swept my way by the original source: it wasn'r so deeply buried after ali. So it's not Freneh that comes to the rescue when 1 f10under in what amounts to an artificial code, any more than when l' m suddenly too tired to add up or rnultiply properly : no, the language that rises to the surface. and shows me 1 haven't lost touch with my beginnings, is Bulgarian. And yet Bulgarian is alreadyalmost guage as far as a dead lan-
will be scented and poor horses will eat Hcwers. . own immersion in be ing, which no swift: word there emerges a sereniry an almast irnperceptible
can sum wp, for which "joy" is too ordinary and "ecstasy" too solemn, punctuated tremor tiers of my perceprions, reaches aut with Freneh words. From the rronto search for the Freneh dircetion. a bright mass of
rm
gradualiy extinguished as I learn ed Freneh. first with the Dominican Francaise in Bulgaria, then at university. Lastly, exile turned the old corpus inte a corpse, which it replaced with another body altogether, at first rrail and arrihcial, then more and more indispensable : and now the sole surviver. my only living language. is Freneh. Yet I'm almast prepared
word; from sornewhere high up, at the sarne time but in the opposite accumulated lava, a hoard of Freneh reading and conversation, sends down a luminaus thread that may be traccd. scented aut to give life to my sereniry, In the alchemy of naming. I'm alone
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with the Freneh language. To name being makes me be: and 1 live. body and so ul. in Freneh. But whenever it comes to narrative : whenever, in other words, being presents itself as a story a story perhaps abour that peady mist or those a great swell not made up malIard ducks, or of course about a dream, a passion. or a murder of words, but with its own special rnusic, (orces upon me a rnore ungainly synrax, together rnetaphors
Jn
annoy the natives. Those Whenever amphetamine frontiers the/re this anxiety of
of the counay
1 carne
1 carne to.
ic's like an air pockthe effects of an of the
itself 1 might tell you what such crearurc are like, these unclassifiable the heartbeat of a modern
tans arnong whom 1 count myself. For one thing. because or in spite of the pressures of immigrarion and inrerbreeding, also personily has managed its farnous lost values, As a result of this. they a new positive artiruele that is taknihilisms. More precisely, in ing shape in opposition to national conformisms and international relation to history as told by the newspapers, nationallanguag-
wich
which have
nothing
:1y
with Byzanrine
against Freneh the sarne -
:ly
at
[-
taste. Freneh taste is an act of politeness berween people who share the sarne rhetoric accumulation background of reading and of images and phrases, the sarne conversation
there are (wo ways of facing up ro Sarajevo and the Crimea. One is ro promote er is ro encourage protect migram such es and cultu res (I'il come back ro this). The othcertam species which, though monsters as ourselves, srill rare, are in the process of proliferating ; to
re
ly g
.e
an ancient
a sriil-vigilant
hybrid
forth a strange speech. alien to itsdf. belonging here nor' there, at once foreign and inriLike the characters in mate. memory
ing between two srools. Why? In order ro engender new ererures of language and blood who are rooted in no one language and no one blood diplomats wandering a nomadic a of the dictionary. genetic negotiarors. Jews of being. who chalIenge ali true citizens in the name of humanity that will no longer sit still come in. among ali
5. '1
It
temps retrouv
whose long years of voluntary Proust of space. 1 am a rnonster freak of the forum. At the intersection
':l :l
sees as embodied
of the crossroads,
And where does suffering these noble projects? elemerit of matrierde er tongue, lose that dreams, Thracian
that sedes out fans and then inserts emo~ional inte thern, and beneath of Freneh words, as highly polished stoups. reveals glimpsicons. Weil. it does whether gianr or though
tien, but my answer is only half ready. Theres an but if it has beeri painful
the honev
JULIA
KRISTEVA
ing an ideal first cherished by my native bees, To ffy hig her than swifter, stronger! one's parents did higher, that we're will have it must It's not for nothing our children though
transare
of the Wesi:ern world. Your are like dernands : your weep, your happy,
ho pes start out de pressed and falI asleep before even expressed , your songs anticipates sorrow; Although you 're not
Exile, painul
always be, is the only way left to us, since Rabelais and the fali of the Berlin Wali, of Iooking for what the Fifth Book of Pantagnd caIls the "divine
'j
soon you arrive too late, in a world too old but to be younger, For some unknown reason,
,:'Il
bettle," This vessei is never found except by selfconscious from searching, or in an exile exiling itself the exiles arrogance. and though a Freneh that of the memory, or the exile's certainrv, loss is never-endinp,
t"l
The
or none~ you think the world owes you a li"Ing: you want everyrhing, but you also wanr to doze, to laze, to avoid the issue, to beat about the bush and cheat, and rnaybe sornetimes to death, though hurt suffering.
2. ERRORS OF TASTE
transplant still-warrn
I go on listening to anorher pulse what I might call my mcther as one talks of one's mcther speak deliberately untary or unconscious
or native rnernory, or native tongue. I than involwords and of and is lucky because, hever-
of maternal.rather memo'y,
ing at the edge both of musical inexpressible the biological enough remernbrance srill-vocai throbs Gregonan childlike ities : lators
your place, 1 se e \"ery clearly the arrogance home to deal with the reality there words, as we alI know, to perform em from my own, though way round. thoughts imply curtain, democracy Your problem it operates
to be able to conjure up in Freneh. is a of suffenn"g. Bulgaria, my suffering. memory. a warrn, and news with inan-
sibl. And, after ali, your task isn't so very differis to cransplanr
iterns ; wirh stiffed leves ar:l open conflicrs; with chant and commercial affectio[;s puzzled and awfl economic, slogans; mob and violence : arnbirious devoid of
your native Language (which immediacely implies and lives) words (which thoughts for more and than immediatelv which b;" a other and lives ) from a century without
and ideological
citizens
brutes : with prorireers and slackers : wirh specuin a huny; with individualists cither shame or object to catch up withour and with alI of you how; you.
by an oppositional
icy
but resistance
who 've beeri left behind by history but are trying quite knowing invisible and undes.rable Bulgarians, a white blor
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wouldn't argue with anyone who aceused me of having run away from just this problem. They started Nathalie by translating Shakespeare and Kristeva Dostoevsky, then went on to Faulkner, Beckett, Srraute. Barthes, Foucault, (not much of her), and others too numerous to , mention. But they realzed there weren't enough words available, so they crammed in thinkers inte that modest language of sensitve peasancs and naive a who Ie arserial of roorless and insipid borrowings. The syntax became unwieldy, but the thought didn'c B.ow more freely; and what did they do but transpose papers reputed this esperanto for polyglot academics into the columns of newsto be "liberal," "culrured," and any good unless it's be ing "open" to curside inB.uence? What else can you do when nothing's "opened" to outside inB.uence? And that brings
mearit "the pleasures of the soul" as we experience thern in tbougbt and fee/ing. The Encyclopedia icself contains some celebrated articles on taste by Voltaire and Montesquieu, who reflected on the univers al laws governing its formation (based on the universality of human nature and on a shared history), and on the permissibility were bound of j; individual lapses or departures from the norm. to take a new
The Encyclopedists
stance: taste, for thern, is a rhetoric of recognition. It is necessary that l recognize myself. that you recognize yourself. and that we recognize (Church or (the ourselves either in some authority
rnonarchy, preferably both); or in an elite taken to represent the esseace of that authority court at Versailles); or in some individual value, derived from Christianity, that manifescs icself in the form of extreme spiriruality ity). Taste is the rhetoric or intense passensulby sion (Universal Reason or enlightened
us to the inextricable confusion presented by the press since the fali of the Ber/in Wall: On the one hand we have the insults of louts using the language of outs, to label as louts others equally Ioutish, but alI cornpletely devoid of the piquant audacity of the Surrealists: on the other hand we have the foreign words, scarcely even modified by a suffix, which dazzle a parvenu when he sees thern wrirten in Cyri.llic, but, to put it mildly, arouse pity in a stat eless person like me, and give a headache to what's said to be an only meder-
of a recognition
which the ego, centred on Authoriry, the clan, or an individual hypostasis. finds in the other the sarne language as he finds in himself accommodate Taste can difference berween the ego and the
other. if. and only if. that difference blends and for me harmony is like a pleasant B.avourwith the reievant Authoriry, elan, or individual, whereupon language. Taste is polite because it is addressed to one's own kind: those who share the same authority, the same elan, the same personal Bruyere, Svign, and Saint-Simon define taste Encyclopedists, values, La didn't need to the stanthe posthe two principles share the same
!). On
all
sides, errors of taste. That is the question. Does Don't be in too much of a hurry, In the eighteenth century, the Freneh ralked a lot abour raste. By taste they
sibility of a new kind of taste, one that adrnitted the notion of liberty and even allowed for the aberration of passion. These prerevolutionaries
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KRISTEVA
were among
the most civilized people: the Wesr in the baptisrery at St. court-
polireness.
the/re
an mront.
has ever known. Nearer to our own day, Proust, after losing his footing Mark's and stumbling in the Guermantes'
of a whole society.
"Ilpyrocr-ra
or much more
more simply, "ToH ce rpH)f(H aa CBOll HMHP;)K:' TOBa, 3HaeHKH TB"bpp;e nope acropas ra Ha pe aoJllOuHHTe, T"b)!(HaTa HCTHHa, 'le Te H311)Kp;aT CBoHTe p;eua, p;eMOKpaTH'iHHTe H360pn 6n Tp1l6BaJlO na 6"bAaT H3BeCTHa TIPEBEHUI15I, cpencrso aa crrapaae Ha peBOJlIOUHlITa c Hauie ro yxac'r ae B TlIX npeK"bCBaHe Ha yxcacs-
yard, set hirnse!f up as the explorer of errors of 'taste, laughing at the whole concept for the sake of literacure. the only authortry capable of preserving it. But things are different
1 i,
now, when
is crumbling
and the Mafia vies with free enterexists. In the absence of who, when is
i!l i I
"
prise. There is no authoriry, and netther community nor the individual these three references, the intellectual, inevitably one now,
lLI,/UOJ/C
like Proust,
be!ieves
in
literacure
enough to laugh at this state of affairs and press on. No one, or very few. I'd like to stress this apparently mlght have larnented vailing in the black marker: pensions ; the dustbins
vice versa,
Stop it! Please! [nvent words if :'ou like, but not words empty of the ideas you lack. Cut out sentences thoughts plicities, thcse culture based on foreign . synrax. express ing understand. try to irnitate to a baroque. Change your simthe old rudirnenrary you don'r but don't
the exorbitant
So fia ; the merging of soeialists with liberals. and which blurs everyrhing and makes all irnpossibie. But I'd rarher concentrate decision
on taste. If we begin
we'l
meet with larger ones on our way. I'm not at ali sure that if I were in your position I'd have been able to discover some authoriry, community, or person, and consequenrly would have from some kind of taste. But I certainly
irnitare other people at ali: they're just as difficult and unstable yourse!f: stock. In theorv I'm not against neologisms, so long so as they arise from an attempt shaped unique. thern carefully to at new thinking; produce confidence no graft will ever take on too weak a
tried to avoid words that didn't ernanate an individual courteous tion from others Without politeness.
the authoriry of a group, or from the charisma of enough to seek recogniwith the same words are no concerned
long as comm uni ti es of men and wornen have something based on the memory of their own lanBut I can't see
that concern,
guage and on suitable discussion. any of these communiries see this That's linguisric memory
more than odd foreign neologisms stuck at random tn sand not quick but dead '-- snobbish nonsense; high-sounding foolishness. Without
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I blindness; perhaps, being so far away, I don'r would be a Buc baric side co it, in countries Orthodox neofascism me ponder. 1 don'c belreve there is such a thing as an overali "popular psychology." I believe in the uni queNor do 1 hold religion behave. 1 in areas ness of the individual. alone responsible szeeped in folklore true of is a supreme that profess the
li
I,
I
if my suffering is justified, the errors of taste thar cause it are coneiusive proof of the surrender and subrrnssion ,world order human of a nation (one of many) co a new that would like co see the whole
3.
WHEN THE
DIO
especially
BALKANS
?
You suffer from indi-
You suffer from chaos, vandalism. violence, You suffer from lack of authority, corruption, indifference combined from lack of initiative, from general with unprecedented from the arrogance -of the Mafia
and in cum shaping history, does, among otherfactors, affect him or her, whether chological consciously not. It also exerts a major influence on the psyberween thern-
vidual brutaliry,
we hope to urure pass back and forth thern, in the form of conflices manifesting stubborn Thanks incornprehension faich and
and the shady schernes of the nouveaux riches. It's hard for the Wesc to imagine your suffering, your humiliacion. 1 hesitate to say 1 share chem: it's too easy co do that from a distance. But ler's say 1 do suffer because of the enorrnous task that faces us ali, wherher here or there, in the coming years: the task of thinking, why? Why is everyching Needless will 1 repeat responsbiliry like this? And then the task
selves at worst as wars of religion and at best as and incornpatibiliry, experience its latenr co my father, 1 was able co encounter
the Orthodox
power of resiscance. 1 love its sensualiry, its myscery, and the remeteness that makes us sense in world. it's not a perhaps and and its licurgy the joys and sorrows of another Ic also imbues us with the feeIing rational certainry this world. True, it's only an impression. an illusion, auspicious!
of finding out how co put it behind us. co say, 1 don'r know the answer. Nor what you know already about the of Communism or the shortcomin Bulgaria's early days: ever from the Turks in 1875, ic has of European
but how happy, how liberating 1 won't make a value judgmem of another. condirioned
the repercussions
ru
by
diplomacy and the effects of two world wars. On a rnore personal level; and since I'm talking about language, there's the question of mental artitudes. rnunist And I. like many other observers, note bloc seerns rnorc hopeless. prospccrs and perhaps with fewer a; more bar-
simply try co tell you how 1 see the advancages Orthodoxy, and co examine the extent of his or the moral crisis. harboured rnore two tendencies marked ever
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smce, national
and
which
believers, the Holy from the Farher and "and" puts of equaliry,
churches
Greek,
If
I
and so on). The two tendenries instrurnentalisarion and mysticism. By instrumentalisarion Ch~rch's dependence self-effacement This derves dependence which from
I refer to are
(Flr
Flium);
for Catholics,
II
Farher and Son on a footing the autonomy the individual Western Orthodox
foreof
(that of the Son just as much as which and suggests the way to the but personalisrn), a pieasurable
or even ourright
subservence. principle
1111:
Byzantine
II
according
trea sam an
1:
:Ill
by virtue of a saular act dererrnined by the prevailing policicai climate (whereas Rome clairned ro rule by diviru law): the basileus or Byzantine emperor Church religious intervenes in the affairs of the Church and in rerum the and there social stability a Christian and chooses the patriarch, "For
T
cour cella hirns unfa: abscc tualis deligi splm h,sych,; of ili, not p.: scieric Living mgencl heart c thing God," logical Apophas: theology, God. t"eion, G partlClp unobjec Becau religiow
1
and source. The Son is his servant, a colleague who nses above his servieude becornes caught and ("through") divine. At once subordmate the up in an exquisire offering and god-
can be no church without an ernperor": sinister ring when one thinks the Orthodox
this dic-
tum of the patriarch Anthony (1391-1397) has a---of the political have eritered culrnithe aliegiances churches
sorrows and, on a
plane, in male hornosexualiry, of the Son, religion descends sublunary world where Platoa f7..<manand social have not of or a "advantag-
into and the am of servilry they have perforrned in the rwentierh century. This' siruation nares in an identification of the Church with the Ages produced
Moreover; as a result of the exalted and exalting subordmarion nom the supertor nism located progranune. es" of
nation which in the Middle and Simeon alphabet), stran~ reductive appraising churches nineteenrh
young Slav states (as seen in the ives of Boris and the invention of the Cyrillic for the current and now is responsble
theologians through
shrunk nom stresslng the humamstic Orthcdoxy: celcbrares the Trinity Orthodoxy
ics docrrine
osmosis bawar:
rtligion and nationalism. The by historians played by the in the with ali
"God-universe"
even go so far as to say that "the T riniry is our social progranune" But we mustn't rejoice roo soon at this humanization of the divine. If it's true that human values are corruptible and subject of the value represem ro perversion. supreme value the ultima te doesn'r (God) the reduction
occupation
their fundamentalist
dangers, can be seen ali too 1 also mean as in Catholicism. cerram but in
clearly in the tragedy of Yugoslavia today. By instrurnentalisacion aspects of the Orthodox Orthodox Christianity Triniry. Cod is triple in
co human
trap of nihi/ism?
of th,
BULGARIA.
MY
SUFFERING
tk stron~st fonn
of
rion. and -even aboliton of the idea! itself ther aftirrrurion according authority
of
ture. "1 arn God who is not so:' The meet ing point .of the absolute juxrapositions philosophical counrerpart suecumbeci Mount mighr and nothingness. The ontodesire for total power and total poverty. These chaUenge Western theology. They might, in certam historical and circurnstances, ro the charrns act as a salutary of the monks of Ir ro it. It's easy ro see why Heidegger do es not invali-
God hmself (God is neither this nor thar, neinor negation, nor even "God;' of spirirual ro Gregory of P~);
(excepr thar which is instirutional): of thought. The Orthodox religfrom the outser : ir
and also of the do!, the idea, itself and so of representation, ion is a negarive theology sarne. God is not dead This reduction counterbalanced
treats absence of God and the unknowable as the he irnplodes into rnan, an inaccessible microrheos and microcosm. of the divine ro the human is by mysticism. Mari, who at once
collaborates with God and lowers Him, rnakes hmself divine by artaining direct access to the unfathornable: absconditus," cualise. ddights. This Orthodox mystery has man is a "Homo endless indehnable. irnpossible ro concepproduced
and mysticism, provicles the paranoid and rnasochistic sarisfactions kov, The Orthodox not encounter that Dostoevsky in his nihilisric characters, especially Raskelni-
of love" (as Maxim the Confessor caUed ir) canhistory individual terrorisrn terrotism sharters the conrernplarion delighrs. while stare for inability ro verbalize
and lack of educarion and opportuniry, On the other hand. the symbiosis of the T nniry in Orthodoxy dead" impossible. While ro prodaim rnakes Nierzsche's "God is How can He be dead, when into "me"; "God is dead" is probablv dangerous and
perhaps impossible as an act; yet ir has preQccupied the West. stealthily, ever since its Greek. biblical. and evangelical since the nineteenth origins, more openly cenrury. The phrase itself
address es the Ideal, the possibiliry that man may have Values; but it is also imp lied in Europe's Catholic and Protestant from Nietzsche past. The philosophers. who have studied ro Heidegger.
Because of the obvious benehts of this kind of religious experience, I run the risk of promoring
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JULIA
KRISTEVA
Subject.
tionships pleasure.
with original
and
But not an abo/ition of vals: a/tog!th(1: was a response ro a phase of this in the sixteenrh century, but of the West as a asceticism, .crisis that occurred
We of the Orthodox victonous nihilism. be, it leaves us defenceless porary history, if indeed "public layabours," ues have been imploding out, transcendence. goes on, -
But delightfl
in the face of conternit doesn't rum us into years, valcancelledin us, and we at once
who le, and saw pmstination as a kind of unease towards methodicallabour, pressed Protestant professional success, and scicapitalism. The
entific research. All these were signs of election. into service by rising ethic, even in its narrowest Puritan
lament and enjoy this imrnanenrized, outside history history Corrununism Iuck, though
We have piac ed ourselves an act of excessive virtue, But and after the digression of
of the mystery of
the T rinity, It is an improvernent God). The secular, Masonic, gates of Protesrantism atternpr to abolish it. The Nierzschean
to destroy, the urge towards the Ideal (or and esoteric surroagainst any are based on the preserva-
now calls to us. But do we really want to rejoin it? As nihilists, we feel we have beeri "had." That is the cause of my suffering, and I can't see any way our, Bulgaria, my suffering. Don'r think I'm not serious, and don'r say I've said what I haven't said. No, It's too late point in your converting to Protestantism. the awful truth to Catholicism no or even
differenc path: it aimed at examining of the Ideal and its underlying sible relationships "superman,"
capitalism which you'd like to join, God is dead, And ler's try neither to ignore nor to exploit this world. Let's nerther hurl ourselves greedily on its untenable values nor decry them. Rarher let us take part in their transmutation. We might be gin with quite simple things, By setting ourselves pher texts the philosophers, ine ourselves: to read, for example, writers after in general. our to deciTo comthe Greeks, the Bible, the Gospels, We might also exarnown autonorny, Try out of the why
means a "public layabour": he is, rarher. a "subversion" of rnan, a rebel excavating the archaeology ofhis Orthodox tical sentanves autonorny, own essence, rnan instrumentalised He and myscannot measure up to these two repreof moderniry, the hardworking lacks the asceric the bookin sobriery,
seeking salvation
the wrirten word ( the Bible) and in the city (the He also has the philosophical distance of the fanatical, Nietzschean, dissociating hirnself from God and spending nearly three cerituries refming the emblems of the Ego Cogito in order to envisage differenc rela'. I
ment, discuss, understand. look desires, and dignity; lyzed, take a course
.,:;./
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no
BULGARIA,
MY SUFFERING
not
others,
too?
unfarniliar, Thomas
though
their crisis
15
ori a much
smaller scale, SO there is no direct link between Manns journal and my own notes. Except perhaps that both texts are wrirten from a position at once within and without, and both express anxiery at an upheavaI whose ravages hit us plainly and head-on, but whose consequences remain hidden in the future.
Redisoover a sense of values ; e.xpress thern, transform thern, leave thern open,. never stop renevaring thern ... It's going to take a long, long time. Bulgaria, my suffering. My arrerition has beeri called to a well-known text by Thomas Mann: a journal he kept during the Nazi regime, when he was living in exile, It's called "Gerrnany, My Suffering." Mann sees the tragedy of his country from both within and withour, and while he condemns the shame of Hitlerism he is also aware of the furve complicity the majority of Germans fele for the man Reich they didn't hesitate to call their "brother Hitler:' The violence and barbarity of the Third has nothing Empire in common with the collapse of
rnorals and politics in the forrner Communist a collapse with which the Western dernocracies, shaken by so many scandals, are not
KRISTEVA is professor at the Universir de Paris VII. An intemationally known psychoanalyst and criric, she is the chief proponent of "semanalyse," a term she eoined to name the discipline blending serniorics with psychoanalysis. Her many book include Bkk Sun, Strang= to Ournlws, and NCVoJ Malad~s of tlx ScuL BARBARA BRA Y was bom in London and edueated at Cambridge University. She has lived for the past thirry years in Paris as a freelanee writer, ericic, and translarcr. JULIA
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